because

Unfortunate ly ik still alive

Until now, i still fewl uttsely hopeless.

Still here with depression

Living is ???? What i dont need to do that

Im so stupid cause im starting to cut again i fricking relapsed oh my god im. STUPID AF

Honestly I'm so freaked out cause of all these horny boys in the PH and I want *** beside me so he can protect me and tell Me everything will be ok and so they could back off !!!! I only get hit on here in the ph cause apparently i meet the "beauty standards" (basically looking like Chinese or Korean)???? HONESTLY I D O N T I'm ugly af but they scare me when they follow us and say hi and compliment stuff and i should just say thank you but I don't want to entertain them and make them think I'm interested , And I used to just be able to walk around at night without worrying and I thought I'd be ok like that here again but because of these horny af boys imma just.. Stay away and maybe cry... Is2g I'm being such a coward but I have 0 exp with anything about guys

I want to vent so much about my love for *** but,, it might be too weird,,?? sighs

I want to be worth something to you!!! It's such a selfish request because there's millions who wants the same but I want to be the reason why you smile, the reason that makes you warm, the reason that keeps your head high, the reason that makes you not want to give up; but then again, I can't do anything, I'm just a fan

Hello I want to die and I hate myself and I'm never good enough and nothing matters and I can't find happiness

I'm a fucking idiot for believing that I'll be happy with you but YKNOW what I'm still finding small reasons for possibilities that I can be with you