Panic Cord Fanfiction

I am so pissed at the dumbass system in the UK, they kept saying I am about to be out but then tried to feed me their shit. I have been here a whole ass night now, I got a feeling they trying to get that cartoon character bitch to pin that shit against me, I did do it but she pissed me off. I am going out of my mind in this place, one phone call and Robyn put the phone down on me. I called Ant and he was angry as shit, I keep asking for another phone call but they won’t let me. I think I have fucked my marriage up or it’s over or some shit, I didn’t exactly hit the hoe, she was just getting on my dick too much. Calling my wife a bitch like I would be cool with that, stupid bitch. Hearing the door being unlocked, the door got dragged open “come, you can leave now” the officer said “y’all said that shit yesterday!” I spat pushing myself off of the bed “wack as shit, I better get my shit back” walking by the officer “stand back” I didn’t notice the second officer around the door, he grabbed my arm “I said stand back, you either walk with us or I will put the handcuffs on you” shaking my head rolling my eyes, these motherfuckers ain’t shit “come now” the officer pulled me along, who the fuck they think they are “you can let my client go” my smile grew seeing Mark “you came out here!” I spat, the officer was quick to let me go “just signing a few things Chris, come” Mark waved me over, seeing Frank and Lo.

Placing my chain over my head “so there is a lot of paparazzi out there, I need you to get out of London. You have paid the fines, nothing is going further. It’s dealt with” Mark eye balled me “they wanted to keep you in for forty eight hours, I got you out now we go home” switching my phone on “I need to see my wife, I have got to go to Barbados. I can’t go home” I need to get changed, I need a shower. I am in the clothes I wore at the club “well you speak to Ant, let’s just get you out of here. Come on, Police escort us out” Mark got this shit on lock, these motherfuckers being nice now. Walking over to Frank slowly “it’s hectic but not much walking” the doors opened and Frank placed his arm around me and we walked out together “keep your head down” Mark said behind me “move back!!” someone shouted, I can hear the paparazzi shouting things but because there is so many of them shouting at the same time I don’t know what they are saying, it will be something mean anyways.

Shuffling across as Mark sat next to me in the back, Frank and then Lo got in and the car door banged shut “happy freedom day” I said joking “I flew out to get you out of there and you’re sat here like it’s funny, I thought I wouldn’t see you again like this and guess what? I am seeing you again like this” Mark is annoyed with me “why are you acting like this shit is my fault? That bitch called my wife a bitch and I just attacked” shaking my head “you was also intoxicated by drugs, let’s just get you out of here. You should be glad I got you out” tapping my home button and seeing the various missed calls, unlocking my phone. I need to call Robyn, she needs to listen to me “Ant said for you to call him first, he really needs to speak to you” I can tell with all of the miss calls, is he missing me or something “people hating me I guess?” I know they are “what happened to the picture of Robyn and little blood on your lock screen?” Lo questioned, looking up at him “I didn’t want to see them, if I see them. I can see disappointment, I just don’t want to see that” tapping Ant’ name “I didn’t expect you to grab the bitch like that” Lo said sighing out “well it happened and I just want to go and see my wife” the call rang out, Ant may be asleep or some shit “Chris, I guess you out now?” Ant said down the phone “you damn right, I was supposed to be out yesterday but those motherfuckers lied, Mark got me out here but yeah I’m out” I should have a breezy freedom party “are you still high?” Ant said, is he being real “nah, that shit left me a while ago but what’s good?” I ain’t even high, why are people acting like shit is bad “so I spoke to Rihanna and she has a message for you, she said if you know what’s right for you then you will go back to LA. She don’t want you going to Barbados if you was thinking of going there. Just come back to LA Chris, you really upset your wife. You need to fix up and fix your attitude because the shit you did was not good” disconnecting the call with Ant.

