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Synopsis: Your younger brother Juhoon’s friend has had a crush on you since forever, he is just like the other guys that like you isn’t he?
Pairing: grumpy x sunshine, brother’s best friend
Warnings: swearing, kissing, almost getting into a fight lol
Wc: 1086
Author’s note: HEAVILY inspired by shinee’s replay, also the edits on tiktok with the song have inspired, im also talking to a younger guy so that aint making anything better sigh, also idk why im always looking for someone to beef with in every fanfic i write LMFAO
Walking around school you felt it, you knew you looked good. Even though boys never left you alone, you were untouchable. That was the challenge that kept them chasing you.
You were on your way to school with your younger brother Juhoon.
Gosh does this boy ever shut up?
You turned around the corner you always did, his friend’s house to pick him up.
Martin Edwards
The boy one grade below you which somehow made every girl fall for him.
What do they even see in him?
As soon as he meets up with Juhoon they become the loudest people in the world.
“Yooo Y/n good morning” he says
You look at him unfazed, how could someone be so jolly at this hour?
“You look beautiful as always” he says again
“I know, youve told me more than enough times” you say trying to shut him down
“Are you uncomfortable because of my age Y/n? Age is just a number you know”
“Stop bothering her shes gonna start crying” Juhoon says clearly trying to rage bait you.
“Juhoon i would normally hit you but i have an image to live up to”
“Yeah her image, shes the nonchalant unbothered one remember?” Martin says defending you
“Thats all an act, youre just defending her because you have a crush on her” Juhoon says
“Thats true i do have a crush on her” Martin replies confidently
“Y/n youre so beautiful you make me crazy”
You smirk, even though you tried to hide it, the things he said did indeed make you flustered, youre just a girl after all.
You were walking through the hallways as you drop Juhoon to his class. You were headed towards the stairs.
“Y/n why are you rushing? Wait for me” you hear a voice behind you yell.
Sigh… you thought he forgot about you as he was greeting Juhoon. But you indeed wait, i mean you arent evil.
“Why are you following me?” you ask
“See, i have a class on the second floor so i am not exactly following you, but even if i didnt have one i would still come drop you off”
“Whatever”
You reached your class and went to your desk. He was still behind you.
“You can leave now” you say as you put your bag on your chair
“Yes ma’am” he says playfully as he smiles and walks out of the class.
You can’t help but smile.
The bell rang, class had begun.
“Yeah did you see Martin today with the red shirt? He looked too good” you hear your classmates whispering.
“Oh my god right? I had asked him out last year but he said he already liked someone, i think y/n”
“Ugh im so tired of her, i dont even get the hype about her”
What the fuck?
They were literally behind you and shit talking you. Do they really think you would let that slide?
The bell rang, class had ended.
You head to their desk and put your bag on their desk.
“You really think i cant hear you talking about me? Do you think i am stupid?” you confront them
“We weren’t talking about you, how self absorbed are you ?” one of the girls replies
They brought an anger to you only juhoon could bring. You push the girl’s books to fall down on the floor.
“What the fuck?” she exclaimed
“Oh were those your books? I didnt know..” you say sarcastically
“You are out here gossiping about me saying im overhyped? Maybe if you fixed your personality someone who doesn’t care about looks might like you someday” you snap back as you take your bag and leave.
Thinking about it during lunch, you thought maybe you overreacted. Did that girl really like Martin? Well at least he rejected her. You didn’t expect him to tell her he liked you. Suddenly you feel someone sitting next to you. Speak of the devil.
“Hey pretty girl” Martin greets
“Hi”
“Wanna go out after school?”
“No” you say without even thinking about it
“Please Y/n i will treat you to whatever you like”
“I will think about it” you say, folding to the pressure
The final bell rang.
You were gathering your stuff getting ready to head home, but there he was, at the door of your class.
“Hi beautiful, do you accept my offer?” Martin asks
“You know what? I forgot my money so yeah lets go for a coffee”
He has the widest smile on him as he holds out his hand towards you
“What?” you ask confused
“Your bag, let me hold it” he offers
“No? I can hold it myself” you say even though you didn’t want to hold it, you wanted to seem independent.
He just nods as he is smiling.
later…
You got your drinks and were heading towards the park you always hung out at. You sit at a bench and take a sip of your coffee, he was just staring at you.
“Why are you looking at me like that” you ask
“Because i like you” he replies instantly
You smile and turn your head away from him.
“Thank you for the coffee by the way” you say
“Anything for you” he says as he looks at you in awe
After a few minutes you decide to ask him what has been on your mind the entire day.
“Martin, do you actually like me?”
“Of course i do, isnt it obvious?”
“I heard something”
“About what?”
“Did you reject that red haired girl from my class?”
“I did, why are you asking?”
“Why did you reject her?”
“Because i like you, ive always liked you, since i first saw you at juhoon’s birthday party when we were 9”
You smile
“Are you smiling? Does that mean you like me too?” he asks desperately
“Im not sure”
He looks at you leaning closer and closer as if he was about to kiss you. You close your eyes and wait.
“Did you think i was about to kiss you? Is that why you closed your eyes?” he teases you
“What? No!”
He knew when you got defensive it meant he was right.
“Then why are you blushing?”
“Am i?” you say as you feel your hot cheeks
He smiles and leans over, this time he actually kisses you, you kiss him back.
“Are you sure now?” he asks as he is still inches away from your face.
Synopsis: when unrequited love clashes with the feeling of loneliness
Pairing: one sided love, reader x karina, aespa 5th member
Warnings: death mentioned, suicide, being left out
Wc: 580
Author’s note: sorry this is kinda depressing, sigh i love unrequited love, dont read this if youre in a bad place mentally.
ever since you first saw her, you already knew you liked her. who wouldnt? shes everyone’s type
yu jimin
as you first debuted duos had already been set. winter and karina, giselle and ningning, what about the 5th member? y/n who always has the least lines, y/n who always has the least followers on instagram, y/n who most of the time is alone. everyone could see it, even your own fans.
“aespa are so good its just y/n thats the problem”
“y/n is irrelevant in the group seems like she had connections and debuted”
“why is y/n always zoning off by herself?”
In the most recent event, fans were filming winter and karina recreating a picture of sawako and ume as you were standing a little behind them staring at karina. fans then started the rumours.
“she must be jealous she doesnt really have anyone shes close with”
its not that you werent close with your members, you were close, but you didnt have a “best friend”, after all, you were added in the lineup last minute. you knew the girls had built resentment over you. when you joined the lineup the role of visual and lead dancer was removed from winter and given to you.
as you were training by yourself pre debut, karina had come up to you
“hey y/n”
“hi karina” you reply quietly
“i just wanted to say i dont want to pressure you but you should apologise to winter”
“oh yeah i was planning on it”
thinking about karina hurt. you already know she likes winter. you have walked in multiple times on them cuddling pretending you didnt see.
6 years had passed and you still havent moved on from her.
you were on instagram live interacting with fans
“can we be friends we are the same age”
“lets be friends, honestly i find it kind of hard to make friends, please be my friend guys”
“is it better to speak or to die”
“i have been wondering that too actually, what do you guys think?”
comments started rolling
“to speak!”
“definitely to speak!”
“anything but to die”
the next day you had been left all alone with karina in your dorm
“karina ive been wanting to tell you something”
“what is it?” she asks not even looking at you
“i have feelings for you, ive felt this way for a lot of years”
“im sorry y/n i dont see us being a couple” she replies coldly
you nod
“i understand, im sorry if i made things awkward”
she doesn’t even glance your way, you just leave the dorm and go to the rooftop of your building. as you were staring at the city it started raining, the day couldn’t get worse.
a few days had passed, you had gathered with your members for a meal. you look over at karina and winter holding hands under the table, karina speaks up.
“girls, me and winter have been meaning to tell you something” she says getting our attention.
“me and winter are actually dating” karina says as giselle and ningning start to congratulate them. you just smile and pretend to be happy for them.
you start wondering
maybe its better to die than to speak
weverse
NOTICE: aespa’s Y/N has been found dead due to suicide
Synopsis: You made a mistake. You started liking Eom Seonghyeon, your boy best friend. All your members knew it was risky since you already had dating rumours to begin with. That wasn’t the problem, the problem was he knew.. too much.
Pairing: seonghyeon x reader, idol x idol, best friends to lovers
Contains: angst, misunderstanding
Warnings: swearing, kissing, mentions of getting high and drunk, lmk if i missed something
Wc: 2085
Author’s note: This is my first fanfic so bare with me lol, also english isnt my first language so yeah. I kinda took inspiration from my real life with the louis thing but me and my childhood best friend that i liked dont even talk anymore plus he has a gf sadly. I recommend listening to Best Mistake by ariana grande while reading this.
He knew everything about you, every situation, every minor inconvenience, every time you got wronged, every crush, every ex, but one of your crushes stood out to him.
His name is Louis, your childhood best friend Louis that is one year younger than you and set to make his debut soon in a group named LNGSHOT , Seonghyeon hated him. Louis had a girlfriend — that was the problem.
“Dude i hate her so much why dont they just break up already” Seonghyeon replies “You are just jealous of her” well, you can’t deny that “Well thats true but they have been dating for too long its about time they break up” Seonghyeon seems unfazed as this is always how your conversations about Louis with him go.
After a while, you got bored of waiting on Louis, Seonghyeon noticed as you started to mention him less and less as the time passed. This is what Seonghyeon wanted from the beginning. From then you only grew closer to him.
Till one day, after practice, as Seonghyeon was walking you home he stopped outside your house.. “Well i guess see you tomorrow?” he said waiting for your response “Yeah” you said as you smiled softly “Okay then i’ll see you there”. There was a moment of silence as he looked in your eyes while you stared back. He started leaning closer and your body seemed to mimic his as he planted a soft kiss on your lips. You kissed him back. He softly held your hand and let you go “You should go inside now..” you were flustered as you mumbled “Okay then uhm goodnight” he smiled as he waved goodbye and started walking away.
