Oakley

shower. not a bath, a shower. use water as hot or cold as u like. u dont even need to wash. just get in under the water and let it run over you for a while. sit on the floor if you gotta.

moisturize everything. use whatever lotion u like. unscented? dollar store lotion? fancy ass 48 hour lotion that makes u smell like a field of wildflowers? use whatever you want, and use it all over. 

put on clean, comfortable clothes. 

put on ur favorite underwear. cute black lacy panties? those ridiculous boxers u bought last christmas with candy cane hearts on the butt? put em on.

drink cold water. use ice. if u want, add some mint or lemon for an extra boost.

clean something. doesn’t have to be anything big. organize one drawer of ur desk. wash five dirty dishes. do a load of laundry. scrub the bathroom sink. 

blast music. listen to something upbeat and dancey and loud, something that’s got lots of energy. sing to it, dance to it, even if you suck at both.

make food. don’t just grab a granola bar to munch. take the time and make food. even if it’s ramen. add something special to it, like a hard boiled egg or some veggies. prepare food, it tastes way better, and you’ll feel like you accomplished something. 

make something. write a short story or a poem, draw a picture, color a picture, fold origami, crochet or knit, sculpt something out of clay, anything artistic. even if you don’t think you’re good at it.

go outside. take a walk. sit in the grass. look at the clouds. smell flowers. put your hands in the dirt and feel the soil against your skin.

call someone. call a loved one, a friend, a family member, call a chat service if you have no one else to call. talk to a stranger on the street. have a conversation and listen to someone’s voice. if you can’t, text or email or whatever, just have some social interaction with another person. even if you don’t say much, listen to them.

I got the collar!! It's kind of hard to see, but it's a leather collar with metal dog bone studs. Until I look at myself in a mirror (instead of the awkward camera angle), I won't really know if it looks good on me :P.

Here's a better photo:

Also, I never ended up getting a nametag. I was really far from home, and in a kind of sketchy neighborhood. I was also carsick from the bus, and overall pretty exhausted. I just wanted to go to the park by my house and relax :3.

I got the collar!! It's kind of hard to see, but it's a leather collar with metal dog bone studs. Until I look at myself in a mirror (instead of the awkward camera angle), I won't really know if it looks good on me :P.

It's less of a resolution, and more of a set of goals for myself.

For college, I want to completely be my true, authentic self. I want to be open and proud about my alterhumanity.

I'm not going to dull myself down for anyone. I'm not going to tone back my opinions. I'm not going to try to play Switzerland. And I'm going to be proud about my alterhumanity and wear my damn collar to class.

Edit: Somehow it's out of stock after I bought it 😔.

Edit 2: It's in stock at another store in my city :D!

Edit 3: I have the collar!! I'm going to find a secluded place that I can put it on so I can take a pic!

I ORDERED IT!!! I'm SO excited. I'm going to pick it up later today :33.

I also got the last one! Last night I was really worried that I wasn't going to get it before the first Seattle Area Alterhumans+ meet.

Also, somehow my neck is 14in [~35.5cm] around, which is size 'small'... which is for dogs that are 11-15lb [~5-7kg]. I'm 5'5" [~156cm] and weigh 140lb [~63.5kg]. Wtf 😭.

It was getting long, so the rest is below the cut:

I went to petco and found a collar I really like, but it was too big 😭.

They said to come back tomorrow or saturday :,3.

(And am very nervous about it)

I'm going to walk to petco later today, buy a collar, and get a nametag that has my name on it. I'm a little nervous about that, but no one will know.

What I'm really nervous about is getting "it/its" under my name. That'll really turn some heads.

I also don't have a good excuse on why I'm putting prounouns on my "large mega-mutt named Oakley"'s dog tag 🥲. The only thing I can think of is saying it's a running joke in my family... (help).

I'm gonna post a pic once I buy it!!

Also, I might chicken out and only put "Oakley" on the nametag. Depends on what petco's process is for nametags (if they can even do custom nametags).

Overall I'm SUPER excited :33!

Edit: Apparently tag engraving machines are usually self serving! That makes me much less anxious about getting my pronouns engraved :33 (Thanks @/thetadelta!!)

Edit 2: I probably won't be able to go tonight. Something came up, it's already dark, my local Petco is in a sketchy area, and I don't have a car (it's a 30 min walk from my house). I'll make sure to update y'all tomorrow!!

Edit 3: Thank you so much for hyping me up!

Edit 4: I am mostly worried because I’m scared that one of my classmates works at Petco 😓