blood of the dragon

Diomedes: IF YOU TALK ABOUT YOUR WIFE ONE MORE TIME IM GONNA FUCKING KILL MYSELF!

Odysseus: YOU'RE JUST JEALOUS BECAUSE YOUR WIFE'S A HELLHOUND'S BITCH! MY WIFE-

Dio: FINISH THAT SENTENCE AND I'LL THROW YOU OFF THE SHIP AND YOUR ASS CAN SWIM TO TROY!

Like wdym that's a conversation they had 😭

I literally lost it when Diomedes said he was going to fucking kill himself only for Odysseus to bite back and call his wife a "Hellhound's bitch" like WHAT 😭😭😭

summary: those moments and thoughts and feelings that you experience when you are partner to the god of mischief and cruel romance himself.

pairing: loki (the sandman) x gn!reader

warnings: mentions of smut, bloodplay, Loki being an ass.

word count: 2.4k

a/n: this took way to long because I'm a massive over thinker and procrastinator if you couldn't tell, but more is coming I've just been so busy and am trying to get back on that grind my darlings, but here he is. :)

First and foremost, you aren’t dating him- not necessarily, he doesn’t date, not in the way others would understand it. He coils. He takes.. but he’ll call it love. And the worst part? For him it actually is. Whether you are betrothed or already bound together, mortal or endless alike, no vow knows the bounds of your partnership, for one thing he, you and every being knows?

You are his undoing, so much as he is your ruin.

It is not within the heat of battle as every other instance was. It happens during an isolated conversation in the dead of night, on a still battlefield. Diomedes' decision is not in keeping with the implied (likely misleading, but possibly true) notion that Dolon could ransom his life from Odysseus.

At the moment of his death, Dolon is attempting to supplicate for his life before Diomedes, and Diomedes decapitates him without pause. Even Achilles, in the height of his rage against the Trojans because of his grief for Patroclus, did not behead Lycaon after he unsuccessfully pleaded for his life. Diomedes does not have a deeply personal reason for this beheading, and it can be read as an independent choice that Diomedes makes since Diomedes claims that Dolon's life is in his hands not Odysseus', despite the majority of the dealing being with Odysseus.

Things still go poorly, but that's because of Lochlan and Tim's denial of their issues. Saxon for once acted like he can't make Loch into something he's not. He seems to be steeping down from the "mentor" role with this sentence, which almost seems like Saxon is treating him like a grown up for the first time. Like he doesn't see Loch as a kid who needs help and guidance to grow up; like Loch can do it himself. And he seem to understand that trying to force him to be someone he's not is bad for Loch.

He is lazy and he is weak, he is shallow and he is offended by the way other people are able to read him, but he just wants that to stop. He doesn’t really want to change anything about himself. He wants the world to go back to validating his vision of himself, which is why he tried to fuck Chelsea.

He has never learned to do anything on his own. He is a full grown man working at his father‘s company and his underlings or his assistant are 100% doing all of his work. He spends all of his energy in life getting other people to do his work. He is a useless waste of space on this planet.

Stop wasting your time on the idea of what someone could be if they only put in the effort when they have never in their lives put in any effort.

and with chelsea??? like that boy is so desperate for any kind of meaningful connection because he doesn’t have any. and because of surroundings and his environment and probably his lack of genuine affection from his family, he has put all of that into sexual desire.

like. being hyper sexual is something that is a direct cause from MANY things, one of those things being neglect, loneliness, lack of genuine affection and CASUAL affection in your childhood. he’s never gotten that. his family is avoidant, passive aggressive, and set in their ways. so of course he is too. like he’s not a bad person. he’s flawed and he’s broken a little. but he’s not like a lost cause. he’s just what he is and he doesn’t know how to be someone else. he needs things explained to him. people like that, in real life, need that.

it’s not that serious i suppose. like he’s not real. but i do think it’s about empathy at the end of the day. like being able to see WHY is he the way he is. or trying to. and the whole key with people like saxon is patience and COMMUNICATION (which is something nobody does with him) and not communication in the way chelsea does it. he needs like actual gentle therapy, someone (a licensed professional preferably) to lay out the facts and help him sort through why his issues ARE his issues.

it’s not that people like that don’t want to change. it’s that they don’t know how and it’s that incredibly human tendency to give in and give up. to settle for what you’ve become instead of who you could be.

but also that’s an opinion and what not. everyone is entitled to view him and any character however they want. that’s just my two cents.

It’s very much something he would need to pursue on his own legitimately and not just as a way to get closer to Chelsea so that he could have straight sex and get the idea of his brother jacking him off out of his head, which is what that was all about. 

She was offering him something deep, and he went straight to the shallow and he will do it every time things get a little bit uncomfortable.