You couldn’t stop thinking about Seonghyeon all night. You were too caught up with Louis to notice Seonghyeon’s feelings towards you. Your first thought was that your members needed to know this.
y/n : uhm chat..
ian ian: oh shit what did you do again
y/n : LITERALLY NOTHING
irohoe : lies
rawra (rora) : did louis break up
y/n : nah i dont even know
y/n : i literally havent seen him in a few days
y/n : um anyways ok back on topic
y/n : seonghyeon
rawra (rora) : he told you that juhoon wants me didn’t he 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
irohoe : juhoon dont want u you gotta leave that poor boy alone
rawra (rora) : O K A Y UNECESSARY
y/n : bruh let me speak 😭
rawra (rora) : mb mb
y/n : SEONGHYEON KISSED ME
ian ian : WHAT
y/n : YEAH HE WALKED ME HOME AND KISSED ME
irohoe : WHAT ABOUT LOUIS
y/n : aint nobody thinking about louis rn lil bro
rawra (rora) : all im hearing is that im one step closed to getting with juhoon
ian ian : RORA PLS SYBAU
irohoe : SO WHAT NOW
y/n : IDK
y/n : HOPEFULLY HE ASKS ME OUT OR SUM
ian ian : ok we better not hear about louis again then
y/n : ahhh my man seonghyeonnnn 🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤
rawra (rora) : ahhhh my man juhoon 🤤🤤
irohoe: stop harassing him
rawra (rora) : its lowk crazy tho i didnt even know you wanted seonghyeon like that
y/n : i meannnn i’ve thought abt me and him but i never actually did anything
ian ian : but today was different huh
y/n : yeah 👀👀
The next day as you were walking to practice you saw Louis walked past you as he bumped your shoulder playfully “Oh my god cant you watch where you go” he said “Ew who is this rando that bumped into me” you replied instantly, as you both laughed. “Where you going?” he asks “Im going to practice as always..” you replied as you felt Yeon’s eyes on you. “Right.. im skipping practice right now…” of course he was “But i heard something about you and Seonghyeon, are you two going out or something?” you didnt expect him to ask you anything like this at all “Uhm we aren’t going out exactly… what did you even hear to say that?” he looked at you as he replied “Just that you two are always together and look good as a couple, you know stuff like that” “Well no comment on that, im sorry i have to hurry practice started like 5 minutes ago” you said in a hurry to get out of that situation “Oh okay see you later” Louis said as you waved.
You walked into the hybe building, walking past practice rooms. You walked past cortis’ practice room, feeling eyes on you, pretending you didnt see anything to avoid any awkward interactions. You sighed as you walked into your group’s practice room. As you and your group were practicing the choreo for your upcoming comeback you were looking into the mirror and Seonghyeon walked past, looking at you through the mirror smiling. You smiled to yourself and he walked away.
Hours had passed, you were exhausted. It was now 11pm and you gathered your stuff and grabbed you phone.
2 missed calls from Eom Seonghyeon
Why had he called? You were wondering as you pressed call back.
“Hello?”
“Hey”
“Why did you call me earlier”
“I was just wondering if you were done with practice”
“Oh.. i just finished so yeah”
“Can we talk?”
“Did anything happen?”
“No everything is okay i just want to talk to you, meet me at our spot?”
“Okay ill be there in 10 minutes”
“See you”
Call ended
What was this about? You were wondering as you put on your jacket and started heading to Seonghyeon.
Our spot..
The spot he was talking about was the bench near the park in your city. You had spent countless nights there, getting high for the first time, gossiping, having deep talks, you had even carved your initials on a drunken night.
As you were walking you spot a familiar figure sitting on the sidewalk alone. Louis?
You sat next to him without saying a word.
“Y/n?” he says surprised
“Hey is everything okay?”
“Um i just broke up with Yeon” he said as his voice trembled, hinting he was about to cry.
Instinctively you held him in your arms, as you did when you were kids.
“Hey its okay i am sure everything will work out” you said trying to comfort him as he stays clinging onto you.
Seonghyeon’s POV
I was walking to our bench holding a tulip, her favourite flower, i was ready to finally ask her out.
As i pass the street i notice a couple on the sidewalk. Thats gonna be me and her one day..
The girl kind of looks like y/n too.
Wait…
Is that… Y/n?
What the actual fuck is she doing there hugging another guy?
As i look more closely i catch a glimpse of his face. I mean no way that could be him right? He has a girlfriend doesn’t he?
Of course it just had to be Lim Louis.
This shit wasn’t worth it.
I should’ve never called her, or kissed her, or liked her in the first place. How could she ever do this? Of all people Y/n? That isnt like her at all.
I give up.
Y/n’sPOV
Louis was vulnerable now, you couldn’t just leave him alone could you?
You could.
“Louis im so sorry but i have to go now, text me if you need someone to talk to, im always here for you” you say as you get up.
He looks at you with his teary eyes as he nods understandably.
“You should go back to your dorm okay?”
“Yeah youre right” he says as he gets up and you run your fingers through his hair affectionately, waving him goodbye as so does he.
You finally arrived at your bench, which was surprisingly empty. No big deal, he is probably on his way.
10 minutes pass
This feels kinda off, i should probably call him.
Ring..Ring…Ring….
He didn’t pick up? Thats new, you think as you call him again.
Once again, no answer.
You decide to do the next best thing and text him.
“Im at our spot” 11:23pm
“Are you on ur way?” 11:24pm
“Is everything okayy?” 11:26pm
“Hello?” 11:29pm
“Seonghyeon” 11:29pm
“Maybe you fell asleep” 11:32pm
“Its okay we can talk tomorrow” 11:32pm
“Goodnight im going home :)” 11:33pm
This was weird.
As you were headed back home you pass the road as you look down, why was there a tulip in the middle of the road?
You pick it up, it was your favourite colour, maybe this is a sign? You think as you decide you were gonna take it home.
The next day
It wasn’t the messages from Louis that concerned you, it was the no messages from Seonghyeon. You must be overthinking this right? You open Louis’ texts to distract yourself.
“Hey im sorry for being a burden yesterday”
“No louis wtf dont ever say that youre never a burden to me”
“Im really glad to have you y/n”
“Are you busy today?” he texted again
“I kind of have plans im sorry”
thats a lie, you have no plans, what you did want was to talk to seonghyeon.
“Its okay no worries”
you like the message.
You head to the hybe building straight to cortis’ practice room, only Ahn Keonho was there.
“Hey Keonho do you know where seonghyeon is?”
“Oh Y/n.. yeah hes in our studio” he says hesitating, as if he knew something you don’t.
“Thanks” you say as you start heading to their studio.
You knock at the door as the door opens and there he was, Eom Seonghyeon. He looks at you as he sighs while you hug him out of instinct.
“Hey are you okay? You didnt reply to any of my calls or texts i was worried something happened to y-“ you were cut off by him.
“Yeah im okay” he says coldly as he quickly pulled away from you.
“Are you sure? Why didn’t r you come yesterday? You didn’t even text me or anything to let me know you weren’t coming”
“I wasn’t feeling like it” he replies, whats with his attitude suddenly?
“You literally told me to meet up with you, what do you mean you weren’t feeling like it?” you reply, mirroring his attitude.
“Stop being pressed about it, its not that deep, just leave, im not in the mood to talk to you now”
“Well no im not leaving till you tell me what is wrong and why youre acting like this” you snap back
“What the fuck Y/n? You come here while im trying to clear my head and hug me suddenly the same way you do with every other guy and you have the audacity to speak this way to me?”
“What the fuck are you talking about?” You say confused.
“Dont fucking act confused, i saw you and Louis yesterday” you look at him shocked
“Its literally not what you think. He had just broken up with Yeon i was just comforting him as a friend” you say angrily because of the accusations thrown around.
“Oh so he broke up and you jumped into his arms as youve been waiting for all this time? So you were just using me till you got who you actually wanted?”
“No? I dont even like him anymore. I like you Seonghyeon” he looks at you kind of shocked bur he snaps back to reality.
“Cut the bullshit, if you liked me you wouldn’t be hugging him when we were supposed to meet”
“Seonghyeon! I like you! Stop talking about Louis. I couldn’t see him cry like that, you know how i can’t see people cry without crying myself” he looks at you still angry but more understanding
“So you dont like Louis?” he asks again
“No, I like you” you say looking into his eyes, god, hes looks so good when he is angry.
“I like you too” he finally admits
You two hold eye contact as thoughts run through your mind.
“So what now?” you ask awkwardly
He smirks as he leans over and kisses you as you wrap your hands around his neck. He pulls away.
“Yesterday, what i wanted to tell you was that i have feelings for you. I’ve liked you ever since we first met in the monthly evaluation when you asked me if i was nervous, i’ve always liked you”
You smile, you didn’t expect this. You raise your hand and caress his cheek.
“Oh Sean”
“Y/n, can i be your boyfriend?”
You smile and nod as he pulls you closer and pecks your lips.
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“We are still together. You’re just trying to pull out because you’re scared.” “What do I have to be scared about?” “You tell me, y/ln”
PAIRING : olderboyfriend!james x f!reader
SYPNOSIS : In which… reader is insecure about her relationship with James regarding her age, personality, even appearance at some point, that it makes pull away. Of course, James notices.
GENRE : fluff, angst, hurt/comfort
WARNINGS : cursing, insecure reader, use of petnames, age gap(2 years), sharing a bed, crying, arguing, mentions of not eating, use of y/n like once
WC : 3239
AUTHOR'S NOTE : This is proofread, I worry that it’s not as well-written as I think it is, but please feel free to critique my writing so I can improve. First James fanfic yayyy.
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You and James met when you were only sixteen, he was eighteen. You met him through your younger brother Martin who was always meeting new people, and making new friendships. You seriously don’t know how James puts up with your brother’s shit.
Of course, James fell in love with you at first sight. He was fascinated with you, the way you spoke with such calmness, the way you moved around so silently but so noticeable at the same time, the way you handled difficult situations. To put it in a few words, from the moment he saw you, he knew he would do anything to get you all to himself.
A few months after you turned seventeen. He asked you out on a date. You went to this beautiful elegant restaurant, that was just out of town, with dim lighting, warm laughter coming from every direction and delicious food. He brought you a bouquet of your favourite flowers, paid for the check, and drove you home. The night ended with his lips on yours, one hand on your waist and the other on your chin deepening the kiss, until you both pulled away giggling.
After a few more dates, while you were sitting together at the park bench, late at night, eating snacks and gossiping together, he asked you out. Obviously you said yes.
Now, it has been about one and a half years from the moment you two started dating. Everything’s been great so far, never ending dates, nonstop laughter, stolen glances, soft kisses, late night conversations. You even decided to move in together, your parents trusting that decision, knowing James and how sweet and responsible he is. You wouldn’t change it for anything. But sometimes you do have your doubts and insecurities, sometimes as in almost all the time.
You know James loves you, you really do, but sometimes the overthinking gets too much. He’s handsome and attractive, often grabbing the attention of other women, his age. You know the age gap between you too is not even big, but you can’t help but wonder if sometimes he would prefer someone his age or older. It’s stupid, pathetic even, but it’s not your fault that you think that way.
There have been multiple times when you caught other girls staring at him, some even coming up to talk to him, knowing damn well you were there, but still choosing to ignore the fact and think that they have a chance. James obviously doesn’t give them the satisfaction, but that doesn’t stop you from thinking he will leave you any second for someone better.
