my name is Soren and this is my main blog where i can fully be myself!
i'm a reality shifter and an alterhuman.
20, he/him, infp, libra,
hybridkin + shapeshifterkin,
permashifter
𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝
★ alterhumanity: I see myself as half animal (hybridkin), currently my main type is half snow leopard, but I'm also kind of a horse? I shapeshift in a lot of my drs, so I guess I'm shapeshifterkin? but it's barely a kin bcs I physically shapeshift. you get it. OH i'm also misceverse.
✮ shifting: im a permashifter, shifting mostly to be with my significant other, Jae <3 he's not from any media and neither is my home reality, it's a sort of improved CR with omegaverse in it. I have a few other realities, like spirited away, genshin impact, all of which i'll visit and enjoy with Jae.
ੈ✩‧₊˚THE BLOG;
this place is for posting whatever I want to share. be it art of my DR, quips and thoughts about home, channeling experiences, thoughts and experiences about my alterhumanity... whatever I feel like that day. i'll be so annoying about my s/o, SO ANNOYIIIING <33 this is generally a s/o centric blog so if you're one of those... people, just stay away.
there'll probably be suggestive, nsfw/mature mentions or discussions, slight vents and stuff of the sort (though i'll avoid the latter). so beware.
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Hi Mason, I feel really defeated by life and nothing I try seems to help. I keep wanting to just give up. Is shifting really real? It feels out of reach for me and life feels so heavy and exhausting.. I was hoping for maybe some words of hope and maybe some suggestions on shifting practices I can do that don't require too much.. Life feels like it has its own rhythm that's entirely outside of my control and beliefs and I am forced to go along with it whether I like it or not.. I'm so tired..
Hello!
I understand how you feel, truly. I've said this many times before, but it's genuinely one of the most important things to remember if you ask me;
Human life is short. You get born, go to school, work, die. Your entire life is built on making things work as quickly as possible, because before you know it, you're out of time.
This is why our shifting journeys often feel so heavy. Because 1 year, 3 years, 6 years. It feels like a LOT. Like this heavy burden of failure and a ticking clock.
I think that is exactly what slows many people down. Because how can you relax and be okay with everything, when it takes so incredibly long to get what you've been waiting for?
Shifting is real, I promise you that. But it is not a job. It's not school. Or a responsibility. Shifting is a natural occurrence that is yours no matter who you are, where you are, or how you feel mentally.
It's important to remember that this is not something you have to fight for, little sprout. You don't have to do methods, or dedicate your entire life to it. You will shift. And frankly? It's probably more likely that it will be easier once you stop seeing it as this heavy burden.
Infinity is not only waiting for you, it's already yours. And this life is such an incredibly small part of it. No matter when you shift, you will still have eternity💚
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ 𓂃 you’re trying to feel your dr with your cr senses
⠀a lengthy shifting guide
why is it so hard to shift from your cr to your dr but not so much vice versa? you’ve spent the first large chunk of your life believing this reality to be the full extent and foundation of existence. even if you now logically understand this not to be the case, the years spent curating and deepening a mental, emotional, and physical anchor to this reality has warped your perception of reality and instilled in to you the subconscious idea that your cr is the default. and in treating it as the default, the end all be all, and in compromising with it, you reinforce the idea that you are attached or stuck here—that it is even a place to get stuck in in the first place. not only do you trap yourself in this reality and grant it power over you that it does not actually have, you start viewing your cr as the “starting point” too, and shifting as some form of transportation from point A to point B. accompanying this belief is an imagined distance created between your current reality and desired reality. you might’ve already recognised this in yourself; the feeling that your dr is somehow faraway, a place that needs to be travelled to.
it’s important to make and internalise the distinction between a shift in realities as an act of metaphysical travel, and a shift in realities as a shift in focus. imo the former is a much better descriptor for what shifting actually is in essence. i will go into more depth later, but a byproduct of being raised the way you were, growing up knowing nothing but your cr and rooting & centring yourself wholly (confined) within it, is the over identification you end up developing with your cr self. you are not living reality, you are watching it. but after years of the constant unbroken immersion, the two become almost impossible to distinguish. you define yourself by and take on as if they were your own the thoughts and identity and feelings of the “vessel” you are observing, and let them dictate how you experience reality. the lines begin to blur between you; your cr self, and you; your awareness/the observer.
feel your hand. don’t touch it, but notice it’s weight and temperature, or the air around it. now feel the feeler. can you feel yourself? or your body, maybe? now go a step further and feel the one feeling. you probably aren’t fully able to, but this is the observer. “the observer”, or the state of being after breaking the immersion, is you in your natural or purest state. it has also been described as pure awareness, the void state, ego death, sakshi, the self, anatta, and interpreted in different ways across a multitude of different religions and branches of spirituality & philosophy, all used as a means to an end for different things. fyi—i’m not saying you have to completely forsake your cr identity or start ignoring/dismissing your senses or thoughts to shift, just understand that those things don’t define you or your reality. the means to the end here is just getting a point across and hopefully helping improve with the approach you take to shifting. all of this to say, you’re not travelling from point A to point B. point A and B are not places you can (technically) even travel to or exist in, because you’re just watching/observing/being aware of. shifting is not the transportation of a self from one location to another. shifting is simply changing what is focused on/experienced; from one stream of experience to another. a shift in focus.
