#sufjan stevens

Kimi Antonelli in Family Matters (agustofwind) is the album Carrie & Lowell

i feel like drowning out , out on ocean surf,I have to pull myself together ,as I’m choking on everything every speck of enthusiasm I’ve had in life so far , I’m so busy , so offended ,a little lost

I will always yearn to be the person i wish i could afford to be. But not in a materialistic way. I wish i could take the violin classes i beg my parents for, the gym membership ive been wanting for a year, a part time job i could go to that could fund my living without having a toxic enviroment, study abroad from hometown closeminded people who gossip about you for wearing light pink as a guy to the beach. And lastly, i yearn to have taken the hiphop and gymnastics classes i begged my dad to sign me in but was too mysoginistic to let me take. I yearn every time i see somebody creative getting to be creative. I yearn to be talented as they are. And as much as i try to be, ill never catch up to them because they had the advantage of having parents who loved them enough to let them express themselves without caring about societys judgement.