Sitting back in the seat looking out of the car window, there is not one message on my phone from Robyn “you seen a ghost?” Frank asked from across me “feels like it” I mumbled “I am going back to LA” it’s not safe going there, her family will kill me. I’m going to be a divorced man “I didn’t think it was that bad” shaking my head, my phone screen randomly lit up and seeing the black screen I changed it too. I practically removed my wife and son “I need to get out of this car” I can’t be in this car any longer “we are here” Frank said pushing the door back, I jumped forward falling out of the car and puked up on the side. I heaved out, coughing up the last of the sick that left me. Wiping my mouth looking around me, I feel sick to my stomach to know that I am probably losing everything and I didn’t think about it like that. I feel like shit, Frank grabbed my arm as I missed my stepping “I’m fine” I just need to get to my hotel room, I am feeling so uneasy.

Watching the phone ring out, my dad is ringing me and I don’t need that right now at all. What if Robyn actually leaves me “oh fuck, I have been so stupid” rubbing my face, the phone stopped ringing. Unlocking my phone, tapping on my phone book and Jen’ name. Robyn won’t speak to me, I know it. I messed up but I just honestly feel like it wasn’t that serious, pressing the speaker phone button and Jen picked up just on time “Christopher” she said so bluntly “Jen” I swallowed hard “I’m out, and I’m going back home. To LA, look I just want to know how Robyn is?” laying back on the bed “how do you think she feels Chris? Why? I think we all want to know this, we are confused. Who was the man we left behind, I think Rihanna is ashamed” I sighed out closing my eyes “honestly, I don’t know. I only came out here so I was a little closer to Robyn, I was going to go to Barbados but then females came along” Jen groaned out “Chris, you are a grown man. Why? You’re a married man, did you not think of your son? Anyone? You have embarrassed her” shaking my head “no” I said, that is the honest truth “I can’t explain, Robyn called me and she told me she knew and I couldn’t explain, I don’t know what to say Jen. Is she going to leave me? I need to see her? Please I am begging you, my son” Jen took in a deep breath “why don’t you do as she says, go back to LA” that is not an answer “for what!? Just so she can think on how to leave me? Jen please, I don’t want to lose her, I love Robyn I really do, I am just so. I can’t explain” I don’t know what to feel but I love my girl “intoxicated? That is what the report said, you have shocked us all. We just saw you and now this, go back to LA Chris. Don’t go to Robyn, she will come to you” clenching my jaw together “with divorce papers? Cool, I’ll see you around” getting up from the bed “don’t say it like that Chris, you need to think without being intoxicated” nodding my head “bye Jen” disconnecting the call, throwing my phone to the side of me and reaching over for the red cup.

Staring at the video of me gripping the bitch’ face, I wonder how Robyn felt seeing that “you read that though, Rihanna allowing Chris Brown to have orgies with other women, they have an agreement. And then they have pictures of you getting out of the car with Mulan” Lo turned his phone to me “fuck” I breathed out “I have really lost my wife, oh my god” reaching over and scrolling down, I felt a stab at my heart seeing the picture they used of Robyn, the picture I wanted as my lock screen of them both on the beach “they made a whole ass story up” my phone started ringing in my hand, answering the call “what Clinton? You have been calling me none stop” he won’t fucking stop ringing “your mom told me, you got arrested. Why?” licking my bottom lip “ain’t got shit to do with you, I am good over here” he is trying to be a dad now “I still love you Chris, please stop pushing me out. Your reaction to women is not good, you need to keep your hands to yourself. Respect them!” mean mugging hard as fuck “teach me Clinton, teach me how to be a man huh. Teach me on how to leave a woman with a child, ignore that child, let that child watch his mom get beat. Teach me then!? Then throw the fact you can be a dad to others, come on Clinton show me. If I needed your advice I would ask, now get out of my head” disconnecting the call “fuck!!” I spat.

