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[ID: A digital drawing of Taako from The Adventure Zone Balance. He is a thin elf with medium brown skin, short, curly dark brown hair, and brown eyes. He wears gold piercings and a hoop earring, a green wizard's hat, a scarf and cape, and a blue vest. He smiles, raising his left hand with sparkles glittering around his finger tips. End ID]

[image description: a drawing of Taako, a light-skinned elf with freckles and very long, curly blonde hair. He’s wearing a blue tank top, red swim trunks and a puka shell necklace. He’s holding an orange surfboard with one hand and making the “hang loose” hand symbol. The second image is a closeup on Taako’s chest and face.] 

Something about taako's famous monologue including "i have a beating heart!" and lup's speech on the best day ever having "taako, you Are my heart. You know that right?" Is making me fully ugly sob. We know it goes both ways, is the thing. He's her heart, and she's his, and this sad empty version of taako that has forgotten is declaring that he has a beating heart while she is simultaneously missing and dead and also Right There at his side, so he's completely right and completely wrong and he doesn't KNOW

Do you ever think about how Barry died to Lup's relic. Do you think the flames felt familiar? And that Despite his fear there was a sense of safety to them?

Thinking about how, in The Suffering Game, Taako sacrifices his "beauty" (whatever that means to him personally) and has his appearance permanently changed and how, on top of this being about his vanity, his appearance is unknowingly one of the only remnants/remainders of his sister he has? Like, they're identical twins, and the concept that his appearance is one of the only remnants of Lup left in the world after she was removed from everyone's memory is so interesting and sad to me. The idea that Taako unknowingly gave away one of his last links to Lup that he didn't even know he had, and feeling some sort of deep loss about it that he literally, physically cannot describe or think too hard about...and sure, he can magic his appearance back to an extent, but he has fundamentally lost such a big part of not only himself, but of the most important person in his life, and he doesn't even know.