Who Doesn't Love Supernatural?

I spent this whole time thinking Dean was panicked because he and Cas got separated, they were running out of time, the fruit thing, fighting about Mary/Jack, blah blah blah...when ACTUALLY Dean was probably having flashbacks to the last time they were in purgatory, the last time he thought he left him there, lost him there....like not “no no no we’re running out of time” but “no no no, it’s happening all over again....this can’t be happening AGAIN. I can’t leave him here AGAIN.” He knew Cas could hear him there because he prayed before (“every night” remember?) and Cas heard him. But he didn’t pray his location, didn’t pray their time was running out, he prayed about his FEELINGS. He couldn’t risk having to leave Cas behind for a second time and him not knowing how he truly felt. That he was forgiven, and he had to fight his way back to him. He couldn’t leave him there having him think AGAIN that he “belonged there” for “penance” because of what he “did wrong”(like the leviathan thing). THATS what made Dean Winchester drop to his knees...and why he looked more than just relieved when he finally found him....and I—I just—