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This is an alternate version of my invader zim sona! ^^ in this AU, she's an irken! I wrote a backstory for her as wel! I'm not sure whether to go with the human or irken variant though so I might make a poll soon :0

Johnny was never intended to be a depiction of a person suffering from any mental condition steeped in reality besides being a pompous turd. What he deals with is less fact-based mental disorder and more Lovecraftian. 

Johnny was always meant to be based on a version of me that would have been one of those people you know, the ones that, sure they maybe got made fun of for being “weird” but were twisted into some disgusting, pathetic parody of the enlightened but thicker-skinned person they maybe should have become.

At the time of making those old books, I was having fun MAKING fun of a person I saw I could easily become without a decent amount of self confidence and a functional sense of humor, the dude that rants and rants about how much they hate a thing while becoming consumed by that thing, to where your identity is impressing others with how angry you are, how much smarter you are than the people you look down on and how everything would be better if you decided who lived and who died, what was right and what was wrong.

Nny, in my head, was a mix of relatable ideas thrown in with unknowable, cosmic horror. Person who gets made fun of for being different? Relatable. Person who lives out the nasty-fun wish-fulfillment of hurting everyone who hurts them? Ugly, but super relatable. interdimensional nightmare thing that uses weak-willed types for its own interdimensional nightmare thing plans? Maybe not as relatable, but cool.

Filter all that through my dorky, 19 year old brain and you end up with the goofy mess JTHM turned into!

Now and then I get an angry email from someone commenting on my insensitive, wildly inaccurate portrayal of mental illness. Rather then respond to those people, I just stay quiet because those people are fucking crazy, am I right??

In case you didn’t know, Oni Press is doing a new Zim comic series. And in case you also didn’t know, I worked on the Zim animated series right before Avatar, from 2000 to 2002, as a storyboard artist and later as art director. Jhonen Vasquez is an evil genius with a razor-sharp wit that never dulls. That project was an inspiring and seminal experience for me as a future show co-creator/runner. I learned a ton from Jhonen and all the amazing people on that crew. Some of those same amazing people are now making this comic, including my friend Aaron Alexovich. He showed me his pencils for the first issue and they are fantastic. 

It may be the last birthday of my life.

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So many notes, so little help.

i haven't seen anything about this on my dashboard, so i wanted to share. ICE gestapo killed another human being on tuesday. he leaves behind three sons and his wife, who he has spent the last 35 years building a life with

there is a gofundme supported by the league of united latin american citizens set up to help with funeral costs, legal fees, and supporting his family moving forward.