Have you voiced these concerns with him? No. Will you ever? You don’t know, you’re afraid of his reaction if you ever did speak up, you know he wouldn’t yell at you or maybe not even be mad, but still.
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Sitting on James’ lap, head on his shoulder and phone in your hands, you’re scrolling on TikTok, not even paying attention to the videos that pop up, your stomach rumbles.
You hungry mhm? You wanna order take out or go out for dinner? His hands rubbing the sides of your waist, he speaks ever so softly, like he’s scared that raising his voice even a little, in such a quiet, intimate moment, will startle you.
You look at the time on your phone, it reads 7:46PM. You pull back from him, hands going from behind his neck to his chest as you stare at him. Well, it’s still quite early so I have time to get ready, can we go out?
Of course love. Do you know where you wanna go to? He says, looking at your face for any sign that you would change your mind.
Maybe that one restaurant downtown, where they have different cuisines? We could try Italian today.
Sure thing, go get ready, I’ll make sure there are tables left so I can make a reservation. He smiles and taps your side, gesturing for you to get up.
After about 25 minutes of putting on makeup and finding what clothes to wear, you’re finally ready. You decided to wear a short flowy dress in your favourite color. As you’re putting on your heels, you hear a gasp behind you and look up. James is just standing there, with his black suit, staring at you with bright eyes and a big smile.
You’re absolutely gorgeous.
James… You giggle as you walk over to him, the heels clicking on the white marble floor. You place your right hand on his cheek and your left hand on his chest.
His hands go to your waist immediately by habit as he squeezes it and leans in. The moment he kisses you, your body fills with an unexplainable feeling, like it’s the first time all over again, on that bright starry night when he kissed you on your doorstep for the first time.
After pulling away he raises his hand to you so you can grab it and when you do, you two walk out of the door.
Once you enter, the restaurant is buzzing with people. You notice everything, the different faces, different clothes and many many different types of food from countries and cultures all over the world. You breath out a sigh, this is your favourite place where different cultures and people connect, the idea of this is really sweet.
He pulls your chair so you can sit down and walks over to his chair. The waitress appears after just a moment to take your orders. You notice she is smiling a little too much at your boyfriend and not really paying attention to anything else, making small talk with him, not even asking you about your order.
After you two eat, James signals for the check while the same waitress comes up. The moment she leaves the check on the table she turns around, but before doing so, she winks at your boyfriend? What the fuck is her problem?
You turn to look at him and see that his expression has turned into a frown before you see the phone number written on the end of the paper. Ugh, the audacity. He stands up, leaving the paper on the table and walks over to the front to pay before you both leave.
You stay silent the whole way back to the car.
Baby? You don’t answer.
Sweetheart, are you okay? Concern in his voice as he steps closer to you, about to hold your hand. You raise your arms in the air.
Of course I’m okay, everything is okay, nothing is going on. You nervously laugh. I’m just tired, let’s go home.
Hey are you sure- He reaches for your shoulder.
Please, yufan. You don’t even spare him a glance. He gives up trying to figure you out, for now.
In the car, you’re only staring out the window, he tries to communicate with you but you just shrug your shoulders and answer with short, dry answers. Tears are threatening to fall off your eyes, but you hold back, not wanting James to see that side of you.
After you reach home, he tries to talk to you multiple times but you don’t answer him as you would normally do, he has realized by now that this has something to do with that waitress at the restaurant. Fuck, was that lady stupid?
Even when you go to sleep and he tries to speak with you, you don’t budge, but you still let him hug you as your eyes slowly close and you drift away.
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The next morning when you wake up, your hands reach his side of the bed out of instinct, but to your surprise, he is nowhere to be found. You immediately open your eyes and sit up before you’re blinded by the rays of sunlight, hitting your eyes through the shades. You can hear sounds coming from the kitchen and as you get up and start walking towards the door, a sweet smell hits your nose.
Entering the room, you’re met with the sight of James’ back, his hands moving a pan and holding a spatula, cooking pancakes.
Morning baby. You say as you wrap your hands around his waist and snuggle your face on his back, breathing in his scent. You hadn’t forgotten about yesterday, obviously, but you didn’t want him to worry again like the night before, where he wouldn’t stop asking if you were alright.
He flinches a little bit, startled because he didn’t hear you coming. Hey there, I made you pancakes. He scrambles to prepare them and turns to you, holding two full plates in his hands. He places a quick peck on your lips and walks over to the table, setting breakfast down.
As you both sit down, he turns to look at you. Hey um… He pauses. Are you okay? You glance at him and notice his furrowed brows.
Mhm, why wouldn’t I be. You hum, munching on food while moving your fork around. I don’t know… I guess, you seemed a little off last night. Well I wasn’t off, it was probably just in your head. Enunciating the words, as you speak. Yea right. He chuckles, but the laugh is not quite reaching his eyes.
Hyeon and Keonho are throwing a party at their place today, do you wanna go? He mentions, scrolling at his phone.
I don’t think so, but if you want to go then you can, I’ll just stay at home.
Are you sure?
Mhm.
Completely sure?
Yea.
Okay then.
You didn’t want him to go without you, but you weren’t really in the mood to go. Negative thoughts trying to flood your mind already, but you push them away, for now.
When the time came for him to leave, you said your goodbyes, a few kisses here and there, as you rushed him out the door. But after about 30 minutes of staring at the wall in silence, you grab your phone.
Opening instagram, you notice many stories from people you know as you press each and one of them. The last one being the cherry on top, a selfie of the boys but there’s James in the background talking with someone, someone blurry. You zoom in and-
You would notice that curly hair anywhere, Danielle Marsh. Dani has been trying to grab your boyfriend’s attention for ages now, always flirting with him, talking with him etc. She is older than you, his age, she is more mature, more pretty, has a more beautiful figure.
Overthinking takes over your mind and body as your phone falls out of your hand and onto the couch. Tears blur your vision, as your breathing becomes uneven. You should have gone to that party, you should have never let him go alone. You’re not even sure that if you were there, this wouldn’t happen, because really, even though you’re jealous and anxious, you never act on it or do anything to stop it.
You hate this side of you. Insecure and vulnerable. Sometimes you seriously wish that you would be James’ age, or have a more mature personality. It’s not that you don’t trust him, it’s the fact that you don’t trust others around him. You wish that you would be one of those women that are not insecure in their relationship, because it’s like you’re trying to self-sabotage.
You slowly head to your shared bed, body feeling weak but still pushing through. You lay down and cover yourself with the blanket, whole body shaking with desperate cries as they gradually quiet down into sniffles and eventually you fall asleep.
When James returns home, he notices the heavy silence immediately, something is wrong. He puts down his car keys and wallet and searches for you. When he doesn’t find you on the couch, only your phone, he walks over to the bedroom as he approaches you and kneels down in front of your face.
“Was she… crying?” He stares at your tear-stained cheeks, as he softly nudges your shoulder to wake you up.
Baby, wake up. Please wake up sweetheart.
Softly and slowly opening your eyes, you feel James’ hand caressing your hair as he presses a kiss on your forehead.
What happened baby, were you crying? The moment you hear that sentence, you turn your face away from him and wipe your cheeks.
I wasn’t crying, nothing happened. You sit up and slide out of the covers.
But- Nothing happened, James! Your voice rises as you stand up and head to the living room.
You are clearly not okay so why don’t you talk to me? What are you keeping to yourself that you won’t tell me? He’s yelling now too, his voice is not laced with anger, but with confusion.
Now pacing around the living room, you hesitate to speak, your thoughts scattered all over the place, not knowing where to start from. James is just staring at you, waiting for your answer.
You know what Yufan? I saw an instagram story, why were you talking with Danielle? Danielle? He’s even more confused now.
Danielle Marsh, you were clearly having more than a friendly conversation with her and she was touching your shoulder!
Okay love, I think you’re confused, there’s obviously nothing going on with me and Danielle, I don’t even think she has any interest in me, and I don’t even like her like that.
No James, she obviously has a crush on you, just like that waitress at the restaurant, and every other girl that as so much stares at you when we’re out together. You yell, your voice shaking.
What? You know that’s not true and even if it was, I don’t have any interest in other women! You’re the only girl that I want in my life.
Yea right. You shrug, tears brimming your eyes. Why don’t you believe me? I just… I can’t okay? Maybe this whole thing is not right, maybe we shouldn’t be together.
What? He yells, you finally look at his face, really look at him, he’s on the verge of crying. You’ve never seen him like this.
Maybe I…, I’m sorry. You grab your jacket, sobs escaping your chest as you open the door. Y/n please- You look at him one last time with red eyes, he’s shaking with the fear of losing you. You close the door and leave. Where are you going? You don’t know. Do you regret your decision? Yes, but maybe it’s for the better, maybe you’ve been holding him back all this time.
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It’s been three days, three whole days since you two last spoke. He doesn’t know where you are and he is scared that something happened to you. James tried calling you multiple times, but you never pick up, you don’t even read his texts. He even tried getting to you through Martin, but even Martin doesn’t know what you’re doing, which is really concerning, considering he’s your brother and all.
You though, haven’t gotten out of bed almost all day, your eyes are tired from crying and your body is weak from not eating. You’re at your family’s home, not really speaking to anyone. You miss him so much but you can’t do anything about it, it was your decision after all. Should you consider this a break, or a break-up? You don’t exactly know, he hasn’t stopped reaching out but you’re too scared to speak with him after the way you left things.
You gasp as you realize, you’re still sharing your location with him. Oh no, you scramble to pick up your phone and turn it off but suddenly-
Y/n, sweetie! Someone is at the door for you! You hear your mother’s voice from downstairs.
No there’s no way… You muster up the strength and get up, anxiety all over your body as you run down the stairs, rushing towards the door. You open it and James is standing there. He gasps once he takes in the sight of you, a dark color settling underneath your eyes, oily hair, trembling fingers. You look so weak, so vulnerable. He immediately hugs you tight, you try to push him but it’s no use, you’re too exhausted.
Y/n please, let’s go home and talk, please. He pleads, voice breaking while he kisses your head all over and he places his hands on your cheeks and looks at you before leaning down and placing a kiss on your nose.
You never thought you would actually do this, but here you are. Your back is leaning on the couch while he closes the door behind him, turns to you and walks over. When he’s finally infront of you, he drops to his knees and looks down.
Please… He sighs, tears falling down from his eyes onto his lap, his hands holding your knee and thigh for support. Please talk to me, don’t push yourself away from me.
Your knees almost give out at the sight, your right hand caressing his hair. Oh baby, I’m so sorry. It’s just that…
He looks up at you with yearning eyes, waiting for you to finally open up to him. You hold your breath before speaking again. I’m so jealous and insecure all the time. There are so many better girls than me, flirting with you, that sometimes I think you’ve made the wrong choice. I’m not that pretty, or smart, or mature and I fear I’m holding you back from an even better relationship with someone else. You pause. Someone who deserves you.
