I'm a hobbit

Actually, the only difference for me it's that my family tells me I'm a shit person.

i need to isolate myself from everyone. i have bad influence on people. i must go away before it gets worse. i must go

it’s so not fair to my bf that my stupid personality disorder makes me question everything and have trust issues for no reason and expect him to leave at anytime. it’s not fair that he has to work around and learn to deal with this. i wish i could just love him without all this extra shit in my head trying to tear me down

That thin line between being emotionally mature beyond your age and emotionally immature for your age.

i think one of the worst feelings is being in a conversation and realizing you’re just redundant. nobody is actually addressing or responding to you so you just realize how fucking pointless it is for you to be there.

you know that great bpd feel when you detect any hint of aggression/anger in your fp’s message and your brain is just like: initiate crying and shutdown

I hate that feeling of not being needed or wanted, I hate that agonizing emptiness I feel when my fp talks to someone else or even looks at someone that’s not me. I automatically feel that I’m not wanted and I think “it’s clear that they don’t like me so I won’t bother with trying to get their attention since I’m obviously not wanted” and I let myself fade into the distance and I just feel so Lonely and worthless, mixed with an overwhelming feeling of rage and jealously and sadness, y'know what I mean???? it’s a feeling that’s hard to explain, a feeling that embeds itself within me and won’t leave until I get his attention again and until I feel wanted again. then the cycle just keeps going, it’s exhausting.

my unhealthiest coping mechanism is clinging onto any person that gives me attention after being abandoned by someone

i am always going to care about someone more than they care about me and that’s really hard to deal with

You ever get so angry at other people that you internalise that anger and want to kill yourself instead?