Queen bitch

"Every morning I wake up and I think that I never want to be far from you. And under your influence, since you’re so goo with words, I’ve composed a poem. It’s entitled…‘Oh, Sick and Miserable Heart, Be Still’.”

You can live wherever you want to live, be whoever you want to be. You have time.

“It’s important to always be by the sea. The sea is the element of love. […] Aphrodite emerged from the water.” - Agnès Varda

And that kind of confidence, you know, like I was finally - I was good at something, that was so new, and that was so exciting and I just wanted him to know that and, fuck, I just wanted him to be like, “Good job!” And the more he wouldn’t respond, and the more our relationship kinda strained, the deeper into this I went and the better I got. And the more people I cut out, the quieter my life got. And the routine of the kitchen was so consistent and exacting and busy and hard and alive, and I lost track of time and he died. And he left me his restaurant. And over the last couple months I-I’ve been trying to fix it ‘cause it was in rough shape, and I think it’s very clear that me trying to fix the restaurant was me trying to fix whatever was happening with my brother. And I don’t know, maybe fix the whole family because that restaurant, it has and it, it does mean a lot to people. It means a lot to me. I just don’t know if it ever meant anything to him.

Don’t regret. Remember.