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i think of you every day. i think you're beautiful.

to be near you is always sweet ~ honeyed time

too much love or attention overwhelms.

i want to give you room to breathe.

i want to give you time. i want your choices to be your own.

some part of me doesn't want to face my illness.

a flood of pollen in my blood stream, petals bursting with the yoke of fate. i am in love.

and with such sickness i am met in the embrace between life and dear inevitable death.

it was bound to happen. to what end; i know but cannot see. through love, i have already lost you.

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i fear love's pain. i send it away with anger then curse it for leaving.

to love is to grieve. it is to act without attachment.

devotion.

might you hold my cosmos?

if i overfill you, if i spill about the floor

please know, tis not your failure

i ache to watch the wine

pool about your soles

and grow sticky

how temporary! bitter medicine!

in the wake of a dream