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Luffy be like: This is the alcoholic who saved my life and lost an arm for me and he is kind of a father figure, this is one of my birth parents who tried to kill me but it's fine bc he also hates the world government and tried to protect my dead brother, this is my other dad who is a wanted terrorist who abandoned me but it's fine because he saved my other dead brother's life and this is...a clown he is the divorced partner of my father figure I guess??

at punk hazard rn and it suddenly dawned on me that i miss the stupid clown. i hope i see him soon.

finally out of dressrosa. war lord buggy lessgo!!

grief is so crazy like what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. does she know i loved her. i miss her so much. i catch myself doing things she used to do. i wish i could call her. i miss her so much. i do a crossword puzzle. i cry while washing the dishes. does she know i loved her? my heart feels like a hummingbird. i miss her so much. what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. what if i forget.

i talked ab this feeling in therapy yday and my therapist asked me, “would it really be so bad if your memories changed? if they softened and faded or looked different over time? why does that frighten you so much?” and i said, “i don’t want the love to disappear.” and she looked at me for a long moment and then she said, “it won’t. it doesn’t work that way. even if the memories soften or change, it doesn’t mean the love does. that love keeps going backward in time, forever, because you love her still. all is not lost.” i just thought i would share that in case it resonated w anyone else too.

"that time of the month" "monthly visitor" "feminine hygiene products" GRRAH!!! SHUT UP SHUT UP!!! PERIOD!! MENSTRUATION!!!! TAMPONS!!! PADS!! MENOPAUSE!!!!!!!!!!!

VAGINA!!!!