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taqburnī (ongoing) — solby fwb

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i'll tell you my sins (so you can sharpen your knife) — religious guilt!colby

skia — yearning colby, lots of nostalgia and introspection, oh and colby can see ghosts, too

i will follow you ('cause I'm under your spell) — soulmates, soulmate-identifying marks, denial of feelings

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April prompts

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Ongoing series

do you think i'm frightening? — hunter!sam and vampire!colby + some other youtubers appear as well

Let's start with Sam.

Sam's tarot cards are: The Moon and The Hermit.

The Moon

Keywords:

Upright: illusion, fear, anxiety, subconscious, intuition

Reversed: release of fear, repressed emotion, inner confusion

Ah, yes, the "idk bro, you have to figure it out yourself" of the tarot cards. I have met many people who are into tarot that joke in a similar way about getting this card when doing a reading.

Because The Moon gives us little to no answer. Or so people like to claim.

The Moon is all about our intuition and what we subconsciously know, but might be too scared to admit. Let's look at the most common question The Moon might be answering: "Should I leave this relationship?" You already know the answer, deep inside your brain, but you're too scared to admit it. This card is trying to tell you that you hold all the answers yourself, even when you're scared to face them.

The Hermit

Keywords:

Upright: soul-searching, introspection, being alone, inner guidance

Reversed: isolation, loneliness, withdrawal

My favorite card to get whenever I'm trying to figure out what to do with my life (please, make sure to read this in the most sarcastic tone you can possibly imagine). It is not a bad card by any means, especially if we look at the keywords, but it is not... hm, an easy card, especially when you're trying to figure out what steps you should be taking in the future.

Because The Hermit is all about looking within yourself and relying on the lessons you've learned throughout your journey. Getting this card in a reading usually means you have accumulated enough wisdom that will help you make the right decision.

Now... what does this combination of cards means for Sam?

Let's look at the positives first.

Curiosity

I feel like this one isn't that surprising. Sam, being the skeptic that he is, seeks the truth more than anyone else. Looking deeper into things and constantly questioning anything that happens is the main trait of those with this combination of the tarot cards, especially because of The Hermit which is all about seeking wisdom. If we go back to when they first started doing haunted videos, we would always see Sam being the first one looking for the more rational side of what could've been a paranormal proof. Seeking the truth that might be hidden, which is closely related to The Moon.

Trustworthiness

The definition of "Alright then, keep your secrets." These people are known for never spilling any secrets, either about themselves or about those that are close to them. This also means that others are drawn to those people, easily sharing their whole lives with them. Is it a curse? A blessing? A third secret thing? Who knows, but the point is that you could never get any information out of people like Sam.

Comfort with the shadow

I find this aspect the most interesting, especially ever since the last Hell Week. I feel like, in a way, we've all had this hunch about Sam being more connected to the "darker side". And, before anyone freaks out, please, hear me out.

Spirituality is never black and white, and by saying that someone is connected to the "shadows", or has a "dark" side, it doesn't mean that the person is evil, or, y'know, the devil himself.

So, what does it mean? It means being in touch with those parts of yourself that others deem as negative. At the same time, people who are more comfortable with the shadows, are also okay with darker aspects of the life, finding beauty in it.

Now, let's move to the... hm, not exactly negatives, but perhaps challenges.

Avoidance

When we look at the meanings behind The Moon and The Hermit all together, it does make sense for something like avoidance to come up. People with this combination of tarot cards will always keep others at arm's length. This usually serves as a way of protect oneself, but can easily cause more damage than good, especially when it comes to one's loved ones.

Isolation

Closely related to the avoidance problem we've just seen. Again, The Hermit is all about searching and seeking the truth, and while that is all fine, people like Sam usually isolate themselves even without meaning to. It comes to them naturally, often used as a coping mechanism that does harm in the long run. There's only so much loneliness one can take, after all.

