Just a chronically exhausted bord.

I wanted to picture some possible Hive events that might be big or small in their life. And this seemed like fitting them. Or maybe it's more as Xivu's thing.

Less messy version, bc I might like it more with less chaotic details that take more attention from other main things. I also have this second sketch, but I was not happy with composition and that it was not really clear that Oryx attaches these bones on Warpriest's cape, and was a pity to scrap, but also no strength to do smth with it.

Used my NMS screenshot as a ref for a random planet. Such a beautiful game

I feel sorry for people who could abruptly come for Look Outside content, cause mainly I was boiling in Destiny hell with hyperfixations jumping. Or I feel so for every of my abrupt drawing subject change. And like if I go from Destiny too. Sometimes it's nice to refresh with different themes tho. There're a lot of things that I didn't finish. And I like LO, so it has unfinished sketches too

Couldn't make myself finish something faster, not wanting to draw things imperfect and was distracting from doing what is planned. And hard bad irl thing happened, which reminds about itself a lot even when I try to distract and not to let the thoughts gnaw, because it's hard not to remember when it got into a habit and disappeared for ever. Even when I describe it so evasively here, it still gets me with sadness and tears.

And here's also a Destiny 2 last final update (though it was bound to happen someday and I was burned out mostly and lost bc of not playing newer paid content with not being able to afford it), and I already feel emotionally exhausted with other events that I wrote abt above and don't know how I feel with hollowness or smth, confused, and what this would mean, and everyone said these words many times already, and it seems to be still playable? I don't understand why I would feel this way bc of such things, with me not playing a lot, and more drawing. Maybe because of people around being unhappy abt this and saying that it's the end. It became one of my biggest hyperfixations with how many things I drew. I'm afraid and sad if my mind and these fixations stick to something that depends partly on people with who I interact, and that it's not fully under my control.

Also, recently I started to try using my blog's and bsky name as a new signature, because I felt more uncomfortable and feeling a little rejection towards the older one. It was a mix of Luka Odium that I didn't want to use as a full thing, but also "Luka" was too simple. And I got this. But I had an anxious feeling if I get uncomfortable towards this one too someday.