I also don’t think his life has been that empty of love. His entire family is very shallow and so they love him, and he has been loved and cosseted, but in a way that isn’t very character building.

also the love and family thing. just because they’re shallow doesn’t mean they love him. if anything it makes the love shallow and it makes the love superficial and he wants and needs something deeper than that (because ALL humans do) so he looks for that it the ways he knows how. which yes are destructive and yes are not super great. but it’s still a testament to the coldness of superficial love based on merit and status.

i also just think with people in real life. yeah you’re right. like often those kinds of people are soul eaters and emotional leeches. but more often than not genuine connection changes people for the better. that’s what friendships and relationships are. it’s about growing and changing together and for and with eachother. it’s the basis of any real love you have for anyone platonic or not. growth. and growing together. it’s about empathy and looking for depth in everyone (because everyone has depth. we’re all multi faceted and we all contains multitudes and what not) because we’re all human and we’re all craving the same thing. connection.

and that’s what saxon doesn’t have.

anyways i’m done with my rant lol. i don’t wanna keep repeating myself and what not

He is lazy and he is weak, he is shallow and he is offended by the way other people are able to read him, but he just wants that to stop. He doesn’t really want to change anything about himself. He wants the world to go back to validating his vision of himself, which is why he tried to fuck Chelsea.

He has never learned to do anything on his own. He is a full grown man working at his father‘s company and his underlings or his assistant are 100% doing all of his work. He spends all of his energy in life getting other people to do his work. He is a useless waste of space on this planet.

Stop wasting your time on the idea of what someone could be if they only put in the effort when they have never in their lives put in any effort.

and with chelsea??? like that boy is so desperate for any kind of meaningful connection because he doesn’t have any. and because of surroundings and his environment and probably his lack of genuine affection from his family, he has put all of that into sexual desire.

like. being hyper sexual is something that is a direct cause from MANY things, one of those things being neglect, loneliness, lack of genuine affection and CASUAL affection in your childhood. he’s never gotten that. his family is avoidant, passive aggressive, and set in their ways. so of course he is too. like he’s not a bad person. he’s flawed and he’s broken a little. but he’s not like a lost cause. he’s just what he is and he doesn’t know how to be someone else. he needs things explained to him. people like that, in real life, need that.

it’s not that serious i suppose. like he’s not real. but i do think it’s about empathy at the end of the day. like being able to see WHY is he the way he is. or trying to. and the whole key with people like saxon is patience and COMMUNICATION (which is something nobody does with him) and not communication in the way chelsea does it. he needs like actual gentle therapy, someone (a licensed professional preferably) to lay out the facts and help him sort through why his issues ARE his issues.

it’s not that people like that don’t want to change. it’s that they don’t know how and it’s that incredibly human tendency to give in and give up. to settle for what you’ve become instead of who you could be.

but also that’s an opinion and what not. everyone is entitled to view him and any character however they want. that’s just my two cents.

- diomedes.

- diomedes in all of book five.

- athena telling diomedes he shouldn't fight any of the gods that may show up on the battlefield, except for aphrodite, because what's she gonna do, fight back?

- athena then lecturing diomedes for NOT fighting ares, and diomedes proceeding to tell her "dude, you literally told me not to fight him, what do you want from me?"

- achilles and his pure hatred for agamemnon. someone give this man a shirt that says "number one agamemnon hater".

- achilles and agamemnon arguing the entire time they're in the vicinity of each other. every time they talk, it's like two kids coming up with every insult under the sun without outwardly cursing each other out.

- agamemnon essentially calling achilles a whiny bitch. kind of iconic.

- a popular favorite but: odysseus going around and beating the men who wanted to leave with a fancy ceremonial stick. it just never gets old.

- odysseus being that one guy who never shuts up about his kid while beating the living shit out of thersites. he very proudly calls himself the "father of telemachus" while verbally and physically abusing this man.

- odysseus once again referring to himself as the "loving father of telemachus" when agamemnon is trying to piss him off so he'll join the battle. i'm pretty sure this is a fairly common thing for odysseus to do, and you got to love him for it.

- another popular favorite: agamemnon mourning his very-much-so-still-alive younger brother after menelaus gets shot by an arrow in the thigh. menelaus quickly realizes he's fine and asks his brother to stop lamenting his "death" because if he keeps it up, he's gonna spook the rest of the men and that's just not what they need right now.

- and then agamemnon immediately being like "oh, word? okay, but you need a doctor- SOMEONE GET THE DOCTOR!"

- athena grabbing achilles' hair during the argument between achilles and agamemnon in book one when achilles is deadass about to just kill agamemnon because he's mad as hell. she then proceeds to tell achilles to call agamemnon names instead and books it.

