“You make known to me the path of life.”
When Beatrice spoke these words, she was fighting because it needs to be done to achieve her end goal.
She was doing it out of duty.
And when we got to know her more, we found out that Bea does what she does just so she could “have value”— so she could be appreciated.
In a way, it seemed like she still doesn’t know in which direction her life is supposed to go. Yes, she’s devoted her life to service to God. And her actions show that she lives by this vow, but her heart isn’t 100% in it. She still has doubts and pains that she never fully acknowledges.
So she asks God for guidance. She surrenders hersef to His will. In this fight, if she lives or dies, it’s because He wills it.
I think that’s what she meant by that quote— that even though she feels lost and unsure, she trust that God will show her the path she needs to take.
For most of her life, Beatrice thinks her path is avoiding who she is—because who she was in her past was a sin.
Then, Ava comes barreling into her life.
In a short amount of time, Beatrice acknowledges her repressed insecurities and feelings about herself.
Suddenly, her path doesn’t seem so clear. It’s become a winding road with obstacles.
Suddenly, being a sister warrior and protecting the Warrior Nun isn’t just a duty now.
So when she dons the same armour to fight, it’s not the same words she says.
Instead, she says “You all stand between me and Ava.”
She found her only path… No matter how many obstacles, she pushes on… because at the end of that path is Ava.
And even though Ava is “gone”, Bea’s goal is the same. Her path is always to Ava.
I bet she will be doing whatever it takes to find out more about the other realm. She’ll go to hell and back to find Ava and bring her back.
Yup, I will gladly go down with this ship.