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And she told me it was a month ago when at that time I didn't even affirmed for that so like bitch time really is an illusion and reality is literally bending to my will and it's fuckin amazing

You want something, you decide you have it, you don't care if you see the opposite and you don't take personally what you see in the 3d and boom you do have it!

You don't have to watch all those coaches, all those tiktoks, read all those blogs to find an answer you don't really need

Ofc you can if you want or if you are just learning all this, but for me when I got sucked into this rabbit hole it only made it seem harder, it just messed with me when I already knew what I had to do 😭

You are the answer, you are the question, you are the source, you are everything!

I’m gonna manifest my soulmate who will be perfect in every way for me but not now because I’m not ready yet

I’m gonna focus on making my life fun and on myself for now 😋 and I felt like he was lowkey blocking me and was triggering me way too much SO I’m doing character development arc now 😝

And lowkey I got over it pretty fast, I mean I let myself feel the feels and let it all out but not because I lost him and I could never get him back but because something ended, like this was the end of an era for me

And since I'm source I know my life is goated anyway and I know I could have him back if I wanted lol but he was just a reflection of my old self concept and I'm done with that so I'm starting FRESH

Being source is crazy because if I wasn't aware I would probably be depressed for the next few months

I was always whining that aww he didn't do this, he did that to me, he's such a dick, why everything sucks for me and I'm so unlovable blahblahblah

But I've worked on knowing that I am the source of everything and it just finally clicked. Ofc he was being like that because I just kept this version alive with all this complaining and repeating this identity. Ofc I am mad at him for all this but who made this mess? Me. Because of my old assumptions and because everything comes from me.

And I've already been saying that I am source I am the creator in my earlier posts but today it REALLY made sense to me and I realized that I can just as easily fix it if I just finally drop the old story I don't want and really stick to the new better one! The external can't validate me and no one has free will besides me and it just clicked for me fr

It's so freeing to finally realize that I have control over my reality and no one else 😋

And I just snapped out of it literally a moment ago because I was watching some loa creator on tiktok and I was scrolling through her page and my head started to hurt a little and I kinda started to make myself watch those videos if they showed up on my fyp because "what if they say something I didn't know and it will enlighten me?" And later I was thinking I had to watch all those videos to understand more and to finally be the "master manifester" and I was like hold on ✋

I literally know what I have to do, I know how to apply the law, I know the law, I understand that I'm source, I know what I say goes. So what am I searching for? I know everything I need to know. I manifested a lot of things already. Why do I watch all of this as If I was a beginner?

So I'm done with watching all those tips and tutorials and everything because I just started to feel overwhelmed and I already know everything I need to know and what I need to do is to just make a decision and be locked in with that

Also I wasn't really present recently and I realized that I don't even know what I want, I don't know what my dream life looks like so today I'm doing a full blown rebrand and I'll finally stick to that. Also I'll do a mind movie on canva because it seems fun ^_^ It will be like a vision board presentation thingy lol. I think it will help me collect and organize my thoughts with what I really want to experience

Remember it's okay to have ups and downs in your journey! We are constantly brand new and evolving and growing and everything is still in your control no matter what!

So in the past two days I locked in with the affirmation "I'm living my dream life" and I'm really locked in with this because for the first time I'm not looking in the 3d for proof or care about circumstances I for real decided and I'm sticking to it no matter what and I'm really feeling it internally. And last night I had such a freaking long vivid dream that was soooo goddamn symbolic and just made so much sense with my life rn and my manifestation journey! I woke up in literal shock, flabbergasted if you will. Like I know that something shifted in me and I'm transforming and my life is undeniably changing.

In my dream I bought a train ticket, but there was no confirmation yet because it would come tomorrow so I was terrified of being checked. Even though I had no proof in the moment, I knew I had already bought it. And when the ticket inspector confronted me, everyone on the train stood up for me lmao and instead of being punished, I was given the chance to prove it later. Seem familiar? The ticket already existed but the confirmation hasn't caught up yet.

Also throughout the dream, whenever something happened that matched my desired reality, I would tell myself, "This is true." But whenever something happened that I didn't want, like getting a fine on the train, I kept repeating to myself, "This isn't true."

ALSO I wanted to text my bf yesterday but I hold myself back from doing that and in my dream I tried calling him but it kept not working out and he just bumped into me by himself. And guess what, he texted me a couple hours after I woke up even though we had a couple of days left in our break but I knew that he would text earlier I literally almost shat my pants when I saw the notification. I mean he didn't really changed yet but I didn't reacted as strong to his dumbass thinking as I would a week ago.

