Was the very first thing Satoru heard when he opened the door after your sharp knock. His glasses sat crooked on his nose, white hair messy from running his fingers through it all evening. He had expected his girlfriend to maybe, idk give him a hug or kiss after a long day?! but nooooo. You had other plans, clearly.
You pushed your way into his dorm without waiting for an invitation, and Satoru stood there dumbly for a solid three seconds, mouth half opened, before he closed the door behind you with a soft click. Then you grabbed him by the neck of his sweater and yanked hard, tugging him by the collar into his bedroom. His big frame following behind you obediently, his voice coming out in a stuttered mess.
"ba-babe what's w-wrong?"
As you backed his big body into his bed, your pretty manicured fingers hooked into the waistband of his shorts and tugged at it along with his boxers. Your voice rang out again. "You heard me Toru. boxers off." You pulled them down and his thick cock flopped out already twitching with interest. And by the time you settled on top of him, you had one hand on his cock, stroking it impatiently to life and with your other hand, you tugged your panties down. They were already soaked with the sweetness of your cunt. When they were off, you balled them up and shoved them into Toru's mouth, gagging him.
He was already whining, his cock sensitive from your rough handling. Precum slicking your palm as you worked him, then you lifted your hips and began to sink down on his cock, not wasting anytime to tease. The fat pink mushroomy tip of his cock notched at your hole, pushing in as your cunt stretched to take all of his hardened length.
With your lack of patience, you took his cock with little to no struggle, usually there would be a struggle, but you slid down. Sitting on every inch of that thick girth. He mewled weakly at the feeling, the muffled sound vibrating against the cotton in his mouth.
Then came your interrogatory questions.
"Ignored me yesterday? huhh asshole." Your eyes sharp and locking onto his bright blues with anger in them.
His face screwed up, maybe a little annoyed that you called him "asshole". He groaned, shifting on the bed a little, trying to adjust himself more comfortably.
"aah- i didnft, bahbe." Muffled and unclear, his words came out. You didnât understand what he was trying to say.
You rolled your eyes and pursed your lips into a pout at his feeble attempt at explaining himself. And just grinded down on his cock. "Yeah, you ignored me, Toru." You said again firmly. "Saw my messages and didn't even send a text back."
He looked at you like he was in pain and he tried to talk again, but the panties muffled his voice. You reached two fingers in and tugged them out of his mouth. Finally able to speak properly now, he said "No babe, I didn't! I was studying... for that calc test, remember."
He sounded so pathetic, your pussy squeezing him nicely, around every vein of his trobbing length. You frowned, hands planted firmly on his chest, now.
"Is some test more important than me, your girlfriend?"
Fuck no. He screamed silently in his mind. How could a test ever be more important than his girlfriend's perfect pussy swallowing his cock right now he thought. "Hm toru?" You huffed again, breaking his attention, rocking down on his cock for emphasis.
"Fuck no babe" he blurted out. "Nothing's never more important than you, ever"
That response earned him your fingers digging into his shoulder, you lifted up and then took all of his cock again in one smooth drop. His hands flew to your waist now, he wanted to thrust up into your puffy cunt, drive his cock in deeper. Hoping to fuck into your tight gummy walls.
You saw that pleading look on his face. His eyes glassed over with need, you were still annoyed, so you shoved your panties back into his mouth before he could repeat another desperate, 'sorry'. You were gonna use him good, cause he didn't deserve to speak freely right now.
Your hips rolled slow at first,savouring the way his thickness split you open. Every ridge dragging along your walls and you could feel him throbbing inside you. Hot and heavy. His muffled whines pushing the fabric between his teeth. His fingers dug into your waist, but he didn't dare take control. Not when you had that fire in your eyes.
You leaned forward. bracing your hands on his chest again. your nails scratching lightly over his skin. you started bouncing, proper on him. The wet slap of your bodies filling his dorm room, each drop of your hips, took him to the hilt. Your cunt fluttering around him, squeezing like you wanted to milk him dry.
"You think studying is an excuse, Toru?" You asked between breaths. your voice low and sweet but edged with that annoyance. "I sat there waiting for one little text. And you left me on delivered."
He shook his head fast, Eyes wide and desperate, the panties kept him from forming real words. Only desperate sounds escaped. "mmph-haah-please."
You smiled at that, Mean and pretty. Then, you reached back and grabbed his balls gently. Rolling them in your palm while you kept riding him hard. his thighs trembled under you, cock twitching violently inside your heat. You knew he was close already, always your sensitive, pretty boy.
But you weren't done.
you slowed down again, grinding in circles. Letting his tip kiss that spot deep inside you that made your toes curl. Your own pleasure built slow and hot, moaning softly. Letting him hear how good he felt even when he had been bad.
"My perfect boyfriend can't even spare thirty seconds for me?" You cooed, tugging the panties out once more so you could hear his answer.
"I'm sorry, babe. i swear i didn't mean to," He gasped out immediately, voice wrecked. "Was buried in books and lost track of time. Your messages... fuck i saw them later and felt like shit."
You clicked your tongue, shoved the panties back in. "Too late for sorrys now, Toru."
You rode him faster, chasing your own high. Clit rubbing against his pelvis with every grind, pleasure sparking up your spine. His hands slid up your sides. Thumbs brushing the undersides of your breasts through your shirt. You let him because it felt good. Because even when you were punishing him, you still craved his touch.
His muffled cries grew louder, hips jerking up to meet you despite trying to stay still. you could feel him swelling inside you. So close, and you clenched around him on purpose, tight and rhythmic.
"You're gonna cum inside me," You told him, voice firm. "And you're gonna thank me for it after."
He nodded frantically, tears of overstimulation gathering at the corners of his eyes. You lifted up almost all the way, then slammed back down. Once. Twice. Three times, then your orgasm crashed over you first, walls pulsing hard around his cock. Soaking him with your release, crying out his name, sharp and sweet.
That pushed him over. He came with a broken whine. Thick ropes of cum flooding your cunt and spilling deep while your body milked every drop. His whole frame shook under you. big hands gripping your waist like you were the only thing keeping him grounded.
You stayed seated on him for a long moment, catching your breath. Feeling the mess between you, his cum leaking out around his cock where you were still joined.
Finally, you pulled the panties from his mouth and tossed them aside. You leaned down and kissed him slow. Tasting the faint trace of yourself on his tongue. He kissed back eagerly, desperate and loving.
"Don't ignore me again Satoru," You whispered against his lips.
"Never again, babe," He promised, voice hoarse, his arms wrapping around you tight. "You're more important than anything. Always."
You smiled soft now. The annoyance melted into warmth and rocked your hips once more, lazily and affectionate. Feeling him twitch inside you even after he had finished.
The night was still young and you had plenty more ways to remind him exactly who always came first in his world.
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you don't mean to sound accusatory but you're so caught off-guard that you can't help but ask. your not-yet boyfriend is sat beneath you with his eyes screwed shut and bottom lip still caught between his teeth.
he shakes his head no in such a quick manner that one of his hairties come loose. a rosy pink blushes his nose and cheeks and you canât quite tell if itâs from embarrassment or the fact that he literally just came in his pants from kissing you.
you werenât even grinding on him. sure, you were sat in his lap and were more than aware of the hardening bulge beneath youâbut youâre so early in this relationship that youâre not even sure you can call him your boyfriend just yet, so you obviously werenât going to address his boner regardless of how badly you wanted to feel his dick pulse against you.
okay so maybe you were grinding on him a little. chasing just enough friction to remind yourself of all the good things in life, like choso and his abnormally large cock that you hope to one day soon feel so deep it's practically in your stomach.
"i didn't," he lies poorly. "i just... sneezed."
"you didn't sneeze."
"i did, it was a silent one."
"like a silent fart?"
"no! god, just... i need a minute, okay? to clean up."
you sit down a little more firmly against choso's cock, which is still so rock hard that you almost wonder if he didn't actually cum in his pants. you know an orgasm when you see it, though, and the way choso basically moaned like a whore once he got a taste of your lips left nothing to the imagination. he came alright.
"you need to clean up your silent sneeze?" you tease him, pressing another kiss to the corner of his lips. "are you lying to me, cho?"
"will you break up with me if i say yes? i'm embarrassed." god he looks gorgeous with this hazy post-orgasm gloss to his eyes. his lips look swollen from your kisses, and you decide you want to keep him like this until he's old and grey and too fucked dumb to ever move.
"can we even break up? are we dating?" you ask, and drag your clothed cunt along the length of his sensitive cock for good measure. "you never asked to be my boyfriend."
choso looks offended. "but- but you just..."
"what, made you cum with a kiss? i've about earned the right to call you my boyfriend, right?"
he nods frantically and, without meaning to, bucks his hips up to meet yours a little better. you can feel all of him now, rock hard against your most sensitive spots even with a few layers of fabric between you. you wonder if lust-induced hypnosis is real and whether or not you're a victim of his wiles.
"it's settled then," you nod. "you want help cleaning up?"
"uhh..." choso hesitates. he didn't think becoming partnered meant sponge baths, though he doesnt think he'd deny you the opportunity, or himself the experience.
"a blowjob, choso. i want to clean you up. with my mouth. this is dirty talk."
You have him laid out on your guysâ couch, legs spread, and hands tied behind his back. You were working your fist over his red, leaky cock, trying to pull yet another agonizing orgasm out of him.
âItâs okay, babyâŚâ you coo as you cup his balls in your free hand, âYou can do it, just give me one moreâŚâ
His head falls back against the arm cushion, his chest rising and falling with rapid breaths.Â
âFuuuuuckkkkâŚâÂ
He looks so pretty like this.
Covered in his own fluidsâŚthighs shakingâŚit made you want to ruin him even more.
âBabyyyy,â he whines, looking down at you, âI donât think I canâŚâ
âMmmâŚyes you can, cause youâre my good boy, right?â
His eyes roll as another pathetic whine falls from his swollen lips.
âOhhhhh shiiiitâŚfuck!â
It really wasnât fair. You knew how bad he wanted to please you, willing to twist himself into knots to see that pretty smile of yours.
You stroke him faster, tightening your fist every time it passed over his fat head.Â
âNnnghhhhâŚâ he lets out a high-pitched moan.
His thighs clamp shut as his hips move side to side, trying desperately to escape your grip.
You let go of his balls, pushing his body flat against the couch.
âDonât run from it.â you hiss, digging your nails into his skin.
He gives up, his thighs spreading wider as he finally feels the deep numbing pressure building in his groin.
âIâŚIâŚâ he looks at you, making deep eye contact as his eyebrows furrow, his mouth falling into an âoâ.Â
Heâs so close, he can feel his balls tingling, trying to produce just a little more.
âCâmon ChoâŚCum for meâŚâ you flutter your lashes at him and lean down to suck his tip into your mouth, swirling your tongue over his slit.Â
He chokes as he watches you slobber all over his cock, your mouth working in time with your fist. Despite the pain, he canât help but thrust up, needing to bury himself as far as he can.
You gag when he manages to push a little too far, your throat clamping down around him as youâre forced to swallow.
Thatâs the last push he needed.Â
His whole body tenses up, his ears ringing as a wave of heat rushes over him.
âAHH! AHH!âÂ
He crashes down violently, loud, whiny groans falling from his parted lips as his cock kicks weakly against your tongue, tiny pathetic spurts shooting into your mouth.
âUhhhhâŚUhhhhhâŚF-FuckkkkâŚâÂ
You moan and pull off to spit it back onto him, letting it drip over your fist as you slow your hand. Even after you let him go, heâs still twitching, sweet moans spilling from his lips.
âYou did sooo goood for me babyâŚâ you purr as you watch his body tremble.
He swallows thickly as his eyes focus back on your face. Youâre giving him that same look that got him into this position in the first place, and he can only smile back, his entire body buzzing and sweaty.
âMmmmâŚshitâŚâ he barely begins to calm down when youâre on the move again.
He watches you stand and drop your panties, his eyes widening.
âNow itâs my turnâŚâ
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You have him laid out on your guysâ couch, legs spread, and hands tied behind his back. You were working your fist over his red, leaky cock, trying to pull yet another agonizing orgasm out of him.
âItâs okay, babyâŚâ you coo as you cup his balls in your free hand, âYou can do it, just give me one moreâŚâ
His head falls back against the arm cushion, his chest rising and falling with rapid breaths.Â
âFuuuuuckkkkâŚâÂ
He looks so pretty like this.
Covered in his own fluidsâŚthighs shakingâŚit made you want to ruin him even more.
âBabyyyy,â he whines, looking down at you, âI donât think I canâŚâ
âMmmâŚyes you can, cause youâre my good boy, right?â
His eyes roll as another pathetic whine falls from his swollen lips.
âOhhhhh shiiiitâŚfuck!â
It really wasnât fair. You knew how bad he wanted to please you, willing to twist himself into knots to see that pretty smile of yours.
You stroke him faster, tightening your fist every time it passed over his fat head.Â
âNnnghhhhâŚâ he lets out a high-pitched moan.
His thighs clamp shut as his hips move side to side, trying desperately to escape your grip.
You let go of his balls, pushing his body flat against the couch.
âDonât run from it.â you hiss, digging your nails into his skin.
He gives up, his thighs spreading wider as he finally feels the deep numbing pressure building in his groin.
âIâŚIâŚâ he looks at you, making deep eye contact as his eyebrows furrow, his mouth falling into an âoâ.Â
Heâs so close, he can feel his balls tingling, trying to produce just a little more.
âCâmon ChoâŚCum for meâŚâ you flutter your lashes at him and lean down to suck his tip into your mouth, swirling your tongue over his slit.Â
He chokes as he watches you slobber all over his cock, your mouth working in time with your fist. Despite the pain, he canât help but thrust up, needing to bury himself as far as he can.
You gag when he manages to push a little too far, your throat clamping down around him as youâre forced to swallow.
Thatâs the last push he needed.Â
His whole body tenses up, his ears ringing as a wave of heat rushes over him.
âAHH! AHH!âÂ
He crashes down violently, loud, whiny groans falling from his parted lips as his cock kicks weakly against your tongue, tiny pathetic spurts shooting into your mouth.
âUhhhhâŚUhhhhhâŚF-FuckkkkâŚâÂ
You moan and pull off to spit it back onto him, letting it drip over your fist as you slow your hand. Even after you let him go, heâs still twitching, sweet moans spilling from his lips.
âYou did sooo goood for me babyâŚâ you purr as you watch his body tremble.
He swallows thickly as his eyes focus back on your face. Youâre giving him that same look that got him into this position in the first place, and he can only smile back, his entire body buzzing and sweaty.
âMmmmâŚshitâŚâ he barely begins to calm down when youâre on the move again.
He watches you stand and drop your panties, his eyes widening.
âNow itâs my turnâŚâ
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synopsis: streamer!choso has a pervy crush on his dorm neighbor: the schools sweetheart!reader
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summer felt wrong without you.
he tried to ignore the silence of being in his room instead of the dormitories--really, he did. he did so much as to fill his schedule with games, streams, scrolling through reels, anything to keep his mind from wandering where he know it shouldn't but damnit, he missed his next-door neighbor dearlyÂ
it wasnât like the two of you were friendsâno he didnât miss you like that, he missed seeing you in that skimpy little school uniform just a few rows ahead of him, flashing that beautiful smile of yours as you laughed with shoko when you got confused, your skirt riding up those pretty soft thighs when you shifted in your seat, the shimmery pink of your lips and god how pretty you looked when you applied your gloss. Â
and he knew you were out of his league by miles and miles so he shouldn't bother noticing things like that
but what he missed most wasn't even class
it was living next to you in the dorms
seeing you rush into the hallway to grab some water in nothing but your short little sleep shorts and a white tank top that showed your pretty perked nipples through itâgod he hated himself for it, he really did! he didnât ever want to make you uncomfortable because he really did care for you!Â
and he hated this part of himself
you trusted the space you were in, comfortable and safe
and here he was, memorizing, watching, listening to things he had no right to.
he'd run his hand down his face trying to force his mind to anywhere but you but--it never really stuck
he doesnât know when it started, whether it was when you first talked to him in class with the same warm smile you wore for everyone elseâor if it was that night
the one he should've forgotten about but god it was all he could think about
he had been up late cramming for a physics project, papers scattered everywhere the only sounds that late usually were his notebook pages flipping and the occasional frustrated groan until he heard it--
soft broken breaths muffled through the wall
he told himself he was hearing things until it got louder, needier
"...shit," he breathed out staring at the wall--your shared wall
he should've put headphones on, went to bed, anything! but instead he crawled into his bed with his ear against the wall you two shared--his heart pounding with every small sound that so barely slipped through
god, he imagined what you looked like trying to chase that high all by yourself when he knows he could make you feel so goodÂ
how pretty you probably looked with your desperate fingers fucking in and out of you, your other hand probably squeezing your tits, pinching at your sensitive peaks desperately, chasing a wave of pleasure he knows he could so easily give youÂ
he pictured you with your lacy bra just barely pulled to the side with pathetic tears streaming down your face, riding into your own hand with your thong just pushed to the sideÂ
fuck.Â
he shouldn't be thinking about you like this
you--who smiled at him in class, treated him like everyone else, who made him feel seen, who had no idea what was running through his head right now
a desperate whine came from your side and his room suddenly felt too small, too hot
"m'sorry" he said breathlessly into the air as he tugged his boxers down, almost tripping over himself as he eagerly ran to his bed, laying with his ear practically glued to the wall to hear as much of you as he could, wrapping around himself slowlyÂ
another muffled whine came from your room and he couldnât hold back anymoreÂ
his head tipped back against his pillow while his hand fisted around his straining cock, pumping himself teasingly, rubbing his puffed tip smearing pre all over his pretty pink tip, already dripping all over his abdomenÂ
âahh-ahh fuckâm'sorry y/n--m'sorry!â Â
tears streaming down his face as he pushed himself through it, listening to your voice through the walls--he looked a pathetic beautiful mess
âf-fuck pl-pleaseeââ he whined into his quiet room, a choked cry following. his brain felt like it was short-circuiting and the only image it could think of is the one he was hoping to one day be on top of one dayÂ
and that was the night it started
the night he stopped trying to pretend he didn't need you
--
now he may have felt like a pervert, but you werenât much better over the summer
the day you found his livestream you clicked on it immediately without thinking, sure you'd seen him in class with those sexy nerdy fucking glasses, and the way his plaid pants hung a little too low when he lounged around the common room
you wanted to get to know him, he was your neighbor after all, so you figured maybe this way you could get to know some of his interests, or more of who he really was, not that quiet boy in the back of class who had a clear strain in his pants every time you even looked his way, not that you minded, you found it adorable
so you spent the summer watching his streams and everyday you watched you felt yourself wanting to know him more, to talk to him, to have him. so when school rolled back around you wasted no time, he would be yours in at least some way this year, because god knows you were tired of watching girls thirst over him in his comments, and of trying to reach your peak with your pathetic toy: he'd do much better
you hadn't meant for it to get this bad--but you weren't really complaining
what started as pure curiosity at the beginning of summer turned into something you couldn't stop--an addiction
because choso was nothing like what you expected
sure you knew he was quieter, yeah and a little awkward at times, but there was something else too. the way he focused and furrowed his brows with that stupid eyebrow piercing he gave himself, how he mumbled to himself as he played talking the viewers through his gameplay--and god was it attractive
you told yourself it was harmless at first--background noise while you kept yourself busy to get to make a new friend! but instead it felt like you were watching him.
you started paying attention to the little things
the way his glasses slipped down his nose when he leaned in to focus, the way his voice dipped slightly when he got tired, and how his shirt rode up just enough when he stretched to cover what you wanted to see most
and you realized it had become a problem when you noticed the comments
something you didn't expect to bother you
it wasn't like you knew him or had any right to be jealous, but you couldn't help but roll your eyes at the comments pointing out things you had already noticed
"he's so cute"
"is he single???"
"say my name on streammm"
all of them fucking annoying--they didn't know him like you did
even if your definition of knowing him wass just watching him on stream night after night, or talking to him briefly in class, or seeing him walk into his dorm late at night
it still felt like something to you
so by the time summer ended you weren't just curious anymore
you were set on it.
on him.
--
"hey!!" shoko chased after you in the dorms "you ready for tonight? welcome back party at toru's place!" she wrapped her arms around you excitedly, but your arms were wandering, hoping the room arrangements would be the same as last year
"helllooo y/n c'mon what's up" she snapped in your face playfully with a laugh "seriously, you good? you seem like, dazed--are you high?" she whispered
"no-no no no sho! sorry i'm just trying to see the room arrangements but yes, party tonight got it!"
suguru was waiting across the hall with a cigarette resting between his lips glancing at shoko
"now i thinkkk you have someone waiting for you, maybe those frat hookups weren't nothing" you teased shoko and nudged her lightly with a laugh as she rolled her eyes and left you for suguru, which was perfectly fine with you because you had a gameplan for your first week: get to know choso!
now his gameplan was a littlee different, he had spent the last week of summer researching the best ways to please you, emotionally and physically, so he didn't disappoint you when he finally had the chance.
he paced around the dorms hoping they'd still be the same just to see you lounging around in the common room, in those baggy jeans that hugged your hips just right and that tight tank top that showed you off, fuck you were beautiful--and he couldn't take it! he rushed into his dorm room and slammed his door before you could've noticed the pink of his cheeks or the bulge in his pants, and that's when he heard a faint knock
"choso?" you called out softly from the other side of the door
fuck.
so sorry for the long hiatus i was in such a writing slump and got so caught up with life, this is my first time doing anything 18+ so pleaseee be easy on me LOL but leave tips if you have any MWAH <3
How easy was it to have the mightiest, the most frightening and stern God wrapped around your finger? Easy, apparently, because Hades, God of the Underworld, a gloomy, lone figure, so powerful as the oldest one of the three brothers, was nothing but a whimpering mess for his dearest Goddess!
part of the Gods, Heroes, Warriors collection! :: part two
pairings: Hades!Choso x Aphrodite!Reader
content/warnings: Ancient Greece AU, mythological settings, lots of plot and lots of smut, super pathethic Choso, yearning Choso, size difference, cunnilingus, pussydrunk Choso, fingering, whimpering Choso, tummy bulges, mating presses, breeding kink, creampies, happy ending, dominant reader
WC: 11k because I'm insane
a/n: firstly, sorry for the break, but I was on two weeks winter holiday and didn't have much time to write something this long! secondly, this one's not very mythologically accurate, considering that Hades was with Persephone and Aphrodite with Hephaestus, but wait, I HAVE A VISION. Bc imagine the most beautiful, desirable goddess AND introvert, hidden, shy God of the Underworld <333
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Wine was flowing like a river into the golden cup that you've held. Laughter filled Olympus and the small feast the gods decided to hold "just because". It was quite an usual event, although the moment Dionysus came and filled cups with his ambrosia, the next mornings were difficult to remember, with always a new lover, usually a demigod, lying in your sheets. Feasts with him were always dangerous, but ones without â impossible.
Apollo, no, wait, Gojo, his name was, played on his lyre in the background, and muses hummed softly. He smirked once, and a moment later, white locks were touched by an ocean breeze and golden rays of the setting sun. His hand went towards one of the nymphs, cupping her reddened cheeks gently, already drunk on sweet wine. Such a womaniser he was, and although most of the Gods slept with one another as they wished, Gojo was truly special â a troublemaker and a genuine gentleman at the same time, even fumbling through your bed more than once.
You looked behind, seeing gentle waves glistening under a golden sky, with darkness slowly setting in, before the only thing you could see was a white foam lightened by the pale moonlight. God of the Sea sat happily and relaxed, talking Zeus's ear off. It was a good dinner, indeed, while most of the Gods and demigods feasted in the embrace of the warm summer evening.
You turned back, seeing Gojo looking at you, smile sly and gaze slightly dimmed, as if drunk on constantly flowing wine. You heard Zeus bickering with the God of Wine over his attempts to alcoholise everyone, but his voice alone wasn't quite clear either, with golden hair already slightly messy and white robes sliding down muscular shoulders.
"Aren't you just a womaniser?" You hummed, already seeing the glimmering bottom of your cup and Gojo pacing towards you. "Leave my nymphs alone, or I'll be the one listening to their cries about your mischievous promises."
He scoffed, sitting down next to you and clinking your cups together. "I've never promised them anything aside from having fun. None of them ever complained." He settled comfortably, a hand behind your back and a lone finger caressing your bare shoulders slowly, slowly. "Who are you taking home today, hm? You know I'm free ifâ"
This time, you scoffed. "Forget it," you took a sip, never asking him to keep his hands off you. It was nice. He was nice, but there indeed wasn't much chemistry between you two when it came to sex life. "We're not good lovers. Besides, a little dove whispered to my ear that you've been having an affair with a mortal," You stopped, glancing at him with a smile dancing in the corner of your lips. "A male mortal. Prince of Sparta Geto Suguru, from what I've heard. Such a beauty, isn't he?"
Gojo laughed quietly, his eyes following your cunning smile. "Isn't your birdie quite well-informed, hm?"
He seemed taken aback, almost wanting to hide his secret affair from the prying eyes of the Gods. But he didn't know that nothing could have been hidden from you, and little, white doves flying above the skies of the mortal world, maybe following him here and there if you were bored and amused enough to watch his secret romance with a Spartan prince bloom like a pristine flower.
"What? Getting jealous? I thought God was above it."
He snorted, eyes glued to something, someone, over your shoulder.
A dark figure, sitting quietly among the most powerful Gods, one of the three brothers ruling the three dimensions of this world. The "Unseen One", a grim and ghastly man, as if mute and solemn, always in the dark corners or ones barely flustered by candles' gentle tongues. Everyone knew he was there, but rarely glanced towards him, as if ignorance was the only way to handle one of the three most powerful Gods in all of Greece. The one having power over the domain so dark and eerie, mortals prayed to never meet him directly, as if bathing in Tartarus was more pleasant than standing face to face with him.
Hades.
"You also have an admirer, I see," Gojo murmured, while you looked back.
Your eyes met with panic.
Not yours, his.
He looked absolutely terrified, with a glance so flustered and lost, as if your attention alone was the absurdest and scariest thing he could experience. His stare escaped quickly towards his two younger brothers, before, just for a second, it slipped back to you again â your lips and breasts, wrapped tightly in pinkish robes and soft hair caressing your cheeks, reddened like a wine and flushed in a smile.
You indeed had an admirer. For a long time now.
"The oldest one, but also the most peculiar, don't you think? He looks a bit miserable." Gojo hummed to your ear, sitting so close you could feel his sweet breath on your ear. The man in the corner moved slightly, looking between you and the other God with a little frown and eyes so anxious, a small chuckle escaped your lips. "And so jealous!"
"You know, that you've just insulted one of the strongest Gods, right? Also, he has quite good relations with three sisters." Gojo shrugged his shoulders, as if a vision of his thread of life being cut didn't scare him in the slightest. But you, he, and every other God in this feast knew that if thereâs anyone Gods and mortals should be the most polite and thankful to, it should be Hades.
Because what could be better than being on good terms with God of the Underworld himself?
"So that's why you haven't slept with anyone recently?"
You hummed softly but didn't answer.
And it was true that as a Goddess of Love, Beauty and Fertility, quite... a few lovers have stumbled through your sheets. All of them just for one night, with both mortals, heroes and demigods always wanting more, but never having a chance with a Goddess herself.
You also never wanted anything more from either of them. Never needed, but just a few gentle touches and charming words whispered to your ear, maybe a thrust one or two and a spasmic tremble of their body, while you were left quite satisfied but never fully.
Gojo was a fine lover, good even, but he was too, well, overpowering, you would say. Too confident, always in control, such a tease, with nymphs hanging off his shoulders and sheets dirtier than you could imagine. He was a fun person to be around and sleep from time to time if you were extremely bored, but⌠well.Â
He didn't know how to handle you as a Goddess. Worship, like a plain mortal, so pathetically and desperately down on his knees, creaming all over his pants just from your one glance.
But you knew a man who could do it.
Because he was always there, in the night sky and quiet wind, within a soft flickering of the candle and moonlight coming to your chamber through a window. In the seeds of the pomegranates that were left in your temple â your attribute, a symbol of desire and fertility, almost as if he wanted to be noticed, let you know that heâs here and has been for a long time.
Hades, no, Choso, a God of the Underworld, barely showed himself up here in Olympus, almost always down in his realm of death. He wasnât very social, if it was the correct way to describe his rare appearance during all the Gods' gatherings, be it a feast or holiday celebrations.Â
He avoided every meeting as much as he could, but somehow appeared every time he knew you also would be there. And during the feasts, he would sit at the table for the highest and mightiest, but always keep himself in the dark, even if the sun shining upon Olympus couldnât be any brighter.
You glanced at him once again, noticing little nods he gave Zeus and lips curling in a barely visible, timid smile, before he chuckled. And you could swear that softness of his voice was the reason your throat tightened around the swallowed wine.
You coughed, bringing his attention, a worried gaze, and a hand, almost, slightly reaching out to you, before he hid it once again in the wide sleeve of his dark robes.
âIsn't our beauty already drunk?â Gojo cooed, patting your back.Â
Wine spilt all over your robes, leaving a dark stain on your half-bare breasts. Gojo chortled, his hand too touchy and too close to your lower back, while Zeus sighed deeply, almost disappointingly. It was hard to see him not disappointed in Gojo and all the troubles, orgies and affairs he was always getting himself into.Â
Gojo was still patting your back before something stopped him.Â
Someone.Â
Choso stood up at some point and came closer so quietly, you didnât even notice him leaving the table. Just a hint of greaminess filled the atmosphere, with hushed voices and faint whispers of the demigods and nymphs, glancing upon a looming figure bathed in darkness.
Your coughing stopped, but warm tongues of flames scratching your skin were suddenly dimmed by a tall man with dark hair touching his shoulders and cupping pinkish cheeks softly. Dark eyes, filled with so much concern it made your stomach turn, looked down at you, with surrounding them purplish circles, giving his handsome face even more earrines. Your gaze slipped to his long earrings swinging lightly with every step, one of delicate shell and the other of snake, so opposite to one another but harmonising so beautifully, you couldnât help but feel a pang in your heart.
But. Wait a second.Â
Wasnât a shell an attribute ofâ
âHere,â you heard a low voice, and the next second, a black handkerchief was extended towards you. âYou can use it to, um, to clean yourself. Itâs black, so i-it wonât leave aââ
Oh dear god.Â
How pitiful he looked, with eyes running between your face and breasts, cheeks flushed in a cherry, such a contrast with his deadly-pale skin, and long fingers holding on to a handkerchief with a slight tremor. Â
You were terrified to even think of the face you did at that moment, but Gojo's elbow brushing yours and his silent cough told you that your eyes may or may not have changed into two small hearts, beating furiously at the sight of the pathetic God standing right in front.
Gojo wanted to take black material himself, but Choso's gaze was so strongly fixated on your trembling figure (not with dreadfulness, but a desire you've never felt before!), he quite literally was afraid to break such a precious moment.
So he coughed again and stuck his elbow even harder, before you finally noticed a fair palm extended to you.
"Oh," you muttered, taking a handkerchief and wiping your dirty clothes immediately. "Thank you so much, my Lord."
He shrugged visibly, nodding his head and looking at your plush breasts, soaked in reddish wine and coated in your pink, almost transparent robes.
And you, as a Goddess of so many beautiful and fertile things, were mostly known for one thing â your sexual appeal. Greeks loved to sculpt your body almost naked, rarely dressed, but even if, always in skimpy robes and translucent garments. Some presented you wrapped in a golden girdle, a myth and a gossip going on around the mortal world, of the belt whose wearer could make anyone fall in love with them.
It was funny at first to even think that the most beautiful Goddess needed a mere accessory to seduce her admirers. But the gossip turned out to be so appealing, you decided to create such a belt and give it to Hera, for... well, seducing the highest and mightiest of all, of course.
But you've never used it yourself, keeping it only for your friends and demigods, maybe sometimes water nymphs, who used your accessories to play with mortals and some heroes. It was fun, safe and without any commitment.
But you?
Choso gulped, a droplet of sweat forming around his temple as his eyes couldn't leave your drenched skin, too bare and too soft under flushed material, to have every other God around see you in such an harmless state.
Maybe he was hallucinating or maybe not, but you stood up, slowly, confidently, with breasts almost falling from your already too skimpy robes. Knowing his eyes followed your body, you glanced at him with such a stunning smile and a hint of foxy craftiness in your glimmering gaze, he almost passed out.
Literally, because his knees gave out, and the long scepter was the only thing that saved him from complete humiliation in front of the whole of Olympus.
"I'll clean it and return, my Lord. Maybe you could give me a hint or two regarding navigating the Underworld, hm?" You said so quietly, he may have been the only person who had heard your honeyed voice.
He could swear it was as sweet as your body, which turned out to be definitely too close to his, spreading a fragrance of fresh roses and an ocean breeze, stuck to your flowing hair and velvety skin.
But how could a Goddess like you even think of going down to his grim and mournful domain, filled with nothing but eeariness and cries of descendent souls, left at his mercy. "No, my G-Goddess, you shouldn'tâ"
"I insist." Your voice was firm and touch even firmer, almost burning his creamy skin, when your fingers brushed his bicep and gripped it lightly.
Only now you've noticed a delicate, black stripe spread on his nose and rosy cheeks, almost hidden under the muted candle's light, but visible enough the moment you closed the distance, suffocating him with yourâah, too close, too close, too close.
"My Goddess, I'm afraid you're tooâ"
But how could he push you away when his body betrayed him so clearly? Your hand on his bicep, plump breasts almost grazing his dark robes and flushed cheeks raised to meet his furrowed brows, oh so lost in your sweetness and a soft giggle, which already sounded like the most graceful melody.
Saying he was tall would be an overstatement, but stating he was wellâbuilt would be a pure untruth â his muscles trembled under your small hand, but you could feel their sturdiness. You caught how tight the dark robe was around his shoulders and the way it perfectly fit his muscular back and veiny forearms, peeking from wide sleeves.
He clenched snowish fingers on a long scepter, looking anywhere just not at you.
And when you touched your wine-wet breasts with his handkerchief, it was over.
He couldn't handle it anymore, so he did what every other wise and powerful God would do in the presence of a lustful and most beautiful woman walking on this Earth â turned on his heels and ran away.
"I'm sorry, my Goddess, I need toâum, I truly need to g-goâ"
And he went indeed.
With such a hurry and a shade of delicious apple you've never seen spread on his face before, the only thing you could do was stand still and stare at his broad back slowly going down from Olympus's peak.
"My, my," you've heard a whistle and a second later, Gojo stood next to you, with a face not much different from yours. Flushed, stupefied, maybe a bit more amused. "He really is a lost cause, hm? Maybe calling him miserable was an overstatement. He's the most pathetic God in this Pantheon."
You inhaled heavily, feeling a warmth coiling in your belly, so familiar but at the same time intense, you've tried to remember the last time it felt as pleasant as now.
Hm, never?
"You're wrong," Gojo glanced at you with a raised eyebrow. And his amusement was even higher when he saw this weird look in your eye. Delight? Lust? No, loâ "He's pathetic for me only."
Days were passing by, filled with responsibilities mostly.
You've spent your time on listetning to worshippers â young girls, future mothers, women praying to bestow them with fertility, couples wishing for productive sexual life â and devoted sunny afternoons to bathing in the warm sun dancing on Olympus.
It was your favourite time of the day, so the moment your feet dipped into the crystal water, a blissful shiver ran through your spine, soothing both mind and body with a delicate touch of the waves. Nymphs surrounded you like ducks, dipping their heads in the pool and chirping among themselves like little birdies.
Your open bathhouse sat at the top of Olympus, built encircled by creamy columns, growing tall as trees, scratching cotton clouds with a serene feeling of quietness.
Small stairs led directly to fresh water, warmed by gentle rays of sunlight and glimmering on the velvety skin of playing nymphs.
Your statue stood right next to the open pool, tall and proud, almost naked too, representing which God this place belonged to.
When your body finally dipped fully, and eyes closed in ease, a faint sight escaped your lips. Sun rubbed your skin as you slumped against the poolâs wall and took a deep breath of the air dripping with an ocean breeze.
One of the nymphs slouched next to your naked body, her eyes looking at you with awe and curiosity, before she asked softly. "My Lady, my Lady, wasnât Lord Hades quite rude to you last time?"
Another one swam closer, peaking at your body like a gem, something so beautiful and precious, no one deserved to touchâ no, maybe even look at it. "Thatâs right, my Lady, doesnât Lord Hades lack in manners? Heâs never gonna find a wife with such a temper!"
You chuckled first, but the second sentence seemed to pique your curiosity. Your eye opened, glancing at a few nymphs floating peacefully around.
Such silly and adorable creatures they were, quite coquettish if they wanted to, and you understood why Gojo seemed to have a soft spot for them.
"And why would he need a wife?" You murmured, a strange feeling coiling in your belly.
One girl hummed, as if wondering, long hair flowing on the water, golden like wheat.
"My Lady, Iâve heard Lord Zeus talking to him about this. It seems like thereâs a woman called Persephone and quite interested in Lord Hades she seems to be."
Your lips immediately fell flat in line.
Persephone? Isnât she just a small sprat living under her mother's wings? What in the world could she want from Hades himself?
"Zeus said that, hm?" You mumbled, but didnât listen to the rest of what Nymphs had to say.
Wife. Wife. Wife.
Why the hell he needed a wife?
You juggled this question like a mantra, like a woman obsessed, although there was truly nothing to be obsessed with.
That night was still vivid in your mind when Choso left the feast in a hurry â speechless and with ears burning like fire. The picture of his face was stuck in your memory, so lovely and pathetic, haunting you every night till the first sun rays hit your chamber.
Youâve seemed to lose your mind over him, how touch-starved he seemed to be, wanting, needing your attention desperately.
So why couldnât you feel him anymore?
You wondered.
Why did any trace of his presence suddenly disappear, slip through the corners of your temples, together with pomegranates and shells scattered around your altars?
Why your chamber seemed to be lighter in the night, and what happened to the ragged, shortened breath you swear could hear during the deepest sleep.
Why has he left you?
Whyâ
A shriek brought your thoughts back, with a crystal water suddenly flowing in streams over the edge of the swimming pool. Nymphs were running away, as if scared â no, terrified, pointing with their fingers at something behind you.
"M-my Lady, look out! Thereâs a creature!"
A creature?
You turned head slowly, glancing over your shoulder. And suddenly, shock crossed your face, but only for a moment, before you raised an eyebrow in interest.
"Oh?" A hum escaped your lips, bringing your attention entirely to the so-called creature, being nothing more than a black snake.
For your nymphs' justification, some of them were quite⌠uneducated, you would say. Maybe a bit stupid, never seeing a world outside Olympus. Although snakes belonged to various Gods living on the Mountain, many usually associated them with the earth.
And the underworld.
"What brought you here, my dear? Are you lost?" You cooed, looking at his long body, slowly moving towards you, with yellowish eyes focused on nothing but your small, white dove, sitting calmly near your dipped body.
The snake was big, truly looking quite monstrous, but the dove didn't seem to mind his presence, as if her curiosity was piqued by the creature. Its black skin glimmered under the scorching sun, pinkish tongue sliding in and out of a closed mouth, checking the surroundings.
Nymphs left the pool, still warning you with faint screams and pleadings to leave it alone.
But how could you leave it alone if it was the first sign the God of the Underworld has sent you since that feast?
How could you ignore his weak and unsatisfying presence, sending your way such a creature instead of himself?
You stretched out your hand, brushing its hard skin. The scales were warm under your touch, but the snake completly ignored you, instead grazing with its big head the snowy feathers of the dove. "Where's your master, hm? Did he send you?"
Your birdie glanced at it, for a second only, before she lowered her head and touched the snake's raven skin with her soft feathers.
And thenâ
Snap!
Dove cried, one of the white feathers falling from her delicate body. You almost saw a furrow between her small eyes and stare shooting daggers at her bully.
She flew up, sitting on your arm, as you lifted your fingers to gently caress her.
"My poor baby," you whispered, as she cooed softly to your ear. "Isn't he just a mean bully? Quite different from his master, hm?"
Her small head pushed against your fingers, starved for your delicate touch, soothing her snowy feathers with slow brushes.
And when you looked at the snake, with a feather in his mouth, he sent you one last glance, before hiding back in the forest.
It seemed like you needed to fulfil your promise and pay the God of the Underworld a visit.
So a few days later, you finally found the only person who could help you get down to Hades's domain.
"Sorry, what?" Hermes looked at you with a furrow, scanning your body covered in pink, flowy robes, full of beauty and charm, definitely not accustomed to and made for a journey to the underworld. "Are you bored? Why in the world would you like to go down there?"
Your lips pressed in a line, hands clasped on your chest, with gold bracelets hugging your bare arms. It was always weird to hear other Gods â men â question your choices, and aside from Gojo who indeed had this privilege solely because of being your friend, it was always quite irritating to see others not giving you what you asked them for.
And if going to the underworld was that easy, you would do it yourself.
But it wasn't.
In fact, only one God was responsible for taking souls to the gates of hell, and it was he â this charming man, but just a dick to be honest, with wings on his feet and a golden helmet sitting tight on his raven hair.
Toji.
Your once-lover and Gojo's nemesis.
"Lord Hades invited me over," you said, but the only reaction you've got was a soft scoff.
"I doubt it." He murmured, broad back still turned away.
You took a deep breath, placing fingers on your temple. "Okay, what do you want in exchange?"
"Nothing." He stood back to you, focused on repairing something in his winged sandals, ignoring your boiling figure completly.
You really hoped that this pink dress, hugging your hips gently, with skin smelling like rose oil and a golden necklace sitting calmly right on your plump breasts, would convince him to grant you a pass.
You blinked.
"Nothing?" you repeated slowly, not quite believing your ears.
Toji finally turned to face you. The movement was lazy, unhurried, like a lion stretching only because it felt like it. Sunlight caught on the metal of his winged sandals, and the golden helmet resting carelessly on his head tilted as he studied you with dark, amused eyes.
âDid I stutter, doll?â
Your eye twitched.
Men like him were always like this â acting as if they were above bargains, above temptation, above you. As if the Goddess of Love herself standing in front of them asking for help was nothing more than a mild inconvenience.
"I donât believe you," you said flatly.
He smirked. "Smart."
Crossing his arms over his broad chest, he leaned against the marble pillar behind him, muscles shifting beneath his tunic. Even relaxed, he looked built for war â dangerous in a way that made other gods nervous and foolish mortals worshipful. He was cunning, smart, a God of Travellers and thieves, mostly, somehow having responsibility over guiding poor souls to the underworld.
You had fun back in the days, but he, like any other God, was too overpowering. Too pushy, brutal, with his fast and heavy thrusts, indeed giving you pleasure, but never satisfying some deep need coiling in your belly. He wouldn't drop down to his knees. Worship you like a Goddess, a pathetic man eager to lose his Godly status just to have you exclusively.
"You donât want gold," you continued, ticking possibilities off in your mind. "You donât care for favors. Youâve never been one for politics. So what is it, Toji? What do you want?"
For a moment he only watched you, gaze dragging slowly over your face as if he were trying to decide something.
Then he laughed.
Low. Rough. Infuriatingly confident.
"What I want," he said, stepping closer, "is to see something interesting."
Your brows knitted together. "Interesting?"
"Yeah." He shrugged. "You, of all people, marching into the Underworld for the brooding King of the Dead? Thatâs entertainment money canât buy."
So that was it.
Curiosity.
Amusement.
Typical Hermes.
"Youâre unbelievable," you muttered.
"So Iâve been told." His grin widened. "Alright, doll. Iâll take you."
Relief loosened the knot in your chest, though you hid it well to not give him satisfaction.
"But," he added, holding up a finger, "you follow my lead. No wandering off. No charming the shades. And absolutely no crying if you get scared."
"I donât get scared," you said coolly.
"Weâll see."
Without another word, he extended a hand to you. Rough, warm, steady.
Hesitating only a second, you placed your fingers in his.
The world shifted.
Air folded in on itself. The brightness of Olympus faded like a curtain being drawn, colors draining away into something colder, heavier. The scent of flowers and honey dissolved into ash and stone.
When your feet touched solid ground again, it wasnât marble beneath you.
It was black sand.
The sky above was no longer sky at all â just a vast, endless ceiling of shadow. Rivers of dark water cut through the land like veins, and distant wails echoed from places you couldnât see.
Toji released your hand.
"Welcome to the Underworld," he said casually, as if heâd just shown you a new cafĂŠ instead of the realm of the dead.
You barely heard him.
Because ahead of you, towering higher than any palace of Olympus, stood the gates.
Massive iron doors carved with ancient symbols, wrapped in chains that seemed to breathe, guarded by looming statues with hollow eyes. Beyond them stretched a kingdom of eternal night.
Hadesâs domain.
Your heart fluttered in your chest.
"So," Toji drawled beside you, watching your expression with open amusement, "still sure about this?"
You lifted your chin.
"Open the gates."
The underworld turned out to be... quiet.
The shriek of massive gates filled the stifled air, but when you entered through, there was nothing once again.
No, maybe there was.
Soft whispers coming from the long river stretching in front of you, with a small, wooden pier lightened by a single candle. Its flame whizzed in the darkness, inviting you as if offering a bit of warmth.
Black sand sank beneath your sandals, your pink dress grazing the ground as you followed Tojiâs broad, confident back toward the pier.
"My company ends here," he stated, walking slowly. "But Charon will take you straight to Hadesâs temple."
You frowned slightly, glancing around the boundless land. No sun. No moon. Only endless twilight, air shifting between cold and warmth, sticky and hollow, sending uneasy shivers down your spine.
"Heâll be there. Donât worry," Toji added, noticing the tension in your shoulders. âYouâll be fine.â
You noticed shades hovering nearby â dim, almost transparent figures gliding aimlessly, faces pale and empty, hands reaching out as though searching for something they had long forgotten. "Who are they?"
"Dead who werenât buried with coins," Toji replied, casually swatting away one shade that drifted too close to you with cupped, pleading hands. "Charon canât take them across the Styx without payment."
"And what happens to them?"
Your feet touched the wooden pier. The boat was already waiting â long and narrow, with a single lamp hanging from its curved prow. A small figure sat at the back, cloaked in black, nothing visible but pale, bony hands protruding from wide sleeves, one extended expectantly, the other gripping a worn paddle.
"They wander," Toji said with a shrug, snapping his fingers towards the boatman. "Hey, grandpa, she's a Goddess, no need for payment. Take her right to Hades. She's a guest."
Charon slowly withdrew his outstretched hand and placed it back on the paddle, waiting in silent invitation.
You inhaled slowly, gathering the folds of your dress, and stepped into the boat.
The wood creaked beneath your weight, and the small vessel rocked gently as Charon pushed away from the pier with a single, practiced motion. The candlelight swayed, throwing trembling reflections across the dark water.
Toji remained on the shore, arms crossed.
"Try not to die down there," he called after you with a lazy grin.
"Iâm a Goddess," you glanced back, lifting your chin. "I can't die."
"Yeah, yeah," he muttered, already turning away. "Tell that Sisyphus."
You wanted to snap back that he, in fact, wasn't a God, but the boat already moved, sliding over the dark waters of the Styx with gentle waves woven by a wooden paddle.
The River Styx stretched endlessly in both directions, black as polished obsidian, its surface smooth and unmoving. No wind touched it. No ripple dared disturb it. The only sound was the slow dip of Charonâs paddle cutting through the water.
Around you, shades hovered in the mist, faint faces pressed together like memories too worn to remember themselves. Some reached toward the boat with hollow eyes, others merely watched, envy etched into their pale, fading forms.
You wrapped your arms around yourself.
For the first time in centuries, you felt small.
âDonât listen to them,â Toji had warned before you left.
But how could you not?
One shade drifted close to the boat, its hollow eyes meeting yours, and for a heartbeat, you felt a wave of sorrow so deep it nearly stole your breath.
You looked away quickly.
The further you travelled, the heavier the air became, until at last the boat scraped softly against another shore.
And there it was.
The entrance to the Underworld.
You looked over your shoulder at Charon, wishing to hear his voice, but he only stretched his skeletal hand, pointing at something.
You left the boat, feet once again touching soft, black sand.
The closer you got to Hades's temple, the warmer it became, with a gentle wind moving folds of your dress. As Toji said, it wasn't a place for you.
Dark, isolated, gloomy, hugging your shivering body covered in the sweetest, most beautiful shimmering gown worn only on the sunny land of Olympus.
But here? You looked truly like a clown, with gold jewellery looking almost bleak under the darkness looming over your figure.
Another gate appeared in front of you, once again massive in its heaviness, but this time with no chain in sight.
Actually, it looked as if... slightly opened?
Impossible.
You moved closer, step by step, white sandals sinking in sand, black grains moving between your soft fingers. The gate was right there, so close, with a mere few steps andâ
Your body froze.
Because there, from the darkness emerged a creature so massive it seemed carved from nightmares themselves.
Enormous, monstrous even, with three heads moving towards you, teeth wet with saliva and eyes burning like coal.
A guard of the underworld, you've heard.
Hades's pet.
But you didn't see any assembly to a pet, rather a monster talked about only in tales, one usually killed bravely by heroes or spreading annihilation over mortals.
Your heart skipped.
"Oh," you breathed. "You must be the Cerberus."
The beast stepped closer, paws heavier than thunder, breath warm and smoky against your skin. Each head watched you with suspicion, nostrils flaring at your unfamiliar scent.
You straightened your shoulders.
"I am Aphrodite," you said softly, holding out a hand. "Goddess of Love and Beauty. I mean no harm."
For a tense moment, nothing happened.
But then, one of the massive heads tilted. In curiosity, playfulness, maybe, with this glint in his eye, you knew animals had every time they saw you.
Another gave a curious sniff, as if your rosy oil scratched his nostrils in pleasure.
The third promptly leaned forward, and before you could fully process it, a rough, warm tongue dragged across your cheek.
"Ohâ!" You gasped, stumbling back in surprise.
The second head followed, then the third, each nuzzling you with embarrassing enthusiasm. The fear melted instantly, replaced by startled laughter.
The great hound wagged its monstrous tail, the ground trembling with each happy thump.
"Well, the apple doesn't fall far from the tree. You're just like your Master." Faint giggle bubbled in your throat, fingers scratching one of the enormous heads under its chin, the other one behind its ear, while the third licked your skin once again, leaving you with another gasp and its saliva dripping down your robe.
"Such good puppies, aren't you? Can you take me to your Master? We have stuff to discuss."
Cerberus escorted you the rest of the way, walking proudly at your side as if you were already expected.
And beyond the heavy gate and rocky path, rising higher than any structure you had ever seen, stood the temple of Hades. Stone steps rose upward toward a structure carved into the cliffs themselves â dark marble pillars wrapped in shadow, torches burning with pale fire.
Cold.
Majestic.
Eternal.
Your breath caught in your throat.
"So this is where he lives," you whispered, feeling Cerberus' nose pushing you towards the temple. "Yes, yes, thank you, my dear. Such a good dog you are. The best, maybe."
You gave him one last scratch before going towards Hades's domain.
Did he expect you? You thought.
Will he be surprised?
Did Toji tell him you're here?
But if he did, wouldn't the God of the Underworld wait for you already?
And as you stepped closer to the looming entrance, licked by the cold fire of the hanging lanterns, something in your gut told you that he, in fact, didn't know that you were here.
And when you entered, looking around the cold stones, your heart suddenly skipped a beat.
You expected the inside to be quite cold, sheathed in gloom, a feeling of sadness, weird eariness that would send a chill through your bones. No one actually knew what Hades lived like. No one ever cared. And it seemed like he didn't care too â about making an appearance, trying to change the way people see him, particularly about other Gods.
But, oh, how wrong you were.
Because on the tall walls and high ceilings, an altar quietly put in the middle and columns wrapped in paintings â was you.
You, bathing in a pool, painted with a steady hand on one of the walls.
Your body wrapped around the column, one of the flowy dresses slipped on it casually, hair fluttering in the wind, and a smile spread on plump lips.
The sculpture of your body, naked, but covered with a transparent robe, presenting only a part of your full breasts and hips, ending just in the middle of thick thighs, standing just in the middle of the entrance. It looked dampened, with the robe sticking to your skin, barely covering perked nipples and fat gathering around your hips.
Your gaze moved to the altar.
Shells scattered around its flat surface, together with roses, apples, seeds of pomegranate, a white feather, a piece of yourâ wait a minute-
"M-my Goddess?"
A low voice brought your thoughts back.
Choso suddenly emerged from one of the chambers, his tall figure covered in black robes and face â oh, his face â twisted in emotion closest to pure agony. He looked at you with furrowed brows, biting lower lip and deciding whether he should come to you or, maybe, once again, run away.
"My Goddess, what are you doing here?" He asked, staying in place.
You glanced last time at the piece of clothing lying on the altar and grinned. It was weird to see it here, from all places, but something coiling in your lower belly told you that perhaps it was the only reasonable place to see your undergarments stolen a while ago.
"I promised to give it back," a black handkerchief appeared in your hand, clean and fresh, smelling exactly like your favourite body oil. "Last time you ran away so quickly, my Lord, we didn't have a chance to properly talk."
His throat moved and eyes followed you nervously as you slowly walked towards him.
You didn't fit here, he thought, to this disgusting place.
Because he had seen beauty before.
Choso was old as bone and shadow, older than kingdoms, older than grief. He had watched empires crumble into dust and souls pass through his gates like autumn leaves. Nothing startled him anymore. Nothing truly moved him.
But then, oh, then he saw you.
Aphrodite.
A name whispered among Gods and mortals, and yet no story, no hymn, no jealous prayer had ever done you justice.
He watched you approach with a steady pace, swaying hips, and long robes dragged behind your feet. His mouth was dry, heart beating too fast, pale skin sweating with dread, nervousness, terror. Because every time he saw you, smelled your skin damped in the sweetness of flowery oils, heard a laugh always caused by Gojo or another God he absolutely despised â his body was in flames.
Your gown flowed like liquid dawn â soft folds of pink and gold clinging to a body sculpted by the heavens themselves. Each step you took was unhurried, graceful, unaware of the havoc it caused in his heart.
Your hair caught the dim torchlight and turned it into silk. Skin held a glow that did not belong to this realm, smooth and untouched, as if the moment he would sink his teeth into the curve of your ass, pure ambrosia would drip down his chin.
And your faceâ
Gods had waged wars over less.
There was something unbearably gentle in your expression, something kind, a beauty truly worthy of the Goddess of Love. And the smirk on your lips, a cunning smile, words slipping so casually, constantly with a drop of lewdness as if you knew the effect you had on him.
Choso knew it was over for him.
He had always wondered, distantly, what it would feel like to have your hand in his. To feel that warmth against his eternally cold skin. To have you say his name the way only lovers did, low and familiar, as if he was something precious instead of something feared by Gods and mortals.
His fist clenched, when you walked closer â body mere centimetres from his, breast almost touching his burning skin, and he prayed, truly prayed, for your gaze not to go down any further, because he couldn't stand your lustrous eyes on his cock leaking through black robes.
"My Lord, won't you invite me to a cup of wine, at least?" You asked carefully, quietly, noticing his dark eyes running around your face. His hand trembled, and throat cleared when he showed you a way inside the temple.
To his inner chambers, you guessed.
You walked past him, fingers slightly brushing the bulging part of his robes, and he, well, he almost fell down to his knees in an utterly embarrassing and completly failed position he found himself at.
The inside of the temple was cosier than you thought it would be, with the next room filled with warmth and red carpets, candles fighting the darkness with their reddish tongues. There was a long table too and a balcony, with a view of â oh.
"That is Tartatus, my Goddess," Choso said, when he saw your shocked gaze looking down at the deep abyss filled with faint moans and shrieks, as if souls were cooked alive there, tortured in the most terrifying ways. A dungeon for the most wicked ones, true monsters and creatures that should never see daylight. "I don't use it unless I have to. Some of them deserve to be there."
A hint of nervousness still lingered in his voice when he stood behind you. Heat radiated from his body as he stood close enough to cage you with his muscular forearms. How lovely it would be!
You moved your head away from the painful screams, turning your body back towards him.
Gentle eyes looked at you from under the purplish circles, black stripes moving together with his knitted eyebrows and tightened lips.
"Aren't you lonely here? It doesn't seem like the happiest place in the world," you asked with actual curiosity, but he frowned even harder, as if thinking about the proper answer.
Some servant in the back put two glasses of wine on the table and melted away in the darkness of the temple.
"I never had a choice," Choso finally whispered, inviting you with a gesture back to the room. He moved away a chair and let you sit first, before taking a seat right next to you. "That's how I was raised and born. That's the only place I know."
You watched him carefully as he spoke.
There was something painfully honest in his voice, something raw and unpolished, as if no one had ever truly asked him such a simple question before.
You lifted a glass to your lips, taking a sip of red wine, melting sweetly on your tongue.
âSo no visitors?â you asked lightly. âNo celebrations? No festivals in your honour? Is there truly no one who worships the God of the Underworld? There must be some benefits to it.â
He huffed softly at that, something almost like embarrassment flickering across his face.
âThe dead do not celebrate,â he replied. âAnd the living fear me too much to bother.â
âYet you welcomed me,â you pointed out.
At that, his fingers tightened slightly around his own glass. Face slightly flushed, red like a cherry, with its juice going through his cheeks up to hair-covered ears.
"B-but you're not like them," he mumbled so quietly, you needed to use all of your might to hear those words.
Not like them.
Your head tilted, letting a small smile play at the corner of your mouth.
âAnd how am I different, my Lord?" you asked, voice gentle and confident, nevertheless pinning him down to his seat in nervousness. "Oh, and the paintings at the entrance? Truly wonderful! I've never thought I'll have devotees among the Gods."
For a moment, he didnât answer.
Dark eyes traced your face again, as if committing every detail to memory. The plumpness of your lips. The shine of your skin. The soft rise and fall of your chest with each breath. This rosy dress, too tight and too transparent, allowing him to see the curve of your breast and the pinkish aureola of your soft nipples.
He gulped.
"I-if you're bothered by themâ"
"I'm not. I love them, truly," Choso shifted in his place, when you slightly loosened on your chair, legs spread a bit wider than they were, fiery gaze stuck at him. "But the altar, dear Lord. How did you even get such stuff? The feather, I believe, is a treasure captured by one of your small servants, although he indeed was a bit brutal with my birdie," His face was burning, air almost knocked out from lungs in embarrassment and desire he felt under your heavy gaze, with his eyes focused on your parted thighs, hugged by a robe, opened for him as if in invitation. "Though the undergarment? Aren't youâ" But before you could finish, he dropped down to his knees, head heavy on your thighs, muscular arms wrapped around your legs as you felt something hard and leaking under your foot. "Just a pervert?"
"M-my Goddes, I'm so s-sorry," he murmured, looking at you from below, with dark eyes filled with pathetic pleading, beefy arms tightening their embrace around your legs as he rubbed his cheek against your warm thigh. "I am, I am a pervert, I-I am nothing more than a pervert, j-just please let meâ"
Your hand gently caressed his cheek as he nuzzled into it with a heavy breath.
Dear God, he was truly perfect, with those trembling lips and eyes gazing at you so lovingly, so desperately, something warm coiled in your belly.
His hands touched your ankles, slowly, slowly, going up, catching the hem of your dress, rolling it up to your knees, while he still looked at you with begging eyes.
"Let you do what?" you hummed, foot pushing against his throbbing dick with gentleness, "What are you willing to do to have me, my Lord?"
His fingers clenched on your skin before pulling the dress up to the middle of your slick thighs with one swift motion. "Whatever you want, my Goddess. Just ask me, p-please just ask me. I'll give you sun and moon if you'll ask me to."
He put your legs on his shoulders, hands roaming on your bare skin, feeling the heat radiating from your core, bare but not quite visible for his hungry, despairing eye.
Your head tilted, fingers combing his hair. "Anything? Would you die for me, my Lord?"
"Yes."
No hesitation.
"Would you degrade yourself as a God, my Lord?"
"Yes."
You raised an eyebrow.
"Would you kill your brothers, my Lord?"
You knew this one was completly inappropriate, something others could kill you for, butâ
"Yes."
And you didn't have time to react, before Choso spread your thighs even wider and took a looong lick of your creamy pussy. Your breath hitched, he moaned, a grumble going straight to your pulsing core, fingers squeezing his hair stronger.
"My Lord!"
But he was completly lost, with his mouth drenched in your leaking pussy, tasting, as he anticipated, like the purest form of ambrosia, the plum wine going sweetly down his throat until he moaned, no, cried right into your spread folds.
You involuntarily bucked your hips towards his open lips as he sucked on your clit.
"S-so good, my Goddess, s-so mmmâ"
But the hard chair was brushing your velvety skin, and a quiet groan escaped your throat when he folded you even harder.
"My Lord, please let's move toâ"
You didn't have to say it twice, before he slumped you over his shoulder, like a sack of grain, with bare ass and leaking cunt, kept in place by his beefy arm.
"Call me Choso, my Goddess," he mumbled, not able to keep his lips from your skin, kissing, biting, licking the bare curve of your ass, fingers slightly parting your pussylips as he drenched them in your juices.
And although you couldn't see him, a moment later, you heard him licking something, moaning so loudly you felt another wave of warmth flowing in your belly.
Your back hit a soft surface, and soon you found yourself spread on a bed. Lightless sky peeked through the windows, faint flames kissing Choso's fully dressed body, panting heavily as he looked down at your glistening folds. A second later, his black robe landed on the floor, with absolutely nothing on his tall body aside from heavy mountains of muscles, with muscular thighs dropping down to plush carpet and toned arms again parting your legs.
"M-my Goddess, can I?" He glanced at you pleadingly, looking like a child ready to cry if his mama won't give him his favourite sweet.
You bit lower lip, eyes sparkling with excitement at seeing him in such a hopeless state.
"Only if you'll eat me out like a good boy, Cho. Can you do it?"
Oh! And if it didn't fire him up, with a frown on his handsome face, nodding quickly, obediently, truly like a small puppy. Just maybe ten times bigger and much heavier than you, with enough strength to pin you down against his bed and fuck you senseless like an animal.
You've kept your weight on your elbows, seeing Choso going down once again, giving you a looong drag of his tongue against your glistering folds, as he parted them with his two fingers. His hot breath on your clit, as he sucked on it gently, needily, moaning and crying every time a fresh batch of creamy cum went down his throat. When your walls clenched around his tongue, rummaging inside you, and a sharp breath escaped your throat.
His hands roamed around your ass, hips, pulling you even closer, before going up up up to your breasts. Oh, Goddess of Love and Fertility, you truly were, because the thought of milk dripping from your pinkish nipples, of him sucking your tits and pushing his cock deep down your cunt at the same time made him almost cum on the spot.
He thought about whether you would allow him to cum inside.
Whether you would want his babies, to walk heavily pregnant and let him worship you day and night, by keeping your pussy always warm and pleased.
Would youâ
"Yes yes yes, to all of them," you moaned with head lulled back and eyes crossed, as Choso, accidentally or not, murmured all his wishes riiiiight into your pussy, squeezing around his two fingers. "You better keep your promise and fuck me pregnant then."
