Sniffle’s Thoughts

𝙷𝐞𝚕𝐥𝚘, 𝙸’𝚖 “𝚂𝐧𝚒𝐟𝚏𝐥𝚎” !

𝐘𝚘𝐮 𝚌𝐨𝚞𝐥𝚍 𝐜𝚊𝐥𝚕 𝐦𝚎 “𝚒𝐲𝚊,” 𝐢𝚏 𝐭𝚑𝐚𝚝’𝚜 𝐞𝚊𝐬𝚒𝐞𝚛, 𝚝𝐡𝚘𝐮𝚐𝐡.

𝐈 𝚊𝐦 𝚊 ! 𝚖𝐢𝚗𝐨𝚛 !

𝙸 𝐠𝚘 𝚋𝐲 𝐬𝚑𝐞/𝐡𝚎𝐫.

𝙽𝐨𝚝 𝐜𝚘𝐦𝚙𝐥𝚎𝐭𝚎𝐥𝚢 𝐬𝚞𝐫𝚎 𝐨𝚗 𝐦𝚢 𝐬𝚎𝐱𝚞𝐚𝚕𝐢𝚝𝐲 𝚢𝐞𝚝, 𝚜𝐨 𝙸 𝐣𝚞𝐬𝚝 𝐢𝚍𝐞𝚗𝐭𝚒𝐟𝚢 𝐚𝚜 𝐪𝚞𝐞𝚎𝐫 !

𝐼’𝑙𝑙 𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡𝑙𝑦 𝑝𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑚𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑡𝑠 𝑜𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑖𝑝ℎ𝑜𝑏𝑖𝑎 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑔𝑏𝑡𝑞+ 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑖𝑡’𝑠 𝑎 𝑙𝑜𝑡 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛 𝑝𝑒𝑜𝑝𝑙𝑒 𝑐𝑙𝑎𝑖𝑚 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑎 𝑙𝑜𝑡 𝑙𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝑡𝑎𝑙𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛 𝑖𝑡 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑏𝑒. 𝑀𝑦 𝑏𝑙𝑜𝑔 𝑜𝑏𝑣𝑖𝑜𝑢𝑠𝑙𝑦 𝑤𝑜𝑛’𝑡 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑎𝑛 𝑖𝑚𝑝𝑎𝑐𝑡 𝑖𝑛 𝑎𝑛𝑦 𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡𝑠𝑜𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟, 𝑛𝑒𝑖𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑖𝑡 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑦 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑏𝑖𝑝ℎ𝑜𝑏𝑖𝑎 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑎𝑡 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑙𝑜𝑔 𝑒𝑥𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑠.

𝐼’𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑙𝑠𝑜 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑝𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑎𝑛𝑦 𝑑𝑟𝑎𝑚𝑎 𝑖𝑛 𝑔𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑟𝑎𝑙 𝐼 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑒𝑛𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ 𝑡𝑜 𝑎𝑐𝑡𝑢𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦 𝑝𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑚𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑡𝑠 𝑜𝑛, 𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑡𝑠 𝑖𝑛 𝑔𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑟𝑎𝑙, 𝑎𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑜𝑛𝑎𝑙 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠 !

During pride month, btw

Not funny or amusing, btw

Entirely no reason to even post stuff like this, btw

Enough hate for queer people in general outside the community, no reason for anyone to bring any hate INTO the community, btw

She then proceeded to reply to a comment with this, like a few others she replied to similarly. First it’s “fight me about it idgaf” then “yes queen, happy pride month, boo”.

Her responses could be sarcasm, I can’t really tell. But either way - why even make the video in the first place? The hostile caption isn’t matching up with the replies.

If you’re going to contradict yourself, maybe don’t even say anything at all.

You don’t “gaf”, but give a fuck enough to think of the video, film a clip for said video idea, type the words to put over the clip, then tell yourself: “yep, this video totally isn’t hateful, offensive, or mean in any way whatsoever! Im not doing damage to the quiet community by spreading this hateful rhetoric about bisexual people! im not spreading hate to the queer community DURING pride month at all!! Okay, let me post my hateful video now because I think it makes me look cute and funny 🥰🤪!”

WE should ALL be proud of who we are and should be SUPPORTING each other in this community. Not spreading hate. Especially not during pride month.

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This was a comment under the post. Shouldn’t even have to be said 😐

I’d be beating a dead horse by even saying anything, so I’ll just leave this here.

The video was

“Top horror movie:

1. A fem bisexual”

I’m tired of this grandpa 🫩🫩

there shouldn’t be a space for any hate on any queer group or sexuality. Thought that was literally common sense?

Again, putting a group of people in a bubble because of an experience you’ve had or heard about. Not mature.

Can we all just hold hands?? That’s what we all seem to push for and advocate, yet we still see things like this. And it’s not even surprising to see things like this, just super disappointing.

I hope this person and anyone else who genuinely thinks this way heals from whatever experience they had and opens their mind a little bit more.

Ik my posts like this are probably super annoying, even though no one sees them. But it just really sucks seeing things and hearing things like this as a young girl in this community.

Videos or posts like these can actually hurt someone’s feelings and make them feel insecure about their sexuality, especially if they’re still figuring themselves out. Yes, I’m talking about my own experience right now, but it can very much apply to others.

I’ve said this in a post I’ve made before, but in our own community?? Come on, people.

Seen this on a video talking about the “Paris Duh” situation. Come on bro 🫩 how are you grown asf and still putting a group of people in the same bubble?? There’s no excuse for biphobia or ANY type of homophobia. IN OUR OWN COMMUNITY??

