Disappear (Jacob Black x Reader)(PT 2)
~~Thank you to those who asked for a part two!~~
Grey smoke drifted upwards towards the clear night sky.
The crackling bonfire cast an orange glow on the surrounding forest and its current inhabitants, all huddled together around the flames for warmth while laughing merrily.
Despite my attempts to laugh along with them, I could still feel the dull aching in my chest.
I decided to abandon the wooden lounge chair for the vacant log swing that sat peacefully on the edge of my cousin’s yard — staring up at the starry night sky as if I was searching for answers, something that would at least give me a hint that would help guide me forward.
“See any shooting stars yet?” A voice questioned, glancing up at the sky with the brightness of the bonfire framing their figure.
The stranger hummed then gestured at the empty space beside me, “May I?”
“No, go right ahead,” I offered, scooting further towards the side of the swing.
They tucked a lock of long, black hair behind a pierced ear and sat down, extending a ring crested hand, “I’m Dakota.”
“(Y/N),” I replied while shaking their hand.
Dakota laid their head back against the swing; their eyes were like sapphires, “I could stare at the stars for hours...Do you see many stars where you live?”
“When it isn’t raining,” I chuckled, “The best spot is probably at First Beach — it’s absolutely breathtaking.”
With a wide grin I began to recall the memories of when I would join the pack at the beach for a bonfire.
Some either played catch or soccer on the wet, sandy shore while others opted to stay close to the fire and share stories.
I can still remember the first time I had ever tagged along with Jacob — it was the first time we had gone out together since he confessed to imprinting on me.
My stomach would fill with butterflies each time I was beside him; his touch would send tingles throughout my entire body while every kiss would cause chills to erupt across my skin.
When it became too crowded around the fire pit he’d then have me move onto his lap so he could wrap his arms around me securely as a small display of affection.
Quil teased Jake playfully and I joined in, each of us laughing at his feigned expression.
Jacob decided to then retaliate by pulling me closer into his chest and peppering my skin with hot, ticklish kisses.
With my vision blurred I blinked rapidly and was brought back to the present, my face was now stained with tears.
“Sorry,” I apologized sheepishly to Dakota, quickly drying my face with the back of my hand to avoid their concerned gaze.
“Don’t apologize,” Dakota replied with a now knowing look, “We can’t be happy all the time.”
Before I could respond a feminine voice called out their name whilst jingling a ring of keys.
“I’ll be right there!” Dakota responded loudly.
They turned to me once they were standing, “Just remember, what’s meant to be will always find a way,” They smiled, waving as they walked away.
“Hey, are you ready to go inside?” My cousin questioned while walking towards me; the bonfire was now a dark pit of wet ash.
I only nodded and followed them back into the cabin.
No matter how I laid in bed I just couldn’t seem to fall asleep — His face was the only thing I could see every time I closed my eyes.
Outside the sky was still dark and the balcony was aglow with soft moonlight.
I grabbed a quilt from the small, wicker basket beside the door and made myself comfortable outside on a couch made from re-purposed pallet boards.
I wrapped the quilt around me tightly to try and fight off the chill of the night, only to end up wishing for Jacob to be here beside me.
He and I would be cuddled up together underneath the quilt with his chin resting on my shoulder while my head would be laid back against his own.
We would sit contentedly in silence before he’d tell me how much he loved me, or what he had hoped would be in store for our future together: for us to be happily married with a house of our own to grow into.
A sob racked my frame with a fresh set of tears; my cries were muffled by the quilt’s fabric.
For the first time in a while I actually cried and tried to find relief for the dull ache that seemed to only multiply within my chest.
A spot in the tree line surrounding the backyard began to rustle loudly.
My adrenaline started to rise and with blurry vision I stared at the bushes waiting for whatever was hiding within to emerge from the foliage.
A figure stepped out cautiously, staring directly back at me, “(Y/N)?” Jacob’s voice called out in a hushed tone.
“Jake?" I responded in disbelief, crawling off of the couch to look out over the balcony’s railing.
“Don’t move — I’ll be right there,” Jacob instructed before jogging towards the balcony.
With a small jump his hands gripped onto the lip of the decking, allowing him to hoist himself upwards to climb over the wooden railing as if it were nothing, and then landed on his feet with a soft thud.
Nothing was said as we ran into each other’s embrace.
His arms instinctively wrapped around me and pulled me into his chest.
The rhythmic sound of his heart beating put me at ease, effortlessly curing the constrictive ache that had appeared as soon as I had left.
When he rested his forehead against mine it was evident that we were both crying.
“(Y/N), I’m so sorry,” His voice rasped.
Jacob buried his face in the crook of my neck as he cried.
“This was all my fault, I-I should’ve treated you better — you never deserved any of the crap I put you through.”
I clutched onto him tighter and rubbed his back.
“I was so worried when I found out you had left,” Jacob confessed, “I thought you’d never want to see me again.”
My heart clenched at the thought, “Of course I’d want to see you again — I only left because I needed to take a breather. We were so caught up with everything happening with the pack and with Bella...”
“That it made me lose focus on what truly mattered to me,” Jacob finished with his hand rising to caress my cheek gently.
New tears welled in my eyes as I stared into Jacob’s, “(Y/N), you are what matters the most to me, and I should’ve never let the other stuff get to me like it did.”
“Without you there it felt as if my world had fallen from its own axis. I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t sleep...I just knew that I had to find you so I could make things right again.”
With each word we slowly leaned forward until our lips were finally connected in a loving kiss, filled with electricity and all of the words we weren’t able to say to one another.
With closed eyes we held each other close, simply enjoying the feeling of finally being back together as one.
And it was while Jacob told me that he loved me, that this feeling of warmth began to flow throughout my body.
It was in that moment that I came to realize that I no longer possessed this desire to just disappear, but rather I felt consumed by love and devotion.
And it was all because with Jacob by my side I was finally able to feel like I was where I belonged — and that was home.