You were speaking so fast that you almost choked from the lack of breath. He slowly gets up and hugs you. Oh love. He sighs deeply, hands coming up to caress your cheeks, as he pulls away and looks into your eyes. I have loved you from the moment I laid my eyes on you. You’re so perfect in my eyes, even if you don’t see it. I don’t consider anyone to be more smart or more beautiful than you. And don’t even think of worrying that I don’t find you mature enough, even if you’re not that mature, I don’t need you to be, I just want you the way you are.
I love you so much, you don’t even know. I wouldn’t want to be with anyone else in this lifetime or in another. I want to take care of you, help you with your problems, but I can’t do that if you don’t help me see the burdens you carry. I need to you to be open with me. Don’t be afraid to speak up ever, please.
I love you just the way you are, and I wouldn’t change you for anything.
He leans in and kisses you so sweetly, so in love. You’re so stunned that it takes a moment for you to kiss him back, but when you finally do, you wrap your arms around his neck and cry into the kiss. He places his hand behind your neck and pulls you impossibly closer, deepening the kiss, not wanting to let you go just yet. When you pull away, he pulls you into his embrace. You feel his breath on your neck and the warmth radiating from his body is comforting in some way.
I love you yufan, I’m sorry I acted that way. You whisper in his ear.
WARNINGS : kissing, mentions of having kids(please don’t misunderstand this), use of petnames, kebab mentioned(lol)
WC : 578
AUTHOR’S NOTE : This is so cuteeee. Also the Gilmore girls reference context is that Sookie’s husband Jackson wanted to have four kids in four years(I would kms if that happened to me)
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You and Martin have been in this random park for about 2 hours now. You haven’t hung out in a while, both busy with your schedules, catching up with each other.
He’s sitting up while you’re laying on the bench, your head on his lap while he caresses your hair with one hand, the other one holding his phone.
Martin. You look up at him, his attention on you, even though he’s still scrolling on his phone.
Mhm? He hums in response.
Do you ever think about what our lifes will look like in 10 years?
Yeah, I think about it all the time, obviously you’re always there. He looks in your eyes while speaking.
What do you mean?
I mean that I have imagined our wedding plenty of times. He smiles at you, putting down his phone and braiding a strand of your hair.
Well I wasn’t talking about that but now that you mentioned it… You trail off as you sit up quickly and drap your legs over his.
I would love to wear a ball gown at our wedding, like have you seen those dresses? They’re so beautiful, I’m gonna feel like a princess. But all wedding dresses are so expensive like? Ugh. You go on and on taking about the prices until you realize he hasn’t spoken in a while and you look up to see him with star-struck eyes admiring you, like he hasn’t seen a more beautiful sight.
Don’t worry, I’ll be the one paying for your dress, no matter the price, but even if you don’t get the dress you want, you’ll still look like a princess. He smiles, tucking a strand of your hair behind your ear, and right after he moves his hand to caress your cheek. You lean into his touch.
Okay then, scratch the dress, think of the decorations and the flowers and oh!!! The food. You smile excitedly.
Can we have kebab at our wedding?
No.
Ow man. He frowns as you laugh. Where should we go for our honeymoon though? He asks, looking at you affectionately.
Maybe Paris, the “city of love”. But even if we go to a place for our honeymoon, we’ll still travel the world together right? I would love to go to Brazil, and Italy, there are so many cities I want to go in Italy, like Milan, Rome, Venice.
We’ll go to Paris then. Of course we’ll travel together my love. I was thinking we could go to China, Thailand, or maybe Greece since it’s so famous for its beaches. He chuckles.
I would love to have kids some day, maybe two or three? Not any more though, and don’t even think of wanting kids like four in four years. You point at him with a serious expression.
Was that a Gilmore girls reference? He tilts his head to the side, his right hand rubbing circles on your knee.
Of course it was, you know me too well. You giggle, he hasn’t heard a cutest sound in his whole lifetime.
He is laughing, looking at the kids in the park having fun, and the parents talking with each other while watching over them. He suddenly turns to you, softly smiling as you’re staring at him. He leans in and places a quick kiss on your lips, then starts kissing you all over your face.
Martin baby, you’re suffocating me. You laugh sweetly.
I can’t wait to grow old with you.
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“That’s a lie, and you know that.” “I’m serious though.”
PAIRING : idol!martin x fan!reader
GENRE : fluff ig?
WARNINGS : idk probably a delulu scenario, cringe, martin’s fan service(I should have written about the fancall where he acts bullied atp)
WC : 377
AUTHOR'S NOTE : I was making scenarios before sleeping about what would I say to cortis if I ever went to a fansign and this fic idea popped up lol. Also everything reader says to Martin is literally what I wanna tell him.
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You were surprised when you found out that you won a fansign. You only bought one set of albums after all, not getting your hopes up, but here you are now, standing in line, waiting to meet your favourite group.
You were way too excited, this if your first time meeting one of the groups you listen to, up close. After speaking with each member, you reach the last seat, where Martin is sitting across from.
Hiii. You wave your hand fast, smiling from ear to ear.
Hey there pretty. He smiles, looking at you. You roll your eyes playfully, “Martin and his fan service”.
First of all, I just wanna say that I really admire cortis as a whole and you inspire me with your passion for making music. Please never stop what you’re doing, and don’t listen to the haters telling you otherwise. The whole time you’re speaking, he doesn’t take his eyes off of you, all his attention on your words, nodding along while listening.
Thank you, I really appreciate that. He places a hand over his heart and he smiles, closing his eyes tight. And I just wanna say that you’re beautiful, totally my type. He smirks, happy with the way his words came out confident enough.
Nah, you say that to every girl, I don’t believe none of it. You laugh.
No I’m serious, you’re cute. Anyway, who’s your bias? Curiosity showing evidently on his face.
You hesitate before speaking. Juhoon. You point at the boy next to Martin.
Aww man, well I hope I can change that. He winks.
Surely. You giggle, your hand over your mouth, hiding your smile. Well now it got quiet. He’s signing the cd like he’s supposed to and you have a post-it note in the album with short questions. You look around while he’s answering the questions with his pen and when you look back, you see him writing something at the end of the paper.
Time’s up. The staff is heard from behind. He closes the album and smiles mischievously.
You wave your goodbyes and after the event ends, you head home. In the cab you open the album and look at the post-it note.
What? There’s no way, is that-?
text me ;)
02-****-****
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SYPNOSIS : In which... your boyfriend starts acting cold towards you, due to losing feelings but you can’t seem to let him go.
GENRE : angst
WARNINGS : jju is veeery mean, crying, underage drinking, swearing, depression mentioned, not eating mentioned, manipulation(I think?), desperate reader, relationship falling like a house of cards(bts reference), sharing a bed(sfw only)
WC : 1733
AUTHOR’S NOTE : I highkey suggest listening to the song on repeat while reading this (I literally did while writing this). Can you tell I have experienced cheating? (I have literally said the “I don’t wanna break up” while he was silent the whole time). Anyway, this is like my favourite fic I have written so far!! Hope you enjoy this!
Separate fiction from reality. This doesn’t reflect the personality and behaviour of the idol in any way. Feel free to critique my writing so I can improve!
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It all started on a random Thursday, two weeks ago. You had made plans with Juhoon to meet up at the cinema for a movie date. You were left stranded outside, patiently waiting for him but the time kept passing and passing to the point your knees were about to give out from standing too long.
You open your lock screen and stare at the time, disassociating from the rest of the world going on around you. The time read 9:37PM, you were supposed to meet at 8PM, had you been waiting this long? You didn’t even realise. You open the messages app and look at all the texts you sent.
“Hey jju I’m outside! Waiting for you! ❤️”. Delivered 8:01PM
“I’m guessing practice ran late, dw I’m not going anywheree.” Delivered 8:22PM
“Are you there? Hellooo”. Delivered 8:45PM
“Okay now I’m getting worried, what’s going on? Please text me as soon as you see this!!!” Delivered 9:17PM
You close the screen and sigh. It seems he’s not coming, there’s no point in waiting anymore.
Dear, I fear we're facing a problem. You love me no longer, I know and. Maybe there is nothing that I can do. To make you do.
You tap your mom’s contact and call her. Mom, please come pick me up.
Now sitting in the driver’s seat, you complain to your mom about the situation. I don’t know sweetheart, you didn’t deserve to be stood up obviously and if he doesn’t apologize, then maybe he’s not the right one for you.
I’m sure he will apologize mom, this is one of the very few times he has slipped up. Maybe he got caught up with something. Even when complaining, you know he’s a sweet boy and he wouldn’t do this on purpose, you trust him to come forward.
Mama tells me I shouldn't bother. That I ought just stick to another man. A man that surely deserves me. But I think you do.
Laying in your bed, with no courage left whatsoever, you wait for his text. You hear a notification come through and rush to open your phone
“Hey I’m srry. I got caught up with something and completely forgot”
“It’s okay I understand. We can reschedule. I’m going to sleep so good night, I love you so so so much ❤️❤️❤️❤️” Read 11:49PM
“Yea, gn, love you too”
You’re too tired to notice he’s way drier than usual. Not a “goodnight love”, no heart emojis, nothing. Sleep takes the best of you as your eyes slowly close and you drift away to dreamland.
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The second time something happened, was 2 days after the “stood up” incident. You’re laying on his chest on your bed, listening to his heartbeat while he caresses your hair. You hear a notification coming from someone’s phone as you reach for your phone. It didn’t come from you, it came from his phone. You pick it up and are about to type the password as he suddenly grabs it from your hands, causing you to flinch.
What are you doing? He stares at you with a frown on his face.
I heard a sound coming from your phone? Why are you acting like this? You look at him confused.
Well, does that mean that you have to snoop around on my phone? He stands up, his voice rising, not answering your question.
I wasn’t snooping around, I was just simply gonna answer whatever the text was about! Can you tell me why you’re acting like this? You’re also yelling now. This isn’t like him, this is very weird, he never has a problem with you using his phone?
It’s like you don’t trust me! He yells back. Again avoiding the question.
What are you even talking about?
You know what, I’m leaving I don’t have time to deal with your bullshit. With tears in your eyes you glance at him one last time, picking up his things, then look at the floor. He leaves without saying a word.
So I cry and I beg for you to love me, love me, say that you love me.
After that you didn’t speak to each other for three days. The silence was extremely loud. Your friends were concerned for you, you were clearly sad because something happened with him. You couldn’t stop staring at him at school, he didn’t even spare you a glance.
