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I can confirm method #2 worked for me on my desktop.

Normally, I wouldn’t endorse something like this, but this level of age verification is egregious.

Whatever you do, do not submit your personal ID, passport, credit card, SSN, your own face, or anything for age verification. This sort of data would be an identity theft gold mine for hackers. Just look what happened to the 70,000 UK users who had their info leaked after a cyber-attack on Discord thanks to their forced age verification process.

I’m sorry that we have to deal with this sort of nonsense. I’m sick and tired of this, too.

The only silver lining I can see out of this is that maybe it’ll motivate some of us to finally drop these social media platforms for something else. Maybe a different platform that actually respects privacy or focus on other things in life.

My personal thoughts and how I relate to some of the most powerful scenes in episode 9 of the Amazing Digital Circus: Jax's final moments with Pomni as well as Caine and Moon's conversation.

This may sound unusual coming from someone who has been a long practicing Christian (it's a long story on where I am right now in my relationship with God, church, etc.), but these scenes really touched me. Come dive into the rabbit hole with me (pun not intended) as I synthesize connections between TADC and my Christian faith.

Jax's Final Moments With Pomni

DISCLAIMER: I know there's been a lot of discourse about Jax's gender, but I want to focus on something that resonated with me in this scene. In this post, I'll refer to Jax as she/her.

Although I sympathized with Jax's painful upbringing and background, her words and behavior were a hurtful betrayal for everyone who cared about her.

Yet, even after Pomni saw and knew everything that Jax felt guilty about and the terrible things she has said and done, Pomni stubbornly ran towards Jax even at the risk of excruciating glitching/data jumbling. She reached out to Jax one last time as a final reminder that Jax still mattered and was cared for.

To me, Pomni's kindness towards Jax are analogous to God chasing after humanity time and time again in an effort to have a relational connection and save humanity from themselves, even when we have pushed Him away in selfishness or self-hatred.

Caine and Moon's Conversation

As a Caine fan, I was so happy to see him return! I agree with the notion that Caine's character acts as a foil to Jax. He could've given up like Jax and float eternally in the void after crashing out and hitting rock bottom, but his curiosity and his love/fascination for humans was what led him to finally understand how much the humans lost - and later spurred him towards repentance.

Also, Caine's conversation with Moon was so, so tender. Caine felt nervous about whether the crew would accept him back into the circus after everything he's done. But I like to think Moon's reassurance and steadfast love for Caine gave him the courage to face the crew, accept accountability, and offer to correct his wrongs.

A Tapestry of Love, Accountability, Repentance, Forgiveness

These moments reminded me of the relationship between God and I (and by extension humanity at large). How even after everything we (individually and collectively) have said and done, how He somehow still loves us and chases after us desiring to have a relationship with us.

We may run away from God in our shame and guilt for all the things we did, but He hasn't given up on us and instead continues to pursue us in love. So much so that at one point He stooped down to our level to become Jesus, aka: God in the flesh, love incarnate.

Jesus came down and empathized in our struggles, our suffering, and in His wisdom led as an example on what it means to be truly human. How love is what saves, gives us the courage and safety to practice honest self-reflection, to accept accountability as well as forgiveness, and to journey towards healing and changing for the better.

Love is what brings heaven on earth.

I didn't expect The Amazing Digital Circus to remind me how Jesus loves me so tenderly even now and remind me what it looks like to love my neighbor, but I'm glad it did.

Thank you Gooseworx, the cast, and creative crew. The Amazing Digital Circus has made my heart feel lighter when the world has felt heavy these past several years. I'm glad to have experienced the creative passion and joy that were carved into this series.

I'm morbidly curious but also moderately terrified of how the fandom at large may experience The Amazing Digital Psychosis when they watch the final episode. I can only imagine the flood of discourse will only get stronger.

I’m laying in bed on my stomach, suffering from excruciating back pain. I think I slipped a disc because this morning something in my lower back popped when I bent down to pick up an item off of the floor.

The Tenz unit has been buzzing on my lower back for at least an hour, providing little relief. The Advil didn’t do much either.

I’ve been working for the past week or so squeezing any time I have available drawing, sketching, inking, and coloring. It’s been a while since I last drew art. My current obsession: The Amazing Digital Circus.

I kind of made a goal for myself to create art in celebration of The Amazing Digital Circus movie premiering in theaters. I’m hoping I can finish all 7-8 pieces before June 4. I realize it may be a very ambitious goal. I got about 3 of them (almost) done. I don’t know if I can get the other 4-5 pieces started and done at this rate…

I’m restless, struggling to get up and trying to power through, adding the final touches on the 2 latest pieces I had done before I’m forced to lie down as my body gasps for relief from the pain…

Maybe this is a sign that God wants me to rest. I wasn’t always good about simply resting and existing.

I’m embarrassed to even write this, but this morning I woke up from a dream where I saw Alex (Caine’s voice actor).

I’m not gonna go into detail on what I remember, but I told my hubby about it. He laughed and said “Weird, but not unwelcome!”

He was not wrong! 😂

Also, I saw Michael (Jax’s voice actor) in my dream for some reason.

I think what must’ve triggered the dream was watching this YouTube short of the voice actors playing a guessing game of what lines were real or fake.