I think I am about done with today, I have done well for myself. Well I assume I have done good, moving my head forward looking over at the car seat and at Maurice asleep still. He must have been way tired after that meltdown,I am happy with shit but I can just see my dad complaining to my family, he is speaking to the wrong person because my mom can’t do shit “you ever speak to your uncle?” Lionel questioned at the side of me, pulling a face as I shook my head “not at all, I barely talk to some family. But I still support them, that is just me. I want them living good” looking over at Lionel, he seems to be thinking hard “just thinking, your dad not being around. Uncle should be there, nobody is perfect” he smiled at me “you right, just some people keep making the same mistakes, like myself” I mumbled looking away from Lionel “don’t worry about your dad, I think you should party. I know my family are ready to party. I think Nicolette is drunk already” I assumed it would be the Barbados side being drunk already “I am ready to go home, you see. Doing family events only brings out the bullshit, it brings out how dysfunctional family can be but I think you should turn up with the family, I know you got some moves” Lionel waved me off laughing “you really want my back to go?” I forgot about that.

Shaking Ant’ hand “I am so sorry that I am late, I couldn’t even put a nice suit on. I came off the flight and here. Nothing but meetings but I saw some pictures, you both looked beautiful” Ant complimented “well I am only forgiving you because you went New York for me, what happened?” Ant shook his head “we are not doing business here, maybe later. I am sad that Little Chris is asleep I wanted to see him but I am sorry” he had to fly to New York to put forward the album idea, if they even accept me to do it, if not then shit will be a mixtape but I don’t see them saying no “don’t be sorry, you are always around for the family” Robyn said, Jen walked behind Ant “the mic and handsome is here finally, I missed you in a suit” taking the mic from Jen “I keep telling you that he is married woman” getting up from the seat “I can look” looking down at Robyn “you want to speak?” Robyn shook her head which I knew she would have, I hate speeches. Holding the mic up “does this even work?” I said through the mic and it does “ok, my bad so uhm. If I can just have a minute of y’all time. I hate speeches myself” makes it even worse when everyone is staring “I just want to thank everyone that came out to see my son get Christened, I didn’t think it would be this big of a turn out, makes me realise that there is a lot of us but there is also friends, godparents. I want to thank you all” looking over at Maurice sleeping “I can now rest easy knowing that Maurice has godparents and god looking over him, he is the biggest blessing to me and Robyn. I want nothing but the best for him and I know this start will be the best for him, I ain’t finna making you all bored so y’all can turn up. I know that Barbados family are already drunk like Lionel said, that came from him” I defended myself, I can hear LeLe loud ass shouting “have fun” Robyn smiled at me as I sat down.

For a man that hates my family which I think is lowkey bullshit at times, he is certainly allowing them to be a bad influence on him. Chris looks slightly tipsy and it’s free drinks, well we are paying but everyone seems to be drunk a little, besides me and the elders. Junior has not woke up at all even with the music on “Chris Brown, I think you need to sing a little something. The mic is on my nigga” one of Chris’ friends said “what are you doing here? You go and have fun” my mom said looking ever so annoyed with me “I want o watch my son” my mom looked at my grandfather and then me “get up, go and have fun with them all. I will look after him, you ain’t that old” she has got a point but I just wanted to make sure my son is good “you not coming?” I said to my grandfather “no, I got a good view here. You kids have fun” he waved me off “don’t be lying on us, you ain’t that drunk. Sing us some shit bruh” pulling my dress down a little “if he does wake up and he doesn’t stop crying then shout me”  my mom waved me off, let me just go before my mom cusses me out. Sonita shook her head at me “nobody could move you from that seat!” she grabbed my hand “I can’t sing, y’all niggas stupid. I am not even Chris Brown” Chris said, I don’t know why they even bothering, Trey dragging him up the stairs “see, we got Chris. He can sing us a little something” shaking my head smiling “drink it!” Leandra came out of nowhere with a drink “what is this!?” I questioned “Corona hoe, just in a glass. Poured it out, just drink it” taking the glass from her, who the hell pours Corona in a wine glass “do I got to keep it PG?” Chris said on the mic “be freaky!!! The kids don’t care” Noealla half screamed out “shall I sing what I sing before I lay the pipe? I am joking, we got to keep it PG. Noella nasty as hell, look at Majesty. Ask that poor girl” Noella really don’t care when Majesty is around, Chris is really something else when on the stage, he comes alive and I love it. Drinking from the wine glass as Trey got Majesty there with them “so Majesty gets to choose because y’all nasty, what do you want Chris to sing?” Chris asked holding the mic to her, Majesty looks so shy “yeah, yeah” she said in a whisper “oh nooo! Why is my daughter boring!!” Noella spat.

