Tw: transphobia, homophobia, sexism
So I wanted to say a couple things regarding what went down yesterday and clear up some stuff that bill2424 seriously misunderstood, not to prove anything to anyone, but just to give a little understanding from my point of view .
First off hi yeah I was the person or one of them that bill2424 was talking about in that post she made yesterday. Yes I am trans/(nonbinary?), and I really didn't want to make some big deal out of it, but LOL guess that didn't work out. And yes I am a Christian, both can be and are true at the same time. As a lot of amazing people including @willy-shakesqueer and @epicartnerd explained. And no being trans doesn't decrease or negatively affect my faith in any way.
Second, Thank you to the overwhelming amount of support and love that I've been getting yesterday and today, through all the asks and DMs. I appreciate you all and it means a lot to me π«Ά. Common question was "Are you okay? How are you doing?" And yeah :)! I am okay, and I'm doing fine honestly.
I come from an exxxtreemmely homophobic, transphobic etc family so I'm not exactly unfamiliar with hearing ridiculous shit like that first thing in the morning. But aside from that, what was said did hurt, and it made me sad for a time, but overall I'm trying to find the humor of how ridiculous everything that was said was.
Ok so first thing I wanted to clarify is
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Not a girl, never really was one, and never will be. What I was, was in denial and a lot of fear of disappointing and being hated by the people in my family and community.
Then when I realized I did have a smaller group of friends and a community I could be out to, so I did.
Ok so I'm not even gonna bother with the first part because many already have. Here's the thing, I wasn't a wonderful person, and I wasn't happy, and I wasnt in any way better before accepting I was trans. For a loonnngg time, for a collection of reason including gender I hated myself and honestly would have rather been dead than continue living the way I had to. Listen closely okπ it wasn't until AFTER I accepted than I was trans that I actually for the first time in about 2 1/2 years that I wanted to live and had an actual hope for my own future. Does that sound like destroying myself to you? Me neither πββοΈπββοΈ
Now here is my question to you, do you think that God would have seriously wanted me to continue living the way I was, lying to myself and other people constantly, not understanding or accepting why I felt wrong for existing, and probably end up dead because of it all, JUST so that I would remain a girl?? No?? Right? No, no he wouldnt.
Anyways she wouldnt have understood that because she didn't ask, didnt listen when I tried to explain and simply because it's not something she can relate to or understand. And one of the most important thing I had to learn growing up is that if I didn't understand something I had no place talking about it. Instead of doing any of those things she went straight into speaking bigotry and hate.
Also I don't have a screenshot, but she said something about ruining my beautiful self just because everyone else is? And
Who is everyone? Who are we talking about? I'm genuinely so confused. I only know two other trans people, never had a real conversation with one, havent talked to the other in like a year so- I'm not totally sure who you're thinking of. Either way, I did what I did because it was the best decision for me, not because I was told to. In fact the overwhelming voice was that of my own family and community saying that trans is bad and disgusting and trans people are sick in the head and need to be lobotomized so
Anyways I'm not gonna bother trying to address everything that was said, because like I said before, others already did and better than I can. All I want to do is share my opinion as the one that was mostly addressed.
On the topic of opinions, I think the way the whole thing was delivered was uh, it was wrong, and it big part of why it was hurtful. I recently asked a good friend of mine what her thoughts on trans/nonbinary people were to decide if I felt comfortable coming out to her. And she essentially said
"I can't say I completely agree with them, and I don't really support it either. But I can respect their decision and I don't hate them or their choice, because it wasn't mine. "
And while I was partly disappointed I was happy with the way the explained herself and how respectful she was about it. Because I don't expect everyone to understand or agree, I don't think any trans person does. All I want is basic respect and understanding that it isn't your choice. Bill2424 didnt do either of those things, and didn't make any attempt to.
And so lastly, this is to anyone who has done something like this before, why do you care so much? Why does it bother you SO much what I do? And why do you think you have the place to speak like that? My life, my choices, my gender, the way I choose to identify personally, has nothing to do with you. And because of that I am not, none of those things are, some kind of book or show that you have the right to comment on and criticize completely unwarranted. I didn't ask for you to, and I don't want you to.
You are of course entitled to your own opinion, by all means. However like my friend @im-just-gwen said, this is a site we should be using to find a supportive community, and uplift each other, not bring each other down. So have your opinion, but don't be so shocked and keep saying "why don't I get to share my hate when everyone else is sharing their love for this thing" because you are BEING hateful.
Anywhizzle that's all, last note if you are transphobic, homophobic (xenophobic, MAGA or ICE supporting anything like that) please do unfollow or preferably block me, because I don't rock with that.
I'm not angry at Eloise for what she said I'm just disappointed, and I really hope that she, and those who agree with her can look at what people have been saying with an open mind and heart and learn from it.
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