Iāve got tears in my eyes, my chest is aching. You can bet I have a (well maybe not anymore) warm cup of tea next to me. I forgot it for awhile. Itās going to be bitter.
No, finally, itās okay. Just what I need. The comfort I often forget, but seek without noticing.
Itās scary to have your insecurities, your fears, reflected back at you. Itās scarier to see them reflected in the eyes of your loved ones. You know, you can easily forget yourself while youāre busy helping them. You just donāt look at their eyes, and you can forget and make them happy.
You donāt talk about your fears. Theyāre the same, though. Itās funny how fear is more easily bearable when itās the othersā fear.
You see them growing as humans. You build them wings. You see them fly, high, always higher. You are so proud of them.
However, you havenāt changed. Youāre still in the darkness. Youāre still paralysed by your fears. You just forget about it all. Youāre losing yourself in the love you give to others. Have you noticed it?
And they have too. Itās time for you and I to build our own wings, to fly as high as them.
You canāt be blinded anymore. Theyāre holding your head between their hands, their forehead against yours. You canāt escape their eyes. You have to look in these living mirrors.
Itās scary, the pain is still there. Havenāt you done everything to erase it?
Once again, you forget these eyes mirror yours. But they wonāt let you. They wonāt let you forget anymore.
Because you deserve to grow too. Itās more than time for you to understand that. You know the darkness of your heart better than anyone else. We often hear that thereās no light without darkness. In your desperate hours, you forget that thereās no darkness without light either. Whereās the best of you?
Itās in their eyes too. If you never look at them, you wonāt know it. Youāre maybe tearing up a bit, youāre not sure anymore. Thereās a heavy weight on your shoulders. You close your eyes. You wish you could be enough. Enough for what? You donāt know. Just enough.
Their arms around you have replaced the non physical weight. You hear their voice. You will be okay.
Bring out your own galaxy to light, love.
And love yourself as much as you love others.
