Army of One

🎶 If you want the morning, I’ll open every blind,

I’ll walk you to the water and I’ll take my time.

But if you choose the darkness, I can’t live there too.

I can’t be your shelter from the storm you run into.

But I can drive you home, I can hold the line,

I can pray like thunder, I can beg the sky.

But I can’t want it,

I can’t want it for you.

I can hold you through the night,

Wait it out until it’s through,

I can whisper every hope,

Name the truth you’re running from, too.

I can love you, I can stay,

’Til you say you want it too.

But I can’t want it,

If all you want is nothing, I’ll give room where you can leave it.

But if you want a place that isn’t loud or fast,

👀 That’s random.

I don’t think I can give a simple answer to that but I’ll try.

It’s the letting go. Not every patient gets better, no matter what you do. Sometimes you just have to sit with them, hold a hand, and be enough.

It’s not just the emotional weight, though. It’s the exhaustion and missing time with family too.

I know you didn’t ask but…

Bleeding, shaking

But I’m not faking

This time, I’m waking—

I’m coming back

Even if I come back broken

So I locked every door in my chest. Buried my hope and laid it to rest.

But you..

You saw past the mess I made. Loved me in all my broken ways.

I can’t keep you, but I can’t let go. You’re the only thing that ever felt like home. I’m tearing down the dream we made to save us both from more heartache and pain. It’s killing me to set you free, but staying’s killing both you and me. I’ll say goodbye, but you need to know… I can’t keep you - but I can’t let go