- helen being the bad bitch she is whenever she's on the page, despite her circumstances. not only does she flat out tell paris she wishes he had been killed, but she basically tells aphrodite to bed paris herself, which is ballsy as fuck and i have nothing but respect for her.

- speaking of paris: hector absolutely TEARING into paris after he flees from fighting menelaus one-on-one. he really just says that paris is only good for looking pretty and he wishes paris had never been born. honestly, good for him.

- priam asking helen to point out the various greek leaders and immediately calling agamemnon handsome. idk why but it made me chuckle just a bit.

- priam also comparing odysseus to a ram, which is such a wonderful visual and i think about it a lot.

- antenor, one of priam's advisors, recognizing odysseus when helen points him out and immediately going: "oh, that motherfucker, i remember him. he looks like an idiot, but man, does he know how to use his words to win over a crowd."

- nestor essentially saying "back in my day-" every time he opens his damn mouth. i love him and he never shuts up once he gets going.

"Achilles - yes, the Achilles - has just received word that Patroclus, his dearest companion, his partner in the camps and possibly in other activities (depending on who you ask), has fallen in battle! This is a moment in history, folks! Achilles is on his knees, howling at the sky like a man who just lost his entire world, ever the theatre kid!"

"Now, forget about Achilles, let’s talk about the real losers here: the entire Achaean betting pool. That’s right! If you had money on ‘Patroclus survives the war,’ you might as well start handing over your gold and spoils!"

"Hector is on the run, folks! I repeat, Hector is on the run! This is NOT a drill! The Trojan prince is circling the walls of Troy, and Achilles is right behind him, faster than Grandpa Hermes on cattle stealing duty! That’s one… two… three laps around the city! My, my, my, this reminds me of my sister's unfulfilled weight loss plans."

"AND Agamemnon fires back! Says Achilles is just a whiny soldier who doesn’t respect the chain of command! Achilles’ jaw just dropped, I don’t think I’ve seen him this offended since someone suggested Patroclus should wear his armour. And now - oh, oh, folks, he’s reaching for his sword! HE IS ACTUALLY GOING FOR HIS SWORD! ARE WE ABOUT TO WITNESS A MURDER LIVE?! IS ACHILLES FINALLY FULFILLING EVERYONE'S DREAMS TO KILL AGAMEMNON?!"

"AND HERE COMES THE SLAUGHTER! Diomedes is absolutely dominating the battlefield - twelve men down, zero resistance! Look at that form! That precision! Just a drool worthy performance of a true warrior! Meanwhile, I’m executing a perfect steal - warhorses? Mine now! That’s right, folks, I am officially expanding my contingent of stolen goods!”

Athena will make Diomedes's grip on his spear stronger pushing his fingers tighter and almost breaking his bones. She fixes his position making his stance perfect, but human's body was never able to get into position this perfect so his muscles will be tearing and his bones will be cracking just to be instantly healed. When Athena removes her hands, his body will be covered in bruises.

Odysseus will always feel burning and at the same time freezing gaze on his back while Athena watches him across the battlefield. His ears will be filled with her breath and whisper, that will ring in his head long after she ended speaking. She will help him shot an arrow, and he will feel his joints moving in the way they were never supposed to move.

When Apollo turns all the spears and arrows away from the Hector he will still feel them digging into his flash. Apollo will raise him from the dust again and again, and Hector won't be able to stand without hearing god's voice in his ears and feeling god's burning touch on his shoulders. He closes his eyes and still sees the light.

Helen will stand tall to speak up to Paris, and Aphrodite will place her hands on Helen's shoulders to remind her of goddess's presence and this flaming grip will weight as heavy as ten years of war. Aphrodite will wash Helen's face so her skin will shine brighter and eyes will haunt every man in the room, and the only thing Helen feels is her skin freezing from the coldness of Aphrodite's hands.

And those touches won't end with battle or even with war. Every time Diomedes fights he will feel his body taking the exact position Athena once made him in, his limbs will come into shape they were never meant to be in, without deforming cause Athena already fixed them, once she already designed him according to her vision. Every time Odysseus lies his words will echo in his head just like Athena's words did before, every time he uses a bow, arrow in his hands will feel like a burning torch or like an ice, and his joints and tendons will sing in a perfect copy of the song Athena made them perform inside his body on the battlefield. Every time Helen will square her shoulders to feel herself more confident she will feel burning touch on her chin pushing it up and freezing breath in her hair. She will look at her husband and shadow of tight grip on her shoulders will become shadow of sharp nails digging into her skin, holding her in place.

Even dying at Achilles's hands and falling to the ground Hector would still hear an order in his head telling him to get up and fight, his own blood running down a neck will feel like Apollo's hands forcing him back to his feet.