I think Majesty’ day has been made “ok, since that song was not what you wanted. I’ll do something Acapella but y’all need to join in, this is something I do when it’s three in the morning and Rihanna be sleeping with her head wrap on” he is so embarrassing me “but we don’t reach up for no condom though!” I shouted looking away “I promote only safe sex, ignore Rihanna she is nasty we got young kids here” he is stupid, honestly. Chris cleared his throat “Three in the morning , you know I'm horny” he sang and he didn’t even need to sing more as we all sang for him “So why don't you come over my place and put a smile on my face” we sang aloud “leaving the club, shawty hurry up. So we can get this party started and take off our clothes now” Sonita put her around me “you about to get some tonight” she said in my ear and then it just hit me, why am I drinking when I could be pregnant “you seen something?” she questioned, shaking my head “no, just thinking” I am not getting my hopes up but you never know and I want to be safe.

Leandra pulled a face at me “you had that drink for far too long, boring bitch” I don’t even need drink to have fun so fuck this hoe “oh my god! This is my song!” I half shouted as Toni Braxton - You’re Making Me High came on, finally something that I love and I lowkey wish I was drunk “change the song!” someone shouted, I am about sick of those boys turning every song “I'll always think of you inside of my private thoughts, I can imagine you-” I sang but Sonita cut me off “Chris’ friend is cute, the tall chocolate one” glaring at her “please no, just no!” I shouted “no what?” Chris came out of nowhere “you being near me, I feel single and baby free right now so move” Sonita laughed at the side of me “why you playing for? You been eyeing me up across the room for so long and now you telling me this? Lying ass” he ain’t wrong, I have been “Ooooh, I get so high when, I'm around you baby. I can touch the sky, you make my temperature rise, You're making me high. Baby, baby, baby, baby” I sang to Chris “no, don’t sing this to him. We are men free zone here” placing my hand on his chest “no, you go and be with your friends” why did I even bother eyeing him up “I like when you sing to me, it’s sexual because I know you mean it” I shrugged not saying a word to him.

I gasped grabbing Chris’ hand, this song always got to me when I was single as fuck and I wasn’t with Chris “now you want me?” placing my arms around Chris’ neck smiling “because this time with this song, I am with you. I still find you annoying though” he grinned at me “If I never feel you in my arms again, if I never feel your tender kiss again. If I never hear I love you now and then, will I never make love to you once again” I sang to Chris, Chris lowered his head to mine and kissed my cheek as he held me close. I sighed out heavily, I am so happy that my life is at peace and I am not lonely as fuck listening to this song “these lyrics don’t mean shit now, because it’s different. I am here and I tell you I love you every day” Chris said in my ear, my eyes closed trying to not get emotional. Chris moved back from the hug and I opened my eyes “I love you” Chris pressed a kiss to my lips, smiling at him as he stared at me knowing I am feeling slightly sad.