He licked your pussy unhingeldy, like a starved dog, with a frown between his brows and black stripes moving every time the tip of his tongue dragged down your puffy clit, slick folds, not allowing even a single drop of your honey slick dto rip down the sheets.
His face was so beautiful and truly Godly, with pale skin drenched with your juices and contrasting red lips wrapped around your sweet bud. You looked down on him, mouth parted and breath heavy, as he pressed you closer to his open lips and stuck out tongue. "M-my Goddess, I-I promiseânghâyour pussy tastes so delicious, I can't stop ahhhâp-please tell me it feels good."
A giggle escaped your throat, but was soon strangled by a moan, when his fingers curled riiiight into that spongy spot, sending shivers down till your cervix, making your belly clench and head throw back. And seeing your reaction, he curled them again and again again again, pairing it with his tongue licking your soaked pussy and lips sucking on sweet bud, pushing his face even deeper into your folds, almost wishing to get inhaled by them.
"Mhmmm so good Cho, you're eating me s-so fucking good ahhhâ"
But gone he was, eyes closed in pleasure, lips puffy, and head nodding faintly when you moved your hips and rubbed them against his tongue.
"S-so good, mhmm feels so good, this pussy," he mumbled, not quite sure whether to you or your cunt, gasping and wailing with a mouth full of your sweet juice. "Feels so mhm so good, m-my Goddess, my baby mhm, so pretty prettyâ"
A pressure coiled in your belly â feeling, that with another thrust of his fingers and looong stripe of his tongue against your cunt, you will completly, pathetically break under his muscular arms pinning you down to bed.
"Choso, I'm gonnaâ" You gasped, fingers clasping his hair, to take him away from your pussy just for a second. "I wanna cum on your cock."
He looked up. Gaze lost, hair messy, chin drenched, a pearl of sweat running down his pale temple.
"Don't underestimate me. I'll make you cum on both my tongue and cock," His fingers stretched every corner of your cunt, thrusting against the tight muscles, drawing even more of your sweet juices from your tight hole as you moaned at the pressure building in your stomach. "What, my Goddess, your lovers never made you cum twice?"
You shook your head, gaze blurred by the heavy feeling in your belly. Choso smiled, curling his fingers against your sweet spot brutally, sucking on your clit with the lovliest cries, looking sooo satisfied and confident, with this precious knowledge of having the honour to make his Goddess go stupid on both his face and his dick.
"Even Gojo?" He continued, looking completly drunk on your slick juices, nevertheless still making sure that he indeed would be your best, the first, the only lover that will ever make you cum countless times, till your clit is sore and womb plump from his seed.
"I never had a good lover," you mewled, feeling him groan against your cunt.
"Mhmm, m-my Goddess allow me toâ"
And you indeed allowed him, because not a second later, your back rose in an arch, fingers curled and thighs clenched on his head, cutting off his air supply for a few seconds, with your body trembling under his toned arms, keeping you pinned to bed.
You weren't quite sure who had an orgasm, because while a heavy whine ripped from your throat, and a shock waved through your body, Choso seemed to go through his own pleasure, crying, whining, moaning, muttering under his nose, hiccuping on your gushing slick â completly, utterly lost in the taste of your pussy.
Pretty pretty pretty pussy.
Seconds later, your positions changed, with you straddling his hips and his back slumped against soft pillows. Two hands landed on your ass, pushing it against his throbbing cock, sticking so obediently to his lower abs, with precum dripping down his shaft and smeared all over his happy trail. With hips on top, your folds hugged in wetly, last traces of creamy cum gushing over his aching shaft, with head so reddish you thought no one ever needed you that desperately.
"My Goddess, r-ride me, please?" And for a God of Underworld himself, one of the most powerful creatures in the whole Pantheon, Choso truly couldnât stand giving you orders.
It was always please and would you, and Iâm sorry, with this absurdly massive body and his eyes filled with so much gentleness, you instantly felt your cunt twitch once again.
"Oh, where did you see that position, Cho?" A smile danced in the corners of your eyes, and your hips moved slightly with your warm folds sliding up and down his cock.
Itâs veiny shaft, looking so deliciously wet, fat around your pussylips and so so so pretty, you moaned faintly and put palms on Chosoâs chest.
This question seemed to strike him dumb, because you saw the answer bubbling somewhere in his throat, too extreme to see the dawn.
"Tell me, baby, where have you seen it? Arenât you a virgin, after all?" Your syrupy voice and wet pussy, fluttering hole slightly catching on the head of his cock made him whine and shudder under your weight.
He nodded, clenching his palms on your hips. "I-I am, I s-stayed for you."
For you.
And with these words, you slid his cock inside you a bit, truly barely, with the feverish tip hugged warmly by your pinkish walls. But you didnât go further, waiting for his filthy confession.
"Such a good boy you are, right? Iâve never met better," you leaned over, lips mere millimetres from his, caressing them gently in a soft kiss. Your tongue slipped and licked his lower lip, trembling with mere inches of his cock sank inside you. "So tell me now, where did you see it?"
There was something pervy within him. Great Lord Hades, fearsome Choso, a dreadful figure living in darkness, always there but never caught by anyone. Everyone thought of him as a ghost, a demon almost, so powerful in his might yet somehow always unreachable.
But you knew.
You saw it, felt it, his presence, your disappearing panties, the rosy smell on his neck, this look when his eyes traced your body, smooth skin, a giggle escaping your lips, and single glances shot towards him, enough to give him false hope and obsess over you within the dark chambers of his temple.
A drop of sweat rolled down his forehead; his voice clearly dipped in utter embarrassment and yearning. "I-I saw you with Gojo."
You raised a brow, lips curved in an o, when you tried to remember the last time you and Gojo had sex.
Dear God, wasn't it likeâ
"Two years ago, you mean?"
He nodded his head, biting lower lip. Cock still only catching on your entrance, and as much as he wished to sink deep into your soaking cunt, with insanity hanging by a thread, he squeezed fingers on your hips and took a deep breath.
"Y-you rode him them, I-I saw itâ"
"What do you mean, saw it?"
Oh, you loved it.
Loved loved loved it.
This blush spreading over his cheeks, a pathetic gaze he bestowed you, paired together with soft whimpers every time you squeezed slightly around his aching head, precum drenching your walls in salty droplets.
"I watched you f-from the c-corner of your chamber," admitting his perversity was a true nightmare, but you couldn't stop this pleasure coiling in your belly.
"You watched me, baby?" You sank lower, just a bit, giving him a prize for being such a good and obedient boy. "Did you touch yourself too? Hm? My cunt riding Gojo's cock excited you that much?"
His head nodded again, fast, a whimper escaping his throat when his huge cock went deeper inside your fluttering walls. The stretch was delicious, absolutely devastating, with a soft moan escaping your lips right into his parted lips.
"M-my Goddess, p-please can you move? Just a b-bit, please, please," He gasped, restraining the urge to buck his hips and push his cock into your drenched pussy till his pumping head will hit your cervix.
"How many times have you watched me?" Your questions were coming one by one, next more difficult than the other, giving Choso almost a cardiac arrest, with his heart beating so fast and his eyes almost glossy, he could not stand another embarrassing answer.
"E-every time, my Goddess, pleaseâ"
"Every time?" The last time you satisfied yourself was just after the feast. Did it mean that...?
Tears prickled in the corners of his eyes, lips wobbly when you finally, finally, sat on him with your full weight, heavy cock deep inside your cunt. You deflected, back arched, hands resting on his thighs, legs parted, allowing him to watch a creamy ring forming at the base of his cock.
"S-so good, dear Goddess, oh it feels so fucking good, y-your pussyâ" He cried, whimpered, hips finally bucking up to meet yours, cock thrusting deep inside you, squeezed, kissed by your muscles and cervix, sucked every time he tried to pull out.
His eyes met yours â cunning, glistering, with this lovable hint of gentleness and desire he never ever saw with your previous lovers. And he observed you every time another God fucked your tight cunt.
Every time with your panties around his leaking cock, every time noticing what brought you the most pleasure.
So that's how he knew that if he put his hand on your lower belly, bulging with his fat cock, and pushed it slightly, your pussy would clutch him ever harder.
He knew that if his thumb would circle your sweet clit, a sharp whine would bubble in your throat, and your eyes would cross in pleasure.
So he watched your face twist in delight, hips riding him even faster, stronger, wilder, with tits moving together with your sharp back-and-forth moves. He sat up and leaned over to suck your perked nipple, cupping another one with his big palm.
Oh, how he wanted to taste the sweetness of your milk, feeling the heaviness of your breast sitting tightly in his palm, so soft and squishy, he whimpered heavily with his cock sinking in even more. "M-my Goddness, you're squeezing me so hard, feels so good mhmmm. D-do you feel g-good?"
You nodded your head, sweat dripping down your temple, but not for long, because Chose leaned and licked it from your honeyed skin.
Oh, how fucking delicious you were.
"Let me take over? I-I promise I'll be good," His hands on your hips helped you move, fucking himself back into you harder with every thrust, but it was clear that you were getting tired. "I'll be good, good, so so so good for you my Goddessâ"
Although he absolutely loved this view, needing to have it in front of his eyes every morning â your full hips bouncing obscenely on his fat cock, belly bulging with his shaft, reddened lips parted and brows furrowed, with sweat dripping between your heavy tits, fitting his palm just perfectly. He would truly be ready to give over his Godly title to see it every fucking day.
"Mhmm yeah please baby, gonna fuck me with your cock?" Your lost gaze met his, even more miserable. "Mmm Cho baby, you're the best, the best fucking lovâ"
You didn't manage to finish your sentence before he changed your position fast. You knew he was strong, with muscular arms and great posture, back filling his black robes and heavy, massive cock sealing your thigh cunt juust in the right way.
But you truly underestimated the power he possessed. And maybe you realised it the moment his hands appeared under your thighs, puuushing them far until your knees were almost around your head, with ass lifted in the air and breath knocked out of your chest.
And he?
He was massive. Obsessed. Lost. Bubbling under his nose, with eyes glued to your open pussy. About how delicious you were, how pretty your cunt was, how he'll breed it until it flows with his cum. He parted your lips with two fingers, whimpering at the sight of you, oh so lonely and needy hole, with saps dripping down the sheets.
Choso needed one thrust only â short, absolutely brutal, stretching a still tight ring of your muscles, absolutely devouring every panted cry that escaped your lips with his wet kisses, mouth covering yours fully, and tongue sinking down your throat.
"Mmm Cho, just like that, yes yes yes." He was swallowing your every moan like a madman, thrusting his cock deep aaall the way down to your cervix, head catching on your spongy spot and hammering it with every push.
"You make me, fuck, m-my Goddess, you turn me into fucking animal," He whimpered right into your mouth, fat tears prickling in the corners of his eyes, dangerously close to sliding down his flushed cheeks every time your cunt clamped down on his drenched cock. "I-I dreamed about this for s-so long."
And you started to feel it â this warmth in your belly, your hitched breath, head spinning, and back slightly arching with Choso's brutal thrust, obscene moans filling his chamber and nothing but squelch squelch squelch of your absolutely soaked folds drenching his fat cock.
"C-cho I'm close, I'm so so so close mhmm p-please!"
Nothing could prepare him for your sweet cumming â cunt clenching hard, creamy rings stuck to his shaft and slick gushing down your thighs. You cried, shuddered, rolled your hips against his, squeezed on his cock so hard, you felt every vein of his throbbing shaft. And he continued to pound you madly, brutally, cock sinking balls deep into your hole, a whimper escaping his throat when he drove his mass on your body even harder.
Folding you in half, preparing for a proper breeding, the thought of fucking the most fertile Goddess made him go insane.
Oh god, oh dear fucking god, how many children could you give him?
How delicious your milk would be when he would fuck your pretty pussy while drinking it riiight from your plump tits?
"M-my Goddess, can I p-please cumâ"
"You better not spill any drop." Your voice was raspy but still possessed this domination that made him cream his pants on the spot.
So with another thrust, he completly crushed, body shuddering, thrusts not stopping until his tip pressed fully against your womb, filling you with loads and loads, oh god he really was a perv and a virgin, of cum, until it stuck gluey to your walls.
And with a heavy breath, he finally plopped down, embracing you with both arms and placing a cheek on your breast.
The silence filled his chamber, with sky still showing no traces of sun, only the nighttime quietness and, oh, were those crickets singing outside his temple?
"They're also dying, you know?" He whispered, as if reading your mind.
A laugh escaped your throat as you combed your fingers through his hair. "So you decided to put them in your garden?"
He chuckled too, dark eyes closed as if preparing for deep slumber. "I hoped you'd like it. To have something... alive, more familiar here."
Your heart squeezed faintly at the thought of God of the Dead himself wanting to make you comfortable in his always gloomy, always eerie domain.
And maybe you didn't much enjoy the shrieks coming from Tartarus and all the lost souls wandering around his territory, you truly thought that with more aliveness here, you could make it work.
That's why no God or nymph could ever imagine, that during the next feast, Hades himself, a God feared by them all, will sit obediently, flushed on red wine, with a such a beauty on his lap â Aphrodite herself, chippering something sweetly to his ear and may or may not moving her hips in circles on his, oh sooo tight robe!
đou decide to volunteer at your local library during winter break, unaware of the owners cute grandson. you're convinced he absolutely hates you, only to find out he's been thinking on which position to fuck you in first.
warnings / tags smut, brief angst, fluff, small town romance, he's a bit of an ass, rough sex, fingering, public sex, unprotected. reupload !art by uruyuuu on twt !
northern california is rainy around these months.
wanting to be different from the rest of the country, it doesn't offer the warmth of the sun, perfect enough to tan. it instead gives you foggy mornings that blur into rainy afternoons and demands you to be wrapped up in multiple blankets by the end of the day.
that's why you neatly placed your pink burberry scarf around your neck, patting it softly down over your chest with one hand while the other held the application form to volunteer at a library right down the street from your new home.
one you have been visiting for a while now, mostly when you needed to renew your business and law textbooks for school, ones you refused to pay over 500$ for. with one final look in the mirror, you grabbed your umbrella from it's place before heading out the door.
barely anyone helped out at the library because it was family owned. but it had people coming in and out at every hour of the day. so you weren't surprised when a group of people came out the door as soon as you approached it. matcha in hand and earbuds plugged into ears.Â
performative males.
their earbuds weren't even plugged in and that alone made your eye twitch.
after closing your umbrella, you stepped inside, making your way over to the counter where mrs. gojo usually was. and there the old lady stood, looking through her glasses, scanning books like always.
a smile made it's way on your face. she was the sweetest woman ever, always giving you little stories here and there every time you came in.
"y'know, my hair used to look exactly like yours at your age." she once told you. now, she had a short frizzy pixie, stripped away from her color and has now turned white.
"oh, hello sweetheart!" she happily greeted. mrs. gojo often forgot your name, so she settled with sweet names any granny would call you.
"hi miss." you greeted back, waiting for her to walk around the corner of her desk to give you a hug. "I'm guessing you're out of school, hm?"
"yup, just finished. I'm free, for now at least." she laughed at that. her age may have changed, but her laugh has remained the same.
"what brings you here? you should be out with your friends."
"yeah, well, don't have many of those." you chuckled, handing her your form. "saw on your website that you were needing volunteers, so here I am."
she looked down at the paper confused. "volunteers?.. ah right, right. my grandson," she sighed, shaking her head. "he insists I need more help with running this place but I am telling
him I'm okay. but he posted on our uh google thing that a.. he put up a volunteer sign up."
"he's even helping out as well this summer. I tell him me and him are enough to keep this place going."
you bit the inside of your cheek, a bit bummed out. "so, um, I'm guessing thats a no then?"
"oh! oh no no young missy. I would love for you to work here with us. but I ask you, why here and not hanging out with your friends?"
"I don't really hang out much." you reminded her. "plus, I like being here."
the sweet lady patted your arm, turning to look behind her. "very well then, I'll give this to my boy." you smiled down at her, appreciating the soft feeling of her gentle hand.
"satoru.. where are you honey" she grabbed her walking cane, about to start moving before another white head appeared from behind the shelves.
your eyes widened.
no way was this her grandson.
he's supposed to be eleven, or ten. her stories made it very clear he was anything but your age.
he was wearing a navy blue polo with brown slacks and on his nose bridge laid his black framed glasses that created a barrier for his pretty blue eyes. the same shade as his grandmothers.
your throat dried up. he was handsome, very handsome.
and nowhere near the age you had imagined him to be. her voice snapped you out of your trance. "hi sweet boy, this pretty young lady used the volunteer form. she'd like to work here.." she explained. he gave you a once over, looking you up and down before looking at your application. his eyes skimmed through, adam's apple bobbing as he spoke.
"alright, I'll look at it." his voice was even more attractive. it was low but calm and gentle all at the same time.
mrs. gojo gently smacked him. "she's working with us, application or not, it does not matter."
"sorry granma'am, I need to make sure that she's eligible to-."
"nonsense, I know her. very sweet girl!" she interrupted.
"I'll file it.." he muttered, slipping the application into the folder behind the desk. then he looked up at you, eyes meeting yours.
"welcome, I guess. I'm satoru."
you greeted him with a small smile, giving him your name as well. he let out a small grunt as he stood up straight, walking out to be at the front next to you, noticing how you backed away a bit.
"alright. I'll make you a name badge tomorrow. if you want to start today, you can go back to where the returns are." he nodded towards a bin with a couple of books that were waiting to be checked in and returned back to their place on the shelves.
you nodded, hands clasped together in front of you.
mrs. gojo grinned brightly at the two of you. satoru gave you a brief nod, lips turning into a thin line, before walking past you brushing his shoulder against yours. and you were able to catch the faint scent of cedar and rain making you feel light headed.
"he's shy. must be because you're pretty." she said softly, making your face warm up.
"I've got eyes, you know. he barely talks to anyone other than me or himself. not even to customers."
your eyes flickered over to where the white haired boy had disappeared into. "he'll warm up to you quickly." she gave you a little arm rub and began to hum as she made her way over to a family asking for a membership.
you sure hoped so.
but you hoped wrong.Â
oh, so wrong.Â
mrs. gojo's words echoed in your head every day you showed up, praying that satoru would do more than glance your way and shame you for putting the books in the wrong section.Â
"no, this doesn't go here. I've told you many, many times before the Eschatological literature is all the way in the back. Not with dystopian." he grabbed, or more like snatched, the book from your hands.Â
"Isn't that kind of the same thing?"Â
He looked down at you like you had suddenly grown three heads. "Are you stupid?"Â
Yeah.Â
He was an asshole.Â
And when he wasn't whisper yelling at you for a mistake, he was making you do the things he was supposed to.Â
Like being in charge of the front desk while he took an hour break to study for his Econ class.Â
"Uh, Satoru? I thought you were doing the check out today." You carefully approached him, not wanting to annoy him in any way.Â
Satoru's head turned to look to where you stood, adverting his eyes from his computers screen. His eyes traveled up and down your frame, taking in the cute but simple outfit you wore.Â
God, he just wanted to tear it all up.Â
He adjusted his glasses, standing up not before closing his device.Â
"Can't you do that?" He asked.Â
"Oh, well I'm in charge of putting the books back in place, so.."
"No. Absolutely not."
You frowned. sure you've messed up a couple of times in the past two weeks, but you thought you have gotten the hang of it.Â
"Just do the check outs and I'll take care of the rest."Â
His lanky body moved out of the room, giving you the opportunity to let out a frustrated sigh.Â
You heard his annoying voice once again. "Get to work."
You thought this was supposed to be a nice relaxing way to spend your vacations. A little get away from being pushed around by your parents and peers at school, only to end up in the same situation. But this time by a really good looking boy you just wanted to hit in the face.Â
"Have a great day.." You forced a happy tone out, handing the customer the book. You were so burnt out you didn't even process properly when said customer hit on you.Â
"Sorry?" you blinked a few times.Â
The man stood tall, green eyes on yours and a smile stretched on his face.Â
"I was saying that you're really beautiful.. and if you'd like to grab coffee some time?"
Never in your many years living in this shit town have you been complimented by such a handsome guy. His muscles were visible even through his brown leather jacket.Â
"Su-"
"We'd really appreciate it if you wouldn't flirt with our employees."Â
You've gotta be joking.Â
You turned to Satoru whose eyes were set on the man who was already backing away.Â
"My apologies." He politely said, smiling one last time at you before leaving the building.Â
Satoru watched him leave, internally patting himself on the back proud that he managed to scare him off. No way was he going to let you get any game while he was plotting on you.Â
Through his glasses, he finally looked at you, only to flinch a little when you looked like you were one second away from biting his head off.Â
"Seriously? Do you hate me that much? What the hell have I ever done to you other than confuse two fucking genres of books?!"Â
"Woah, watch your tone. There are kids here, if you haven't noticed."Â
"No, listen here Satoru. What is your damn deal?"Â
You were clearly fed up with whatever bullshit he has been pulling.Â
His eyebrows furrowed, not pleased with the vulgar tone of yours. "It's not appropriate to do that kind of stuff here."
"Since when? Not even a day ago were you getting hit on by a girl!" Yes he was the worst guy you have ever met, but he was very handsome. His face looked like it was built by God himself.Â
"Now it's a problem?" You scoffed, walking away from him.
There was no emotion visible on his face.Â
He quickly scanned the library, making sure no one was watching as he followed after you, gently slamming you onto the desk nearby.Â
Rows of shelves covered you from any eyes, but anyone could walk to where you both were any second.Â
"What are-" you were cut off when a large hand covered your mouth, the feeling of something hard pressing up against your ass made you freeze.Â
"You sure are something, huh?" Satoru sighed, giving you a little thrust. "Been wanting to do this since you first showed up. You know how many times my grandma spoke about you? Didn't know you were this pretty."Â
Your moan was muffled by him, already feeling yourself get wet, which he took notice on.Â
His free hand traveled down to squeeze your inner thighs, moaning lowly. He's never actually touched a woman like this before. Only learning the ways of sex because of the mature section that was on the second floor, hidden away.Â
He's read a few pages here and there discreetly when organizing them or when he had to kick teenagers out for treating it like the back of Spencers.Â
"Fuck.. is this okay?" His cock was about to explode but he really needed to know if you wanted this too. He's seen the way you stared at him when you thought he wasnt noticing. The way your eyes lingered on his arms, especially his hands.Â
You nodded, whining a 'yes' when he relaxed the hand that was gripping your lower face.Â
âGood.â He leaned in and kissed the crook of your neck, his lips moving against your warm skin as he whispered moaned in your ear, feeling you through your panties. It wasn't a gentle kiss. It was a hungry one, his tongue tracing the outline of your pulse point, biting down on it.
He watched your face closely, taking in all the little expressions you made after he moved your underwear to the side, teasing your bare cunt. His eyes darkened with lust, wanting to see you completely come undone by his touch.
You had no idea how no one had noticed yet.Â
The horrid sound of your wet pussy squelching at every movement his fingers did was loud enough to fill the area you were in.Â
A library was supposed to be quiet by nature, making it an appropriate place to let those who want to study, study in peace.
Not to have sex in the corner. Not at all.Â
âoh my fuck. your so messy.â His fingers curled hard inside you, thumb playing with your clit in circles to bring you to your orgasm quicker.Â
He was living for the small noises you made. How you tried your best to be quiet.Â
"Fuckââ
Satoru pulled back just enough to watch the way you trembledâfingers glistening with your arousal as his free hand yanked his pants down further. He began stroking his cock, continuing working on your cunt.Â
âSatoru..â you whimpered.Â
âYes baby?âÂ
The pet name made you clench harder around his digits.Â
âFuck me..â your own words made you cringe. you sounded desperate. because you were.Â
Satoru lost itâhis cock driving into you with brutal precision as he sucked his fingers clean fucking you in tandem until your thighs trembled around his dick. Â
"Say my name when you cum," he ordered against your neck before sucking hard, the vibrations of his groan making your hips jerk. His free hand pinned yours above your head: "Wanna hear who owns this tight littleâfuck!"Â Â
He cut off mid-sentence when he felt you clamp down on him.Â
âwhereâs you learn how to talk dirty..â you managed to say with the way he was plummeting in and out of you. âand fuck.âÂ
âiâve got my ways of learning sweetheart.âÂ
He chuckled darkly, biting down on his lip to keep himself quiet.Â
âgonna cum inside.â He warned.Â
You nodded, getting dizzy when he hit your g-spot repeatedly.Â
and that was enough to make you cum.Â
âYes.. yes fuck oh my god.âÂ
he released into you, watching as it immediately drip out of you.Â
âThank you..âÂ
you smiled weakly up at him. âfor taking your virginity?âÂ
âfelt like i took yours.â he grinned, helping you put your panties back in place, patting your cunt one more time before tucking himself back in his pants.Â
âsatoru sweetheart? where are you?â Mrs. Gojos voice could be heard.Â
âshit. forgot we were here.â his eyes widened, watching as his grandma walked in.Â
She paused in her steps.Â
âoh! looks like youâve gotten along. see, told you heâd warm up to you.â she innocently smiled at you, unaware of the reason why you two were even this close to each other in the first place.Â
âcmon, youâve gotta help me out with some books.â she turned around, pausing again.Â
â FEATURING pornstar!satoru's big idea of keeping the bedroom exciting? Inviting his favorite costar to come fuck his pretty girl nasty !
You felt like your thighs were vibrating with each thrust of Sukuna's hips against yours. The sweet sting of each inch of his thick cock stretching you perfectly, felt almost addictive.
Staring up at Satoru, you blushed. Your boyfriend carefully holding a camera steady to catch each sinful expression you & his dear friend made.
This was allll his idea, & the grin on his lipsâand the growing tent in his pantsâyou could tell he didn't regret a thing.
"Come on, pretty girl. Focus, smile for the camera." Sukuna growled, grasping your chin & pulled you up, making you look into the camera.
You felt your back instinctively arch against his chest as you cooed at the lens, waving sheepishly.
The white-haired man before you only gave a teasing wave back, carefully out of frame.
You looked out of it, makeup smeared, thighs messy with slick, hair tousled around, but fuck it was the best sight Satoru or Sukuna had ever witnessed.
Satoru used all his patience not to fish his throbbing cock out & have you lick it for him. instead watching just how good his costar was at fucking you into a babbling mess.
It was hard to hold the camera steady though, with your blissed out expression, the soft whimpers & whines you let out at each mean thrust Sukuna graced your cunt with.
"I saidâ" Sukuna hissed, pulling his hips back, only leaving his pierced tip inside you "âto fucking smile." He slammed back in with a brutal thrust, bullying his way to kiss your cervix, your walls clenching tightly around him.
You let out a quiet whimper, swallowing harshly before giving your boyfriend a glossy-eyed smile.
Satoru paused, giving Sukuna a glare. "Be gentle with her asshole." He rasped, slowly bending his knees until he was face-to-face with you at the edge of the bed, cupping your cheek & sweeping his thumb in soft circles.
Even if it looked hot, he made sure to set clear boundaries. Nothing too mean, nothing too far, or the entire night would end early.
Watching one of the men he always filmed with at work, fucking his girlfriend? Hotter than he imagined, especially with Sukuna's reaction to all your little noises.
Satoru smiled at your dazed expression, how you clung to his wrist & pressed soft kisses to the skin you could reach, muffling your moans with his touch. the vibrations finding their way up his arm.
Fuck, it was hard to focus on anything but shoving Sukuna out of the way & fucking you himself.
"You okay baby?" He whispered, choking on a chuckle as Sukuna's hips stuttered, reaching over to swat Satoru away.
"She's just fine." Sukuna sneered at his friend, guiding your hips into a slow roll against his, pressing you back down against the comforters. "You promised you wouldn't touch her while I was fucking her, Gojo."
"She's my girlfriend, Ryomen. I'm allowed to check on her if she seems a little too out of it." Satoru stated, carefully guiding the camera to capture your buried face. "Even when you look so pretty like this baby."
Even though Satoru couldn't see it, Sukuna could feel how tightly you clenched around him at the sound of Satoru's voice.
You simply nodded at Satoru, reaching out to grasp his wrist tightly, guiding it back against your face with a whimper.
"Look at that." Sukuna purred, spreading your thighs wider, pumping deeper into you, a cocky grin growing on his lips as he flicked his gaze between you & Satoru. "You just looove it when he talks like that, don't you?"
You didn't form a response, just lazily nodding against the mattress & scratched at your boyfriend's forearm.
"Oh? Naughty, naughty. Clinging to me while fucking my friend. Imagine how Ryomen must feel?"' Satoru cooed teasingly, though he didn't attempt to pull away from your touch.
'I'm just fine, pretty girl takes me well." Sukuna assured, pulling your hips flush against his & bottoming out in your greedy cunt, just before a loud, choked, whimper escaped your throat, instinctively grasping your boyfriend's hoodie, dragging him closer.
Both of them froze, Sukuna's hands on your hips instinctively raising above his head & worry painting itself across Satoru's face.
He'd never heard that type of noise from you before.
"Are you okay?" He whispered, leaning closer, passing the camera instead to Sukuna so he could check on you.
You surprised him by dragging him into a sloppy kiss. "Stay put?" You pleaded, holding tightly onto the sides of his jaw. "Please?"
He gulped, glancing up at the very confused Sukuna before flicking his gaze back to you, nodding softly. "Of course baby."
"Is this an okay angle?" You glanced up at Sukuna, who gave a quick nod, holding the camera steady on his camera as he started back up his pace.
It wasn't hard to get close, he'd been sure he was only a thrust away from finishing when you'd scared them.
Your soft whimpers were driving both of them crazy.
Gojo smiled at your fucked out expression, brushing his thumb over your smeared mascara. "So pretty."
Sukuna's hips stuttered, his shoulders tensing a little. "I'm about toâ" He choked when you pressed your hips back against his, his body tensing as white-hot pleasure swept through you both.
You tugged Satoru against your lips, thighs shaking around Sukuna as your orgasm left you trembling.
"Fuck." Sukuna rasped, swatting your ass teasingly as he watched the creamy mess dribble out. "No wonder Satoru's always bragging on you. You really were a good girl."
You blushed, pulling away from Satoru, who nodded, pressing his forehead against yours. "She's the best."
đ§đ¨đđ : art from to00fu, rewritten fic !
geto suguru is everyoneâs first crush. having a crush on him is as hopeless as it is inevitable though your friends quickly disagree that the awe-struck, mouth gaping expression is a strictly you thing, and that he isn't as much of a campus celebrity as you believe he is. regardless, you're determined to put your inability to hold a conversation with him in the past. the solution is simple, you seek out his best friend. if geto suguru is everyoneâs first crush (again, a completely objective statement), then gojo satoru is everyoneâs first heartbreak.
pairing: frat&icehockey!gojo x reader
content: mdni, idiots in love, oblivious reader, babyâs first kiss + virginity taken by same person (satoru ><), suguru as the wingman, a little angst, mostly fluff + crack !! titjob, a little spitting, p in v, degrading, oral, fingering handjob etc etc 37k+
note: happy belated national arabian horse day! this was meant to come out on the 19th but life got in the way... regardless of the day hit up a friend and start beating a dead horse to celebrate!
Geto Suguru is everyoneâs first crush.
Your friends insist youâre seeing him through some delusional rose-tinted lens and that he is, in fact, not as much of a campus celebrity as you believe him to be. You reject that notion. One look at him from across the room, other party goers be damned, is all it takes to confirm what you already know.
Geto laughs at something one of his friends says, tipping forward slightly as the alcohol softens his movements. You catch the tail ends of his laughter through the thumping bass, the glint of light reflected off his lip piercings when he smiles wide, his hand running through his untied black hair.
It would be as easy as walking up and saying hi to start a conversation. It would be as easy as smiling for him to turn his head and grace you with a smile of his own.
Oh, what you would give to be bathed in his gaze, for that pretty smile to widen at the sight of you. Heâd spot you through the crowd, youâd tuck your hair shyly behind your ear and heâd politely excuse himself from his conversation to walk over to introduce himself to this mysterious beauty from across the room.
Shoko makes a noise like sheâs strangling herself but when you turn to save her, sheâs staring at your face. âDo you have any idea what you look like right now?â
âWhatâs wrong? Did I smudge my liner?â
You pull out your phone to check your makeup using the reflection but between the flashing lights and someoneâs elbow jutting from your peripheral, youâre only eighty percent sure you donât look a mess.
Considering you dragged your roommate out to this party last minute, Shoko sips her drink with commendable patience. âEven if you did, that would be the least of your worries. Look, you really donât have to overthink this. We didnât just spend all night planning this for you to end up weirding him out with that look in your eye.â
âShit, that was the rehearsed deer look I was talking about!"
âRehearsed how?"
You decisively ignore her. âI just want to do this right."
Her eyes soften slightly. Sheâs always been weak to your woes. âYou will. Heâll love you. If you donât believe in yourself, believe in me. I promise you, Iâve known this guy for years and youâre exactly the type of person he just eats up.â
You think of all your attempts to enter Getoâs world. There's just something mystifying about him, some kind of aura he emits that has you tripping over your tongue and freezing at the worst moments. Your words become stilted, your humour and wit abandoned at every crucial moment, causing you to simultaneously dread talking to him as much as you wished for it.
Shoko turns you to face her, eyes steady in a way yours isnât. âAre you ready?"
You let out a slow breath and attempt to mimic her determination with a single nod.
âThen go find him.â
When you hesitate to even take a single step forward, Shoko gives you a push and then youâre off, legs moving without another thought. The crowd swallows you, bodies brushing past and jolting your shoulders, knocking you here and there. But none of that matters. Not when your heart is already set. Not when determination is the one thing keeping you upright, guiding you closer and closer to the boy who somehow makes a packed, sweaty houseparty fade into background noise
For too long, youâve let this intoxicating feeling linger, letting it settle deep in your chest, almost convincing yourself that watching from the sidelines was enough. As if anything short of his eyes on you, perhaps even his lips on yours, could quiet the restless longing twisting in your heart. Limerence is what Shoko diagnoses you with, but the word feels too small for the intensity that surges through you every time his name crosses your mind.
Geto appears like a beacon before you, the crowds having finally parted enough for you to catch a good look. The party music transitions to an angelic choir but admitting that is basically affirming Shokoâs concerns that your infatuation is unhealthy, so you quickly refocus. Your heart clenches, pounds against your ribcage, and you only hope the dim lighting will hide the warmth spreading across your cheeks. Heâs right there, right within reach. All you have to do is say his name.
All you have to do is make him see you.
You take a step forward, mumble an apology to the girl you bumped shoulders with, take another step towards where heâs laughing with a friendâthen veer sharply to the right and slip into the kitchen.
If talking to Geto were really as easy as saying hi, you would have done it months ago.
The kitchen is quieter, the bass reduced to a distant, muffled thump and you can finally breathe as the crowd thins. Thereâs still chatter though significantly more bearable and your eyes fall onto the small cluster of boys within, standing in the near dark.
Your feet instinctively slow but Shokoâs voice in your head tells you that youâve done too much to stop now and with a deep breath, you step beyond the threshold.
One by one, the group takes notice of you, their rambunctious laughter quietening into soft chuckles as heads pop up to look. Itâs not strange for someone to enter the kitchen at a party so the most you get is a head nod in greeting before they return to their conversation.
You reach for a red cup and then for a jug of some mysterious jungle juice.
Unfortunately, the jug sits behind one of the boys. Even worse, it sits behind who youâre really here at the party looking for.
Leaning lazily against the counter and nursing a red solo cup of something strong no doubt, stands Gojo, Getoâs best friend.
If Geto Suguru is everyoneâs first crush (again, a completely objective statement), then Gojo Satoru is everyoneâs first heartbreak.
You can feel the burn of Gojoâs stare as you get close enough to lift the jug and pour, hands trembling slightly. Before you can help yourself, you steal glances from the side of your eye, landing squarely on his shirt specifically at the crude letting that reads âTwo Seaterâ, arrows pointing abashedly toward both his crotch and his face.
You look back up immediately. You donât want to know.
The punch sloshes into your cup, some of it missing due to your shaky hands and you donât notice until a sticky trickle runs over your fingers. You hastily stop pouring and lick at the mess.
Before you can figure out how to announce your presence, thereâs a rush of footsteps and another frat boy appears. Hikari, you think his name was, stands by the kitchen entrance, hair slightly disheveled from his usual style, loud and demanding as heâs always been.
âHey!â he calls, scanning the room. âYou guys need to come see this."
A chorus of half-drunk âwhat?â and âsee what?â answers him like a herd of seagulls.
âIn the living room,â he says. âThere's two people on the floor andââ He stops, glancing over his shoulder like the situation might escape him if he looks away for too long. âJust hurry up!"
His vague words cause curiousity to spread faster than wildfire. The group of boys begin funnelling out of the kitchen, cups still in hand, voices rising with excitement.
âWhat is it?"
âIs it a fight?"
âPlease tell me itâs a fight.â
âDid someone break something?â
Hikari doesnât elaborate, instead turning and leaving the kitchen, confident the herd will follow. One friend, Choso if you remember correctly, looks back at Gojo who remains calmly drinking from his cup, still leaning against the counter beside you.
âArenât you coming, Satoru?â
Gojo shrugs, tipping back the last of his drink. âNah. You go on ahead.â
Choso hesitates like he wants to ask why, then seems to think better of it.
âSuit yourself,â he mutters, already backing toward the door as someone behind him shoves past with a whoop.
Within seconds, the kitchen drains of bodies.
Youâre deathly aware of the warm presence beside you. You inhale deeply and turn, ready to get this over and done with only to find him shamelessly looking at you.
For a moment, the two of you just stare at each other, his expression unreadable as he looks you over before his face splits into a lazy grin. âHey.â
âHi,â you squeak, immediately reprimanding yourself at the awkward sound.
His smile only grows. âI didnât expect to see you here. Are you looking for someone? Or maybe you missed the exit? Itâs down the hall to your right.â
âThatâs rude.â You cross your arms in an attempt to place distance between the two of you and to maintain a confidence you donât feel. âI attend parties.â
Gojo huffs and you feel slightly offended. He straightens and steps closer, close enough that his cologne hits youâsharp, expensive, and entirely too much. âI donât know about that. Iâve never seen you at one of these before.â His head tilts, regarding you. âHow do you even know Sukuna?"
For a moment you blank, wondering why he was asking about Sukuna. It hits you then that this party must be his. âAh. I came with Shoko.â
He hums. âThat makes sense. Shoko always did have a habit of collecting strays."
âExcuse me?â
âNot a stray,â he amends lightly at your glare. âMore like her lost puppy.â
"Just because youâve only ever seen me when Iâm with Shoko doesnât mean Iâm always with Shoko.â
âI was talking more about how you were holding onto her shirt in the crowds earlier. She didnât bring a leash for you?"
âDonât project your weird kinks onto me."
âDo you often spend time thinking about what weird kinks I might be into?â Thankfully, Gojo lets the topic go before you really do decide to throw it all away and walk out. âBut alright, letâs say I believe you and youâre just here for the party. Why are you here in the kitchen, then?â
âWhat else do people come to parties for? Iâm here to drink. And stuff.â You trail off, clearing your throat.
âReally?â He eyes your untouched cup. âBecause thatâs just juice. The good stuffâs over here."
He steps into your personal space to reach over you to grab a bottle from the top of the fridge and youâre face to face with the gross words on his top. He retracts his arm, bottle in hand, but doesnât step back. âWant me to pour you one?â
You think back to the last time you let yourself drink under the unwise judgement of Shoko, and how you can only recall glimpses of light and the vague memory of a toilet bowl âItâs fine, Iâve already had a lot to drink."
âRight,â he says, in a tone that makes it clear he doesnât believe you for a second.
You watch as Gojo pours himself another drink, sipping leisurely, pointedly ignoring the way youâre staring.
Gojo isnât exactly a stranger, but itâs an overestimation to call him your friend. In truth, heâs Shoko's friendâwhich means she occasionally drags him back to your shared dorm before disappearing to do whatever it is best friends do. You catch glimpses of him in passing, fleeting and inconsequential, never quite crossing into âintroduce-yourselfâ territory. Why would he? Heâs the kind of guy who turns heads without trying, long-limbed, effortlessly confident, wearing the grin of someone whoâs never been told no in his life.
Where Geto is soft-spoken and warm, guiding you through conversation with patient smiles and gentle ease, Gojo is loud and vibrant and reckless. There's a challenge in his eyes, a knowing smirk on his lips, like the world is perpetually entertaining and heâs always in on the joke.
You, on the other hand, are about as normal as it gets.
When the silence draws into something a little less casual and far more awkward, you clear your throat. âIâm Y/N by the way."
âI know who you are.â
âYou do?â
âShokoâs roommate, right? Weâve seen each other before. Sheâs mentioned you too.â He offers a hand, eyes holding yours like he knows youâll pull away with anything less. âIâm Gojo. Itâs nice to finally meet you.â
You go to echo his words, that of course you knew he was the Gojo Satoru but hesitate, settling instead for shaking his hand. His grip is warm and solid, carrying none of the jitteriness you feel. Hell, maybe you should have accepted a drink after all. What is this, a job interview? Why are you shaking his hand?
When you let go, you become painfully aware of how damp your palms are and curse yourself silently.
Gojo picks up on the silence and moves to lean against the counter, mimicking your earlier pose such that his arms are crossed over his chest, only emphasising his biceps in his sleeveless top. âSo, Y/N. If you didnât come in here for a drink, why are you here?â
His words cause you to still. This was it. Every moment in your dorm, huddled around the whiteboard usually reserved for studying, now littered with far less academic plans, Shoko chiming in her own thinkpieces occasionally. It all accumulated to this moment.
âI was looking for you actually. I wanted to talk to you.â Your voice is barely a whisper and humiliation slowly sinks in when he doesnât answer immediately. Perhaps he didnât hear you considering youâre speaking to your shoes.
When you finally look up, thereâs an unreadable expression on his face. Gojo slowly tracks his eyes up and down your figure. Finally, he straightens, head tilted slightly. âTalk to me? Alone?"
You nod, and his face breaks into a broad grin.
âI wasnât expecting that. Not that I hate it,â he purrs, voice dropping into something smoother as he steps closer and curls a loose lock of your hair around his finger. âWhat did you want to talk about, princess?"
Your mind vaguely registers the gesture, feeling the dampness of your palms once again. âI donât really want to say here."
His fingers still, your hair wrapped around it. âOh?"
You wonder what that look in his eyes meant. âCould we go upstairs?â
Gojo cocks his head, smirk tugging at the corner of his lips. His brows knit slightly, but his eyes gleam with amusement as he releases your hair, the strand falling back into place in a soft wave. âYou do know Iâm Shokoâs friend, right? And youâre her best friend?â
âWhy does that matter?â
âSeriously? You donât think itâll be awkward?â
Awkward? You blink, trying to make sense of his words. Perhaps Gojo and Shoko had argued recently. Maybe he didnât want her catching sight of the two of you together else it put you in an awkward position. Heâs more considerate than you expected.
âIt doesnât have anything to do with her,â you say carefully. âWhether you or I are friends with Shokoâit doesnât matter to me. I just want to talk to you.â You smile in satisfaction, relaxing a little at his kindness.
Gojo suddenly laughs, brushing a hand through his hair as he throws his head back like youâve said the funniest thing. When he looks back down at you, his eyes are shining. âThatâs what Iâm saying! But every time I joke about it to Shoko, she goes all crazy on me. Looks like we have a lot in common, huh? I guess that makes us compatible.â
You continue to smile, the corners of your lips wavering a little in uncertainty. Youâre not entirely sure what he means by that but considering youâre about to ask him for a favour, you appreciate his good mood.
âWell, alright,â he says at last, taking your hand. âIâd love to hear you out. Lead the way.â
Ignoring the little flip of nerves your stomach does as you hold his hand (perhaps he felt too drunk to climb the stairs alone?), you turn and lead him back into the living room and up the stairs to the quieter rooms of the house. The hand holding serves another purpose, you realise, as you weave through the crowds of people and he would surely have lost you had you not held on tighter, practically dragging him onward.
You feel a tug before your feet can even touch the second floor, like heâs suddenly become immovable. Before you can turn and check on him, you feel the warmth of his chest against your back, his hand slipping from yours to settle at your waist. Youâre pulled to a stop, his breath now brushing against your ear, his hair tickling the side of your face. Youâre certain heâs leaning over you despite being a step lower, and the faint scent of alcohol and sandalwood fills your senses.
âI didnât think youâd be so proactive,â he murmurs. You think he might have inhaled, slow and deliberate, but itâs hard to tell over the base vibrating through the floorboards and the frantic pounding of your heart. âWhat else are you hiding from me, hm?â
He reaches for your hand and turns you slightly so you can watch as he licks your fingers, tasting the sticky residue of your spilt juice. His blue eyes seem to sparkle, mesmerising in a way that makes you freeze. âYou taste sweet.â
Your breath hitches and he must have heard because the hand on your waist tightens and pulls you against him, head leaning down to gently nip at your neck. Your stomach does that little flip again, this time accompanied with a hot flush that short-circuits your brain.Â
âWait!âÂ
He chuckles softly, lips ghosting over a soft spot that makes your knees tremble a little. âDonât be nervous. You have me right where you want me.â
You freeze, heart hammering, fingers twitching. When his hand slips just barely beneath the hem of your top, the words tumble out of you in a rush.
âI like Geto!â
For a heartbeat, everything goes still, his hand, his lips, his breath. Gojo pauses, lips pulling back from your sweaty neck. In fact, his entire body jerks back, both feet returning to the step beneath you, hand leaving your waist to turn you to face him. His fingers find your chin to tilt your face down, eyes dark as they hold yours.
âWhat did you just say?â
You swallow, looking him in the eye. âI like Geto.â
He stares at you wordlessly for a few more moments before he frowns, letting go of you completely and stepping down one more step just for good measure. âWhat the fuck are you doing here with me then?"
You gesture frantically between yourselves, finding the answer quite simple. âTo talk? Thatâs what I said earlier, didnât I? I wasnâtâI wasnât insinuating⌠I wasnât trying toâyou know?â
âYou said you wanted to come with me upstairs.â
âYeah?â
âAlone.â
âRight.â
His frown only deepens at your easy response. âYou know how that sounds, right? To get a guy alone upstairs at a party?â
âIt sounds like I wanted to talk to you privately?â You try again at his disbelieving expression. âThe music was super loud. I didnât think youâd be able to hear me downstairs and I had to ask you something important so I didnât want to risk it.â
He lets out a huff, something short and breathy, lips quirked upwards like he finds something amusing, even as his eyes stay locked on you, unmoving. âYouâre kidding me, right?â
You hold out your hands as if to say, âWhat can you do?â.
Gojo groans, dragging a hand down his face. âFigures this was too good to be true.â His hand drops from his eyes to cover his mouth as he continues to stare at you. âNothing about that situation implied you just wanted to talk. And about Suguru, of all things? Seriously, heâs being a cockblock and he isnât even here.â
âWhat was that?â
âForget it.â He drops his hand. âIâm leaving.â
You quickly hold onto his arm before he can completely turn. âWait!â
Maybe itâs the desperation in your voice, maybe itâs your iron-clad grip on his bicep but he doesnât attempt to pull away. Instead, he looks back and wrinkles his nose at you, a strangely childish gesture.
âIâm not in the mood to just talk. Not anymore.â
âCome on, please? Thereâs no one else I can ask!â
âI donât see how thatâs my problem.â
âIf you could just please, out of the kindness of your heart, hear me out I would seriously appreciate it!â
He doesnât budge.
âI wonât tell anyone I rejected you!â
He frowns. âFirst of all, you didnât reject me because it was a misunderstanding. Second of all, are you really in a position to blackmail me right now?â
âI wonât tell Shoko you were the reason her favourite candle knocked over and singed a bit of her rug.â
His frown only deepens. Blackmail, you think, is surprisingly effective. âHold on, how do you even know that?â
âWhat do you mean? I was literally right there.â
Gojo lets out a deep, long groan. He wriggles out of your hold, sending you a glare. âYou know, you really suck at asking for help.â
âYou donât have to agree to helping me just yet. Just at least give me a chance to explain. Weâre already here, arenât we?â
âYeah, well, I had other plans when we got up here that didn't involve just talking.â
You remind yourself to be patient. Again, you were the one asking for a favour, heâs the only one that can help you with your dilemma, you need him. Donât call him a disgusting freak and walk away.
Clapping your hands together, you muster your best pleading look and send it his way. âPlease, Gojo.â
Youâre not really sure what broke through his defenses. For your own ego, you decide it must be because of your puppy dog eyes because he lets out a sigh and gives a reluctant nod.
âGo to the room to the right of the stairs.â
You bite back the instinct to cheer. Halfway through turning around, you look over your shoulder. âYouâre coming too, right?â
âJust get up there before I change my mind.â
Wondering if souring his mood like this would backfire on you, you quickly hop up the remaining steps and head to the mentioned room just in case he really does change his mind. It would be beneficial to appease him before you ask for a crazy favour, after all. Therefore, you donât even try to eavesdrop as Gojo continues to mumble to himself as he follows behind, worrying that somehow he might hear and turn around.
When you both reach the room, he closes the door and leans against it, arms crossed over his chest and expression flat in a way that feels very un-Gojo. Youâre suddenly struck by the unfairness of it, of how someone with such a careless, teasing exterior can also appear so unreadable when he wants to.
âFive minutes.â
You clear the irrelevant thoughts from your head. âExcuse me?â
âYou have five minutes before Iâm going back down.â
You take a deep breath. This is it, no backing out now. âOkay. I need your help.â
He huffs, unamused. âSo youâve said. But with what exactly? Calculus? Because spoiler, Iâve been drinking.â
âWith Geto.â
You watch in real time as the connection in his brain is made. He straightens off the door slightly. âWait. Suguru? You want help with Suguru? What kind of help? Love help? You want love help with Suguru?â
Every word from his mouth is like a bullet to your dignity. Through gritted teeth, you hiss, âYes. Can you be any louder?â
âI can try,â He says with a hint of humour. The smirk returns to his face and a feeling of foreboding looms over you. âThis is what you wanted to get me alone to say?â
âLook, I needed someone whoâs close with him and youâreââ
âClose? Please, Iâm his best friend. Iâm practically his wife.â
âOh. So that makes us competition?â
He wrinkles his nose and looks you up and down. âYou want me to help you get him.â
You nod.
âYou want to confess to him.â
âObviously.â
âDate him?â
âThatâs the goal."
âSleep with him?â
You give him a look so incredulous that he laughs, short and amused. âIf you want advice just hit up reddit. If you want him to like you back then an etsy witch has you covered for five dollars. I donât see why you have to bother me.â
âBecause,â you say slowly. âHeâs surrounded by people. He doesnât even know me. I need all of that, the advice, the reciprocation, and I need someone who can get me close enough to him where he can notice me. And I feel like getting an Etsy witch to manipulate his dreams to include me would cost more than five dollars. And Iâm broke. And Iâm kind of bad with guys.â
âSo, what? You want me to introduce you to him?â
âSure. And maybe tell me what he likes?"
Gojo looks you up and down again. He leans back against the door but this time, thereâs something smug and arrogant about his posture, eyes lazy as he takes up as much space as he can. âYouâre not even his type.â
âThatâs fine, Iâm flexible.â
âThatâs something you say at a job interview, not when youâre trying to get a boyfriend.â
âJust shows that I have an adaptable personality.â
âHe just came out of a 2 year relationship,â he shoots back.
âI accept and embrace his past.â
âHe has a habit of leaving his jackets on the arm rest of couches.â
âI have hands, I can put them away.â
âWhereâs your self-respect?â
âWith him. Iâll get it back after I get with him.â
Gojo huffs. âHe doesnât even know you.â
âThatâs why Iâm asking you for help.â
âYou know, I think I liked you better when you were just a shy little thing stumbling over your words.â
Again, you can only shrug.
When he only frowns, you decide to use your hidden ace. Before he can open his mouth and surely reject you, you beat him to it, voice overlapping his.
âIâll tutor you!â
His eyes narrow and when he doesnât say anything else, you push on.
âI know youâre aiming for that sports scholarship to study abroad next year.â
âHow do you even know about that?â He catches on quick with a groan. âShoko.â
You nod. âAnd I know that youâre looking for someone to tutor you because you need to get good grades to get accepted. If you help me with this, I promise I can definitely bring your grades up. We both benefit!â
Gojo stares at you like youâve just grown a second head and you think youâve lost him when his lips twitch. Then, almost traitorously, one corner lifts higher.
âYou,â he says slowly, pointing at you like heâs identifying a rare species, âAre trying to bribe me. Youâre trying to bribe me because you canât get game by yourself.â
âIt's not a bribe,â you say stiffly. âI'm just saying thereâs something in it for the both of us.â
âItâs a bribe,â he repeats, delighted now. âHoly shit, Shoko's roommate is bribing me. How desperate can you get?â
âIâm offering to give you academic support!â
âWith strings attached.â
âYes,â you sigh. "That's usually how deals work.â
He grins, wide and boyish and every bit infuriating as youâve ever known him. âYou think I can't get a tutor without helping you bag my best friend?â
âWell, you havenât yet.â
âThat's because I don't need one.â
âRight. So I should just forget all the times Shoko has ranted to me about how you keep asking her for help?â
âYou know, this conversation has really enlightened me on who my real friends are.â His gaze slides back to you, assessing. âAnd youâre confident you can help me?â
You straighten your shoulders and give a solemn nod. âIâve fixed worse than you.â
He studies you, eyes tracking your features down to your shoes and you fight the urge to squirm self consciously. He seems to be recalibrating you, seeing you not as Shokoâs tagalong but as an actual person making a very earnest, albeit very ridiculous, request.
Finally, he sighs, long and dramatic.
âWell, at least you have one thing going for you. Suguru eats this kind of stuff up, hardworking, stubborn, a little patheticââ
âHey.â
ââin a cute pet way,â he amends smoothly. âRelax.â
You glare at him anyway but the rational part of your brain reminds you that you need this. He grins back, entirely unrepentant.
âFine,â he continues, raising a finger, âIf I do this, weâre doing it my way. That means we need rules.â
You fight the urge to jump up and down in joy. âI was going to suggest that anyway! How about this, weââ
âRule one,â he says, face settling into something serious. âYou canât fall in love with me.â
Unable to help yourself, you burst out laughing. âTrust me, thatâs not going to be an issue. You're definitely not my type.â
At your laugh he smiles though it doesnât reach his eyes. âRule two, no complaining. Keep that mouth in check, sweets.â
You giggle. âWhat's wrong, fragile ego?â
He raises an eyebrow and you mumble irritated curses under your breath. âSorry.â
âRule three, if Suguru ends up falling head over heels for you, you owe me big.â
âHow big?â
His eyes flick down to your mouth again, then back up, smirk slow and dangerous. âIâll decide later.â
You catch the movement and swallow, feeling none of the humour from earlier. âOkay, deal. Then, rule four, you take your studying seriously. I don't tutor people who donât care.â
âI think between the two of us, I want to succeed the most so thatâs a given. Any more rules, sweets?â
When you shake your head, he nods. âWeâll start tomorrow.â
âNot today? I mean heâs literally right here,â You quickly clarify. âNot a complaint, just a question!â
âI came here to get drunk and have a good time. Iâm going to need at least three drinks to get me back there so be a good girl and wait. Iâll text you tomorrow if you really canât be patient. Unless, you want to back out already?â
You straighten your shoulders, trying to match his confidence. âIâm not backing out! I just want to make sure youâre not going to ditch me. This isnât really a normal request.â
âOh, so you know?â
You roll your eyes at him but have the decency to at least look bashful.
âTomorrow,â he repeats then jerks his chin toward the door. âGo on, sweets. Before I sober up and regain some self-respect.â
âDonât call me that.â
âA complaint?â
You bite your lip. âA suggestion.â
âHereâs a real suggestion,â he starts, turning around to open the door. Standing in the doorframe, he gives you one last look. âNext time you ask a guy to go upstairs with you at a party, maybe start with the part about not wanting to make out.â
Your face gets hot instantly, mouth opening to splutter, âI didnât mean anything by it!â
But he doesnât stay to hear the end of it, rejoining the masses downstairs without another word. He lifts his hand once as a goodbye and then heâs gone, leaving you alone in the room, half mortified, half exhilarated. Unwilling to give him any sense of victory with his last words, you head back downstairs and find Shoko to tell her the results of the first step of your plan.
Itâs a struggle pushing through the thick waves of people but you finally find your roommate off to the side, musing herself in a conversation with someone you donât recognise.
Instinctively, your eyes search for Geto if only to recall what youâre doing this for. Standing beside him, arm swung over his shoulder is Gojo, already sipping from a cup and laughing into the conversation with a natural ease that reminds you of the gap between who you were and who he is. As if sensing your gaze, he looks over and you flinch as if burnt. Something stirs in your gut and you wonder if your little plan to get with Geto has taken a slightly unpredictable turn.
âYou okay?â Shoko asks, noticing your fluster.
You nod, looking away quickly. âOf course. All going to plan, you know?â
âThen I guess youâre up to step two.â
âRight,â Your eyes drift back to Gojo and find him looking at you over the rim of his cup. The feeling in your stomach lurches. âStep two.âÂ
Step two begins with Gojo texting you at the ass crack of dawn. You blink the sleep from your eyes, squinting at the bright light of your screen in mild disbelief and annoyance as he tells you to pull up to his 9am lecture. Despite the lingering feeling that youâve bitten off more than you can chew, you understand that this is necessary.
You know for a fact that you have no classes today and therefore no reason to make the trek to university. a whole day,just gone and tasked with the impossible task of putting up with that infuriating player.
No, you reprimand yourself as you text back your agreement. No complaining. Do it for him, do it for Geto. With those words repeating in your head like a mantra, you pull yourself together and out of bed to get to campus.
It would be helpful, after all, to see where his studies were at if you were going to take this tutoring business seriously.
You get a coffee at the station to combat your sleepiness and the chill of a winter morning before hesitating and getting another. With two coffees, one in each hand, you wait outside his lecture room until the doors swing open.
Spotting him wouldnât be too hard, you muse, considering Gojo is impossible to miss.
And then, you see him.
His unmistakable frame, hair a messy white halo catching the late morning sun, strides into view. He's mid conversation as he steps out, animated, half-grinning, and you find yourself understanding why so many girls lose their minds over him.
âGojo!â You call out, voice slightly drowned out by the chatter all around.
Youâre about to give him a piece of your mind, him having been the reason why you kept to your phone all of last night like a wife anticipating the return of her war husband, when you freeze. Because when Gojo turns, your mind barely registering the amused look he gives you, the person he was talking to comes into view.
Because of course, where thereâs Gojo there is Geto, the yin to his yang.
You werenât ready for both of them.
Noticing your sudden stiffness, Gojo looks beside him and scoffs. Unimpressed, he starts walking over. You panic, attempting to smooth out your clothes and fix up your appearance though your hands are full of coffee so you end up doing an awkward wiggle.
âLook at you,â Gojo starts when heâs close enough. âLoitering outside my class like a fan. Maybe this is more urgent than I thought, not because you like Suguru but because you really need your self-respect back.â
You open your mouth to respond, to clarify, to deny, to just say something, but Geto catches up beside him and suddenly every possible word tangles up in your throat.
âOh. Hey,â Geto says, recognition flickering across his face. âYouâre Y/N, right?â
You blink, knees feeling weak and mind in shambles that he even knew your name let alone match it to your face. âUh, yeah! Thatâs me!â
He smiles, soft and easy, all the charm youâve seen him use on others now directed to you. âI thought so. Youâre in one of Shokoâs tutorials, no? I think I remember her mentioning you.â
âIâm her roommate, actually.â You try for a smile and pray it doesnât give off the extent of your adoration towards him.
âRight, that would be it. Iâm Geto.â
You nod mutely, wishing your brain would reboot to say something, anything that doesnât make you sound like youâve never spoken to a human before. Geto, he says, like you didnât already know his name, like he wasnât one of the most known people on campus. Still, the fact that he so humbly introduced himself only proves his humility and your heart gives a quiver.
This moment was everything youâve ever fantasied. His eyes on you, giving you that pretty smile youâve only seen directed at others. You could have stood there and basked in his attention until the end of time if Gojo didnât suddenly clap Getoâs shoulder and butt in.
âGreat, so glad youâre both acquainted,â he says, ignoring your glare and throwing an arm around your shoulder to pull you into his side. âBut as much as Iâd love to keep standing here and soak in this riveting small talk, I think my very dedicated super fan here needs me for something.â
You shoot him a look. âI am not your super fan.â
âNo? And is that not my coffee?â
You look down at your hands as if only remembering now what you were holding. Biting back a remark, you thrust out a coffee. âIt is.â
He grins, taking it and letting his fingers brush against yours. âThought so.â
Geto looks between the two of you. âOh, I see how it is."
Your eyes fling back to him at the same time Gojo exclaims, âWhat?â
âWoah, did I touch a nerve there or something?â Getoâs smile quickly turns smug. He returns Gojoâs earlier gesture and thumps him hard on the back twice. âI get it. Iâll get out of your hair then. Be gentle with him, Y/N. Heâs actually a pretty sensitive guy.â
It takes you a while to process his words so Gojo reacts first.
âDude, Iâm telling you itâs not like that.â
âSure,â Geto says in a tone that very much suggests he isnât convinced at all. âGuess Iâll see you around, yeah? Later, Satoru.â
You only realise seconds after he leaves that you hadnât said goodbye. In fact, after Gojoâs interruption, you hadnât managed to say anything more to Geto.
âHuh,â Gojo muses, breaking the silence. âYou get like that around him?â
You groan and find the lump in your throat gone. âI stood there like an idiot!â
âYou did.â
âHe probably thinks Iâm a freak!â
âProbably.â
âAnd you!â You look up to glare at him. âYou didnât have to make it sound so weird!â
âSo now itâs suddenly my fault?â
âYou caught me off guard by calling me your super fan!â
âRight, like that was the weirdest part of the conversation,â he shoots back, lips curled in dry amusement. âThat, and not the super sour face you were making at him. Like a grimace.â He mimics your expression and you properly grimace this time, hoping against all odds that that was not the face you had been making at the person you were actually a super fan for.
Deciding you will only lose if you continue to defend yourself, you choose to change the subject. âYou should have told me heâd be here.â
âYou never asked. Besides, is it my fault if you didnât prepare for that to happen?â
You sulkingly mumble a yes and he wags his finger at you, tutting disapprovingly.
âNo complaining, remember? Come on, letâs go. We have things to talk about.â
You sigh though relent to fall into step beside him, fingers curling around your own coffee as the crowd thins around you. Now that Geto is gone, the world feels marginally more comfortable, less bright, less sharp, but also less mortifying.
You remember your stuttering self a few minutes ago.
Still a little mortifying but now bearable.
Gojo takes a long sip of his coffee, then glances sideways at you over the rim. âFor future reference, I don't like coffee.â
You dig your elbow into his side and he winces but doesnât remove his arm around your shoulder.
