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@solis-xxiv
I started this story in 8th grade as a stupid self-inserted love story about my crush. It was based on a true story. True story meaning Candyapple was a real thing that happened.
Last year, I took a creative writing class for my option block. I decided to rewrite what I had already written and finish the story. And now, itās finally finished. I decided to publish it on Wattpad (where it also happened to be published originally).
It would mean a lot if people would read it!
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I didnāt know how beautiful love truly is until I was standing at work, looking at my boyfriend who had shown up to surprise me with flowers and a necklace.
I didnāt know how beautiful love truly is until my boyfriend handed me a jar filled with popsicle sticks that had date ideas written on each of them.
I didnāt know how beautiful love truly is until I was sat beside my boyfriend in front of a lake, watching the sun set.
I didnāt know how beautiful love truly is until I was gently woken up by a kiss on my forehead before my boyfriend left for work.
I didnāt know how beautiful love truly is until my boyfriend playfully called me mom when referring to his cats cuddling with me.
I didnāt know how beautiful love truly is until I met him.
somewhere between then and now, my black hair turned back to red. the mid-day alcohol turned to mid-day monsters. the full face of makeup turned to just eye makeup. the doubt turned to trust. the daily tears turned to daily laughs. the agony turned to euphoria. the wounds turned to scars. somewhere between then and now, I healed.
I never imagined in meet my soulmate on a dating app, but here we are <3
HAHAHAAHHAAH I THOUGHT
Iāve never felt happier
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and if you have to leaveā¦ I wish that you would just leaveā¦
I never imagined in meet my soulmate on a dating app, but here we are <3
I want you to color me blueā¦ anything it takes to make you stay :(
youāre not mine anymore, but Iām still a little bit yours <\3
life feels like itās slipping out of my grip, like nothing is in my control. i dyed my hair black because my hair is the one thing i can control but even that wasnāt enough.
iām overwhelmed.
high school didnāt prepare me for the stress of college. old habits of procrastination are proving to be my downfall.
iām lonely.
my best friend wonāt talk to me because he āneeds spaceāā¦ but i know what that meansā¦
iām anxious.
my stomach is constantly churning yet i donāt know why. nothing i do is helping relieve the feeling of constant terror.
iām tired.
i canāt sleep and the melatonin isnāt working anymore. i finally fall asleep at 3am only to have to wake up at 6:30. it isnāt healthy.
my life doesnāt feel like itās mine anymore.
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if jesus died for all our sins,
he left one behind in the body iām in.
same hands that made the moon and the stars
got carpal tunnel
and forgot some parts
did I drive you away?
I know what youāll say
youāll say
āohā¦
sing one we knowā
Iām not going to beg you to stay. If you want to go, there is nothing that I can say that would change your mind. All I ask is that you tell me why. Tell me what I did wrong and give me a chance to tell you everything I should have but didnāt. Give me a chance to thank you for giving me true happiness after the most traumatic 7 months of my life. A chance to thank you for being my friend. A change to apologize for whatever I did to cause you to leave me.
Please. Just give me closure. Thatās all I ask.
I suppose I should have expected thisā¦ in hindsight, it was too good to be true. I guess I just really wanted to believe that he wouldnāt leave me like everyone else. I trusted him. I opened up to himā¦ I could almost call it love.
At the end of the day, I canāt blame him. Heās a 17 year old boy living a whole province away. It was stupid of me to even think he would want to stay. I knew it was a long shot to hope he would wait for me. It wouldnāt be fair to him. I had prepared myself for the āI understand that you donāt want to wait for me, but at least stay my friendā speech. Unfortunately for me, he didnāt even give me the chance to ask him to stay.
I guess Iām mostly hurt by the fact that it came out of nowhere. We talked in the morning. Everything was fine, he gave no indication that anything was wrong. That night, I thought about snapping him but his bitmoji showed he hadnāt been active in over 7 hours. Perhaps it had gone because he had already blocked me at that point, but Iām not sure. I went to see if he was active on Instagram to see if it was worth snapping him. It said around 30 minutes ago. Cool, Iāll leave him alone for the night. I went to sleep.
I woke up the next morning, the 30th, and went to snap him good morning. He didnāt show up in my best friends list. I looked and saw we had ālostā our streak. Weird. I clicked on his name and went to our friendship profile to see if he was active. Instead of the usual, it said āclick to add friendā.
