#sufjan stevens

Gayce was a pedophilic serial killer who targeted young boys. The song was about Sufjan's own relationship with sexuality, he felt such deep guilt over the sheer act of loving, he mentally compared himself to a monster.

Homosexuality and the society-caused mentality that goes hand in hand with it has always been fascinating to me.

It's common for young gay boys who have lived in a sheltered world where homosexuality is only shown through pedophilia to equate their innocent attraction to preying on other "more innocent" boys.

And I've always wondered what Aslan might've felt the first time he held romantic feelings for another male.

Did he think he was like them too? His only exposure to homosexuality was through victimhood and forced prostitution. He never had healthy sex, much less male on male sex, I imagine that at least for a few years, the concept that two grown men could want eachother like that without harming one in the process was unimaginable for him.

It's why I can never really blame older literature for using the pederastic relationship between Zeus and Ganymede to express the joys of being queer. He is one of Zeus's only male "lovers" and a lover whom he loved enough to immortalise.

blackbird on my shoulder

and what difference does it make