âWhere are we going? I was thinking we could go to the library and look over your courses. That way I can pinpoint your weakness and where to target first. We only have a few months into graduation so weâre in a bit of a time crunch but I'm positive I can raise your grades from whatever they may be to⌠what?â
You trail off when you find Gojo looking down at you in disbelief. He shrugs when your eyes meet and shrugs, though the gesture is a little awkward with his arm over your shoulders.
âI just didnât think you were serious about the whole tutoring thing.â
âI keep to my promises, Gojo,â you pause. âAnd I hope you will too.â
He reaches over with his free hand to ruffle your hair, ignoring your squeak. âDesperation isnât a good look on you, sweets. Relax, relax, I'll get you two together. Trust me.â
You grumble but donât voice your suspicions, instead letting him drag you in a certain direction. You perk up when you donât immediately recognise your surroundings.
âWhere are we going?â
âI get it, you want to check me out. I'm just taking us somewhere where that can happen.â
âYour studies, not you,â you clarify.
âYeah, and my studies are mine so youâre checking me out.â
You grimace and he chuckles, turning you around a corner. âThe library is too quiet so weâre going back to my place.â
You stop abruptly.
âYour place?â
âYeah.â
âYour place?â
Gojo cocks his head as if listening to something in the distance. âDid you just hear that echo too?â
âForgetting the fact that we should clearly just go to the library or somewhere on campus at least, I thought you lived in Sig Kap?â
âRight you are. Wow, I'm really starting to see why youâre the perfect choice as a tutor.â
âBut you just said weâre going to your place.â
âNothing gets past you.â
âYour place as in the Sig Kap house.â
âLook at you go.â
You stare at his side profile, waiting for a punchline that wonât come.
âGojo.â
âYeah?â
âI am not going to your frat house.â
âWhat happened to not complaining? That was the first rule and youâre already breaking it, sweets. I'm starting to dread this whole arrangement,â he continues to tease, looking ever so peaceful.
âI'm sorry, I don't know what you think I'm about but I wouldn't willingly walk into a den full of men named things like Chad. Do you even have furniture?â
âI only had a cot for the majority of first year but now I've upgraded to a mattress on the floor.â
âGreat. Let's end this here.â
Gojo hooks his finger in your belt hoop before you can walk away. âFirst of all, we donât have a Chad. We do have a Kyle though.â
âYou're not doing yourself any favours.â
âSecond,â he continues on, pulling you back towards him with his finger. âItâs ten in the morning. Half of them are in class and the other half are probably legally dead.â
You stand your ground. âLibrary.â
âSig Kap.â
âLibrary.â
âSig Kap.â
âGojo.â
He leans in suddenly, close enough that you can see the faint crease at the corner of his eyes from squinting in the sun.
âYou want Suguru, right?â
Your breath catches and despite yourself, you hear him out. âSo? How is that relevant?â
âBecause,â he says mildly like heâs talking to a little kid. âSig Kap is where Suguru hangs out. He's my best friend, you know heâs my best friend thatâs why you came to me. Why wouldnât he be over at mine all the time? If you canât handle coming over now how are you ever going to fuck him?â
âI am notââ you choke, voice pitching before forcefully lowering your voice when you notice people looking at you. âThat is notâ I haven't evenââ
Gojo hums, watching you with a victorious grin. âSo you donât want to sleep with him?â
You make a startled noise and start walking in a random direction, eager to leave him behind. Life, however, is full of disappointments considering he follows, his arm draping over your shoulder once more.
âSo where are we going?â
You give in. âSig Kap.â
âWrong way, sweets.â
You groan but follow as he steers you in the opposite direction.
Gojo chatters in your ear the entire walk to where the frat houses are situated on campus, about how his least favourite professor is out to get him, about someone in his frat who set off the fire alarm this morning, about the latest philosophical debate holding the frat hostage: whether cereal is a soup or not. It's a steady stream of nonsense, ridiculous but unbroken because at least he wasnât talking to you so much as at you.
At some point, you stop responding entirely.
Somehow, his mere presence is enough to change your opinion and you actually feel relief when you finally see the house before you. Sig Kap stands broad and sunlit, paint only mildly chipped, windows open to let in the winter air. There's a couple bikes leaning against the porch railing and thereâs an abandoned hoodie on the outdoor chairs.
âOh thank god,â you mumble under your breath when he finally stops talking.
He lets you go to jog up the steps, opening the door to what youâre positive is about to be an overstimulating nightmare.
Warm air hits you first, carrying the scene of coffee and something oily. Sunlight stretches across worn hardboard floors until Gojo closes the door behind you and the hallway dims. A TV murmurs somewhere deeper into the house and thereâs a loud conversation happening upstairs.
âYou said everyone would be either in class or dead!â you hiss.
âIt was an exaggeration,â he says lightly. "Don't worry, everyoneâs harmless. But if youâre worried, you can just stick close to me.â
You ignore his cocky grin and shove him to get him walking. Unfortunately, getting to the stairs meant walking past the living room and you know things wonât be as harmless as he says when a voice calls out.
âYo!â
Gojo pauses and steps back to poke his head into the living room. âMorning.â
You awkwardly step back to let him, pushing you into view too.
Two heads snap toward you at once. One of them is sprawled across the couch, blanket half-tangled around his legs and a bowl of popcorn balances on his stomach. The other is slouched in an armchair, controller in hand, eyes bloodshot and face pale as if he was still hungover. Considering the state of the party last night, you donât doubt that he might be. Speaking of the party, you recognise the one on the left as Hikari.
âYouâre bringing a girl back in broad daylight?â The controller guy says, no tact whatsoever.
Hikari snaps his fingers in recognition. âHey, youâre the girl at the party.â
âDamn, back for more?â
Hikari shoves controller guyâs head down at the crude comment.
âShe's here to save my GPA,â Gojo explains. âSo keep it down, yeah?â
âThat's what we should be saying to you,â controller guy smirks.
Unfortunately, Gojo smirks back. âYou know they canât help it. I'm just too good.â
He guides you back towards the stairs as the boys in the living room chuckle, and when you finally think of something to say youâre already standing in the middle of his room. By then, thereâs another something to take up your mind and computing power.
Despite the relatively large floor plan, Gojo has decided to use none of it. True to his words, thereâs a mattress lying on the floor against one wall, blanket a mess and a single pillow sitting flat at the top. A stack of old textbooks make up a bedside table where thereâs a cute small lamp. On the other side sits a couch and a giant flat screen in front of it at a distance that would make optometrists frown.
Maybe thatâs why Gojo is sometimes seen wearing sunglasses indoors. Maybe theyâre prescription.
âThis is what you bring girls back to?â
Gojo drops his bag on the floor and flops down onto the couch, patting the cushion beside him. âCome sit.â
You eye the seat in disdain.
âWhat's with the look?â
âIs that even sanitary?â
He snorts. âWorried youâll get cooties or something? Relax, I rarely bring anyone back. Usually I go to the girlsâ place for that kind of stuff. Fucking on a mattress is pretty harsh on the back, you know. Youâre the first girl I've brought back in a while. Lucky you, right?â
You grimace but sit down gingerly. âCan you tell me what courses youâre doing?â
âWhat's the rush? Let's get to know each other better,â he says but he still reaches over to grab his laptop from his bag, opening it on his lap.
You can picture it so clearly, Gojo coming back from a long day of (skipping) classes to do his assignments and homework like this, slumped over his laptop on this surprisingly comfortable couch. The bare mattress on the floor might be a big contributing factor to his back pain, but you have no doubts that this routine wasnât doing him any favours. âHere,â he places his laptop on your knees and leans back, pulling out his phone from his pocket. âYou look.â
Considering his complete disregard of safety is not your issue, you donât protest and quickly type in the college website. As if sensing this is not the right time, a prompt pops up to log in again.
âPassword?â you ask, tilting the screen to him.
He barely looks up from his phone, one arm behind his head, the other typing away. âSixeyes69 question mark exclamation mark.â
You pause and type it in. It goes through.
âWhat's the number?â He asks, disinterested.
You look on the screen. â67.â
He chuckles. âNice.â
âAre you seriously okay with telling me your password like that?â
He shrugs, screenshotting the multi authenticator screen before hitting enter. The website in front of you loads and opens to his details.
âTtâs not like thereâs anything you can do with that. Are you planning to sneak in and do my assignments for me?â
Finding no fault in his words, you accept it and click through the tabs. Your brows quickly knit together as you read the contents.
âGojo.â
âMhm?â
âYouâre missing three assignments in this class, you have a midterm for another in two weeks and youâre barely passing first year statistics.â
Gojo looks up at the ceiling in deep concentration before looking down with a smile. âYeah, that sounds about right, why?â
âThis is insane! I'm not a miracle worker!â
âBetter find a lamp that grants wishes soon because your love life is on the line,â he points out. âThat was the deal, you find a way to get me into that scholarship and I get you and my best friend together. It's not my fault you were weirdly confident and didnât check to see where I was at before proposing that.â
Flabberghasted, you can only open and close your mouth like a fish. âLook, the midterm in two weeks, I can probably help with. The three assignments? You failing statistics?â
âPretty sure I passed that last quiz. Maybe check again?â
â51 is just barely passing which is basically a fail.â
âOh no, it seems like you canât do this after all. Looks like the deal is over. Hey, by the way, since youâre already here, why don't weââ Gojo sits up and leans in, one hand on your thigh above his laptop.
âI demand another favour.â
He freezes. âYou canât just do that.â
âI can,â you square your shoulders and meet his eyes. âI did this statistics class during my first year so I still have my notes. I can easily alter them and give them to you and if you have any questions, we can meet up and I'll go through the questions with you. There's no way you can submit two of the three missed assessments as late but I can help you write the one that was due last week. There will be a mark reduction but I'll make sure itâs as good as can be. And, like I said, studying for the midterm is possible in two weeks.â
Gojo stares at you as if seeing you for the first time. When he finally moves, itâs only to remove his hand from your knee and slump back into his leather couch. âYouâre insane.â
You wonder if heâs sulking.
âBut,â you continue on. âIf I help you with this then I can add to my condition. Besides, I made it too vague earlier and youâve helped me see that. So thank you.â
He rolls his eyes. âJust tell me.â
You bite your lip. âGo on a practice date with me.â
He blinks at you, giving you that same incredulous look before bursting into a fit of laughter that does wonders for your ego.
âHey.â
He keeps laughing, one hand resting on his chest.
âHey!â You hit his arm and he finally cracks an eye open to look at you.
âYouâre kidding,â he chuckles, struggling to catch his breath. âGojo Satoru doesnât do dates.â
âDon't refer to yourself in third person.â You smack his bicep one more time for good measure and because heâs weirdly solid under your touch. âIt wonât actually be a date. I just need to know how dates work. I can't just go from zero to not-zero without practice!â
His laughter trails off though the smile remains on his face. He tilts his head to the side. âYouâre at zero?â
You freeze, feeling like youâve walked into a trap.
âDefine zero.â
âHave you kissed anyone?â
You look away. âDefine kissed.â
He laughs again, though mercifully shorter. âThat's crazy. Next thing you know, youâre going to ask me to teach you how toââ
âPlease!â you say quickly. âIt won't be anything serious. I just need to know the mechanics, you know, how dates actually work. What youâre supposed to say, how you sit, when you pay, whether eye contact should be continuous or intermittentââ
âJesus,â he mutters, scrubbing a hand over his face. âYouâre actually a lost cause.â
âWell I've never done one before!â You clamp your mouth shut after, mortified at how loud you just got.
Gojo watches you for a long moment, the amusement still there though dimmed now by something closer to curiousity. Maybe even concern if you squint.
Silence stretches between you, warm sunlight pooling across the floor, distant house noise muffled beyond the door. He looks down at his laptop on your lap then back up to your face.
â...okay.â
Your heart stumbles and you inhale sharply. âOkay?â
âIâll do it.â
âReally?â Relief overwhelms your system and your shoulders relax.
âGojo Satoru doesnât go back on his promises.â He straightens and places a hand over his heart, a mock solemn expression on his face. Before you can poke fun of his use of third person again, he continues. âBesides, I need to figure out where you stand. Let's go on a date tomorrow.â
âEager much?â
He shrugs. âRip the bandaid off. Besides, I have no other time this week, I have practice all of this week for the upcoming game.â
Though you were ready to disagree, you find yourself nodding. âOkay, tomorrow.â
âIt's a date,â he says sweetly before clapping his hands together once loudly. âSo, does that mean I'm off the hook for today? Steam is having this massive sale and I have money to spend.â
You snort. âWhat makes you think youâre free to go?â
âYou got what you wanted,â he points out reasonably. âPractice date secured so mission accomplished, right? Seems like a natural stopping point and the Steam store is calling me.â
He reaches lazily toward the laptop. You smack his hand away without hesitation.
âWell hang up because youâre failing statistics and the submission box for that technical report is waiting for you. I'm afraid youâre going to have to reschedule.â
âYou're kidding. I dragged you here and gave you nothing to prepare with, thereâs no way you'll have anything to tutor me with.â
You stretch out your arms, fingers interlaced, and listen to the satisfying pop of your joints. âWatch me.â
Night has long since settled by the time you return to your dorm. Despite his perennial sulking throughout the entire tutoring session, lips jutted out when he isnât whining, eyes drifting from the screen when youâre not giving him your full attention, he still offers to walk you back to the opposite side of the campus where the dorm houses are. Guiding him through the writing assignment was somewhat akin to extracting teeth from a little kid, but heâs surprisingly quiet when youâre talking and only chooses to complain when youâve stopped.
And by the end of it, youâre proud to announce that he has 500 words on a once empty doc that was almost ready for submission.
Hey, you did mention before that you canât create miracles.
Still, thereâs something bright in his eyes when he reads through his own work, mumbling the words under his breath. So then, when you had reached down to pick up your tote bag and call it a day, heâs on his feet almost instantly, laptop snapping shut as he follows.âIâll walk you,â he says, like itâs not even a suggestion.
The campus at night feels different, all those late nights in the library had taught you that. Itâs quieter, softened at the edges and maybe it's placebo, maybe it isnât, but the air feels fresher and time seems to slow. Streetlamps cast warm pools of light along the pathways, the winter air crisp enough to bite at your cheeks. Your breath fogs slightly as you walk, footsteps echoing in companionable rhythm.
For once, Gojo isnât talking.
He makes the occasional comment, something about how dead campus feels after dark, how he hates early morning practices, how someone keeps taking his chocolate milk from the fridge, but for some reason you donât find it so tolerable. Maybe itâs the way heâs saying it, slower and calm, nothing like before.
You steal a glance at him.
His hands are shoved into his jacket pockets, shoulders relaxed, expression softer than youâre used to seeing. Without the performative grin and constant chatter he looks less like the campus celebrity Everyone knows and more like heâs just some guy. Albeit, very attractive but you digress.Â
âYou didnât have to walk me,â you say into the silence that he hadnât immediately rushed to fill after his last anecdote.
âI know.â
âThen why are you?â
He shrugs. âJust felt weird not to. Besides, itâs late out and your dorm is half a century away. I need you alive to fix my grades, remember?â
You give him a faint chuckle and look forward again.
A few more steps pass in silence, broken only by the shuffle of feet.
âHey,â he says suddenly.
You look up, watching the light scatter over his side profile.
âThanks.â
âFor what?â
âFor today.â He kicks at a pebble on the path, watching as it skitters ahead. âFor not giving up on me after the first five minutes.â
You huff softly. âI said I'd help. And Y/N never goes back on her promises.â
He looks over at you and you both share a smile before his expression turns thoughtful. âYeah, but people say stuff all the time.â
You study him. âDo they?â
He hums and doesnât elaborate.
The dorm building comes into view ahead, lights glowing warmly through the windows. There's still a couple students drifting in and out, bundled in hoodies and coats and wearing slides, soft laughter spilling into the night.
You slow, suddenly aware that the walk is almost over. You turn to him so you can look at each other.
âYou know, youâre not as hopeless as you think,â you say quietly. âI think youâve just never pushed yourself to seriously try.â
He snorts. âThanks, real inspirational.â
âIâm serious,â you protest but the corners of your lips quirk up.
He looks at you then, properly looks, eyes searching your face with a small frown. When he canât find whatever heâs looking for, his brows relax.
âYou really think I can pass?â
âYes.â
Something in his shoulders loosens, tension easing away.
âOkay,â he breathes out. âThen, my grades are in your hands, teacher.â
You make a face. âI think I prefer sweets.â
He laughs and you turn to walk up to the entrance. The automatic doors remain stubbornly closed until you step into the sensorâs range, humming softly as they slide open. Warm air spills out, smelling faintly of old carpet and air freshener.
For some reason your feet slow.
âHey, Y/N.â
You turn, looking at him as he stands just outside the warm lobby light, hands in his pocket, shoulders slightly hunched against the cold.
âYeah?â
He hesitates.
âSee you tomorrow."
You bite your lip and nod, repeating his words softly. Then, before you can do something stupid, you turn and walk into the building. The doors close with a soft thud, sealing you inside.
Through the glass, you watch him turn and head down the path, white hair catching the glow of the streetlights. And of course, he doesnât look back.
Your reflection stares back at you instead, cheeks flushed from the cold, eyes a little too bright, heart still beating faster than it should.
Tomorrow, apparently, youâre going on a date, practice or not.
For some reason, Geto pops up in your mind and you tighten your hold on your tote bag, making your way up the stairs. The soft curve of his smile earlier this morning, the way he had said your name like it belonged in his mouth, or maybe that was just wistful thinking. But the warmth in his eyes that had nearly short-circuited your brain was most definitely real and you cling to the image.
Right, this is for him.
Your phone buzzes a little after you settle into bed that night, making you jolt. you roll onto your side and reach for your phone, pulling it free from your charger as you read through your notifications.
gojo: i made it back safe in case you were wondering ><
You get comfortable, tucking your doona under your chin as you type back, your phone the only light source in your dark room.
you: trust i wasnât worried but thanks ig
gojo: who said anything about being worried?
also donât flake on me tomorrow
iâm taking this mentorship very seriously so u better asw you: i wonât flake ik iâm already asking sm of u
gojo: oh u know do u?
so ure going to pay for our date tmrw?
you: itâs not a date
gojo: sure it isnât
you: itâs just practice
gojo: i didnât say it wasnât
but if you admitted it was a real date iâd pay yk
you: please
like iâd actually want you to pay for my coffee
not a date, not real, donât need u to pay for my drinks
gojo: ure a hard girl to please
you: if its from someone like you, its gonna be harder than just hard
try impossible
gojo: harder than hard?
you: ?
gojo: something feels wrong about that sentence for some reason
anyway
is the campus close for you or should we meet up in the city
you: the campus works for me
gojo: ure not just saying that to avoid the date allegations are you
you: no way
gojo: sure sweets i believe u
donât wear anything boring
first impressions matter yk
you: oh my god stop pushing the date allegations
its just practice !!!!
gojo: okay and you can practice dressing up for me
for suguru
like for practice
you: ?
i know what u meant
but sure
as long as u do too theres no way im embarrassing myself by showing up overdressed if u show up in sweats and a hoodie
gojo: wouldnât dream of it
see u saturday sweets
You stare at the nickname longer than you should.
Your fingers hover over the keyboard for a moment before moving.
you: goodnight gojo
The reply bubble appears then disappears before appearing again. Nothing comes of it as it disappears one more time and stays gone.
You swipe off the app and place your phone back on your bedside table, ignoring the pleasant buzz running through you.Â
You show up early like a super fan.
Youâve been sitting at the little corner table situated at the back of your favourite campus cafe for the past ten minutes now, stirring your drink just to look busy. The cafe hums around you with soft chatter, clinking spoons against teacups and ceramic against ceramic, a mellow playlist faintly playing in the background, but your nerves drown most of it out.
Youâve already gone through three mental checklists as you sit there, waiting. Your fingers curl around your empty cup, feeling the beads of water drip down your fingers and you really hope you wonât need to make an awkward break for the bathroom anytime soon considering he should be here about now.
You tell yourself youâre not nervous but you catch yourself glancing at the door every other second, heart jumping each time it swings open.
The bell chimes again and you look up with a start, eyes immediately locking onto Gojo as he saunters in, lifting his sunglasses so they rest on his head. Heâs dressed casually, a white and blue jersey over a pair of blue baggy jeans, but his good looks mold the outfit into something appropriate for a date.
Gojo spots you at his first look around and grins, sliding into the seat across.
âMorning,â he greets, a wide smile on his face. His eyes flicker down once at your empty cup. âDid you wait long?â
âNo, not at all!â You remember who youâre talking to and relax a little. âActually, I got here fifteen minutes early. I guess I got a little anxious.â
âWell, you donât need to be. You look nice,â he says, tone light. His eyes look you over once to make his words comprehensible and then one more time purely for the love of the game. âTrying to impress me?â
You scoff, trying to recover. âYou told me to dress nice.â
âCâmon, sweets. Play along. Weâre on a date, you know. Your next lines should be something like,â he suddenly tucks his elbow in, body curving to the side slightly, hand half closed and held delicately over his lips and chin. His eyelashes flutter over his cheek as he looks down and to the side, a faux shyness that makes you want to laugh. ââThank you, you look good tooâ.â
You let yourself laugh, shoulders relaxing. âWhat the fuck?â
âYou give it a try. It always works in anime.â
âNo way in hell,â you continue, laughing fading into occasional giggles as his gesture replays in your mind. âBesides, this is a practice date. I'll save that technique for the real deal, thank you very much.â
âAnd for practice, weâre going to pretend this is a real date.â He leans back into his seat, legs stretching out and bracketing yours under the table. His feet bump against yours lightly. âLet's give it another try. Did I make you wait long?â
You stir the straw inside your drink, pretending to be nonchalant, though your fingers twitch slightly against the glass. âNot long⌠I guess.â You try a mysterious act, hearing that guys like a woman with secrets. At least, thatâs what Shoko told you though a small part of you wonders if you should be taking âhow to seduce a guy 101â from a lesbian.
ââI guessâ?â he echoes, tilting his head. âThatâs the best you can do? Youâre supposed to be charming me, remember? At least try to make it look like I'm not coercing you here.â
âI donât care if I charm you or not,â you say quickly, cheeks warming. âIâm here to learn and youâre here to teach me.â
He laughs, a low, easy sound that makes your chest tighten. âYou know, I'm not exactly made of time. Do you know how many girls and guys would kill to be in your position right now?â
You resist the urge to roll your eyes though donât stop yourself from making your voice dry. âOh sure, letâs spend this entire date talking about all the competition I have.â
âWe would need at least four more dates to cover it all.â
âI didnât know getting into a relationship with you would be such an investment.â You snort. âIf all five of our dates are just going to be you listing my competition, I'd rather stand you up now and save myself the time. And the money.â
âI did offer to pay for your drinks.â He grins at the back and forth, the sides of his shoes bumping into your ankles lightly. âThatâs it, youâre getting into it.â
âFor practice.â
âSure, sweets. Practice. Speaking of,â he says, leaning forward just enough that the sunlight catches his hair. âYou should call me Satoru. Weâre on a date, remember? I canât tell if youâre on a date with me or my dad if you call me Gojo.â
You grimace. âCalling you by your first name makes it too real.â
âIt is real. Thatâs what you should tell yourself to get into this.â He juts out his lower lip, drawing his eyebrows inward. âCome on, sweets, let me hear you say my name.â
âWhen you say it like that, it makes me want to throw a drink in your face.â
âJust once, Y/N.â
You huff and roll your eyes. âSatoru.â
âOh my god, a girl called me by my first name!â he squeals.
You almost stand to get out of here if it means preventing people from associating you with him. He grabs your hand and drags you back down into your seat before you can properly escape, much to your dismay. âRelax, Iâm just playing.â
âAre you here to mess around or help me?â
âWell, you need to tell me so I can help you. What do you even know about him?â
âAbout Geto?â
âYeah, unless thereâs someone else you want to know more about?â He grins, easy and confident.
You ignore his comment. âWell, I know he⌠likes books. music. He's kind⌠thoughtful. Plays the guitar. Ah, specifically electric."
âAre you listing off whatâs on his dating profile right now?â
âShut up,â you snap, but it comes out weaker than intended.
âHe isnât actively on any dating app right now, just for your information.â
âAnd how would you know this? What are you doing on there?â
âIâm not on hinge, unfortunate for the female population, I know. We just tell each other everything,â he says, leaning back, one elbow resting on the armrest of his chair as he studies you from across the table. âIâm helping you, you know? First rule, donât just parrot his interests. Though maybe I don't have to worry about that since youâre clearly struggling to even remember them.â
âI wasnât going to parrot him.â
âI know you were,â he interrupts, wagging a finger. âLast time I checked, liking exactly what he likes does not make you compatible. It makes you predictable. And desperate.â
âOkay, harsh.â
âIt's all tough love, sweets.â
You fold your arms, slumping back in your seat, letting gravity do half the work of your sulk. âFine then, oh wise love guru. What should i say instead? Like, letâs say he asks me what I'm into and my mind goes blank like last time. What then?â
âYou're asking like itâs that difficult. Just be honest, tell him what you like regardless if it matches his interests. Do you want to be a groupie or be something more than a friend?â
âI want to be someone he likes.â
âSo you're going to play the role of Suguruâs perfect girlfriend? And what after that, genius? Are you just going to pretend forever?â
Gojo looks over to the front counter and smiles at some waitresses standing there already looking in his direction. He turns back as they start giggling and playfully arguing over who should come over to take his order.
âDonât force yourself to perform for him or curate yourself to be digestible. If the two of you are meant to be then he should want you.â
You look away, picking at nothing on your glass. âThat's easy for you to say.â
âIt's actually incredibly tiring being this emotionally intelligent all the time,â he says, face neutral.
You snort despite yourself and he looks satisfied.
âAnd what if I tell him and he doesnât like it?â
Gojo shrugs, slow and deliberate. âThen heâs not for you.â
You frown. âWow, youâre terrible at pep talks.â
One of the waitresses finally makes it to your table, an eager smile on her face and a determined look in her eyes. Behind her, you catch the rest of the staff shooting encouraging looks. She clutches her notepad a little too tightly, taking in a deep breath before talking. âHello, are you, um, both ready to order?â
âYeah,â Gojo says easily, flashing her a smile. âIâll just grab a hazelnut toffee latte with soy milk.â
The woman quickly scribbles his order down. âOf course! One hazelnut toffee latte with soy milk.â
âAnd whatever she wants,â he adds, nodding toward you.
You blink, caught off guard. âOh, I already ordered earlier. I'm fine for now, thanks.â
The waitress spares you a glance, eyes flickering briefly over you before returning to Gojo like a magnet snapping back into place. âNot a problem. Is there anything else I can get you started with today?â
âWe're good, thank you.â
Her face falls. She nods, but lingers a moment too long, clearly hoping for something, another question, a joke, anything to keep the interaction going.
Gojoâs grin grows just a little bit wider as he obliges.
âBusy today?â He asks casually, tone warm and interested.
Her face lights up and she quickly steps forward again. âA little! It's usually busy in the mornings what with the morning rush and all. Honestly, itâs like nonstop until at least 1pm.â
âThatâs brutal,â he sympathises, leaning back in his chair, posture loose and open. âAt least youâve got good coffee to survive on.â
She laughs, a bright and breathy sound that makes it clear sheâs not just laughing at the coffee comment alone. âPerks of the job, I suppose. Do you come here often?â
Gojo tilts his head as if the question deserved genuine thought and wasnât just a throwaway pick up line.
âNot as often as I should,â he decides easily. âBut I might start if the service is this friendly.â
Her smile widens, pink creeping into her cheeks. âWe try our best.â
âI was talking about you, sweetheart.â
Youâve been listening and watching with apt attention, taking mental notes on the right time to smile, when to tilt your head just so, when to tuck your hair behind your ears and when to employ the double tuck, when his last words make you frown.
You clear your throat, eyes fluttering away when both Gojo and waitress look over at you.
âWell,â the waitress starts suddenly, glancing down at her notepad like she needs to remind herself sheâs on the clock, "I'll bring your drink out as soon as itâs ready.â
âLooking forward to it,â Gojo replies, though he hasnât looked away from you yet.
She lingers half a beat longer, then turns and walks away, shoulders a little straighter than before.
âDone staring?â He teases.
âI was not staring. Don't you have the tact to not flirt with someone else when youâre on a date?â
âOh, so now itâs a date? Only when itâs convenient for you, huh?â
You reach over for a napkin and crumble it up to throw it at him. It barely makes it halfway across the table before it starts fluttering down.
âItâs only manners,â you insist, cheeks warm. âI didn't know what to do when the two of you were talking.â
He snorts. âYou couldâve joined the conversation.â
âAnd said what? "Hello, I'm also present and this jerkâs date for the day?â
âHey, I like the sound of that,â he muses.
Your next crumpled up napkin doesnât get any further than its predecessor. You glare at him, something about that conversation rubbing you the wrong way, echoing unpleasantly in your head in a way that makes you want to peel your skin off.
You clear your throat again.
âYou're here to teach me like I taught you statistics, right? Even though one is clearly harder than the other.â
âRight. Getting you to date ready is much more difficult.â
You ignore him to save the life of one napkin. âSo, how do I do that? Flirt so effortlessly and not make it cringe?â
âYou want to use what I just said with the waitress on Suguru?â He actually laughs out loud. âDo not, heâs going to see right through you. You should have met his last ex. The two of them were absolutely disgusting andâ oh wait, should I not talk about that?â
âYeah, letâs not.â
He hums and changes the subject. âAnyway, just let it happen. Be natural. You talk to me just fine.â
âYeah, but youâre you. frivolous, class clown, never takes anything seriously, probably never commits to anything,â you start listing, counting them on your fingers.
âI feel like the first thing and the last thing mean the same thing. Put one finger down.â
You refuse, still holding up four fingers. âSleeps on a mattress on the ground.â
âSo does half of Sig Kap. But relax, I get it. So you suck at flirting. Shouldnât you be happy I gave you a live demonstration of how itâs done?â
That gets you frowning again.
âDo you always call everyone something?â
âWhat does that even mean?â
âYou called her sweetheart.â
âI don't know her name. I wasn't about to call her âwomanâ, that sounds very sexist and I'm a feminist at heart. Thoughts on banning periods?â
âShe has a name tag.â
âI donât look at that area on a woman on the first date,â he pledges.
You continue without thinking.âHow is anyone supposed to know when you actually mean it when you give everyone similar nicknames?â
He goes quiet, eyes narrowing slightly. âWhat?â
Before you can elaborate, or maybe divert and make him look away so you can dig yourself out of the hole you just created, the waitress returns with his drink. She leans over him, placing it down carefully.
âHere you go!â
âThanks,â he says, polite but no longer quite as engaged. In fact, he hasnât looked away from you, still giving you that same disbelieving look.
You fiddle with your own drink. Maybe you should have ordered something else if it meant spicing up the number of objects you have in your possession to pass awkward silence with.
The waitress lingers a moment before hesitantly leaving when itâs clear thereâs no encore performance.
âI just meant itâs confusing for anyone, hypothetically,â you say in a rush, beating him. âAnyway! Flirting techniques, letâs talk about them!â
He watches you for a moment longer before dropping his head and ruffling his hair. You grimace, eyeing how close his head is to his open drink. When he looks back up, whatever conflict on his face has disappeared.
âFine, okay. Let's talk. First of all, itâs important where the date takes place. There's unspoken etiquette for every typical date location.â
âLike how you go on a coffee date, you shouldnât flirt with the waitress.â
Gojo cracks a grin. âYouâre getting it. Look, Suguru is kind of an artsy guy. He'd probably take you to an art museum or like a jazz bar for your first date.â
You narrow your eyes. âHow do you know that?â
âI told you, he tells me everything. Focus.â He dismisses your look. âHeâs kind of an enjoy-the-moment kind of guy. Probably wonât talk too much while youâre both admiring something together and saves all the talking until after when he leads you to some underground totally underrated dinner spot.â
You wince. âShit. I kind of like making little jokes in the moment.â
He snaps his fingers, face brightening. âRight? Like when youâre watching a movie in the cinemas!â
âOkay, that is a bit tricky. It depends.â
âDon't Genshin theorycraft me.â
âYou're lucky I got that reference.â
Gojo shrugs. âWell, Suguru enjoys just existing with his special someone. Don't get me wrong, he definitely talks when you get him started but I think heâs kinda cool for being able to sit in silence with someone.â
You chew the inside of your cheek. âIâm kind of bad with silences. I end up embarrassing myself just to fill them. Do you think itâs fixable? Should I just not talk?â
âWoah, slow down. Itâs fine, he has enough social awareness to fill in the gaps if youâre uncomfortable. But iâm just telling you what he likes,â he studies you. âHe doesnât like petnames, by the way.â
Heat creeps up your neck. âThatâs fine, itâs not a dealbreaker,â you mumble.
âI'm just saying. He's a real fan of using your first name. When you two get on that basis, of course.â
âAnything else, Geto expert?â
Gojo hums, taking a long sip of his latte, eyes tracking up. âHe likes meaningful stuff like art with a story behind it, long conversations about philosophy. Like yeah he still likes doing things just for fun but thereâs a difference between like and love.â
You wince. âBut love is meant to be silly, meaningless stuff. Like sending pictures of dogs cuddling because it reminded you of us or whether youâd still love each other if you turned into worms. Like taking the longer way back home just to spend more time together. Or, I don't know, building blanket forts as adults.â
Gojoâs mouth twitches.
You stop, suddenly aware you sound like youâve been storing these thoughts and theyâve suddenly all gotten loose.
âStuff that doesnât matter,â you finish weakly.
He rests his chin on his palm. âLike going to the arcade and getting plushies for each other at the claw machines?â
You laugh, shoulders relaxing. âI'd obviously do better. You look like you have no hand eye coordination.â
âDid you forget I literally play ice hockey?â
âRight, your role as the benchwarmer?â
âMy ass has never once graced those benches.â
âI don't know, I swear I remember seeing you on the sidelines.â
âYouâve come to watch me play before?â He grins, cheek slightly smushed from his position.
âBecause Shoko went.â
He juts his lower lip out. âHarsh.â
There's a few seconds of silence as the conversation replays and you feel a sudden rush of embarrassment. You look up to see if he clocked your earlier slip up but he only tilts his head more into his hand.
âWhat?â
âNothing.â You clear your throat and look down at your drink. It's left behind a ring of water around its base. âHow are you two best friends when youâre so different?â
âBecause he slows me down,â Gojo says like itâs simple. âAnd I drag him out of his head. But he doesnât need another person to do that for him so donât even think of taking my spot.â
You both share a laugh and it lingers a little longer than the joke deserves, warm and easy, until it naturally tapers off into something softer.
âWhy do you even like him?â He suddenly asks, voice soft against the murmur of the cafe.
You slowly slide your gaze out the window as if reliving the moment. You can almost feel the rain on your skin, the warmth of a hoodie not your own, and the residual laughter at the back of your throat that makes you smile.
âLast semester when it was pouring rain, he saw me waiting outside a building without an umbrella and we ended up running through the storm. Itâs stupid but it was fun and meaningless and definitely what I needed after my finals.â
Your words make him frown, finger tracing a random shape on the wet surface of his glass absentmindedly. âThat doesnât sound like him.â
âMaybe you donât know him as well as you thought?â You offer.
âDonât be ridiculous, heâs my other half.â
âAgain, should I be concerned right now?â
âAre you homophobic?â
âNo?â
âThen youâre fine.â
âWaitâŚâ
Gojo glances down at his phone and sighs. âIt's getting late, sweets. I'd love to stay longer but I promised the boys weâd go do this carwashing event.â
He pauses and looks up.
âDid you want to come?â he quickly adds on, âYou donât have to come alone, you could bring Shoko along or something.â
You wrinkle your nose. âNo thanks. You can imagine that sheâs not keen on seeing a bunch of shirtless boys.â
He grins. âSuit yourself. I'll walk you out. It's the least I can do on this date.â
You roll your eyes but stand and follow him out anyway, ducking under his arm as he holds the door open for you. Stepping out, youâre almost blinded by the bright sun and you have to cover your eyes to look up, squinting even with the shade provided by your palm.
He moves to stand in front of you. âWell, I'll see you around.â
Next tutoring session,â you remind him, letting your arm drop to your side. "Don't forget to watch the online lectures before then. And remember to do the weekly quizzes this time. Andââ
He reaches over to ruffle your hair fiercely, laughing when your words turn into a startled squeak.
âYes, yes, I got it,â
He lets you go and watches with a toothy grin as you start fixing your hair, glaring up at him and his audacity to smirk. His face quickly softens.
âSorry I canât walk you back to your dorms. I'm already running kind of late.â
âDon't worry about it,â you say when you feel like you look presentable enough. âUm, get there safe?â
âI will,â he starts stepping back. âText me if you need anything.â
âOkay, make sure toââ
âRelax, sweets, I got it,â He says with a chuckle and a wave, before he turns and starts walking off in your opposite direction.
You watch him go for a little longer before heading back to your dorm.You stare up at your ceiling. your ceiling stares back down at you. You've been staring at your popcorn ceiling for so long that youâve begun to discern shapes and different shades of what you had previously considered to be beige, plain and simple, but was now warping into the image of Gojo.
Something he had done yesterday clung to you even hours after the date. The ease in which he allowed the waitressâ fingers to brush his as he handed her the menus, the way he easily held onto your hand at the party, the lack of concern as he stood close to you on the walk back. You lift up your hands and slowly interlace your fingers. It's comfortable, familiar. until you start wondering one hand as someone else's.
Before you can doubt yourself, you pull yourself up and gather your phone and keys, heading to the door without another thought. On the way through the dorms, you send a quick text.
you: u free? im coming over
You stand outside Gojoâs door and knock. There's a muffled, incoherent reply before the door is pulled open, revealing Gojo. His hair is slightly damp with stubborn strands clinging to his forehead and heâs brushing his teeth. He's not wearing a shirt.
You stare at his chest.
âOne second,â he says around the foam in his mouth. He holds the door open a little wider and ushers you in, letting the door fall to a gentle click behind you. âSit on the couch.â
Wordlessly, you do, watching his bare back as he heads into his bathroom. The sound of water muffles your racing thoughts until he reappears, still shirtless but at least heâs not brushing his teeth anymore.
âHey,â he says, irritatingly casual. âI saw your text. You didnât even wait to see if I was free or not. For the record I am but imagine I wasn't. That would have been an awkward situation and between you and her, I would have picked her.â
You blink away your surprise and look up at him. âHer?â
âItâs a Friday night, Y/N. Youâre lucky I don't have someone over.â
You frown a little at that and he continues, heading to his kitchenette to open his fridge, pulling out two beers. He hands you one, pushing it towards you once more when you donât immediately take up his offer.
âSo, what are you doing here?â
âAre you going to put on a shirt?â
He blinks before a wide grin splits across his face. âI was wondering what you were looking at so deep in thought. I didn't want to assume again after you made a fool of me at the party but I guess you do have working eyes after all. Do you want me to put on a shirt?â
You blush, finally looking away. âObviously.â
He chuckles and places his beer down on the coffee table before going on a hunt to find a clean shirt. âBut from the way you were eyeing me it really wasnât that obvious. Besides, youâre telling me to put on a shirt in my own home?â
âIt's common sense when you have a guest over.â
His voice carries over from his room. âYouâre not really a guest, more like a pest. A guest implies I invited you over, no?â
âBut yesterday you said I could come to you for anything.â
âRight. What was I thinking?â Gojo comes back out and flops next to you, the couch dipping under his sudden weight. He takes the beer from your hands and cracks it open before handing it back and doing the same to his. âSo, you finally going to tell me whatâs up or are you just here to leech off my dwindling beer supply?â
âI donât even drink,â you mumble, watching as the water beads down your fingers.
âNo, but I do have some manners for my guest.â
âYou just saidâŚâ you trail off, recognising that youâll only go round and round in circles if you keep up this conversation. you place the beer on the floor and turn to him. âForget it. I'm here because I need your help.â
âFigures.â He holds the beer to his lips and takes a deep swig. âWhat can I do for you today?â
You bite your lip before turning to him. âCan I kiss you?â
Gojo chokes, pulling the beer from his lips with a hack, liquid spitting out onto his no longer clean shirt and sweatpants. He finally manages to get his mouthful of beer down, but he only coughs and hits at his chest. Hesitantly, you reach over and pat his back lightly.
He shrugs your touch away, looking at you in disbelief. âWhat did you just say?â
âI was wondering if youâd let me kiss you?â
âJust because youâre saying it politer now doesnât take away how crazy you sound.â He stares at you incredulously. âLook, I know we went on a date yesterday but I thought you of all people knew it was a practice date. I'm sorry but I don't feel the same way. Gojo Satoru doesnât do relationships.â
You groan, rolling your eyes. âI didnât suddenly develop a crush on you, Gojo.â
âSatoru,â he corrects you despite his shock.
âSatoru,â you emphasise. âI donât like you.â
âCould have fooled me.â
âYesterday just got me thinking. Youâre so natural with touching and stuff and I realised that I have literally no experience whatsoever. I know Geto isnât the type of person to care about whether I'm a virgin or not but I care. I care because I know I'll freeze up if we ever get to that part.â
He stares at you. âWhen i asked you a few days ago about whether or not you wanted to sleep with him, you told me to shut up.â
âThat was a few days ago.â You shuffle closer to him on the couch and watch as his eyes drop to your thighs inching closer, then back up, something like fear on his face. âI know this is a big favour but I thought since youâve kissed so many girls before and theyâve never meant anything that you might be okay with this? I mean you thought we were going to kiss that time at the party. So is this really that crazy to ask?â
âYes,â he says immediately. âIt is. because you like Suguru and I'm his best friend.â
âBut this is practice.â
âYou canât just echo what I've said in the past.â He runs a hand through his hair, looking off in the distance before coming back to you. âSuguru isnât the type of person to rush to things like that. You'd be in good hands.â
âI know but this is for me. So I know what to expect.â
His face is contorted in a way youâve never seen before. You decide to give another push.
âJust think of me as one of your hookups.â
He exhales softly, eyes staring into yours. âAre you sure? Have you even thought this through?â
âYes, I have,â you lie. âI mean, there arenât any cons. I'll lose my first kiss, get experience, and itâs all under practice anyway so it wonât mean anything. And you get a hookup for the night. It's a win win!â
His face only seems to pale more at your words. âYou havenât had your first kiss yet? Fuck, thatâs a lot of pressure. And I feel like you have the wrong idea about what a hookup entails.â
You shrug. âKissing? Making out?â
âSex.â
You pause. âWell, we wonât go that far. Maybe.â
âMaybe?â He exclaims and you quickly deflect because heâs looking more and more shocked.
âWe can start with kissing.â You shift closer, your thigh pressing against his. âCome on, it doesnât have to mean anything.â
Gojo looks at you, really looks at you, from the encouraging look in your eyes to the determined line of your lips. He huffs, running another hand through his hair at the absurd change to his Friday night plans. Sure, kissing someone wasnât a big deal for him, not when heâs tasted the lips of many before, but there was something different about taking someoneâs first kiss.
Finally, he sighs, long and hard. âJust a kiss.â
You beam, face lighting up. âOf course!â
He hesitates, cursing under his breath something long but incoherent, before gently reaching out to tilt your chin up. âTell me if you change your mind. Just shove me away, okay?â
You nod enthusiastically. âWhat do I have to do?â
âJust let me take the lead for now. And if you feel confident enough to kiss back, go for it.â Again, Gojo mumbles something under his breath, the absurdity of the situation still not lost to him. He leans forward as if to seal the deal before pausing, moving his hand up to caress your cheek tenderly.
Your breath hitches, eyes wide as you curse your own touch-starved form.
âYou okay?â He asks, stroking your cheekbone with his thumb. âChanged your mind?â
You shake your head slightly.
Gojo huffs and you feel the puff of air against your lips.
When his lips finally press against yours, fitting against yours in a way youâve only ever seen in movies, you feel⌠nothing. You squeeze your eyes tighter, trying to dig through the sensations and pick out the one thatâs meant to set off fireworks and melt your stomach into goo. Instead, it just feels like thereâs someoneâs lips touching yours.
Sensing your discomfort, Gojo pulls back, eyes fluttering open to meet your unsure ones. His nose scrunches up a little as he studies your expression.
âHey,â he starts, voice low. âYou're hurting my ego.â
You lick your lips, trying to return your lips to their usual sensation. âIt just wasnât what I was expecting.â
âWhat were you expecting?â
âButterflies?â
He chuckles, hand still caressing your cheek. âYou're kissing me without any feeling. Itâs not my fault youâre as stiff as a board. Relax. Imagine Suguru or something.â
Now itâs your turn to make a face. "Wouldn't that hurt your ego more?â
âJust relax,â he repeats and you make the conscious effort to focus on the way heâs stroking your face soothingly. âThatâs it. Good girl.â
âDon't call me that, I cringed.â
He laughs, leaning in. âAbandon the part of you that cringes not the part of you that is cringe.â
With that, he brushes his lips against your again, letting you feel the slow movement and determine the pace.
Itâs not exactly rocket science, this kissing business, and you start to mimic the motion of parting your lips against his. It takes a few tries for him to hum in approval and deepen the kiss, his free hand sliding up to cup your neck and gently pull you closer to him. You let out a soft squeak and quickly pick up from the momentary break in rhythm on your end.
When his tongue slides against the seam of your lips, you blanch and pull back.
âOkay,â he starts. âThat really hurt my feelings.â
âWhat was that?â You cover your mouth with your hands, the slimy sensation replaying in your mind.
âThat was my tongue.â
âWhy didnât it feel good?â
He rolls his eyes at your complaint and slides an arm around your waist, pulling you closer until youâre half on his lap. âBecause youâre thinking too hard.â
âI was not thinking at all, actually,â you say, scandalised. âI didn't know I was going to be ambushed.â
âOkay, my bad, I should have given you a heads up.â He pauses and announces solemnly, "I'm going to start using my tongue.â
You make a face and he huffs out a laugh, forehead dropping briefly against yours. Up close like this, you can feel the vibration of it in his chest, the way his grip tightens just a little like he doesnât want you getting any bright ideas about you escaping.
âYou're doing fine,â he says more softly, thumb brushing slow circles at your waist.
You think briefly that this must be the allure to him that has girls fawning for his attention. You're not immune either, and you sub consciously melt under his touch, relaxing again. Once youâve done it once, given into his temptation, itâs easy to fall back again.
âFine doesnât seem like outstanding status,â you mumble, trying to maintain some resistance.
âFor your first time, it wasnât so bad.â His nose nudges yours, playfully and coaxing and youâre in his web again. âCâmere.â
Gojo doesnât pull you this time. Instead, he just waits, one arm warm and steady around your hips, hand stroking your hair as he waits for you to come to him. It's a sign of consideration that has you feeling jittery and warm, though thereâs a lazy smirk on his lips that suggests he has other ulterior motives that makes it as infuriating as it is attractive.
Your gaze flicks to his mouth then back to his eyes. His lashes lower just slightly, watching you watch him, and something in your stomach flips over completely. Probably your common sense.
âJust⌠slower,â you mumble.
âYeah,â he says quietly. âSlower.â
He still doesnât move first which is deeply unfair, because now you have to be the brave one.
You lean in. It's clumsy at first, more of a gentle bump of noses and a too-soft press of lips than anything smooth or cinematic like he had kissed you earlier. You almost pull back in embarrassment, ready to admit that maybe he was a better kisser than you had given him credit for if itâll mean this pathetic peck of yours can end and he can make it good again, when his hand tightens on your hip and he takes over.
His mouth settles properly over yours, angle shifting until the awkwardness disappears, until it stops being babyâs first kiss and starts becoming a warm, steady pressure that has your toes curling. Yhe faint brush of his breath against your cheek, the subtle tilt of his head that fits your mouth together and when he nips at your bottom lip, a soft startled sound escapes before you can stop it.
He swallows it down without hesitation.
His hand tightens reflexively and slides down, cupping your ass as he leans back and guides you onto him, fingers pressing into the fabric of your clothes to keep you there, not that you had any plans of moving. One moment your body is twisted awkwardly to meet him and the next youâre seated full on his lap, his warmth solid beneath you.
His breath fans across your cheek in uneven bursts, warm and damp, and the faint scrape of his teeth lingers as a tingling awareness.
You realise, distantly, that youâre no longer stiff.
Your hands, which had been braced awkwardly against his shoulders, loosen without permission. One slides up into his hair as you lean into him, damp strands cool at the ends, warm near the scalp, and the sensation grounds you in a way nothing else does. His mouth opens at the sensation and when his tongue sweeps along your lower lip again, you donât pull away. It isnât slimy or invasive like last time, in fact you welcome it, mimicking his openness and the kiss deepens.
Your breath mingles, movements syncing up and under the guidance of his lips and tongue, you start getting bolder.
You shift closer, just a fraction, your head moving up and face tilting down to angle yourself deeper when a low sound slips out of him.
Your eyes fly open and you pull away. âWas thatââ
âNope,â he says immediately, eyes darker than when you last checked. He's panting beneath your palms, a slightly warm tint to his face as he stares at you.
You swallow. âYou justââ
âI didnât,â he insists, far too quickly.
When heâs so adamant like that, itâs a little hard to say anything more. Besides, while itâs almost fun to poke the bear, the memory of his mouth on yours has you thinking about something else entirely.
You donât move from his lap and he doesnât push you off.
âThink youâre getting it?â he asks, watching you with something unreadable lurking in his eyes.
You donât hesitate. âNo.â
You stare at each other, catching a much needed breath.
âAlright,â he says, voice rough. âOne more. and then we have to stop.â
You lean in and he lets out a soft sigh like a man doomed before meeting you halfway.
Gojo doesnât start slow this time, maybe because he knows if he does, he wonât be able to control himself.
His hand slides more firmly to the back of your neck, guiding you towards him with a kind of impatience, mouth finding yours with confidence, your chest tightening at the gesture. Your fingers clutch at his shirt instinctively and he makes a low noise at the back of his throat, deepening the kiss until you slide your fingers up and into his hair.
A low exhale slips through his nose, almost shaky and he tilts his head in response to your faint tugs.
âThatâs it,â he murmurs against your lips.
Emboldened, you tilt your head and slide your tongue into his mouth to taste him. He tastes like beer and minty and something addictive that has you repeating the movement over and over. When he reciprocates, your stomach swoops instead of recoiling.
You shift, suddenly desperate to get closer and settle over his bulge.
Wow.
You both jerk away from each other quickly, your hands leaving his hair and his arm retracting from your waist. The break feels violent in its suddenness, like surfacing too fast in deep water.
Cold air rushes between you where there had only been warmth seconds ago. Your lips tingle, oversensitive, parted as you drag in a shaky breath. Gojoâs chest rises and falls sharply, eyes wide in a way youâve never seen before, pupils blow dark. For once, there is no smirk, no teasing glint, just a raw, stunned awareness, like heâs trying to process several things at once and failing at all of them.
You become acutely aware of exactly where youâre sitting.
Heat floods your face and to the tips of your ears. you scramble backward, knees slipping against the couch cushions, putting space between your bodies even as the loss of his warmth makes your skin prickle.
âOh my god,â you breathe, horrified. âI didnâtâI mean, I wasn't trying toââ
âDonât,â he groans, slumping back, covering his flushed face with his arm. His other hand reaches down to adjust himself though he doesnât seem to have any ideas of covering himself so you watch unabashedly. âJust donât say anything for a second.â
You clamp your mouth shut obediently.
The room feels too small, too quiet, every little sound like the rustle of fabric or the faint hum of the fridge in the kitchenette, even your own uneven breathing, suddenly feels magnified.
Eventually, Gojo pulls himself up, fixing dark eyes on your figure.
âIâm sorry.â You rush to say, though youâre not sure what youâre apologising for.
âItâs fine, itâs not your fault. It wasn't because of you, I guess I've just been pent up,â he runs his hand through his hair and you watch as he pauses, something passing over his face before he abruptly pulls his hand away. âAnyway, itâs normal.â
You nod too fast. âRight, yes. Totally fine. Super normal, nothing weird happened.â
âRight,â he says. âNothing weird.â
Your shoulders sag a little, tension leaking out now that thatâs been cleared up. The adrenaline leaves behind a strange floaty sensation and you try, and fail, to push down the sudden desire to continue, to explore even further.
âWeâre definitely stopping the practice today,â he says, crushing your dreams.
You nod again, somewhat grateful that a decision has been made for you considering the conflict thoughts warring in your head. âOkay.â
He suddenly ruffles his hair all messy and stands up with an exaggerated groan that makes you jump. âOkay! That's over. You did good by the way. Youâre gonna be trouble when you actually start dating someone.â
You frown. âWhy?â
âIt's a compliment, sweets, learn to recognise them, yeah?â He starts walking over to his kitchenette. âWant an actual drink?â
Your brain is still somewhere back in that last kiss, struggling to catch up. âSure. Just water, right?â
He snorts. âIâm not a creep.â
When you lean back against the couch and close your eyes to recenter yourself, he steals a glance and lets out a long exhale. He closes his eyes for a moment like heâs deeply exhausted.
When he opens his eyes again and makes his way to you, his signature smirk is back.
If anyone saw how nervous you look about to text Gojo, they might think you had a crush on him. Which is absurd because you clearly have a crush on Geto.
Your thumb hovers over the send button, chewing the inside of your cheeks as you debate whether this is a good idea or not.
Itâs been a week since you first asked Gojo for advice and though his methods werenât orthodox nor was he incredible help, you still had to give him his merits. Talking to him was relaxing in a way, the constant back and forth familiar and even his judgement didnât seem to come from a bad place. The physical stuff was a whole other story and did not influence your thoughts on how you felt about him whatsoever.
In summary, Gojo has given you determination that you couldnât have achieved on your own.
Using this newfound confidence, you take a deep breath and finally hit send.
you: hey are you in class today?
Not even a full minute later, his reply buzzes.
gojo: yeah i am
stalking me, super fan?
you: god this is exactly why i hate texting u
gojo: :(
why whats up though
ur class doesnât finish until 2 right?
you: yeah how did u know that?
u sure ure not my super fan?
gojo: guilty!
i just know dont ask what u cant handle
so u gonna leave me in suspense or are u gonna tell me
you: well you have class with geto right
The inside of your cheeks starts getting a little tender as you continue to gnaw and bite at the flesh, anxiously waiting as Gojoâs typing bubbles appear and disappear.
gojo: yeah i do
you: can i come see you?
gojo: what
you: like ill come to your class but can you leave after so its just me and him
u were talking about creating these situations on saturday right
so like
wouldnt this be perfect?
gojo: god this conversation isnât good for my heart
you: ?
gojo: our class ends later than urs
you: thatâs fine i can wait !!
gojo: nah i dont feel like it
you: ?????
man what the hell you said youâd help me
gojo: and i did
on saturday
what if i want suguru all to myself today?
you: come on please???
gojo: what if i dont want to see u
you: well i wont be bothering u this time
i just need an excuse to see him
i think whatever magic u casted over me on sat worked im feeling like scarily confident
i want to talk to him before the feeling goes away
like i feel like i can really do it this time you know?
please satoru?
gojo: god u have no idea how evil u are
fine
ill get us to go to the library
you: THANK YOU@!!!!!!
gojo: u owe me
you: YES DEFINITELY
gojo: another date this friday then
you: OKAY!!!
wait what
Waiting at the library is agonising. you attempt to complete some smaller tasks for your courses that youâve left in lieu of thinking about, well, boys. But just like every time before, your thoughts stray and settle on him. His pretty effortless smiles, his soft laughter, that sparkling glint in his eyes when he looks at you and itâs like the world quietens just to listen too. his long fingers, the mole on his earlobe, his whiteâ
When your phone buzzes again an hour later, you jump up from your seat to find the location of the photo Gojo sent.
You slip into the fifth library floor as quietly as possible, scanning the endless rows of students for the familiar top of someoneâs head. It doesn't take long for your eyes to settle on him.
Gojo is impossible to miss, slouched low in a study booth, hood up and drooping over his hair and the bottom pulled up to cover his mouth. His arms are crossed over his chest as he stares at his laptop screen.
And of course, Geto sits across from him.
Taking in a deep breath, you slow your pace into something that might pass as a casual stroll as if you had randomly come upon them by chance and stop by their booth.
âOh, hi Satoru!â
He doesnât look up. âHey.â
Then, after a manual moment, you turn to Geto. âOh my god! Geto? Wow.â Your voice comes out pitched a little too loud. âWhat a coincidence!â
Geto looks up with a smile. âHey, Y/N. What are the chances we ran into each other?â
Gojo snorts and you donât miss how pointed it is. You take the chance to glare at the side of his face but he only sinks into his hoodie with a grumble. You continue to stare, even narrowing your eyes as if itâll sharpen your gaze and he finally lets out a loud groan, flipping the hood down to ruffle his hair and sit up.
âOh no,â he announces into the silence, loud enough to draw a few irritated glances, not that he cares. He checks his phone, staring at his empty notification list. âIt looks like my best friend accidentally locked himself out of his dorm.â
Geto pauses. âI'm your best friend.â
You purse your lips, watching as Gojo begins to slowly pack up his things. Granted, he only needed to close his laptop and shove it into his tote bag, without a case mind you. He refuses to look up despite your efforts to catch his gaze.
âSorry man, duty calls. I canât help that iâm such a good friend.â He stands, slinging his bag over his shoulder. When he passes by, his arm brushing against yours despite the empty space all around, he leans down to whisper, âGood luck.â
You donât have the time to decipher if itâs sincerity or sarcasm that you detect because he leaves, his lingering cologne the only sign that he was ever there.
You turn back to Geto, offering a small, awkward smile, wondering if heâs caught on.
âWhat was that about?â You laugh.
Geto chuckles softly. âSorry about him. You know how he can be sometimes.â
He looks up at you patiently.
âWell, an empty spot has opened up. Are you staying to study?â
You fight the urge to celebrate. You happily erase thoughts of Gojo from your mind, leaving the gruelling task of decoding his strange behaviour for another day. Gojoâs seat is still warm when you take it, pulling out your laptop just for the act. There was no way you were wasting this golden opportunity with actually studying, donât be silly.
âSo,â you begin, picking at the corner of your sleeve. âAny plans this weekend?â
âYou didnât hear? Satoru is having a game this weekend. Itâs just a preliminary but heâs been hyped for it. I'm sure heâd love it if you rocked up.â
You almost laugh out loud. âNo way. He'd hate that.â
Getoâs brows lift, amused. âWhy would he hate it?â
âBecause,â you say, gesturing vaguely. âWe're not really friends. More like we have a symbiotic relationship. If we didnât have that, I doubt weâd even talk to each other.â
âI don't think so,â Geto smiles at you but instead of giving you the butterflies, it leaves you feeling unsure. âBut you should come. Not by yourself, of course, I'm sure Shoko would come along.â
âIf she was going to go, sheâd just take Utahime.â You shift in your seat, throwing the idea around in your head. âEven if I wanted to, I don't think I know anyone else whoâd want to come with.â
âDo you want to go with me?â
Your brain blanks.
âWhat?â
âI was planning on going anyway,â he says, tone casual and all your senses tunnel-vision on him. âBesides, I've been curious about the girl whoâs been taking up so much of Satoruâs time.â
Your answer is obvious.
âIâd love to!â
It comes out a little too fast, a little too bright, but you canât quite bring yourself to care. Relief, excitement, disbelief, it all tangles together in your chest until the only discernable thing left is a giddy sort of lightness.
Getoâs smile widens, clearly pleased and you beam back. He hands you his phone.
âCan I have your Insta then? So I can text you the details later.â
Your hands shake as you take it, thumbs clumsy as you type in your username, backspacing more times than youâd like to admit. Youâre suddenly hyperaware of everything, the way heâs close enough to see your screen, the warmth of his hand where it had just been, the ridiculous desire to go through your own profile but through his eyes settling on your mind. Later, you can already imagine stalking your own profile, scrutinising every photo, every caption, trying to imagine what it would look like to be him scrolling through for the first time.
When he takes his phone back, he doesnât immediately pocket it. Instead, he actually looks, thumb scrolling down, humming.
Oh god, heâs looking right now.
"Where's that quote from your bio from?â He asks, glancing up briefly. âIt sounds familiar.â
âOh, um. Itâs from my favourite novel.â Your eyes flutter across his face as you tell him the title, sneaking in a quick description to try to sell it.
âIâll have to check it out then,â Geto says, putting his phone away. âDo you read often?â
âNot as much as I want to. You know how it is, with school and everything. Not to mention books are crazy expensive nowadays.â
He nods sympathetically. âThere's this small bookshop tucked away near the city. It's actually close by the rink where Satoruâs game is. I could show you after his game on Saturday.â
Your breath catches.
âAfter the game?â You repeat, trying very hard to sound normal and not out-of-breath.
Geto nods, completely at ease.
âIf youâre not in a rush to get back after,â he adds, considerate as ever. âIt says open pretty late.â
You stare at him for a second, thoughts scrambling over each other.
Heâs inviting you out after a game. That meant walking together, talking more, being alone without the buffer of a crowd screaming over a bunch of men slamming into each other and hitting with their sticks.
You realise youâre meant to give an answer and quickly hurry.
âYeah, that sounds perfect actually!â You say, a touch too fast, then wince and try again, softer. âI meanâyeah. That sounds really nice.â
âGood,â he says simply, smile deepening. âIt's a cozy place. You could get lost in there for hours.â
âThat sounds dangerous. I already have a book-buying problem."
âSecondhand prices,â he reminds you. âIt's much safer.â
You hum. âThat's debateable. Lower prices just means I have to buy more.â
You canât believe your luck. Not only had Geto basically invited you on a date to Gojoâs game, heâs also asked you to go book shopping together afterward. And somehow, you had just finished a perfectly normal conversation with him without embarrassing yourself beyond recovery.
Could things possibly get any better?
âYou know,â he starts up again and you lean in. âSatoruâs doing suspiciously good in his classes recently. Any clue why?â
You freeze, temporarily thrown off guard. âHe better be. I don't tutor him for nothing.â
âI knew it was you. Why are you tutoring him? If heâs blackmailing you, I can help,â he says with a straight face.
âNo, no! Nothing like that!â You rush to explain.
He cracks a smile. âIâm just joking. He's not actually as bad as his reputation makes him out to be. It's all bad rep, you know?â
While youâve known Gojo through his reputation for as long as you can remember, youâve never once stopped to consider that might not be everything about him.
âWhat do you mean?â
âSig Kap had a frat sweetheart two years ago,â Geto explains, folding his hands loosely on his laptop. âShe was nice, really sweet but some of the older guys treated her like shit. When Satoru called some of the boys out for messing with her they werenât too happy.â
Your brows lift. âSo did they kick him out or something?â
âNot that thereâs much they could have done considering his family.â
âWhat about them?â
He glances at you surprised. âYou donât know?â
You shake your head.
