Behind Closed Doors pt 3 My sexual experiences with men after experiencing sexual trauma were not always the best. A lot of the times I went home feeling the lowest I’ve ever felt about myself because of the way I’d get treated after the fact. It brought me back to how my immediate family treated me after I told them about my trauma, either it didn’t happen to them or they ain’t give a fuck. It took me a VERY long time to actually feel good and embrace my body and love the skin I’m in. Especially after giving birth to two little girls. They are the reason I’m doing this, cause my fear is they endure the same pain I went through. That’s why I try my very hardest to not have anyone around them that I don’t trust. Men who are sexually persistent lack boundaries, can’t accept rejection, and don’t respect when no means no. They’ll keep at it til they can have you. My problem was, I wasn’t strong enough to stand firm on MY respect. Yea, I may write the shit that I write, I may post the pics that I post, but that doesn’t mean I lack self respect, not speaking up for yourself, is having no self respect. Not fighting for you, is having no self respect. Most of all, I’m slowly forgiving myself cause had I been protected my life would have been different. #esteepolanco #musingsofabutterfly #poet #poetry #poetrycommunity #poetsofinstagram #poetrylovers #love #loveyourself #expressyourself #amazonbooks #kindleunlimited #kindle #nookbook #explorepage #followme #womensupportingwomen #womenempowerment #healing #healingjourney #writeyourheartout #divinefeminine #spiritualhealing #innerpeace #letgo #unpacking #healyoursoul #wombhealing #wombanhood #womanhood https://www.instagram.com/p/CKXXnytpZem/?igshid=1lw313ti37ly4