Looking down at my watch, where are those kids of mine. They was supposed to be back an hour ago, I told them we needed to leave for New Jersey. Both of those boys never take me seriously and try to hug up on me when I tell them off, I expected them to both be here. Hearing the door close shut downstairs “mom, we home!” hearing Caiden shout me, oh they decided to both come back now. I am actually going to kill Cassius “is Cassius with you” walking down the steps “mommy” seeing my beautiful baby girl “Reina baby, I need you to go upstairs and put your bag away ok? I will come upstairs” reaching the bottom of the steps “but mommy, I make this!” she held up the hand painting she has done “awwww, oh wow. That is beautiful” pressing a kiss to her forehead “I love it baby, daddy will also. Go upstairs for me, and you. Cassius, don’t you dare move” Caiden and Cassius both laughed, I don’t know what is funny “I come back mommy” Reina made her way up the steps, she is eight. She was actually eight last week before Chris decided to go and leave for his adventures “nigga, you done with” Caiden pushed Cassius saying “didn’t I tell you to come back home straight away with Reina and your brother? You said to me, if I can drive dad’ car I will be back. I let you drive his car and you come back late, I swear to god you may have got into UCLA but that does not mean you sit back, you work harder Cassius. And what is this” throwing the blunt at him “woah, that ain’t mine” he pointed at the floor “awwww shit, mom. He bad” Caiden laughed “you’re being disrespectful to me, you’re eighteen thinking you an adult and can do what you like. I won’t have it, you can now walk your ass to college. Park the car in the garage now. Don’t speak to me either, and you laughing. Don’t let him teach you his ways” we about to be so late for the jet because of these kids.

Walking off to see what Reina is doing, Cassius is just like Chris. He is a pain in the butt, he does everything on the sly thinking he is funny. I get it, he is an eighteen year old boy with money but I don’t want that, I never had money like that. He needs to respect what he has, Caiden just follows his bad ways and it doesn’t help that Chris laughs and daps him. Because Cassius is in UCLA Chris is fine with it but it doesn’t work like that, Cassius is his golden child because he is like Chris. Hearing Reina talking to herself in her room, it took me so long to get pregnant again, I struggled for long and even now. I am now pregnant but that is because I had help, it was a painful process and full of miscarriages but Chris helped me so much “why are you playing with dolls baby? Did I not say get ready” she got up from the floor “mommy I did but I want to put her to sleep and then we can go, are we seeing Uncle Blake?” nodding my head smiling “you love Uncle Blake don’t you?” she nodded “I like Shaun, he make me laugh too” she ran off, Blake’ son is around the same age as her “ok, just put them away so we can go” I am three months pregnant, I am so very nervous but excited and this is my last baby.

Seeing the walking advertisements for Black Pyramid walk out, they both like to take their time even though I said we are late. Caiden pulled open the SUV door “Reina, stop trying to kick your brother” she is purposely kicking her legs around as Caiden climbed in “yes Reina, stop it!” Caiden spat “what is the queen doing now? I am telling dad” her face dropped “mommy I didn’t do anything, stop it” Reina whined out about to cry “he is lying, ignore him. Just sit down” Cassius closed the door sitting in the back “mom” hearing Cassius say “yes?” I said not wanting to look at him but I did “I am sorry, I didn’t have it. If I had weed why would I leave it out? I am not stupid, my friend had it. I wouldn’t disrespect you and I was late. That was on me” nodding my head “why was you late? Something you want to tell me?” Caiden knows everything about Cassius, he is forever laughing at him but they are practically twins “I am just a little behind on some grades, don’t tell dad. Coach said if I don’t improve I can get kicked out, I got angry and I just needed to be alone. It’s my fault” I don’t understand him “you have everything right in front of you and you’re acting like you have stress on you? You’re not hard done by, you didn’t even have to fight to get there. I have watched you, I am seeing it. I get it, Chris is busy for now but you can’t do this for me? You can’t be good for me, don’t ever ask me if you can go and tour with your dad again because no. And please, if you say but we can get modelling contracts I will come there and pop you in ya mouth” he is so frustrating, Caiden busted out laughing.