âHuh.â His expression softens into something gentler. âYeah. A lot of people approach him because they want something, connections, favours, you know the deal. He absolutely hates it. Ironically, that influence is also what kept the older guys from pushing back too hard and they couldnât exactly scare him off so heâs there to stay.â
âAnd some people still donât like him?â
âSome still donât,â Geto confirms. âSo they spread all those stupid rumours instead. Probably easier that way since itâs not exactly traceable.â
Your stomach tightens. âWhat kind of rumours?â
He hesitates, then shrugs. âStuff about him sleeping around. that heâs messed with every girl on campus, that kind of thing. You donât have to look so devastated, it doesnât bother him much. If anything, it gets him more game. But itâs far from the truth. I mean youâre a girl on campus and he hasnât messed with you.â
Something about the way he says it, calm and matter-of-fact, makes your chest ache.
âHe did earn a lot of respect back,â Geto continues, oblivious to your growing distress. âEspecially from the younger guys. But some of the older ones never really got over it.â
He falls silent, studying you with that gentle, searching look that makes you feel like youâre under a microscope and the spotlight is shining down on you. Whatever he sees under the lens makes him smile.
âItâs nice,â he says softly. âThat youâre so genuine with him. He doesnât get that very often.â
The words hit like a punch to the gut. Couldn't he have used a word other than âgenuineâ? Because you arenât genuine, far from it, and that realisation makes your stomach drop, nausea blooming sharp and sudden and upheaving the contents.
You approached Gojo with a plan just like all those who have approached him with ulterior motives in the past. And youâve used him for his friendship and his willingness to help, to get closer to the person right in front of you.
You are no better than the people Geto just described. Worse, even.
Heat rushes to your face, then drains away just as quickly, leaving you cold.
You push your chair back abruptly, the legs scraping loudly against the floor.
âWhere did Gojo go?â you ask, wincing internally.
Geto blinks up at you, startled by the sudden shift. âOh, uh.â He gestures vaguely toward the exit. âHe said he had to help meâthat is, his friend unlock his door. He's probably back in his room now though.â
You nod too quickly, already stuffing your laptop into your bag with fumbling hands, cables tangling as if theyâre conspiring against you.
âAre you going after him?â Geto asks gently.
You freeze for a split second.
Are you?Here you are, sitting across from the person you supposedly like, the person you engineered this entire situation to get closer to, and youâre about to abandon the conversation to chase after his best friend. This is your chance, the perfect golden opportunity, and youâre throwing it away. and yet, you canât bring yourself to completely doubt yourself.
âYeah,â you say, half a smile hovering on your lips. âIâm so sorry. Thereâs just something I need to say to him.â
You bite your lip.
âSee you at the match though?"
Getoâs surprise melts into an easy grin. "Don't worry about it. Good luck. And Y/N, seriously, take care of him, okay?â
The words prick at your skin with a faint sense of deja vu, but you donât stop to examine it. Instead, you give Geto one last shaky smile, sling your bag over your shoulder, and hurry toward the exit. Your heart pounds so loudly it drowns everything else.Â
You knock at what you believe is his door if memory serves correct.
âGo away, I'm jerking it.â
You canât decide if heâs being serious or just scaring unwanted guests away. Regardless, you clear your throat and talk.
âSorry for interrupting? Look, itâs me, itâs Y/N. Can I come in?â
No sooner had you said your name, the door flies open, Gojo standing right behind, eyes wide and face flushed.
âY/N? What are youâI mean, I thought you had that date with Suguru?â He goes to run a hand through his hair but pauses, switching to his other hand.
âYeah well, clearly I left him to come see you.â You sigh deeply and brush past him into his room. âThereâs something I need to say to you and itâs really eating up at me for some reason.â
âNo sure, go ahead. Walk right in,â he mumbles but doesnât try to stop you, instead closing the door gently. âWhat are you doing here? Because if youâre here to gloat or have a girl talk, Shoko is the one for you.â
You flop onto his couch, staring up at his ceiling. He pauses before following, the couch cushions dipping under his weight as he drops down beside you.
âGojo, Iâm really sorry,â you say, turning to him.
He stares back unamused. âI told you to call me Satoru.â
You blink, momentarily caught off guard before correcting yourself. âSatoru. I'm really sorry.â
âOkay.â His frown lifts and he leans back to look at you. âAbout what?â
You open your mouth, then close it again, suddenly unsure where to even start.
âAbout everything?â You try weakly.
He raises a brow. âThat narrows it down.â
You groan, dragging a hand over your face. âOkay, specifically I feel like I've been using you and being annoying and dragging you into my mess. And also I abandoned you in the library which was rude and I donât know what I was thinking. I guess I wasn't and I'm really sorry.â
Gojo blinks at you and you hold your breath for the verdict.
â...thatâs it?â
âThatâs not âitâ, thatâs a lot,â you argue, pushing yourself up. âYou've been helping me this whole time and I'm just barging into your life, asking for unreasonable favors and taking up your time.â
He watches you for a long moment, something unreadable flickering behind his eyes, surprise, confusion, maybe even something softer that he quickly buries under a flippant expression.
âThat's it?â he repeats, slower this time.
You nod, twisting in your fingers together in your lap, the fight leaving your body as quick as it came. âI mean, it's not nothing. I know I've been a lot. And you didnât have to help me at all, with any of it, but you did and IâŚâ Your voice falters. âI don't want you to think I was just⌠using you.â
Silence settles between you, thick but not entirely uncomfortable. The hum of his mini fridge in the corner fills the gaps. Somewhere down the hall, a door slams and laughter echoes faintly before fading.
Gojo exhales through his nose and leans back, head tipping against the couch cushion as he stares up at the ceiling.
âYouâre terrible,â he mutters.
He turns his head to look at you properly, blue eyes sharp in a way that makes your chest tighten. Up close like this, without the buffer of banter or crowds or motion, itâs impossible to ignore how intense he can be when he isnât performing for anyone. You've had the privilege to see this side of him a few times, and the thought that heâs let you in and youâve only gone and used him fills you with more guilt.
âYou didnât abandon me in the library,â he continues. âI left on my own free will, remember?â
âYeah butââ
âAnd youâre not using me,â he adds, voice flattening slightly. âIf you were, then you arenât using me to my full potential.â
You huff a weak laugh. âThanks?â
âI mean it,â he says, not smiling. âPeople who use others donât show up at their door looking like theyâre going to throw up from guilt.â
Heat creeps up your neck. âI did not look like that.â
âYou did,â he says easily. âStill kind of do.â
You shove his shoulder lightly. He barely moves, solid as ever, but the corner of his mouth lifts and the tension in your chest loosens at the sight.
âSo⌠youâre not mad?â You ask carefully.
He considers that more seriously than you expected. âI was.â
The worry comes back tenfold.
âBut not for the reason you think. So stop looking like youâve aged ten years, sweets, itâs not a good look on you.â
You wait for him to elaborate but he doesnât.
You sigh, unable to keep up with the emotional whiplash and opt to instead throw it all away.
âOkay, well thatâs cryptic," you mutter.
He shrugs. âI'm a mysterious guy. Itâs all part of the irresistable, untouchable charm.â
âI donât see how you can be mysterious when youâre so loud.â
âI open up to you and this is what I get?â
âYou did not open up.â
He turns his head back toward the ceiling. âAnd now I'm closing back down.â
You roll your eyes, but the knot in your chest has loosened enough that you can breathe again, you almost miss this back and forth and it seems he does too because he relaxes fully into his couch. Without thinking, you mimic him, shoulder brushing his. This time, neither of you moves away.
The proximity feels different than before. You've been closer to him than this, and you randomly recall being on his lap for some reason unrelated to this specific moment and the charged, quiet atmosphere.
After a moment, he speaks again, softer.
âDid you at least get what you wanted?â
You hesitate, the question knocking you out of orbit. âI think so. I mean he asked me to go to the game with him. and then a bookstore after.â
Gojo goes still beside you.
âMy game?â He shakes his head with a scoff. âFigures. Well, good for you.â
You twist the fabric of your sleeve between your fingers, suddenly unsure why that answer feels so unsatisfying.
âYeah,â you say anyway, forcing brightness into your voice. âIt is good.â
He hums noncommittally, eyes still fixed somewhere on the ceiling. For someone who never shuts up, his silence feels louder than anything he could say. You sneak glances at him from the corner of your eye, observing the strong curve of his nose, the harsh bob of his Adam's apple, the rise and fall of his chest and his big hands youâve had the opportunity to feel on your ass.
The quiet stretches, though it is far from quiet inside your head.
Then, before you can stop yourself, youâre already opening your mouth.
âCan I ask you something?â
His gaze slides to you instantly, sharp and attentive as if he was waiting for you to break the silence first. âNot to be that guy but you just did.â
âA real question.â You roll your eyes though his somewhat predictable rage bait helps ease some tension. Still, you hesitate, throat tight. If you say it out loud, it becomes real and no longer a suppressed fantasy. But if you donât say anything, this feeling in your chest might never go away, tainting every future you might have with Geto.
âHow do you know what youâre doing?â You ask.
One white brow lifts. âIn what context? I'm good at a lot of things. You're gonna have to narrow it down, sweets.â
You groan softly. âWith girls. With⌠touching. And stuff. Etcetera.â
Understanding dawns slowly, then all at once. You donât catch the shift in experience because you stare stubbornly at your hands clasp in your lap, heat flooding your face.
âOh.â
âI just donât know,â you admit, voice small. âI don't know what I'm doing at all and itâs embarrassing.â
He sits up a little, attention sharpening in a way that makes your skin prickle.
âY/N.â
You press on before he can interrupt. âI mean, I know theoretically, obviously. That's what bio class is for right? But I know in practice Iâll just freeze. Or overthink or do nothing. And if things ever go further with Geto, I don't want to be useless. You mentioned heâs had exes before, right? But I haven't. And that kind of sucks to think about.â
Then softly. âYou're probably the closest thing to experience I have.â
âUseless,â he starts. âIs not the right word I'd use. Suguru would never think that. Heâs not a dick.â
You finally look at him. âI donât want him to regret it. Or think I'm awkward. or that I don't want him.â
He studies you for a long moment, jaw tight, eyes searching your face like heâs looking for something he hopes not to find. âAnd youâre telling me this becauseâŚ?â
You scoff. âYou're not stupid. I mean sure, you almost failed babyâs first statistics but youâre not dumb.â
âNo, I guess I'm not, thanks,â he sighs, running a hand through his hair. âBut I was kind of hoping maybe I'm still fantasising.â
âYou were fantasising before?â
âLet's not go there.â
âItâs a Friday,â you say slowly. "Shouldn't you have a hook up right about now?â
He pouts, looking oddly down. âI wasn't feeling like it.â
âSo you had to use your hand.â
âI wasn't jerking off, Y/N.â
Neither of you believe that statement. Here you are, sitting on the couch of campus heartthrob Gojo Satoru, joking around about the lack of a female body against him while youâre upset about being a virgin. Even Gojo, who isnât admittedly the best at math, shouldnât struggle with putting two and two together.
âRight, I believe you.â You bite your lip, opening your eyes wider as you plead. âI just hate feeling unprepared. Youâve seen just how bad I freeze. Canât you help me?â
He chews on his lips aggressively before finally groaning, running a hand down his face. âYou have the worst ideas known to man. Fine. I'll help you. But we're stopping if it gets weird.â
âObviously.â
âDo you even remember how to kiss?â
âFind out for yourself.â
You grab his collar and tug him towards you, smacking your lips against his the second heâs in range. It's not the graceful, fireworks-exploding moment from rom-coms, more like two magnets clashing awkwardly, teeth bumping before you recall the right angle. Gojo chuckles into the kiss, the vibration tickling your mouth, and you pull back just enough to glare at him.
âIt hurts that you donât remember my lessons, sweets,â Gojo purrs, clearly enjoying your fluster.
âShut up and kiss me properly,â you mutter, snarky even as your cheeks burn.
You dive back in, and this time it clicks, most likely due to his more active participation. Your lips move in sync, his tongue slipping past your teeth. It's surprisingly nice, all heat and shared air, making your stomach flip in a way thatâs equal parts nerves and excitement. You didnât realise how much you were craving this since the last time.
Gojoâs hands stay loose on your waist, respectful but firm, until he deepens the kiss with a low hum. You feel him shift under you, his body reacting before his brain catches up. When you break apart for air, his eyes are darker, pupils blown wide. He adjusts his hips, and thereâs no missing the semi-hard bulge straining against his jeans because it nudges insistently against your inner thigh.
You both look down.
âUh, yeah,â he says, voice a little rough, something like accusation in his eyes as he glares down at Gojo junior. âGuess that means you do remember lesson one after all. Mind if I lose the pants?â
You snort, trying to play it cool despite the heat pooling in your gut. âNot so reluctant now, huh?â
âGame is game.â
He grins, all cock swagger, and pops the buttons off his jeans. They slide down his legs in a heap, leaving him in snug black boxers that do nothing to hide his growing interest. Gojoâs leaner than youâd pegged him for, abs carved from lazy gym sessions, waist dipping in before flaring to solid shoulders. But your eyes zero in lower, where his cock twitches half-hard against the fabric, outlining a decent length thatâs got you curiously intrigued rather than intimidated.
When he sits back down, he leans back on his palms and smirks. âYou can touch me, you know. I bet itâs better than just looking.â
âAnywhere?â
âI'm practically offering myself up to you on a platter. Yes, Y/N. Everywhereâs fair game.âÂ
You eye him for a little longer. He's not as big as he carried himself around to be.
As if sensing your unspoken realisation, he hurriedly explains, "I'm not completely hard yet.â
You nod, sympathetically. âRight, no I get it.â
âIâm serious, Y/N, stop looking at me like that.â
He grabs your hand and places it on his abs, ignoring your sudden squeak.
âYouâre going to have to work to get me there.â He watches as you hesitate, his heartbeat quickening slightly under your touch.
âThis seems less like teaching and more like you just wanting someone to get you off.â
âYouâre learning.â Despite his teasing tone, he eases you closer to him. âLook, itâs not exactly rocket science and what I tell you probably wonât apply to everyone. But most guys are animals so if you can make them feel good then thatâs all that matters. What's meta for most guys though is probably their neck and lower stomach. But you can start anywhere.â
His smirk falters just a tad when you explore, tentatively at first, palms sliding over his ribs and thumbs brushing his nipples until they pebble under your touch. Gojoâs breath hitches, but he keeps it together, murmuring encouragement. âI guess you could try there too. Fuck, this is kind of embarrassing. Canât you be normal and go at my neck or something?â
âYour neck?â Your fingers slide up to touch him there but he laughs and gently brushes your hand away.
âOkay, donât strangle me. When I say touch, I don't just mean with your fingers. You can touch your lips too, canât you?â
You bite your lips and nod, wetting them quickly with your tongue. You lean in closer, your lips finding the pulse point of his neck. It's a quick peck at first, testing, and he just arches a brow, unimpressed.
Fine, challenge accepted.
You brace yourself on his shoulders and lick a slow stripe up the tendon, tasting salt and faint cologne which isnât the best tasting thing in the world, so you nibble the skin. Gojo hums, head tilting to give you better access, and you dive in, sucking lightly, alternating with kisses that leave faint marks.
Itâs heady, this rush of control. His bare chest radiates warmth against your arm, heavy breaths ghosting your ear as he lets you lead.
âHungry, are you?â Gojo finds his footing against the absurd situation because if thereâs one thing he knows, itâs receiving attention from pretty women. If he closes his eyes like so, focusing only on the cute licks against his neck, he can almost ignore the fact that itâs coming from you. âI'd be careful not to leave any marks. Girls get jealous easily, you know?â
You roll your eyes at his very unsexy comment. He's underestimating you, youâre sure he is, and youâre even more determined to prove him wrong.
You kiss down his neck, licking at the column of his neck, and when you find this soft patch of skin, pale under your lips and glimmering with a thin layer of sweat, you do what your instincts roar at you to do and bite him as heâs mid yapping.
âI never really let girls kiss me like this, so be grateful that Iâohfuck!â
Gojoâs reaction is immediate as a downright sinful moan escapes his pretty lips unchecked. His hands tighten in your hips, head dropping forward, panting as he catches his breath from the sudden sharp inhale.
You let go, licking at the mark left behind. âOh, sorry. You donât do marks, right?â
âThat wasâŚâ He trails off, eyes dark as he holds you in his gaze. âJesus, sweets, where did you even learn that kind of stuff?â
You shrug, letting him hold you back and feeling a little bit like a rabid animal. âIt was just something I wanted to do. Was it bad? Did it hurt?â
âNo, it was fine. Keep going just⌠use your hands a bit more too,â he hurries to add on, clearing his throat and loosening his hold on you. âIt feels better if you use both your mouth and hands at the same time. Keep going, but donât forget the rest of me.â
Finding no error in his words, you enthusiastically go back to kissing and sucking on his neck, tasting the salt of his sweat. Meanwhile, you slide your hands down his chest, marveling at how smooth he feels despite his muscle.
When you graze your finger tips between the medial line of his abs, you feel him shiver and you detach your lips from his neck to watch his eyes track your every move, hungry and unblinking.
âAtta girl,â he rasps, abs flexing under your palm and he shivers as you slide even further down, hand hovering his stomach. His cock visibly thickens in his boxers as you trace the ridges of his abs.âThatâs it. Take your time, sweets. I'm not going anywhere.â
You never considered that Gojo would be so vocal during sex, not that this even counted as sex yet. If anything, that made you even more curious, wondering if he himself knew how much he was talking and how little any of it even meant. In case he didnât, you didnât dare talk in case it would break the spell.
Your fingers skim the waistband of his boxers and he sucks in a breath, voice dropping an octave.
âFuck, yeah. Thatâs the spot.â The fabric tents fully now, his cock hard and straining, the tip outlined clearly. It's thicker than you expected, pulsing with need, and the sight sends a thrill straight to your core.
Gojoâs eyes flick between your hand and your face, flushed and focused. âSee? told you itâd wake up. want to see all of it?â
You nod, eyes trained on his bulge.
He grins, taking your hands to hook your thumbs into the sides of his boxers. He helps you slightly though he lets you do most of the work. Emboldened, you tug the boxers down just enough to free his cock, watching it spring up, thicker now, veins prominent along the shaft, the head flushed and glistening with a bead of precum.
Your first words are, of course, very sexy.
âOh damn.â
Gojo laughs breathlessly. For my own ego, I'm going to take that as a good thing.â
âIt just doesnât look how I expected it to.â
That makes him frown. He ducks his head to meet your gaze. âHey. She has feelings too, you know. Donât imply that sheâs ugly, sheâll sag.â
âShe?â It's so ridiculous you snort, the nervousness running away to let curiousity fuel your movements once again, fingers curling around his hot, velvety length. He's rock hard under your soft touch, precum slicking your palm as you pump him experimentally. Gojo groans low in his throat, head falling back against the couch.
âShit, just likeânghâthat,â he grits out, voice wrecked. The sound hits you like a spark, raw and primal, making your thighs clench. âMyâmy dick has she/her pronouns. Itâs 2026 now, get woke.â
Still looking at you, he takes your hand again, wrapping it around his shaft.
âHold it properly. Feel how hot it is.â
He groans softly as you hold him, guiding your hand up and down in a slow stroke, pressing down where heâs sensitive just the way he likes it. âSqueeze gently and twist your wrist as you move.â
He demonstrates the twist motion, his large hand enveloping yours, precum beading at his tip from both the sight and feel of you.
He lets you go, leaning back on his elbows, enjoying the view of you jacking him off. âYouâre a natural, keep going, just like that.â
His breathing becomes heavier, his abdomen tensing. He canât help but buck slightly into your hand.
Despite his unattractive dirty talk, it doesnât drive away the power you feel and it doesnât take away from the sounds, the way his body trembles under your control. It's all so intoxicating, way better than any awkward fumble youâve imagined with Geto late at night with your hands down your pants.
To shut him up, you squeeze a little tighter and he hisses, pulling you away.
âSlow down,â he pants, catching his breath. He closes his eyes for a moment before locking you in a fierce gaze. âDo you usually shove your finger inside when youâre dry?â
âWhat?â
âThis is why lube exists, woman. God, my poor lady,â He looks up at you, eyes trailing down from your eyes to your lips.
âPlease donât refer to your dick as a lady.â
âIâve gotten no complaints so far.â Gojo reaches up, tracing your bottom lip with his thumb, dragging it down slightly. âHave you ever spat on anyone?â
âExcuse me?â You look down at him as if heâs grown another head.
He lets out a strangled groan, hips bucking up under you. âYeah, keep looking at me like that and spit on my dick. Give her the good old hawk tuah.â
Your grimace only grows and he bites his lip, the corners quirking up. âPlease,â he whispers and youâve lost.
The word hangs between you like a dare, his blue eyes locked on yours, all wide and pleading in a way that clashes hilariously with his usual attitude if the unsure quiver to his lips didnât wreck you.
Gojoâs cock throbs in your loose grip, the head leaking more precum that drips down the shaft, making your fingers slick without even trying. You hesitate, face heating up at the sheer audacity, but the way his abs tense, the subtle roll of his hips begging for more, chips away at your resistance.
âFine,â you mutter, rolling your eyes to mask the flutter in your stomach and you must have imagined the way he groans. âBut just know Iâm judging you the entire time.â
âEven better,â he moans.
You lean over him, one hand steadying on his thick thighs, firm muscle under smooth skin, and purse your lips as you spit on him. Itâs awkward as hell, the glop of spit landing off-centre on the underside of his shaft, but you smear it around with your palm.
The glide turns smoother instantly, wet and filthy, your strokes picking up speed as his cock slicks up fully.
Gojoâs reaction is immediate, a deep, rumbling moan spills from his chest, his head knocking back against the couch with a thud, not that he notices. âFuuuck, yesâthatâs it, just like that.â
His hands fist the fabric of the couch on either side of his hips, knuckles white, like heâs fighting not to grab you and take over. But he doesnât, he lets you work him, hips jerking up in shallow thrusts to meet your rhythm, the tip bumping your palm on every upstroke.
âKeep going, tighter⌠shit, youâre killing me here.â
The power rush hits you harder now, watching him come undone under your touch. His cock feels massive in your hand, thick and veined, pulsing hotly as you pump from base to tip, thumb swiping over the slit to collect more precum and spread it down. You can feel every ridge, every twitch, and itâs nothing like the vague fantasies youâd spun about Geto. This is real, messy, and way more intense. Your own arousal builds, thighs pressing together as you grind subtly against nothing, the heat between your legs turning insistent.
âDoes it⌠feel good?â You ask, voice breathy and you slow your strokes just to tease, squeezing the base and watching in awe as a fresh bead of precum pearl at the head.
He cracks one eye open, gaze hazy and dark, lips parted in a pant. âGood? Sweets, donât sell yourself short.â
A grin tugs at his mouth but it falters into a groan when you resume, faster now, the wet schlick of your hand echoing in the room causing you to squirm.
âDonât stop,â he all but whines. âGonna cum if you keep this up. Want me to, sweets? Want me to paint your hand or what?â
The crudeness should turn you off, but it doesnât, it only amps up the thrill, making you bold. You nod, biting your lip as you lean closer, free hand bracing on his chest to feel his heart hammering.
âYeah, do it. cum for me.â
Gojoâs control snaps like a rubber band. his moans pitch higher, body arching as his cock swells in your grip, veins bulging. âFuckâfuck, canât help it, Iâm gonnaââ
He bucks hard once, twice, and then heâs erupting, thick spurts of cum shooting from the tip to splatter your fingers, his stomach, even a streak across his abs. It's hot, sticky, rope after rope as you milk him through it, not knowing what else to do. You slow your strokes until heâs spent, twitching sensitively in your palm.Â
He slumps back, chest rising and falling like he ran a marathon, a lazy, disbelieving laugh bubbling out. He runs a hand down his face, groaning softly.
âI amâŚâ He lets out another breathless laugh, head dropping back against the armrest of the couch. âSo fucking washed. What the hell was that, sweets?â
You blink, a little dazed yourself. Your hand is still loosely wrapped around him, slick and messy, and only when his eyes flick down do you jolt and snatch your hand back like youâve been burnt.
âIâI donât know,â you mumble, gratefully accepting the tissue he hands you, awkwardly deciding to dab at his stomach and abs too, anywhere your eyes can safely land that isnât his softening cock. âThat was⌠hey, wait a minute. Shouldnât i be asking you? What the hell was that spitting thing?â
He shrugs, your body moving with the motion as you remain on his lap. âI told you, thereâs some things some guys like and some donât. As a note of reference, maybe donât spit on Suguru. Youâll kill his ego.â
He has the audacity to smirk at the thought considering the state of him, hair a mess, cheeks flushed, mouth pink and kiss-swollen from all the swearing and groaning.
âYou're disgusting,â you accuse weakly, trying not to think about how heâd looked under you a few seconds ago, jaw slack, eyes glazed, like youâd wrung the soul out of him.
âMmm.â His gaze drags over your face, down the line of your throat, lingering a beat too long at your chest before he drags it back up. âSo, how are you feeling after all that?â
âEmbarrassed,â you say immediately.
âBut kinda turned on, too?â he guesses, just as fast.
Your mouth drops open. âI did not say that.â
âDonât have to,â he says, maddening. âYouâre still sitting on me, you know.â
You freeze. You're still straddling his lap, knees planted on either side of his thighs on the couch, hips pressed to his, fingers bunched at his stomach. You'd be so focused on that scrunched up look on his face when he came that you kind of forgot to be mortified about the position.
Now you remember.
âI was busy,â you mutter, shifting like youâre about to climb off.
His hands come up automatically, one at your waist, one braced at your hip, holding you there without quite pulling you back down. âHey, hey. I didn't say you had to move.â
âBut youâre allâŚâ you wave a hand vaguely at his lap, face burning. âPost-nut clarity or whatever. You should be resting or something.â
âThatâs hilarious, do you think Iâm an old man?â He huffs a laugh. âIf my stamina lasted one puny handjob I would never show my face anywhere. Hey, donât glare at me like that. you know what that does to me. you glaring at me and spitting on my cock while you jerk me offâfuck.â
âDon't say it like that,â you hiss, heat flooding your chest. âYou literally told me to.â
âAnd you did so good,â he croons. âLook at you, all flustered now. You were seconds away from calling me pathetic, you know.â
âHow are you turning this on me? Youâre the one that liked it,â you shoot back, shoulder tensing.
His fingers flex at your waist, like heâs remembering it. âYeah. I really, really did.â
The way he says it sends a tiny shiver through you. You feel ridiculously aware of yourself suddenly, of your damp palms on his chest, of the way your thighs are pressed around him, of the restless thrum under your skin youâve been trying not to notice since he first groaned for you.
You shift again, intending to put some space between you, and hiss as the movement drags you a little too firmly against him, sparking through the ache low in your belly.
You go very still and so does he.
His eyes flicker, dropping for a fraction of a second to the point where your hips meet his. You can feel the change in him, no longer wrecked and loose-limbed, but sharpened like heâs honing in on every tiny flinch.
âOh,â he says softly. âFeeling something, sweets?â
âDonât start,â you warn, feeling every urge to catapult yourself off his lap. His hand tightens on your waist, thumbs rubbing absent circles, maddeningly casual. âCan you let me go already?â
âBut itâs not over yet, are you sure you want to miss the best part? If I said I wanted to make it your turn, would you say no?â
The question hangs between you, heavier than his usual teasing.
âThis isnât⌠about that.â
âSure it is,â he whispers, lips curved into a wicked grin. âYou wanna learn how to make a guy feel good right? Then you also need to know what you like. If you know what works for you, itâs easier to tell him what works for him.â
Has Gojo always been so reasonable?
âBesides,â he continues when youâre not rushing to sign up to his touch. âIâm being selfless here. You canât seriously think I'd let you walk out of here without repaying the favour first, right?â
âWay to sound like a douche.â You swat at his chest, a weak attempt to appear levelheaded.
âHow else am I supposed to say it?â He laughs softly, catching your wrist but not pushing it away, thumb stroking over your pulse. âI want to touch you. properly. Can I?â
Your stomach swoops.
âJust to know what it feels like?â
âExactly.â His smile goes crooked at the edges. âNow youâre getting it.â
You stare at him, breathing shallow. Your heart is thudding way too fast. youâre hyperaware of your own body again, of the way your panties stick uncomfortably, of the restless ache thatâs only been getting worse, of how easy it would be to fall into his tempting embrace.
âHey, come back to me,â Gojo murmurs. âWe don't have to do anything you donât want. I promise I'm not a dick. So? What do you want, sweets?â
You look down at where his hands rest, big and warm on your hips, fingers flexing like heâs trying very hard to stay put.
You could say no, you know that. He'd let you hop off, probably make a dumb joke to break the tension, and the both of you can go back to pretending the constant physical touch is driving you up the wall. But you also know your legs are still a little unsteady, and that every time you shift you have to bite back a sound you really donât want him to hear.
You swallow, hard.
âYou have to listen,â you say finally. âIf I say stop, you stop. and none of your stupid comments either.â
His expression sobers instantly, hands jumping a little at your hips. âPromise. Cross my heart, hope to die, stick a needle in my eye.â
âIâm telling you, when you say shit like that, everything goes back inside.â
âYeah, yeah, I get it, you want me quiet. So can I touch you or are you going to keep torturing us both?â
âYou deserve the torture,â you grumble, then quieter, âBut, yeah. okay.â
He hums. âNot good enough. Say it again?â
You bite back a complaint. âI want you toâŚtouch me.â
It comes out barely more than a whisper, but it hits him like a truck. His eyes darken, lashes lowering as he sucks in a breath. One moment youâre straddling him, the next heâs sat up and turned you around so your back leans against his chest, his breath tickling your neck.
âYou donât know what you do to me,â he groans, hands sliding down to your stomach. His fingers play with the hem, nails barely grazing your bare skin. âCan I?â
You shiver, looking down to watch his hands with anticipation. Swallowing, you brace yourself and nod.
âGood girl,â he breathes.
His hand trails under your shirt, fingertips tracing nonsense shapes on your skin. He doesnât go straight where you know youâre aching for him to go. Instead, he takes his time, mapping out the sensitive spots he finds, where your muscles jump when he squeezes, lowering his hand to where your breath stutters when he drags his knuckles along the inside of your thigh.
âYou're wound so tight,â he murmurs, half to himself. âRelax for me, Y/N.â
âShut up and stop teasing,â you hiss, and then gasp when his hand finally slips higher, brushing over the edge of your waistband.
âIs that a no?â He asks instantly, stilling.Â
]You want to throttle him. âIâm just⌠nervous.â
âOf course you are,â he says, voice going stupidly soft in your ear, hands playing with the fabric. âThe first timeâs always weird. But it doesnât have to be bad-weird.â
He slowly slips his hand under the band, feeling you go still.
âHey.â He presses his lips to your hair, mumbling soft words of praise. âYou're okay, youâre doing good. Just breathe for me.â
You do, albeit shakily, his fingertips brushing the damp centre of your panties.
âYouâre already⌠Jesus," he says quickly. âI really did a number on you, huh? And without even touching you, too.â
âIf you donât shut up, I'm leaving,â you threaten weakly.
He chuckles, guiding your attention away. Gojo slides your shorts down so you can see exactly where his fingers press against, a rush of heat flooding your cheeks at the sight of his thick fingers prodding against the backdrop of the panties you chose out this morning. If you knew something like this would happen, you would have worn something else.
Gojo thankfully doesnât comment on it. Instead, he slowly explores, no sudden movements, no overwhelming pressure, just the occasional slide against your clit.
âOkay?â he asks, and you realise youâve gone silent, holding your breath again.
âYeah,â you gasp. âJust feel different thanânevermind.â
âDifferent good?â He prompts, thumb pressing down on your clit and you jolt, an audible inhale escaping you.
You feel his arms tighten around you.
âOh, there we go,â he mutters, sounding ridiculously pleased with himself. âThat got you.â
You donât dignify that with an answer, not that you have the capacity to because the next moment, heâs moving his fingers with practiced purpose. His thumb circles your swollen clit through the damp fabric, the barrier muffling any sharp pleasure though it helps you wrap your head around the sensation.
When you start lifting your hips to meet his touch, he knows he has you where he wants you.
With his other fingers, he slowly slides your panties to the sides and touches you directly. The effect is immediate, your eyes snap down to watch, body tensing, want like youâve never known it before shocking you.
The sight of your own arousal makes you wetter and he abandons his touch to touch you directly.
âLook at that,â he coos in your ear, voice breathy with awe and smug satisfaction. âHere you were acting like you wanted to leave when youâre this wet. Thought I wouldn't know, sweets? That I couldn't see you eye my dick all hungry like that?â
He emphasises his words with a harsh pinch of your clit and your head falls back to rest on his shoulders with a filthy moan ripped from your throat, raw and unprocessed.
Gojo takes the chance to kiss your neck.
You should hit him for his words, you really should. But instead, your hand flies up to his forearm, nails digging in when he slides a finger to circle your entrance and the world briefly whites out.
He groans quietly, like your reaction is doing something to him. âThatâsâfuck, youâre so cute. Do that again.â
âDonât tease,â you say again, voice barely there and brain too mushy to think of something original.
And like he knows, Gojo slowly slides a finger into your pussy and the pressure temporarily pushes out all of the pleasure. But then his free hand is playing with your clit and heâs telling you how good you are and how pretty you sound, and it comes back.
He thrusts that finger in and out slowly, letting you adjust to the intrusion and when youâre sighing soft moans and broken demands again, he curls it and doesnât stop moving. He could easily overpower you, could pin you down and take, take, take, but he doesnât. Every time you tense like you might pull away, he backs off just enough, murmuring at your ear, though by the time youâre close you havenât panicked in a while.
Heâs the one breathing hard when you start to chase your peak, like heâs the one being touched.
Youâre writhing now, his arms having to tighten around you to keep you still as he slides another finger inside.Â
âThatâs it,â he whispers, panting when your thighs clamp around his hand, head tipped back on his shoulders and eyes starting to roll back. âThere you go. I've got you. Let go for me, yeah? Doing so good for me, sweets.â
âS-Satoru,â you choke out, the name ripped from somewhere deep.
His whole body jolts behind you and you feel a twitch near your ass.
âOh, fuck,â he groans, like youâve done something filthy. âSay my name like that again, I swear to godââ
You donât because suddenly, youâre gone.
His fingers pressed against the spongy spot inside, his thumb circling your clit, and suddenly everything tightens then snaps and youâre tumbling, shaking around the steady anchor of his hand and his arm and his voice in your ear. He doesnât speed up, letting you ride your orgasm on his hand, mumbling sweet nothings against your sweaty neck.
Itâs messy and overwhelming and a little scary for a second, then his palm is flat over your lower stomach, grounding you as waves of sensation roll through your body. His other hand finally gentles and you can breathe again.
When you finally slump back against him boneless, the room feels dimmer. your chest heaves, skin prickling with aftershocks that he guides you through.
He eases his hand away and wipes it on his pants, keeping you steady on his lap.
âHey,â he says softly, lips brushing your hairline. âYou still with me?â
You nod, or at least you try to. âI think so.â
âYeah?â He presses, smiling against your skin.
âYeah.â
âGood.â he exhales like heâs been holding his breath with you. âYou did amazing, sweets.â
âYou're making me sound like a dog.â
âWell, you were very obedient,â he says lightly, then winces. âOkay, that sounded kinda bad.â
He huffs a quiet laugh, the sound rumbling through his chest where youâre still half-leaning against him. One of his hands comes up, hovering for a second like he isnât sure if touching you again is allowed, then settles gently at your side.
You catch your breath, stealing a glance. His hair is a mess, cheeks flushed, eyes still blown wide but thereâs something softer around the edges, so different from his usual cocky composure that it does something strange to your chest.
âYou're the worst,â you mumble, just to say something.
âOh?â his brows lift. âYou seemed pretty satisfied with the lesson.â
You keep your mouth shut because there is absolutely no winning that argument.
Silence falls, not heavy nor awkward, but certainly unfamiliar. Without the distraction of movement or adrenaline, your mind starts spinning into the consequences of your actions.
And the fact that youâre still sitting between his thighs.
You stiffen and he notices immediately.
âUh. Do you⌠want toââ
âYes,â you say at the exact same time he says, âWe should probablyââ
You both stop, voice overlapping as you tell each other to continue then stop again. Itâs funny if not awkward and you laugh, startled and breathless.
âOkay,â he says, hands lifting slightly in surrender. âYou first.â
âNo, you go,â you insist, scrambling upright a little too fast. The room tilts for half a second and you grab his thigh to steady yourself.
His hands hover again, then settle at your waist just in case.
âCareful,â he murmurs. âYouâre still a little⌠yâknow?â
You straighten and stand away from the couch, legs wobbling in a way you pretend not to notice. The cool air hits your skin and reality comes rushing back in a tidal wave of embarrassment.
Your skirt rests on your thighs but theyâre crumpled, and your hair is surely a mess.
Gojo watches, biting his lip hard enough to leave teeth marks. He stands too, running a hand through his hair, suddenly looking almost shy as he grabs his discarded shirt and pulls it back on.
For a moment, neither of you know where to look.
You fixate on a crack in the wall and he studies the floor.
âDo you, uh⌠want me to walk you back?â
The normalcy of the question feels surreal.
âIâm fine with walking,â you say quickly. âThe weatherâs nice so.â
âYeah,â he nods. âFresh air. Definitely.â
You grab your bag with fumbling hands, nearly knocking it off the couch in the process. He catches it before it hits the floor, fingers brushing yours again as he hands it over.
Neither of you pull away immediately. Then, you both do at the same time.
âRight,â you say.
âRight,â he echoes.
He opens the door for you, peeking into the hallway first before gesturing.
âYou sure you donât want me to walk you back?â
You almost cry at the visual of a way out. âNo, no, I'm fine. Itâs not too far anyway.â
Gojo studies your face like heâs trying to decide whether to argue or not. For once, he doesnât look like heâs in on some big secret. He just looks uncertain.
âIf you say so,â he mutters, stepping aside.
You slip past him into the hallway, letting out a big sigh of relief when you hear the door close gently behind you with a soft click. Looking over your shoulder, you see Gojo follow you out anyway.
Your feet slow. âYou donât have to, I'm really okay.â
âIâm not,â he says quickly, shoving his hands into his pockets. âIâm just heading in the same direction. That's all. What a coincidence?â
âUh-huh.â
The staircase is only a few doors down, but the short walk stretches, each step heavy with things unsaid. You can hear voices downstairs, life continuing on, oblivious.
At the top of the stairwell, you stop.
âAre we still going the same way?â
He shakes his head.
âIâll see you around,â you settle on when the silence stretches.
âSee you, Y/N.â
You take one step down, then another. After a third, you glance back.
Gojo is still there, watching. your chest does something uncomfortable as he waits.
âGoodnight, Satoru,â you say softly.
He blinks, like the name catches him off guard every time. Then he smiles, small but warm.
âNight, sweets.â
When you reach the bottom and push out into the night air, it feels shockingly cool against your overheated skin. The campus is quiet, streetlights painting everything gold and shadowed, the distant sound of traffic humming like white noise.
You walk faster than necessary because if you slow down, the thoughts will quickly flood in. And if you start thinking, you might realise that somewhere between asking him for help and leaving his room tonight, something has gone very, very wrong.Â
Youâre not sure why you care so much.Â
You tell yourself itâs because Geto will be there, because this is a chance to make a real impression, because this is what all of it has been building toward. But as you stand in front of your mirror, turning this way and that, smoothing imaginary wrinkles, adjusting your hair for the third time, checking your reflection from angles no one in real life would ever see, you realise this isnât normal.Â
Youâve never put this much thought into a âcasualâ outing before.Â
Not the outfit, carefully balanced between cute and effortless, like you didnât spend forty minutes deciding between two nearly identical tops just for the jersey to cover it anyway. Not the makeup, soft enough to look natural, deliberate enough to feel like armor. Not the way your stomach flips every time you picture stepping into the arena.Â
You know deep down this isnât about Geto. That thought alone makes your chest feel tight.Â
You grab your purse before you can overthink it further and leave.Â
When you walk into the arena, the roar of the crowd hits you like a physical force, loud and electric, buzzing with anticipation and cheer. It bleeds through the concrete walls, through your bones, and through the floor beneath your shoes.Â
The game hasnât officially started yet, you made sure to come before then, but the energy is already at a fever pitch.
Your eyes sweep the rink automatically, searching. And you spot him immediately.Â
Gojo, in his navy and white jersey, skates across the ice like it belongs to him, like the rink exists solely to accommodate his momentum. It doesn't seem to matter that his helmet obscures most of his face, youâd recognise him anywhere. the easy confidence in the way he moves, the loose, effortless posture, the casual speed that looks like he isnât even tryingâitâs unmistakable.Â
His hair, damp under his helmet, peeks out in soft white tufts. His cheeks are slightly flushed from exertion, breath fogging faintly in the cold air as he glides past teammates, exchanging easy shoves and taps of sticks. He's the easiest person in the world to look at and the hardest to look away from.Â
He glances up towards the stands during warm-ups, scanning lazily, and your heart stutters. You freeze, suddenly aware of yourself, of the crowd, of how ridiculous it is to hope heâll notice you among hundreds of people wearing the same colours.Â
I mean, all these people? All wearing the team jersey? And you wouldnât call yourself beautiful, not in the kind of way that makes someone stand out across a packed arena, and certainly not in a way that draws eyes automatically, notâ
Gojo turns a little more. and then his eyes meet yours.Â
The jolt is instantaneous, sharp and electric, like touching a live wire. Your breath catches, lungs forgetting their purpose entirely as a stupid, bright grin spreads across his face.Â
A strange warmth floods your chest, blooming outward until it feels too big to contain. You bite your lip, trying and failing, to suppress your own giddy smile as you tug lightly at the hem of your jersey, lifting it just enough to show the number at the front and point at it.Â
06.Â
If it's even possible, his grin widens. He spins around without hesitation, and easily mind you, skating backward for a few seconds just to show off the back of his own jersey, jabbing a glove thumb at the matching number with pride.Â
Heat rushes to your face.Â
It's ridiculous, childish even, but your heart is pounding and the warmth in your chest swells until itâs almost overwhelming.Â
When warm-ups end, he lifts his stick in your direction in one last, unmistakable acknowledgement before skating toward the bench, where his teammates swarm him instantly. One of them hooks an arm around his neck, dragging him down while another plays bongos on his helmet, elbows digging into his ribs.Â
From this distance you canât hear what theyâre saying, but you donât need to. His expression gives everything away, the wide grin and mock protests, and the way he shoves them back half-heartedly while still laughing.Â
Someone whistles, another bumps his shoulder and one even points toward the stands, toward you. Your stomach flips.Â
âY/N?âÂ
You start, tearing your eyes away as if caught doing something incriminating. Geto stands beside you, already holding two drinks, his expression warm and easy.Â
âHey,â he says, offering you one. âYou made it. I found seats over here, itâs a pretty good view, if I donât say so myself. We should head over before the game starts.âÂ
You take the cup automatically, fingers brushing his. âThanks!â
He smiles, guiding you through the rows of people with gentle awareness, making space and steadying you when someone brushes past too close. It's thoughtful and careful and exactly the kind of thing that made you fall for him in the first place.Â
Once seated, conversation comes easily to him. Itâs all polite small talk and soft jokes, quiet observations about the team and season. He fills in the silence like Gojo had predicted, never letting it become uncomfortable. He does all the right things that you could almost tick them off a list. He laughs at your comments like theyâre genuinely funny and asks questions that make it clear heâs paying attention.Â
It should be perfect, it should be everything youâve ever wanted.Â
And yet, your eyes drift back to the rink, to the flashes of navy and white.Â
To the tall figure leaning against the boards, helmet off now, shaking his hair as he listens to a coach, nodding absentmindedly while his gaze flicks upward.Â
Your pulse jumps when his eyes land on you again. Except this time he doesnât grin. It might be your imagination but he seemingly looks to Geto beside you, then back, just watching.Â
You force yourself to look back at Geto, nodding at something he just said, hoping your smile looks natural and not strained.Â
BUZZWORD
The game starts fast.Â
Faster than you expected, faster than anything youâve watched on TV, faster than seems physically possible for men balancing on thin blades over frozen water. The pluck drops and suddenly the rink explodes with motion, bodies colliding, sticks clashing, skates carving violent crescents into the ice.Â
You lost track of the puck almost immediately.
Geto leans closer, voice raised just enough to carry over the roar of the crowd. âWatch Satoru, he plays center so heâll usually be in there.â
Your eyes find him easily.Â
He moves differently from everyone else, you see, loose, flashier, or maybe thatâs just you. No, you reject that notion as he accelerates in bursts, gliding between players with impossible precision, stick tapping the ice impatiently when he doesnât have the puck.Â
Every time he skates past your side of the rink, your chest tightens and your throat hurts a little more as you try to cheer louder.Â
The first goal goes to the other team.Â
Your side of the arena groans as one, a wave of disappointment that rattles through the stands. You feel it too, a sinking drop in your stomach, though you donât fully understand the play that led to it.Â
Gojo slams his stick once against the ice in frustration, then shoves off hard, jaw set.Â
Geto doesnât seem worried. âTheyâll bounce back. Satoru is the best they have, after all.â
Just like he predicted, they do. Midway through the second period, one of Gojoâs teammates manages to slip the puck past the goalie, and the building detonates. People surge to their feet to cheer and you find yourself in that crowd, cheering without thinking, adrenaline crackling through your veins like you personally contributed.Â
On the ice, Gojo grabs the scorer by the shoulders and shakes him, helmet bumping into helmet, grin blinding even through the cage.Â
Itâs a tie game until itâs not. Another goal to the opposing side which Gojoâs team equalising moments after. Again and again, a tense back and forth that even has Geto inhaling sharply at moments.Â
By the third period, your nails are dug into the flimsy paper cup in your hand, ice long melted into a yucky watered down version of whatever was in the drink. You barely notice when Geto takes it from you and sets it aside so you donât crush it completely.Â
The scoreboard reads 3-3 and the clock tells you thereâs two minutes left.Â
The noise is deafening now, frantic and desperate, every movement on the ice met with gasps or shouts.Â
Gojo has long since lost the playful edge from earlier. He circles near centre ice, knees bent, weight forward, eyes tracking the puck like itâs the only thing that exists in the world. A defender tries to box him out and he shrugs him off with a brutal shoulder check that makes the crowd howl.Â
The puck slides loose along the boards, ricocheting off a tangle of skates and sticks like it has a mind of its own. Someone on Gojoâs team snatches it first and fires it forward, a risky pass that slides clean across open ice, and towards him.Â
Gojo receives it in stride, blade cushioning the impact with effortless control. He doesnât even glance down. his head is already up, scanning his way forward. A defender lunges for him and he slips past with a sharp pivot, hips twisting, edges biting deep into the ice.Â
Youâre on your feet before you realise youâve moved.Â
âGoâ!â you scream and like a domino effect, people around you start to cheer.Â
Gojo fakes a left. The goalie commits.Â
He snaps right, dragging the puck across his body in one powerful motion, forcing the goalie to witness the outplay. And then he flicks his wrist and a sharp crack echoes across the rink.Â
The puck lifts, a black blur slicing through air, threading the narrowest gap between glove and shoulder, and slams into the back of the net.Â
For half a heartbeat, there is silence. Then the buzzer screams and the crowd erupts.Â
Sound crashes over you in a tidal wave, screaming, stomping, clapping, the metallic rattle of the stands shaking under hundreds of pounding feet. Youâre shouting too, throat tearing with it, hands flying to your mouth before dropping again because you need them free to clap and wave, anything to release all this energy exploding out of you.Â
Down on the ice, Gojo throws his head back and roars, pure exhilaration bursting out of him. His teammates collide with him seconds later, swarming him in a pile of navy and white, shoving his helmet and grabbing his shoulders, almost knocking him over in their celebration.Â
He's laughing.Â
Even through the cage, from the distance, you can see it, the wild brightness in his eyes and the way his chest heaves with adrenaline.Â
They won.Â
They actually won.Â
Youâre bouncing on your toes without realising, hands clasped in front of your mouth.Â
Gojo breaks free from the pile just enough to turn and look up into the stands. It's easier finding you this time around when he knows where to look.Â
His whole face lights up, grin splitting wide and unrestrained, so bright it feels like it could blind you, he lifts his stick and points it straight at you then thumps it once against the ice in a triumphant salute.Â
Your stomach swoops violently.Â
You laugh, breathless and giddy, lifting both hands to wave back like an idiot. Your body is already leaning forward, feet shifting as instinct screams for you to move. To go down there, to be closer, to meet him at the glass while heâs still glowing with victory looking as beautiful as youâve ever seen him, so alive that it radiates off him in waves.Â
You want to throw your arms around his neck.Â
You want to tell him that was incredible.Â
You wantâ
âY/N?â
Getoâs voice cuts gently through the chaos, close to your ear.
You blink, tearing your gaze away from the ice to find him watching you with a small, amused smile.Â
âThat was intense,â he says, laughter in his voice. âI forgot how crazy these games get at the end. Makes you glad you came, right?â
âYeah,â you breathe, though it comes out shaky and raw from all the cheering. âYeah it was. Definitely.â
Your eyes flick down despite yourself and find Gojo still looking up, smile dimmed.Â
Geto gestures toward the aisle. âIf we leave now, we can beat the post-game crowd. The bookstoreâs only a short walk away anyway. We can find Satoru after he comes out.âÂ
The words land heavy in your chest. How could you forget? There was a plan in action, the reason why you came, the person youâre supposed to be focusing on.Â
âRight,â you say, though your voice sounds far away even to your own ears.Â
On the ice, Gojoâs teammates are tugging him toward the bench, shouting in his ear and shoving him here and there. He goes easily enough, though not without one last glance at you. He tilts his chin, a silent question in your eyes, clear despite the distance.Â
Are you going?
Your fingers curl into fists at your side.Â
âReady?â Geto asks softly.
You swallow. â... yeah.â
But as you turn to follow him up the aisle, the roar of the arena swelling behind you, you canât shake that youâve made the wrong decision. You feel it, that strange, electric thread stretching thinner and thinner behind you as the tunnel swallows Gojo whole.Â
BUZZWORD
It should be fun.Â
Geto is easy to talk to, heâs polite, thoughtful and gentle, and all the right things. You trail behind him between the shelves as he talks about a book he likes, or some theory he discovered that explains so much and makes so much sense.Â
You try, you really do. You nod your head and attempt to store that information away. Â
But everything just doesnât feel right. It's hard to store that information away when your head is full of that look Gojo had given you, the way his white hair had stuck out from under his helmet, damp from the effort and glory of winning, eyes sparkling under the stadium lights, the way he had lifted his stick to point at you.Â
Geto is kind. But your tastes donât match. Your jokes land in different places. He's nice, and you do enjoy his conversation. But not in the same way you had enjoyed Gojoâs company that day in the cafe.Â
You donât feel nervous. You donât feel excited. Honestly, you just feel like pretending.Â
And as if the universe is screaming at you about something just beyond your grasp, when you reach for the same book, your fingers donât brush. And you donât want them to.Â
Getoâs phone buzzes when heâs in the middle of explaining some theories from this guy called Slavoj Zizek? He winces at whatever he reads.Â
âSorry,â he starts, sounding genuinely apologetic. âI need to head out. But hey, hereââ He pulls a paperback off the shelf and hands it to you. âThis is the one I was talking about. I think youâll like it.âÂ
you accept it automatically. âThanks,â you say, and then heâs waving and gone the next moment, door swinging behind him.Â
For a while, you wander the bookstore in an attempt to rationalise the complex emotions warring inside you. Geto is your crush. You know this. And yet, it all feels so superficial. Gojo had been right, there was nothing personal about the things you liked about him to explain the crush.Â
You stand in the quiet of the aisle, holding a book you frankly donât care about, surrounded by a silence that feels like the wrong choice made tangible long after the last customer walks out. Heavy rain falls outside, pelting against the roof of the store, a steady white noise that backgrounds your thoughts.Â
When the bookstore begins to close, youâre ushered outside. You swear as youâre suddenly caught in the harsh weather and through the heavy sheets of rain, there looks to be no other store open. Hastily, you run out in the rain to find some place where you can get cover over your head. Finally, you see a small awning from a closed shop.Â
You run under the awning, hugging your arms to your chest as you wait out the storm, feeling stupidly alone and stupidly unsure why youâre this upset. This is what you wanted right? But the part of your heart that has always known the truth traitorously voices the thoughts youâve been pushing down all this time.Â
Gojo.Â
Through the sheets of heavy rain, someone is running towards you. Tall, white hair, still in his jersey, his hair now damp (read: soaked) with rain water rather than sweat.
He skids under the awning, breathless, terribly drenched, an unopened umbrella in one hand.Â
âWhat the hell,â he says immediately, voice sharp with concern and frustration. âAre you trying to get pneumonia? Why didnât you go home? Didnât you check the weather? It clearly said it was going to rain today!â
You blink, gaping at his sudden presence. âWhat are you, no, why are you here? Shouldnât you be celebrating?â
He snorts. âYeah, I was. Until Suguru texted. Said he left you at the bookstore and for me to pick you up. Seriously, you didnât even bring an umbrella?â
The situation finally catches up to you and you frantically gesture to his own umbrella. âHow can you lecture me when you just ran out all the way here without opening your umbrella? itâs literally in your hands, all you had to do was open it!âÂ
âLike i had the time to! My legs are literally burning from the game and you made me run all this way out to save you!â
âI never asked you to!â
âWell, I had to!â He steps closer, finally freeing himself from the rain completely. His presence fills up the cramped space under the awning and you catch a whiff of cedar and sweat. âI couldnât just let you die out here in the cold!â
Speechless, you open and close your mouth like an idiot. Finally, you manage to ask, âHow did you even know I was out here?â
âWerenât you listening? I told you Suguru told me he ditched you!âÂ
At Getoâs name, your face falls. Ah, right. your little moral dilemma about Geto.Â
Gojo also calms down a little, his chest heaving a little slower as he uses the silence to catch his breath. his eyes scan your expression, picking up on the way you bite your lip, eyes looking away.Â
âHey,â he says, voice soft though still strained. âYou okay?â
Your throat tightens. âI guess? I don't know. Look, sorry. I appreciate you coming.â
âDon't give me that. Just donât. Youâve told me every embarrassing thing about yourself when you outed that you, you know, like Suguru. Donât hide something from me now. Are you upset that he left?â His hand comes out to wipe water off your cheek. âDon't cry.â
You scrunch up your face in mild disgust. âIâm not? That's literally just rain water.â
âOh. So you're okay?â
You inhale and let it out slowly. Were you okay? You shouldnât be, not if Geto was your crush and he just ditched you. And yet, under Satoruâs shadow as he stands in front of you, blocking the rain, brows furrowed and lips pressed tight as he looks you over in concern, you find yourself feeling okay. More than okay.Â
âWhy do you even like him?â He asks, quietly, a question that would have easily been lost to the rain if you werenât hanging off his every word.Â
âI told you,â you start, just as quiet. âHe saved me that one time.âÂ
âYeah?â He opens the umbrella with one hand, and holds your hand in the other, gently guiding you out from under the awning. Rain hits heavy against the fabric and he holds you close to keep you out from the storm, your chest grazing his. âHe saved you that day in the rain, did he?â
You swallow. âYeah.â
âJust like this?âÂ
Mutely, you nod. In his arms, you barely notice the slight chill.Â
Gojo searches your eyes for something. He exhales, long and uneven, like heâs been holding this in for longer than heâs willing to admit. And yet, he doesnât shy away, doesnât tear his gaze away from yours, just keeps holding the umbrella over your head, tilted ever so slightly in your direction such that youâre completely covered.Â
âThat day,â he says, quiet but steady, âWhen you got caught in the rain after that stupid orientation thing? Suguru wasnât on campus. He went back home for a month before the semester started and didnât come back until the second week. I was the one that found you.âÂ
Your breath falters. âWhat? But he⌠he gave me his hoodie. His name was on the tag.âÂ
âYeah,â Satoru laughs, a single disbelieving puff. âI was wearing his hoodie. He wasnât at the dorms so I stole some of his clothes to wear. Itâs whatever, he steals some of mine sometimes. The point is, I was the one that helped you.âÂ
For a moment, you stop breathing entirely. The rain pours around the two of you, a curtain of noise, but itâs silent under the umbrella.Â
Youâve never seen Gojo so nervous. Definitely not before the big game earlier, not on any of the practice dates, never when he talks to a group of people. Between the two of you, nervousness came more naturally to you. And yet, standing before you vulnerable, wet lashes stuck together, cheeks flushed from running and is that a faint bruise forming on his jaw? He looks nervous and itâs a sight that sends warmth all over your face.Â
His eyes are unbearably soft as he waits for your verdict.Â
âWhy didnât you tell me?â Your voice sounds too small.Â
âBecause you thought it was Suguru. Because you liked him. And back then, I didn't realise that I wanted you to know it was me.â
Your heart thuds, something a little more daring saying the next few words for you. âAnd now?âÂ
This moment was perfect. The two of you had been slowly closing that small gap of distance, eyes seeing nothing but each other and suddenly all those rom coms and kdramas come to mind. All those scenes of first kisses (forgetting the practices because those didnât include real romance), all those late night conversations with Shoko about what itâs like, they all come and leave your brain.Â
But instead of leaning in and sealing the deal, Gojoâs entire body suddenly stiffens. His arm around you loosens, placing more distance between the two of you.Â
What the hell?Â
His gaze drops a little further before coming back up with a discipline that can only come from reciting the digimon opening theme over and over in his head. âNow I'm trying really, really hard not to stare at you.â
Curious, you look down to your soaked shirt where the fabric clings painfully close, embarrassingly sheer. It only serves to emphasise the lines of your bra and though you canât really see anything, Gojoâs face is flushed pink not just from exertion, and his jaw is tight.Â
âSatoruââ
âMy place,â he blurts. âWe should, uh, get you warmed up. Your shirt is literally see-through and if I have to keep pretending I don't notice, I'm going to walk myself right into traffic.âÂ
âThat is so dramatic.â The beginnings of a smile cause the corner of your lips to quiver upwards at his flustered state.Â
âiâm dramatic,â he insists, voice strained, still not looking. âNow come on. I still donât want you catching pneumonia out here and Sig Kap is literally right near the gate. We can keep talking there when you donât look like a puppy left out in the rain.â
âSays you.â You eye his white hair plastered to his forehead and smile, reaching up to move a few clinging strands from his eyes. âBut okay. Iâd like that a lot.â
Unfortunately, the gesture makes him look back down at you, inevitably making him catch an eyeful of your chest. He closes his eyes. âLet's just go before I give you this umbrella and walk onto the road.âÂ
You laugh a little. âGeez, you really are dramatic.âÂ
He walks you to Sig Kap, refusing to stand fully under the umbrella. When you try to grab his arm and pull him under, he only launches into a talk about being a feminist and how chivalry isnât dead and how much he hates periods and loves matcha. You laugh and he smiles down at you before looking away. Seriously, he needs to get over that.Â
At the door outside the house, Gojo stops you.Â
âHere.â he hands you the umbrella, fingers brushing yours, before reaching down to take his jersey off. You instinctively blush and look away, but considering your state of undress it would only be fair if you stole a glance. So you peek at him from the corner of your eyes.Â
You only manage to look just below his abs when something warm and slightly damp flops over your head.Â
âHey!â
He takes the umbrella back from you, standing in front of you and covering your back with the umbrella.. âPut that on before we head inside. Take your wet jersey off, hurry.â
Feeling warm despite the rain, you hastily pull off your soaked top, making sure heâs looking politely away, and throw his jersey on. Itâs still damp but not as drenched as your own. Looking down, it falls past your skirt and just above your knees.Â
âYouâre going to walk in shirtless?â
âBetter than you walking in looking like that.â He doesnât give you a moment to think about his words. âCome on, youâre going to catch a cold.â
He leads you to the now familiar front door and when it opens before Gojo can even touch the doorknob, you understand the reasoning of his actions.Â
âDude!â Hikari cheers, wrapping an arm round Gojoâs shoulders and eagerly pulling him in despite his grunt of protest. âCongrats on the win, man!â
Hikari quickly notices your presence.Â
âOh. So youâre already celebrating, huh?â
Gojo brushes past him, his hand holding tours to guide a path through the sweaty frat boys. âShut it, Hikari. Is Sukuna in?â
âNah. The whole floorâs gone.â Hikari answers, raising his voice as Gojo quickly places distance between him and you.Â
When the door of his room closes behind you both, he turns and pulls you in, his hand falling down on your hips, pulling you close. You both look like wet dogs but you couldnât care less.
âSorry about them,â he mumbles against your hair.Â
âItâs fine,â you pause. âWho's Sukuna?â
âThe guy in the room next to mine.â
âOh.â
He hesitates, searching your eyes in the dark of his room. The storm rages on beyond his window, rain entering through a slightly ajar window, but neither of you make the responsible move to close it. Instead, you find yourself pressing up against him, hoping for more.Â
âSweets,â he says, his voice low. âPlease donât tell me this is still practice.â
âItâs not.âÂ
He takes a deep breath in. âYou piss me off. Youâre annoying, and insistent, and you always get what you want.â
You frown a little. âHold on, I thought this was going a different way.â
He shushes you by placing a finger against your lips. âYou never listen to me and you never act how I think you will. Youâre definitely not normal and your thoughts are all weird and messed up. But youâre always in my head and you have the prettiest smile and the softest voice and when you tell me to shut up I want to drop to my knees and lick your feet.â
âOkay, itâs definitely getting weird now.âÂ
âI think Iâm seriously doomed,â he whispers despite your protests. âBecause I bought that coffee you gave me months ago and I still drank it even though I hated how it tasted. And I havenât been able to get it up without thinking about you and those pretty lips.âÂ
âNow I see why you donât do relationships.â
Gojo chuckles, eyes unbearingly soft. âI think Iâm in love with you, Y/N. Youâre all I can think about.âÂ
You let out a slow exhale.Â
This was not how you imagined any of this. That day when you sat down with Shoko to plan a devious scheme to get with Geto, you naturally assumed it would end with him by your side, or with a crippling inability to reassimilate with society.Â
Never in a million years did you think youâd be here, in Gojoâs enormous room inside a frat house, him hanging off your every word.Â
But thinking on it now, thereâs nothing you want to change in your plan.Â
âI think Iâm in love with you too,â you say just as quietly, a smile playing on your lips.Â
âReally?â If he had dog ears, they would have surely perked up. âBecause I was lying, I definitely donât just think that.â
âWoah, letâs calm down a little.â
He chuckles, breath misting your face.Â
His thumbs rub circles and you shiver at the faint sensation.
