your eating disorder is telling you that you need to be “more sick”, when in reality that itself shows you are sick. healthy people do not desire this.
your eating disorder is going to convince you that being smaller will make you feel happy and satisfied with yourself. you will not. not even slightly. it will forever tell you it wasn’t enough, and you’ll eventually be on your death bed still unsatisfied.
the people around you telling you that you need help or that you are dangerously underweight aren’t lying to you. your eating disorder is fucking with your self perception. these people have no reason to lie about stuff so serious.
you want kids one day? if you stay malnourished you’ll lose that chance. not only that but if you do get lucky and have children without recovering, you’re going to pass this painful disorder down onto them due to unintentional projection.
your eating disorder is convincing you that your body is eating it’s own fat. your body is actually eating it’s own muscle. what else counts as a muscle? your heart. you can and will cause heart problems that could be avoided. don’t wait to have a heart attack to wake up to the realization of needing to recover.
i know you can’t control it. if you could no one would pick something so painful and brutal to deal with. 1 in five people will die from their eating disorder. 20% of all eating disorders result in death.
think about how you could’ve spent so many years not being miserable from this and going out with friends and eating cake on your birthday and not letting it consume you. you deserve to have cake on your birthday.
you’re gonna think i’m wrong and say “this won’t be how i’ll feel though”, but you’ll be the one wrong. i used to think people who made these posts were full of shit. the harsh truth is that me along with all the others telling you to wake the fuck up are not lying whatsoever. get out while you can, this will never be worth it and you will never be happy with yourself if you stay stuck in the loop.
skinny ≠ happiness.
it never will.





















