happy accidents

you know the feral children language deprivation studies? i feel like that's what romantic love is like for me. the brain has a critical period at which it can learn and acquire language. if a human child doesn't learn any language in that window, the brain loses its ability to acquire language later in life.

god i am working so hard to take care of everyone else - my clients, my friends, my mentees. and i am so fucking tired. i just want someone to take care of me. i want someone to cook me dinner when a client in crisis calls me and it takes up the whole evening instead of having to just resort to whatever cereal or microwave meal i can scrounge up after. i want someone to wash my hair in the shower when i'm too tired. i want someone to hold me real tight on the couch after i've spent a whole day listening to and looking at and thinking about the worst moments in people's lives. i want someone to tuck me into a bed with blankets they washed after i've fought my hardest and still been told i didn't do enough.