âCold?â
You bite the lip and nod. Now that youâve confessed, the forbidden desire building up in your core no longer feels like something you need to hide. Instead, you embrace it, and you let Gojo see the change in your eyes.Â
He nods back, looking down at his jersey on you.Â
âYou should probably take this off or youâll get sick.âÂ
You grab the bottom of his shirt and pull it over your head, leaving you in just your bra. You mentally fist bump your past self for overthinking your attire earlier that morning and throwing on a matching set.Â
His pupils dilate as he looks at you, eyes lingering on the delicate lace.Â
âAm I moving too fast?â He whispers, breath misting your ear as he leans in.Â
You rapidly shake your head, heart pounding in your chest. The air between you crackles with tension, the rain pattering against the window like a distant drumbeat.Â
He sighs, a low, relieved sound that vibrates through his chest. âGood. Câmere.â
He backs you up against the door, the wood cool against your bare back. His hands slide up your sides as he traps you. The guise of getting you out of wet clothes feels like a thin excuse now, but you donât mind, your own hands already tugging at his waistband, eager to feel more of him.Â
Gojoâs lips crash into yours, hungry and demanding, his tongue sweeping in to claim your mouth. You kiss back just as fiercely, fingers digging into his shoulders as you push against him, guiding him backward step by step. He stumbles slightly, surprised by your assertiveness, but a smirk tugs at his lips against yours.Â
He falls onto the couch with a soft thud, pulling you down on top of him. You straddle his lap, only because itâs the only position youâve had experience with thus far, and the friction of his hardening cock against your core sends sparks through your body. Your mouths meet again in a heated makeout, tongues tangling, breaths mingling in short, desperate gasps.Â
His hands roam your back, unhooking your bra with practiced ease, letting it fall away. You arch into him, pressing your bare breasts against his chest, nipples hardening from the contact.Â
âFuck, youâre so hot like this,â he growls, nipping at your lower lip. âWhere were you hiding all of this, hm?â
You shiver, fingers digging into his shirt. âYou like it when I tell you what to do, donât you? Big bad frat boy, already so hard because a girlâs got you pinned.â
He groans, hands gripping your ass to grind you against him. âKeep talking like that, and I'll show you whoâs really in control.â
But you donât stop. Instead, you push him back further into the cushions and trail your lips down his jaw, his neck, biting lightly to mark him. He lets you, for now, his breath hitching.Â
His eyes look down your body, hands feeling the softness of your skin before resting at the waistband of your cute, little skirt. He smirks and before you know it, youâre torn from his neck because he flips you onto your back in one swift move, pinning your wrists above your head.Â
âMy turn,â he purrs, voice rough.Â
You try to wriggle free. âWhat are you doing?â
âYou've always had a thing against my tongue, havenât you?â
âThat was weeks ago, I don'tâwait a minute!â Your hands find his head, trying to push him back up but he refuses, settling properly between your legs and lowering.Â
âRelax.â He turns his head and kisses your palm, eyes on yours. âI'll make you feel good. I always do, don't I?â
You hesitate, your arms losing their strength as the tension eases from your body. He watches you carefully, his gaze soft yet intense, making sure youâre okay before he moves. With a gentle nod from you, he lifts the edge of your skirt and flips it up onto your stomach, groaning low at the sight of the damp spot on your panties.
âSo cute,â he hums, his free hand sliding between your legs to rub at the numb poking out through the fabric. âThis little clitâs begging for attention.âÂ
You let out a startled gasp, hips bucking up involuntarily at the sudden touch. Itâs all still so new, the sparks of pleasure shooting through you like electricity.Â
âYou want my mouth on this pretty pussy, donât you?â He murmurs, lowering to mouth against your panties.Â
His warm breath seeps through the thin material, and the flat of his tongue presses against you, exploring with teasing pressure thatâs not quite enough to satisfy the ache building inside.Â
You jolt again, the sensation overwhelming, back bowing slightly as if to instinctively pull away. He doesnât let you go far, his hand on your thigh tightening to pull you back against his mouth.Â
âI know, I know,â he coos against you. âIt's too much, isnât it?â
You whimper, looking down and feeling a fresh surge of heat when you meet eyes with him.Â
âThatâs it, just feel it,â he encourages, his thumb stroking your thigh in slow circles.Â
Finally, he draws your panties to the side and doesnât waste another second.Â
Gojoâs mouth descends on your pussy, tongue flicking out to lap at your clit.Â
You gasp sharply, hips bucking up as he sucks the sensitive nub between his lips, rolling it gently. His hands hold your thighs apart, fingers digging into your skin to keep you open for him. He eats you out like heâs starved, tongue delving inside you, tasting your wetness then circling back to your clit with firm, insistent strokes.Â
âOh god,â you choke out, the words tumbling from your lips in a breathless rush. âFuck, itâs tooâfuck itâs so good!âÂ
With your hands free, you curl your fingers in his soft white hair, guiding him exactly where the pleasure feels strongest. It's your first time feeling anything like this, and the intensity builds fast, a coiling heat thatâs overwhelming but addictive.Â
He hums against you, the vibrations making you whine as his tongue thrusts in and out, mimicking whatâs to come, stretching you open with wet, probing motions.
âMmm, taste so fucking sweet,â he growls between licks, pulling back just enough to speak, his breath hot against your folds. âYouâre clenching so hard alreadyâgonna finger fuck you open so you can take my cock later.â
He adds a finger, sliding it inside your slick heat slowly, curling it to brush against that spot that makes stars burst behind your eyelids. âThat's it baby, feel how wet you are for me? so tight around my finger, imagine how youâll squeeze my dick when I'm buried deep.â
You nod frantically, the haze of pleasure making it hard to form words.Â
He senses your building release, slipping a second finger inside to stretch you further, scissoring them gently to prepare you while his mouth latches back on your clit, sucking harder. âCome on, cum for meâwanna taste you so fucking bad, sweets. I want to feel you shake.â
The orgasm hits you like a wave, crashing over your body without warning. you cry out, back arching off the surface beneath you as your pussy clenches around his fingers, pulsing with release. He doesnât stop, lapping at you through it, drawing out every shudder until youâre boneless and gasping for air, his tongue coaxing every last tremor from your oversensitive folds.Â
Gojo pulls back slowly, a string of saliva still connecting to you until he wipes his mouth with the back of his hand, his eyes gleaming with satisfaction as he crawls up your body.Â
âFuck, you taste like heaven,â he murmurs, leaning in for a deep kiss and letting you taste yourself on his lips.Â
You kiss back weakly making him chuckle, and he pulls back with a wet chu.Â
âYou okay?â
You nod weakly. One moment youâre catching your breath on the couch, the next heâs lifting you over his shoulder and laying you down on his bed.Â
You yelp, feeling gravity turn on its head until youâre safely on his mattress.Â
Watching as he eagerly strips, you say, âYou got a bedframe.â
He grins widely, shimmying down his boxers to join his sweatpants on the floor. âYeah, I did. Do you like it?â
You huff. âYeah. About time, Satoru.â
Gojoâs smile is oddly bright as he gets on the bed and hovers over you. He shifts, propping himself up on his elbows, his blue eyes darkening as they fixate on your chest. Without a word, he moves down, his mouth hovering just above your skin before he presses his face into the soft valley of your tits, inhaling deeply as if savouring your scent.Â
âGod, I love these things.â he groans, voice muffled, his lips brushing the sensitive underside. âSo goddamn perfect. Feel how hard you make me just staring at them?â
You squirm, indeed feeling his cock throb against your leg. âYouâre such an animal.â
âI can't help it. Been thinking about these ever since last time.â He peeks up at you though heâs still hesitant to part with them completely. âCan i fuck them?â
Your nod is all the consent he craves. He straddles your waist carefully and guides his thick length to rest in the plush channel youâve created by pressing your breasts together. The first slide is torturously slow, the velvety skin enveloping him as he rocks forward, the tip emerging shiny with precum near your collarbone.Â
âShit, yes,â he hisses, hips snapping in a shallow rhythm. âSo soft, so fucking warm around me. Look at that, sweets. Your tits are hugging my dick like they were made for it.â
His voice drops lower, rough with building pleasure, each word punctuated by the slick glide of skin on skin.Â
You watch him, mesmerised by the concentration etching his features, brow furrowed, lips parted as he pants. Sweat beads on his forehead and trickles down his temples as his abs flex with every controlled push. The friction builds between your tits, his precum smearing across your skin, making the slide even smoother and more obscene.Â
He glances down to watch his cock disappear and poke out from your cleavage. âOpen your mouth for me, baby.â
âSweets,â you remind him.Â
He lets out a stifled groan, hips jerking forward. âSweets, please. Let me see your pretty tongue. Want it on my tip when i come through so fucking bad.âÂ
The nickname sends a thrill through you, and you part your lips obediently, flattening your tongue in invitation. He groans at the sight, hips stuttering as he angles higher, the flushed head of his cock brushing your waiting mouth on the next thrust.Â
âFuck, just like that,â he rasps. âYour tongue feels so good lapping at me like that. Swirl it around, taste how much I want you. God, sweets, youâre killing me.âÂ
You do, tracing the sensitive underside when he pushes forward, the salty tang of him flooding your senses. His reaction is immediate, a deep, guttural moan escapes him, his rhythm faltering as he jerks deeper, chasing the wet heat of your mouth.Â
âCan't get enough,â he growls, drawing back only to thrust again, his tip kissing your tongue with deliberate precision and drawing back a sticky string of his precum and your saliva. âGonna fuck your mouth next, stuff it full of my cock until youâre choking on it. You'd take it so well, wouldnât you? Suck me down like the greedy little thing you are.âÂ
Saliva pools on your tongue and drips down to mix with the mess on your chest. He watches it all with hooded eyes, rutting faster now, the slap of his hips against your breasts echoing softly in the room.Â
âFuck, sweetsâgonna cum,â he warns through gritted teeth, his forehead creasing in that pretty, desperate way. âCanât hold back with you squeezing me like this. Shit, iâm gonna paint you, mark every inch of these pretty tits.â
He lurches forward suddenly, back bowing as he towers over you, one hand bracing beside your head while the other strokes his base to control his release. The first hot spurt lands across your neck, thick and warm, followed by another that arches toward your open mouth. He aims with a focused groan, pressing down on the head to guide it, ropes of cum landing on your tongue, filling your senses with his taste.Â
âTake it, thatâs a good girl,â he pants, voice breaking on a final, shuddering thrust. âLook at you, covered in me. So fucking hot, dripping with my cum on your face and tits.âÂ
His body quakes through the aftershocks, eyes never leaving yours, drinking in your reaction as he milks every drop onto you.Â
When heâs spent, he collapses forward slightly, catching himself on his forearms to avoid crushing you and leans down.Â
Your lips meet his in a deep, unhurried kiss, tongues tangling slow and sweet at first, then hungrier as you melt into it. The taste of him, salty from earlier, mixed with the faint tang of your own arousal, ignites you, and you tug him down, hands roaming his shoulders, feeling the flex of muscle under sweat damp skin. A soft moan escapes you, and he swallows it, his grip tightening just a fraction.Â
He pulls back and pants against your lips, half laughing.Â
âSorry, I should have warned you. Kind of not the most virgin friendly thing to do, huh?â He sits up and reaches for some tissue to clean you. âShould of saved this for inside you, sweets.â
You clench, squeezing your thighs together. âIâve neverâŚâ
His eyes soften, wiping the last of his cum. âI know, sweets. We can wait if you need to, thereâs no rush.â
But curiousity and want is a dangerous cocktail and you find yourself shaking your head. âI want to.âÂ
Gojo lets out a shuddering breath and nods, sliding off your chest, his cock glistening and heavy against his thigh. âLet me get you warmed up again.â
He doesn't find much difficulty with that because one hand against your slit and his eyebrows are rising, feeling your wetness despite the lack of attention.Â
You blush, feeling caught. âWhat? Donât look at me like that, itâs embarrassing.â
âWhatâs got you so wet, hm?â
You squirm, feeling the lingering pleasure flare up. âItâs not my fault youâre so vocal.â
âDirty girl. You like hearing how good you make me feel?â His thumb smears your entrance, picking up and spreading the fresh arousal that gathers there and itâs as good as any verbal answer. âFeel that? So worked up with nowhere to go.â
His fingers part you gently, circling your entrance with feather-light strokes that make you gasp.Â
âLet me warm you up again, sweets. Youâre so swollen here, feels like youâve been waiting for more. Gonna make sure youâre nice and ready for me.â
He plays with the mess between your legs, his own expression a mix of hunger and restraint, breaths coming in measured pulls as he fights the urge to rush. One finger dips inside you shallowly, then two, curling just right to brush that spot that sends sparks up your spine.Â
The stretch is easier now, your body remembering the pleasure, and he coos softly at your soft whimper, thumb finding your clit to rub in slow, firm circles.Â
âShit, youâre so tight,â he groans quietly, voice rough around the edges. âSo warm and wet, itâs killing me not to slide in right now. But weâre taking our time, yeah? Making this perfect for you.â
Your hips rock instinctively into his hand, the coil of heat tightening low in your belly, and he grins, leaning in to pepper kisses along your jaw.Â
âLook at you, getting into it. My sweet girl, so responsive.â
You whine, the pleasure having reached a plateau and when you buck up for more, he withdraws his hand. The loss makes you whine but he hushes you with a gentle kiss to your forehead, reaching over to the nightstand and searching through his messy drawers for a condom.Â
The foil crinkles under his fingers as he tears it open and positions himself at your entrance. You're still slick, heâs made sure of that, but the anticipation makes you clench, nerves building up. He notices your sharp inhale and lets his tip nudge your slick folds, parting them teasingly though he pauses there to let you feel the pressure without pushing in.Â
âHey, eyes on me, sweets,â he murmurs, voice steady despite the way his chest heaves, his cock twitching against you. âYou still okay? Tell me if itâs too much, Iâll stop, I promise. But fuck, Iâd be lying if I said I didnât want to be inside you.â
âIâm okay,â you whisper breathlessly, fingers curling into the sheets below. âJust⌠go slow?â
He notices and slides a hand down to interlace your fingers, bringing your hand up to his lips and placing a soft kiss to your palm. âOf course. Whatever you want.âÂ
The stretch is immediate, a slow burn as he guides himself in, sinking bit by bit. His cock is much thicker than his fingers but the warmth of him, the way he watches every flicker of your expression with that twitch in his jaw, makes it bearable.Â
âFuck, youâre so fucking tight,â he rasps, eyes shutting briefly. âGripping me so good already. Easy, sweets, just relax into it.â
His voice cracks a little on the end, his fingers digging into your skin as he holds himself still once heâs halfway in.Â
It aches, but the fullness is intoxicating, waves of pleasure chasing the discomfort as your body yields. You gasp, squeezing his hand and he coos softly, stroking you with his thumb.Â
âCan I keep going?âÂ
You nod and even before your next breath, heâs already sliding in and bottoming out with a shared gasp, hips flushed against yours. His forehead rests against yours, breaths mingling in the humid air.Â
"How's that feel? Too much?â He asks softly.Â
âFull⌠so full,â you whimper, rocking experimentally and he hisses through his teeth, hips bucking up just a fraction before he catches himself.Â
âFuck, want me to move, sweets?â He shifts beneath you, guiding your hips in a gentle circle to grind against you, his praises making the movement slick.Â
âPlease,â you gasp out as the fullness sparks pleasure deep inside and he rewards your honest words with a slow roll of his hips.Â
âGood girl,â he praises, voice dropping to a gravelly whisper as he starts to move, shallow thrusts that build a steady friction. Each slide in and out drags against your inner walls, drawing out filthy whimpers and sighs as he hits that sweet spot with precision born of his experience.Â
Soon, your toes are curling and your back bows off his mattress, desperate to meet his thrusts.Â
âListen to those sounds youâre making,â he coos, emphasising his words with a deep thrust. âYouâre taking me so well, sweets. Makes me want to stay buried in your forever.â
The pace gradually quickens, his control fraying at the edges as your moans encourage him. He shifts the angle, one leg hooking over his shoulder to deepen the penetration, and the new position has you crying out, pleasure coiling tight in your core.
Sweat beads on his skin, dropping onto your chest and he leans down to capture a nipple between his lips, sucking gently as he thrusts harder, the wet slap of skin echoing softly.Â
âThatâs it, let go for me,â he urges against your tits, teeth grazing the peak before soothing it with his tongue. âI can feel you squeezing, you close for me already? Come on, sweets, chase it.â
His words weave through the haze, dirty and devoted, spurring you higher as his freehand slips between you to circle your clit in time with his hips. The dual sensations overwhelm, building to a peak that has you trembling beneath him.Â
When it hits, itâs blinding, your orgasm crashing over you in waves, walls clenching rhythmically around him and pulling him deeper. He groans your name like a prayer, thrusts stuttering as rides it out with you, prolonging the bliss with expert rolls of his hips.Â
Only when you slump, sweaty and panting, does he let himself follow, a filthy groan escaping his lips as he buries himself deep one last time and spills into the condom, body shuddering as he struggles to hover over you.Â
He doesnât pull away immediately, instead pressing his hips closer to ensure youâve gotten everything before collapsing half on top of you, peppering lazy kisses along your neck.Â
âYouâre amazing,â he whispers. âMy perfect girl, did so good for us.â
You whimper against the ticklish sensation. âYou're too heavy.â
He chuckles and rolls off you, slowly pulling out to pull the condom off and discard it. you watch him with sleepy eyes, eagerly nuzzling into his arms when he settles back beside you.Â
âNeed anything? Water? Cuddles?âÂ
You hum, feeling the satisfaction morph into a drowsiness that has you melting into his arms, only feeling his warmth.Â
âYou?â
He chuckles, pressing a kiss to your cheek. âIâm so glad I stole you away. Youâre so fucking perfect for me.âÂ
You lean into his side, feeling a sense of indescribable completeness that fills you with certainty.Â
Geto Suguru may have been everyoneâs first love but Gojo Satoru is the one you choose.Â
And judging by the way his arm tightens around you, the way his grin softens when he looks down at you, he knows it too.Â
Geto Suguru is everyoneâs first love.
Even to this day, your friends will roll their eyes and insist that canât possibly be true. But from experience, that was exactly who he was, someone to admire from afar like a painting behind glass. Beautiful and alluring, and just out of reach.Â
You see him now up, sitting on the couches at the house party driving the murmur of conversation with ease, a red cup used to gesture. Laughter ripples outward in waves, people leaning closer, drawn in.
You smile out of solidarity, resting against the wall with content misplaced at a busy place like this.Â
âDid you wait long?â
You turn your head to find your boyfriend weaving through bodies with the casual confidence of someone who assumes space will make itself around him. Two drinks in hand, hair messy under his cat, grin already forming because heâs caught you staring.Â
You push off the wall, reaching automatically for whichever cup is closer but he pulls back to sniff both before handing you the opposite one.
You take it gratefully and when you take a sip, you realise itâs your favourite juice.Â
âWait time longer than the lines at Universal,â you tease.Â
He grins, leaning down to kiss your forehead. âNext time I'll get us the priority pass. Not that it looked like you minded the wait. Donât think I didn't see you eyeing Suguru like that. Do I have competition again?â
You shove him playfully. âPlease, like I'm the one whoâs been draping themselves over him for the past hour.â
Across the room, Geto laughs again, someone hanging off his shoulder while he tries to keep the liquid in his cup from spilling. He catches your eye briefly and lifts his cup in greeting. You return it with a smile.
Next to you, Gojo sighs dramatically.
âWow,â he says flatly. âRight in front of me too. Why canât I see any remorse in your eyes?â
âBecause there isnât any there,â you snort. âYou're the one who told him to come tonight.â
âWhere thereâs Satoru, thereâs Suguru.â
âI learnt that the hard way.â
He hums, arm sliding around your waist to pull you flush against his side. His thumb starts tracing lazy circles just above your hip, absentminded and affectionate, a touch so familiar you barely notice as you lean into him in return.
âStill,â he murmurs, quieter now, his breath warm against your cheek. âYou donât have to keep looking at him like that.â
âLike what?â
âLike youâre thinking about what you could have had.â
You tilt your head to look up at him. His expression isnât jealous, not completely, just searching, softer than the bravado he usually wears.
âI'm not,â you promise gently. âIt was always superficial. You know that better than anyone. I guess now, looking at him is like looking at a relic of a different version of me.â
He hums. âHe would have liked that sentence.â
You roll your eyes, ever so familiar with his dramatics. âYou have nothing to worry about, baby. I promise.â
âYeah?â
âYeah.â You reach up and adjust the brim of his cap slightly, smoothing down a piece of hair that refuses to stay put. âBesides, I think I traded up.â
âKeep talking like that and I'm going to start thinking you actually like me,â he grins, voice lowering.
You smack his chest but your other hand lingers in his hair, fingers slipping into the soft hair at his nape. "Don't get cocky.â
Too late. He's already smiling wide, not the loud, flashy grin everyone else gets, but something softer and almost boyish reserved just for you.
Gojo leans down and finds your lips. The kiss is slow and unhurried, deeper than something meant for a crowded room but not quite indecent, like heâs forgotten where you are or just doesnât care.
He pulls back just enough to talk. âHey, I have an idea thatâll solve this three way jealousy.â
âWhat?"
âWhy donât we just have a threesome?â
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Synopsis. Tall, gloomy, and really good with the g-string. Thereâs nothing that Geto Suguru - rockstar, campus heartthrob, lead guitarist of the Sorcerers - doesnât have. Except for a new song idea. And you, his cute new muse.
Pairing. Geto Suguru x Reader
Content. MDNI, fem!reader, rockstar!Geto, rock band AU, meet-cutes, heâs down bad, song-writing, youâre his muse, Geto with tattoos and piercings, parties, body shots, concerts, campus gossip, pĂşssydrĂşnk Geto, oraI (fem rec.), spĂŹtting, chokĂŹng p talking, fĂŹngering, ringed fingers, heâs feraI, in the backseat of his car, heâs BIG, D piercings, cervĂŹx kĂŹssing, running from it, headIocks, manhandIing, slight impactpIay, rough s, dĂšmbifĂŹcation, creampĂŹes, cĂšmplay, getting together, happy ending, pet names, swĂŠaring.
Word count. 11.6k
A/N. Yâall wanted so daddy Tony provided mwahahahâŚ
âP-pleaseâŚâ Drool cascades down your mouth at an incredible pace, and your neck feels numb from how long youâve been holding it up.Â
From how long youâve just been staring at himâGeto Suguru.
Fresh off of his latest concert, heâs delving his tongue between your folds like an animal. Like heâd been starved all throughout the night- and he canât seem to stop. Heâs got one ringed hand pressed down on your stomach, and the other rovering across your sensitive nub.Â
You feel him purse his pretty lips and spit, letting the syrupy knot dribble down your thighs like a waterfall.Â
Geto throws his long, inky hair back; that curved piercing on his lip glittering with the wads of your mess. And he groans, âI have to make it up to my gorgeous muse in some way, yeah?â Especially after the best set of his entire life.Â
He was insane.Â
And youâre wondering how the hell you even got here.
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âFuck-â Geto sighs between his clenched teeth, one hand gripping onto his scribbled sheets. The other runs through his hair until itâs all unruly. A few bystanders swoon- it almost makes him feel better.Â
Heâs pacing through the corridors of campus, solely because his bandmates had banned him from pacing inside the practice room. Long legs taking about five normal steps a stride, he absentmindedly nods at all the starstruck passerbys, the fans.Â
Being in the midst of writing a new song usually does get him this way - for about a day. Two days. Maximum.Â
But itâs been weeks and he hasnât been able to jot even a single verse down, hasnât scrambled together anything for the upcoming gig. Gojo said it was alright - that they could scrounge up something off the old EP - but Geto knew it rested on him, as lead guitarist, and vocalist.Â
Imagine, an opening act with no fresh songs.Â
If only he could just writeâbut what about? Heartbreak? Love? Heâd rather write about Yaga.
âFuck!â He spits again- just in time with your very own startled profanity. A pretty voice.Â
A cute bump! before the two of you stumble backwards, colliding into each other. A plumage of papers burst into the air, and start showering the smooth tile below. Getoâs down at the mess and internally groaning; all those half-written, mostly-crossed songs mixed in with what looked like your lecture notes. Perfect.
Without looking up, heâs bending down to rifle through them, when-
âOh, youâre in a band?â
âYes?â Geto snaps his head up, somewhat shocked that youâre speaking to him, even though he knows he shouldnât be. And then Geto Suguru - campus heartthrob, gets a laundry list of numbers after every concert, the untouchable - catches a glimpse of you and justâŚstares.
With his raven brows slightly raised, and the shapely curve of his mouth parting. Ever-so-slightly.Â
âHi.â
You have to fight back a smile, âHi.â Was that seriously the red tint of a blush crawling across his handsome cheekbones?
Oh, he canât stop staring.
Itâs long enough that youâre clearing your throat, dropping your gaze as you pick up your own papers. âI should have probably started off with that. Sorry I uh- I just see youâve been writing songs.â
âTrying to,â he huffs. Half-joking.Â
And then the intricate metal of his ring brushes your own fingertips as you hand him one of his sheets; less song lyrics and more ugly caricatures of Nanami. He lingers the touch. Itâs electric.Â
It makes the forefront of his fingers twitch. Almost jolt. And they itch towards you as if trying to prolong the skin-to-skin contact, as if trying to hold onto a pen.Â
It suddenly hits Geto - he needs to write.Â
âHey uh- do you have a- thank you.â His voice trails off as you catch his drift and quickly hand him a pen, Geto then rapidfire scrawls down a few words. Phrases. Not even entire sentences, just an explosion of feelings that pulsed like the thumping of his own heart.Â
And then someone calls out his name - perhaps in greeting, perhaps in a yell to move off of the middle of the hallway - and his hand stops writing. Fuck- what was that? He looks at you again, and hands you back the pen, âI promise Iâm not usually this unsmooth.â Holding out his hand for a handshake, your palm fits in his and he hears nothing but melodies in his head. âThe nameâs Geto, Geto Suguru. But you can call me Suguru, all my friends do. Iâm in the band âSorcerers.ââ
Youâre introducing yourself with your own name and he almost has the urge to write that down, too. Humming, âItâs alright, band stuff, I assume?â
âBand stuff.â You were walking with him now, side-by-side.
âKeyboard?â
âGuitar.â It made sense - the tattoos that crept all over his strong, beefy arms, those twinkling piercings. What didnât make sense was just why he felt the need to show it all off for you; like the minutes before a big concert, his fingers trembled. But he grins, and itâs something devilish. âAnd vocals.â
Walking backwards now so that your gorgeous, gorgeous face can face him. You slow down your walk and heâs realizing that youâve arrived at your class.Â
Heâs realizing that he just might not see you again.
And he wanted to see more of you.
A lot more of you.Â
A few of your classmates throw the two of you looks as they pass, walking inside the class. Geto was a bit of a campus legend; and for as popular as he was, seeing him talk to someone outside of his band - especially during his song-writing blues - was rare. Exceptionally rare.Â
So he bites the inside of his cheek, âActuallyâŚyou think youâd wanna see it in person sometime? Likeâtonight?â
âOh?â
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âMan, a grown-ass man should not be giggling like that.â
âI would hate to remind you that you do nothing but giggle.â
âIâm just special like that, Nanamin~â Gojo winks at the blond-haired drummer, who makes to throw down his drumsticks before paying attention to the concert setlist instead. Anything but him.
Unfortunately, Gojo does not have that willpower and was entirely too invested in whatever had his best friend acting like a middle-schooler with a crush. Bright-eyed. Flush-faced. Glued to his phone since before rehearsal started. Skipping around the corners of the practise roomâskipping, he swears.
He throws a wadded up ball of paper - yet another one of Getoâs failed lyrical attempts - at the back of his head. It hits. And he doesnât even notice.Â
Shoko herself looks up from her phone, âBut in all honesty, what is up with you today?âÂ
âDid a new type of guitar drop orââ Gojo grumbles from his other guitar station, looking above the metal rim of his glasses. Yes, the ones he wore indoors.Â
Geto pulls himself away from his glaring screen with a low, mindless, âHuh?â
âFor fuckâs sake whatâs got you so-â
âHi, sorry- I hope Iâm not interrupting.â
Just then, you walk in. Door opening; thereâs no way you couldâve gotten in without invitation. And thereâs no way you werenât invited by Geto.
Because, immediately, your eyes meet his deep, amethyst ones. Like two ships at sail, youâre beaming a smile at all of them - but the brightest one for him. Going to stand at his side as he plunges his phone back in his trousers. And then he gets it.
Oh, they get it.
Nanami blinks.
Haibara waves.
Shoko takes a picture (with flash, of course.)
Gojo whistles.
And then Gojo promptly gets smacked upside the head - by two different hands, two different people. Geto makes a note of wiping off his palm before introducing the rotation of amateur musicians and visitors to each other.Â
âNow what sheâs really here for isnât your dumbasses.â Heâs rolling his eyes, pulling on the lightning purple guitar of his. âItâs for the music-â He tilts his head with a smile, â-and me.â
You were here for a few demonstrations, after bumping into Geto and exchanging numbers - to which they gladly pump out the best of their best for a pretty girl. Hell, Geto thinks he even sees Nanami and Shoko putting in a lilâ extra effort, and canât help but strum even louder.Â
Letting the electric twang of his guitar take over.
It still rings in the air after they finish a runthrough of their first three songs. And youâre clapping fervently by the end of it.Â
âThat was amazing.â
âWhy thank you, sweetheart-â
âWhy thank you, gorgeous.â Geto quickly takes over, silently glaring at Gojo to leave. He gets the message - albeit reluctantly, and soon enough is being dragged by Nanami, Haibara, and Shoko out for some fresh air and a brief break outside the room.
Leaving the two of you alone.
âSoâŚâ
âSo.â Getoâs scratching behind his neck, where there was a massive inky tattoo of a dragon. Snaking. Fuck- when has he ever had this much trouble talking toâŚwell, anyone, really?
And heâs clearing his throat, not letting the silence drag out for much longer before the thick fabric of his guitar strap loops over your own neck. Safely swaddled. Youâre looking up at him with such adorable confusion as he snickers, âWanna learn how to play?â
âHell yeah.â And before long your fingers are twisting over a few chords - tangling. Heâs attempting to teach you about the G chord and the E major, and youâre attempting not to fall to your knees.Â
After a few unsuccessful tries, heâs catching onto your desperation and gesturing for you to sit on the carpeted floor. Perhaps to teach you hands-on, perhaps to make you relax- but whatever it was, you certainly didnât expect him to sidle up behind you.
For his toned pecs to press up against your shoulders, you could hear Getoâs gravelly breath graze the shell of your ear. He leans over, his lengthy hair tickling your neck. âLikeâŚâ Much larger hands covering yours, â-this.â
And then heâs just so gentle.
Youâre not sure what exactly you expected, but he holds your hands in his like glass. Oh-so-softly helping your fingerpads prick at the strings of his guitar, âSâeasier this way.â
âYeahââ youâre breathing out, practically in his lap with the way that his long legs were curling underneath yours, nowhere to go. And his tone core presses against your back, weight leaning slightly on you so that he can see what you do.Â
You donât know what youâre doing.
You grin once your hapless chords actually start to formulate into something that sounds like itâs part of a song. Something slow. Almost sensual. âItâs beautiful- what song is this, I donât think itâs one you played?â
âBecause itâs not.â Heâs purring from behind, piercing catching the light as he grins. âYou really like it~?â
Something was dripping darkness in his voice, and your breath catches. âY-yes.â He was taking over completely. Guiding your hands with his experienced ones, they slide looooong and slow down the neck of the guitar.Â
From the back of Getoâs throat, heâs murmuring a barely-audible few words. âCome and get it now. Come and get it now.â Lowered eyes gliding in a feline manner to you, âBaby show me what youâre doing- hm.â
You snap out of your little bubble as he stops abruptly.
Looking somewhat sheepish, âItâs a work in progress.â
âI think it might be my favorite already.â You admit. And you donât know whether itâs your imagination - you donât know whether youâre projecting - but you couldâve sworn that his heat does a thunderous ba-dumpâ! from where his chest was plastered to your body from behind.Â
Youâre yelping, jostled as he pulls you in even closer. âThat so? Maybe you can help me write it then?â
âMe?â You balk, âHow-â
The plump end of his lips curl, sinfully. It was almost unfair how he could look so attractive without even trying- âJust by sitting there. Just by being here. It helps.â
âBy being here with you?â
âBeing here with me.â Confirming. And by the way he was gazing upon you through his peripheral vision, fingerpads still tracing your digits, your knuckles, even though you werenât playing anything. âSâthat a problem?â
You find it hard to swallow. âNot at all.â
Close.
You two were too close.
And that wouldnât have been a problem if you were moving awayâbut the fact of the matter is that you were moving closer. Your lashes flutter, and his own dilated pupils alternate in a triangle between your right eye, your left eye, your mouth.
Closer.
Until-
âIâm coming in and you two better not be fucking in there- ouch! What was that for Nanamin?â
âYouâre a bad wingman, Gojo-senpai.â
âSorry, Haibara.â
Before the Sorcerers can bustle their way through those soundproof walls once more, youâre hastily scrambling off of Getoâs lap. For now.
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âI heard youâve tamed the cult leader of Tokyo Tech-â
âThe who?â You squint at Utahime, trying to figure out whether she was simply trying to raise your blood pressure so early in the morning. No. She was dead serious.
âNo need to hide it, Shoko already told me everything. So- about the cult leader of Tokyo Tech?â she repeats, as if that was enough. And when you look dangerously close to an aneurysm, sheâs sighing. âGeto Suguru? Tall, tattoos, piercings, dark hair, devastatingly hot- you know who Iâm talking about, I can see you fantasizing about him already.â
âIâm not fantasizing.â Youâre insisting, though it sounds as if youâve been caught. Any louder and Yaga would give up on glaring at the two of you, and instead send you out of the lecture completely. Only just started, but already the gossip was hot in class.Â
You just couldnât believe it was about you and him.
With your pitch slightly back to normal, you try to sound as civilized as possible as you say, âI am not fantasizing. Nor will I ever.â
Utahime puts her face in her open hand and shakes her head, âRight. Nor will you ever. So that means you completely, totally wouldnât fantasize about him walking into this class right now and sweeping you off of your feet?â
Well, you had to admit that class was getting a bit droningâŚbut you had to stick to your claim. It was the principle of it. âCorrect.â
âAnd so that means you completely, totally wouldnât care about the fact that he just did walk into this class?â
âCorre- what?â Your desk rattles, just a little bit, as you turn your body around to face the entrance. And you find that Utahime hadnât been lying: not the part about him coming to class, or the part about him being âdevastatingly hotâ from prior.
He saunters in with such confidence, Yaga himself doesnât point out that heâs just about fifteen minutes late. And he stands at the foot of the lecture hall, eyes scanning the seat and- you donât think youâve moved faster in your life than at that very moment. Youâre throwing both yours and Utahimeâs bags onto the floor from where theyâd been placed on the empty seat beside you.
Ignoring her half-hearted âhey!â you let Geto spot you. Like his eyes were drawn to you.Â
Itâs then that youâre noticing heâs wearing glasses. You think he should wear them more often.
And heâs gladly taking the seat, his dark, skin-tight arm-cut pressing against your side. âThanks, gorgeous.â Noticing all the stares, perhaps even a few whispers that erupt. He leans in real close to mutter in your ear, âTheyâre just jealous.â
Somewhere in the distance, you think you hear your friend gag. After some brief introductions, you ponder, âI didnât know you were in this class.â
âNever attended.â He slumps in his chair, making himself look almost too lanky for it, almost too big. In front of you, you think you see Yagaâs bushy brows raise at the interaction - and the fact that Geto Suguru was actually here. âYaga doesnât count it. Only reason Iâm topping the classââ He smiles, showing off his lip piercing. And if you didnât know any better, you swear you could see that he had a tongue piercing, as well. â-second place.â
âBraggart.â
âSore loser.â
âNerd.â
âThat I am,â he chuckles. Geto shuffles through his backpack, patch-worked with various pins and decorations of bandsâyou think you can make out Green Day, Nirvana, The Garden, and a few more that heâs more than happy to show off.Â
What he pulls out isnât his laptop, or a textbook of any kind - itâs his lyrics notebook. And he spreads it open between the two of you, to a page with a few half-written verses.Â
Met each other just the other day.
But you got me feeling some type of way.
And then past an empty space where you assume he wanted to add in some more:
I wanna hear youâŚ
I wanna see youâŚ
With your own pencil, youâre making a few tweaks. You finish off that second-last sentence that he seemed to be stuck onâI wanna hear you confess.Â
Getoâs pearly white teeth sink into his bottom lip, and he toys with the chunky rings on his fingers for a few seconds. Youâre unsure if that meant he was hesitating. If that meant he was thinking. Considering.
Before he leans over and finishes the other lineâI wanna see you undress now.
Something zips down your spine, your thighs clench- and you find that he follows them with his own. Bumping his knee against yours. And you push right back against his, following the quiet scritch-scratch of his graphite starting to jot down a few more lyrics.
You got me down on my knees.
Itâs getting harder to breathe out.
You always did seem to pull that out of him.
Utahime pinches you as the two of you continue, whispering in your ear so that only you could hear. âWhat was that about not fantasizing?â
âShut up.â
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A party.
An open bar.Â
And the thrumming music.
But you and Geto werenât anywhere near the dance floor, or the lengthy drinks table, or where the couples sneak off to make out- actually, scratch that. Because you two might just be occupying a lilâ alcove in Gojo and Getoâs penthouse apartment.
With the heady college party raging around you two - one that the band had been the one to invite you to - somehow, youâd found yourself with him. Shoulders against shoulders. Skin against skin. Your hands brushing against his when you pick up the pen from his handsâ
âOh, I like this one better than the last-â You circle the lyric that heâd just jotted down, with a few notes of your own that he always loved to read. Something about âchurning his gearsâ, whatever that meant. He was almost done with the song now, it seemed.Â
âMmm, thatâs what I was thinking.â He hums, thoughtfully, dark bangs falling across his face. It was no wonder that half the party was split between waltzing past the alcove merely to get a glimpse of him.
And the other half was on the other side of the penthouse, out of pure shyness.Â
The thick pads of his fingers scratch out some more writing on his notepad, messy and masculine. His rings glint as heâs scrawling, âIf I can figureâŚit out. Iâd take youâŚback to my house andââ He halts, unsure how the rest of that sentence would go. With his tongue still rolling on those words, heâs glancing at you sidelong.
As you tilt your head in confusion, heâs smirking. âNo, sâjust funny. Youâre already in my house.â
âMhm, and what are you suggesting?â You raise a brow.
âOhhh, nothing. Just the song.â And he raises one right back, teasingly. His cherry-vodka laced breath wafting across your features, âAnd what are you suggesting, gorgeous?â
âNothing, just the song.â
âAre you sure?â Heâs tilting his head down at you, even in the cramped space he somehow seemed to tower over you with his hulking frame. Sheer size. And his deltoid pushes against the side of your body, âYouâre awfully close, yâknow?â The way that he was leaning even closer.Â
And you can only sputter at his audacity- âAre you sure?â
âOi! You twoââ Gojo Satoru always did seem to have a penchant for interruptions. You donât know if youâre maddened by it or grateful- the air was thick, and you couldnât seem to breathe as well as you might have.Â
Directly in front of you, from the other side of the room right opposite, Gojoâs waving his hand frantically. His booming voice echoing all across the house, âStop flirtinâ in there and take a shot!â
Oh, you could imagine the rumors that were taking root already.
Geto flips him off. With a deadpan expression that told his best friend that heâd be staying here with his work (and you, mostly just for you), thank you very much.
Gojo trills, âWeâre doing body shots~â
âLetâs go, gorgeous.â Instantly, he looks at you.
âWha- huh?â You donât know whether youâve sustained whiplash by how fast heâs changed his mind, or by how fast heâs moving. With his fingers smoothly replacing the pen in your hands with his own set of digitsâbig nâ warm.
Geto holds both his lyrical notebook and you as close as possible as heâs meandering through the party. Through the slightly taken-aback gasps, the flirtatious waves, and the grinding bodies.Â
Gojo looks smugly accomplished by the time youâre making it through the whirlwind party in the middle to reach their table of alcohol. Thereâs a small group forming now already, cheering on the reunion of the main duo.Â
Geto looks at him, and thereâs a small flicker of understanding that passes. Invisible but existing.
âYou two go first-â The white-haired man then thrusts one full shot glass of tequila into Getoâs hands- then immediately grabs ahold of you and cricks your head side to tap out a line of salt down the column of your throat. A wedge of lime between your teeth, pulp side out. Without any adhesive surface, it was messy, scattering nearly up to your jawline. It tingles on your skin once you realize just what was about to happen.
As Getoâs mouth tightens at Gojoâs rough handling of you, the other finishes off. â-Iâve gotta find Nanamin first so he can do one with me.â
Shoko groans. âYouâre a lightweight.â
âExactly.â
âKento ran out of the building I believe, senpai.â Haibara beams.
And as Gojo whines his protests, Geto can only shake his head- partially because of his bandâs antics, partially to clear his fuzzy brain because of you.
You. You. You.
Oh, what gave you the right to present that sensual neck up at him like that? Your teeth worrying your lower lip as if you were nervous. He catches the way your gaze slightly tracks towards the cat-calling crowd, and one roughened hand of his cups your cheek.
Tilting your face ever-so-carefully to look at him instead of the audience.
His pinkish tongue darts out to wet his lips, and he leans in close- as if he was going to whisper something. As if he was going to kiss you.
Before Geto immediately downs the acrid liquid in the glass, barely even reacting. Barely even finishing his swallow before his long, flexible tongue glides up the salt lining your throat. And then where he didnât hesitate before, didnât even slow down: he takes a look at the sour lime between your lips and grins.
Slowly, agonizingly.
Heâs moving his greedy maw forwards, the plump edges of his mouth hovering above your own. You feel the pressure on the lime as he lightly sucksâand as your knees weaken, heâs easily taking it into his own mouth.
With just the lightest graze of his lips on your lips.
An indirect kiss? A direct kiss? You didnât even know at this point.
Geto stares at you through his wispy bangs, dead-straight in your widened eyes when he sucks on the lime. Easily ridding it of all juice, he takes it out.Â
Then, like a gentleman, the fat crown of his thumb wipes away the stray salt that dusts your jawline. Somewhere near the edge of your lips that youâre sure wasnât coated in salt at all. But you werenât complaining.
Your ears were ringing, and only too late do you realize that the half-drunk students around you were in uproar. Gasping. Fanning. Staring.Â
Gojo himself gapes slightly speechless.Â
âMeddle about.â
âWhat?â You startle, it had been thick silence in your little bubble until nowâlike an extension of the alcove. But Geto was the first to break it.
Heâs smiling down at you like he knew something you didnât, then taps the song notebook in your hands- when did it even get in your hands? âIf I could figure it out-â Smoky breaths, like heâd just run a marathon. Pants. Heaves. His eyes draaaag down your body, that special outfit youâd put on just for the party. â-Iâd take you back to my house, so we can meddle about.â
Oh.
Oh.
It takes you far too long to recognize heâs talking about the song. The song.
Even if heâs looking at you in a way that shows otherwise.
âJust get a room- honestly-â Gojo whines, but then promptly turns to Shoko. âTell me you got that on camera- please tell me you got that on camera.â
âI did.â
It was palpable. To just about everyone in the roomâincluding a gruff Nanami Kento who walks back in after a few urgent calls from Haibara, then immediately blanches as he looks around the room. At the two of you.
He turns to run.
And as the three others turn to run as well (towards Nanami, in order to catch him), you turn to Geto- only to find that heâs already looking at you. He takes a long lick of his lower lip, lapping up the remnants of liquor. Something glinting in his dark eyes, as if he was trying to figure something out.
Something.
.
.
.
âHey, let me try something.â
It was the day of their concert, just before. And youâre looking on in slight confusion as Geto taps away the last few notes of his rehearsal, in the green room. The other quartet had slipped out for last-minute drinks beforehand, it was a somewhat dingy hole-in-the-wall bar, but Geto had told you that the music here was legendary.
You trusted him. So you donât question it either when heâs dragging you by the hand to sit upon one of the big, boxy speakers they kept in the corner of the room.
Making sure the cable connection with his electric guitar was alright- before he strums.
You gaspâthe vibrations were tingling all the way at the tip of your feet, and up to the very crown of your scalp. And everywhere in-between. Especially between your legs.
You gape, and Geto snickers like he knew exactly what you were thinking. He hums, low in the aftermath of the guitar screech. âPretty nice, huh? Dâyou wanna sit on one of those while we play up there?â
âA-are you sure?â Could you even handle that?
âMhm. And I think itâll help to have you so close, too- when we play our new song.â Heâs helping you hop off the speaker and stand on your slightly wobbly legs. Arm still helping support you as you teeter your way towards the green room sofa.Â
It was covered in a blanket of parchment. Sheet music, papers, lyrics.
As you silently look through all the different versions of that song heâd been writing, Geto sits beside you. Arms against arms. Thighs against thighs. Bodies against bodies. Shuffling through all these papers, it almost reminds you of the day you met.
âSo many rewrites,â you giggle. Looking through all the infinite crosses and scratches on the papers as he wrote, and rewrote, and rewrote. All day and all night, it seemed. And yet heâs found that everything, words especially, just seem to flow easier around you.
âI wrote it for you.â His dark lashes lower, confessing. âTheyâre all for you.â
Your heart races- a part of you expected it. A part of you still canât believe it. âYou did?â
âYeah.â He turns to face you, properly, now. With his predatory gaze making a beeline for your mouth, âSâthat a problem?â
âYeah.â You swallow, âAnd I like it.â
And then your backâs splayed out across the couch, draped all over Getoâs toned front. Heâs got one of his knees wedged between your thighs, and youâre yelping at the sudden movement.
You were just so cute- heâd barely even done anything, and yet you were starting to drench those poor panties of yours already. If he grinded his knee any harder, then heâs sure heâd have a splotchy dark spot that all the audiences would see once heâs up on that stage.
But right now, he didnât care.
Not at all.
One tattooed hand of his pins down two of yours somewhere by the armrest of the couch.
And your cunt twitches when his face starts looming closer. The shimmering tip of his tongue toying with his lip piercing for a few seconds. Eyes partly-closed to watch you through his lashes, and his mouth greedy to taste yours. He throatily whispers, âI think I just finished the entire song right now, gorgeous.â
Like this, youâre raising your head to meet Geto halfway with a whine. Fluttering your gaze shut as you ready yourself to kiss himâ
âHey, dâyou wanna shot before we head ou- ohohoh?!â
âOh.â
âCongratulations, Geto senpai!â
Nanami leaves, the only one out of the four that seemed to have some inkling of respect for your privacy. Though, to be fair, this was the common green room. And as you try your very best to block out Gojoâs screeches, and Shokoâs constantly shuttering camera, Geto dips down.Â
Not to kiss you - not right now - but rather, to whisper in your ear. âAfter the show, mâgonna take you back to my house so we could meddle about.â
.
.
.
After that, it wasnât just meddling about.Â
Hell, after that, the two of you didnât even make it to his damn penthouse.Â
The minute the concert was over to roaring cheers and quite a few bras thrown on-stage- Getoâs meaningful eyes had locked straight with yours. Seated upon the speaker, and dripping wet from what he could tell from your face.Â
He doesnât think he even debriefed with the band or said his goodbyes.Â
Just a hand on your wrist, the other on your waist. Attached meanly so that he can give the side of your ass a good smack- Getoâs pushing you into the back of his 2018 jet-black Dodge Demon, parked outside the dingy bar. Thank fuck he didnât decide to take the bike today.
Slamming you into the leather backseats, pinning your hips down.
Youâre fucking them back into him already, just as he cups your drivelling pussy through your panties. Whining, âP-please, Suguru. Donât tease.â
âFuck-â Heâs hissing, taking his hand off of your cute cunt as if it burned. And it did - not to have you in his mouth and around his fingers, that is. First, heâs letting his dark leather jacket drop to the floor, right along with his undershirt.Â
And you take the time to admire how sexy he was.
From the detailed tattoos that trickled down his neck, to the dragon on his back, to the side of his hip that was decorated with one of a sting-ray. Right on his v-line.Â
Then heâs moving to take off his fat, silver ringsâbut you stop him right there. And the look on your face must say enough for you, because just then youâre seeing his features split with such a brilliant smile. Oh, he knew what you wanted. Geto huskily spits, âAlright then, naughty girl. So take it.â
Youâre letting off a sudden yelp once he plunges his cold, ringed fingers between your spit-slicked lips.Â
Heâs swabbinâ them all around like an animal, letting your maw suck on him like your favorite lolly. And, fuck, he canât lie- watching you drool and whine around him like this might just be the hottest thing heâs ever seen.Â
With two glittering rivers of spit dripping down either side of your mouth, youâre moaning once you catch sight of his hand snaking down to his pants. âMmm, gorgeous, I wanna make you sing.â With only one hand, heâs undoing his chunky belt and the rest of his buttons.Â
He looks you right in the eyes - not even the slightest bit shy - as he pushes down his dark pants so that you can see the bulging outline of Getoâs erection through his boxers. Rock-hard.Â
And just as you gaspâhis fingers reel back from your slobbery mouth, and slightly teases down your slit. You gush with the drag of his thick thumb, all around him till his wrist was all wet with sweet syrup.Â
You hold onto his flexing shoulders, âO-oh.â Your hips rutting directly into his hands.Â
âOh- oh, gorgeous.â Geto doesnât even want to speak too loud, not when your pussy was echoing out the most lewd squelches. âSheâs reeeeeally happy to see me, huh? Havenât had a warm welcome this nice since- ever.â His fingers swirl âround your tight hole and watches as you just keep on pushing out wave upon wave of your juices. Swirl upon swirl.
Until his digits were just so glazed in all your cream that he couldnât help but carnally yearn for a little taste. Just a little - you canât blame him.
Glistening rivulets of slick travel down his pale forearm as he lifts his hand up- you were just that wet for him. And then Geto sucksâthen his eyes widen. Then he pants. Then he almost flinches at just how cloyingly good you tasted on his savoring tongue.
Looking you right in your eyes, Geto licks up every last drop from his fingers. And he gusts out the most primal slurps as he does so.Â
âOh, gorgeous,â heâs repeating, like before. But there was something different this time. Something faintlyâŚwrecked. As the last few dollops of slick disappear down his throat, he groans. Eyes rolling to the back of his head, âOh, fuck- thatâs not enough.â
It all happens at once. All of a sudden, heâs on his knees on the floor of the backseat. Knees digging into the carpet below, your upper half being more or less propped up on the cushion.Â
Itâs giving you whiplash how fast it happens, and youâre staring at Geto in slight shock at his strength. To which he catches your cute, bulged gaze and answers, âMânot playing around anymore, gorgeous.â
Skirt, pantiesâeverything is torn off of you with only one of his hands. That lacy lilâ underwear of yours in particular catching his interest. He makes sure to put it in his back pocket - then turns on the backseat light. Uncaring, because his windows were tinted pitch black.
Right now he just smears apart your pussylips with his two thumbs. Heâs never seen a prettier fuckinâ sight; how glittering and wet you were, with your folds so swollen that it looked like you were pouting up at him.
Geto plants one sweet lilâ peck right in the middle of your cunt and lingers, just smelling the sugary whiff of your body wash. And that primal scent of your pussyâ
âMmm, yâknow what they say about guitarists?â Heâs murmuring wetly, right against your sex so that youâll squirm all cutely.Â
âWh-what?â You puff out, a heady breath.
He doesnât answer- thatâs because your wettened pussy is answering for you. With a great, upheaving squeeeeelch heâs sinking inside his lengthy tongue. Past your folds nâ all the way to spearhead into your gooey insides. Muffled, âThat.â
Itâs barely even registering in your mind, because then Getoâs thrusting his ridged tastebuds in nâ out like heâs gone insane.
In and out, in and out.
With such vulgarity, heâs pressing himself nose-deep against your cunt and breathing you in. Letting the sharp edge of his nose just press on your clit, Getoâs jaw works overtime to prod his bludgeoning tongue.Â
Slapping against the roof of your pussy, heâs prolonging his muscle into spots you didnât even know you had. âOh my n-ngh, fuck!â And so thick, just stretching out your damp hole until you see white.
You gurgle on your own spittle at the sloppy drags of his tastebuds, and pathetically attempt to push back on his clammy scalp. âW-wait, I can feel a- ngh, donât tell me you really have aâŚâ
âHave a what, gorgeous?â Just to tease you, Geto jerks his head back- letting his tongue flop out of your pussy for just a second. And youâre missing his size inside you, but most of all youâre awestruck by the cold metal piercing right in the middle of his pink tongue.
And he was proudly stuffing it straightly back into your entrance, this time spitting. He smears the line of saliva that glues to your sultry folds, âA piercing- yeah. Sâthat a problem?â
âN-noâŚâ Your head starts to drop backwards at the sudden usage of his piercing now. You could feel that circular orb poke into your soft innards, like a cold finger almost. Youâve never felt anything like this. âI like it- oh! I like it, I really doââ
âMhm, glad we cleared that up, baby.â Geto purrs, and he lightly smacks the front of your pussy in adoration. Watching as specks of pearly slick spurt all over his hand, âNow, how about this?â
Before you know it, heâs squeezing in the crowned tip of his finger past your hole - two of them, in fact. And your elastic entrance stretches with the most rawly wet noises, ones that he leans his ear closer to hear even better. Even louder.
Geto snickers meanly once one of his rings catch on your snug hole, and you flinch. âThere we go-â He eases them in with repeated pumps, âTheeere we go. Hah, told you I wanted to make this pretty lady sing.â
âFuh-fuuuuck, I canât help it, ngh.â Your entire body breaks out in trembles, and the bottom one of your lips starts wobbling.
Oh, he could write songs- fuck that, he could write an entire album about you at this very moment.
But right now, he had more important things to do. Namely: you. And Geto plucks apart your sticky folds to take a good, long look at your cunt swallowinâ in his fingers. Push after push. Probe after probe.
The knobbly, scouring ends of his fingers delve in deep and send you spiralling. âYou donât need to mmm, help it, gorgeous.â Heâs continuing where your conversation had trailed off. âYou just need toâŚâ
And heâs gulping wet wads of saliva that just slide down his throat.Â
His thick Adamâs apple bobbing, Getoâs flaring his nostrils- making sure to focus his entire aim on exactly hitting that one spot he knew youâd love. That one spot heâs thrusting in with a rough jackhammer and pushingââ-to project.â
And you were projecting that pretty voice alright.
Youâre screaming almost feverishly at the sensation of him scraping your inner lining, your walls cling onto him maddeningly. Gobbling him up as he hits your g-spot at a frenzied pace - once, twice, thrice.Â
âPlease-â Babbling out stupidly, tears cascade down your cheeks when he manages to shove your wet orifice apart. Youâre drip-drip-driiiiping gummy wetness once he pushes in a second fat fingertip, the globular edge of his swipinâ each nook nâ cranny of your cunt. âPlease please please- I need ngh-â
âYeahhh, who do you need, gorgeous?â
âY-youâŚâ
Geto cups his ear with a mocking smile, and heâs crushing your throbbing clit between his front teeth. Just gnawing. âMhmmmâ?â
âYou-â Youâre sobbing out - squealing. Your back hits the seat of the cushion as you slump over, and heâs forced to push down on your stomach with one hand just to stop you from rovering about. Pinning you down.
âBabyyyy, you know I love to hear your- hah, voice.â Heâs drawling out, and his words were just as sloppy as his mouth. Just salivating all over. âI have a feeling you can be louder though.â
âSugu-â
âLouder~â
Putting all the pressure on your lower body when he sliiiiides every inch of his long, knobbly fingertips inside. The doughy pads of them push into your g-spot just right, until you felt all battered nâ bruised by him. âPlease- you- ngh, you, Suguru.â
âThere- what did I tell you. Fuck, I wish I could h-have this on speaker.â Groaning. Panting. âYeahhhh, you like that, huh? Want my tongue, t-too? Oh.â
But then youâre clasping his sweaty forehead and shoving him down between your legs. Where his curving tongue was sloppily zig-zagging all over, and youâre trilling. âK-keep going, mmm.â Cock twitching. Rutting so hard that his damned muscle car jostles.
He couldnât even catch his breath - and he didnât want to. âWell, I hafta make it up to my muse in some way, yeah?â
His tongue is so expert, too. Youâre easily getting louder - even more than you first thought possible. Partly because of the way his pierced tongue was resting on your overstimulated nub. Flicking your ruddied clit until it felt all raw, again nâ againâyou were so far gone by this point that Geto can feel each pulse of your hot core on his mouth.
And he counts it - one, two, three, four. Like the beat of his favorite melody- fuuuuck, he was so pussydrunk right now that he might just memorize it and write it as the next beat of his song.Â
âY-youâd- hck! what?â Youâre hiccuping in pure disbelief, unsure if those words had actually (accidentally) fallen from Getoâs mouth, or if he was makinâ out with your cunt so good that you were hearing things. You wouldnât be surprised.
âExactly what I jusâ said.â
And Geto isnât, either.Â
Of course, he was bound to be fucking stupid on the sultry taste of your pussy. Especially when you were streaming out wet ribbons of slick with each rovering push of his fingers.Â
He vulgarly wets his lips a lilâ in the liquid leaking out, and then promptly plops his open mouth over your sopping hole. Geto had lapped up all the slick stuck to your folds, your thighs, your clit - now the one place left was inside.Â
And he was still hungry.
His pierced lip draaaaagging over your quivering orifice, Geto starts to push his tongue in eagerly. Uncaring for the way he was already barreling his fingers inside. Uncaring of the absolutely incredible stretch that was making your back arch.Â
Nâ heâs so dexterous. Alternating between wet whacks! at the front channel of your walls, and then licking over your clit. He was plastered to your pussy in a way that felt maddening- âSh-shit, I donât think mâgonna last, Suguââ
âSugu, huh?â He raises a neat brow at the nickname, âI like that.â
And if it was possible, his narrowed strikes are accelerating. More honed, more precise to your g-spot, itâs like a cute lilâ bullseye that he canât stop hitting. All because it makes you shake and whine like that.Â
âMmm, yeah, just like that. Câmon, gorgeous girl- come and get it-â Geto gruffs now, the back of his throat all hoarse. His baritone voice was on the verge of breaking at this point. âRide my mouth, would you?â
Youâre whimpering, because Getoâs then opening his pretty mouth even wider for you to ride him - but youâre so weak.Â
Your limp knees struggling to keep on rutting- only for Geto to then shift a free hand underneath you.Â
Feeling all his firm biceps nâ muscles bulge as he keeps you up, just so strong- fuck, was it all those guitar sessions? He gurgles out, âUpsy daisy. Lemme help you cum, baby.â Dragging; heâs just moving you like a ragdoll, push and pull of his slippery tongue.Â
Just babbling nonsensical syllables.Â
And heâs gluing his upper lip to your clit, to your folds, to your weepy hole. Everywhere and anywhere that youâll be feeling the most pleasure, then heâs twirlinâ the pointed tip of his tongue inside like heâs reaching for your g-spot with that.
Like heâs fucking you with his cock. Craving to.Â
Again and again, it makes you squirm.
Your syrupy goodness starts to drip down his forearm at the sheer pressure, showing him that youâre close. And with each bash of his three fingertip circumferences, Geto grunts. âLemme help you- let me- ngh, you have to cum, okay? Cum alllll over my tongue.â
âYes-â Being moved. And soon enough, with a few more vicious thwacks! your mouth hangs open in a silent scream. âS-Sugu, IâmâŚâ
Itâs the only thing youâre able to intone at the moment. The only thing that you can even think of - your heavy orgasm. Youâre being manhandled, with your hips gyrated onto his face through every burst of pleasure.Â
Somehow, you start to wonder whether he doesnât need to breathe.
And heâs the one who doesnât care about it. Doesnât even care if he suffocates just as long as his mouth can remain plastered onto your pussy. Eating you out till heâs feeling dizzy.
And you? Youâre seeing white, before itâs a kaleidoscope of color because of the tears.
You hiccup, your chin dropping down to your chest to stare at him through comically swirling pupils. Practically heart-eyes at this point. âNgh, it feels so g-good, Sugu-â Your thighs start to twitch, feeling his orbed piercing spank down on your clit. Your very own tastebuds water at the stinging euphoria, the way he was scraping your innards. âMâso sensitive.â
âMhm, and youâre not tapping out now,â heâs challenging. Looking up at you through shaggy bangs, Geto grins around your thoroughly puffy folds. âBecause my throat is parched after the concert.â
You squeeze, so hard that he can feel his rings pushinâ against your sultry walls. Oh, he wonât be giving up so easily.
And by the time that Getoâs popping himself off of your treacly cunt - with a wet noise, with a few more kisses to your silvery slope, with a final bite on your clit - youâre run rightly ragged. You can barely even speak, occasionally tremoring at the shockwaves still bubbling through your veins.Â
âP-pleaseââ Youâre running your fingers tenderly through his dark locks, pushing them away from his face. And luckily for you, what a sight it was.Â
Because Getoâs high cheekbones were just cherry red in color from all the blushing and lack of air. From the way he was so pussydrunk on your cunt that it was starting to make him look oh-so-ruined. Eyelids heavy. Lips swollen.Â
He had a sheen of your slick splashed from his pointed chin, all the way up his cheeks. His jawline. And his lengthy tongue pops out once more to stretch nâ lick up those clingy wads. Making sure you see.
Bit by bit, your mouth grows more agape. âPlease, I wanâ your cock now, SuguâŚâ And you wanted it badly - that glimpse from before was enough to get you all antsy on his seat.
Slowly, sensually, Geto reaches out his fat thumb - the one from his left hand, that wasnât covered in your shiny juices - and wipes off the slobber trickling from one end of your mouth. Putting it in his own maw, he sucks it up like he sucks up the slick all over his other set of digits.Â
âAnything you say, my muse.â
He sounded husky, even more so than after the concert.
And you barely even have the time to touch whatever was left of the rest of your clothes - before Geto gently repositions your hands away and onto hold his slim waist. He undresses you himself, as if he was opening up a cute lilâ present.
Then heâs patting a thumb down onto the hem of his boxers, where black curls of his happy trail rested. Teasing.Â
âDonât tease.â You have half the mind to take them off yourself. Before Geto finally puts you out of your needy misery, and rids himself of those boxers.
And you were right - his bulging dick-print was huge, but the real thing was even more massive.Â
And hard. Rock-fucking-hard. Getoâs plump, puckered cockhead was a bright red that looked angry, and he was flushed all the way down to his heavy balls. All twitchinâ and tight at the thought of being inside you.Â
Hell, you swear you could even count the mere throbs of his veins, so far-gone that they seemed to make his decorated cock twitch in midair. But what you were gazing at the most wasnât all of that - even though it did catch your eye - it was the small, circular piercing that rested underneath the slit of his tip. A Prince Albertâs piercing.Â
Getoâs feeling the intensity of your stare and and leaks out a wad of buttery precum, a few droplets of it making it down his shaft. He wipes away the rest of it with the front pad of his thumb, and then pushes it between your gawking lips. âShut that hah, pretty mouth, gorgeous, donât wanna catch flies.â
You moan at the slightly salty taste, and it only makes your cunt grow even wetter. Only made you lean in even closer without even realizing - and Geto lets it happen.
He lets your pouty mouth slip all the way across his furiously weeping tip, pressing just one wet kiss in hello before a hand at your throat wrenches you away. âDonât even worry about it, babyââ He uses his chokehold on you to lift you up.
To flip you around and then smack the side of your asscheeks. You were on all fours now, with him pressing his muscular weight into your arched spine.