Obfuscation

The thing about The Moon is that the message is never clear. You don't get a straightforward message like with some of the cards. In the case of The Moon, the answer might be a little... ah, all over the place. And people with these cards are the same. Their actions usually confuse others, and it is rarely ever intentional, as that is simply how those people are.

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And now, we can move to Colby.

Just like with Sam, I will first explain the broad meanings of the cards, before putting it all together.

Colby's cards are: The High Priestess and Judgement

The High Priestess

Keywords:

Upright: intuition, sacred knowledge, divine feminine, the subconscious mind

Reversed: secrets, disconnected from intuition, withdrawal and silence

This is the card that The Hermit wishes he was, at least when I do my readings. And, in my opinion, this is a card that represents Colby perfectly. Those that do tarot might argue with me here and say that The Hierophant would fit more, but hear me out.

The High Priestess is all about intuition, looking for the knowledge, but also about spirituality. She literally represents the veil between our world and the spiritual world. The High Priestess also represents psychic powers.

And isn't that just so fitting?

Over the years, we have seen the shift in Colby's abilities when it comes to the paranormal, especially being more sensitive to the energies, or straight up seeing spirits.

Judgement

Keywords:

Upright: judgement, rebirth, inner calling, absolution

Reversed: self-doubt, inner critic, ignoring the call

Judgement is all about reaching that final destination of your transformation. Unlike Death, Judgement is essentially finally getting through all that change and, to some extent, finding your full potential. In my readings, Judgement represents that I have done all the steps necessary and the last stage of whatever I've been working towards is right in front of me.

At the same time, this card also represents spiritual awakening. And what exactly does that mean, though? It means finding your purpose in life, finding what you were made for, essentially.

And what do these two cards mean for Colby? Well, let's take a look.

We will be, once again, starting with the positives:

Sense of Purpose

People with this combination of cards know exactly what life path they were meant to take in life. Every person that I've met with this combination has always been self-assured when it came to their future. You know how sometimes you'll feel hopeless just thinking about what will come next week? Yeah, not these people. They know what their purpose is, and they will follow it no matter what. Strongly tied to the intuition of The High Priestess and the inner calling of The Judgement.

Intuition

This is no surprise, considering what we have seen about The High Priestess. Those people just know things, having this access to the information that's simply not available to the rest of us. At the same time, though, these people will sometimes doubt this enhanced gift (do you remember the reversed keywords of Judgement? Yeah, it comes from that).

Transformation

Yes, we have seen this whole 'inner-calling' thing and the whole sense of purpose. And, yes, it comes from both Judgement and The High Priestess. However, people like Colby are also able to help others grow and achieve their full potential.

Do we all remember Sam's famous quote about how he had no self-confidence, and how everything changed when he met Colby? Because I sure do. Because Colby doesn't only transform himself, but also those around him.

Now, let's take a look at the challenges, because this post is already getting too long.

Seeking Validation

But it's not in a way you might think. Remember the self-doubt? Yeah, that one's actually very connected to this one. By doubting oneself, a person might rather seek opinions of others, rather than relying on their own intuition. People with this combination of cards usually must go through a whole of lesson of trusting their intuition, before they're able to utilize it.

Restlessness

Remember how I said that The Judgement is all about reaching that final destination? Well, these people are aware of what they're meant to do in life, however they become impatient with walking all the way to the finishing line. On top of everything, having a strong sense of purpose means that these people usually get agitated with mundane tasks.

Withholding

And you might be asking yourself: What in the ever-loving fuck does this mean? Well, the thing about The High Priestess is that one becomes rather private, leaning into trying to protect one self. It comes with keeping way too many secrets, usually as a form of... uh, well, these people hate to burden people. With that mindset of "I know what I'm meant to do and I know I'm supposed to help people", they will very easily lean into not opening up what actually bothers them.

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Phew, this one got much longer than I initially anticipated, and I technically didn't even cover all the aspects (I chose to keep it simple by including three positves and three negatives. There's so much more).