Hold Your Heart In My Hands
A JazzWave fic requested by @fanficmaniatic | @kardayย
General content warning for blood and tending to an injury.
In the surveillance room, Soundwave often found solace from his rowdy compatriots. No one bothered to step foot inside, not even his cassettes who were frankly too nosy for their own good. If anyone did accidentally enter the infamous surveillance room, they were subject to an interrogation from the Decepticonโs intimidating communications officer. Soundwave wasnโt stupidโhe knew that not many aboard the Nemesis truly enjoyed his company. They were too put off by his stilted speech, his silent E.M. field, and his blank stare to attempt any friendly banter let alone stumble upon his secret sanctuary.
Of course, the surveillance room was the one place on the Nemesis that didnโt have any cameras monitoring it. Not even the hallway directly outside the door had a screen to display movement. With three vents leading to the room and how much time Soundwave spent inside it, it would be embarrassingly easy to off such an important member of Decepticon high command. Not that Soundwave was worried. He could handle almost anyone among their ranks and it wasnโt like the Autobots had enough gall to attack their vessel.
A tiny noise filtered through one of the vents. Soundwave stared at it as the sound of metal against metal slowly increased in volume until the vent cover popped off with a resounding slam! He sighed, covering his visor with his servo. Another clang echoed in the room as something much heavier than a vent cover landed on the floor. Soundwave dragged his servo across his faceplate. He shouldโve erased the mechโs damn memory of this route. It wouldโve been simple enough to restrain him, open up his helm, pick apart his processor to locate and lock the strain in his core files.
Instead, Soundwave snapped at the mech on his floor, โJazz: not welcome here.โ
Jazz smirked at Soundwave. He moved so his spinal strut rested against the wall. โCโmon, mech. You didnโt say that last timeโโ
โJazz: desist,โ Soundwave hissed to the spyโs amusement.
They both knew there would be no removing Jazz by physical means before he wanted to leave. Soundwave turned back to his wall of monitors. If Jazz insisted on staying, then Soundwave needed to do his best to ignore him. His optics followed the movements on the screens. Skywarp was testing her teleportation limits with Shockwave, Rumble and Frenzy were running from an oil-slicked Starscream, Shadow Striker raced through the halls, narrowly dodging mechs walking through the hallways, Hook removed a rogue missile from Vortexโs chassisโ
A sharp tug at Soundwaveโs processor nearly made him fall forward from the sudden abrasiveness of it. He managed to stay upright but his frame locked up. The pull dissipated to a weak pulse of energy. Soundwave had felt sensations much stronger than it many times outside the surveillance room. A damaged mech on the battlefield automatically requesting medical aid from a grievous injury, a cassette shot down while performing reconnaissanceโthey always released a distressing field to garner pity from nearby mechs.
Soundwave whipped around to stare down at Jazz who, while not under the Decepticonโs watchful gaze, had let his faceplate slip into a grimace. All at once, Soundwave realized Jazzโs E.M. field loosened from its tight shield held close to the mechโs plating and it was suddenly too difficult to ignore. The third in command moved without conscious thought, dropping to kneel beside the Autobot that had invaded the Nemesis time and time again.
โJazz: injured?โ Soundwave tried cautiously.
He had seen the other mech on the battlefield enough times to know that Jazz acted like a cybercat when hurtโheโd slink off when no one was paying attention to tend to his own wounds.
Once, in the aftermath of a particularly brutal battle, Soundwave went searching for a cassette that had gone missing in the fray. Instead, he had found Jazz splayed out on the ground with a giant chunk of his spinal strut sparking, incapable of movement. He couldโve terminated the mechโno one had ever caught the elusive Jazz with his guard downโbut when Soundwave raised his blaster, Jazz merely tilted his helm back. As if the matter of deactivation was beyond him.
It irked him. It set off alarms across his HUD. Yetโฆ
Soundwave had healed Jazz that day. Behind a cracked rock, Soundwave welded some wires closedโa butchered job at field medicine but it allowed the Autobot to crawl back to a real medic.