You were sitting in your couch, hugging your knees when you see the call come through. You look at the name “My jju❤️” and scramble to pick up.
“Hey”
“Hi hoon” you smile to yourself, you missed him.
“I’m sorry, I guess, for acting that way, let’s just go back to normal.” The fuck he means by “I guess”?
“Mhm I would like that” You hum, too scared to speak up for the way he’s acting again.
“See you tomorrow?”
“Yea tomorrow. Love youu-“ he hung up. You don’t pay it any attention, he probably didn’t hear you.
Leave me leave me, just say that you need me. I can't care 'bout anything but you
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There’s no way you’re seeing that. Your eyes must be fooling you. There’s absolutely no way that’s your Juhoon kissing a girl under the tree he confessed to you.
You stomp on the way there, wanting to prove to yourself that it’s actually your brain having malfunctions. But no. That’s actually him.
Kim Juhoon what the hell are you doing? You yell, still not having processed your feelings. Are you mad, confused or angry? Nevermind, fuck it, you’re all those things. He pulls away from the girl, lips swollen, probably kissing for a long time now before you noticed.
Are you crazy? Two years and six months mean nothing to you? Tears threatening to fall off your eyes. No you can’t let him see you like this, you’d have to stoop very low for that to happen.
Actually no, they don’t mean anything to me, I just think we’re not meant for each other. He looks at you with a straight face and shrugs his shoulders while wrapping his arm around the girl’s shoulder. Why is that bitch smirking?
Are you serious right now? You whisper in disbelief, your voice shaky and your tears now staining your cheeks.
He just looks at you. He doesn’t do anything, doesn’t apologise, doesn’t pull you in for a hug or a kiss, doesn’t try to comfort you. He doesn’t even care.
Lately I have desperately pondered, spent my nights awake and I wonder, what I could have done in another way to make you stay
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You have been sobbing and crying nonstop since then. Your parents worried that the depression this situation has caused you, will lead you to do reckless things. You don’t even get up from your bed, you haven’t showered, haven’t eaten, probably lost a few pounds. Juhoon has drained the life out of you. That softest smile that you put on around your friends, family and most importantly him now long gone.
This is the first time in a week and a half that you decide to go out. Alone, just to reflect on your thoughts. So you actually showered, put on some makeup to look pretty and hide the devastation on your face and you go out.
You decided you wanted to go to the park you always went to with Juhoon but once you reach it, you recognize a familiar figure on the bench. Huh?
Stepping closer now, it’s jju, he has his head low, earphones on. Why is he alone?
Hoon? You speak up. He sees your shoes in his peripheral vision and looks up taking one AirPod out.
What are you doing here? You both say at the same time.
We need to talk. Please talk to me. You kneel down. Why did you do that? Your voice breaks. Please tell me what I did to deserve this, so I can fix it. I miss you. I miss us. The words come out desperate.
He looks you in the eyes, ready to speak. Well it’s safe to say you got your hopes up for nothing.
There’s no real reason, I just don’t have feelings for you anymore, that’s all.
His words replay in your head I just don’t have feelings for you anymore. I just don’t have feelings for you anymore. I just don’t have feelings for you anymore
Reason will not lead to solution, I will end up lost in confusion. I don't care if you really care, as long as you don't go
Please don’t leave me
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You went out with your friends and you ended up on a bench in the middle of nowhere drinking alcohol. You wanted to refrain from doing that, afraid you’ll end up contacting Juhoon again, but here we are.
Guys sorrrrry I ha- have to take this. You just lied to your friends just so you can call him. Pathetic.
You tap his contact and put your phone to your ear. You hear it ring.
Ring,ring,ring,ring. He doesn’t pick up, so what would a sane person do in this exact situation? Definitely not call again.
Ring,ring,ring. Wow he picked up.
“What do you want” Tears well up in your eyes at his tone.
“Jju…”
“Speak up, I don’t have all day.”
Now crying, your voice trembles and you whimper before speaking.
So I cry, I pray, and I beg. Love me, love me. Say that you love me
“I miss you so so so much. Please come back to me. Love me back please, I beg you” You slur your words.
“Yeah no, this is all so stupid. Let’s just go back to being lovers” He mocks you.
“Seriously you sound drunk, but even if you weren’t….” He stops speaking at the sound of your cries.
“I don’t want us to break up” you sobs coming out broken.
“Take a hint” he hangs up as you fall to the ground. You can’t seem to let him go. Your friends rushing to you immediately at the sound of a thud, your knees falling onto the pavement.
Go on and fool me. Love me, love me, pretend that you love me. Leave me, leave me, just say that you need me
You’re not falling in love ever again. This was all just a stupid waste of time.
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“That’s a lie, and you know that.” “I’m serious though.”
PAIRING : idol!martin x fan!reader
GENRE : fluff ig?
WARNINGS : idk probably a delulu scenario, cringe, martin’s fan service(I should have written about the fancall where he acts bullied atp)
WC : 377
AUTHOR'S NOTE : I was making scenarios before sleeping about what would I say to cortis if I ever went to a fansign and this fic idea popped up lol. Also everything reader says to Martin is literally what I wanna tell him.
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You were surprised when you found out that you won a fansign. You only bought one set of albums after all, not getting your hopes up, but here you are now, standing in line, waiting to meet your favourite group.
You were way too excited, this if your first time meeting one of the groups you listen to, up close. After speaking with each member, you reach the last seat, where Martin is sitting across from.
Hiii. You wave your hand fast, smiling from ear to ear.
Hey there pretty. He smiles, looking at you. You roll your eyes playfully, “Martin and his fan service”.
First of all, I just wanna say that I really admire cortis as a whole and you inspire me with your passion for making music. Please never stop what you’re doing, and don’t listen to the haters telling you otherwise. The whole time you’re speaking, he doesn’t take his eyes off of you, all his attention on your words, nodding along while listening.
Thank you, I really appreciate that. He places a hand over his heart and he smiles, closing his eyes tight. And I just wanna say that you’re beautiful, totally my type. He smirks, happy with the way his words came out confident enough.
Nah, you say that to every girl, I don’t believe none of it. You laugh.
No I’m serious, you’re cute. Anyway, who’s your bias? Curiosity showing evidently on his face.
You hesitate before speaking. Juhoon. You point at the boy next to Martin.
Aww man, well I hope I can change that. He winks.
Surely. You giggle, your hand over your mouth, hiding your smile. Well now it got quiet. He’s signing the cd like he’s supposed to and you have a post-it note in the album with short questions. You look around while he’s answering the questions with his pen and when you look back, you see him writing something at the end of the paper.
Time’s up. The staff is heard from behind. He closes the album and smiles mischievously.
You wave your goodbyes and after the event ends, you head home. In the cab you open the album and look at the post-it note.
What? There’s no way, is that-?
text me ;)
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SYPNOSIS : In which... your boyfriend starts acting cold towards you, due to losing feelings but you can’t seem to let him go.
GENRE : angst
WARNINGS : jju is veeery mean, crying, swearing, depression mentioned, not eating mentioned, manipulation(I think?), desperate reader, relationship falling like a house of cards(bts reference), sharing a bed(sfw only)
WC : 1733
AUTHOR’S NOTE : I highkey suggest listening to the song on repeat while reading this (I literally did while writing this). Can you tell I have experienced cheating? (I have literally said the “I don’t wanna break up” while he was silent the whole time). Anyway, this is like my favourite fic I have written so far!! Hope you enjoy this!
Separate fiction from reality. This doesn’t reflect the personality and behaviour of the idol in any way. Feel free to critique my writing so I can improve!
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It all started on a random Thursday, two weeks ago. You had made plans with Juhoon to meet up at the cinema for a movie date. You were left stranded outside, patiently waiting for him but the time kept passing and passing to the point your knees were about to give out from standing too long.
You open your lock screen and stare at the time, disassociating from the rest of the world going on around you. The time read 9:37PM, you were supposed to meet at 8PM, had you been waiting this long? You didn’t even realise. You open the messages app and look at all the texts you sent.
“Hey jju I’m outside! Waiting for you! ❤️”. Delivered 8:01PM
“I’m guessing practice ran late, dw I’m not going anywheree.” Delivered 8:22PM
“Are you there? Hellooo”. Delivered 8:45PM
“Okay now I’m getting worried, what’s going on? Please text me as soon as you see this!!!” Delivered 9:17PM
You close the screen and sigh. It seems he’s not coming, there’s no point in waiting anymore.
Dear, I fear we're facing a problem. You love me no longer, I know and. Maybe there is nothing that I can do. To make you do.
You tap your mom’s contact and call her. Mom, please come pick me up.
Now sitting in the driver’s seat, you complain to your mom about the situation. I don’t know sweetheart, you didn’t deserve to be stood up obviously and if he doesn’t apologize, then maybe he’s not the right one for you.
I’m sure he will apologize mom, this is one of the very few times he has slipped up. Maybe he got caught up with something. Even when complaining, you know he’s a sweet boy and he wouldn’t do this on purpose, you trust him to come forward.
Mama tells me I shouldn't bother. That I ought just stick to another man. A man that surely deserves me. But I think you do.
Laying in your bed, with no courage left whatsoever, you wait for his text. You hear a notification come through and rush to open your phone
“Hey I’m srry. I got caught up with something and completely forgot”
“It’s okay I understand. We can reschedule. I’m going to sleep so good night, I love you so so so much ❤️❤️❤️❤️” Read 11:49PM
“Yea, gn, love you too”
You’re too tired to notice he’s way drier than usual. Not a “goodnight love”, no heart emojis, nothing. Sleep takes the best of you as your eyes slowly close and you drift away to dreamland.
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The second time something happened, was 2 days after the “stood up” incident. You’re laying on his chest on your bed, listening to his heartbeat while he caresses your hair. You hear a notification coming from someone’s phone as you reach for your phone. It didn’t come from you, it came from his phone. You pick it up and are about to type the password as he suddenly grabs it from your hands, causing you to flinch.
What are you doing? He stares at you with a frown on his face.
I heard a sound coming from your phone? Why are you acting like this? You look at him confused.
Well, does that mean that you have to snoop around on my phone? He stands up, his voice rising, not answering your question.
I wasn’t snooping around, I was just simply gonna answer whatever the text was about! Can you tell me why you’re acting like this? You’re also yelling now. This isn’t like him, this is very weird, he never has a problem with you using his phone?
It’s like you don’t trust me! He yells back. Again avoiding the question.
What are you even talking about?
You know what, I’m leaving I don’t have time to deal with your bullshit. With tears in your eyes you glance at him one last time, picking up his things, then look at the floor. He leaves without saying a word.
So I cry and I beg for you to love me, love me, say that you love me.
