you can't perceive me

hmmmmmmmmmm time to ingest substances or die

hell yeah brother i wanna obliterate myself in every way imaginable

finally a few days where i was feeling a bit more chill. probably won't last long but nice to have it even for a short while

things are getting even more horrible! take me out now thx

hope i'm not gonna wake up tomorrow

every second existing feels like slowly ripping my own skin off

wow what a torturous start of the day

like im 99.99% sure that they're not into me and it won't work out so now im just literally torturing myself like it fucking hurts to think about im fucking tweaking out idk what to do with myself PLEASE MAKE THIS STOP

not liking anyone was peaceful. let me go back to that PLEASE

there's so much shit that's making me anxious lately and now on top of that i have to like someone??? No. Please Stop. I HATE THIS I DIDN'T ASK FOR THIS

tweaking so bad that im back here bc i need a safe place to rant that nobody i know irl knows about

how come i felt so good a few hours ago and now im so defeated and and done

no matter how i feel, good or bad, there's always this void somewhere inside me that never gets filled and i have no idea what to even do to make it go away. it's like there's always something missing, and always will be

not sure if i'm getting sick or not

may have overcaffeinated myself with the cold brews oops

they way i wanna be left alone but also don't want people to leave me