Now, Jazz winced, tilting his helm away. โHope that offerโs still on the table. Even though weโre notโฆ you know.โ
Soundwave sighed in exasperation. Leave it to Jazz to use the worst words to describe theirโdonโt call it a relationship, itโs not a damned courtshipโliaison. That was worse. He grabbed at Jazzโs arm, popping a piece of armor off to reveal the medical ports hidden beneath.
โHey.โ Jazz attempted to pull his arm back but his strength was waning. โNot even gonna offer a mech some energon first?โ
Yes, Soundwave thought bitterly as he jammed one of his plugs into Jazzโs medical port, this was definitely worse. He ignored the other mechโs comments as he called upon the frameโs diagnostic data. His HUD lit up in an instant with notifications. He went through them, noting any concerning input before coming across a notice flashing red across his visor. A laceration in the upper chassis caused by rapid and continued movement jostling an embeddedโ
โYou were shot?โ Soundwave suddenly hissed, surprise overriding his vocalizer patch. He tried to look at Jazz in the optics but the spy kept avoiding his gaze. โJazz: found by Decepticons?โ His processor ran a mile a minute, formulating scenarios that would end in this exact outcome. He had never asked what brought the spy to his surveillance room that one fateful night, what kept him coming back for more, out of respect for both their sensitive jobs, but now Soundwave couldnโt help but wonder who among his ranks shot hisโ
โNot a Decepticon,โ Jazz hissed. โAn Autobot.โ
โOh.โ That silenced Soundwaveโs processor for a moment. Then it only piqued his interest. โAutobots: subject to insubordination?โ
If the Autobots began attacking their own, they might be even easier to fell in a sweep led by Starscream should Megatron allow itโฆ
A digit tapped Soundwaveโs helm, bringing him back to the conversation. Right. Jazz was injured. And Soundwave was already planning the Autobotsโ demise. He reset his vocalizer to ensure it didnโt needlessly glitch out on him again.
Before he had a chance to say anything, Jazz smirked at him and asked, โSoundwave: apologetic?โ
The Decepticon couldnโt help the way his pauldrons hiked in his embarrassment. It was a far cry from a perfect mimicry of his voice but it didnโt need to be to get the point across. Instead of deigning Jazz with a proper response, he finally located the bullet wound and dug his digits in. Jazz hissed, batting at his arm.
โEasy, mech.โ
โJazz: not easy,โ Soundwave mocked. He pressed his free servo against the other mechโs collar faring as his digits searched for the bullet.
It felt odd to be sticking his servo somewhere so close to Jazzโs spark, like an uncomfortable pinch to his sensornetโs common stimuli. This close, he couldnโt ignore the normally silent spy. Not just his wordsโJazzโs entire frame seemed to work under the assumption that no one was authorized to listen to it. So the freed E.M. field, the frantic and nonsensical thought processes filtering through his audials, wereโฆ odd to say the least. He couldnโt mention it aloud, though. Knowing the intelligence officer, heโd scare the poor mech away by mentioning any of his internal functions.
Soundwaveโs digits knocked against something. He checked Jazzโs faceplate and when he didnโt contort it any more than it already was, Soundwave grasped the object. It was small, solidโthe bullet. As he began to remove it, Jazzโs servo covered his. He paused, staring at the Autobotโs blank visor. โBullet: needs to be removed. Frame nanites cannot begin self-healing with alien object obstructing theirโโ
Jazz gritted his dentae to ignore the pain. โIf that bullet comes out, youโre gonna have worse problems than a dead Autobot on your hands.โ
โEarth slang,โ Soundwave tutted.
At that, Jazz grinned. โThis Earth slang got pretty far with you, didnโt it?โ
Soundwave twisted his digits. โDesist,โ he ordered.
โScrap. I got the message, mech.โ Jazz pushed at Soundwaveโs arm. They were still attached. Somehow, that was more embarrassing than being servo-deep in the mechโs chassis. โโs a tracking bullet.โ
The Decepticon froze. An Autobot shot Jazz with a tracking bullet. An Autobot shot Jazz with a tracking bullet. Soundwaveโs frame moved subconsciously, pressing the blaster he kept tucked away in his subspace against Jazzโs mandible. The barrel forced Jazz to tilt his helm back. He batted at Soundwaveโs arm like he wasnโt being held at gunpoint. Like Soundwave wasnโt flinging his energon everywhere.