My heart sank. He had blocked me. I went to Instagram, clicked on him in my DMs and sent a message. It didnāt send. I clicked on his profile and it said āthis account could not be foundā.
He blocked me on snapchat, instagram, and my number. No warning, no explanation. Out of the blue.
If he really doesnāt want to be friends, itās fine. I understand. I just wish he would have told me what was going on. Iām hurt because he blocked me as if I meant nothing to him. I deserve at least an explanation, donāt I? A whole month of him being my best friend down the drain and I donāt even know why. Was it something I did? Did his ex come back into his life so he blocked me because he knows I like him? Did it have something to do with the fact that he felt like he was wasting my time, and even though I told him he could never be a waste of my time, he felt like it was best to end our friendship? I donāt know. And thatās what hurts the most.
I thought I had something good. I can feel my life slipping through my fingers again. I want to give upā¦
I just want answersā¦
okay, i feel like I should update. Saturday night I had messaged him on Instagram from an alt account with my birth name so he wouldnāt immediately block me and maybe actually read what I said. I sent him a paragraph basically saying that I was (rightfully) upset and that I deserved at least an explanation. I didnāt expect him to answer, but to my surprise he messaged me Sunday afternoon. Basically he said he felt really bad and explained that he needed space but he didnāt know how to communicate that, so his solution was to block almost everyone. It wasnāt just me that was blocked. Obviously was he did was kinda fucked up, but we talked and I told him that if he needs space, he should tell me instead. Iām not angry or upset anymore. If anything Iām just worried about him. But Iām gonna just kinda let him be for now and wait for him to reach out. He knows he can talk to me about anything so Iām not worried that heās gonna go off the deep end again. But yeah. All is fine.
I suppose I should have expected thisā¦ in hindsight, it was too good to be true. I guess I just really wanted to believe that he wouldnāt leave me like everyone else. I trusted him. I opened up to himā¦ I could almost call it love.
At the end of the day, I canāt blame him. Heās a 17 year old boy living a whole province away. It was stupid of me to even think he would want to stay. I knew it was a long shot to hope he would wait for me. It wouldnāt be fair to him. I had prepared myself for the āI understand that you donāt want to wait for me, but at least stay my friendā speech. Unfortunately for me, he didnāt even give me the chance to ask him to stay.
I guess Iām mostly hurt by the fact that it came out of nowhere. We talked in the morning. Everything was fine, he gave no indication that anything was wrong. That night, I thought about snapping him but his bitmoji showed he hadnāt been active in over 7 hours. Perhaps it had gone because he had already blocked me at that point, but Iām not sure. I went to see if he was active on Instagram to see if it was worth snapping him. It said around 30 minutes ago. Cool, Iāll leave him alone for the night. I went to sleep.
I woke up the next morning, the 30th, and went to snap him good morning. He didnāt show up in my best friends list. I looked and saw we had ālostā our streak. Weird. I clicked on his name and went to our friendship profile to see if he was active. Instead of the usual, it said āclick to add friendā.
My heart sank. He had blocked me. I went to Instagram, clicked on him in my DMs and sent a message. It didnāt send. I clicked on his profile and it said āthis account could not be foundā.
He blocked me on snapchat, instagram, and my number. No warning, no explanation. Out of the blue.
If he really doesnāt want to be friends, itās fine. I understand. I just wish he would have told me what was going on. Iām hurt because he blocked me as if I meant nothing to him. I deserve at least an explanation, donāt I? A whole month of him being my best friend down the drain and I donāt even know why. Was it something I did? Did his ex come back into his life so he blocked me because he knows I like him? Did it have something to do with the fact that he felt like he was wasting my time, and even though I told him he could never be a waste of my time, he felt like it was best to end our friendship? I donāt know. And thatās what hurts the most.
I thought I had something good. I can feel my life slipping through my fingers again. I want to give upā¦
I just want answersā¦
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At this point, this isnāt even poetry or anything fancy. This is just me gushing over the guy iāve been talking to.
