Flowing Fairy

Part of me thinks it’s because it’s an environment where it’s normal to go the whole night without having to talk to anyone. I don’t need to explain myself to anyone or give a damn about how I appear to the world. I don’t need to impress anyone or overthink any interactions. I’m literally lost in the moment or drum kicks if you will. And everyone else who’s there is in the same mindset. We’re all there to dance away all the fucks that had been weighing us down, to see the greatest musical heavyweights, and to discover the newest up-and-coming acts that we will spend the rest of the week listening to on Spotify.

Being on the dance floor is where I feel the most confident. I never think twice about what I’m wearing, about what others might say. Nobody has ever verbally passed judgment on my makeup or clothing. And I honestly don’t give a shit if anyone’s staring. It’s the one place where I’m not too self-conscious to weave back and forth through the crowds, to smile at a stranger, or stop to make sure someone’s okay. It’s like the judgments that come with being human is barred from entering the venue. Music is an escape, but it’s through it that I feel like my authentic self. The person I wish I could be during the day – someone who isn’t hesitant or looking for ways to blend into the crowd while ignoring the loneliness of being a wallflower.