I’m still figuring out my own sexuality right now, but this is just baffling me. Paris made the bi community look SO bad.

Regardless it shouldn’t take a rocket scientist to understand that just because you had a negative experience or heard about a negative experience doesn’t mean that EVERYONE who is that sexuality, race, religion, WHATEVER, is the same as a whole.

Am I saying don’t share your negative experience? No. What I’m saying is that you shouldn’t then go on to advocate for everyone else to put that community of people in a box too. “Don’t date/involve ___ because I had this experience with one.” I understand someone hurt you, yes. But that doesn’t mean you should spread the idea that that WHOLE community of people are the same and will do the same.

Why do lesbians seem to hate bi women? I’ve been stressing over it for a while now, and I’m starting to feel quite insecure about my sexuality. I like woman more than men, like A LOT, especially masc woman, which seems to be the majority of the people in the community who dislike bi’s.

The thing is, I’m not gonna say I’m lesbian because I am still attracted to men, regardless of how little. That would just defeat the point of the lesbian label. It frustrates me a little because why should I feel excluded in my own community BY my own community?

I don’t see a lot of people addressing biphobia, and it bothers me a little because I feel like it should be addressed a little more?

I was scrolling on TikTok, and came across a video of a lesbian talking about how to show you’re a lesbian in public. She said something about a necklace of sorts?

But then I went to the comments and seen a bi woman say something like “I’m Bi, how are we supposed to tell” or something like that, and all the replies were lesbians pretty much saying that it’s just for lesbians, which is fine, but the way they came off and how they were saying it as if bi’s didn’t qualify as apart of the community at all. As if we’re just playing both sides for validation or attention, those sides being “heterosexual” and queer. But there was a reply from another bi saying “girl just go, they hate us” and I couldn’t help but agree.

TW(?): ‼️ possible mention of suicidal thoughts ‼️

I just hate myself. Most days I’m okay, but there’s these times where I just think about myself and my life and the next hours of my day is ruined. I can literally feel my thoughts pressing down on me. Like what the fuck am I here for? I just.. lie in bed, all day, every day, I’m homeschooled and my mom doesn’t even put in work to teach me, and I’m not gonna put in work to teach myself because I don’t fucking wanna. I have no friends, no social life, I feel like I have nothing. Yes, I have family, and to some people, sure, family might be all you need, but me? Ive always yearned for friends. I can’t even be myself around most of my family.

I don’t know how. I always feel so out of place. If I’m not around my mom or grandma, I feel like I’m putting on a mask. Mostly because the family I’m usually around are pretty closed-minded and make me a little nervous because they’re not as mellow as my mom is.

I used to be so happy. I used to be creative. I used to feel smart. I used to feel like I was a kid, and that I could be one. I used to think life wouldn’t put me in as many challenges as it has so far. I used to think it was all worth it. Now I don’t. And the thing is, I’m too scared to die to do it myself. Every time I think about it I get a feeling of FOMO (fear of missing out.) I just want friends. I just want someone to love me. Someone to love. But then every time I think about a relationship, I just get this sense of fear. I could’nt handle getting cheated on. I couldn’t handle getting broken up with. And I know that. I know I’d kill myself if someone I put my whole self into were to just throw it all away for another girl, or break up with me, whether it was me or not.

That’s one thing about being self-aware. You know what and how’d you react. It’s like you know yourself better than anyone else, but more than you’d like. And being self-conscious. I know every single thing I hate about myself but can only name two or three things I love, and love is an overstatement. I always feel like shit, and I always feel like I LOOK like shit. I wanna do things other than sitting on my ass all day, but I just can’t. My mom doesn’t go anywhere, my grandma doesn’t either. I’m always in my own little bubble. A bubble of insecurity, hate, longing, anxiety, and turmoil. Is this what all teenage girls go through? I’m about to turn 15 in may, and my auntie brought up the idea of having a party this year. I don’t WANNA have a fucking party. I hate birthdays. Well, mine. Anyone else’s is worth it for the cake.

I don’t like my birthdays because people will watch me open the presents. I don’t give a fuck if it’s family. I already feel like there’s eyes on me constantly in public, why would I wanna feel that way on my birthday? I hope I don’t sound entitled. I’m just aware of how I’ll feel, and I’d rather be comfortable on my birthday. And I also have a lot of trouble with expressions when I’m around anyone other than my grandma and mom. You know when you’re opening present on Christmas and you fake reactions when you open it? Depending on what it is, of course. I’d rather not want to feel like I wanna get my birthday over with as soon as possible. I wanna ENJOY it. I’m turning 15! Like that’s so huge for me. And what presents could they possibly get for me when I’m too scared to share my interests with them? My mind revolves around masculine woman. Both my aunties are gay, but how am I gonna explain how much I love mascs as a 14 year old??? And the only other interests I have is Arcane, and I rather them not look into the show, or worse, watch it.

Like come on! I can’t be myself, and I hate it. I hate feeling so misunderstood whenever it’s not that big of a deal. It makes me feel entitled. HOW am I supposed to explain that my favorite things are learning about the holocaust and weird, vintage shit and shopping with money I regret having anyone spend on me? And one of my aunties usually get me clothes, and the clothes she gets are like. Well like I’m 8. I’m not 8. That auntie is like.. one of those people who make you feel like everything and anything they do FOR you is an inconvenience. It’s exhausting to be around her sometimes. Like, I love her but DAMN. I don’t know. There’s never anything that goes in my life that’s big and positive.

It’s always big and negative. But when something positive comes up, there’s always something that makes me overthink it. Come onnnn.