After that you didn’t speak to each other for three days. The silence was extremely loud. Your friends were concerned for you, you were clearly sad because something happened with him. You couldn’t stop staring at him at school, he didn’t even spare you a glance.
You were sitting in your couch, hugging your knees when you see the call come through. You look at the name “My jju❤️” and scramble to pick up.
“Hey”
“Hi hoon” you smile to yourself, you missed him.
“I’m sorry, I guess, for acting that way, let’s just go back to normal.” The fuck he means by “I guess”?
“Mhm I would like that” You hum, too scared to speak up for the way he’s acting again.
“See you tomorrow?”
“Yea tomorrow. Love youu-“ he hung up. You don’t pay it any attention, he probably didn’t hear you.
Leave me leave me, just say that you need me. I can't care 'bout anything but you
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There’s no way you’re seeing that. Your eyes must be fooling you. There’s absolutely no way that’s your Juhoon kissing a girl under the tree he confessed to you.
You stomp on the way there, wanting to prove to yourself that it’s actually your brain having malfunctions. But no. That’s actually him.
Kim Juhoon what the hell are you doing? You yell, still not having processed your feelings. Are you mad, confused or angry? Nevermind, fuck it, you’re all those things. He pulls away from the girl, lips swollen, probably kissing for a long time now before you noticed.
Are you crazy? Two years and six months mean nothing to you? Tears threatening to fall off your eyes. No you can’t let him see you like this, you’d have to stoop very low for that to happen.
Actually no, they don’t mean anything to me, I just think we’re not meant for each other. He looks at you with a straight face and shrugs his shoulders while wrapping his arm around the girl’s shoulder. Why is that bitch smirking?
Are you serious right now? You whisper in disbelief, your voice shaky and your tears now staining your cheeks.
He just looks at you. He doesn’t do anything, doesn’t apologise, doesn’t pull you in for a hug or a kiss, doesn’t try to comfort you. He doesn’t even care.
Lately I have desperately pondered, spent my nights awake and I wonder, what I could have done in another way to make you stay
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You have been sobbing and crying nonstop since then. Your parents worried that the depression this situation has caused you, will lead you to do reckless things. You don’t even get up from your bed, you haven’t showered, haven’t eaten, probably lost a few pounds. Juhoon has drained the life out of you. That softest smile that you put on around your friends, family and most importantly him now long gone.
This is the first time in a week and a half that you decide to go out. Alone, just to reflect on your thoughts. So you actually showered, put on some makeup to look pretty and hide the devastation on your face and you go out.
You decided you wanted to go to the park you always went to with Juhoon but once you reach it, you recognize a familiar figure on the bench. Huh?
Stepping closer now, it’s jju, he has his head low, earphones on. Why is he alone?
Hoon? You speak up. He sees your shoes in his peripheral vision and looks up taking one AirPod out.
What are you doing here? You both say at the same time.
We need to talk. Please talk to me. You kneel down. Why did you do that? Your voice breaks. Please tell me what I did to deserve this, so I can fix it. I miss you. I miss us. The words come out desperate.
He looks you in the eyes, ready to speak. Well it’s safe to say you got your hopes up for nothing.
There’s no real reason, I just don’t have feelings for you anymore, that’s all.
His words replay in your head I just don’t have feelings for you anymore. I just don’t have feelings for you anymore. I just don’t have feelings for you anymore
Reason will not lead to solution, I will end up lost in confusion. I don't care if you really care, as long as you don't go
Please don’t leave me
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You went out with your friends and you ended up on a bench in the middle of nowhere drinking alcohol. You wanted to refrain from doing that, afraid you’ll end up contacting Juhoon again, but here we are.
Guys sorrrrry I ha- have to take this. You just lied to your friends just so you can call him. Pathetic.
You tap his contact and put your phone to your ear. You hear it ring.
Ring,ring,ring,ring. He doesn’t pick up, so what would a sane person do in this exact situation? Definitely not call again.
Ring,ring,ring. Wow he picked up.
“What do you want” Tears well up in your eyes at his tone.
“Jju…”
“Speak up, I don’t have all day.”
Now crying, your voice trembles and you whimper before speaking.
So I cry, I pray, and I beg. Love me, love me. Say that you love me
“I miss you so so so much. Please come back to me. Love me back please, I beg you” You slur your words.
“Yeah no, this is all so stupid. Let’s just go back to being lovers” He mocks you.
“Seriously you sound drunk, but even if you weren’t….” He stops speaking at the sound of your cries.
“I don’t want us to break up” you sobs coming out broken.
“Take a hint” he hangs up as you fall to the ground. You can’t seem to let him go. Your friends rushing to you immediately at the sound of a thud, your knees falling onto the pavement.
Go on and fool me. Love me, love me, pretend that you love me. Leave me, leave me, just say that you need me
You’re not falling in love ever again. This was all just a stupid waste of time.
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SYPNOSIS : In which… you go on a first date with a boy you met on a dating app. Only for him to found out that he is utterly in love with you.
GENRE : first date, fluff, fluff, FLUFF, crack
WARNINGS : kissing, reader orders A LOT of food(after all this is inspired off that one white chicks scene) ,mentions of reader liking certain things(such as food,movies,music etc. I felt I needed to add this because some people have a problem with reading things that don’t really apply to them)
WC : 1594
AUTHOR’S NOTE : I’ve been craving Alfredo pasta with chicken for MONTHS now. Please someone send me some Alfredo pasta. Also I was smiling like an idiot while writing this helpp.
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This type of situation is not entirely new to you. You’ve been meeting new people for about 3 months now, trying to fill the void, but none of them ever stick to you.
Either the first date goes entirely wrong, or you go to second and third dates, only to find out that most of them have the high expectation of settling down with a woman who will cook, clean and make babies for them, they basically want a robot with no actual personality.
Now, staring at yourself in the mirror, you apply the last layer of makeup and twirl around to admire the outfit you picked.
“If this goes wrong, i swear I’ll just stay single for the rest of my life” you mumble to yourself, while putting on some lipgloss. You pick up your phone and see that your uber is arriving in 5, so you rush to grab your purse and put on shoes.
In the car, you’re contemplating your life choices, you don’t know if you want to turn back and never speak to the poor boy again or try to have fun even if he turns out like the others. You’ve been talking with Keonho for about 2 weeks now. Well he seems… different than the others, but then again some men that you went out with seemed nice at the start.
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You’ve been standing outside the restaurant that you two decided you were gonna meet up for about ten minutes. “Is this boy seriously late to a first date? Maybe this won’t work out, maybe I should just go home and sleep-“
You hear rushed footsteps on your left and look up, met with a heavy-breathing and late Keonho.
I’m sorry. I- he speaks, trying to catch his breath
Swimming practice ran late and…. You don’t really hear what he is saying, you’re just looking at him up and down and notice he is holding something behind his back. He’s handsome, I mean you knew that from his pictures but you didn’t expect him to be even better in real life.
He notices you’re not talking and…. Uhh… these are for you. He takes his hand from behind his back and is holding a bouquet of flowers directly in your face. Huh, this is new, none of the others ever bothered to do this. You look at him, really look at him, and you notice his slight pink cheeks, and his eyes looking down with a cute awkward smile on his face.
He seems anxious? I mean you are afraid too sure, but you didn’t expect him to seem this worried. Keonho…. You smile at him as he finally looks in your eyes, and you gently grab the bouquet.
Thank you. He now nervously rubs the back of his neck and looks around and then turns to you raising his hand for you to hold it. Shall we? You place your hand on top of his and chuckle. We shall.
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The restaurant is buzzing with conversations, families, couples, friends, any type of people you would typically see in here. The lights are low with a warm, cozy ambience. The place in general is not too elegant, or too casual, it’s the perfect balance.
As the waitress shows you to your table, Keonho pulls your chair so you can sit down. “Is this all an act or is he actually this sweet?” you bow a little as a small thank you as you look at him reach for his own chair.
Are you ready to order or do you need a moment? The waitress softly smiles.
Um actually could you give us the menu. You laugh akwardly, clearly never been in this restaurant.
Of course! She says as she hands you the menus and disappears into the crowd. As you take it in your hand you look up to see that Keonho is already looking at you?
What? Do I have something on my face?
Noo no, don’t worry. He chuckles.
Then what is it? You say nervously because why the hell is he looking at you like that.
Nothing. He laughs and finally looks at the food listed on his hand.
Mhm whatever you say. You hum.
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Are you ready to order? The waiter literally popped out of nowhere. Keonho looks at you as you nod in approval and he starts to speak.
I will have the steak, medium rare and for side dishes we would like a lot of french fries and- He pauses and looks at you. And rice. You say smiling. Well for myself, I would like Alfredo pasta with grilled chicken on top, a Caesar’s salad, some buffalo wings and mozzarella sticks as an appetizer, for now. You smile as you hand the book to the waiter and come to the realization that both Keonho and him are looking at you with widened eyes and shocked expressions.
Okay then. The waiter mumbles, walking away.
Was that too much? I’m sorry, obviously I’m paying for myself so you don’t need to worry, it’s just that I’m a big foodie myself and I love eating delicious food when going out- You rush to explain yourself but he cuts you off.
You’re literally perfect. Keonho says with star struck eyes admiring you.
Huh? You gasp.
I mean- I meant that it’s okay and I will be paying for it, you don’t need to pay for yourself. He shrugs, looking down after literally exposing himself.
From the moment you started talking and he learned more about you, he knew he was down bad. But he didn’t think that he would be absolutely mesmerized of you. This is his first time that a girl has been actually open to him about her interests and has been comfortable enough to literally order the whole menu infront of him. He himself hasn’t had many successful dates since most of the girls are usually frauds with fake personalities.
So, Ahn Keonho, tell me more about yourself. You smirk, well here it goes he’s probably gonna tell you the same thing everyone says.
What do you wanna know? He raises his eyebrows.
Everything. Like what’s your favourite food, your favourite artist or music genre, your favourite movie. Literally anything. Because we know each other but I feel like we don’t really know each other.
Well. He leans back in his chair and crosses his arms over his chest. I love French fries, my favourite music artist is Dominic fike, my favourite movie is “Midnight in Paris”. Now your turn.
Mhm. You hum as you raise your hand and scratch the side your head, imitating the action of thinking. If I had to choose a favourite movie I would choose “To all the boys I’ve loved before”, I don’t have a favourite meal, I listen a lot to house music.
Now tell me some more. How did other dates with girls go for you? Like, before me. You place your elbows on the table and position your chin on your hands.
Oh you don’t wanna know the horrors. He jokes, lowkey(highkey) a funny guy. Some of them were acting like ai, their personalities were literally not there and they all were saying things like “my favourite hobby is cleaning”, because girl I know damn well that’s not true. They were trying to impress me too much, not really showing their true self. How about you?
