tori, Spock enjoyer

sometimes i think about how my nonbinary friends prefer being misgendered the way thats not their originally assigned pronouns. because at least its a different sort of wrong than the one they’ve been stuck with every day before finding themselves.

right now im thinking about how spock just wants something different, hes too vulcan for humans and hes too human for vulcans but hes been too human for vulcans his whole life and by being a green-blooded, pointy-eared alien on a ship, surrounded by humans and even openly racist humans who call him slurs-AHEM AHEM mccoy looking at you COUGH COUGH— at least his vulcan side is being acknowledged and belittled instead of his human side.

sometimes i think spock intentionally eggs mccoy on at times, his usage of logic that makes mccoy feel small, although i dont think spock means to make mccoy feel small i do think that he recognizes certain actions trigger mccoy’s hatred for vulcans. i think it does something for spock. hed rather be a vulcan and deemed cold and logical and unfeeling and called slurs by humans than be viewed a human by vulcans and deemed emotional and weak because thats what his whole life has been spent experiencing.

i think kirk plays a beautiful role in his complicated feelings about his heritage. kirk is accepting of spock and how his brain works and his half-human and half-vulcan ness in ways nobody else on the enterprise is. you see kirk in a lot of ways not categorize spock into a species binary the same way others do, you see him know that spock is emotional, and know that spocks logic and cold clinical demeanor is a mask, and even play with it at times, smiling when the mask falters.

yet simultaneously kirk is gentle with him, he doesnt push spock when it matters. when he knows it would be too far in any manner. sure, kirk is human and gets angry at spock’s detached nature- but i think that that anger is just as much about kirk knowing its a mask that hurts spock, a mask that spock refuses to let go, as it is about the behavior itself. kirk allows spock to be spock, human and vulcan, and doesnt point out or make jabs at him like mccoy does, he smiles and asks teasing questions to try and tell spock “you’re safe with me.”

you even see when spocks parents come on board and disrespect spock, kirk stands up for him without even knowing those are spocks parents, he talks back when they dare insult his *first officer* because how dare they? that science officer is my malewife ill have you know, you stuck up vulcan guests.

It's so fitting that the first line we actually typed on a typewriter for the zine was, "It had to have been near the very beginning--"

Here we are, near the very beginning of constructing the actual physical zine, but this first typed line already represents months and months of intense behind-the-scenes work from the whole team.

Our project has 60 active contributors from twelve countries. And every one of them have been pouring their heart and soul and creativity into something truly special. It's a perfect tribute to 60 years of Star Trek history.

Our ideas for the zine are starting to take shape. There will be page after page after page of amazing art, running the gamut of sweet, sexy, silly, and serious. There will be numerous incredibly written pieces to make you think and make you blush, and gorgeous illustrations to go with them. There will be meta, there will be calligraphy, there will be Vulcan calligraphy, there will be romance and humor and queer joy and history and inventive alien dicks. There will be several pages specifically designed as something that could not ever be properly enjoyed online. And it will be real; in real life, in the real world, in your own two hands.

Coming later this year. Stay tuned.

Here's my fifth fanart for @fanartfrenzy, inspired by Spock Lovemail's awesome fic A Lack of Color. The prose here is lovely and I fell in love with the descriptions of mind melds, particularly the one in chapter 6, the one that this art is based on. I also adore the Kinth, what a unique, non-judmental and curious alien species. I want to be as full of awe as them experiencing a sandwich (and that's in the fic too!)

For this spirk christmas exchange organized by @cadetmisty , I had the privilege of getting @goodforwho !

⛵🎆 WHAT IS IT? ✨⛵

The people who brought you Live Long and Pinup and Spirk in a Cave are back with a Shiny new Big Bang Spirk Event!

This time around we’re getting comfy. We’re getting cozy. We’re taking some well deserved time off. It’s time for our fanfic writers and fan artists to show us what the crew gets up to during their down time.

Welcome to Shipboard Weekends! 

What is a “weekend” on a Starship? That’s entirely up to you! Do they have 5 days on and 2 days off or is there some other system entirely? It’s sci fi - you make the rules!

A starship is like a small town in space. We see people doing their jobs, but the crew also live there full time. This event is a chance to show us what life on the Enterprise is like when Kirk and Spock aren’t at their stations. 

You’re welcome to use any iteration of Spirk: TOS, TAS, TOS Movies, AOS Movies, or SNW. They all deserve some quality off-duty time.

New to fandom? We're here to welcome you! All you need is a love of Spirk and a desire to create.

⬇️Full event details below the cut.⬇️