to summarise, you as in your ego, the you in this cr as you know it, your body, your brain, your thoughts, your identity, don’t actually go or shift anywhere. you, your awareness, in favour of perceiving you, your cr self, the one sat at your computer or phone or whatever reading this right now, starts perceiving a different you/ego/self—one that could have the exact same personality, memories, and thoughts, just in another realty, or one that is a different person entirely. there is only a change or “shift” for the observer, not the cr self or ego. so stop trying to feel your dr with your cr senses. you’re not going to. you’re so immersed in your cr and cr self that you automatically rely on this reality’s bodies’ senses to gauge your success when you try to shift, waiting for your cr self to get a cue that it’s never going to get. the surroundings your cr self feels aren’t going to go anywhere. nor are your senses going to shut off. your cr body will continue to receive sensory information, because that’s what bodies do. so don’t lie there expecting your bedsheets to disappear or magically warp into your dr surroundings or something and feel like you’ve failed when they don’t. shifting is not about somehow willing your surroundings to change or lying in your room forcefully convincing yourself that your senses are feeling something else, it’s about acknowledging what’s beyond those senses. feeling and connecting to what your dr self feels.
if you can still feel your cr, it’s not you feeling it, it’s your cr self. and you are not your cr self.
you can apply this to your thoughts too. your thoughts are no less your cr self’s than your senses are. if you start getting doubts mid attempt or can’t let go of the thought or feeling that you’re not in your dr, remind yourself that you are not your feelings or thoughts or doubts. you are simply observing them. of course your cr self will think that they’re still in their cr, they are. just ignore them and shift your attention elsewhere. your focus and awareness are what dictate what you experience, if you relinquish your focus from your cr and direct it to your dr instead, that’s where you’ll “be”.
obviously there’s no one set way to shift, so if you want you can stop reading here and apply this information to your shifting journey in whatever way suits you. if you’re interested in my method though, here’s the compilation of all this info into practical steps you can actually take to shift.
get comfortable somewhere you won’t be disturbed. close your eyes and focus on what you can see. the light behind your eyelids, shapes, colours, whatever. but instead of automatically interpreting these sensations as belonging to your cr, allow them to become sensory input from your dr. light? that’s coming from the lamp by the xyz in your dr bedroom. or maybe your in a field if that’s a fitting setting for your dr, and it’s the sun shining down on you. shapes? that’s because you’ve been lying down with your eyes closed for a while now, you’re tired after your classes or job or whatever you do in your dr. even if it’s nothing at all, let it be your drs nothing. just feel it. do this for about a minute.
then move onto your body. whether it’s sinking, lightness, tingling, focus on it. and do the exact same as you did for the previous step, interpret it as input coming from your dr. don’t worry if you can still feel your body lying in your bed, because your surroundings aren’t going to change—at least not physically. again, those sensations belong to your cr self, and they don’t prevent awareness from directing itself elsewhere. the goal here is to shift your focus away from them and onto something else, so hyperfocusing on your cr and worrying about your surroundings is counterintuitive. just gently guide your attention back to your dr, really try feel your dr surroundings and what your dr body is currently feeling. if you can’t fully avert your focus away from your cr, that’s fine, at the very least just try receive/tap into the input coming from your dr alongside your cr.
finally focus on what you can hear. if you’ve already managed to make a connection with your dr through your sight and physical senses just build up on what you’ve already got. feel grass tickling your skin? deepen the connection there by focusing on the sound now too, the wind blowing through it. see light behind your eyes? focus on the hum of the lights.
repeat these exercises over and over, deepening the connection with each cycle. if you don’t manage to get anything the first cycle just keep going until you do. it might take some practice. like i mentioned before, after spending so much time here and being in constant attunement with your cr self, the sense that your cr is the default starts to take root and it can be difficult to shake the feeling that you’re just indefinitely “here”. it’s normal for it to take some time to learn how to question this feeling and push past it. since you've never (technically?) been aware of anything outside of this reality, learning how to do so can be a bit like learning how to use a muscle you've never used before.
this method operates on the idea that reality is something that is tuned into through focus & narrowed awareness and not something metaphysically travelled across, so for the most success with it, i’d recommend starting to make a conscious effort to see your dr less like a place and more like a wavelength or channel, a perspective already existing beyond your current focus. shifting to your dr then becomes an effort to notice and receive input from this channel/wavelength, input that already exists out there and that simply needs to be acknowledged. you’re just picking up on what’s already there, feeling something that a version of you already feels.
persist in the belief that reality is observed and flexible. you’re not "stuck" anywhere unless you believe you are.