Geto gutturally groans out in your ear, âTonightâsââ And you feel something poke at your entrance. You feel something hard. â-allll about you.â
He rests a hand on the side of your hips, attaching, and then uses the force to drag you back into him. All filling up your gooey orifices with his erection, heâs squeezing himself inside like heâs gone feral.Â
Oh, heâs squeezing himself inside like heâs trying to make you feral.
That flared, mushroomy tip of his pryinâ apart your sticky walls, Geto uses his honed shaft to push nâ push nâ push. Too big to completely bottom out for now, but still making your mind spin with rapid, hard half-thrusts. You whine, âOh- oh!â Voice reaching a fever point. âPlease, a-all the way in, Sugu.â
âMmm, want it all the way ngh, in, huh?â Doing the exact opposite, Geto then slows. He then stops. His cute, orbed piercing rubbinâ the roof of your cunt frigidly back and forth. Ever-so-slightly. Teasingly.Â
Itâs only once you start huffing and puffing in disappointment that heâs chuckling, thinking that delirious expression was just too adorable on you. And in a low bass, Geto purrs out. âCome and get it now.â
âYouâre not seriouslyââ
âI am, show me how you do it-â His hand on your throat twists your face backwards - all tear-stained and fighting the urge to let your eyes roll to the back of your scalp. The moment he catches sight of your face properly, you feel his blistering hot cock twitch inside you. â-fuck, turn around.â
And he was urging you to fuck your hips back into his. Goading you into it, practically.
Firstly, you start off with a few tentative bounces. Just gyrating your hips, almost shy of his size. âL-like this?â
âNuh uh, baby.â Heâs tutting from behind, other hand scraping down your tummy. He wants to feel himself as he sinks in. âYou nâ I both know that you can do muuuch better than that.â And even though he wasnât moving, his cock seemed to be growing even bigger. Swelling. Elongating.
One of his curly veins rub up near your g-spot and you trill, âBut youâre just soâŚâ
âSo?â
The most shallow, wet grinds. Not enough to take him entirely, not enough to satiate you. âBig.âÂ
And then youâre blessed - well, more like punished - with a semi-rut, swabbinâ his thickened tip even deeper. You canât help but squeeze your plush walls around him, expecting more. âWanâ it that bad?â Swatting your ass, the force is enough that your flesh jiggles and he grins. âTake it, then. Mâall yours.â
So youâre raising your ass up even higher, arms wobbling limply in front of you. You use up all the energy left in your shattered body to perk your waist up just a bit, then slam down the rest of Getoâs length. Hitting his hard v-lines. Bottoming-out.Â
Taking him all the way from the fat, split-ended tip- down, down, dooooown till his hairs tickle your slope.
Geto raises a brow at the way youâre mewling uncontrollably by taking all of him, then his right hand starts to push nâ pull you with the restraint at your neck. âSâit that big? Hah- ya like it thaaaat much, gorgeous?â
âYes- oh, f-feels so good having you like this.â You moan, every time he was elongating his words, Geto made sure to glide the cold metal of his piercing down your spongy cervix. âFuck, can barely even ngh! take it.â
And you have the feeling that if he could reach even further than that, then he would in a heartbeat.
âBut you are.â
Before you know it, a wet splat! of something strikes your cunt folds. Youâre turning your head over your shoulder to find out that it was Geto spitting on your already-dripping pussy, an invisible string of it still connecting his mouth to your entrance.Â
âBecause mâproud of you, my muse.â He drawls out, and he sounds drunk. Geto swerves around the tip of his thumb all over your pussylips, just like he was stirrinâ around his cock by now.Â
Circle after circle. Prodding into hidden spots you didnât even realize were there- he then catches the slightly pouty curve of your mouth and coos. âAwww, whatâs the matter, baby- fuck.â In response you only clamp down on him, the textured ridges of his shaft so sensational that it leaves your mouth ajar. His lip curls, âOh, I get it.â
âH-huh?â
Just then he leans over, and it leaves his curvaceous tip poking in even deeper. Melting his sweaty abs on top to the back of your spine, Geto purses his lips and spits. Straight into your mouth, then he smiles all handsomely like heâd just done you a favor.
You look at him with bulging eyes. Heâd read your mind.Â
âFuck, youâre getting even w-wetter.â Heâs sputtering out- fucking up into you. Chasing your pussy. Every hard thrust of his left you shoved forwards a few inches, and Getoâs reeling you back in just so he wonât lose you.
Just so the feeling of your pulsing, velvety walls wonât be lost- soon enough, heâs wrapping his beefy left hand over your neck to hold you in a headlock. âGonna hafta give me a show- we can do that, ngh, canât we, gorgeous? Gonna drive me wiiiild w-with that pussy, huh?â
âO-oh my god-â youâre blabbering out. A sparkly sheen of saliva forming down his forearm, trickling from the front of your mouth. âI think youâre doing the- driving wild- oh.â
You could barely even string together the sentences.
Your entire body twitches at the sudden change in angle; with him bent over and leaning his weight into you like this, you felt like you were being crushed in the best ways. Getoâs constant pummeling reaches deep into the back spots of your cervix, leaving a cute lilâ bruise of his circumference.Â
He kisses the side of your head sloppily- and youâre realizing that Geto had forgotten to take off one of his silver chains. Or maybe he didnât want to. Because there was just the rhythmic, cold bang-bang-bang of his jewellery that was greeting the back of your neck in time with his furious ruts.Â
All the way from his hard, globular tip nâ dooooown to where his shaft was the thickest. His drilling pace left your plush insides being all straightened out on his length. His girth.Â
Just fucking you like an animal.
You can feel your head start to slowly tip forwards, too heavy and filled with cotton. But Geto would never let you get off that easy, âHey, heyâlook at me.â Pulling you back in with his headlock.
Getoâs tone was firm, he meant it.Â
You struggle to blink your lids open properly, all sticky with the residue of your tears. Yet once you look at him, you can still make out the sultry twinkle in his eyes.Â
He lifts his right hand up to your bleary line of vision, âYou see this?â And you have to take a few seconds to note that heâs talking about that tattoo that slithers across his entire arm - a snake. With its fanged maw wide open where his thumb separated from the rest of his fingers, âMmm, nice, huh?â
Absent-mindedly, you nod.
Thatâs when you register whatâs happening - the snake. With its mouth wiiiide open, creeps down to your pussy, and heâs cupping your delicate folds. Almost as if to swallow. As if to strike.Â
Getoâs pounding you into the expensive backseat of his car like heâs devouring you. Pinpointing each nâ every leaking crevice with his buttery precum, letting the mound of his palm slide back and forth down your slit.Â
You gush out a wet splatter! of syrup straight into his palm and he grins, âReally- oh, ya really are drivinâ me wild, baby. Look into my eyes now.â
He wanted to stare away into your beautiful, stupidly dilated eyes as he mazes his entire length inside you. The forefront of his piercing acting like a searchlight, you can feel the exact moment that Geto smears apart your walls nâ precisely bashes your g-spot.
âS-so unfair that you have a- hck!â You canât even finish your sentence. Youâre choking on so many whines nâ copious amounts of drool that wash down the front of your chin like a fountain.Â
Geto himself finds it adorable how youâre cockdrunk already. And it almost feels like that night at the party when he leans in, parched tongue licking up your web of drool - why waste it? âI donât hear her complaining.â
âM-maybe she is-â You insist back stubbornly, just for something to say.
And at that very moment, one of Getoâs long fingers extends so that he can drag them down the dribbling crevice of your pussy. The edge of his middle finger slide-slide-slides between your slit with the loudest, most primal slurp. âMmm, I donât think she is. Not when sheâs- ngh, singing fâme.â
His words are enough to make your eardrums pop at the filth - but then again, so is the way he was driving his hips into you. Repeatedly, like a train. And so was the way the crowned tip of his ringed fingers start rolling over your clit.
You prattle out, just when he uses his large index to draw a heart on the very tip-top button of your nub. Just the pressure felt too good. âS-sooooo cockyââ
âDamn right nâ youâre full of it- literally.âÂ
Perhaps it was the way he said it - reminding you of the thick, solid inches that were filling you up - or perhaps it was his newly-drawn patterns on your clit, but youâre growing even wetter. Dripping in thick, glittering wads of slick that trickle down Getoâs own legs.
Feeling the sloppy wetness, heâs looking down- and then immediately grinning to himself. He whispers, âWonder if I canâŚâ
âWhat are you-â
âShhh, told you tonight was all about- hah, fuuuuck- you, my muse.â
Oh, you donât know how well that boded for your poor pussy. Or your walking abilities for at least the next week.Â
In a mere few nanoseconds, Geto has his hips churning out an interesting angular cadence. Not only was he pumping his red, swollen cock into you- he was also shiftinâ his hips in grinding movements so that the edge of his Prince Albertâs piercing would swab its way âround and round.
Sticking his glazed tip into each spot, the icy circle of his piercing was just driving you wild. Making your toes curl and your feet anchor- almost in an effort to runâ
âAh ah-â Only for him to pull you back in with his constraining headlock, flexing so that his sexy biceps are squeezing your neck even tighter. âWeâre getting- ngh, doooown and dirty, girl. Donât run.â Then heâs repeating the scrape-scrape of his decorated crown down your walls, red nâ rude.Â
âF-fuck, could you feel that, gorgeous?â Getoâs voice breaks at some point, after a particularly drawn-out drag of his rovering tip. And he has the audacity to giggle, âThat one was a heart.â
Your eyes snap open, mouth plummeting out a low- âOh, fuck.â
Because Geto wasnât just fucking you with his pierced cockhead anymore; he was using that orb at the beginning of his slit to draw on you. Right at the very end of your sponged cervix, in ravenous strokes, he was buttering you up. Painting you.
Next, he glissades a swooping motion that makes his veins push up against your roof. Uttering a low hiss, âMmm- my- hah, my nameâs a bit harderâŚâ
âL-let me help.â
And that makes Getoâs heart skip a beat.
He slides his hand up nâ down your slit, prodding at your clit lovingly. âO-of course, my muse.â Letting you push backwards in a figure-eight, until his dark happy trail was rubbing your ass cheeks raw. âHarder-â A vulgar spank to your ass. âHarder. Show me how you can d-do it.â
âMâgoing- ngh, fuck. Wanâ more, Suguru.â
Anything you say. Anything you do- fuck, he almost thinks he could cum right here, right now. Thatâs why heâs instead focusing his attention on manhandling your body back in ruts, to hit his massive girth with such rough recoil.
Again. And again. And again and againâ
Until youâre feeling his pulsing mushroom tip glue up against your womb, carving along a whalloping bruise. And you swear - with whatever frenzied brain cells were left within your skull - it formulates the zig-zagging motion of an âSâ
âAnd thaaaaat was my n-name.â
Maybe he got lucky. Maybe he was just that good.
Sobbing, âF-fuck!â You donât get to find out whether heâs able to finish off the rest of his name - whether that was even possible - because immediately youâre bucking back nâ forth. âOh my god- i-itâs almost- ngh, too much.â That lecherous action sending sparks of pleasure to your brain. Having him try nâ claim the very back spots of your pussy. Those hidden crevices.Â
âEasy, eeeeasy there, baby. What did I sayâdonât run.â Pulling you back with his headlock, âDonât make me- ngh, choke you like that- gorgeous-â Even though he already was.
Youâre getting easily dumbified as he repeats those movements a few more times. Needily moving faster to chase those sparks heâd erupted before, âPlease- please want it- ngh, close-â
âNice try.â Body so weak that he was the one predominantly in control now. Heâs matching your pace- surpassing it, all with a thumb that tweaks your clit until you see white. That snake. Maw ajar. âBut youâre the one thatâs gonna, mmm, cum first.â
You whine. Geto was just so mean- was he always this mean? Because he surely was fucking you like it; now three different points of pleasure. From your throbbing clit, to your g-spot being massaged by his decorative veins, then that lewd lilâ pattern he drew at the back of your cervix. So much. Too much.Â
Youâre so close that youâre slobbering out in waves at this point, and he has his mouth slipped to the side to lick up any nâ every sap you were leaking.Â
Pierced tongue slimily slithering allll the way down the side of your lips, you mewl. So filthy. âFuck- y-youâre right-â His blushing red tip twitches at those words. âMâgonna- gonnaâŚâ
You canât even finish your sentence.Â
With a few more sinful strokes, youâre falling apart on his creamy cock. Letting the heatwave of your high take over you- you throw your head back, resting upon Getoâs collarbone, toes curled, mouth shrilling out his name.Â
After each and every sloppy drag of his vein-covered cock, he was fucking you through your high so perfectly. The frigid tip of his piercing pushinâ into your g-spot, that makes you last even longer.
Even more.Â
And Geto himself was just as drunk on your pussy- âF-fuck, mâgonna cum.â He moans, tonality hollow in a way that made him sound so wrecked. Just then, youâre feeling something warm and gooey fill up the nooks and crannies of your cunt.
Webbing you up from the inside. It sticks to you like a second skin and heâs overfilling you to the point where you can feel a sheen of white drip down the insides of your thighs. Gluing them together. âShit- donât even have enough, ngh, space.â
âOh, you will.â Through labored pants, Geto looks down where you were taking him - and he doesnât think heâs seen a more heavenly sight. With your damp folds glazed in ivory, glistening after each pump of his hips. Itâs forming a ring around his bulky base, soaking his happy trail.
He smears the droplets of cum that are part of the spillage, layering them onto the padded top of his thumb. Then, immediately, you gasp as you feel the stretch of him pushing those knots back inside. âListen to that-â The loudest wet noises. âWonder if Iâll be able to hah- sing as good as that at my next concert, hm?â
âShut up.â
Geto doesnât stop just yet.Â
Not until his ravaged, red cock feels rawâoversensitive. Not until heâs properly fucked you through the hazy peaks of your high and youâre left merely trembling. Not until heâs squirted every ounce of pure white cum inside you, nâ you canât do anything but perk your hips up from the seat and take it. Take it.Â
He has tears in his eyes by now. The rockstar pulls back his hand from your clit after you start wriggling with overstimulation.Â
And then makes sure you watch - make sure you can see his looooong, pink tongue slither out to suck up every sullied dewdrop of slick and cum from his digits. From his rings. Lastly, he slaps his cleaned, moisturized fingers against your ass. Groping.Â
âI could write albums about that, gorgeous.â You still havenât gained the ability to speak since being completely dumbified.Â
And Geto sets you free from that headlock, finally. Youâre dropping to the plushness of his car seat like youâre boneless, barely even able to look up as he seethes. Through labored pants, he smiles, âSoâŚstill wanna go back to my house so we can meddle about?â
Not even pulling out of you yet.
He throbs from the inside. Plump nâ probing. Awaiting your answer- you start to wonder whether heâll be able to write out the entirety of his name on your cervix.
âFuck yeah.â
.
.
.
It was no surprise that Meddle About topped the charts. All of them.
Someone had recorded it back at its debut concert, to which it had gone viral overnight. Then came the record deals, the studio sessions, and the official album launch (of which Geto claimed that all those love songs were about you.)
And it was also no surprise that that was what launched the Sorcerers from being a regionally famous band, frequenting the local bars and gigs, to being internationally-known. To touring all âround the world.Â
But what did come as a slight surprise - a pleasant one - was when heâd asked you to join him.
Somehow, some part of you had imagined that once Geto got a taste of the high life, the fame, the music, the travel; that meant heâd simply indulge in it. Without you. Without even a thought of you - little did you know that you were all Geto Suguru could think about.
Seriously. It did endearingly irritate his bandmates.Â
So when Geto asked you to join him, after some arrangements with your life back at home, youâd said yes. Of course.
And then there was another surprise. At the very first concert that youâd attended with him- and then for each one thereafter (it grew to be a little tradition, you see) there was thisâŚ
âAnd tonight- I have someone very special in the crowd for me- yes, Satoru, sheâs here for me, not for you.â The crowd buzzes, peering over each otherâs heads for a glimpse of another collaboration act, perhaps. Some even waited for one of the band members to stage dive.Â
But what happens is that Geto Suguru - rockstar, worldwide heartthrob, lead guitarist of the Sorcerers - smiles. A slow, soft smile that they donât think theyâve ever seen on him before, not this sort.Â
And heâs pointing somewhere to the VIP seats, the closest ones at the very front row. Where there was you; you could feel the stares now. The whispers. The phones recording. Surely, this was about to end up on just about ten different social medias- just when you had gotten used to the campus teasing. This was about tens of thousands of more eyes. Honestly, having a rockstar boyfriend was not for the weak.
But he did make it so easy. So, so easy.
Geto continues on, a gentle chuckle leaving his mouth at the way you squirm under the spotlight. He says your name, âMy muse, my lover. I love you. This oneâs for you, just as they all are.âÂ
Thereâs a tumultuous wave of âawwâsâ that ring out, and screams, perhaps a few faints.
emo! choso loves using his tongue on you, mostly because of his piercing that leaves you shaking and wanting for more the second the cold metal meets your needy cunt.
emo! choso lets heâs you into the break room once his lunch break starts so he can have his way with you, pushing your tiny skirt up to your waist as he pounds into you at an angle that manages to hit your g-spot immediately.
emo! choso is protective over you, shooting boys a nasty glare if he even as much sees them looking at you in a hungry manner. and you eat it up every time because you love the way his large hands wrap around you in possession.
emo! choso lets you dye his hair once in a while, letting you experiment with different colored dye all while you cock-warm him, of course.
emo! choso has a piercing on his tip and youâre crazy about it. you love licking it when you give him head and he loves it as much as you do, throwing his head back in pleasure as he feels you gagging on him when you feel the cold ball hitting the back of your throat.
emo! choso puts on his favorite music as he thrusts into you at the beat of the song. at the end, he gets bored and begins pumping in and out of you as fast as he can.
emo! choso watches you gather your combined releases, placing them on his tattoos, almost as if you were coloring him in with your cum. he forces you to lick him up afterwards.
emo! choso loves sharing you with his coworker, suguru. the two dark hair colored boys using up your needy holes at the same time. suguru leaves for a bit, returning back to the store with a dildo.
âcanât let your pretty asshole empty, now can we?â
when he walks, it demands attention. every step filling up the sound, the area, the density around you so you know that heâs coming.
itâs even in the slight shake of the little trinkets adorning your coffee table as he drops in the couch, his heavy arms on either side of the long couch back.
or how small everything looked in his hands, how loud it was when he set something down even if it was meant to be light.
how harsh a slap to your ass felt every time you walked past him.
or when his big hands engulfed your waist no matter what you did.
how his body covered yours if you were even washing the dishes, grabbing your keys, beneath, over, under him and even in the shower.
even his fucking shadow dominated yours.
he was just big. and you loved it.
you loved every aspect of it, when he would be fucking so deep, the low drag of his dick pulling out from inside you till just his tip remained and he slammed back inside of you.
it was mesmerizing how heavy he was everywhere. how he didnât need to do much barely lifting a finger or flexing a muscle to move you in any position he wanted.
but it was perfect watching him in missionary his long, bulky figure sweaty above you, his arms anchored at the sides of your head.
steady for him and a reminder for you of how fucking strong he was. how he could hold you in a armlock and fuck you how he wanted.
or he could bend you over anywhere, anyhow and take you cause you were his.
youâd imagine thatâs your favorite position anything that demonstrated his otherworldly strength. the slight cut off of your airflow turning your moans get lighter and breathy while he fucked you on his lap.
or maybe a full nelson, feeling the stretch of your legs as sukuna forced you past what you thought your limit was, feeling the burn as he huffed only focusing on cumming and not the desperate squirm of your body with the new found angle.
but no.
your favorite position was missionary, missionary since you can wrap your legs around the sturdy expanse of his waist as he pressed back inside of you.
your arms could wrap, and scratch around his back and pull his large frame over to give you another kiss.
but your favorite part was when youâd press your hand firmly in the middle of his large back, catching him off guard and pressing all 280 pounds of muscle in top of you until you felt your chest constrict.
some might assume youâre a masochist, torturing yourself like this, feeling your body fight underneath your boyfriends as you chased your orgasm.
or maybe feeling the dark tingle in your lower abdomen as he nipped at your neck, eyes slightly wider than usual watching you heave below him but not wanting to stop.
and how hard it was you came when he finally accepted his fate and lessened the weight in his arms to lie fully on you, hearing the breathless gasp escape out your mouth while you scratch and cum helplessly under him.
but even regular life wasnât much better.
sukuna could chalk it up to a kink, a sick desire you had or a underlying urge to be close to him.
but he couldnât understand this.
on the train youâd always push to get on the crowded one, even with another a few minutes begin.
insisting that you stood at the door and he covered you, and every single time without fail he crushes you.
his hard body swinging from the influx of people or the harsh curve of the train, pressing you further and further to the door. and itâs not like you would move away, or that you could.
but he would observe your gleaming eyes, the tight hold youâd have on his dress shirt and the bite of your lips as you finally took a deep shaky breath when he would finally get to back an inch away.
though he was also concerned when it was time to sleep.
âcâmonnnn kunaâ youâd whine spread like a starfish out on your bed while he you watched your shirtless boyfriend at the end of the bed.
whose arms were folded, his eyebrows scrunched as he watched you almost scared.
âthis is concerning even for you.â
âplease baby, iâm always on top of you anyways.â
âno.â
âno?â
âno.â
yet and still he found himself, not even ten minutes later, laid out on top of you his heavy chest crushing yours again as you hummed underneath him pleased.
âthere is no way youâre comfortable under thereâ, his muffled voice answered as you basically purred, rubbing his back.
âvery.â
âand no way you can breathe.â
âgotten used to it.â
youâre unreal. but still he couldnât be too bothered watching your light breathes when he turned with his bed head and see the small smile splayed out in your face.
and you?
this wouldnât the last time youâd want sukunaâs full weight.
instead of getting the girl, gojo just got her pregnant! how's he supposed to win you over when you only seem to see him as the baby daddy?
synopsis: when the frat president becomes the father of your daughter, the last thing you expected were his brothers to start bidding to be the step dad! can he prove that he's serious about starting a life together for the three of you - or will someone swoop in to steal both his girls?
pairing: frat!gojo x milf!reader x frat!geto (also starring frat!sukuna)
content: mdni!! fluff, angst, and smut, college au, unrealistic frat depictions, parties, drinking, accidental pregnancy, raising a baby, they all want to be the daddy, lots of pining, gojo being lovesick and stupid, denying feelings, possessive geto + gojo, titty sucking, lactation kink, heavy jealousy
art cr: @zeilorene0 on x div cr: @/tsumiinum
Going on a date with your baby daddy's best friend was probably not the smartest thing you could do.
"Would you like some wine?" Geto murmured softly, peering up at you from above his menu, the dim lighting in the restaurant casting shadows across his sharp features.
"Um, no thanks," you declined, glancing awkwardly around the restaurant as you felt the weight of his stare settle on your exposed cleavage, hyper aware of the low cut of your dress and the way your breasts were beginning to ache from how long it'd been since you pumped. "I'll just take a water."
Had Gojo remembered what time to feed her? Was she cranky right now, crying and wailing and beating on his broad chest waiting for you to come back?
"Thinking about Umi?" He softly asked, his honeyed voice soothing the ache in your chest as you offered him an apologetic smile.
"Is it that obvious?" You asked, swallowing the lump in your throat as you shoved down your discomfort, adjusting the straps of your chest and praying that your tits wouldn't leak through the nipple pads you slipped inside your bra.
"It's cute," Geto reassured you, reaching across the table to snag your hand, drawing a delicate star over your skin as you tried to match his smile. "You're a good mom."
You wanted to take the compliment.
But your brain was still unfortunately stuck on the white-haired father of your child who was probably pacing your apartment praying for you to come back any second.
Who would most certainly freak the fuck out if he found out where you were - and who you were with.
It's not like you meant to start sorta seeing Geto.
You weren't even sure if you could qualify it as dating.
He'd been around maybe even more than Gojo had since you got pregnant, and stayed afterwards. Staying late whenever Gojo wasn't there, helping you wash baby bottles and rocking Umi to sleep when you were too exhausted to keep your eyes open. Folding your laundry and keeping up with the chores, insisting that you shower and rest and take care of yourself first, murmuring softly that you were working hard enough as it was with that casual, crooked smile of his.
Until one afternoon, instead of your daughter falling asleep in his lap, you had, waking up to him stroking your hair with one hand and cradling Umi in his other.
And some awful part of you asked yourself what if he'd been her father instead?
Gojo might have flowers delivered to your door and fuck you when he wormed his way into spending the night with the excuse of helping on the night shift with Umi, but he hadn't been there before.
Not for half your appointments. Not for your labor.
God, if it hadn't been for Geto, he would've missed her birth.
He had been the one you met first. The one you knew better before his best friend went and knocked you up. The entire reason you even showed up to that party, chasing a stupid crush you were sure wouldnât even notice you.
But he wasnât the one you ended up sleeping with - or the one whose name was on the birth certificate.
"You deserve a night for yourself," Geto coaxed, and you knew that he was right. That you couldn't be there for her if you couldn't take care of yourself. Or let someone else help you do it.
Besides, wasn't it half Gojo's fault she existed anyway?
Maybe heâd worn the wrong condom size, but you were the one too stubborn to ask him to pay for a Plan B after it broke, clinging to your stupid pride. Too embarrassed to even face him after you hooked up until you absolutely had to, showing up to his frat house expecting him to shoo you away to get an abortion and slam the door in your face.
Perhaps if he had, you wouldn't feel the hints of guilt creeping in that you were sitting across from his second-in-command now, letting him say your name in that suave voice of his and tell you how pretty you looked in a dress that didn't quite fit your tits anymore.
Not that Geto seemed to mind, judging by the way you caught his stare drifting down to them no matter how chivalrous he was attempting to present himself tonight.
"It's just weird being away from her for this long," you shrugged your shoulders self-consciously, pulling back your hand to pick at the paint on your nails that was already flaking off despite the fact you'd done it only a few hours before your date.
You dropped Umi off with Gojo earlier, but he'd never watched her this long on his own either.
Would it start to become a more common thing? Afternoons or nights you swapped her so the other could go out and date around?
Despite Gojo swearing he only wanted to make this work with you, you had an incredibly difficult time picturing the campus's favorite playboy not pouring body shots on pretty girls all those Friday evenings he attended parties for his 'frat duties'.
You were sure that was just code for fucking other sorority girls and playing condom roulette to see if your daughter would get a half-sibling.
"She'll be okay," Geto reassured you, deliberately avoiding broaching who, exactly, was watching her right now.
That was the one topic the two of you tended not to discuss.
You wondered if it bothered him at all. Made him feel like shit when he held Umi and decided he'd rather be the stepdad instead of a supportive uncle figure.
Truthfully, you still couldn't understand why he decided you were worth fracturing his friendship with Gojo for.
If he had been courting you a year and a half ago, you probably wouldâve been over the fucking moon. Thrilled that someone like him wanted you, but you simply werenât the same girl.
It hadnât slipped past you that all of Gojo's friends suddenly seemed to want you after he had you.
"Geto," you swallowed, unsure how to broach any of the thousand worries floating through your head as you worked up the nerve to bring up what had been looping through your head since he first started carving his own spot in your life for him. "You know Gojo will be pissed if he knows what we're doing right now."
"You didn't tell him?" He asked, amusement glinting in his dark eyes as you flitted your stare down to the tiny print on the menu below.
"You don't care?" You returned the question, sighing as you reluctantly looked back up at him.
"Do you want to be with him?" Suguru pressed, but you could tell be the curve of his smirk that he thought he already knew the answer, he just wanted to hear you say it.
Being with Gojo had never been a part of your previously well-thought out life plan. You had him pegged from the moment you saw him at a frat party your friend dragged you to during your first year here, surrounded by beautiful women and yes men, alcohol being poured in his pretty mouth. The kind of spoiled, stuck-up prick who breezed through life like they were used to winning first place just for existing. Handed the world on a silver platter.
And now he thought you were a prize he deserved simply because he got you pregnant.
But still, you weren't about to just make it easy for Geto either.
Not when you didn't even know if he really liked you, or the idea of stealing something from under Gojo's nose.
"Why do you want to be with me?" You returned his question rather than answering it, arching up an eyebrow and waiting for his response.
Even though you appreciated his help, it wasn't like you needed your support system of frat bros hanging around if all they wanted was to get in your panties.
Before he could reply though, a baby began to cry, and your head snapped up, scanning the restaurant as if it could somehow be yours, the ache in your breasts returning with a vengeance, a lot fucking harder to ignore when your tits were already confined in the tight dress you'd chosen tonight.
Maybe it was just how much you were missing her, your brain playing tricks on your ears, but it really did sound like her too, your heart squeezing and wrung dry as you glanced from table to table trying to spot where the baby was.
Wincing as you tried to readjust the strap of your dress, swallowing hard and cursing yourself for not bringing a pump or expressing the milk before you left your apartment, knowing that you'd probably have a clogged duct to deal with later. But before you could spot the baby, your waitress was returning, a practiced smile plastered on her face as she looked directly at Geto instead of you.
Probably sizing up the fact that a guy like him was a bit out of your league, or that this was a first date as she leaned over to his side and grinned at him, "Have we made up our minds?"
"I think we'll just get our food to-go," Suguru returned a polite smile to her, and a surge of panic spiked in your chest until his palm slid over yours with silent reassurance, his eyes narrowing as he slyly stole a peek at your chest like he knew why you were squirming before clearing his throat. "Baby's waiting for us back home."
The waitress's face deflated almost instantly.
Wrongly assuming that the two of you were more than just something casual. Thinking that the baby belonged to him.
"Oh, sure," she nodded numbly, regaining her composure. "What will it be?"
He ordered for both of you, and you just shuffled in your seat, caught somewhere between relief that he was freeing you from an hour and a half of discomfort and disappointment that your date would be ending like this.
But perhaps it was for the better.
Maybe it was a sign that this wasn't going to go anywhere.
And when she walked away with reassurances that she'd bring it out as soon as possible, you were about to apologize, but he just squeezed your hand as you started to softly say his name, "Geto-"
"How many times have I asked you to call me Suguru?"
You wished he didn't disarm you so effortlessly. Stalling your excuses with just a single look, with a simple motion of his thumb over your knuckle as he treated you like you were his girlfriend.
"Once the food comes out, I can go take care of you," he promised, and it wasn't until you were walking out to the car that it struck you how serious he was about that.
"You know, you don't have to-" You started, glancing down at the way he was still holding your hand in the parking lot, his fingers tightly gripping your hand and keeping you glued to his side as you tried to sound more collected than you really were. "I can just pump at home or-"
"I thought you liked it when I helped," he slyly said, teasing you in that soft voice of his, mouth curling up when your face flushed.
So what if maybe you let him get rid of your clogged ducts a couple times when Gojo was busy with work or class?
His big hands were good at it, thick fingers massaging and working the breast tissue as his lips latched on to you.
Besides, you liked the way Geto looked at you, even if it sort of scared you. The intensity in his stare, how he studied you like he was interested in every detail. How he spoke to you like you were something soft to be cradled, not just sloppy seconds or someoneâs leftovers. The way he listened, his head tilted to the side as he nodded along with patience youâd never really received before.
You didn't need anyone.
Not Gojo. Not Geto.
Not even Sukuna, even if he was debatably the best when it came to helping with her or soothing her when she started to wail.
You could do it on your own.
But something about Suguru made you feel like it might be okay to be taken care of too.
âYou know you can find someone better,â you bluntly blurted out as he held the car door open for you. He stopped, squinting down at you as you slid into the passenger seat.
Someone without stretch marks or, yâknow, an entire baby with another man. Someone who would have all the time in the world to worship him without wanting or needing all the things you did.
âWe need to work on your self-esteem,â he remarked, arching up an eyebrow with a sigh as he nodded towards your seatbelt to remind you to buckle up.
And before you could retort back that he hadnât disagreed, he was shutting the door and walking back around to his side.
Like he could somehow anticipate what you were preparing to say, his mouth had already parted when he got in too, âIf you want me to tell you how much I like you, all you have to do is ask.â
Suguru knew exactly how to shut you up.
And five minutes later, he had your dress pulled down, both breasts freed and exposed as he groped and squeezed and sucked you dry. Thick fingers dimpling your skin as he sank them in deep, his lips wrapped around your sensitive nipple and greedily drinking up every ounce of milk you leaked out.
Tongue dragging back over the peaked buds whenever any escaped, your fingers lacing through his dark hair as you tilted your head back and scrunched your eyes shut. Trying not to moan at the way he was holding you, one arm slipped around your back to pull you closer as he leaned across the center console to suck on your swollen breasts.
The to-go boxes half-forgotten in the backseat, the radio playing some slow, soft song as he groaned into your nipple, his sharp teeth grazing over it to send a sharp shudder through your body.
Glancing up at you with delight glimmering in his stare, possessively pulling you in as he popped off your chest.
âYouâre wasted on Satoru."
And even though he didnât say it, you could feel it.
Geto thought it shouldâve been him.
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Gojo wanted to bang his head against the steering wheel until the air bag went off.
Maybe if it broke his nose, he could get enough sympathy points from you that youâd stop seeing Suguru. And heâd never have to see his best friend sucking on your breasts from across the parking lot.
Umi was asleep in her car seat in the back, leaving him to his own embarrassing thoughts as he forced himself to turn the key in the ignition. To start the car after he completely and utterly failed the mission he should've never gone on in the first place.
You'd maim him if you knew he was spying on you with Suguru. Maybe accuse him of being a creep and somehow think even less of him than you already did.
And despite how much it fucking sucked, he forced himself to pull out of the parking lot and leave you there with your tit in Suguru's mouth, feeling like a moron for thinking tonight would ever end any differently.
Suguru was a good guy.
Didn't have the reputation he did. Was quiet where he was loud, soothing where he was brash. Wouldn't make you wonder where he was or what he was doing or who he'd been with before.
Of course, you'd choose him.
Gojo guessed he should just be grateful you'd have to at least spend the next eighteen years co-parenting with him. Attending parent-teacher conferences and planning birthdays and holidays.
But even when he made it back to your place, warming up a bottle to feed Umi, watching her big blue eyes sleepily blink up at him as her chubby little fingers still tried to grab it, he couldn't fucking imagine having to share her with Suguru.
Seeing her look up at his best friend and babble dada to him, at the apparently growing possibility he might miss her first steps, her first words, her first everything and Suguru might get them instead.
Spiraling long after he put her back down in her crib, laying flat on your couch and staring at the ceiling to count the seconds until you came back.
God, since when had he gotten so pathetic?
Why couldn't he just figure it out and fix this? What would it take for you to give him a try?
Did you want him to grow out his hair? Start watching pretentious foreign films?
He still didn't have a clue by the time he heard your key in the lock, sitting up straight and smoothing out the wrinkles and spit-up stain on his shirt as he automatically started walking towards the entrance, nearly running into you when you walked in.
"Hey," he muttered, running his hands through his hair and pretending he didn't notice how your lip gloss had smeared, or how stray strands of your hair were sticking out as you peeled your purse off your shoulder and hung it up by the door.
"Hey," you murmured, wiping the back of your mouth just to stumble a little trying to slip off your heels.
And even though he knew you didn't need his help, he was still holding out his arm for you to hold onto him and steady yourself while you took them off.
"Enjoy your dinner?" He murmured, and you cringed a little, looking up at him with the slightest hints of apology in your smile as you held up a to-go box in your other hand.
"Who told you?" You asked, even though he could see it in your stare that you already suspected the answer.
"Sukuna mentioned it," he admitted.
"I should've said something," you cleared your throat, the closest you could probably come to a sorry.
"It's fine," he lied, no matter how far he really was from it.
"Do you want the rest?" You offered, as if your leftovers were some olive branch.
One he'd gladly take it.
"Sure," he shrugged, grabbing it as you let go of his arm. "So, are you guys, like a thing, or-"
"It's not like you're not seeing other women," you defensively muttered instead of actually answering, scowling at him as he went slack-jawed.
"I'm not," Gojo huffed, unsure what the hell he had to do to get you to understand that.
Wear a fucking cock cage and give you the only key?
"Gojo," you said his last name, bottom lip pushed out all pretty, and he wished he could make you believe how badly he wanted to make it yours too. "Do you think I'm stupid?"
He actually thought you were incredibly smart.
Gojo would give up everything just to breathe in the scent of your soft skin every day and listen to your voice as you talked about your studies as he stroked your hair and nuzzled his nose against your neck.
But instead, all that came out was a stuttered, "N-no?"
"You're at frat parties every weekend," you pointed out, holding your nose up high as you exhaled, walking past him like you had come to your conclusion.
"B-but only as the president, I'm not-"
"You don't speak to the pretty girls that come up to feel your muscles and offer to play stepmom?" You sarcastically asked, and Gojo wished you could look a little less gorgeous when you were glaring at him.
"I mean, I only talk to them," he tried to explain, but he knew that was the wrong thing to say when you just scoffed and shook your head.
"Me and Suguru just talked then," you huffed, and Gojo hated how you said his name. Loathed that he probably got to hear it while he was still relegated to Gojo.
Especially when he had seen first hand what you meant by talking.
His mouth opened, but it never seemed to be able to form the right words to get you to see him.
"I'm going to bed," you stubbornly insisted, padding barefoot back to your room while he hopelessly stared at your shrinking figure.
What would it take to be the one you wanted to go to sleep with?
And how the hell could he make sure that Suguru never got the chance?
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with your love life in ruins, the last thing you want to do is think about romance. unfortunately, between passive-aggressive notes and an infuriating neighbour named 4B who wonât leave you alone, love might not be done with you just yet
pairing: frat!jo x reader
content: mdni idiots in love, satoru as a faceless voice for a while, larping abt frats again, one (1) frat party scene, voyeurism, p in v, slightly intoxicated but consensual sex, cunnilingus, slight public sex/hidden sex 30k+
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When you eventually gained the courage to break up with your shitty boyfriend, you knew it would be a public spectacle considering heâs the vice president of Tau Delta Phi. What you didnât expect, however, was to find yourself spotlighted in the living room of some random houseparty, an empty red plastic cup in your hand and whatever had been inside now poured over your ex-boyfriendâs head.
It was almost funny watching humiliation and rage surge across Naoyaâs face, marked by that red-hot blush youâve seen far too many times, spit flying from his mouth when he yells that youâll regret this, heâll make sure you do. To no surprise he had you kicked out, leaving you stranded on the side of the road at 2am, alone, slightly intoxicated, and with a massive hole punctured through your concept of love.
Whatever Etsy witch he paid to ruin your life would have been hunted during the Salem witch trials because you never find peace following the breakup. You find out heâd been cheating on you with a plethora of girls, you find out the lady living in the apartment next to yours is moving out, and worst of all, you find out the free elective course you enrolled in specifically to take it easy gives you an assignment on love.
ARTS505: Screen Media Practice
Assessment 1: Observational Short Film â âLoveâ
Weighting: 30%
Due: Friday, 11:59 p.m.
Length: 3â5 minutes
For this assessment, students are required to produce a short observational film responding to the theme of love.
Go fuck yourself.
The day your neighbour next door moves out, you tear up at the news and let her believe itâs because youâll miss her and not because youâre terrified her replacement wonât be nearly as forgiving.
Because she smiles when you run into her at the bottom of the staircase and gives you small containers of food, nagging you in the way old women do about eating healthy and sleeping early. To her sweet, unassuming face, you tell her you will though you wonât, and sheâll nod like she believes you and tells you sheâll try to keep it down, kindly avoiding the fact that she can hear you wail at atrocious hours in the night when youâve assumed everyone has already fallen asleep.
She understood the highs and lows of being a newly single woman in this current social environment. But whoever moves in next? Youâre not so sure will.
Okay, so maybe you do miss her.
Because you find out someone new has moved in from the heavy thumping of feet crossing the floor, the thuds of boxes dropped onto the floorboards, the vibrations seeping into your own floors. It seems Naoyaâs Etsy witch still has their grip on you because your new neighbour is horrible. They play loud music in the morning, the afternoon, late at night, usually right when you have convinced yourself that this night you will finally get eight uninterrupted hours of blissful sleep. Thuds, banging, thumping, any onomatopoeia, your neighbour has done it.
Sometimes, they leave a pair of sneakers outside their door for two whole days, directly in your path to the stairs, so you have to step around them every morning. Their moving boxes sit in the hallway for so long they might as well be furniture, and youâve started dumping your tote on the tower of them whenever you dig around for your keys. Packages get delivered to your door instead of theirs. They seem to always be ordering DoorDash, too, the scent of something sugary-sweet seeping under your door until you start craving DoorDash yourself.Â
Itâs even worse today. Youâd come home with groceries instead of takeout, washed your bedsheets for the first time in a long while, lit a candle called Midnight Sunset, and sat down at your desk with the firm intention of brainstorming your film assignment. Then, from the other side of your bedroom wall, your neighbour starts assembling what can only be a large, flat-packed piece of furniture. For forty minutes, there is nothing but the intermittent scrape of wood, the clattering of metal parts, occasional low murmured curses, and one very loud crash that caused the floorboards to tremble, along with all the tiny screws that rattled in an echo. By the time the banging finally stops, your candle has burned unevenly, your tea has long gone cold, and the only thing written under love film ideas is: âkill himâ.
shoko: utahime and i are heading to the library to lock in
weâre inviting you so you canât say shit like thereâs always a duo in a trio
but donât actually come weâre probably gonna js make out
you: ?
utahime: sheâs joking weâre going to study
shoko: booo u whore
youâre a cockblock y/n
you: i literally didnât do anything
if anything utahime is cockblocking you
but iâll come if ygs are actually studying i need a fucking break
shoko: we arenât
utahime: we are
shut the fuck up shoko oh my god
shoko: whats with u y/n u sound grouchy
you: im going to kill my new neighbour
hes playing shit music through the wall like i miss the old lady so bad
shoko: you really gotta complain to the landlord or smth
you: hell no im not a snitch
utahime: ure weirdly compassionate abt the wrong things
hows the assignment going?
shoko: teacher teacher! im snitching!
you: ? do u want me to snitch or not
and its not going good at all how can i think about love when theres someone playing phonk in my ear at 6pm on a random tuesday afternoon?
shoko: have u even seen this person?? go up and give them a piece of ur mind or smth
also come lib
you: give me a sec
i might ive never seen them though theyre usually out at weird times and doesnt really sleep in their own room ?? but what if its a 40 yo gymrat and i get bodied
utahime: yeah thats actually scary
write a note or something
shoko: and then come library
you: give me fifteen minutes
Perhaps Shokoâs insistence on going to the library is contagious because youâre suddenly eager to rip out a piece of paper to spill just how much you appreciate phonk in your ears to your neighbour. Or maybe you really just want to tell your neighbour to die.
It starts off innocently enough, the last of your patience allowing kinder words and a light reminder that your neighbour isnât the only one living in this creaky, ancient building. But then it gets to you, the music, the thudding, the inability to remove laundry from the laundry machine appropriately, and you find youâre pressing the lead of your pencil deep into the paper until it almost leaves a mark on the table beneath.
You heave out a breath of pure catharsis and read it over, giving it an approving nod. This will certainly do.
Then, with your heart much lighter and a perk in your step, you sling your tote over your shoulder and head for the door. Instead of walking to the elevator after youâve locked up, you make a small detour to your neighbours door and bend down to slide the letter under their door.
There, problem fixed.
With a smile, you turn and walk to the library, oddly lighter for it.
Shoko and Utahime thankfully do not make out the entire time youâre at the library. Unfortunately, theyâre still Shoko and Utahime and the three of you waste time gossiping about the high school dead horse that just broke up again instead of doing anything productive. Your document for planning your films remains as empty as ever, only now itâs been shared to two email addresses so they can witness your writerâs block unfold in real time.
By the time you drag yourself back from the library, night has already settled in and you have to use your phoneâs flashlight to illuminate the path to your building. The hallway is hushed in that apartment building kind of way, distant television laughter, pipes clinking somewhere behind the walls, the hum of someoneâs microwave. Youâre fishing for your keys when you notice it, a torn corner of lined paper stuck to your door with blutack.
You blink, too tired to make the connection straight away, brain still slogging through the haze of a caffeine crash. But then you peel it free, turn it over, and squint at the scrawny handwriting on the back.
are you twelve? whatâs with the note passing come talk to me if you have an issue
also i told the landlord btw lol have fun with that â4b
You crumple the note in your hand.
That fucking asshole.
The landlord does, in fact, show up at your door the next morning wearing a stern expression and with even sterner words. You apologise with a tight smile, offering up the half-truth that youâve been under a lot of stress lately and didnât mean it. And then, because two can play at that game, you finally snitch on 4B too, feeling a sharp jolt of triumph when the landlord sighs and assures you thatâll be having a word with the resident next door.
You incorrectly assume thatâs the last of it. Because when you come home at the end of another long day of classes, thereâs a sticky note taped to your door.
snitch
A disbelieving huff slips out of you as you let yourself into your apartment, your tote sliding off your shoulder with a dull thump, hands too busy flattening the wrinkled paper to catch it. Five minutes ago, all you wanted was to collapse face-first into bed and sleep through the rest of the day. Now, irritation blazes through you so quickly it feels like caffeine, sharp and immediate, and before you can talk yourself out of it, youâre fishing a pen from your bag and scrawling a reply across the back.
you literally snitched first asshole. maybe if you werenât playing anime music at 7pm in the evening i wouldnât have to snitch on u at all
You stick it to his door on your way back from taking out the trash, pressing your palm against the paper just to make sure it stays there. When you leave the next morning for your usual nine a.m., another note is waiting.
you literally told me to die im not a masochist i wasnât gonna let that slide ps. ntm on the digimon opening theme thatâs something special to me
You write a reply during class, sticking it to his door when you come home.
and uâve been loud as fuck ever since u moved in here yk the apartment has thin walls right? also what the hell is digimon
It doesnât take long this time. Youâre still boiling water for a coffee when thereâs a faint tap at your door. When you open it, thereâs a new note stuck smack in the middle, scrawled in hurried letters. You glance up and down the hallway and see no one, and smile as you step back inside.
then just walk those five steps to my door and tell me next time? and ofc someone as unfun as u has never experienced the highs and lows of digimon in ur childhood it all makes sense now
You sip your coffee as you pen your reply.
i swear iâve knocked in the morning and u didnât open the door
so r u gonna keep edging me or r u gonna tell me what digimon is
Itâs only after youâve already closed your door that you realise you didnât respond to his second comment so you quickly take a pen and walk back to his door, pursing your lips in effort as you try to add another line against the door. Maybe youâre imagining it but you swear you hear footsteps pause on the other side of the door.
also i just searched it up and i canât believe my next door neighbour is 12 years old watching cartoons
You quickly scurry back to your apartment just in time, hearing their door open after yours just as you closed yours. A couple seconds later, thereâs a knock.
digimon is NOT just for kids
You stare at the note for a second, oddly thrown by the concession considering it had seemed too easy. Youâd expected another argument, maybe some smug reply, maybe an insult in even messier handwriting. But instead, he had simply folded.
For some reason, it feels less like a victory and more like a sudden end to something you hadnât realised you were enjoying. Your other neighbours probably didnât feel the same considering they had to listen to you and 4B open and close your doors consecutively for the past few minutes.
Still, you tell yourself as you peel the note off the door, a win is a win.
The next morning, you check your door out of habit and is immediately rewarded by a piece of a4 paper stuck to the front.
hey 4a,
first of all i want to say that iâve been very good and very quiet recently which i hope pleases you. please acknowledge my growth
â 4b
Because youâre lazy, you flip the paper over and write.
4b,
sure ur growth has been noted (?) i feel like thereâs more to this do u need something
â 4a
You slide it under his door before you can overthink it. By the time you come home that afternoon, there is another note waiting.
4a,
thank you for acknowledging my progress but i fear i have received your criticism and decided not to grow from it. maybe head out for the evening
also important question do u own a screwdriver ??
thanks, 4b
You frown then write back:
why?
Five minutes later, his reply slides under your door and you watch as the paper slips through completely before standing and reaching for it.
i give u a yes or no question and u still manage to dodge
do u own one or not? please.
â 4b
The next time you tape a note to his door, you also leave a screwdriver on the ground beneath.
u better give this back
Youâre halfway to backing your things for the library when his reply slides under your door. You pick it up while locking your apartment and read as you walk, catching the tail ends of some heavy thudding and hammering from the door beside yours.
people assume just because im a man i must have five screwdriver variants in my drawers or smth anyway im making furniture for my friend and its ikea :( wish me luckÂ
You snort despite yourself, tucking the note into your pocket as another dull bang sounds behind his door.Â
âGood luck,â you think as you walk by, and then, less generously, âand good luck to all the other people living in this building.âÂ
The library turns out to be the right choice. You spend three hours pretending to work, two hours ranting to the group chat about Naoyaâs latest monthly photo dump, and fifteen minutes with your fingers tapping away at your keyboard which is still fifteen minutes more of productivity that you wouldnât have achieved at your apartment so youâd call that a success.
When you come home, you brace yourself before reaching your floor.Â
Surprisingly, thereâs a lack of any noise at all. No thudding, no scrapping, no IKEA-related violence. Your screwdriver sits neatly outside your door, wrapped in a sticky note.Â
returned in one piece like i promised! im hoping u took my advice and left the building otherwise can u write your complaint in five words or less? im sleepy zzz
You look at his door, a reluctant smile on your face. For the first time since he moved in, you wonder if maybe the problem was never that he was impossible to live beside. Maybe the walls were thin, and he was loud, and you were miserable, and neither of you had known how to be people around each other yet.Â
Maybe, if you both communicated like normal neighbours, this could actually work.Â
If you assumed life would look up following this revelation, then youâre sorely underestimating the evil forces (read: Naoyaâs Etsy witch) conspiring against your happiness.Â
Because the next morning, it isnât some upbeat anime opening that wakes you up. Instead, itâs the mucus trapped in your airways and the pounding at your temples, dragging you from the dead only to make you feel worse for it.
You throw your duvet over your head and pray that when you resurface, your cold will have miraculously disappeared. It doesnât work, to no surprise, though that thought irritates you too. Then again, maybe thatâs just the built up annoyance from having your nose blocked. Miserable and stuffy, you close your eyes and remind yourself to take in a deep breath through your nose when youâve healed, just to not take it for granted.Â
Itâs times like this when you miss your good-for-nothing ex, times like this when you remember there used to be someone you could text without thinking, someone you could badger for some chicken noodle soup and maybe a hug and a kiss on your forehead.Â
Your own weakness pisses you off.
With great effort, you drag yourself upright and shuffle into your kitchen, pawing through empty pantries. Any plans of heading to that early morning tutorial this morning immediately leaves your mind at your pathetic show of strength.Â
Youâre halfway through grabbing cereal, any other breakfast option simply too tedious, when a loud voice cuts through the haze.Â
âYeah, she just didnât get it. And when you have to explain a joke, itâs already over. No dude, obviously itâs her fault for not being with it and not because Iâm unfunny, donât even kid.â
You frown slightly, munching on another chip, thumb scrolling past a video youâre not even sure you watched. Who the hell says âwith itâ?
âIf you donât fuck with with it, then youâre one of the people who arenât with it. Youâre without it.â He continues.
You make a small noise of consideration, vaguely thinking that you might get along with his friend as they seemingly voice your own thoughts.
Your neighbour continues, undeterred from his friendâs unenthusiastic responses. âThereâs no chance Iâm seeing her again. She did text me but Iâm just going to leave her on delivered. Is it cruel or is it saving myself from someone who called my Agumon keychain the deformed twin Charmander consumed in the womb?â
You laugh, sound muffled when your neighbourâs voice peaks.
âHe doesnât, Charmander is from a completely different franchise! And Iâll have you know that keychain was from an artist at Anime Con so when youâre picking on my little guy, youâre making fun of a small business.â
A pause. You scrunch your nose.
âYeah, I didnât mean to call it my little guy. If it helps, I gave my dick she/her pronouns like how a truck guy calls his truck a real beauty so sheâs not my little guy.â
You snort, crunching down on a chip. You wonder if that sweet salesman next door is as enthralled in 4Bâs love life as you were.
âDonât make such a disgusted sound, sheâll take offence.â
Thereâs shuffling from above as your neighbour supposedly shifts to a different position, now closer to you such that you could faintly make out the voice of his friend.
âIs liking Agumon such a big deal breaker for you?â his friend says, voice smoother than the whiny tilt in 4Bâs.
âHonestly, no. Agumon is my favourite character and Iâm not really comfortable sharing him with others because he means a lot to me. But then when I started talking about Digimon she asked me why I didnât just get a Pikachu keychain instead since everyone at least knew Pikachu and itâll save me from the questions. Pikachu. The mainstream corporate mouse.â
âOkay,â his friend sighs, âbut to be fair, most people know more about Pokemon than Digimon. At least she was trying?â
âThatâs the problem!â your neighbour fires back and the image of him in your head changes around his enthusiasm about digital monsters. âNo one gives Digimon the respect that it deserves. People act like itâs Pokemonâs weird cousin when really itâs more like Pokemonâs smarter, cooler, better-dressed older sibling who went overseas to continue pursuing their education.â
âAnd did you tell her that?â
âYeah, right there in the restaurant."
âYouâre never getting a second date.â
He snorts, apparently offended. âPlease, like I wanted one.â
Despite yourself you laugh though the silence that follows is enough to rid you of all your amusement. Awkwardly, you trail off by clearing your throat, feeling somewhat like a creep for letting your eavesdropping be known. All this talk about knowing to stay quiet and yet you catch yourself slipping.
You listen as 4B says a quick goodbye to his friend. Thereâs a rustle, a soft thud, and then his voice comes again, closer this time, like heâs leaned right up against the wall between your apartments.
âHello? Is someone there?â
For one fleeting second, you think that if this were a horror movie, he would absolutely be the first to die. Not that youâd fare much better, considering you answer him.
âHi.â
Thereâs a small pause, then, âNo way. 4A? What the hell, I thought you already left for class.â
Your heart skips, thudding against your ribs. For a second, you consider staying quiet and let the walls swallow the moment whole. Pretend it wasnât you, pretend like the two of you havenât been trading insults like you were passing notes in class.
There had been a fragile understanding between the two of you to never reach out. And yet, in this moment, you canât bring yourself to remember why.
You clear your throat, thick with the tail end of your cold. âWell it looks like you guessed wrong. Do I need to send you another death threat for you to keep it down?â
You hear him wince, a quiet sound muffled by the walls. âMaybe we should go back to writing notes to each other. I didnât know youâd sound like a 40 year old smoker.â
âIâm sick, jackass.â
He hums, unconvinced. Thereâs a beat of silence as he thinks of what to say. Then, âSo, youâre a girl?â
Your eyes roll to your ceiling as you sigh, whatever you were expecting immediately thrown away. âWhat exactly is that supposed to mean?â
He huffs out a small chuckle like he can hear the exasperation in your voice and finds it amusing. âIâm just surprised. I mean, youâre so mean to me. Girls usually love me, you know, Iâm kind of a ladiesâ man.â
That pulls a laugh out of you, rough on your sore throat but impossible to stop. âYou? With that personality? Consider me the one surprised.â
âIâm serious. Iâm kind of a campus celebrity. Girls flock to me.â
You hoist yourself up onto the kitchen counter, angling your back against the wall where his voice comes through clearest. âYou donât have to lie to impress me.â
Thereâs a pause and you wonder if your playful insults had gone a little too far in your sick state.
âOh, I might be into this.â
âWhat?â
âNothing.â Thereâs the faint sound of movement on the other side before your mysterious neighbour talks again. âI meant, what type of person do you think I am then?â
âConsidering you fumbled a first date because of a cartoon, I think you have your answer,â you coo with faux sympathy. âYou should be nicer to her since Iâm sure your cooldown for the next date might take a while.â
âFirst of all,â he says, apparently offended. âItâs not a cartoon. Second, she fumbled the date on her end. It was a necessary culling for me.â
You snort. âYou got dumped over Digimon, letâs settle down.â
âYou didnât even know what Digimon was until I put you on a few days ago.â
You shrug, despite the fact that he canât see the gesture. âAnd now that I know itâs even more pathetic. Agumon is the weird orange dinosaur thing, right?â
His whine comes through the wall, only cementing the fact that whoever is on the other side might be the biggest nerd you know. You wonder if he lied about not being a masochist considering heâs taking your insults pretty well. âHey, come on. Heâs just a cute little guy.â
âRight,â you draw out, unimpressed. âDonât glaze him when he might be the reason youâre a social shut in.â
âThatâs a new one. I am now, am I?â
âPlease,â you start, warming up to the idea as she speak it into existence. âIf women are all over you like you claim they are, why havenât I heard anyone come over? You and I both know just how thin the walls in this place is.â
âExactly,â he shoots back. âSo why would I bring them back here? Unless you want to be kept awake all night.â
That makes you laugh, the idea of this voice youâre hearing now having any experience at all extremely humourous, much less with the ability to go all night long. You can almost imagine the state of his room, littered with anime posters and plushies making sex feel like a group activity. If you looked up past his figure over you, youâd probably see neon light up stars on his ceilings.
âIf you can talk so much about my love life,â he trails off, voice deceptively casual and airy, âdo you have a boyfriend?â
That makes you freeze. Something hard and spiky settles in your stomach and you shift on the countertop, searching for a spot thatâs comfortable because for some reason, it feels like youâve lost it. âNo.â
The voice doesnât say anything for a while. âMy bad. Touchy subject?â
You shrug despite the fact that he canât see the gesture and pull your legs to your chest. âItâs fine. Itâs been, like, half a year. He was a douche anyway.â
âOkay, six months, not bad.â
Hearing the slight mumble from the other side of the wall but unable to understand it coherently, you frown and press your ear closer. âWhat was that?â
4B clears his throat. âIâm just saying maybe donât talk shit when I havenât heard you bring anyone over either.â
You roll your eyes, forcing your shoulders to relax and somewhat grateful at his deflection. âAt least I donât claim to be a microcelebrity. I keep my circle small and that works.â
âIs there room for one more?â
A laugh escapes you, genuine and surprised. âWhy? Asking for a friend or yourself?â
You can hear the smile in his voice when he says, âYou diagnosed me as a social shut in, remember? Iâm clearing asking for myself.â
âWeâll see, 4B,â you say, though youâre matching his tone with a smile. It doesnât, however, stop your voice from sounding croakier than intended and you have to painfully make an awkward gargling sound to clear your throat a number of times.
4B winces sympathetically, and he lets you get the worst of it out before speaking again. âSounds like you might need some water and then a nap.â
âTrust me, that was the plan.â
You start to wiggle down from your counter and grab something to drink, wrongly assuming the conversation ends here.
âAre we going to talk again?â he asks in a rush, and you huff as your feet touch the ground.
âWe live next to each other, genius. I donât think I could avoid you even if I tried.â
âAnd would you try?â
You sip from your glass, ignoring him.
âOkay, thatâs fine. Iâll win you over, just wait.â Thereâs no doubt in your mind that heâs grinning, you can hear it in the peaks of his voice. âIâll try to keep it down for you. And then maybe youâll be less grouchy when you wake up?â
âGo fuck yourself, 4B.â
You roll your eyes, glad that thereâs a wall between you to prevent him from seeing your smile. âGoodnight, 4A.â
Gojo Satoru isnât a man who lacks.Â
Heâs got the grades (barely, but theyâre there), the genes (obviously), the height (something even Suguru finds unfair), the charm (obnoxious), and a reputation on campus that both precedes and betrays him. He walks into a room and people notice. Professors sigh, girls nudge each other, guys scowl though itâll be his friends thatâll roll their eyes at his presence first.Â
He is used to winning. More importantly, he is used to having almost everything in a way that requires very little effort on his part.Â
So what the hell is he doing, lying on his bedroom floor where the voice of a stranger still lingers, staring at his wall like it might crack open and offer him answers? She hadnât even said much, not enough to leave this big of an impression.Â
Maybe it was the shock that the person leaving at ungodly hours in the morning beneath him was a girl. He doesnât know why heâd assumed otherwise. Maybe because the notes had always read so dry, so flat, so quick to snap back at him that somewhere along the way heâd started hearing them in Suguruâs voice.Â
Except the voice through the wall had been unmistakably feminine, and now Gojo was having the deeply inconvenient realisation that he might, in fact, be into that.Â
It wasnât even what she said more so how she said it, offhanded and easy as if talking to him was nothing, like he was nothing. and curse his enormous ego, he was Gojo Satoru, for godâs sake. Heâs got at least three people in his dms right now asking what heâs up to tonight and it would be as easy as typing back ânothingâ to have any one of them.Â
But none of them had left a note that told him to get his shit together. None of them made him laugh when ten seconds prior he was so ready to implode, none of them had him craning to his floor like some desperate victorian man listening to the ghostly whispers through the thin plaster.Â
Gojo drags a hand down his face, then turns his head again to look at it.
The wall. Plain, off-white, slightly cracked near the skirting board, absolutely identical to every other wall in this terrible building and yet suddenly the most compelling thing in his apartment because now, youâre behind it. Separated from him by a few layers of plaster and paint and bad insulation, close enough that he can hear your laugh if the room is quiet, close enough that he can picture you leaning back against the other side without ever having seen it happen.
Gojo runs a hand through his hair, frowning.Â
âThis is bad,â he mutters for the second time that day as he explores the foreign feeling in his chest.Â
The urge to hear from her again beats like a second heart in his chest, and the distinction between hear and see is important because now it feels less about appearances and more about something else, something he doesnât have a smug enough name for yet.
Gojo reaches for his laptop, then drops it back onto the floor a second later when even pretending to do work feels stupid when heâs one bad decision away from knocking on the wall just to see if you answer.
