Slightly Lost

I dont know what to do anymore, im doing things that are destroying the things and people around me. Lights out is my only way out.

adults: um.... okay... but can u explain why ur lazy...

I dont know what to do... Should i say something... No, keep it to yourself... But if i do it'll eat me up inside and pull me apart. Yeah I'll just keep quite. What harm can it do.

Im trying, im always trying. I dont know how people get over this shit. Someone came to me for advice about dealing with depression. Me. They came to me They think im dealing with it, well on one hand my hiding its skills are getting better. I didnt know what to say, i didnt want tk let on the I wasnt dealing with it. So i lied. I lied to cover my arse. Im not dealing with it, the night crying and getting more, the scars are getting deeper and the dark hole im hiding in is getting wider.

Tablet should be working, I’m not sure they are but I’m anxious to stop taking them. I have one person i have i can tell everything to and they listen because they have been snd are going through the same thing but i don’t know if it help.