I Need You To Know (Part 3)
- First of all, if you can all take mercy on me ๐ I have not written any sort of Drabble in a LOOOONGGG time. Like 6 years. And I saw a comment that was like, I guess thereโs no part 3 and I couldnโt just leave it here. So I apologise if this ends up not seeming cohesive, but I am trying to bring closure to a Drabble series I started when I was a literal teenager ๐ I hope you enjoy! ๐ -
*MC pov*
Later that night I canโt sleep. I lie there, just staring up at the ceiling. Of course Iโm just an asset to him. I really was just kidding myself to think otherwise.
An asset.
The words ring out in my head over and over again. Iโd put myself in front of GUNS for him. What an idiot.
I feel rejected. Which is stupid because he was never mine. We havenโt even had a real conversation that isnโt around my โtalentsโ. But somehow I did feel connected.
I sigh. I canโt just stay here moping. I get up and leave my room. I need to sort myself out, so I go knock on his door, maybe I can get some consolation.
Jaxon opens the door, looking a little confused to see me standing there.
โMC? You alright?โ
โCan I come in? I needโฆ.I just need.โ I donโt finish the sentence. I donโt know what it is I need but Jaxon seems like an easy option. He gestures behind him and I walk in.
โWhat the hell was that earlier? Standing in front of him like that? Stockholm syndrome? Like what?!โ
He starts going off at me and thatโs when I just go screw it. I curl my hands into his hair and kiss him. He freezes for a moment before he starts kissing me back.
The kiss starts to deepen and I feel his hand start to roam whenโฆ.whenโฆ.What am I doing?! I know Iโm sad, but this is irational, this is stupid.
I pull away as quickly as I pulled him in. I see his confusion. It probably mirrors my own. And then I rush out before he has a chance to say anything.
*Antares pov*
As Iโm heading to the toilet, the only privacy Iโll get on this ship, a door behind me opens. MC? Sheโs rushing out of the room looking panicked? And right behind herโฆ.
Jaxonโฆ
What did he do to her?! Anger boils my blood and before Iโm even thinking Iโve got him pinned up agains the wall.
โWhat did you do to her?โ A growl enters my voice.
At this anger he actually smirks at me. A smirk!
โI didnโt do anything.โ He says in a mocking tone. โShe, on the other hand, just gave me the most mind blowing kiss I think she needed a minute to cool off.โ
My grip loosens at this but my anger doesnโt. She kissed HIM? But? What am I even about to think. I told her sheโs an asset, what right do I have to feel jealous. I let him go and walk off.
*MC pov*
The next day, feeling groggy would be an understatement for how Iโm feeling. What was I thinking? I mean, I was thinking I was hurt and I wanted to feel something good. But that did not feel good. It felt wrong actually.
I go to grab some lunch when I run into Antares in the canteen. I give him a small smile and then walk past, grabbing what I need. How is he alone in here? Did Orion trust his twin more than we thought?
โHave a good night last night?โ
Im caught off guard by his voice.
โSorry?โ
โLast night, did you have fun?โ
Is thatโฆ.hurt in his eyes? Fun last night? What is heโฆ.? Oh shit. He saw? But how could he think that was fun. All it was was a quick kiss and me running away?
Finally catching on I answer his question. โYou think running out of someoneโs room after the most awkward kiss is fun?โ I see his eyebrows shoot in before he can train his face into the usual stoic look. โWhy do you care anyway? Iโm just your asset. I can be an engineer while kissing other people.โ He lets out a grunt at that.
Before I get to explore whatโs happening here more, Atlas and Orion walk in.
โSo, we should be at a neutral colony in the next 5 hours, and we can be rid of ourโฆ.guest.โ Orion pauses on the word, probably trying to determine what matches him best.
โGood. Iโve decided Iโll leave you be with the engineer. Iโve got a back up in mind anyway.โ
My heart stops.
He has a back up? Then why the hell would he even bother trying to get me back?
That hurts. Again, for no logical reason. But that Iโve been replaced so easily.
*Antares pov*
Of course I havenโt replaced her, and seeing that hurt across her face again awakens something inside of me. Something that makes me uncomfortable.
But she could see her kiss with Silva bothered me. And I canโt have that. I donโt care.
She is just. An. Asset.
Nothing more. Thatโs what I need to remind myself. So when I get off this ship, I will find a replacement. She made her choice.
Even if she said it was awkward? Maybe she means she just feels awkward telling me about it.
Whatever it is, this is not good for me. My crew probably already think Iโve hit my head or something. I will get off at this colony, call my crew, and forget about all of this.
Done. Easy.
* 5 hours later *
We land and I hear Orion and his crew speaking about what resources they need to collect before setting back off.
They drop me off in front of a communications centre and say next time I try and board their ship unannounced Iโll have a bullet in my chest. Such gracious hosts.
I call my crew and they tell me theyโll be with me as soon as possible.
Great, so Iโll just wait on this desolate colony. Maybe I should find a bar, get some drinks in me. Itโs not like I can embarrass myself in front of my crew anymore.
I head straight to the barmaid and order 4 shots of the brightest green shot they have available. That should dull the last day for at least a little while.
As Iโm downing my third shot I catch a glimpse of a familiar face. I turn, my head and I fail miserably at hiding the shock on my face.
MC?
I try to train my face back to neutrality.
โWhat are you doing here?โ I keep my voice bland, disinterested, though thatโs far from how Iโm feeling.
She looks like sheโs trying to bring up some deep hidden confidence. I see her pull a semi convincing confident smile.
โWe have unfinished business.โ
- Thatโs it for Part 3. I know, itโs rusty and awful, but at least Iโm tryingโฆ.right? ๐ Part 4 may be coming, or maybe Iโll disappear for another 6 years, who knows ๐ -