Because Gojo doesnât lack.Â
Yet tonight, as he sits on his cold carpet, phone face-down beside him and no urge to answer any of his unread messages, he realises he might be wanting.Â
The next time you wake, your fever has left you in an uncomfortable puddle of your own sweat, damp sheets sticking to your skin. A reluctant glance at your alarm clock confirms the worst: itâs 7 a.m. the next day, and you have a 9 a.m. lecture to attend. Somehow, youâd managed to sleep through a near-complete twenty-four-hour cycle, vaguely only remembering how you had stumbled out of bed for the bathroom or small bites of whatever you could find.Â
When you open your door to make a hasty exit, jammed toast between your teeth and the delirious hope that youâll run into a handsome guy around the corner of your block, you almost trip over something that ends your hopes (and almost your life). Thankfully, you catch yourself on your hands and glare down at the perpetrator.Â
A sports drink looks back up at you, adorned with a yellow sticky note stuck to its side. After looking left and right down the empty corridor, you pick up the bottle and read the note.Â
im not a fan of sick neighbour asmr â4b
You snort despite yourself, heading for the stairs. On the way, you flip the note around and pen a short reply, sticking it to 4Bâs door before heading out.Â
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Somehow, despite being sick, Shoko shows up to your tutorial later than you. You wave as she dumps her tote under the table and flops unceremoniously into the seat beside you.Â
âAre you still sick?â she asks in lieu of a greeting. âYou shouldnât come to class if youâre not feeling well.âÂ
âWhat makes you think Iâm still sick?â you ask in a voice that can only be attributed to years of smoking or recovering from sickness.Â
She gives you a look. âRight. So the eyebags are just your usual go to?â
âIt would be fucked up if i always looked like this and you just called me ugly.â You cover your face with your hands. âBut itâs not that bad, is it? I still have a reputation I care about.âÂ
âIâm genuinely afraid of telling you the truth because it might push you over the edge. So yes, girl you look gorgeous.âÂ
You roll your eyes, slumping to rest your cheek against your arms, looking at her from the side. Her phone vibrates and you hear it loud with your ear pressed against the desk, flinching slightly until she picks it up.Â
âWhat is it?âÂ
Shoko lets out an unamused huff and shows you the screen.Â
gojo (DO NOT ANSWER): wanna hit me up with the pre lab questions?Â
It would be a mission to go through university without hearing the name âGojo Satoruâ whether in secretive whispers or muffled in laughter. For one, heâs sport captain for some sport youâve never paid enough attention to remember. Heâs stupidly charming in a way that makes people sigh even when theyâre rolling their eyes with an accompanying begrudged smile. Half the girls in your course claim heâs flirted with them whilst the other half say theyâd punch him given the chance, before pausing and muttering something like, âbut heâs kind of funny, I guess.âÂ
The only other piece of information you know about him is that heâs loud, annoyingly so which places you in that category of girls that would more likely punch him in the stomach than kiss him.Â
You wonder how on earth Shoko could be friends with someone her complete opposite.Â
You look up and raise an eyebrow at her. âWell? Are you going to?â
âDo you read with your eyes closed? I clearly saved his contact as âdo not answerâ. If Gojo wants pre-lab questions that badly, he can go flirt them out of one of his fifty fans.â
You snort.âGlad to know youâre a bad friend to everyone and not just me.â
She shrugs. âHe thinks I owe him a huge favour for something he did for me a while ago when that is not true at all. Iâm sure thereâs other people he can hit up for answers. You know how he is, thereâs always someone trailing after him like a lost puppy.âÂ
âConsidering I donât know the guy, no not really,â you say, nudging your cheek more firmly into your folded arms, locking in for a storytime. âTell me about him.â
Shoko narrows her eyes at you. âYou want to know about him?â
âGirl,â you huff, âlike gossip. I promise Iâm not a groupie. I donât think Iâve ever actually had a conversation with him so donât look at me like that.â
âThat makes sense. Heâs usually only on lower campus so thereâs little chance of him showing up randomly, anyway.âÂ
âSounds like you donât like him,â you say, intelligently.Â
âIâve been stuck with him and Geto since high school,â she starts and you actually feel bad for her. âGod forbid I donât want to see him in my formative years, too.âÂ
You laugh because misfortune is always better on others than yourself. âNow you have to tell me. What did he do to you?â
Shoko doesnât seem amused. She looks you up and down, eyes narrowing at the smile on your face. âYou know, Iâm actually an incredible friend and as a friend who cares about you deeply, let me tell you this. You do not want to hook up with him.â
You splutter, lifting your head. âWhat the fuck? I just wanted to know about the guy! Can we start with being friends first, damn?â
âLetâs just say I know him,â your best friend continues, unfazed. âHe wouldnât be able to stay as just friends with someone like you.â
âOkay, and what the fuck does that even mean?â
âLook,â she says, and you open your mouth to cut her off because the telltale signs that sheâs about to change the topic are there. âHeâs also in Sig Kap.â
The words hit like cold water. Whatever fragile lightness had been carrying you through the morning dims all at once. Shoko notices immediately, of course she does, and some of the bite leaves her expression.
âI just thought you should know.â
You slump back into your chair, crossing your arms and looking down at your table, contemplating if you should start banging your head against the hard surface and end your suffering. âWhat a mood killer. Did you really have to bring that up?â
âIâm just saying, if you start seeing Gojo around, the chances of also seeing your ex is very high. Sure, theyâre not in the same frat but theyâre both still in that same group of guys. You know, inter-fraternity relations.âÂ
âThereâs a lot of assuming going on right now, like the fact that I would even see Gojo in the first place, but Iâll let it slide because I suddenly feel the urge to shoot myself in the head.âÂ
âI thought you were over your ex?â
You donât say anything for a while, trying to muse out the complex ball of feelings in your gut.Â
You had been falling out of love with Naoya for months before the breakup. Maybe even longer, if youâre being honest. It wasnât like it happened all at once, and there wasnât one dramatic collapse, no one, big, awful fight, just a slow and steady erosion. A hundred small disappointments, a hundred moments of realising he was more interested in having a girlfriend than being a boyfriend. He forgets the things you tell him, interrupts you to tell your own stories better, talks all pretty to your girl friends and then simultaneously talks shit to you about them when you ask him to stop requesting them on Instagram.Â
So if you do miss him, then you might have a masochist streak in you.Â
What you miss, maybe, is who you were before all of that. The version of you that believed romance was something soft and mutual and worth fighting for, instead of something performative that slowly hollows itself out while you stand there insisting itâs still alive.
âY/N?â
You blink and realise Shoko is watching you. âOh, uh. I am over him. I just wish I could have the pre-Naoya me back, thatâs all.â
Shoko makes a disgusted sound on your behalf. âDo not say his name. I gagged.â
âRight?â You shake your head and dismiss whatever useless thoughts still linger, forcing yourself to relax back into something a little more light-hearted. âBut itâs whatever. Iâve learnt my lesson now, frat boys are not to be trusted and dating one is like draining all the whimsy out of your body. I honestly donât care about him anymore and I wouldnât even think about him at all if I didnât have that film to make.â
That makes your best friend giggle. âThe one about love.â
âIs this funny to you?â you ask with a huff, but youâre grateful that she doesn't force you to say any more than youâre ready for.
âExtremely.â She nods, then dodges when you reach over to try and playfully hit her. âLook, Iâm sure inspiration will hit you soon. Love always arrives when you least expect it, and all that.â
You give her a long look, face unmoving. âI donât want the girl with the girlfriend of three years to say that. Get out of my face.â
Shoko laughs loudly, and you both trail off as the lecture starts.Â
The rest of class passes in the usual blur of half-listening and half-heartedly playing minesweeper on the google chrome extension open on your laptop. By the time you make it back to the sketchy, wilted building you unfortunately call home, winter evening has settled in for real, the kind that turns everything blue-grey and has you squinting down the street every few minutes just to make sure the shape in the distance is a person and not a fire hydrant. You had to use your phoneâs flashlight for this, and in the last few steps up to your apartment, it betrays you by dying.Â
Thankfully, you still manage to make it to your place in one piece.Â
You peel the note off your door on your way in, flick on the lights, and let your tote bag drop to the floor with a tired thud.
feeling better?
A soft smile tugs at your mouth before it fades just as quickly, replaced by a small furrow in your brow. Weird.
Youâre halfway to the kitchen to find the stack of sticky notes you left on the island in a rush this morning when the world abruptly cuts out.
âThe fuckââ
âOw!â In the sudden darkness, you misjudge the turn around the counter and slam straight into the corner of it.
From the other side of the wall, 4Bâs voice comes a little louder. â4A? You okay?â
You suck in a sharp breath, one hand nursing your hip as you try to steady yourself. âYeah. Just walked straight into my counter corner. What the fuck happened?â
Thereâs the sound of faint footsteps, then the creak of something shifting as he leans against the wall in his kitchen. âI think this is what they call a power outage. Correct me if Iâm wrong.â
âI know that, smartass,â you mutter, though not so quietly where he canât hear. âBut how did that happen? Itâs not even storming or anything.â
âWhatâs wrong? Scared of the dark?â
You scoff, already dreading the upcoming conversation. Despite this, you fumble to where that familiar countertop sits against the connecting wall between your apartments and hoist yourself up easily, leaning back so his voice is clearer when he speaks. âNo. We pay rent for this place, of course I want to know whatâs happening when the lights all suddenly cut.â
âI can text the landlord. If it happened to both of us then itâs probably a building wide thing so itâll be their responsibility. But all we can do is wait.â
You sigh, long and full of suffering. âThis sucks. Couldnât the power go off at midnight or something?â
âIâll let the landlord know your availability.âÂ
You roll your eyes and make yourself comfortable, relenting to stay for however long itâll take for there to be light again. You mourn the death of your phone then, holding the power button for some kind of miracle and get reminded that, once again, your life sucks and is only full of betrayal and tragedy.Â
For a short moment, silence settles between you, and suddenly youâre struck by the irritating realisation that beyond his notes, his terrible taste in alarms, and his frankly irresponsible attachment to Digimon, you know almost nothing about the stranger on the other side of the wall.
âSo,â you start.
âYeah?â
âWhat were you up to? You know, before the power went out and everything.â
âCurious, hm?â your neighbour replies, that irritating teasing tilt in his tone. âI was just about to lock in for an assignment so I can focus on the midterms coming up in a week.âÂ
You hum. âWhat course are you doing?âÂ
âPhysics. And I know what youâre going to sayââ
You snort. âNerd.âÂ
âYou know, some people find intelligence attractive.â
âDo those people also happen to be the same imaginary campus-wide fanbase you keep bringing up?âÂ
He laughs and you immediately lock onto the pleasant sound, not because you particularly care, but when your vision is knocked out, everything you hear seems amplified. Including the pretty tilt in his tone, the richness in his laugh, and the fact that his voice sits somewhere deeper than you expected from his petulant notes.
âWell, what about you, then? If Iâm the resident physics nerd, what are you?âÂ
You glance out into your dark apartment, the outline of your living room barely there in what little evening light still makes it through the windows. Your camera sits somewhere on the table, your laptop buried inside your tote, your assignment still waiting to be done.Â
âFilm,â you say at last. âWell, not film-film. Iâm just doing one elective this semester to boost my grades but if I could go back in time I would have picked that social media class everyone else does as a GPA booster.â
Your neighbour makes a sound of recognition. âOh, that! Yeah, I took that in my first year. Our midterm was to write a report on the significance of âget ready with meâsâ. Iâm so serious.âÂ
You groan, dropping your head onto your knees. âI know, my friend was telling me how she did that class too.â
âWhoâs your friend? Wouldnât it be so funny if your friend was actually in my class that year?â
You roll your eyes. Shoko would have definitely told you about someone like him. âI doubt it. We do the same course and none of our classes are ever near the physics buildings.âÂ
He hums. âYou never know. I get around.âÂ
That makes you laugh. âSure, 4B. Letâs stick to hypothetical equations instead of your hypothetical maladaptive daydreams, okay?âÂ
âYou pick on me too much,â he whines. âGive me something to work with, Iâm starting to really feel this power imbalance. Whatâs your film assignment about?â
You let out a long breath through your nose, already hearing his voice in your head and every possible jab he can make. âItâs a film on love.â
He snorts. âRight, because when I talk to you Iâm just overwhelmed by the love seeping out of you.â
You sigh. âKill yourself.â
âSee, this is what I mean.â
âAll you know about me is my voice,â you shoot back, not necessarily offended so much as annoyed. âIâve been told that Iâm a very benevolent and kind person.â
He hums. âMaybe not when youâre so grouchy then.â
âIâm not being grouchy.â
âAt least try and make your point come across.â
âMy point is that Iâm a delight,â you say flatly. âA warm presence, a gentle soul. Campus-wide rumours actually say Iâm beloved by all who meet me.â
âNow who has the imaginary campus-wide fanbase?â he laughs, and even though you roll your eyes, itâs harder to hold onto your irritation when he sounds that pleased with himself.
The dark presses in around your apartment, turning everything into vague shapes and corners, but his voice keeps coming through the wall like a little light you cannot see.
âOkay, then,â he says after his laughing fit. âProve it.â
You frown, even though he canât see you. âProve what?â
âThat youâre not grouchy. That youâre a person full of fun and whimsy. If your film is about love, then tell me one thing you love.â
You make a face. âThat sounds like worldâs worst icebreaker.â
âSomeoneâs getting defensive,â he sings, sounding far too amused. âCome on, 4A. one thing. It doesnât have to be deep. Actually, please donât make it deep, Iâm not emotionally prepared for that. Just something stupid that makes you happy. Thatâs still love, you know?â
You open your mouth with another complaint ready, but nothing comes out. Which is annoying, because it should be easy. Before Naoya, before the breakup, before the awful assignment and the worse timing, you had liked plenty of things without needing to justify them. You liked when orange and pink bleeds across the sky on the walk back from a long day of classes, you liked smiling at dogs when they crossed your paths on the streets, you liked the warmth of a delicious heated drink in your hands on a cold, winter morning. You liked watching people reunite at train stations, you liked filming light moving across your bedroom wall because, at the time, it had seemed like something worth keeping.
Now, asked to name that something out loud, your mind offers you nothing but static.
âJesus, okay,â he says after a beat. âThe silence is very telling.â
There is a soft scrape on his side of the wall, like he is sliding down to sit more comfortably. âOkay, Iâll go first since clearly you need a role model. I love when vending machines actually drop the thing you paid for instead of holding it hostage behind the glass. I love when you think a package is coming next week and then it arrives today like a tiny miracle.â
Despite yourself, you huff. âSounds like you just love consumerism.â
âI also love when a dog on the street looks like it has somewhere important to be. Like, where are you going? Do you have a meeting? Are you late? Should I call ahead?â
Fuck, that was on your list too.Â
âFine,â you say, shifting on the counter until your socked foot bumps against one of the cabinet handles. âI love when youâre walking past a bakery and theyâre making bread, but youâre not hungry, so you just get to enjoy the smell without spending money.âÂ
âHow very financially responsible of you. Youâre like the opposite of me. Anti-consumerism.â You can hear the grin in his voice. âOkay, next. Weâre making a list now. Thatâs how brainstorming works, right?âÂ
You sigh like this is a burden, like you are not already turning the question over in your hands. âI love when the train comes right as you get to the platform.âÂ
âReally? That sounds stressful.âÂ
âI love when someone in front of you in line is ordering something complicated and you get annoyed, but then theyâre actually really nice to the worker, so you forgive them.âÂ
âBecause is it ever that serious?âÂ
You roll your eyes, but your mouth betrays you by pulling into a smile. It feels strange on your face, like trying on an old jacket you had forgotten in the back of your closet, something that had once been yours. Itâs not a terrible feeling, you decide, perhaps just a little unfamiliar.Â
âOkay, my turn again,â 4B says. âI love when you see someone running for the bus and the bus driver waits for them.âÂ
âThatâs rare, some people have that sadistic bone in their body that wants to only see others suffer.âÂ
âWhich is why it makes those off chance moments better. Rarity increases market value.âÂ
âThereâs that consumerism bleeding through again.âÂ
A thought arrives quietly, not quite the decision you were hoping for in the library, but itâs a small, familiar itch of wanting to keep something before it passes.
âI love when someone laughs so hard they make the other person start laughing even if they donât know whatâs funny,â he continues.
Your eyes have gone to the table again. There isnât a clean, decisive moment to it, certainly no sudden burst of artistic purpose that you might call inspiration. You simply slide off the counter while he keeps talking, careful not to knock your hip into the corner again and feel your way through the dim apartment toward your camera.
âAlso,â he continues, completely unaware. âI love finishing a book or movie and getting so into it that you look it up on Twitter for everyone elseâs take.â
âSounds like you just struggle to form an original thought on your own.â
âIâm superseding my opinion.â
âOh, what a big word! Good job, 4B.â
You finally find your dust camera hidden by more important things, and take it back to the kitchen.
The room is too dark for the lens to catch anything properly. For a second, you nearly give up, but then your gaze lands on the candle sitting untouched on your dining table, the one you bought months ago because it smelled like vanilla and cedarwood and you had convinced yourself buying one candle would somehow turn your apartment into a Pinterest boardâs dream. Youâve never lit it.
But for some reason, the desire to make a mark in the wax comes to front and you set it on the windowsill without any more thinking.
The lighter takes three tries to catch.
âWhatâs that clicking sound?â
âWhat clicking sound?â you mumble, brows burrowed as the fire dies again.
âAm I going crazy? Just warning you but I have crazy keen hearing. And now with my sight gone, Iâm even more locked in. Sounds like⌠are you lighting a birthday cake? Is it your birthday?â
âThatâs what you think of first when you hear a light?â You donât know whether to laugh or coo at his innocence in your dorky neighbour. âIâm just lighting a candle because itâs dark.â
The candle flame shivers to life, small and uneven. Throwing a weak gold light over the window ledge and the lower half of the glass. Itâs frankly a terrible light source, dim but somehow managing to catch the smudge of your fingerprints on the window and turns the kitchen sink into a dark, warped shape in the reflection. When you prop the camera up against your water jug, lifted by two stacked coasters, the frame tilts slightly to the left.
You hit record.
âOkay, your turn,â he says.
You blink at the red dot on the camera screen. âWhat?â
âItâs your turn again. Donât think I didnât notice you going quiet there. Just because I canât see you doesnât mean you can get away with not contributing your part to this list.â
âAs if youâre keeping track of everything.â You settle back against the counter, close enough to the camera that your voice will catch. âOkay, hereâs one. I love it when people apologise to furniture after walking into it. Oh, and, when someone saves you a seat.â
He hums, turning the thought over in his head. âThatâs a good one. Could even be your thesis statement for your film, honestly. Something pretentious. Like how love is making room.â
You giggle. âLove is setting aside a space for someone.âÂ
âLove as chair politics,â he says smartly.Â
âLove is an empty seat: an interdisciplinary exploration into effort-based decision-making.âÂ
âOkay, you made this not fun by actually sounding smart. What the hell is effort-based decision-making?âÂ
âGoogle is free.â
You hear the grin in his voice as he bounces off your words. âSo is a tree, hang from it.âÂ
The laugh leaves you before you can stop it. It is sharp and ugly, startled out of you in a way that makes you clap a hand over your mouth too late. The sound echoes faintly in your dark kitchen, caught by the camera, your shadow probably distorted by the terrible angle and the water jug propping it upright.Â
There is a beat of silence on the other side of the wall. Then, quietly, delightedly, âOh, you thought that was funny. You think Iâm funny?âÂ
âPlease, it was a fluke.âÂ
âThat was the healthiest youâve sounded all day.â
You make an offended noise and reach blindly toward the counter until your hand lands on a tea towel. You throw it at the wall and it hits with a soft, deeply unsatisfying slap before flopping onto the floor.Â
He gasps. âDid you just throw something at me?âÂ
âConsider it a formal complaint.âÂ
âIâm snitching to the landlord.âÂ
âTell them to fix the power while youâre there.âÂ
âFine. But Iâm adding attempted murder on top of that previous violent note.âÂ
You shake your head to yourself, still smiling. If you were sane, you might take the time to wonder what the fuck you were doing, sitting on your kitchen counter, arguing with a man youâve yet to seen, smiling like an idiot at your own wall. And yet, you hesitate to move.Â
For a moment, neither of you say anything and a silence that isnât quite awkward settles over you both.Â
Then, with a sudden electric hum, the fridge kicks back on and the ceiling light blinks once, twice, and then floods the kitchen in a harsh yellow that makes you squint, and makes your neighbour curse in surprise.Â
âOh!âÂ
From the other side of the wall, he lets out a sigh. âBoo.âÂ
You laugh again, leaning over to check your camera. âBoo?â
âI was having fun,â he says, almost accusingly. âThe dark was doing wonders for our dynamic. You were less mean when you couldnât see.â
âYou mean when I was visually impaired and vulnerable?â
âExactly. It was bringing out your softer side. Or maybe it was all me.â
Looking at the camera, you see that the little red dot is glowing steadily on the screen, and only then remember what you were meant to be doing in the first place. Most of the clip is probably just your kitchen window, your voice too close to the mic and his voice muffled through the plaster, the two of you listing stupid things that barely count as anything.Â
Still, your fingers hesitates over the stop button.Â
On the other side of the wall, he shifts and the wall groans. âYou alive over there? The light didnât evaporate you when they turned back on, did they?âÂ
You press stop. âNow how does that make any sense?âÂ
You pick up the camera, thumb hovering over the saved clip. The thumbnail is dark and grainy, almost useless at first glance, but when you play the first second back, your own laugh cracks through the tiny speaker before you panic and mute it.Â
Your face warms.Â
Stupid.Â
So, so stupid. But you donât delete it. Instead, you set the camera carefully on the counter and blow out your candle still burning against the window.Â
âAnyway, since the lights are back, Iâm going to pretend to do my assignment now. Keyword pretend because I like to keep my goals realistic,â 4B says and the strange mood lifts and dissipates with the candleâs smoke.Â
âGood luck with that.â
âGood luck with your love thing.â
You look down at the camera again.
âYeah,â you say, picking it up before you can change your mind. âThanks.â
âFor what?â
You pause. Then you tuck the camera against your chest and head out of the kitchen. âNothing.â
Behind the wall, 4B laughs like he does not believe you at all, and you leave before he can ask.
You donât remember when but sometime along the semester, you begin to enjoy waking up. You hadnât grown a newfound appreciation for your alarm, no that was still a work in progress, but something about opening your eyes to start a new day no longer evoked a groan. Your next door neighbour did that for you instead.
One morning you were waking up to a quiet early morning and the next, you hear an alarm ring parallel to yours.
You hear it again this morning as you rub the sleep from your eyes as some anime opening plays, muffled by the distance. When you step into your kitchen, itâs louder, and you hear the soft padding of feet against floorboards as 4B wakes.
âMorning,â heâll mumble, voice rough from sleep, just as he did now.
âGood morning,â youâll say back and hope he doesnât hear the smile in your voice.
Heâll grunt in acknowledgement, heading for his bathroom which youâve come to realise shares a wall with your bedroom. Youâll get started on packing a lunch to take to campus while he takes his sweet time getting ready. You wake far too early for him, after all.
Youâll pause on your way out, just as you did now, tilting your head slightly to listen. If he hears your door open, heâll call out, âGood luck with your classes!â and if he doesnât, water too loud or too immersed in something else, youâll say, âSee you later!â
Itâs a routine youâve come to love.
Sometimes when he hears you sigh coming back from campus, youâll hear him close his fridge and fall into his couch. âGrey's Anatomy?â heâll ask loudly and youâll laugh softly, hand already reaching to grab your remote despite your drowsiness.
You tell yourself it isnât a big deal. Plenty of people have neighbours and plenty of people talk to said neighbours. Plenty of people probably know the exact sound of their neighbourâs footsteps in the morning, the difference between their sleepy voice and their smug voice, the exact pause before they say something annoying just to get you to react.Â
Probably.Â
Still, the thought follows you out of your apartment and all the way to campus, sitting somewhere uncomfortable behind your ribs. Itâs there when you catch yourself slowing down near the front steps because someone ahead of you laughs a little too loud and, for one stupid second, you think it might be him. It is there when you buy coffee and almost order an extra pastry because 4B once mentioned he loves sugary things first thing in the morning and frankly any other time of the day.Â
It is there when you realise, with a kind of quiet horror, that you might actually like him.Â
Recognising the telltale signs that youâre about to spiral, you decide to at least try and prevent it by taking a walk and touching grass. Unfortunately, you forget that there are evil forces against you because when you step into the main courtyard on campus on your way out, you immediately find yourself in hell.Â
Like, actual hell. Like thereâs a frat car wash happening in the middle of the campus kind of hell.
A row of cars lines the curb beside the courtyard, soapy water running down the pavement in bright, bubbly streams. Someone has set up a folding table with a cardboard sign that reads SIG KAP CHARITY CAR WASH in marker thick enough to be seen from across the street. A group of people have already crowded around the main attraction snapping away and laughing, the men scattered around yelling over each other as they try and organise the mess. Thereâs a JBL speaker playing Cbat and other such EDM trap that has you wondering if youâve walked yourself into a rave.Â
And standing in the middle of it all, shirtless and holding a sponge as flexes for his groupies, is Gojo Satoru.Â
Heâs hot. Thereâs really no polite way around it. His hair is damp from the spray of the hose, white strands pushed messily off his forehead and curling slightly at the ends. Water runs in thin lines down his throat, over the sharp cut of his collarbones, then lower and lower, disappearing along the hard planes of his stomach and tapering down into droplets that catch the sun on his abs.Â
Your eyes follow a line of water that continues further down which is definitely a mistake.Â
A deeply human mistake, but still a mistake nonetheless because it means you get an unwillingly thorough look at the narrow dip of his waist, the low-slung band of his shorts, the way his abdomen tightens when he twists the sponge out over the hood of a car.Â
You shake your head, rattling any more indecent thoughts from your head. Sure, fine, heâs hot as fuck. But who is genuinely stupid enough to get seduced into donating money because some guy with abs and wet hair smiles at them whilst simultaneously wiping bird shit off a windscreen?
A group passes by the table and drops a note into the donation jar.Â
You stare. Okay, nevermind. Apparently some people really will. Still, it has absolutely nothing to do with you. You donât have a car, you donât carry cash on you, and you donât want to entertain a bunch of frat guys especially after all youâve learnt this year. So, you adjust the strap of your tote higher on your shoulder and keep walking.Â
âHey, you in the band shirt!âÂ
Your foot catches slightly on the uneven pavement, and you make an embarrassing gesture getting back on two feet. Blind panic and something warmer, something more traitorous, jolts through you like a beam of lightning.Â
No.Â
No, because that voiceâ
Youâve barely rationalised anything before your head is whipping so fast over your shoulder you think youâve given yourself a cramp. Itâs instinctive more than anything, a kind of desperate hope for something indescribable, heart leaping up to your throat at the thought that a voice behind a wall has suddenly become attached to a body.Â
And what a body.Â
Gojo jogs toward you, shirtless and damp and unfairly attractive under the sun, towel bouncing against his neck with each step. There is soap clinging to his hands, water sliding down the firm line of his chest, one hand running through his hair as he shakes it of loose droplets.Â
He comes to a stop in front of you, grin already loaded. You donât even flinch when he flicks water onto your face accidentally.Â
âBand shirt! Running away already?â he asks. âI didnât even pitch you yet.âÂ
Gojo Satoru just spoke with 4Bâs voice.
Your 4B. Except heâs no longer a faceless voice in the dark. He is Gojo Satoru. He is shirtless in front of you. He is looking at you like heâs waiting for an answer.Â
âYou cryinâ? he asks, head tilting slightly as he glances at the droplets on your cheek. âIs the sun getting to you? We have buckets of water back there if you want to dunk yourself. Or maybe you want to dunk me and live vicariously through that? I noticed you staring.â
You force your mouth to move. âI donât have a car.âÂ
Unfortunately, the voice that comes out is wrong. Itâs too high like youâve swallowed your own throat and replaced it with someone doing customer service over the phone.Â
Gojo blinks.Â
You clear your throat. âI mean, I donât have a car,â you repeat, lower this time.Â
Great, now you sound like youâre about to rob him.Â
His smile twitches, one eyebrow raising slowly as he regards you.Â
âRight,â he says, slowly. âNo car. I think I got it the first time. What about a bike? We can wipe down the seat or something.â
You shake your head.Â
âScooter? Skateboard?âÂ
âNo.â
âHow do you get around?âÂ
âFeet.â
He looks down and you suddenly feel self-conscious of your shoe choice.Â
âWe donât typically offer pedicures but I could make an exception for you,â Gojo says with a wide grin. âOr we could give your shoes a good scrub.â
âI donât have anything for you to wash.âÂ
âWhat? Donât tell me youâre attached to that layer of grime you have on them.âÂ
Youâre so offended you temporarily blink of your stupor to splutter. âTheyâre not that dirty! Theyâre just well-loved!âÂ
âTheyâre clearly crying out for some divine intervention. Lucky for you, I might as well be the second coming of Jesus.âÂ
You scoff. âNo way. Maybe I like them ugly, okay?âÂ
Gojoâs grin widens. âSo you admit theyâre ugly.â
You hate that he catches it so quickly. You hate even more that your heart picks up like a trapped hummingbird beneath your skin.Â
Behind him, someone whistles. âSatoru, stop flirting and actually help!âÂ
âIâm not flirting,â he calls back without looking away from you. âIâm recruiting customers!â
He lowers his voice so itâs just for you. âYou are planning on being a customer, arenât you?â
You scoff. âIs this what the whole pitch is? Bullying peopleâs shoes until they donate?â
âNo, that was just tailored marketing.â He leans slightly closer, lowering his voice like heâs about to reveal a conspiracy. âThe real pitch is much more moving.â
âOkay,â you say, because apparently youâve lost the will to survive. âGo on then.â
Gojo flashes you another smile, or maybe he hasnât stopped smiling not even once throughout this entire encounter, and steps back, pressing one wet hand dramatically to his bare chest. He adopts a pitiful expression as he gazes at you. âEvery year, hundreds of cars on this campus are forced to suffer through bird shit, pollen, and the mysterious sticky stuff that appears under trees for reasons science refuses to explain.â
You grimace.
He continues, undeterred. âFor just five dollars, you can help one of these poor vehicles experience dignity again.â
âI donât have five dollars.â
âFor just three dollarsââ
âNo cash.â
âFor one encouraging wordââ
âNot happening.â
ââyou can support a hardworking student athlete in his fight against grime,â he finishes calmly.Â
âI think you just want to be shirtless,â you say whatâs been on your mind the entire time, letting yourself steal another glimpse of his chest. Is it just your imagination but did he just flex his pecs at you?
He looks down at himself like he has only just remembered the state he is in. âThis? Itâs a uniform. Works wonders for pulling in interest.â He gestures vaguely over his shoulder where another person has just dropped money into the donation jar without taking her eyes off his back. âSee? The system works.âÂ
âHow are you so blatantly shameless?â
He shrugs. âShame only slows you down.âÂ
Gojo steps slightly to the side when someone passes behind him with a bucket, and the movement brings him just close enough for you to catch the clean, cozy smell of soap and sunscreen underneath the damp heat of him. The towel around his neck drips onto his chest and a bead of water slips from his collarbone, trailing lower.Â
Your eyes follow it again. Good lord. When you force your gaze back up, heâs watching you smugly.Â
âSo,â he says, voice dropping a little, âshould I put you down as morally opposed to charity, or just immune to my charm?âÂ
âThose are the only options?âÂ
âHey, Iâm open to feedback. If you have a complaint, Iâm all ears.âÂ
âAdd a financially unavailable option.âÂ
âOkay.â He nods gravely. âMorally opposed, charm-resistant, and broke.âÂ
âI didnât say broke.â You cut yourself off when you realise youâve spent too long arguing with him when you had been so determined to walk away moments before. âForget it, Iâm walking away.âÂ
Gojo laughs and steps directly into your path, head tilting as he studies you like heâs trying to place a song from the first few seconds.
âYou have quite the mouth on you,â he says, and something foreboding settles in your gut. âWhatâs your name, band shirt?â
Something about his voice tricks you into almost answering, perhaps because 4B has spent weeks training a response out of you. He says something stupid, you respond with something worse, and you fall into conversation that way. But while they sound the same you force yourself to remember this isnât 4B through the wall.Â
You have only one goal here: get out before he starts connecting âband shirtâ to âfamiliar voiceâ that becomes âgirl through the wallâ because then youâll have to move apartments and potentially countries. So, you straighten your shoulders, lift your chin, and speak in the blandest tone you can manage.Â
âNo,â you say. âShort for none of your business.â
âThatâs a terrible name,â Gojo says, nose scrunching up. âWhat did you do to your parents to deserve that? Itâs going to look quite hurtful on the donation receipt.âÂ
âIâm not donating,â you say, already looking for the cleanest route around him. âSo thankfully, your admin concerns are none of my concern. Now, if youâll excuse me.âÂ
âYou wonât donate, you wonât volunteer, and you wonât give me your name,â he says, still watching you too closely. âBut youâll stand here and argue with me.â
âThatâs because you seem like the type who needs things explained slowly,â you quip back. âAnd besides, youâre in my way.â
His gaze flicks briefly to the open space beside him. You both look at it.
Then he looks back at you, smile unbearably smug. âAm I?â
You hate him because he is right, and because the longer you stand here, the more his voice settles into place with his face, and the more impossible it becomes to separate Gojo Satoru from 4B. You can feel it happening in real time, the two versions of him overlapping until the faceless boy through the wall starts becoming this shirtless jerk with wet hair and water dripping down his chest.Â
âYouâre very intense about names,â you say, forcing your voice into that same bland, too-flat register. âMaybe work on that before the next person you corner.âÂ
âRelax,â he says, voice dipping into something smoother. âIâm just saying, if a girl insults me this much, I feel like I should at least know what to call her.âÂ
âBand shirt is working fine for you. And if itâs not going on a donation receipt then I donât see why you really need it.â
âCan I guess?â he asks instead, already leaning forward like the idea has thrilled him.Â
âAbsolutely not.â You take a step to the side, causing him to promptly mirror you. âDude, quit it.âÂ
âSorry, sorry,â he says, immediately stepping back with both hands raised to showcase his harmlessness though itâs ruined by his smile. âGot excited. Youâre so nonchalant and mysterious it just draws me in, you know? Come on, Iâll leave you alone if you just give me a name, your real name.â
âNo.âÂ
âOkay, not a real one,â he concedes far too quickly. âJust so I have something to call you in my head when youâre already running through it so much.âÂ
âIâm not giving you a fake name either.âÂ
âThatâs so much worse,â he says, sounding wounded. âNow youâre not even trusting me with a lie? Iâm shirtless for charity, band shirt, Iâm vulnerable.â
âVulnerably harassing a stranger for her name in the middle of campus?âÂ
âStranger feels harsh.â His smile shifts a little, still playful yes, but the focus underneath it becomes visible. âYou donât exactly feel like a stranger.âÂ
You need to get out here right now.Â
You tighten your hold on your tote bag and start walking, not caring where your dirty shoes led you, not caring if it even led you back to that God forsaken carwash. Gojo doesnât give up, trailing after you and eating up the distance you try to place with his long legs, body facing yours even as you speed walk.Â
âDo I know you?âÂ
âNo,â you say. âWe donât know each other.â
âBut it feels like we know each other.â
âWe? Thereâs no we. Maybe youâve seen me in passing but itâs not something to obsess over. Okay, bye.âÂ
âPossible,â he says, nodding solemnly. âI do have a wide reach. Iâm trying to expand it, actually, which is why I need your name.â
You pass the front of the carwash table once more and someone at the front turns, practically jumping on the spot upon seeing Gojo. He ignores them, still drilling holes into the side of your face.Â
âFirst initial?â
âN. For No.â
âLast initial?âÂ
âO.â
âDoes it have an A in it?âÂ
âDo you know when to quit?âÂ
âIs that a yes?â
âNo.â
âNo, it doesnât or no, you wonât tell me? Or secret third option, No as in No your name.â He clicks his tongue like youâre the one being difficult. âSee, this is getting really confusing. You could solve this entire problem by telling me your real name.â
You keep walking for a few more steps but itâs getting harder to pretend you donât have a golden retriever trailing after your every step, and word, especially when heâs shirtless and a microcelebrity on campus.Â
âLook,â you say, stopping and turning to give him a piece of your mind. âI donât know you, you donât know me, so this has been deeply unnecessary. Letâs just leave it at that okay?â
His smile softens as he also stops, looking at you. âThen tell me your name and we can fix that.â
For one stupid, horrifying second, you almost do. His voice dips around his words, warm and familiar, and your brain gives you 4B through the wall saying morning, 4A, soft with sleep, and suddenly your name feels like something dangerously close to being handed over.
His hand lifts, reaching for your wrist at your hesitation but hovers short of actually touching, eyes holding yours for permission.Â
Then someone calls, âSatoru!â
His face twists, mouth opening like he is ready to spit out another excuse, when a towel hits him square in the back of his head.
He jolts, hand leaving the space between you to grab at the towel before it falls. âWhat the fuck?âÂ
You both look over in the direction of the carwash.Â
Sukuna stands by the donation table with another towel hanging from one hand, looking like he would rather be dragged behind one of the cars than be there voluntarily. He is also shirtless, because can you even see a guy with his shirt on in a fifty metre radius around you? Water drips from the ends of his pink hair, sliding down the hard line of his neck and over his chest, his skin still shining from whatever girl had convinced him to stand under the hose for a photo.Â
âOi,â Sukuna calls, lifting the towel like he might throw it again. âAre you done begging, or should we put a bowl out for you too?âÂ
Gojoâs expression immediately collapses into offence. âIâm not begging. I told you I was networking! Youâre really cramping my style.âÂ
âWhatever you want to call it.â Sukuna jerks his chin toward the cars. âGet back here. Some girl paid ten dollars because you promised to write her name in soap on the windshield.âÂ
Gojo ruffles a hand through his hair and you catch a glimpse of his undercut before he groans, ducking his head. âShit! I forgot I said that. Canât you take one for the team, Sukuna?â
âShe asked for you.â
The imaginary campus-wide fanbase turns out to be true, you think mournfully.Â
A few people around the table laugh, and Gojo turns just enough to argue back, towel clutched in one hand, wet hair sticking messily to the back of his neck. You take the sight of his back muscles as a sign to leave. So before he can turn back around, you step away.Â
Then another step. Then several more, fast enough that your tote bumps against your hip and your grimy shoes slap loudly against the wet pavement. Itâs not running, because running would imply guilt, and you are innocent of everything except being cursed.Â
âBand shirt,â Gojo calls behind you and because itâs not your name, you donât turn around.Â
You especially donât turn around when Gojoâs half-groan, half-laugh follows you across the courtyard, short yet familiar enough to make your stomach twist.Â
4B is Gojo Satoru.
Gojo Satoru is 4B.
Someone needs to take down the Etsy website.
You never do wear that band shirt again.Â
Not that it mattered much because you also donât really go outside for a week, not if you could help it. You want to call it locking in because the midterms are coming up but in the brief moments when you allow yourself the truth, you admit itâs because youâre preventing any chance of running into Gojo again.Â
Itâs difficult to do that when heâs your neighbour. Or, well, when 4B is your neighbour.Â
That distinction becomes very important to you. Gojo Satoru is someone you saw shirtless in the middle of campus using charity as an excuse to flex obscenely at the general public moving through their day. Gojo Satoru has wet hair, a stupid grin, and is highly dangerous because he has a face and a body and a set of eyes that pins you down,Â
4B is a voice through the wall. 4B is his alarm going off too loudly in the morning, all groans and curses as he heaves himself from the warmth of his bed. 4B is ranting about the latest anime heâs watched, whispering through plaster when it gets late, knocking twice against the wall when he wants your attention but isnât sure if youâre in.
So you let yourself have it. You avoid Gojo, and you keep talking to 4B.
After a while, there arenât many problems with having Gojo as your next door neighbour. Sure, he can get loud during phone calls with his friends but you quickly forgive him when he gives sheepish apologies and dials down his volume. And sure, his alarm is loud but after that initial morning when you grilled him on the cheerful tune, he had changed it to something more appropriate.
The way he laughs is loud, the way he sings as he cooks is loud, the way he says your unit number is loud, all bright like heâs been waiting to catch you the moment you step into your apartment.
It seems Gojo canât help but be loud. In every aspect.
You wonder if you should bring it up.
It really was unfortunate that your bedroom and his bathroom shared a wall. Whoever constructed this building many, many years ago must not have planned it out too well and simply settled for fitting rooms of different apartments together like tetris. And because of this, his bathroom ends up right next to your head when you sleep.Â
You also gather that his shower is pressed against the said wall that you share with him, if his groans are any indication.Â
You should probably bring it up.Â
But how does one even bring up such a conversation? Hey neighbour! Not that Iâve been listening but I can hear you jerk off in the shower. Could you stop?Â
In his defence, you relent, rolling over and pressing your pillow against your ears, he was trying to be subtle about it. You appreciate that he wasnât doing it in his room since that would certainly turn you off from whatever youâre eating in your kitchen next to him. But if he believes the rush of water is enough to muffle his moans, heâs sorely mistaken.Â
You roll onto your other side, shuffling when even this position isnât comfortable. Your thin sheets are tangled around your legs and youâre desperately trying to focus on the book youâre reading on your phone. But who are you kidding, your thumb has been frozen on the same paragraph for the past five minutes, mind a million miles away.Â
Thereâs a thud of something being placed down on the tiled floor, a slight rustle. And then, a low, breathy groanâso faint you could almost convince yourself you imagined it.Â
But you definitely did not.Â
You breath catches as you place your phone down and stare at the ceiling as if that will make the sounds stop. It never works. You tell yourself to just roll over again, put in your airpods and drown it out. Youâve done it before, you can do it again.Â
But your hand is already drifting down, sliding over your stomach, fingers brushing the waistband of your shorts.Â
The first stroke is unintentional, a simple slow press through cotton just to feel something. But then you hear him again, a sharper exhale, a whispered word you canât quite make out, and your hips shift, pressing your palm harder against your cunt.Â
Fuck.Â
You close your eyes and instead of the dark of your room, you see steam. A shower, his shower, the one right on the other side of this wall.Â
You donât want to think about Gojo like this so you settle instead on your 4B. All you know is the sound of his footsteps in the hallway, the messy scrawl of his handwriting, the sound of his door opening and closing, the low rumble of his laugh when he teases you. Itâs deep and a little rough around the edges. Youâve built a version of him from the sound alone, and right now, thatâs more than enough.Â
Fingers tracing the outline of your clit through the fabric, circles so light theyâre barely there, you let your mind wander.Â
You imagine stepping into that shower. The air is thick and wet, fogging up the glass. Heâs already under the spray, back to you, water streaming down his shoulders. You don;t want to see his face, but you can see the way his muscles shift as he turns his head ever so slightly, giving you the slightest glimpse of his side profile before the steam whisks it away.Â
It would be foolish to hesitate. You slide your hands around his waist from behind, palms flat against his stomach, and he laughs, the vibrations meeting your chest.Â
âFuck,â he breathes, voice deeper, lower with him so close to you. âLook at you, giving me a helping hand, hm?â
âShut up,â youâd probably mumble against his shoulder blade, fingers already trailing lower, through the thatch of hair at the base of his cock. âYouâre always so loud.â
Heâd be hard already, and you can feel the heat of him, the slight twitch as your fingertips brush the underside of his shaft.Â
âNo, I donât think thatâs right,â he says. âBecause youâve been listening, havenât you? All those nights wrapped up all pretty in your blankets, thinking you can get away with using me to feel good, thinking youâre an angel for trying not to listen. But you know exactly what I sound like when Iâm close, donât you?â
Your breath hitches as you wrap your hand around him, and he groans, deep and guttural, exactly the sound thatâs coming through the wall right now. Your hand moves in time with the fantasy, slow strokes, thumb pressing into the slick tip, and he leans back into you, letting his head fall against your shoulder.Â
âThatâs it,â he murmurs, his voice a low rumble against your ear. âSuch a good girl. You have no idea how long Iâve wanted you to touch me. Wanted to feel your hand on my cock for so fucking long, angel.âÂ
âSince when?âÂ
You stroke him faster, twisting your wrist the way you imagine he does, and his breathing turns ragged.Â
âSince the moment you opened that pretty mouth and told me off. Fuckâfaster, angel. Just like that, donât stop. Your hand feels so perfect.â
Your own fingers press harder against your clit through your shorts, and you let out a tiny whimper you hope he canât hear through the wall. Maybe he can, maybe he really does know exactly what youâve been doing. That thought makes you even wetter, a choked gasp escaping.Â
In the fantasy, his body tenses. His hand comes up to cover yours, pressing your grip tighter around him.Â
âIâm gonna cum,â he says, voice strained. âIâm gonna paint the tiles with it, and youâre gonna watch. Youâre gonna listen to me fall apart because of you. And thenâfuckâthen Iâm gonna fuck you.âÂ
His hips jerk forward, and you feel the hot pulse of his release against your hand, the way he shudders and moans your name (which he doesnât know, but you give it to him anyway, a whispered invention). His cum slicks the inside of your fingers, and you keep stroking until he pushes your hand away with an overstimulated whimper that might be your own.Â
He turns around.Â
You still donât see his face, just the broad outline of his chest you saw during the carwash incident, the water catching in the hollow of his collarbone. He pushes you back against the cool tile with one hand braced beside your head, the other sliding down your stomach, between your legs.
âMy turn,â he purrs. âIâm gonna fuck you right here, in my shower, where you can hear every sound I make. And youâre gonna take it, arenât you? Gonna be an angel for me and let me use this pussy like Iâve been dreaming about.â
You nod, mouth open, and he sinks two fingers into you without warning.
The gasp that escapes your lips is real. âGojoâ!â
âNuh uh, pretty,â he coos in your ear. âCall me Satoru. Câmon, say my name, angel.âÂ
You shake your head against your pillow, back arching. âThatâsâthat would be weird.âÂ
He slows down, taking his time with you, dragging his fingers against your gummy walls before sliding over that spot that makes you see stars, chuckling when you gasp. âIâm making you feel this good and youâre still talking back? Gonna need to fuck that attitude out of you.âÂ
You bite your lip hard. âSatoruâŚâ
He stills, before he presses down hard. âHm? What was that?â
âSatoru!â
His voice is a rough, airy thing in your ear. âThatâs it, pretty, youâre doing so good for me.â
Your own fingers mimic the motion, pushing inside yourself while your thumb circles your clit. You can hear him through the wallâa wet, rhythmic sound, faster now, and a string of words you catch in fragments. âYeah⌠thatâs it⌠take itâŚâ
You imagine his cock,thick, already half-hard again from the feel of you, sliding between your thighs. He lifts your leg, hooks it over his arm, and presses the head against your entrance.
âLook at me,â he says, and you try, but his face is a blur of heat and water, just shadows and the gleam of wet skin. âLook at me while I fuck you. I want you to remember this.â
He pushes in slow, and you feel the stretch in your fantasy and in your own body as your fingers sink deeper. You bite your lip to keep from moaning out loud.
âShit, youâre so tight,â he groans, his forehead pressing against yours. âYou feel that? Thatâs my cock filling you up. Thatâs what you get for listening in, for touching yourself to the sound of me cumming.â
He sets a hard rhythm, the slapping of wet skin echoing off the shower walls. Your fantasy-self clings to him, nails digging into his back, and he keeps talking, his voice ragged and dirty, exactly what you need.
âThatâs it, it feels so fucking good, huh? Bet you love this, love that you didnât know what I looked like but you know the sound of my balls slapping against your ass. Youâre such a fucking slut for it. Is it hotter now that you know who I am? Open your mouth and tell me, Y/N.â
You whimper, hand curling into the sheets. âIâI canât. Youâll hear.â
âI know, I know, youâre trying so hard to be quiet for me,â he mumbles, so soft and understanding even as he drives into you. âBut Iâm going to need to hear you, okay? Need to hear how much you want this.âÂ
Your fingers move faster, matching the pace in your head. Your breathing is ragged now, little moans falling from your lips that you canât hold back. You donât care if he hears, and maybe if youâre slightly truthful, you hope he does. âOh god, Satoru, it feels so good!â
In the fantasy, heâs close again. You can feel it in the way his thrusts lose rhythm, in the way his grip tightens on your hip.
âIâm gonna cum inside you,â he growls, and itâs a question and a statement all at once. âYou want that? Want to feel my cum dripping down your thigh?â
âYes,â you whisper out loud, into your empty room.
He buries himself deep, and the fantasy explodes in a rush of heat and words: âFuckfuckfuckâtake itâtake my cum, you dirty little thingâgonna fill you up so fullââ
You climax with a gasp, your back arching off the mattress, your fingers pressing hard against your clit as waves of pleasure roll through you. You hear yourself moan, a high, broken sound, and you donât care.
The sounds from his side of the wall change.
Thereâs a final, shuddering groan and the squeak of a hand against tile. And then silence, broken only by the rush of water from a showerhead.
You lie there, panting, hand still between your legs, your skin flushed and damp. You can almost smell the steam, almost feel the ghost of his fantasy-body pressed against yours.
The shower turns off and you climb out of bed, running away to the living room.Â
Youâre not a freak. You canât be.Â
Youâre a kind, virtuous person who knows no sin, who is gracious and angelic and trustworthy and not someone who listens in on her neighbour jerking it in his shower. Thatâs simply not who you are and not something youâd ever do.Â
Despite this obvious fact, your brain tells you otherwise. And when you are at war with yourself, what else is there to do but consult your friends?
You find Shoko outside the campus cafe, sitting at one of the metal tables with an iced coffee and her laptop open, clacking away with a frown. The chair opposite her is empty though not welcomingly. Itâs buried under her tote bag, a packet of cigarettes jutting out that would have her girlfriend at her throat if she saw.Â
You walk over, tuck the box further into her bag and under her jumper, before putting her bag on the ground. âYouâre smoking again?âÂ
âHi,â Shoko says, looking up briefly before slumping down over her laptop. âJust to get the edge off. Midterms are coming around and Iâm already feeling the effects.â
You nod, stealing her drink and taking a long sip. She looks at you again, squinting.Â
âYou donât look as bad as I thought you would.âÂ
âWhat does that mean?âÂ
âIsnât that film of yours due next Friday? Whereâs the panic and stress? Also, thatâs my coffee you whore.âÂ
You take one last long sip and slide it back over. âI have bigger fish to fry. But shit, Shoko, you look completely under it already. We can call off girlsâ talk for another day, I promise itâs not that serious.â
âNot that serious?â Shoko scoffs, hitting enter before closing her laptop. âYou triple-texted last night at 3 a.m. not making any sense at all. What happened? Did Naoya text you again? You didnât unblock him, did you?âÂ
âWhat? No! ItâsâŚâ you groan, covering your face. âItâs worse. Itâs so much worse. I think Iâm at the edge of the abyss staring down. Like whatever I do here on out will either make or break me.â
âOkay,â she replies slowly, clearly not expecting your response. âAnd who is this about exactly?âÂ
You wonder if you can tell her the truth. Hey Shoko, you might decide to start with, Iâve been crushing on the voice of my neighbour for the last month who I just found out is Satoru, you know your friend? Also, Iâve been listening to him jerk it for a while now and I have an inkling that he knows.
Instead of any of this, you whisper, âSatoru.âÂ
She flinches as if youâve slapped her. âWhat?â
Your finger comes up to point before you stop yourself, realising it was impolite to point, but your gaze is far too telling. She hesitates, taking in your horrified expression before looking over her shoulder to find Gojo stepping into sight, head turning about as if searching for something.Â
You almost delude yourself into thinking that when his gaze stops at your table, his eyes light up because heâs looking at you. You almost delude yourself into thinking that heâs making his way to your table. You almost delude yourself into thinking the smile he wears is for you.Â
Only one of these things is true because the moment you see him, youâve pulled your hoodie up until itâs almost flopping back over your eyes, leaning back and tucking your chin in.
Gojo saunters up to your table and stops just beside Shoko. Your friend groans, dropping her head into her hands.Â
âHeâs right behind me, isnât he?âÂ
Not wanting to speak, you only shrug uselessly. Gojo doesnât even spare you a glance, whining as he tugs on her sleeve to grab her attention.Â
âCome on, Shoko, Iâve been trying to text you for hours now. Ignoring me isnât going to make me disappear, you know.âÂ
âI know now,â she mumbles before yanking her arm away from his touch. âOkay, out with it, Gojo. I refuse to be seen in public with you so letâs get this over with.âÂ
âI need your help with something.â When Shoko only stares, unimpressed and not surprised, he presses on. âItâll be quick, I swear! And it isnât about the pre lab questions this time, I promise. Iâm cashing in that one favour you owe me from last year.âÂ
âWhat favour?â
âMe hosting a party that got you and Utahime together.â
Shoko shoots him a withering look. âThat wasnât a favour, we just happened to meet at your party. You didnât even know her back then.â
Gojo grins, and for a moment, you get lost in it. It would be so easy to tell him now and have that smile directed at you with recognition instead of casual politeness. You donât think heâs doing it on purpose, but you feel yourself getting smaller as he keeps talking to Shoko and only Shoko, sitting there silently as if being quiet and sipping at Shokoâs coffee might excuse your lack of presence.Â
Shoko rolls her eyes, turning to look at you. âSorry, Y/N. Weâll talk after Iâm done dealing with this kid.â
You wave her off stiffly and she narrows her eyes at you, sensing something off when you donât say anything. Gojo seems to notice you then, looking over at you briefly. He tilts his head at you before Shokoâs voice pulls him back.Â
âSo? What do you want?â
âI need help finding someone.âÂ
You choke on your drink, hastily wiping at your chin when they both turn to look at you, a range of concern across both their faces. You wave them off dismissively, making small sounds to clear your throat as they continue.Â
âFor revenge orâŚ?â
He hums, seriously considering her quip. âMaybe the opposite?âÂ
She narrows her eyes at that. âI donât know everyone on campus. How are you so confident you can come to me for this?âÂ
âBecause youâre doing the same degree as her and youâre a girl and so is the person Iâm trying to find.â
There's still liquid in your throat and itâs getting harder for Gojo to pretend like his friendâs friend isnât slowly dying from across the table. He lifts his eyes to study you, taking in the way youâre clearing your throat, struggling to keep quiet, and he sighs.Â
âHey, breathe through your nose.âÂ
You finally look up at him, the hood obscuring most of your vision though you still try to shoot him a look as if to say, oh no, really? and he smirks at that.
âI'm serious, just breathe for a second. Through your nose, come on. Itâll get rid of that coughing fit.âÂ
You close your mouth with effort and take a deep, shaky breath in. It goes in smoothly though the urge to cough still persists and you have to concentrate to not relapse.Â
Gojo pushes your iced coffee closer to you, wiping his wet hand on Shokoâs sleeve after despite her protest. You take it gratefully, taking in a few sips before clearing your throat.Â
Realising you couldnât get out of this without speaking at least once, you lower your voice as much as you can and mumble, âThanks.â
Gojo hums, accepting it easily, but his eyes linger on you for half a second too long before he turns back to Shoko. âShe's someone in your course doing cardiovascular physiology. She has a lab on Tuesday and morning tutorials on Friday."Â
You donât miss the way Shoko has been staring bullets into you though her eyes flicker over to Gojo every once in a while. âA lab on Tuesday, you say.â And thereâs something in her tone that has you looking up frantically.Â
Gojo doesnât seem to notice, nodding instead. âShe usually comes back late, at around 5:20? Which means her classes end around 5 p.m.â
â5 p.m,â she repeats, her eyes never straying.Â
You try to shake your head as subtly as possible.Â
âShe has the prettiest voice youâve ever heard and the softest laugh when she finds something amusing. But then when she finds something funny, like really funny, her laugh is super loud and bright and itâs honestly cool the way she doesnât seem to care.â
You kick Shokoâs foot under the table and she barely winces, realisation or something similar dawning on her.Â
âI donât need to know any of that, that wonât help.â Her lips quirk upwards slightly. âAnd why are we looking for this girl, Gojo?âÂ
He pouts at her words. âIâm looking for my neighbour.â
Shoko makes a gesture as if to ask if heâs serious. âJust go knock on her door? You literally know where she lives. Thatâs probably more than I could ever tell you.âÂ
âYou donât get it,â he says, tutting, wagging his fingers even. âWe have this thing going on and I donât want to ruin her trust by camping outside her door, for example. So instead, Iâll just conveniently come across her on campus because somehow our timetables seem to line up.â
 Shoko stares at him blankly. âSo stalking.â
âDonât be so crude, Shoko. Itâs not stalking if Iâm being emotionally considerate about it.â He leans forward slightly, hands on the table, and for a moment his voice loses some of its usual shine. âI donât want to scare her off, okay? I know where she lives, but that feels like cheating. If you know her, ask her first. Ask if sheâs okay with me knowing, or if she wants me to stay clueless and suffer with dignity.âÂ
Shokoâs expression barely changes. âYou donât do anything with dignity.âÂ
âI could start for her,â he says, then seems to realise what heâs admitted because he looks away with a small, helpless laugh. âLook, I know it sounds stupid, but I like talking to her. I like not knowing too much. I like that she can hang up on me by walking away from the wall whenever she wants. If I just knock on her door, then Iâve taken that choice from her.âÂ
For once, Shoko doesnât interrupt.Â
Gojo rubs at the back of his neck, grin returning but weaker this time, more embarrassed than smug. âBut also, Iâm going a little crazy. Call me pathetic, but sometimes she says something and I forget what my own point was. Sheâs mean in this really specific way, and funny, and then every now and then sheâll be nice like she didnât mean to, and it fully ruins me. So yeah, I want to know who she is. I just donât want to find out in a way that makes her regret talking to me.âÂ
You kick her foot again.Â
âAnd what happens if you do find her?â she asks, rubbing the toe of her shoe against the floor like you have injured her beyond repair. âYouâre going to walk up and say, hi, Iâve been listening to you through the wall for weeks and I reverse-engineered your timetable?â
Gojo makes a face. âNo, obviously not. I have charm. Iâll make her fall for me first.â
You stand with a start, slamming your hands on the table, knocking your empty cup over. You hastily pick it up, shooting Shoko as many SOS signals as itâll take for her to follow your lead. She lets out a slight laugh, especially after seeing Gojoâs bewildered face, and stands, albeit slowly.Â
âI think I have an idea of who youâre looking for.â
âYou do?â Gojo says, eyes wide and smile hopeful.Â
âI have a feeling.â Her eyes leave yours after a pause, moving to shove her laptop into her bag. âBut Iâm going to need to confirm it before I tell you. Wouldnât want to drag an innocent into your life.âÂ
He nods quickly and you mournfully think that he looks like a puppy. You didnât need that imagery, especially not right now. You tune out the rest of their conversation though it mainly consisted of Gojo demanding more details and Shoko shooting him down firmly. When you have your tote over your shoulder, Shoko tilts her head towards the door.Â
You all but run out. Vaguely, you hear Gojo ask, âWhatâs up with her?â
âBoy problems,â Shoko says before she catches up to you and the two of you walk out.Â
âWhere are we going?âÂ
You look over your shoulder, heart only settling when you donât catch any glimpse of white hair. âAway.â
âOh, so now you feel like talking.â
âPlease, Shoko. Please.â
She laughs, loose and unrestrained. âWant to tell me what that was all about? Gojo looking for some Cinderella and you looking like youâre about to choke to death?â
You spin around, hands coming up to hold her still by the shoulders. âWhatever youâre thinking, itâs exactly that. Shoko, stop looking at me like that, Iâm going to freak out.âÂ
âOkay, okay.â Her hands come up to wrap loosely around your wrists, not pushing you off, just holding you there. âTake a breath. He doesnât know.âÂ
âHe almost knows.â
âIâm pretty sure he only suspects something,â she corrects. âThose are two very different things. And if you really donât want him to know then Iâll tell him that. He might seem a little clueless in areas such as personal space, but heâs not a complete jerk. Heâll respect that.â
You let go of her shoulders slowly, though your hands stay half-raised between you like you might need to grab her again if she starts looking too entertained. âHe was describing me.â
âHe was describing his neighbour,â Shoko says, softer now. âYou are only panicking because you know thatâs you.â
âThat does not make me feel better.â
âIt should a little.â She tilts her head, cigarette-less and serious in a way you rarely get from her before noon. âLook, if he wanted to corner you, he couldâve knocked on your door. He literally knows where you live. But he didnât. He came to me because, in his own stupid Gojo way, heâs trying not to scare you.â
âThatâs the complete issue,â you sigh, folding your arms tighter across your chest. âThe issue is that heâs Gojo, the exact kind of guy I said I was done with. I know what these kinds of guys are like, hell, I dated the textbook example of one.â
Shokoâs expression softens and in the silence, something bubbles up.Â
â4B wasnât that,â you say, voice smaller than you mean for it to be. â4B was just mine.âÂ
The second it leaves your mouth, your face warms. Mercifully, Shoko doesnât pounce on it and instead nods slowly, looking away from you.Â
âI get that,â she says and when you glance at her, she repeats herself. âI do, youâre not crazy. But Gojo being in a frat doesnât automatically make him Naoya variant 2.0.â
âI know that,â you grumble.Â
âDo you?â Shoko bumps her shoulder against yours. âYou donât have to trust him just because heâs 4B. You also donât have to punish him just because he looks like the kind of guy who would have ruined your life last semester.âÂ
âSo what am I supposed to do?â you ask.Â
âFor now? Nothing. You donât have to suddenly jump out and introduce yourself, but you also donât have to shut up and ghost him forever. See for yourself what kind of guy Gojo really is now that you know both sides to him.â
Sometimes, Shokoâs rationality surprises you and you find yourself nodding along to her words, a small, dawning hope struggling out of its shell inside your heart. Just as youâre about to thank her profusely for her wise words, she opens her mouth and says, âYou should come to Utahimeâs this weekend.âÂ
âUh.â You blink. âWhat?â
âItâs a small party, like actually small,â she says before you can look horrified. âNot a frat thing. Itâll just be a few of Utahimeâs close friends, some drinks and food, you know. I havenât seen you come out of your apartment for an entire week, Y/N, itâs setting off alarm bells. Youâre hot. Funny. Maybe youâll meet someone there that doesnât remind you of Gojo or Naoya.âÂ
âOh my God,â you say slowly, disgusted. âWhy are those two people my only options right now? Youâre right, I need to go out.âÂ
âIâm sure you didnât mean it,â Shoko says with sympathy before groaning. âCan I say âI told you soâ yet or are you still spiralling? Because I told you so, I told you to stay away from Gojo but lookie here, whoâs scouring the campus for even a whiff of you?âÂ
You glare at her. âNot helping, Shoko.âÂ
Shoko bumps her shoulder against yours. âYou can tell him when youâre ready. Or let him figure it out slowly if you want to be annoying about it.â
You shove her shoulder back in return, and she laughs, and for a few steps, it almost feels like a normal afternoon. Like you are just two girls walking across campus, talking about weekend plans, not one girl trying to outrun the consequences of accidentally falling for her neighbour through a wall.Â
Then Shoko tilts her head toward the bus stop. âSo. Do you want to go back to your apartment or not?âÂ
You think of the wall, of 4BâsâGojoâsâvoice slipping through it, probably asking why you were so quiet this morning, probably making some stupid comment about your sleep schedule, probably having no idea that your whole life has just rearranged itself around his face.Â
You sigh.Â
âUnfortuntely,â you say. âI live there.â
Gojo wonders if he has an addictive personality.Â
Or maybe itâs just you.Â
But when itâs just him alone in his mind, hands running through his hair to try and catch every last runaway thought about you, he allows himself the truth. Itâs probably just you.Â
And the kicker is that he was only 90% certain you even existed. Suguru was the one who planted the idea in his head, that the physics had finally fucked him over and he was hallucinating the voice of a sweet, snarky girl, If he hadnât collected your sticky notes over the last few months, that statistic might have even fallen to a good 38% and even then he wouldnât be too sure if it was the twisted humour of his friends or if he genuinely had his own Wattpad neighbours-to-lovers arc.Â
He sighs and leans back into his chair, feeling it give way under the motion with a creak. He wonders, as he so often does these days, if you heard it. His body stills and he waits for an indication that you might be home, a soft chuckle, an exasperated sigh, or his favourite, that soft way you say his name (read: unit number).Â
When it doesnât come, he slumps.Â
Fuck, he was so far gone.Â
Itâs not like this is new to him, the wanting. Gojo wants things all the time. He wants the last pudding cup from the convenience store, wants Suguru to stop pretending heâs above gossip when heâs the nosiest person alive, wants Shoko to stop stealing his lighters despite the fact that he doesnât smoke because he needs them to light up his birthday candles. He wants good grades with minimal effort and attention when he enters a room and for his hair to sit right without having to do anything about it.Â
He also wants you.Â
Gojoâs phone buzzes against his desk and he only looks at it because heâs desperate from his own thoughts. Though he immediately regrets this when Utahimeâs name lights up on his screen.Â
utahime: party this weekend
show up or dontÂ
idc
He snorts.Â
gojo: woww dont get too excited inviting me im basically suffocating in ur enthusiasmÂ
its chill though if u dont want me there
i wont go ive got plans anywayÂ
Another notification drops down after he hits send.Â
shoko: do NOT come to utahimeâs this weekendÂ
that was a mistakeÂ
DO NOT COMEÂ
Gojo freezes, eyes blinking at the message. He taps it, opening up his chat history with her that consists of many, many time stamps and read receipts, and very slowly, something that critical thinking sparks behind his blue eyes.Â
Do not come, said so blunt and immediate and so suspiciously timed right after Utahimeâs invitation as if Shoko had decided his presence would cause a problem.Â
A problem for who?Â
Gojoâs mouth parts. Then, slowly, his grin spreads. His thumb quickly swipes out to re enter the chat with Utahime and glides across the keyboard.Â
gojo: actually ykwÂ
wouldnât miss it for the world <3
utahime: wait im uninviting uÂ
gojo?Â
i said u cant come
dont leave me on read you dickÂ
Gojo laughs, turning off his phone.Â
He turns his head toward the wall, still grinning like an idiot, thriving off the single crumb heâs been graciously fed after days of searching for you.Â
âYou going to Utahimeâs this weekend, 4A?â he asks softly, knowing you are not there to answer.