Also there was a dead black cat I almost stepped on and then a moment later the cat was alive so I think that symbolised that my past identity died and my new identity came to life.

Like I finally chose what I want and I stuck to it and my consciousness, subconsciousness whatever it is changed instantly.

I decided to only stick to that one affirmation because of a loa content creator on tiktok Sandal! I asked her for advice and I just finally trusted myself. And I'm feeling that everything is fr changing and it's just so crazy for me because it's really working. Despite my wavering, despite my doubts, despite my feelings.

Reality is bending to my will and it's happening so fast and I'm so excited to keep updating you guys!!

Those things may not seem really exciting but I'm still so happy I'm so good at manifesting now and I'm just getting started 😝 also they're not always exactly 1:1 of what I wanted yet but they're pretty close so I know I have made progress to not getting anything or getting it after a longer while.

SO some things I manifested recently:

For starters my bf texted me on snapchat answering to snap I sent and also he answered tiktok I sent him to keep our streak even though we're not supposed to text at all because we're on a break sooo ig someone can't live without me 👀👀👀

Seeing a pink car, though I wanted to see the beetle kind pink car but the one I saw was also small and the exact same color so I still manifested it 😛

Getting randomly complimented, I was trying some stuff on and my mom and sister said I look pretty

Coming home from the park because I was tired and after I thought it my mom immediately said we're coming back and I was like 😮

Getting rid of the wind, well me and my bestie were on a beach and it was super windy and kinda cold so I started affirming that there's no wind and it's warm and it didn't really stop when we were there but after some time when we were waiting for the bus it stopped and it was hot so ig it still worked 🙄

And ALL of those things I got in the same day I affirmed for them (except the first one because I decided stuff with that situation a while ago) so ig you can call me Master of Manifesting 😋😎

And I'm so happy because just a week ago I thought I can't manifest at all so it's just proof that everything can change so damn fast!!

It's so fun because I can literally use it for everything because I AM everything!

I love my life sm now because it's only getting better and better now

Active and vibrant social life

My life being generally more fun and eventful

Personality change to being more bubbly and positive, also people seeing me as a ray of sunshine

Also being outgoing, confident and having good social skills ( I want to get rid of my anxiety and awkwardness)

My bf understanding some things and apologizing to me

Also having my dream relationship with him and him being his ideal self for me

Since I have perfect self concept now I'm gonna focus on those things ^_^ ofc I'm still gonna do self concept affs from time to time since that's my identity now so it's gonna be just my thoughts now tbh. But I'm already perfect and there's nothing to fix and I'm everything there is in my universe and I've come to understand that more deeply!

It's just easier now to stay in the new identity and not to get triggered as easily because it literally doesn't matter, you're literally just this character and you don't have to identify with anything you don't want because you are source!! You choose and you have control!!

I saw this quote on tiktok "We are not humans realizing we are source but source realizing we are not humans" (I don't remember by who I'm sorry!!) and it's really resonating with me

I just know now that my desires are inevitable and guaranteed so I don't have to worry anymore, it's done. Just stay in the identity and everything will work out <33

And that I have to take accountability that I made this reality that I hated but I'm not angry at myself or anything because I was doing what I knew at the time but I grew and I know better now <3

If I made the life I hate in couple of months I can make the life I absolutely love in even less time since I know that I have control

And I'm not holding any resentment to my past or anything because everything I've been through made me come to this point in my life now and I'm so grateful for that <33

And my life is only getting better and better now

And I only today really locked in with my self concept and there's already something!

I'M SO HAPPY!! I felt stuck for so long already!

And I think it's perfect because I can still work on stuff peacefully in this time but it won't be as long as a fuckin month 😵‍💫

AAAA I'M SO EXCITED!! I just had to lock in and it's only the beginning!!

I will be listening to this playlist once a day because I'm tapping finally into my full potential and higher power and I'm actually too lazy to say affirmations all the day long because I've noticed that it's only burning me out

And I realized that this is my reality and my rules so I can just listen to these subliminals while doing something else or just sleeping and it'll work :3

Ofc I won't be contradicting it because it wouldn't make sense if I listened to this and then go around saying that I'm terrible at manifesting and that I'm powerless and stuff like that, I will stay in this identity that I am the source and the best at manifesting

So I'm kinda doing the lazy method because I'm a little depressed because of everything but I don't want to postpone it again, and feelings don't matter when manifesting so I can be sad for a while and still get my dream life!

I know I know its my assumption but I literally manifested that the last fuckin hangout with my bf will go so good that maybe we even won't go on a break but it literally went in the worst fuckin way possible and it's all my fuckin fault

I literally was so sure it will be fun but It was the literal opposite