โRelax,โ Jazz insisted, hissing low. โIt wonโt send a locator beacon.โ He pushed at Soundwaveโs armโnot the one aiming a gun at his helm. No. The one still forming a medical connection between the two mechs. โMy security protocols deactivated my internal locator beacon millennia ago. Which means,โ he drawled, visor flickering, โthe bulletโs signal is blocked as long as itโs in my frame.โ
It made sense, Soundwave reasoned with all of his processing that still argued to kill Jazzโannihilate the enemy, the threat to his cassettes. He shook his helm. Those logic strains were based on irrational emotions. It wouldnโt do him well to give them any credence. Still, his blaster remained where it was. โJazz: true purpose for coming here. Answer now.โ
Usually, anyoneโAutobot and Decepticonโtrembled at the rumble in Soundwaveโs glyphs when he took on a threatening tone. Under normal circumstances, the Decepticonโs third in command could paint fear in the spark of any mech he spoke to.
Jazz was not an average mech.
His servo tugged at Soundwaveโs, pulling it closer to his chassis. โGonna make me say it, huh.โ He wasnโt asking. He knew. Soundwave wasnโt the type of mech to do anything unless he was asked and he would make Jazz ask. โYouโve got those seismic waves, right? Iโve seen you use them on the battlefield. Destroyed everything in your path.โ He pressed Soundwaveโs servo flat against his wound. โThink you can focus that right here for me?โ
Soundwaves were catastrophic weapons. They could deactivate an entire squadron of mechs in a matter of kliks. Soundwave only used the trick when under extreme stress, when he believed he had nothing left to lose. He attempted to separate himself from Jazz. โSeismic waves: incredibly damaging.โ
But Jazz didnโt seem to comprehend the magnitude of his request. He pressed forward, clutching Soundwaveโs servo. โWhen used by a random mech, sure. Youโre not just anybody, Sounds.โ His glyphs turned to a soft buzzing static as he said the Decepticonโs designation. It left Soundwave checking to see if the noise had knocked his gyros off kilter. โCโmon. You can focus that power here, canโt you?โ
โJazz: requires medical assistance,โ Soundwave tried instead. He couldnโt escape Jazzโs iron-clad grip on his servo but knew that if Jazz persisted, it wouldnโt end well. He could deactivate him. โSoundwave: incapable of completing request.โ
โHey,โ came Jazzโs gentle voice. Soundwave silently cursed how the tender intonation made it so his spark eased in its casing. The Autobot reached for his other servo, the one holding the blaster. It fell with a clatter as Jazz slid his digits across his palm and intertwined their digits. โUse that big, beautiful processor of yours. I know youโre still searching through our connection. Youโve gotta be able to see my spark readings. What do they say?โ
Despite the uneasiness that continued to plague Soundwaveโs field, he listened to Jazz. It was simple enough to pull the information from their link. His visor dimmed as the readings filled his HUD.
He froze.
Although Jazz was suffering from an injury, trapped under the stress from energon loss, his spark spun at an even pace. Soundwaveโs visor brightened to the image of Jazzโs calm faceplate.ย
โI trust you, Soundwave.โ
Oh.
Oh.
And wasnโt that just a terrifying thing? Soundwave held his enemyโs life in his servos. He didnโt even want to take itโwhat kind of Decepticon was he? He stared at where his servo still covered Jazzโs wound, then at the rapidly dimming blue visor.
โSoundwave: will try,โ he said slowly.
The smile Jazz threw his way sent his spark spinning again. He busied himself by building up seismic waves to the speed of his spark. A low, constant hum filled the surveillance room as the waves traveled through his arm. He increased the force, the hum turning into a deep, plating-rattling rumble. Multiple pop-ups filled his HUD. He cleared them before they could convince him to stop. The bullet was deteriorating from the collisions. Soundwave could do this. He could do this for Jazz. Red flashed across his optics as he doubled down. They only needed to hold out just a bit longer. He watched the last pieces of the tracking bullet evaporate, entering Jazzโs fuel lines to be discarded.
Soundwave did it.
He saved Jazz.
โJazzโ!โ
The glyphs turned into a frenzied static as Soundwave finally looked at Jazzโs grey visor. All too suddenly, the sensation of the other mechโs limp grip registered to Soundwaveโs overtaxed processor. An odd, warbled noise echoed in the surveillance room. It took him a moment to realize that the sound came from him.