The wall says nothing but Gojoâs grin doesnât fade.
âThatâs okay,â he murmurs, phone warm in his hand. âIâll find out.â
There are two possible explanations for your current situation. Either Shoko is a liar (completely and utterly plausible) or her girlfriend has around 50 close friends. You donât put it past Utahime either but at least Utahime did you a favour and made sure not to invite anyone from TDP so you settle for shooting Shoko a withering glare.
Music thrums through the floorboards, bass rattling the soles of your shoes as you tap your feet subconsciously against the beat. Itâs loud, too loud for talking unless you enjoy shouting directly into someoneâs ear, though no one seems to mind. Certainly not Shoko as she leans close to Utahime, mouth brushing against her ear, eyes half lidded as she practically has her on her lap.
You roll your eyes, feeling slightly sour.
Shoko notices your bitter look and acknowledges it with a slight chuckle, taking your cup of orange juice and switching it with hers. âLoosen up!â She yells over the music.
Without many other options, you take the drink and cup your hand around your ear as if you canât hear her, just to piss her off.
Utahime snickers when your friend swats you away, her hand comfortably wrapped around Shokoâs. The sight of a happy couple sickens you and when Shoko yells for you to âgo find someone to make out with!â you do decide to stand up and leave, though not because of her words, obviously.Â
Youâre just getting air, maybe a refill. And maybe putting at least one wall between yourself and Shokoâs terrible, smug, in-love face.Â
The rest of the apartment is no better. Utahimeâs place is bigger than yours, of course, because some people get exposed brick and large windows while others get mysterious ceiling stains and a neighbour loud enough to seep into your own personal life.Â
Bodies crowd every available inch of space. Someone is sitting on the arm of the couch with a drink in one hand and someone else sprawled across their lap, fingers pushed into their hair. A group by the kitchen is screaming the lyrics to the song currently playing and thereâs two girls taking photos in the hallway mirror, swaying together, cheek to cheek.Â
Youâre halfway through to the kitchen when you see him. For a second, your brain doesnât even attach a name to the sight. It only registers white hair, too tall, black shirt, one hand loose around a red cup as he leans against the wall near the hallway.Â
Then your stomach drops.Â
Gojo.Â
The thought arrives with immediate, unreasonable betrayal.Â
What the fuck? Didnât Utahime promise you she wouldnât invite any frat guys?Â
Not that you care. You absolutely do not. Gojo Satoru could attend every party in the city and you would remain unaffected, obviously. It is just the principle of the thing. You had been promised a Gojo-free environment, and there he is, laughing at something one of the girls around him says, head tilted down so he can hear her better over the music.
There are three that you see, maybe four. Itâs hard to count when they keep shifting, hair shining under the cheap coloured lights, shoulders angled toward him like flowers reaching for the sun.Â
It would be easier to be angry, to roll your eyes and hate him in the clean, uncomplicated way you usually do. Instead, something dull and familiar settles under your ribs.Â
You turn away before he can look your way.Â
The drink in your hand is half-empty and you make it fully empty in one long swallow, grimacing only after it burns the way down and cursing Shokoâs name in your head. Someone near the kitchen cheers for no reason and you suddenly decide that if the universe wants to be annoying, if that stupid Etsy witch wants to fuck with you that bad, you might as well ruin yourself first.Â
By the time Shoko finds you again, you have acquired another drink. And then another, and then even more. She squints at you with the vague concern of someone who knows your limits better than you do but youâre already being dragged toward the cleared space in the living room by one of Utahimeâs pretty friends, and the music there is cathartic.Â
So you stop thinking. For the first time all night, you let yourself move without checking who is watching. Your drink is gone, your cheeks are warm, and the room is soft and bright, all coloured light and laughing mouths and hands in the air. There is no assignment, no terrible apartment, no faceless neighbour slipping into your life through the poor insulation, no Gojo leaning against a wall with half the party orbiting him. The houseparty is bumping, the ladies look good, the alcohol is flowing. There is much pain in the world, but not in this room.Â
Then an arm slides around your waist. Itâs muscled, warm, steady in the way it wraps around you, the scent of something masculine and fresh entering your peripherals.Â
For one stupid, glittering second, you let yourself hope. Itâs only the alcohol, probably. The music, even, the heat of the room or the betrayal of coloured lights making everyone look better than they are.Â
But the arm is firm around you, and the body behind you is tall, and when he leans in, his breath skims close to your ear.Â
Maybe.Â
The thought is so sweet it makes you dizzy and you almost lean into the hope.Â
âHaving fun?âÂ
Your stomach drops so fast the whole room seems to go with it. You turn, and Naoyaâs ugly face is looking down at you. What the fuck is he doing here? Oh, you are so having a word with Utahime about this.Â
And okay, Naoya isnât actually ugly, not in a way that has anything to do with his features. Whatâs really ugly is his expression, the entitlement in his smile and the slow drag of his eyes over you like heâs appraising something he believes is his.Â
His mouth curls and all at once, the music goes thin and static-y.Â
You shove him away and stumble a few steps at your own strength. âDonât touch me.âÂ
Naoya lets his hand fall, but not before making a show of it, palms lifting like you are the unreasonable one. âRelax. I was just saying hi.âÂ
âOkay, well youâve said your hi. Now leave.âÂ
He laughs, eyes dropping to your mouth, then back up again. âYouâre still so dramatic. I forgot how much effort it takes to talk to you when youâre like this.âÂ
You step back, but the floor tilts slightly beneath you. Fuck, too much alcohol, too much heat. Thereâs too many bodies pressing around the living room, none of them paying enough attention as you try to place distance between you and your ex. Your shoulder knocks against someone behind you and you mumble a sorry without taking your eyes off Naoya.Â
He notices the stumble and his grin sharpens. âYouâre drunk. Havenât learnt how to control yourself in this kind of places yet, have you? Itâs cute.âÂ
He leans closer, voice lowering as if the two of you are sharing something intimate. âDid you dress up for someone tonight?âÂ
Your face twists. âAs if itâs any of your fucking business anymore, Zenin.âÂ
âNo, Iâm serious.â HIs eyes flick over you again, slower this time, and your skin crawls. âDonât tell me youâre still pissed about being blacklisted. Sometimes things happen to teach you a lesson, you know? Looks like youâve learnt to finally put more effort into what youâre wearing again. You should be thanking me.â
âI am not doing this with you.â You try to sound confident but you both hear the pathetic slur to your words.Â
âYouâre not doing much of anything,â he says. âYouâre just dancing around hoping some desperate fucker takes pity on you and notices.âÂ
âFuck off, Naoya.â
His expression hardens, that little thread of irritation pulling tight because you did not blush, did not smile, did not give him even a crumb of the reaction he came looking for. âYou know, this is exactly why people get so tired of you. You make everything so fucking difficult. Iâm trying to be nice, and youâre acting like I cornered you in a damn alleyway.âÂ
âYou put your hands on me!âÂ
âAn arm, Y/N. I put my arm around you,â he corrects, like youâre the one being embarrassing. âDonât make it sound so ugly.âÂ
âWell, it felt ugly.âÂ
For a moment, you think he might finally drop the act. But then his mouth curves again, albeit thinner and meaner at the edges.Â
âCome on,â he says, taking a step closer and the crowd seems to bunch in to prevent you from leaving. âDonât be like that. We know each other, donât we? You donât have to do the whole untouchable thing with me.âÂ
The alcohol is making everything lag a second behind. The music, the lights, the heat under your skin now sickening, the disgust rising sharp and sour in your throat. You know what heâs doing, you know it so clearly it almost sobers you. That glint in his eyes as he shamelessly trails his gaze down your face and between your tits, the way his hand is already lifting to grope you, how his voice has softened to be more convincing.Â
You take another step back.Â
âI said leave.âÂ
Naoya laughs. âYouâre seriously going to act like you werenât leaning back into me a second ago?â
âI thought you were someone else.â The words are out before you can catch them and shove them back down.Â
His expression drops in a way thatâs almost satisfying, if not for the fact that it twists into something worryingly familiar seconds later. You hate that your stomach sinks. You hate that, even now, some stupid trained part of you expects the punishment that comes after disappointing him.Â
Naoya leans in again, close enough that you can smell the alcohol on his breath under whatever expensive cologne he sprayed on himself. âSo what was the plan? Get drunk enough that you could pretend it was an accident when you went home with someone?âÂ
Your fingers curl into a fist by your sides. âYou donât get to talk to me like that.â
âLike what?â he asks, eyes wide with fake innocence. âIâm just saying, youâre the one dancing around like you want attention looking like that. You canât get mad when someone gives it to you.â
âMove,â you hiss.Â
He doesnât. Instead, he says, âYou always do shit like this. You act so above everything itâs a surprise you havenât been humbled yet. Is that going to have to be my job now too?âÂ
âYou donât know anything about me anymore.âÂ
âDonât get such a big head,â he sneers. âYouâre still so easy to read. Still so fucking pathetic. Still need to feel someoneâs attention on you, need to feel wanted, just so damn needy all the time.â
Your hand comes up so fast that you know the weight in which itâll strike across Naoyaâs face will give you the nicest, most satisfying crack.Â
But before you can bring it down against his stupid fucking face, someone grabs your wrist and gently redirects it. It takes you a moment to register what just happened. Someone had cut cleanly into the space Naoya had taken from you, still holding your wrist behind his back, and you blink at the grey shirt until you look up and see white hair.Â
âIs there a problem?â Gojoâs voice is light enough that, for a strange second, it almost sounds like heâs walked into the wrong conversation.Â
Something imperceptible flashes across Naoyaâs face, something easily missed if you didnât know his every tell.Â
âNot your business, Gojo.âÂ
âOh,â Gojo says, âdonât be like that. It looked fun over here. What were you guys talking about?âÂ
You donât care for this passive aggressive approach of his. You yank at your arm. âI was about to slap him.â
Gojo glances back at you.Â
Youâre too drunk and too angry and too humiliated to care that his face is suddenly closer than expected, all pale hair and blue eyes and a mouth pressed into a thin line. You tug again, uselessly.Â
âIâm serious,â you insist. âLet me slap him.âÂ
Naoya scoffs and takes a step back like he has other things on his agenda than to be publicly embarrassed. âThis is insane. Youâre both insane. Whatever, Iâm done here anyway, what a fucking turn off.â
He turns to walk away, one hand running through his piss-coloured hair.Â
Gojoâs other hand snaps out so fast you barely catch the motion. One second, Naoya is tilted to walk forward and the next, Gojo has his wrist caught in one hand, fingers locked around him with an ease that makes Naoyaâs whole body jerk to a stop.Â
Naoya suddenly hisses. Thereâs a thin red line where one of Gojoâs rings has bitten too hard into the skin. Despite this, Gojo does not give him the time of day. Instead, he looks at you.Â
âHm,â he says, tone casual, as if you have asked him whether he wants another drink. âI hear you, band shirt, but thereâs an issue. If you slap him, you might get into trouble.âÂ
âI donât care.âÂ
âHeâs the president ofââ
You squeeze his arm holding yours. âI donât care. Heâs never been slapped before in his life and itâs obvious. He needs to be slapped, Satoru, he deserves this.âÂ
Gojo pauses. Then, very seriously, he starts to nod slowly, âI suppose that does make a lot of sense.â
Naoya jerks against his grip. âAre you fucking kidding me?â
Gojoâs hand only tightens, short nails digging into the skin, though he still doesnât look away from you, not even when you whip your gaze over to your ex, wishing that looks could indeed kill.Â
How did you ever date a guy like him? You stare at Naoya, at his ugly, furious, blotchy-red face, at the way he keeps looking around like there should be someone here to save him from the consequences of his own mouth. He keeps tugging and pulling but Gojo effortlessly keeps him there.Â
âBut it looks like you just got your nails done,â Gojo ponders. âAnd you could hurt yourself.âÂ
âIt has to be me, Satoru.â
Gojoâs eyes soften at that and he finally smiles, voice going lower. âI know.âÂ
Then he shifts, letting go of your wrist. For a second, you think heâs going to tell you not to do it after all, that he is going to be sensible in ways that severely go against his reputation. Instead, he lifts his free hand between you, palm up.Â
âOkay,â he says. âThen donât hurt yourself doing it.âÂ
You blink. âWhat?âÂ
âIf youâre going to do it, then do it properly,â he says, still speaking to you like Naoya is not standing there trying to pull free. âNo weird wrist thing, And donât throw your whole body into it just to put more force behind it. Itâll just make you fall over because youâre a little drunk and unsteady. Youâve gotta plant your feet.âÂ
Naoya laughs, no humour behind it. âGojo, are you serious?âÂ
Gojo ignores him. âAlso,â he adds, glancing at his own hand, ânow that I think about it, rings might help.â
He holds your gaze for a little longer before offering you a kind smile and lowering his hand to you, fingers pointing towards you.Â
âAre you sure?â you ask, gaze flickering up to his face then to his rings. âThey might get bloody.â
âItâs okay, just take your pick. I can always clean them. This chance might not come again for you,â he tells you in a similarly soft tone.Â
You reach out and take the one from his pinky finger because any other ring might be a size too big, and slide it onto your middle finger.Â
Naoyaâs face pales.Â
âDonât be fucking stupid,â he snaps, trying again to wrench his wrist free. âYouâre going to let her hit me?âÂ
Gojo finally looks at him. The smile he gives Naoya is bright enough to be mistaken for friendly. âHey, man, itâs none of my business.âÂ
The ring is still a little too loose, the metal heavy and cold against your skin, and your hand trembles once before you curl it into a fist and open it again.Â
Gojo notices and his attention is back on you. His voice drops just enough for only you to catch it again. âYou sure?âÂ
You look at him, then past him, at Naoyaâs pale, furious face. âYes.âÂ
Gojo studies you for half a second longer, something soft passing through his expression before it disappears beneath a bright, almost cheerful smile.Â
âOkay!â he says. âThen first, plant those feet and let your shoulders relax a little. If you hit him like that, itâll go through your wrist, and then youâll be mad tomorrow because he got your hand and your mood.âÂ
You nod and adjust.Â
Naoya jerks in grip. âNo, waitââ
Gojo doesnât look at him. âYou donât need a big wind-up. Itâll be painful even if you donât hit hard so no pressure.âÂ
âHey,â Naoya snaps, voice pitching higher. âSomeone get him off me.âÂ
âBut I want to hurt him,â you say to Gojo.Â
âYou will,â Gojo says, very simply. âBut you donât have to hurt yourself to do it. Youâre doing this for you, remember? To get it off your chest.âÂ
Naoya tries to laugh. It comes out wrong. âCome on, man. I said Iâm sorry. Tell her to stop being dramatic.âÂ
Gojo tilts his head at you, as if listening to a distant appliance hum. âDo you hear something?â
You stare at him, cocking your head in a mirror of his own gesture. âThe music?â
âNo.â He waves his question away. âSomething annoying. Anyway. Hand open, shoulders down and feet on the ground. Youâve got this.âÂ
You do as he says and then turn to look at Naoya.Â
For months, he had made you feel like every reaction you had was too much, too loud or too needy, too embarrassing, too difficult to love. He had taught you how to swallow anger until it sat heavy in your stomach and called that maturity. He had always walked away with his shoulders up because you were always the one trying not to make a scene.Â
And now, youâre finally going to leave a mark on him.Â
You slap him.Â
The sound cracks across the room, sharp enough to split cleanly through the music. Naoyaâs head snaps to the side at the force of it, mouth open, but finally, finally, nothing leaves it.Â
Your palm burns immediately, a bright sting rushing up your arm and the ring presses back into your finger, cold against the heat of your skin. It hurts a little. But it hurts so good.Â
Gojo lets go of Naoya at once. Your ex stumbles back, one hand flying to his cheek, eyes wide with shock. âYou fuckingââ
âHoly shit!â Gojo says loudly. âIs that Naoya from TDP? Dude, what are you doing here, do you even know Utahime?â
Naoyaâs face drops slightly in confusion. âWhat?âÂ
Gojoâs voice carries easily over the music now. âNo, seriously. Arenât you the guy that one post was made about in the group chat? I wouldnât have come to a party when you havenât even said anything about the allegations.âÂ
The crowd surrounding you instantly starts murmuring amongst themselves, shooting Naoya dirty looks.Â
Naoya grits his teeth, anger flooding his face all over again. âI didnâtââ
âItâs weird, I really donât think Utahime would have invited you.â
âI was invited.â
âBy who?â
Naoya opens his mouth but nothing comes out fast enough.
A girl by the couch scoffs. âUtahime would never invite him.â
âYeah, didnât she literally say not to let him in?â
âHow did he get inside?â
Someone near you nods along to his words, and a girl wraps her arms around you, running her hand up and down your side. It could have so easily gone wrong, Naoya yelling something about being hurt and suddenly you became the problem. The drunk girl, the angry ex seeking vengeance. The one who slapped someone in the middle of the party.Â
But now everyone is looking at him. And Naoya seems to realise this too because his eyes dart around the room, searching for sympathy and finding none.Â
âCreep,â someone mutters.
âGet him out,â another voice says.
Naoya points toward Gojo, furious and scared in a way you have never seen before. âHeâs lying. Sheâs drunk and sheâs always beenââÂ
âUgh, spare me, I know you were creeping around me too!âÂ
Gojo doesnât stick around for the aftermath and you donât either, his hand closing around your other hand to gently tug you through the growing crowd, his broad back guiding the way.Â
Itâs nice, you realise, which is a stupid thing to immediately think of next after slapping your ex-boyfriend in the middle of a party. Still, it is.Â
The way he moves through the room without dragging you behind him, the way people part for him easily, but he keeps glancing back anyway, like heâs making sure youâre still there and not swallowed by the music and body and the roaring awareness of what youâve just done. His hand is warm around yours, loose enough that you could pull away if you wanted to, firm enough that you donât have to think too hard about where youâre going.Â
You let yourself follow. Past the kitchen, past the hallway mirror, past two girls whispering near the wall, both of them looking over your shoulder toward where Naoya had disappeared, their expression twisted with disgust.Â
The noise dulls a little near the back of the house. The music still reaches here, bass-heavy and insistent, but the air feels cooler, less packed with breath and perfume. Just before the back door, Gojo stops.Â
You nearly bump into him and he chuckles, turning around.
âCareful.â He looks you up and down not unpleasantly. âHowâs the hand?âÂ
âItâs fine,â you say automatically. Then you pause, looking down.Â
His ring is still sitting crooked on your middle finger, too loose and faintly warm now from your skin. Your palm is red and your fingers tingle but the slap keeps replaying in your head in satisfying flashes: the crack of it, Naoyaâs face turning, and any regret you might have felt dissipates.Â
âOkay, it might sting a little.âÂ
Gojoâs expression softens. âLet me see it.âÂ
You lift your other hand not in his, and he reaches out to take it, a sharp thrill running up your arm when he makes contact. He turns your hand over carefully, fingers light and ticklish against your palm as he inspects it. For a moment, you wonder about this gentleness that he shows you, how sharply it contrasts with the way he had held Naoya hard enough to draw blood.
His fingers move over your palm with careful attention, thumb brushing beneath the base of your fingers, moving down to the sensitive skin of your wrist and making you shiver. The hallway is too warm and too cold at once, music pulsing behind you in dull waves, but all you can really feel is the shape of his hand around yours and the ridiculous, traitorous flutter under your ribs.Â
âYouâll live,â he says eventually, fingers splaying over your wrist and forearm before dropping. âAnd youâre staring.âÂ
You blink when you process that heâs looking right into your eyes, his lips quirked into a small smile as he watches you.Â
âThanks for helping me slap my ex.âÂ
He shrugs. âItâs no problem, band shirt. I think my ring did the bulk of everything.âÂ
You look down at your hand and notice that heâs right. The silver sits crooked on your finger, too loose and too pretty, catching the hallway light like it has any right to look innocent after drawing blood across Naoyaâs cheek. Thank you, pretty silver ring, for your service. May your efforts haunt him for at least a few business days.
Gojo lowers his hand under yours again and for a second, you think that heâs going to ask for it back. Instead, he lifts your hand slowly such that you have the chance to pull away. His eyes stay on yours until the last moment, before he lowers his mouth and presses a soft kiss to the ring.Â
Technically, itâs his ring and not your hand he kissed. Still, the warmth of his breath brushes your skin, and something bright and winged breaks loose in your stomach. Your fingers twitch once in his hold as your breath catches. His lashes lower into the kiss, before he opens his eyes again and looks up at you through them.Â
He smiles at you cheekily. Â
âCanât run away from me now, can you?â he asks, lowering your hand just enough to comfortably interlace his own fingers with yours. âI never did give you my name that one time before but itâs Gojo Satoru, though it looks like you already know. Come sit with me.âÂ
âMeâ ends up being him, and also his friends. Which is not as awkward as you thought it would be, mostly because the second Gojo opens the back door, Utahime and Shoko both sit up from where theyâve been lounging together on an outdoor chair like two cats disturbed mid-nap. Their fingers point at you at the exact same time.Â
âYou!â
âWith him?âÂ
âHi guys.â You drop your hand from his under the piercing gaze of your friends. âHowâs the party?â
Gojo doesnât say anything, only stepping around you with that easy, unbothered smile of his, and joining a conversation with some guys standing around the bonfire.Â
Utahimeâs backyard has been transformed into something of a cozy hangout spot. Cheap fairylights hang crooked from the overhead roof, blinking out of sink, and a few mismatched outdoor chairs and beanbags sit in a loose circle around a low table cluttered with cups, jackets, and a neat stack of cards. Thereâs a small lit fire further out, but you drag your eyes away from its company to focus on the people you do know.Â
Shoko shuffles closer to her girlfriend, patting the space next to her which you gratefully take. âHold on, so did you find someone to make out with after all? And was itâŚ?âÂ
You quickly look back at Gojo who is now talking quietly with someone you donât know, the long-haired boy nodding in serious thought at whatever is leaving his mouth. His eyes slide to you and when they meet yours, you flinch, looking away.
âNo! Thatâs notâGod, my head is killing me. I didnât make out with anyone, okay? Iâm not here to find someone to hook up with.âÂ
âWhy are you here then?âÂ
âYou threatened me to come.â You point out.Â
âWell, you werenât going to not come, thatâs not in the cards.â Shoko presses you another cup into your hands and, because you have yet to learn your lesson from earlier, you take a trusting sip.Â
You almost choke out the battery acid when it hits your tongue, covering your mouth with your arm as you glare at your friends. âOh, ew, Shoko. Seriously? Canât you make something good for once? Your jungle juice is always so ass.âÂ
âThatâs how you know it works. Tongue loosened up yet? Why did you just walk out with Gojo? Whatâs going on between you two? Does he know now?âÂ
You lean back into the seat at Shokoâs interrogation, and take another deep chug of Shokoâs disgusting drink. âBefore you grill me, I have to grill you. Want to tell me what Naoya is doing at your party, Utahime?âÂ
Utahime blinks. âNaoya is at my party?âÂ
âWas,â you correct yourself. âI think he got the message after I slapped him that he shouldnât be here.âÂ
âYou slapped him?â Utahime sits up with a bright smile. âOh my God, tell me you got that on video! To clear my name though, I definitely did not invite him. He must have snuck in or something.âÂ
âWell, basically everyone saw so Iâm sure thereâs a video on someoneâs story by now.â You look back at Gojo now standing with just one other guy. âSatoru just happened to be there at the right place and time to help. Thatâs it.âÂ
When your friends donât immediately press for more questions, you turn back and find them whispering and giggling to each other. When they feel your suspicious gaze, Shoko looks up. âSorry, yes, right. Gojo saved you.â
Utahime clears her throat suddenly. âWait, shut up. Three oâclock.âÂ
You stiffen when a weight presses against you, someoneâs body dropping into the narrow gap between you and the armrest.Â
You instinctively shuffle closer to Shoko to make room, though there is not enough room to make. Your thigh presses ages his, shoulder brushing against yours, and his arm slides along the back of the chair, not quite touching your neck, but close enough that your skin tingles.Â
Shoko mutters, âThis chair is clearly only meant for three.âÂ
âIâd hate to think you donât want me here,â Gojo says cheerfully. âWhat are we talking about? Me?âÂ
âYour head is so far up your ass you only ever think of yourself,â Utahime grumbles.Â
You freeze, unsure where your limbs should go when youâre pressed up to the person behind the faceless voice in your walls. Admittedly, this realisation comes a little late. You should have armed your walled defenses the moment Gojo had grabbed your wrist and pulled you behind him, should have simply walked away after slapping Naoya (that was a non-negotiable, canon event) instead of letting him drag you back where youâre now trapped. Because he doesnât know youâre her. And right now when youâre drunk and unsteady on your feet and thoughts? This might be the worst possible time for him to find out.Â
âThat over there is Suguru,â Gojo suddenly leans in to say, breath ghosting the shell of your ear. His voice sends shivers down your neck and along your spine, every sensation suddenly all too much. The fabric that isnât your own grazing high on your thigh, his hair tickling your cheek, his feet nudging yours slightly so you can move over just a little bit more for him.Â
âThatâs Kento, with the frown and beside him is Yuu, without the frown. And those, on the table, are my Digimon cards. Who the fuck brought them out here?âÂ
Haibara laughs. âGeto did! We were playing truth or dare with them!â
âYouâre lucky thatâs my dupe deck or Iâd end this friendship right here and now,â Gojo says, an easy grin on his face as if he wasnât pressing up against you, his chest warm and hard against your side, your elbow awkwardly jutting into him.Â
Your hand flexes around the cup, and the ring shifts slightly on your finger. Gojoâs gaze drops to it for half a second, a private little smile cutting across his mouth before he looks back at the table.Â
âWe heard about what happened inside,â Geto says. âAre you okay?âÂ
Would it be too late to suddenly go mute? If youâre able to recognise Gojo by his voice, then the chances of him putting name to face with the girl next door and you is also very high. Though, considering the way he isnât immediately pulling you aside to ask if you are indeed the voice in his walls, you want to believe that he has yet to figure out your identity.Â
So no, it isnât too late to go mute.Â
You nod in response to Getoâs question and flash him a smile, hoping none of it comes off as rude.Â
Gojo hums beside you, the vibration travelling through your bodies. He leans down to speak into your ear, a conversation just for you. âNot much for words? What happened to all the snark earlier?â
You stall for time by taking a long sip of Shokoâs concoction, the sting temporarily skyrocketing to the top of your concerns. This may or may not be a bad idea because now that youâre seated, all the previous drinks sloshing around in your stomach and this adding sip burning down your throat, you feel the world tip a little. You probably canât deflect this question, not when he asks like this, so you settle for something else.Â
Clearing your throat, you try for a lower octave than usual. âI only talk to the people that deserve it,â you say, then let out a small huff at how ridiculous you sound.Â
The grin he shoots you is all confidence and self-assurance, leaning in a fraction closer. âHow would you know if youâve never given me a chance?âÂ
âItâs pointless, I already know what youâre like.â Maybe itâs the bonfire or the drink in your hand but you are getting really warm. You take another long sip.Â
âWe talked for ten minutes max the other day, I highly doubt that,â he cocks his head at you. âDo I know you from somewhere else?âÂ
You hum. âMaybe.âÂ
âI think I would remember someone like you.âÂ
That causes you to raise an eyebrow, letting his casual flirt roll off you.Â
âFlattery,â you start, poking his chest. You let him catch your hand in his, holding it there against his heart, âwonât get you anywhere especially when itâs empty.â
âWho said it was empty? Besides, I know I wouldnât forget such a pretty girl.â
âOh, you would. You are.â You laugh again, finding the inside joke hilarious. âTry a little harder to remember, hm Satoru?âÂ
The challenge makes his eyes glow just like you knew they would, always have known from the moment when a wall still separated the two of you and he had laughed at your provoking, all dark and not humourous at all.Â
âMaybe if you gave me a name.â
Youâre not quite ready to hear his name from your lips just yet so you only shake your head, wagging your finger at him playfully. âWhereâs the fun in that?â
âIâm usually a patient man and Iâm all for the chase,â he starts, fingers inching closer, brushing hair from the back of your neck as he leans in, âbut youâve left me high and dry for so long.â
His words go in one ear and out the other, your breath hitching at the slightest touch. Despite yourself, you gulp and taste the bitter alcohol in your mouth. You feel it too, warmth pooling in your gut and making your head spin.Â
âIâm not an easy person,â you whisper, eyes flickering down to his lips and you bite your own, the rush of all your fantasies suddenly overwhelming you. In all other them, youâve never once imagined his lips on yours, not until now. And you donât doubt that after this, you'll be thinking of them often.Â
âTrust me,â he chuckles. âYouâre not easy, youâre stubborn as hell and you always give me a hard time.â
As if sensing your temptation, Gojoâs eyes trace the way your teeth dig into your lip, watching the pull before you release it, red and slightly jutted out. It makes him want to sink his teeth into your bottom lip and lick the marks it leaves behind.Â
Your breath hitches. He leans in slightly, looking up to search your face and wait to see if youâll pull back. When you donât, when he accepts whatever look is in eyes, he leans forward more. The anticipation builds and morphs into budding frustration when he continues to play this game of chicken, giving you countless moments to pull away if needed even when youâve shown no sign of stopping.Â
Shoko clears her throat and you jump, accidentally crushing your solo cup. The liquid bursts up and flows down your wrist and into your lap.Â
âShit!â you curse, immediately jumping up and pulling the fabric away from your skin.Â
Gojo quickly follows, one hand hovering on your lower back in case you tip back.Â
âOh, fuck,â Shoko says. âYou okay?âÂ
âYeah, itâs just super sticky.â You wince, accepting the tissues Nanami hands you though they do little good. âEw, itâs, like, sticking to my skin.âÂ
Utahime speaks up, watching you from over the rim of her cup. âThereâs a bathroom down the corridor. Gojo knows where it is, he can show you.â
âAnd maybe the two of you can make out there instead of right in front of us,â Geto says offhandedly, though his cup canât completely hide his grin. The people around the table giggle at his words, Shoko probably the loudest.Â
You blush, immediately going to deny his accusations but Gojo beats you to it.
âShoko and Utahime are one second away from eating each otherâs faces off but no one says anything about that!â
âThatâs because this is my party, Gojo.âÂ
âYeah, well it was my party that got you two together,â Gojo shoots back childishly.Â
Everyone laughs again, chattering as they descend into the topic of other inside jokes, playing word association as they leap from memory to memory. Thereâs a sense of belonging that oozes from everyone as they lean into one another and talk and gossip. You might have appreciated this moment more, enjoyed the fact that theyâre allowing you into this intimate moment, if not for the sudden blossoming warmth inside you. Before you can really think about it, you tug on Gojoâs shirt.Â
He immediately leans down, angling his ear to you. âHm?âÂ
âTake me to the bathroom?âÂ
Gojo stiffens, eyes flickering to your face then down your body. He bites his lip hard to focus, ignoring the temptation to let his mind wander at your innocent words. They had to be innocent, right? You, who was now looking up at him through your lashes with a pout playing on your lips, one hand tugging on the hem of his shirt, thumb rolling over the fabric slowly. You who was fidgeting ever so slightly, thighs rubbing together due to the cold.
âYeah,â he says suddenly, all humour gone. âLetâs go.âÂ
Someone cheers behind you as Gojo helps you up and opens the back door for you, though neither of you seem to care. He doesnât bother with answering greetings, only smiling shortly as you pass familiar people, something more impatient when he guides you than before.Â
He leads you down a corridor and into a dark room, closing the door behind you. Your heart leaps to your throat until he turns on the light, and you wince at the brightness.Â
âSorry, pretty. Shouldâve warned you,â Gojo says, only looking vaguely apologetic as he leans against the closed door, one hand still on the knob like heâs giving you a chance to back out.Â
He watches you carefully, tracing the line of your jaw, the slightest twitch of your brow and then, his favourite part, the flush climbing your cheeks. âThe bathroom should be safer than a spare room. Who knows who is in there doing what.â
You hesitate. âYou didnât have to follow me in.âÂ
âNo?â He tilts his head, eyes roaming over you before settling smugly on your face. âYouâre still holding onto my shirt. Maybe let go if you want to sound convincing.âÂ
You shiver, letting go immediately and stepping back closer to the sink. You open your mouth to say something, a stupid excuse perhaps, but he beats you to it.Â
âYou cold?âÂ
âWhat?â
âEarlier.â His eyes fall to your legs. âYou were fidgeting. Thought maybe you were cold. Call me a desperate guy if you want, but donât ask a guy to take you somewhere private while looking at me like that.âÂ
âLike what?âÂ
Gojo pushes off the door and you take a step back instinctively. âLike you wanted me to misunderstand you.âÂ
You hesitate, looking around the bathroom. He seems to notice, and stops immediately, eyes softening. âHey, Iâm not going to do anything you donât want. Just shove me away and Iâll go, I promise.âÂ
âItâs not that,â you bite your lip.Â
âThen what is it, pretty?âÂ
âYou talk too much. Youâre too loud,â you manage to say, warm despite the chill of the drink on you. âAlways have been.â
The corner of his mouth lifts. âYeah?âÂ
âYes.âÂ
âGood.â He takes one step closer. âThen make me shut up.âÂ
Your back meets the sink before you realise you have moved, the contrast of cold porcelain against your overheated skin making you gasp. Heâs on you in an instant, hands roaming down your side until theyâre gripping your hips hard enough to bruise.Â
âYouâre so tense,â he murmurs against your neck. âYou have no idea Iâve been watching you all night, do you? That little skirt? This tiny little top?âÂ
He slaps your tits and you jolt, looking up at him in surprise to which he only grins down at you. You canât seem to form a coherent thought, not when thereâs alcohol swimming in your veins and turning your limbs to jelly, mind to fog. Still, you manage to say, âDid you just slap my boob?â
âDonât act like you didnât like it. If I shove my hand down your skirt, am I going to find you wet, pretty?âÂ
His knee nudges between your thighs, spreading them open as he steps closer.Â
âYou are so grossââ you start, but he cuts you off with his mouth on yours.Â
The kiss is brutal and demanding all at once. His tongue slides against yours, tasting of expensive liquor and something sweet, or maybe thatâs just your taste and heâs shoving it back against your mouth. One hand leaves your hip to fist in your hair, tilting your head back.Â
He breaks the kiss only to trail his lips down your throat, sucking hard at the pulse point. âDonât lie to me. I know youâve wanted this since the first time I heard you. You have quite the perverted streak to you, donât you?â
Your breath hitches. His hand slides down, palm flat against your stomach, then lower. He doesn't bother with the fabric of your panties, just pushes them aside and drags his fingers through your slick folds.
âFuck,â he hisses. âYouâre soaked. And you're gonna tell me you weren't dreaming about this? Getting yourself off to the thought of me touching you like this?âÂ
His middle finger sinks into you without warning. You cry out, a sound that would be embarrassing if you had any sense left. But all you can feel is the stretch, the fullness, the way your body clenches around him desperately.
âThat's it,â he coos, tone shifting to something truly mocking. âYouâre really feeling it now, arenât you?âÂ
He adds a second finger, fucking them into you with a rhythm that has your knees buckling. His thumb circles your clit in lazy, torturous circles. You're already so close, the buildup of tension from hours of dancing, of drinking, of watching him across the room, it all crashes toward a peak.
âPlease,â you whimper.
âPlease what? Use your words, pretty.â
âPlease fuck me,â you manage to gasp, fantasy and reality crashing together in a dizzying mess.Â
He pulls his fingers out abruptly, and you groan at the loss. But then you hear the sound of his belt unbuckling, the zipper of his pants, and your mouth waters. He takes himself in hand, strokes once, twice, and then the blunt head of his cock presses against your entrance.
âLook at me,â he commands.
You force your eyes open. His are dark, pupils blown wide, a little furrow between his brows.Â
âAre you with me?â he asks, brushing your hair out of your eyes.Â
You nod, rutting forward pathetically.Â
âCome on, pretty, I need to hear you say it.â
âIâm here!â you choke out, gasping. âPlease, I want this, I promise IâI want you. Satoru, please.â
He groans, the tip of his cock pressing forward beyond that little ring of resistance, swearing at the involuntary thrust. âOkay, okay, Iâve got you.âÂ
He noses into your temple, inhaling deeply, one thumb holding you open as he presses in and groans, filthy and depraved.Â
âFuckâyouâre so tight,â he gasps, cock stuttering through until heâs buried deep.Â
The sensation of being stretched wide open on his cock makes you tense, before a ragged, grateful cry escapes your swollen lips. You can barely breathe through your nose, head spinning with pleasure.Â
âOh god, oh my god!â you cry out, head thrown back.Â
âShh,â he hisses against your ear, his breath hot and sweet. His cock rams into youâa thick, punishing rhythm he picks up easilyâand every thrust pushes your back against the sink. âYou gotta stay quiet, angel. We don't want anyone hearinâ how much of a slut you are, do we?â
But of course, all good things have to come to an end because through the hazy pleasure, you hear a grating voice.Â
âHey! Y/N! I know you're in there!â You can recognise Naoyaâs voice anywhere even, it seems, when youâre being fucked for every inch of your life.Â
Gojoâs hand closes around your mouth as he looks at you, grunting softly with every thrust. He pulls out briefly and you whine until he turns you around and presses you up against the cold tiles, driving up into you like he never left. His rhythm doesnât falter, if anything, he pounds harder.Â
âMm-mm,â you try to say, shaking your head, panic rising. He doesn't stop. He slams into you and your body jolts, your forehead knocking against the tile.
âI said I know you're in there!â Naoya's voice is slurred, angry. He kicks the door. âOpen the fuck up! We need to talk!â
Gojoâs hand slides off your mouth though not enough to leave completely. Itâs just his palm moving, his fingers hooking into the corner of your lips, prying your mouth open. Two of them slip inside, salty with your own slick, and he pushes them back until you're gagging.
âAnswer him,â Gojo whispers, his lips brushing your ear. âGo on. Tell him youâre busy.â
You canât. His fingers are deep in your throat. You gag, tears springing to your eyes, and he just laughs, low and dark.
âOh, right. You can't talk with my fingers in your mouth, can you?â He pulls them out, slick and wet, and wraps them around your jaw, tilting your face toward the door. âTry again. Use your words.â
âNaoya,â you choke out, your voice wrecked, breathless. âIâmâIâm fine. Justââ
âJust what?â Gojo thrusts, hard, and your sentence crumbles into a gasp. His cock sinks so deep you feel it in your stomach. âJust getting fucked stupid? Tell him the truth.â
Thereâs a beat of silence. You can picture Naoya on the other side of the door, his fists clenched, his jaw tight. When he speaks again, his voice is lower, certainly enraged.
âYouâre lying. I can hear you breathing. Open the fucking door.â
Gojoâs hips slow. He pulls almost all the way out, leaving just the tip, and then drives forward in one smooth, devastating motion. You cry out, quickly muffled by your own hand.
âDon't make me break this door down,â Naoya warns.
Gojo chuckles, right in your ear. âHe sounds mad. Poor guy. You really do know how to pick âem, donât you?â He leans closer, his chest pressing against your back, his lips brushing the shell of your ear. âBut youâre not his anymore, are you? You're mine. For tonight, anyway.â
He fucks you slow now, deep and deliberate, his cock dragging along every inch of your walls. You feel every ridge, every vein and your legs tremble in the delicious drag.
âTell him,â Gojo whispers, âthat youâre busy. That you donât have time for him anymore. âCause heâs nothing to you now, right? Tell me heâs nothing to you.âÂ
You swallow, wanting nothing more than to open your mouth and babble about how incredible it is to get railed in a bathroom, how brainless Gojoâs cock is making you but you have to be good, heâs waiting for you. So instead, you manage to say, âNaoya, leave meânghâalone!â
Naoya growls at the closed door before him, even going so far as to stomp his feet like a petulant kid. âFine! Fucking fine, Y/N! But I promise you, youâll regret this! Iâll make sure you do!â
Sure, you think, eyes rolling back, as if your Etsy witch can touch me anymore when Gojo is fucking me. You slump forward, relief flooding you when you hear his footsteps retreating, but Gojo doesnât let you rest. He grabs a fistful of your hair, yanking your head back, and resumes his brutal pace.
âGood girl,â he purrs. His voice is different now, softer, honeyed and almost affectionate. âSuch a good fucking girl. You did so well. You listened. You obeyed.â He kisses your shoulder, open-mouthed, wet. âSee? I knew you could be good for me.â
The whiplash is dizzying and it only makes you arch more, something inevitable and delicious approaching in the far distance.Â
âThat's right,â he murmurs, still fucking you deep and slow. âYou took that so well. Pretended you werenât getting your tight little cunt stuffed while your ex was right outside. That takes skill, pretty. Youâre so fucking perfect for me.â
His hand snakes around your front, fingers finding your clit. He rubs slow, tight circles, and your hips buck.
âBet you've been practicing, haven't you?â His voice is a low, knowing drawl. âAll those nights you thought nobody was listening. Thought nobody could hear you moaning. But werenât you the one to tell me? The walls are thin as shit, angel.â
Heâs ramming into you now, fast and rough again, his words spilling out between each thrust and all you can do is be a ragdoll in his hold.Â
âYou'd lie in bed, late at night, fingers in your pussy, listening to me stroke my cock. Iâd hear you. The wet sounds. The little âoh, yesâs. And Iâd think... fuck, I need to have that. I need to feel that cunt clench around me.â
You're dizzy, overwhelmed. His hand on your clit, his cock in your cunt, his words in your brain, itâs all too much.
âDid you think I didnât recognize you at the party tonight? The girl with the needy little moans?â He bites your earlobe, hard enough to sting. âIâve been waiting for an excuse to corner you. And then you showed up drunk and sad, with that asshole on your heels, and I knew tonight was the night.â
Heâs watching you in the mirror and you catch his reflection. His eyes are dark, lips parted, face flushed. Heâs absolutely beautiful.
âI'm gonna fill you up,â he growls. âGonna pump my cum so deep inside you it leaks out for days. And when you walk past my door tomorrow, you're gonna know. Youâre gonna remember this. Youâre gonna touch yourself to the memory, and Iâll be right there, on the other side of the wall, stroking myself to the sound of you coming undone.â
His hips slam into you. Once, twice, three times. You feel the pressure building, the coil in your belly tightening to the point of pain.
âSatoruââ you gasp, hands fumbling for purchase on the wall.Â
âI know, angel, I know. Cum for me,â he demands. âWanna finally feel you cum on my cockâfuck.â
You shatter. Your orgasm crashes through you like a wave, your cunt clenching around him, your body shaking. You cry out his nameâSatoruâand he follows a second later, buried to the hilt, his cum hot and thick inside you.
He holds you there, both of you breathing hard, sweat-slick and sticky. Then he pulls out slowly, watching his cum drip down your thigh.
âGood girl,â he says again, his voice a warm, approving caress. He turns you around, cups your face in his hands, and kisses you, soft, tender, unhurried. âYou did so well, pretty. So, so good for me.â
Your knees are weak and he notices, turning you and pressing you to his chest to keep you upright. He continues to whisper in your ear as your senses return to you, and when you finally lift a hand to gently push at his chest, he lets you, eyes immediately flickering down to your eyes.Â
âStill with me?âÂ
You nod, before you fall forward into his arms.Â
When your body breaks down alcohol, it converts the ethanol into acetate, a process that produces a lot of NADH from NADâş. The imbalance of the NADHâş ratio leads to the feelings of weakness and grogginess that come from a horrible night out.Â
You wake now, approximately ninety percent NADH and ten percent regret.Â
For a while, you refuse to move. You only stare at your ceiling, blinking slowly at the familiar crack in the paint above your head, the soft grey light pressing through the curtains, the horrible cotton-dry feeling your tongue against the top of your mouth.Â
How the fuck did you get home?
Your own bed, in most cases, the preferred place to wake up after all. Itâs safe, itâs familiar, and most importantly, itâs yours. But the last thing you remember is not collapsing into the warmth and security of your own bed. The last thing you recall comes in fragments: Utahimeâs party, Gojoâs hands on your body, the bathroom light flickering too bright overhead, the sink cold behind you and his voice low in your ear.Â
And then nothing. You suppose there are brief pieces after that, blurry and soft around the edges. Glimpses of a car window, someone cursing under their breath, the sound of your keys jingling and the vague sensation of being carried. That one must have been a drunken hallucination because itâs humiliating and therefore cannot be the truth.Â
You fumble for your phone which is not beside your pillow where you usually place it after your nightly doomscroll before bed, but placed neatly on your bedside table. Thereâs a few texts from friends on your lock screen, but thereâs only one person you want to text.Â
shoko: alive?
actually donât answer if youâre dead
if youâre alive though please drink some water and let me know that youâre okÂ
You laugh softly. Why did you jump to conclusions so quick? Of course it was Shoko that took you home! Who knew her upper body strength was so good that she managed to carry you into your own bed after a night of drinking.Â
you: im alive!!
thank u so much for taking me home btwÂ
i owe u :3
She quickly reacts to your message with a heart before the typing indicator appears.Â
shoko: i didnât take u home (?)Â
gojo did obv
he WHAT? is probably what youâre thinking but please remember to breathe and drink some water before you crash outÂ
You are, in fact, thinking he what?And because Shoko accurately called you out on that, you decide to follow through on the rest of her advice. You turn your head and stop a sticky note stuck to the glass of water beside your head, bright yellow and neat as a warning label.Â
water is important when youâre recovering from a hangover! â satoru
Then, a little to the left, attached to a packet of painkillers,Â
because i know your head probably feels like shit rn â still meÂ
âOh my god,â you whisper, unsure whether to laugh or to run away.Â
You do neither because your head really does hurt like a motherfucker, and take the painkillers along with a generous gulping or two of water. The cool liquid does little against the parched nature of your throat, but when you wipe your mouth with the back of your hand, you feel alive enough to venture out of your bed.Â
Thereâs a sticky note on the ground next to a pair of slippers you swore you had separated, one in the kitchen one somewhere in the living room.Â
the ground is cold! wear slippers! â forever urs :3
âForever yours?â you repeat aloud, voice wrecked with sleep and dehydration even as you shove your toes in.Â
Thereâs another note on the back of your bedroom door.Â
no matter what u see in the mirror remember youâre beautiful! â shrek to ur fiona?
You open your bedroom door and make your slow, regretful way to the bathroom where you lay your tired eyes on your puffy face. You have definitely seen better days. Thereâs another note stuck to your mirror.Â
face wash is on the left toothbrush is on the right if you use the face wash as toothpaste, thatâs between you and god â not your doctorÂ
Huffing out a sound that might be amusement, you pick up your toothbrush and ensure you squeeze toothpaste onto its bristles. The toothpaste is minty and makes your eyes water slightly, but by the time you rinse your mouth, you feel one step closer to not feeling like the undead.Â
Thereâs another note stuck to the towel rack.Â
if ur eyes are puffy, put a cold compress over them! â still not a doctor
From the bathroom back to your room for a change of clothes and even on your way to the kitchen, youâre guided by a series of sticky notes.Â
clean clothes! i didnât look through your drawers dw â feministÂ
welcome to the kitchen! huge milestone for you â ur biggest fanÂ
water already boiled in here so when you wake up to reboil it itâll take less time â the kettle knowerÂ
drink real water first before the coffee !! seriously donât put coffee in me just yet â mugÂ
soup inside on the second shelf :3 not homemade so donât get too excited iâm handsome, not magical i couldnât have it both ways â :(
in the microwave for two minutes with lid half on! take it out when itâs boiling â the soup sipperÂ
You finally feel alive enough to laugh, embarrassingly loud in the quiet of your kitchen. You stand there in your slippers, teeth brushed, face washed, and dressed in clothes when any other time you might have still been under the covers.Â
The apartment feels full of him. A note when you open your utensil drawer for a spoon, a note sitting on top of a coffee pod conveniently placed on your counter, a note against the body of a vase youâve placed on your dining table to feel more homey.Â
eat slowly, you get hiccups when you rush!Â
The notes take you away from your drying rack when youâve finished the store-bought soup and washed your spoon, taking you to your living room. Your camera sits on your coffee table, a sticky stuck on the surface that reads: âturn me on ><â
You roll your eyes but do so, lifting it up and framing the sorry state of your living room before hitting the record button. The first shot captures just how many sticky notes litter the surface of almost every object, the words telling you a funny joke or reminding you to put something back. You take your time walking through all of them, his handwriting everywhere, his name everywhere (except when he decides to write down a silly nickname).Â
Satoru.
Satoru.
Satoru.
Then, you find the last one on your front door.Â
if youâre overwhelmed, you donât have to open this today. if youâre angry at me, just yell at me through the wall :( if youâre okay, iâd like to see you â satoru
And then, before you can think it through, you reach forward and open your door.Â
Gojo stands in the hallway, a bouquet of flowers clutched in both hands like heâs praying. His eyes light up when you open your door and he moves forward instinctively. Heâs so close that the toe of one sock is nearly edging over the threshold of your apartment.Â
You let out a short scream.Â
He startles just as badly, eyes going wide as he reaches forward on instinct to steady you, and your camera slips from your hand.
âOhââÂ
It hits the floor before either of you can grab it, bouncing once, then sliding sideways across the carpet until it knocks gently against the leg of your couch. The camera keeps recording from there, tilted on its side. It catches the lower half of your open door, Gojoâs socked feet in the hallway, your bare feet on the carpet, and the hem of your sweater falling over your shorts.
âAre you okay?â he asks in a rush.Â
âWhat are you doing standing right in front of my door, you creep?â you shoot back, one hand pressed to your chest. âWere you standing there the entire time?âÂ
âI was trying to be romantic.â He shoves the bouquet toward you, panic making his voice crack at the edges. âI literally got you flowers!âÂ
You take them automatically, bewildered by the weight of roses in your hands. âThank you? Is that why youâve littered all over my apartment?âÂ
His face falls. âWas that not cute?âÂ
You blink. âCute?âÂ
âDid you not think it was cute?â he asks, suddenly horrified. âBecause I thought it was cute. I mean, not in a weird way. Well, maybe a little weird. But intentional weird. Charming weird.âÂ
âThe sticky notes?â
He groans, dragging a hand down his face. âLook, Iâve never done anything like this before, okay? This whole romance thing is seriously above me, I have no idea how Iâm meant to ask you this without scaring you away.âÂ
You stare at him for a long while before laughing. The sound pulls from your throat loud and bright that it almost hurts with an incoming headache, but itâs so funny you just canât stop. âI knew you had no experience with women. I called it all along, didnât I?â
âPlease, this and that are completely unrelated.â His shoulders seem to relax at your laugh, and he finally cracks a smile, running a hand through his hair. âYou never were going to make it easy for me, were you?âÂ
âEasy? When youâve just left forty sticky notes in my apartment and then lurked outside my door?â
His smile trembles, trying to stay bright, but the nerves are still there beneath it. You can see them now that you know to look. The way his fingers flex at his side, the way his eyes keep flickering from your face to the threshold like he is measuring the exact line he is not allowed to cross.Â
âI wasnât lurking,â he says, quieter. âI was waiting.âÂ
Your fingers tighten around the bouquet.Â
Gojo looks down at it, then back at you. âI wanted to knock earlier, but I thought if you woke up and saw me before you were ready, youâd panic.â
âPlease, I wouldnât have panicked.âÂ
âYou literally panicked ten seconds ago.â
âTouche.â You look at him for a short while before glancing down at your slippered-feet. âIâm still scared, honestly. I think Iâve been cursed in every possible aspect of love. Thatâs why when I heard your voice all the way back during that carwash event, I didnât want you to know it was me. It would break what we had going on through the wall and I liked that. It felt like something I could just keep to myself. And then I found out you were Satoru and it was obvious you werenât just mine anymore.âÂ
Gojo lets you talk, lets you call him Gojo again without saying a single word until you finish. Then he says, âWere you disappointed?âÂ
âNo,â you say immediately. âIt wasnât like that.âÂ
He smiles then, head tilting to the side. âThen I can be just Satoru. Just your Satoru, if that helps.âÂ
Itâs so stupidly cheesy that you have to scoff, even as your cheeks warm.Â
âIâm serious,â he chuckles along with you, stepping a little closer. âI liked being 4B. I liked that you knew me when I was just some guy through the wall that you liked talking to. I liked talking to you through blackouts and through shitty phone calls. I liked what we had too. Have, if youâll let me.â
âAre you asking me out?â
He huffs, a weary smirk on his face. âIsnât it obvious?âÂ
Instead of answering him, you shove the bouquet of flowers back into his chest, watching as his brows furrow in confusion, before youâre reaching forward to cup his face and kiss him.
In one suspended second, Gojo simply stands there doing absolutely nothing. He freezes so completely beneath your hands that, if you risked opening your eyes, you might find his bright blue ones staring back at you. His lips are still against yours, the rest of him gone rigid, roses crushed between his chest and yours, fingers locked around the stems not quite sure what else to do.Â
You almost pull back.Â
But then, in a rush of movement, the bouquet is gone.Â
He throws it blindly into your apartment with a kind of urgent, graceless force that makes several roses scatter across your carpet. Before you can laugh, his arms are around you.Â
One arm wraps around your waist, pulling you close enough you half tread on his feet, other hand coming up to cradle the side of your face, warm and shaking just slightly. Nothing in the world has ever felt so right.Â
Thereâs too much smiling in the kiss, and your noses are pressed awkwardly for the kiss to be smooth but then he tilts his head and gets it right.Â
You kiss him until your lungs begin to object and then slowly, you pull away. Gojo follows you for half a second before he catches himself, eyes opening slowly. His pupils are blown wide, hair a mess, and his mouth is parted without anything clever coming out of it.Â
âSo,â he licks his lips, eyes flickering down for a moment. âIs that a yes?âÂ
From the floor, your camera continues recording from its crooked angle. It captures none of it neatly, not your face and not his, not the way his thumb brushes your cheek. It catches the fall of the roses, the way your bodies draw the other in in a rush, the stumbling as he walks you back into your apartment and you both disappear from the frame in a fit of giggles and whispered words.Â
âYes, Satoru,â you laugh, letting him guide you further into your apartment. âItâs a yes.âÂ
Later, when you edit the film, you leave the shot in. It isnât as graceful as it could be nor will it win an Oscar in cinematography, but for your love assignment, you decide that this will do.Â
a/n: oh my GOD this is another draft that i started writing in 2023 (?) and is affectionately known by my friends and i as the jorkin' it fic <3 b99!au fic coming next !! not that i don't love the other fics i've written but it's definitely my favourite wip so i hope you all love that one too! thank you so much for reading until the very end and i hope u enjoyed :3
-`âĄÂ´- teasing & tormenting your bf Choso with his one weakness -`âĄÂ´- Art By: @!hunnismokah
Chosoâs phone buzzes in his pocket during his morning lecture, right when the professor is deep into a brutal equation on the board. He pulls it out under the desk, expecting maybe a quick âmiss youâ text. Instead the screen lights up with a photo that makes his cock jerk instantly; you, legs spread wide on your bed, two fingers holding your pretty pussy open so he can see how wet and dripping you are, glistening just for him. The caption reads, âthinking about sitting on your face right now⌠but youâre stuck in class, poor baby.â
Chosoâs breath catches. He shifts in his seat, thighs pressing together as heat floods his face. His fingers tremble when he types back a shaky âbaby please not now,â but you only send another one seconds later: a short video this time.
Youâre on your knees, ass up, slowly rubbing the blunt head of your favourite toy against your slick folds before pushing it inside with a soft, breathy moan of his name. The angle lets him watch your pussy swallow every inch, lips stretching around the thickness, juices dripping down your thighs.
He nearly drops the phone. A low, broken sound escapes his throat before he can swallow it. The guy next to him glances over, but Choso hunches lower, hood up, trying to look like heâs just taking notes. His cock is already throbbing hard in his sweats, leaking against the fabric, and he canât stop staring at the way your cunt clenches around the toy in the looping video.
Another buzz. This oneâs a close-up selfie: your tits pushed together, nipples hard and shiny from your own spit, while your free hand spreads your pussy lips again, showing him the messy strings of arousal still clinging inside. âWish you were here stretching me open instead⌠your fat cock would feel so much better than this. Hurry home after class?â
Choso bites his knuckle, eyes fluttering shut for a second as he pictures it, your tight, dripping heat sinking down on him just like you always do. Heâs so hard it hurts. The lecture drags on, and you keep going, relentless. A new photo every few minutes: you riding a pillow, grinding your slick cunt against it with your head thrown back; another of you fingering yourself, three fingers buried deep, knuckles shiny; then one where youâre standing in front of the mirror, skirt flipped up, no panties, bending over so he can see your pussy from behind, lips puffy and begging.
By the time the professor dismisses everyone, Choso is a mess. His face is flushed, cock straining painfully against his clothes, a wet spot already forming where heâs been leaking nonstop. He practically bolts out of the building, texting you back with trembling thumbs: âyouâre so fucking mean⌠Iâm coming home right now. Gonna make you regret teasing me like this.â
Your reply is instant: a final nude, you lying on your back with your legs pulled up to your chest, pussy on full display, fingers spreading yourself wide so he can see how ready and open you are. âgood boy, doorâs unlocked. come use your pretty girlfriendâs cunt however you want⌠but only if you can stay quiet when I sit on your face and make you clean up all the mess you caused.â
Choso groans out loud in the hallway, drawing a few weird looks, but he doesnât care. Heâs already halfway home, cock aching, mind filled with nothing but the thought of burying his face between your thighs and finally, finally getting to taste the pussy thatâs been torturing him all morning.
You push Choso back onto the bed the second he walks through the door, still wearing his hoodie from class. He barely has time to drop his bag before youâre climbing over him, knees planted on either side of his head, skirt already hiked up around your waist. No panties. Just your bare, dripping cunt hovering inches above his face.
âBaby waitââ he starts, eyes wide, but you cut him off by lowering yourself right onto his mouth.
âShh. Sit there and take it,â you murmur, grinding your slick pussy against his lips. You settle your full weight down, smothering him completely, your soft thighs squeezing the sides of his head. His nose presses into your mound, mouth forced open under your heat. âYouâve been hard all day because of me. Now youâre going to eat this cunt like a good boy until I say stop.â
Choso groans loudly into your folds, the sound vibrating straight through your clit. His hands fly up to grip your hips, but he doesnât push you away. He pulls you closer instead, tongue dragging desperately through your soaked slit. You taste sweet and messy, still dripping from all the teasing you sent him earlier. He laps at you hungrily, sucking your folds into his mouth, nose buried so deep he can barely breathe.
You rock your hips slowly at first, riding his face like itâs your personal toy. âThatâs it. Use that pretty tongue. You wanted this so bad, didnât you? Sending you all those pictures⌠knowing your cock was leaking in class while I played with my pussy.â
He whimpers beneath you, muffled and broken. His tongue pushes inside your tight hole, fucking in and out as best he can while you smother him. You can feel his hot breath panting against your cunt, desperate little gasps whenever you lift just enough for him to steal air. Then you sink back down, grinding harder, clit rubbing over his tongue in tight circles.
âFuck, Choso. Your face feels soooo good,â you moan, leaning forward to brace your hands on the headboard. Your hips move faster now, riding his mouth with wet, filthy sounds. Slick coats his chin, his cheeks, drips down to his neck. Heâs making these desperate, sloppy noises, sucking and licking like heâll die if he stops. âDonât you dare stop. Youâre gonna make me cum all over your tongue.â
Chosoâs fingers dig into the fat of your ass, spreading you wider so he can bury his face deeper. His cock strains painfully in his sweats, untouched and throbbing, but he doesnât even try to touch himself. He just takes it. Takes every roll of your hips, every clench of your pussy against his mouth. When you start bouncing lightly, smothering him in short, rough grinds, his moans turn into frantic, muffled cries.
âYouâre so fucking pathetic like this,â you tease, voice breathy and mean. âLying there letting your girlfriend use your face. Can you even breathe, baby? Or is my cunt all you need?â
He shakes his head slightly, still devouring you, tongue flicking wildly over your swollen clit. His eyes are glassy and wet when you glance down, cheeks flushed dark red. You press down harder, completely smothering him for a few long seconds, feeling him twitch and struggle beneath you before lifting just enough to hear his ragged gasp.
âGood boy,â you purr, grinding your clit right against his tongue again. âKeep going. Make me cum. I wanna soak your whole face.â
Choso doubles his efforts, sucking your clit between his lips, tongue swirling fast and perfect. His hands knead your ass, pulling you down whenever you try to ease up. Heâs completely lost in it, moaning nonstop into your pussy, the vibrations pushing you closer and closer.
You ride his face harder, thighs trembling around his head, until the pleasure snaps tight inside you. âFuckâ aaaah... Choso im cummin'ââ
Your orgasm crashes over you, pussy clenching and gushing all over his tongue. You grind down through it, smothering him completely while you shake and moan, flooding his mouth with your release. He drinks every drop, licking you clean like heâs starving, soft desperate whimpers still vibrating against your sensitive folds.
When you finally lift off, his face is a shiny mess, lips swollen, eyes dazed and adoring. He gasps for air, chest heaving, but his tongue still darts out to chase any drop he missed.
You smile down at him, stroking his wet hair. âWeâre not done yet. Catch your breath⌠then Iâm sitting back down. Youâre going to keep eating this pussy until I canât cum anymore.â
Choso just nods weakly, voice hoarse. âYes⌠please. Use me. I want it all.â His cock twitches hard in his pants, leaking steadily, ready for whatever mean thing you do to him next.