If you’re asking me for my favourite hobby, it’s definitely not cleaning. You giggle and look down. I guess uh… I don’t have many hobbies but one is dancing.
Well that’s good, i’m happy for you but actually… I meant, how did other boys treat you.
Ah that’s what you mean. Ehh they just wanted to settle down with some woman that would do as the say, basically. I hope you’re not like that. You laugh nervously at that statement.
God no. I would never, that’s just boring and manipulative. He throws his hands in the air.
See that’s exactly what I’m talking about. You point at him and giggle, satisfied that he agrees.
The rest of the night goes on with talking about each other’s lifes and interests, getting to know each other and Keonho being fascinated with how much you’re really able to eat.
As you step outside, the cold breeze hits your shoulders, you mentally scold yourself for not bringing a jacket until you feel something warm on your shoulders. Did he just… give you his jacket?
With his hands in his pockets, he turns to you. I really had fun tonight. We should plan to do this again.
Keonho I- You sigh deeply
Thank you for tonight, this was like the best date I had in a while. You admit. Are you sure you’re not cold? I don’t really need thi-
No keep it, im fine really. He reassures.
A slight wind causes your hair to fall onto your face. He takes notice immediately and raises his hand to tuck a strand of hair behind your ear and smiles ever so softly as he looks at you affectionately in the eyes.
Can I kiss you? He whispers.
You nod and he leans in. The moment your lips touch, there’s an electric feeling all over your body, his lips are pillow-soft against yours as he takes your face in his hands to deepen the kiss. You pull away after a while, keeping your hands around his neck and giggle, shyness taking over you.
Seriously thank you for tonight.
You have a feeling that this time it will go way better.
WARNINGS : reader gets hit with a newspaper lol, use of y/n like once, nothing else I think
WC : 416
AUTHOR’S NOTE : Was listening to earrings by Malcolm Todd and this idea came to me because of the outro. Ugh this song is literally perfect.
It was only two weeks ago when you noticed that the paperboy was a different person than before. You had never really seen him but you had noticed the voice change. You simply didn’t pay it much thought, since it was probably a middle-aged man again on a bicycle, cycling around throwing papers at the worst locations possible.
The paperboy usually comes around your neighbourhood on Fridays. You still don’t understand why your parents pay subscription for the newspapers since they never really read them, they just look at the front page.
Well it’s Friday and your parents are not home, leaving you to all the chores around the house just because they wanted to go on a little vacation. Why couldn’t they just take you with them? You won’t survive in this boredom.
Still in your pjs, you slip on your slippers and open the door to take the trash out. You hear the bell ringing from the bicycle, is it time that you finally meet the new “paperboy”? As you put the trash in the can and turn around your face gets hit by a newspaper and you hear the bicycle stall.
Oh my god, I’m sorry, are you okay? Well that definitely doesn’t sound like a middle-aged man.
You look up to see the most handsome boy your eyes have ever encountered, but clearly still annoyed by the face-hitting paper you click your teeth together. Tsk.
Thanks a lot. You and him lean down to pick up the paper at the same time, and his fingertips graze yours just slightly.
You get up and look at him, clearly hesitating before speaking again.
I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to. He looks anywhere but at you. What’s your name?
Y/n. And.. you are? You reach your hand out and gesture for a handshake.
Um, Seonghyeon, Eom Seonghyeon. He grabs your hand and shakes it up and down really quickly.
After that you both just stay like that, hands touching, and neither moves for a second. You let go.
You should really practice your aim. You laugh nervously as you glance at him picking up his bike.
Will do! Hope I see you around more often. He smiles, the cutest gummy smile ever.
Me too, just try not to hit me in the face next time. You hear him laugh faintly.
You stare at him cycling away. Well you surely weren’t expecting that but it’s now a fact that you’re whipped for this boy.
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WARNINGS : crying, hurt/comfort, arguing, divorced parents, alcoholic father, academic pressure, use of petnames, use of y/n, swearing, mentions of getting kicked out of the house bruh, underage smoking, relapsing(doesn’t actually happen but the thought exists)mentioned, kissing, sharing a bed(sfw only)
WORD COUNT : 3.877 (I genuinely don’t know what took over me in juhoon’s part because it’s like 1k words)
AUTHOR’S NOTE : Can you tell I’m keonho biased lol. Anyway I had an argument with my dad and I’m really pissed off so here you go. I’m also writing a keonho fanfic rn but I also wanted to post something bcs I don’t know how long it will take since it will probably take a week or more. English is not my first language,so forgive me if I make a mistake. Please feel free to criticise my writing and help me improve! If you think I missed something from the warnings please tell me to add it.
MARTIN EDWARDS:
You just came home after a long day, school and extracurriculars have been drowning you in your busy schedule. You open your phone as the time reads 8PM. You take off your shoes and unlock the door and as soon as you enter your home you’re met with your mom infront of the table, her arms crossed over her chest, wrinkles forming on her forehead as she clearly seems mad at you.
“Has she been waiting like this for me this whole time?”
Y/n. She simply says, her voice as low as it can get.
Yes mom? What is it? You say as you urge her to continue.
Care to tell me what this was doing in your room? Her voice risens, as she takes hold of a pack of cigarettes in her hand
I don’t know, it’s not mine though. Anxiety flooding your body
She suddenly yells causing you to flinch.
Don’t lie to me, and don’t think I haven’t noticed how you smell like smoke when you come home, I just shrugged it off defending you to myself but here you are!
Mom, you don’t get it! I’m so busy all the time and so stressed and smoking helps calm my nerves! You are literally a smoker yourself, can’t you think of a reason I would do this?
You now yell, in an attempt to defend yourself.
Who do you think you are to raise your voice at me? You are out of this house and I don’t want to see you infront of me again. Don’t bother to come back! Wait until your father hears of this! She shrugs off as the waits impatiently for you to leave.
What!? You can’t-
Leave!
You just stand there staring at her, tears threatening to fall off your eyes. You slowly turn around and open the door. As soon as you are out on the road you call Martin.
Ring,ring,ring
He doesn’t pick up and you leave a voice message “Martin where are you? I need you please…” your voice sounds weak as you speak “I’ll be at the bench in the playground, please come as soon as you can” there’s a small pause “please” you cry out.
After 20 minutes of sobbing on the bench, you hear quick footsteps coming your way but you don’t dare to look up. You see Martin kneel infront of you, out of breath
Hey, are you okay? Please talk to me.
You immediately wrap your arms around his neck and pull him in for a hug
It’s my mom, she kicked me out of the- sobs cut off your speaking she found my cigs and she kicked me out of the house. Cries making your speaking almost inaudible
Oh love. He moves the strands of hair falling on your face and caresses your cheeks to wipe down your tears as he leans in and presses the softest kiss on your lips. He stands up and sits on the bench, pulling you on his lap to hug you.
Shh, it’s okay don’t cry. It’s gonna be okay.
He whispers in your ear in an attempt to comfort you and calm you down. You can stay at my dorm tonight mhm? She won’t keep you out of your house forever, I’m sure at some point she will apologise and try to understand why you did what you did.
The night stretches on with soft kisses and gentle whispers, eventually ending with giggles and smiles.
ZHAO YUFAN:
Your parents were working all day so you were left to be alone. You decided that you wanted to help your mom out by doing the chores so she wouldn’t have to do them after a long exhausting day.
Well that backfired because once you sat down to relax and eat dinner and your parents came through the front door they immediately were looking for a reason to fight.
“You’re literally doing nothing all day, just existing and eating everything in sight!” Your mom yells, you can see the frown on her face as clearly as light.
“You should have helped your mom with the chores you’re so lazy and now she has to do it all by herself”
You gasp at their immediate yelling and try to talk but you get cut off everytime you try to speak and explain
“I don’t want to hear your excuses right now, go to your room!”
The minute the door closes behind you, you immediately start crying from frustration. They didn’t even try to listen to you.
You pick up your phone and immediately tap James’ contact
After two rings he picks up
Hey baby how are you?
James… you whisper, trying to catch your breath from crying. From the moment he heard you speak,panic started to settle in and cloud his brain from any logical thinking.
Y/n what happened?
Please come pick me up… you say, broken cries escaping from your chest
I’m coming, stay where you are.
He hangs up. You grab a jacket, lock your door and open the window to sneak out so you wouldn’t have to come face to face with your parents once again.
The moment you step outside, a chill runs down your spine, it’s cold but the kind that feels comforting, and the moon is the most beautiful, so bright and shiny, lighting the sky, exactly the opposite of your mood right now. Once you get down, you stand on the pavement waiting for James.
After 5 minutes or so,you see a familiar car pulling up to you as he reaches and opens the door from inside with a worried expression.
Hey sweetheart, what happened?
As you sit in the car and close the door,without speaking you immediately lean in to hug him. He rushes to exchange the act and waits for you to start talking. When you pull away you just sit there quietly, looking down at your shoes.
He immediately notices your tear-stained cheeks and understands that you’re not ready to speak yet so he starts the car.
After about 10 minutes of driving around in comfortable silence..
Pull over. He immediately does what you say
James I’m so exhausted and done with my parents.
He stares at you, listening attentively, ready to hear every word you will say.
They came home and started yelling at me saying that I don’t do anything around the house, they didn’t even let me explain my side. I literally did all the chores so that…
A sigh escapes your lips, your breathing becomes uneven and your eyes start to well with tears. His hand reaches out to yours and he gives a gentle squeeze.
I did the chores so that my mom wouldn’t have to do them and she didn’t even acknowledge that I cleaned the house and everything. It’s like she doesn’t even notice I’m there until she thinks something is not right with me.
You pull your hand away from him and hide your face in your palms. Sobs escaping your mouth.
Hey hey hey he immediately pulls you in for a hug. It’s okay shh, he caresses your hair.
It’s okay let it all out. She’s wrong for getting mad even when you give your best self, you shouldn’t let her words get to you or define you. You’re not a mistake and you only wanted to do the right thing for her. Please don’t think of yourself differently because of her only noticing your “mistakes”.
After a while of hugging each other and sitting in silence, you calm down and sniffle and pull away from the hug as you rest your forehead on his.
Thank you, I love you so much baby. You say as you look him in the eyes.
You know I’m always here for you. I love you too, you mean the world to me.
KIM JUHOON:
You have been slumped over homework for more than two hours. Your eyes now blinking while exhaustion takes over your body. It’s Monday. You have an exam on Friday. Your parents expect so much of you and they can’t seem to understand why you would need a break even when studying for 6 or more hours straight. You get up and walk to the kitchen to grab a snack and take a break. The moment you open the cabinet you hear footsteps behind you.
What do you think you’re doing? Shouldn’t you be in your room studying? You have an exam on Friday. Your father says,not showing even one hint of concern and sympathy.
