ੈ✩‧₊˚soren

my name is Soren and this is my main blog where i can fully be myself!

i'm a reality shifter and an alterhuman.

20, he/him, infp, libra,

hybridkin + shapeshifterkin,

permashifter

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝

★ alterhumanity: I see myself as half animal (hybridkin), currently my main type is half snow leopard, but I'm also kind of a horse? I shapeshift in a lot of my drs, so I guess I'm shapeshifterkin? but it's barely a kin bcs I physically shapeshift. you get it. OH i'm also misceverse.

✮ shifting: im a permashifter, shifting mostly to be with my significant other, Jae <3 he's not from any media and neither is my home reality, it's a sort of improved CR with omegaverse in it. I have a few other realities, like spirited away, genshin impact, all of which i'll visit and enjoy with Jae.

ੈ✩‧₊˚THE BLOG;

this place is for posting whatever I want to share. be it art of my DR, quips and thoughts about home, channeling experiences, thoughts and experiences about my alterhumanity... whatever I feel like that day. i'll be so annoying about my s/o, SO ANNOYIIIING <33 this is generally a s/o centric blog so if you're one of those... people, just stay away.

there'll probably be suggestive, nsfw/mature mentions or discussions, slight vents and stuff of the sort (though i'll avoid the latter). so beware.

OMG THANK YOU ANON 😭😭❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

im in a terrible mood, missing my daughter that hasn't even been born yet, my future where everything is okay and me and Jae are building our family. so tired of the old reality. I think it's an episode, to be honest BABAHAHAHA just seeing fathers and daughters or looking at baby clothes at a store is getting me to cry. somebody sedate me 😭😭😭

i want him in my arms, well loved and safe, naked, comfortable, not a worry in the world. I feel like an animal when I think about how much I need him near. I wish we could just melt together. I want to mix our colors and see what shades appear. I want to listen to his voice, his heartbeat, to feel his warmth, his softness, smell his scent, the smell of his shampoo... I want to taste him, see the look he gets in his eyes when he's thinking about how he loves me too.

I need him. I need him so much I feel like I might just die if I don't have him right now. it's a desperation that rips against my chest, my throat, knocks the wind out of me when I think about it. I'm living with a million pieces of myself missing, but he's for sure the biggest one. my Jae. I would do anything for him. for his loving touch, his words. how am I supposed to live like this? in hell, every day sure I won't be able to take the next, and all away from my blossom? like a fish out of the water, im so tired. but what can I do. I just have to bear it. and I will if it means that one day, even if it takes another lifetime, I'll have him in my arms. I'll touch him and hold him and love him with no distance.