โJazz,โ he whispered, leaning close to the other mech.
There wasnโt the comforting thrum of a spark easing into a normal spin rate, no readings going into the green as Jazzโs frame finally relaxed while its nanites worked to repair himโonly silence.
โJazz,โ he tried again. โJazz: respond.โ
Nothing.
โJazz,โ his glyphs were basically static at that point, cracking from the force on his vocalizer, โrespond.โ
It felt like a cacophony of sensationsโthe hum of mechs speaking through the monitors, the constant buzz of the equipment, the erratic vents coming from Soundwave. He had to do something. But what? He was a communications officer. He managed surveillance. He couldnโt even perform basic field medicine, let alone reactivate a terminated mech.
โJazz,โ Soundwave sobbed.
His digits dug into the wound, energon already congealing at the opening. He hoped for a curse, a swat from the other mechโs servo for the harsh treatment. He searched through their medical link for any readings. The only reports that came up were the last spark notes, the speed of its spin, how it abruptly stoppedโ
Soundwave froze. He read the report, then read it again. Jazzโs spark skipped then skittered to a stop when Soundwave amped up his waves. Perhapsโฆ he could use his waves to jumpstart Jazzโs spark.
It had to work.
It had to.
The release for Jazzโs chestplates was easy to find through their link. They opened with a hiss from the hydraulics already beginning to seize. Inside lay his sparkโbright white, nearly blinding, but starting to dull by the klik. Soundwave pressed both his servos against it, wincing at the heat it gave off and the way Jazzโs arm came along with his. He released his seismic waves just as he had done before. His optics searched frantically for some sort of physical sign that it was working. When there was nothing, he searched through their connection. Jazzโs spark was stagnatingโnot brightening, not turning dull. Soundwave increased the power of his waves, ignoring the sound of their armor rattling against protoform.
Andโ
Frame reboot: successful.
Running diagnostics.
On instinct, Jazz dismissed the scans. His processor ached and the screenings usually didnโt tell him anything he couldnโt feel for himself.
Reinitializing diagnostic scans.
Now that was oddโฆ
Jazz searched through his HUD for what was overriding his commands and found a basic connection formed between his medical ports and another mech. His processor lagged for a moment as it attempted to form the necessary logic strains to figure out what happened.
Thatโs when one hundred percent of the past however long hit him like a semiโOptimus had apologized for cycles after but, scrap, it still ached in his pelvic jointsโ
Jazz groaned. His helm fell back, clanging against the wall. โPitslag. โs like Volcanicus stepped on meโฆโ A firm weight shuffled in his lap. When he onlined his optics, he met Soundwaveโs bright yellow gaze. โHey, Sounds. Iโm โnna guess everything went well.โ
At first, Soundwave said nothing. Just kept his unwavering gaze set on Jazzโs faceplate. Then he raised a servo and pressed it against Jazzโs mandible, soft to start then firm once he realized Jazz wasnโt going to leave. A creaky, frail noise came from his vocalizer. All at once, he pressed forward, pulling Jazz closer.
โJazz: functioning,โ he whispered over and over again.
He pressed his mask to Jazzโs faceplate. It left the spy quite thrown for a loop. Jazz tried to turn and face Soundwave but was stopped by the Decepticonโs mouth on hisโwhenโd he even lower his mask? His frame froze, hydraulics seizing with a whine. Soundwave was kissing him.
Soundwave was kissing him.
Since whenโ
Subconsciously, Jazz shook his helm. He wasnโt about to look a gift horse in the mouthโearth slangโand offlined his optics. His arms came around Soundwaveโs middle, his digits fitting into the grooves along the Decepticonโs spinal strut. The divide between his chassis and Soundwaveโs was nonexistent, held together as they were. A ping came up on his HUD that he had finally reached an optimum internal temperature after rebooting. When Soundwave pulled away, Jazz felt dazed, confused. He didnโt bother to online his optics.
โYou gotta tell me what happened.โ
Soundwave slipped closer. โRequest: later?โ
โLater,โ Jazz agreed. โLater.โ