Side eyeing my son taking pictures of himself on the private jet, he is something else that boy “got my nigga Cai, and my beautiful mom” turning my head “no, mom. Come on, she shy. My mom is more beautiful than your mom, get on my mom’ level. Chanel, Prada, Dolce and what else mom? She owning these billboards, why you think I am so beautiful” looking over at Cassius “are you live?” I questioned “maybe” he said “you forgot Balmain” I added before looking away “ayeee, my mom is balling. She lowkey just mad at me” Reina started climbing on the seat “I want to see mom” she started climbing on the table “sit down, we are leaving” Cassius chuckled to himself “I am done but mom, seriously. I will do better” Cassius knows he is in the wrong “I will see what happens” they are both good boys but they just get strayed away and I get it, they want to be teenagers and do their thing but anything they do looks bad on us, that one time we let Cassius go out and do his thing at night and the next day the headlines were Chris Brown son, the gangbanger just because he was in the wrong crowd or has Chris said he got lead away to that. He doesn’t get it, he is famous in his own right and people envy that, I just worry about him.

Home sweet home, smiling at my family home not changing one bit at all “you better hug my dad boys, Reina not you because you are a good girl but them two. My dad adores you two” looking behind me, they are both on their phones “your got a pimple on your forehead” Caiden and Cassius both looked up “what did I say!?” I spat “I heard mom, hug grand G” Caiden said, opening the SUV door “I get out first, mommy wait” turning around “come on you” picking her out and placing her down on the ground “you worry too much sometimes mom” Caiden said as he got out of the SUV, he wrapped his arms around me “we good and I promise we are being good, I know you want to protect us” I feel I am failing at it “I try, both of you mean so much to me. You all do” hugging Caiden back “mommys boy” Cassius slapped the back of his head “nothing wrong with that, you’re forever saying sorry to me anyways” moving back from the hug, my smile grew seeing my dad holding Reina already “look at you boys, growing up so quick. Every time I see you both there is something different about you both” Cassius hugged my dad and I breathed out a sigh of relief “I do love when my grandkids come home and my daughter” smiling lightly letting Caiden hug my dad before I did.

“Dad, why are you doing here!?” hearing Cassius say “Chris is here?” I questioned “yes, why wouldn’t he be here. My princess, my baby” my dad hugged me “I am so happy to see you, being busy for me now” my dad and I walked into the home, his arm around me while holding Reina “is Blake and Nathan here?” Shaun ran over “Blake yes, Nathan no and Kyrie is overseas for football but I am ever so happy for him. He did it” seeing my husband and my two sons, they are like triplets which is scary “why didn’t you say!? I don’t like this surprises” hugging Chris “well you assumed I wouldn’t come, I missed you baby” I hate when he leaves “miss me daddy!” Reina yelped, Chris chuckled “and you baby” he said moving back from the hug “dad, I think it is weird that mom and you are still having babies. Why do you want more?” side eyeing Cassius “well son, you get a wife like Rylee I can’t keep my hands off of her. No disrespect Harvey but yeah. She hot like fire” Chris winked at me “y’all nasty, granddad you need to tell them off. No more babies” waving Cassius off “boy bye, who are you” he thinks he is something special “look at this, the nephews are here!” Blake loud self making an entrance.

Chris placed his on my stomach “how is Peanut the forth?” stifling out a giggle “Peanut the forth is ok, it is doing good just missing you. I can’t believe you flew back Chris, I didn’t expect you to do that you know” Chris held my hand “well I wouldn’t miss this day for anything, she was like a mom to me. Royalty couldn’t come?” shaking my head “Chris, you know she went overseas to do her thing. She did call in the morning, you did say you are going to see Roro in London. She is happy there, it’s a shame she had to go overseas but you know why, she wanted to get away from her mom” Chris rubbed his head “when she told me that night, I was hoping she didn’t say overseas. I wanted my baby to have happiness and she has, I still watch her. She got some weird white friends, I am proud of all of my kids but I am disappointed she went overseas” pulling a face at Chris “you need to keep an eye on your golden child though, I know you keep telling me he is fine but I don’t approve of his stupid ways. You make it worse, taking him stupid places like Vegas” Chris busted out laughing “but he a nigga like me, he good Rylee. Come on, look at me” placing my hand over his face “I can see what you was like, love changed you” that is the only thing to change Chris, still amazes me that it was me that changed him.