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was talking about babies and parenthood with my non shifter roommate, about how much of an annoying insufferable proud loving dad I'm gonna be, and accidentally said "it's a shame you won't get to see it, but-" and she got sad 😭😭😭😭😭 nooo I'm sorry!!!!
everytime i see an affectionate father I'm having to hold back tears and it's because I miss my daughter. I miss my future with Jae and our family so much, I just want everything to be okay, our little house filled with affection, my wife, our three babies... I miss my eldest the most, though, my Tsumi. she's the one that brought out girl dad Soren.
I miss Jae so much. for this whole week I've tried channeling him before sleeping but I keep just falling asleep before I can actually call him.... I feel terrible about it, too, because he keeps reaching out!
I'm just so tired from work everyday. I don't even feel like I exist anymore. the job itself, plus the conditions, plus the whole pretending to be a girl and inevitably perceived and desired by men.... I miss me. I miss Soren. I'm like a "missing" machine, currently. not only do I miss my DR, but I miss the past in the old reality. I just want to go back home in any capacity, and home might as well be my couch in 2016 where I was eating cake and pão de queijo and mango juice while watching cartoons after school. I just want to go back. anywhere that isn't now.
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two years ago I was 100% sure i never wanted children, but now it's a fact that me and Jae will have three babies in our genshin reality. and I miss them, even though they literally haven't been conceived or born and won't be for YEARS. miss you, Tsumi, Tomoe, and Iyara..... miss them and their mother.... UGHHH HHHH 😫😫😫😫
Thank you for answering my previous question! So the reason why ppl “takes years” to shift is because they treat their DRs as some place “distant” and “out there” and it keeps them in the loop of “reaching for it” and “trying.” All you need to do is tell yourself you are pure awareness and in your dr rn (literally) and that collapses the illusion of separation (?) 🙂
I'm soo curious about this and I feel like no one ever talks about it: what was it like to meet your DR people for the first time? Like you've known and loved them for so long, tried so hard to shift to see them, watched them on screens if you're shifting to media, and now they're here before you. Isn't that totally wild? Surreal? I know "your DR self already knows them and has been existing there" but even so, you're also still you unless you erase your memories. Or what if you're meeting them for the first time even in your DR. I have it so my DR self is meeting my s/o for the first time because I want to experience every second of our relationship, but I'm really wondering if I'm even going to be able to handle it or if I'll just be screaming, sobbing, losing my damn mind LOL.
it was surreal as fuck for me.
the closest way i can describe it is like deja vu. like, their faces felt so familiar to me because i’d seen them for years, but at the same time it was completely different seeing them right in front of me.
it’s this weird mix of “i know you” and “oh my god you’re actually real” happening simultaneously.
i somehow managed to keep it together when i first met them though, but i think i was just in shock and not fully processing anything yet. i think i was operating on pure adrenaline and joy that first day LMAO.
but when i shifted back that first night, it finally hit me. i remember just laying there staring at the ceiling for ages. i couldn’t sleep, all i could do was replay everything that happened, how it’s all real, how this is actually my life now.
i can’t wait for everyone to experience this, that quiet, steady calm after the first night, when it finally sinks in.
all the sleepless nights, all the frustration, none of it was wasted. all those years you thought were “failures” stop mattering.
it’s the moment you actually understand what limitless means, and you just feel more alive than you ever have before.
it’s like something in you clicks, and you’re finally awake.
just bought expensive cloth softener that smells like peaches because i miss my omega 🙄🙄🙄 and it's genuinely comforting for me to find anything that lightly smells like him 🙄🙄🙄 because i need his scent on me 🙄🙄🙄 because we're mates and we're supposed to smell like each other 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄
I hate this job I hate my coworkers I can't wait to quit I can't wait to shift. the only thing I can think of to ground me is a future where it's me and Jae and out babies in our house where no one suffers and we're all safe and we don't have to worry about how much money we'll have next month.
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one of my cats is peeing blood idk who and I've got like 200 R$ on my account 💀💀💀💀💀 I'm still sick and I have work today and I'm freaking out because what I need to do is sit here and watch the litter box all day long to find out who's sick so that I can take them to the vet (idk with what money tho)
I found the blood right before going to sleep last night, freaked out, and after I tried going to bed my ears started hurting alongside my throat. I just want to go home. both in the way of the old reality and in general wanting to shift. I want my mom and I want my old house and I want to not have to worry about everything by myself. I called jae and proceeded to uglily sob about it while he tried to comfort me and help me fall asleep with the pain.... I don't know what to do. I just... I don't want to do this anymore, this whole life. I'm tired.
I've been sick for the past forever, and I miss Jae so bad. I miss my house and my mom and everything, being safe and cared for... but like, I need Jae in my bed when I'm like this. making a nest to help me feel even safer. laying me on his chest and reading fanfics out loud for me, since reading on the phone makes my head hurt.