Randy!

I can’t tell if it’s all going to be over soon, or if it’s all just beginning. Feeling prophetic. My dreams mean something. I’ve lost one thousand copies of my house keys. I feel lucid.

I feel like I’ve lost a limb. I feel like I’m rotting from the inside out. I wish I could hurt your feelings one last time. I’m going to cast an evil curse on you. I love you.

I’m feeling lucky

Today I cleaned up my messes and looked at old photos of myself. I miss my long curly hair. I’ll never be happy no matter what I decide. I’m wasting my best years!

This is in my top 10 songs. Simply perfect

Warmer days are coming. I’m reconnecting with my 13 year old self. I’ve always been a fucking weirdo. I miss my old friends. I miss being a barefoot dumbass kid smoking cigarettes on the swings

It’s been over six years since I last saw you. A little longer than six years since I touched or held or kissed you. I feel like an obsessive freak, but I think about you so much. I think about how much I fucking hate you for leaving me. I think about how much I loved you for loving me back. I dream about you. I need a psychic or shaman or pharmacist or exorcist to cleanse Me of You. Your ghost has taken up residence in the empty space you left and I really don’t want him there. I just want to be myself again.

Today felt really long in the most neutral way. I’m having trouble coming to terms with my existence. I suck at being in school. I’m only good at drinking until I black out and regurgitating sitcom quotes. I’m like if abed nadir was truly doomed

I think it’s amazing that we can feel strong emotions in our skin. Goosebumps and chills and hairs standing on end.

Ive been reminding myself lately that nothing is ever that serious. I’ve made a lot of mistakes, hurt people, acted like a fool. But isn’t that the human experience? There’s no use focusing on the past like that. Just have to keep living

I’m fucking losing it dude. In the first moments of waking up, I’m losing it bro. When the first cup of coffee tastes like washing up you KNOW I’m fucking losing it then too

The misery is haunting!!!!

Feeling sleepy and empty. There is much to do, but today is not the day. My hair smells like stale pot smoke.

This is posted in honour of the 2,523 minutes of Sufjan Stevens I listened to this year

Underrated mcr song!!

One of my favourite albums. It was impossible to pick a favourite song from it, so I chose the one that is the most painful to listen to. This song is dense with grief. It makes me really sad, but I also find it soothing.

Special song