Athenescence

Get to know me!!

I go by Athena

I'm 17

I'm into video games, alt music, greek mythology, manifesting and everything horror related(especially about zombies and viruses)

here you'll see: mostly vent posts, my thoughts and fandom related posts(headcanons, fanfics, theories, analysis)

my favourite video games are: pathologic, splatoon, the walking dead, overwatch, alice madness returns, outlast, tomb raider, syberia, detroit, shantae series

my favourite movies: the saw franchise(especially the first movie), grave encounters, final destination(heavy on the third movie), 28 days/weeks/years later, the truman show, the hunger games, battle royale

active fandoms: alice in borderland, the walking dead(game AND series), overwatch, life is strange, pathologic, code lyoko, soy luna, atla

Feel free to ask questions in my inbox!!

backloggd ao3(will be here soon)

Tags!!

#live laugh chirisu - chirisu stuff (fanfics, fanart, analysis, headcanons, fanfic news, translations)

#digital diary - personal posts

SPOILERS AHEAD❌❌🆘🆘

What did they do to this show?!!??

At first I was sad that Ámbar wouldn't be in it, but now I'm kinda glad they didn't have a chance to ruin her character. But I am really shocked how they broke up all the couples at the start.. and left us with LUMON?? at the end, are y'all fr.. weren't lutteo like set in stone for forever at this point? I know it's disney and new writing crews probably and many shows that are getting continuations are getting ruined a ton so what did I expect, but still sad. Glad it's only 12 episodes, though.

I kinda liked the whole Azul/Valeria storyline but at the end I found it kinda bland..

Why tf do random people, even the most disgusting and shitty ones have relationships, love and all that and I'm struggling with it??

I mean, I think well of myself. I'm pretty, smart, interesting, but the absence of male attention has really been taking down all my confidence just because of how many people around me HAVE all of this and I dont. I never get random compliments, I don't get asked out, I don't get random gifts or any guys even interested in me. All this makes me question if I'm even as good as I think of myself

I KNOWWW people will say that "your worth is not determined by male attention" or "you should be glad you don't have to deal with them", but I feel like a core part of my life is mising: everything romantic, even vaguely romantic and sentimental. I even had fights with some of my acquaintances(??) cause I vaguely opened up about this and they just threw , "guys are intimidated by you", "if i were you I'd be happy", "you're lucky", "at least you don't have to deal with annoying guys trying to flirt w/ you" at me. BITCH I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW FLIRTING FEELS

I'm so infuriated with people. I put myself out there, I'm outgoing, I'm friendly but not too friendly, I have high standards but still NOTHING. At this point, whenever I see people falling in love again I get jealous, but not because I want them to be in love with me, I just want to be the one being loved.

I'm not jealous of the person, I'm jealous of the concept.

I feel like I'm REALLY missing out. I wanna go on dates and be sincere, or even just play around and have fun

Oh so funny to be a freak girl, yet not have anyone point it out as BAD to you, probably just cause you're pretty.

I never get compliments in public but I still feel like my appearance saves me in many situations, especially in school, where I can say whatever not just cause I don't care but because I definitely won't be made fun of or weird people out.