He checks up on me everyday. The first day he snapped me and basically told me he was worried about me. When he gets high or drunk, his first thought is to snap me. Last night we snapped for three hours. He opened up to me a bit, told me I made him feel comfortable and that he bet Iād be soft. He asked me to keep him warm (even though we live in different provinces). He gave me his number and we facetimed for another hour before we went to bed. At one point we made an agreement that if he dies, I would die. That agreement also extended to sleep - he insisted I go to bed (āSolis itās so late for you! itās midnight you gotta go to bed!ā) to which I told him I would only go to sleep if he did as well.
This morning he sent me a good morning message. We talked about everything he said last night (he was a bit drunk last night). We hung up briefly so he could eat. While he ate, I started doing my makeup. He facetimed me back before I could finish. He asked me what I was doing, I told him. āWhy?ā he said. āBecause I look ugly without itā I replied. He looked at me, āI disagreeā¦ā
I had gotten coffee and had to end the facetime. When I was finished we just snapped for a bit. I sent a snap with my coffee and he jokingly said āspit some in my mouthā so I said āsureā. He wasnāt expecting that to work. I laughed and said that there wasnāt a whole lot I wouldnāt do. He sent a reply with Desire playing in the background. I sent a video basically telling him that song is on my šš© playlist. To be honest I canāt remember exactly what was said next but he sent me a video of him with his shirt pulled up. He unsent the video and said āoopsā. I said āyou say oops like iām complainingā.
Later on, around 2, my mom got mad at me. I was super upset and this guy (his name is Jordie btw) snapped me āARE YOU CRYING????ā. I was like yeah i am and he told me that as soon as my mom left my room he was gonna call me. We facetimed again. We didnāt even really talk. We didnāt need to. Watching him play his video game distracted me more than enough.
Every time he would look at me, I started blushing and laughing. He kept looking at me with this cute smile and it made me melt. Heās just so sweet and ugh. If I could hop on a flight right now, I would. A plane ride from Calgary to Victoria isnāt THAT badā¦
This man is making me simp and iām really really hoping this shit works. Iām falling š
so I definitely did not expect him to tell me heās falling for me last night. we arenāt official yet but when we call tonight ā¦ fingers crossed
At this point, this isnāt even poetry or anything fancy. This is just me gushing over the guy iāve been talking to.
He checks up on me everyday. The first day he snapped me and basically told me he was worried about me. When he gets high or drunk, his first thought is to snap me. Last night we snapped for three hours. He opened up to me a bit, told me I made him feel comfortable and that he bet Iād be soft. He asked me to keep him warm (even though we live in different provinces). He gave me his number and we facetimed for another hour before we went to bed. At one point we made an agreement that if he dies, I would die. That agreement also extended to sleep - he insisted I go to bed (āSolis itās so late for you! itās midnight you gotta go to bed!ā) to which I told him I would only go to sleep if he did as well.
This morning he sent me a good morning message. We talked about everything he said last night (he was a bit drunk last night). We hung up briefly so he could eat. While he ate, I started doing my makeup. He facetimed me back before I could finish. He asked me what I was doing, I told him. āWhy?ā he said. āBecause I look ugly without itā I replied. He looked at me, āI disagreeā¦ā
I had gotten coffee and had to end the facetime. When I was finished we just snapped for a bit. I sent a snap with my coffee and he jokingly said āspit some in my mouthā so I said āsureā. He wasnāt expecting that to work. I laughed and said that there wasnāt a whole lot I wouldnāt do. He sent a reply with Desire playing in the background. I sent a video basically telling him that song is on my šš© playlist. To be honest I canāt remember exactly what was said next but he sent me a video of him with his shirt pulled up. He unsent the video and said āoopsā. I said āyou say oops like iām complainingā.
Later on, around 2, my mom got mad at me. I was super upset and this guy (his name is Jordie btw) snapped me āARE YOU CRYING????ā. I was like yeah i am and he told me that as soon as my mom left my room he was gonna call me. We facetimed again. We didnāt even really talk. We didnāt need to. Watching him play his video game distracted me more than enough.
Every time he would look at me, I started blushing and laughing. He kept looking at me with this cute smile and it made me melt. Heās just so sweet and ugh. If I could hop on a flight right now, I would. A plane ride from Calgary to Victoria isnāt THAT badā¦
This man is making me simp and iām really really hoping this shit works. Iām falling š