Solace In Abandonment

Julia go home bruh

I repeated the experiment later, wearing the boots but otherwise my usual clothing and mimicking the expression I thought I’d had at that moment. People parted like I was Charlton Heston.

I now wear that style of boots whenever possible. I recently had a man do a double-take as I walked by and ask me, politely, where I had served because I “looked like a soldier.” I’m not current or former military. I was wearing a flowy purple peasant top and looked as un-soldierlike as possible.

Wheel like you’re gonna win the Indy 500 and don’t care how.

Your crutches are short swords; walk like you can see them buried in the bodies of anyone who crosses (in front of) you.

Krusie is like “I have barely known you for three days but I would happily die if it meant I could protect you. I regret every second we spent thinking we hated each other, because now that I see the real you, it’s the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. You are the one person I can truly rely on, even if I have to keep the most devastating of secrets from you that will bury me in the end. I see you, and I love you.”

Kriselle is like “I haven’t had a conversation with you last more than five minutes in years and I can still remember every word we’ve said to each other. We were the closest two people could possibly be without literally sharing a body and now I don’t even know how to talk to you. I pretend like you don’t mean anything to me because admitting how much I still love you terrifies me to the core, and I feel insane guilt every day over the fact I broke us apart. I hope one day you can forgive me for being a terrible friend.”

Suselle is like “You are everything that I am not that I so desperately want to be. You hide your true self away under these layers of facade but I can see the sparkling gem underneath and it is such a beautiful sight, I don’t think I am worthy to behold it. I want to steal every moment I can with you and I will fight to do so even if fate itself attempts to tears us apart. I don’t know if I will ever deserve you but I will still reach out to you, and I will find a way to keep you.”

Susei/Ralsusie is like “We are polar opposites in every way I can imagine and it only brings us closer together. You complete me in ways I did not know I needed to be completed. When everything and everyone told me that I did not matter, you told me I am important not in spite of but because of who I am. I will take every blow and every injury if it means protecting your smile and keeping you safe. I will even destroy my own heart if it means giving you the happiness that I know for a fact you deserve.”

Kralsei is like “What if you met the person that was literally made for you, and that all the world was pushing you together, but there was something wrong? What if the person you were born to fall in love with was an unflattering, bitter depiction of who you are and who you used to be? What if your honest to God Soulmate was keeping secrets and undermining everything you have dedicated your life to do, not out of cruelty or malicious intent, but because it was genuinely what they needed to do, what they were always going to do? And what if, in spite of all of that, you fell in love with each other anyways?”

Kerdly is like “I don’t know if I can call you my friend or say I care about you, but you still define so much of who I am, intentionally or otherwise. I don’t have many people who would give a shit if I live or die, and I don’t know if you’re one of them, but I still need you to be in my life. I will fight you, I will hurt you, I will defy everything you want if I absolutely have to, but when the chips are down I will do whatever it takes to keep you safe. I don’t know if I love you, I don’t even know if I like you, but I still need you, whatever that even means.”

Dessriel…I mean, do I even have to explain that one? Whatever happened, however things went, you already know.

ANY adult Holiday/Dreemurr ship is like “We were once something special, closer than anyone could possibly imagine. My home was your home, and yours was mine. Even outside of what the world might accept, we were one family. Then everything went wrong, and now we’ve fallen apart. My life is crumbling down around me in ways I didn’t even think were possible, and yet I still care about you. I still love you, even as we rapidly approach the end, and the world crumbles down around me. I don’t know if we’re still a family, but you will always be my home.”

Hello everyone!

Last year I started designing a series of Coat of Arms, themed in the spirit of Pride Month and using different mythological creatures as heraldic animals. I now aim to turn these designs into wearable pins and will be running a Kickstarter in July to fund this endeavor! I have found a very trustworthy local manufacturer, who has already shown the quality of their craftsmanship with the first batch of test pins I received, just look at the detail they were able to produce!

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