Well I needed a break and I felt hungry so… you trail off as you turn to the cabinet again to search for your favourite chips.
You hear him shift his body from behind and immediately know that he has crossed his arms and he is probably looking at you with that same expression that he makes when you mess up.
Don’t start. You need to study hard, how else are you gonna be the top student? he yells.
I didn’t get that? Do I necessarily need to be the top student? Do you even know how much work I put into studying just so I can satisfy your extremely high expectations?
Enough! Continue studying and don’t make me argue with you. You know I’m only saying this for your future! Rage filling his eyes.
I’m already guaranteed a good future and you know that so why are you still on my back about this?
He slams his hand hard on the table
I said enough! Go to your room! You walk slowly to your room, lock the door and immediately flop on the bed, the snack long forgotten. You get your phone and open the messages app.
“Heyy jju, my father leaves in 10 for work, do you wanna come over and hang?”
“Sure thing. Should I bring anything?”
“Nope, just yourself ;)”
You close your phone and reach over to your notes to revise the topic one last time. Y/n I’m leaving, come open the door. He shouts as he bangs on your door.
You open the door and he walks in brushing you off. He looks at your notes on the bed and reaches out to them.
These notes are not neat enough. Rewrite them. Is he serious right now?
Well they don’t need to be neat for me to study. You say back, standing your ground.
Oh yeah? He takes your notes and rips them into pieces. I said rewrite them. I’ll be back in 5 hours. He says as he pushes your shoulder and struts to leave.
As you hear the front door close, you stare at your notes that you worked so hard for, on the bed, in a million pieces. Tears flood your eyes, making your vision blurry as your knees give out from exhaustion and you drop on the floor. Crying severely now, you can’t breathe.
“Is this what a panic attack feels like?” “Why can’t he just believe in me, I don’t get it” “I’m so tired of being the perfect child” You hear someone knock on the front door.
“Y/n? Y/n it’s Juhoon, open up!” He waits patiently in front of the door but when you don’t open quickly as you usually do he immediately senses that something is wrong. He reaches for the spare key under the mat and opens the door. And oh, once he hears your desperate cries, he doesn’t walk, he runs over.
Once he is met with your trembling figure on the ground he freezes. He hasn’t seen you this bad ever, what the hell happened? He kneels behind you and holds your shoulders.
Hey hey, please calm down I’m right here. As you collapse and fall behind onto his chest, he puts his arms around you. please don’t cry, please, I don’t know what happened but we’ll fix it together.
After a while of nonstop crying, tears are now leaving your eyes, but not as hard as before, as you relax in Juhoon’s embrace.
Please tell me what’s going on… he kisses the top of your head as he awaits your answer.
You’re too fatigued and weak to answer so you just raise your hand and point to your bed.
“Huh?” He thinks. He rotates you so you have the door at your back to stay standing and not fall over as he gets up and walks over to your bed. Once he takes a look at your destroyed notes, he realises exactly what happened and he walks over to you, kneels down and brushes a strand of hair behind your ear.
Don’t worry I got you. He says while turning to look at you on the ground. Once he cleans up he helps you stand up and walks you over to the bed. The last thing you remember is him sitting on your desk, doing something, as your consciousness drifted away.
You wake up 2 hours later and he is nowhere to be seen.
“Where’d he go?” You think to yourself as a sweet smell hits your nose. You walk over to the kitchen and there he is, making pancakes?
Hey jju. Your voice raspy from sleep and crying as you softly smile at the sight infront of you.
He turns to look at you and opens his arms for a hug. You walk over to him and as he leans down to hug you he whispers in your ear:
I rewrote all your notes, well, maybe I wrote some more even. Please take care of yourself and rest when you can, I don’t want you to hurt yourself physically or mentally. Don’t listen to what your dad says, he’s a jerk mhm? I’ll be here whenever you need me and whenever something goes wrong you’ll call me immediately.
You breath in his scent as he speaks and once he finishes
Thank you, thank you, thank you. You’re the best, I don’t know what I would do without you hoon. I’m so lucky to have you. You mumble into his shirt as he chuckles and tightens his arms around you.
EOM SEONGHYEON:
You’ve been in the car for twenty minutes. The air feels suffocating in here with your dad. Your parents are divorced and right now you are returning back home to your mom. Anyone within a five-meter radius could smell the alcohol coming from your father. He obviously has been drinking… again.
Dad? You speak but he doesn’t seem to hear. Dad! Louder this time.
What do you want brat? He doesn’t even spare you a glance.
You missed a turn. You facepalm at his carelessness
He groans and abruptly u-turns. You’re so annoying, why did I ever decide to share custody.
You gasp. Are you serious right now? You’re literally drunk. How am I the problem and not you since mom left you?
He pulls over to the side, nearly hitting a pole, as fast as he hears those words come out of your mouth and he turns to you and he- An audible gasp leaves your lips as you feel a sting on your cheek. He just slapped you. Like really hard.
Get out. He says, his face a numb expression.
Are you crazy? You stare at him with widened eyes.
FUCKING GET OUT! He leans in and yells directly in your face. Scared that he’s going to do something even more reckless, you rush to open the door and step out and as soon as you close it he speeds away.
You caress your cheek, pain settling in as you look around and realize you’re near Seonghyeon’s dorm. You get your phone out of your pocket and call him. He picks up immediately
Hiiii! He says enthusiastically.
Hyeon… Your voice shakes.
What’s wrong? The growing concern visible in the way he speaks.
Are the boys home? If not, can I come over? You plead.
Of course you can. He hesitates before speaking again. Please be safe. You try to smile at his words, even though you’re in pain physically and mentally as you hang up.
While walking to his dorm, your mind races “it’s my fault isn’t it?” “I shouldn’t have said that”. “Maybe I really am the person that he thinks I am, annoying and a brat”
You reach in your bag and bring out your house keys, staring at the sharp ends of it. You bring it to your arm but the moment you go to act on it you freeze. You’ve been clean for so long, Seonghyeon has helped you so much in this topic, you would disappoint him if you started to harm yourself again. You sigh deeply and throw the keys in your bag as you continue walking trying to control your thoughts and body.
Now standing out of his dorm, you raise your hand to knock and before you even do, he opens the door, grabs your face and kisses you deeply. The action makes you get emotional and your feelings that you have been keeping inside this whole time finally burst out.
I’m here for you love, I’m here don’t worry, you’re safe. He grabs your hand and drags you into the living room and as he looks at you he notices the faint red color on your cheek at this lighting. Oh my gosh. He gasps as he reaches for your cheek. Who did this? Your dad? I swear I’m going to kill him.
You grab his hand and lower it as you interwine your fingers with his. You let go of his hand and hide your face in his chest while he wraps his arm around your shoulders.
Please let’s just stay like this.
Do you need anything?
All I need is you. Just you.
He presses a soft kiss on your head and you feel him smile at your words. Tears staining his shirt, you speak again..
I was so scared seonghyeon, I felt like I was in danger. He had been drinking and driving really fast. You sniffle.
And… you think on whether you should mention it to him or not. He will freak out for sure but he would want you to tell him.
And? He softly speaks.
I had thoughts of harming myself. I’m really sorry, I didn’t do it but…
I’m so glad you told me. Please whenever you feel those thoughts coming in your head always reach out to me. He pats your head.
It’s okay I’m here with you now. You’re safe.No one is going to hurt you.
I’m so glad that I have you in my life. I wouldn’t want anyone else hyeon… You sniffle, gripping his T-shirt in your hands.
I love you. You whisper faintly.
I love you more…
AHN KEONHO:
You’re laying with Keonho on your bed, your leg thrown over him while you’re laughing at some stupid TikTok that popped up on his foryoupage. You hear a clatter coming from the kitchen and murmurs from your mom who is obviously trying to be loud enough for you to hear. She doesn’t know your boyfriend is here, he literally climbed your house and sneaked in through your bedroom window just to see you. She knocks on your door as you get up fast.
Hide,go in the closet You whisper. Keonho rushes to hide so you don’t get scolded.
As you open the door you’re met with a very angry expression on your mom’s face. You didn’t do anything, is she gonna fight with you again for no reason?
Literally what are you doing with your life? I can hear you giggling all the way from the kitchen. Don’t you have homework to catch up on, a job or a chore that has been assigned to you? You sit around all day and do nothing. You’re a failure!
You open your mouth to speak, but nothing comes out at first. Your eyes widened, “what is wrong with her man?”
Mom what are you on about, don’t you realize that we’re on summer break?
Even if it’s summer break, you never do the chores around here like I ask you to and even when you do them, you do so many mistakes, I’m sick and tired of it! She yells, enough that it could pop your eardrums if you were standing any closer.
I’m leaving to run errands, I’ll be back in an hour or so. Do something productive with your life, otherwise you’ll end up on the street like your cousin Woojin. Got it? You can see her denying the urge to raise her hand at you. Well at least she has some self control it seems.
You nod your head, unable to speak, scared that she will hit you, it has happened before but it’s not frequent. Tears are falling down your cheeks and embarrassment caves in as you realise your boyfriend heard the whole conversation.
You just stay there frozen, anxiety creeping up your body. “What if he agrees with her?” “What if he also believes that I am a mistake?” “What if-“ your trail of thoughts get cut off the moment you feel two arms around your waist
You immediately relax in his touch and quiet sobs start escaping you as your knees give out and you slowly fall to the ground, while keonho is holding you.
I know what you’re thinking and it’s not true. He simply states.
What? Your crying stops for a second because of confusion.
Go on say what it is that you want to say I can see that you’re holding back.
Do you…? You hesitate.
Mhm? He hums, gesturing for you to continue speaking.
Do you agree with her? I feel like I won’t have a future with the way my life is going. I’m not studying, I’m sitting around in my room doing nothing all day, I don’t have any close friends and.. you rant on and on and suddenly
Shhh, stop talking for a minute. You should stop overthinking everything just because your mother thinks that it’s true. You try hard enough, more than most of the teenagers our age. I believe that you have a bright future and even if you end up with no job, I’ll be there to give you every single penny that you need. He giggles at the last sentence while he gently untangles your hair with his fingers.
You laugh at his stupid joke and wipe your tears as you turn around and face him, both of you still on your knees. You reach your hand out and touch his cheek as you lean in to kiss him. He kisses you and suddenly once you two pull away, he starts bombarding you with kisses all over your face
“I” kiss
“Love” kiss
“You” kiss
You laugh at the action. You’re so in love with this boy, he won’t ever know how much you admire him.
The night continues with Keonho making jokes and showing you funny videos to cheer you up while sitting together on the bed. The real thing that cheers you up though id not the jokes or the reels on instagram. It’s his soft smile.
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