I just had an epiphany
The whole fuckin time what was blocking me was the ego. It was blocking me from being consistent and sure of what I want
The second my boyfriend pissed me off I just threw away my manifestation away because I was too mad and I was deciding that he can kiss my ass and just fuck off. It was just too much for me but I realised it's just the ego. Like it was just doing that out of the spite to him because why should I put this effort if he's being an asshole not worthy of me?
And then it just clicked for me, if you don't want him like that then why do you keep choosing this version of him? Because the ego clings to that version just so I can keep getting mad at him because he was an asshole to me and I just can't deal with it, because it was easier to argue with him and be pissed at him than letting it go and persisting into the better version, it felt better to keep letting out my frustration and clinging into this anger than choosing a new identity where I'm loved and prioritised and he's the best boyfriend ever.
My ego kept choosing the familiar hell rather than the unknown heaven.
But then I realized that I am source. I'm more than my anger and feelings in general. I don't have to keep letting my ego win. I just have to persist in the new reality because I don't have to be stuck in this shithole
I can choose a different version of everything because I am limitless and I just have to let go of the unfavorable version no matter how uncomfortable that is.
I am finally choosing the unknown heaven because I deserve this and even more <33
Love y'all ππ














