lover of rain/

“Sometimes it’s raining. If it is, I’ll just stay in bed. And if there’s whiskey still left in the glass, I’ll drink it. And I’ll look at the raindrops dripping from the eaves, and I’ll think about the Dolphin Hotel. Maybe I’ll stretch, nice and slow. Enough for me to be sure I’m myself and not part of something else. Yet I’ll remember the feel of the dream. So much that I swear I can reach out and touch it, and the whole of that something that includes me will move. If I strain my ears, I can hear the slow, cautious sequence of play take place, like droplets in an intricate water puzzle falling, step upon step, one after the other. I listen carefully. That’s when I hear someone softly, almost imperceptibly, weeping. A sobbing from somewhere in the darkness. Someone is crying for me.”

- Haruki Murakami

06.22.26

I loved you in the moments. You never even saw.. I held you when you need me. And stayed through every fall.

If only you knew.. How much of me was wrapped up in you.. How every little thing I try to do .

Was all for you. If only you only knew..

I stayed when you were distant.. I held on when you let go.. I kept hoping you would see me in the ways I never show . You thought I would never leave you, because I never made you chase .. but loving you was costing me more than I could replace . I didn't want to lose you . I didn't want to beg. I just wanted you to feel me in the things I never say..

I wasn't asking for forever. I wasn't asking you to change . I just wanted you to see me before I walk away.. if you ever look back some day.

And wonder why I moved.

Just know I loved you deeper, than you ever knew..

If only your knew. How much of me was wrapped up in you.

-Bad Apples

Inventory day. Showed up a little early to enjoy the stillness and quietness. My favorite time of day is the Twilight. When the sky changes colors gradually.. I m always left in awe how it happens slowly yet suddenly.

-Danny Sheehan

"The only way to deal with an unfree world is to become absolutely free that your very existence is an act of rebellion" - Albert Camus

05.28.26

Worn out.

You told me you had a major operation tomorrow. I didn't ask why you came to me. I just reached for your hand, and this time you didn't pull away scared, you held on.

-danny

"You're the nicest girl I've ever met and

We have so much fun together that

I'd sure hate to ruin everything

Drove you home last night

You’re on my mind

I hope you think of me sometimes

Cause you’re all I ever think of, dear

I’m sober for today

Life melts away

Inside your eyes I wanna stay

Forever

Learning how our hearts work, dear

If I could

Then I would

Hide in your blue eyes."