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a knight of the seven kingdoms
ser duncan the tall
oath keeper
bottoms
hazel callahan
different crowds (hcs)
euphoria
rue bennett
i wanna be your girlfriend (series-ON HOLD) (nsfw)
nsfw alphabet (nsfwâduh)
spending the day at rueâs house (hc)
maddy perez
desperate | 2 (nsfw)
nsfw alphabet (nsfwâduh)
stay at my place (nsfw)
prom
experimenting (nsfw)
cake (nsfw)
a new kind of happy
cassie howard
experimenting (nsfw)
harry potter
george weasley
comfort zone
house of the dragon
aemond targaryen
months apart (nsfw)
alicent hightower
want (nsfw)
simple pleasures (nsfw)
the dangers of our desires (nsfw)
sugar and spice (modern au) (hc)
cregan stark
princess of the north (nsfw) | the warmth of winter (nsfw)
of fire and ice
daemon targaryen
a prince's demand (nsfw)
rhaenyra targaryen
a princessâs order (nsfw) | a ladyâs demand | a prince's demand (nsfw)
too sweet (slightly nsfw)
for better or for worse (nsfw)
outer banks
kiara carrera
lucky
nsfw alphabet (nsfwâduh)
pope heyward
enough
all is fair (feat. jj maybank)
sarah cameron
once a cheaterâŚ
blurb 1 (nsfw)
mcu
agatha harkness
when in westview
bob reynolds
i like it better
brunnhilde (valkyrie)
love of her life
pesky gods and whiskey
wanda maximoff
milf!wanda series (nsfw)
yelena belova
peachy
marc spector/steven grant/jake lockely
tipsy (j.l) (nsfw)
buzzed (m.s) (nsfw)
stranger things
robin buckley
the privacy of a dark theatre
edge of seventeen
our friend, steve
eddie munson
somebody else
nsfw alphabet (nsfwâduh)
steve harrington
beyond
the last of us
joel miller
if he wanted to | complicated | long, long time
you should probably leave | a man who was gonna die young
still here
the bottom (series)
tess servopoulos
habits
abby anderson
sweet cliches (series)
body heat (feat. ellie williams | blurb)
like real people do
ellie williams
ceilings | part two
body heat (feat. abby anderson | blurb)
cool with it (feat. dina | blurb)
always
gamer!ellie hcs | pt 2 | pt 3
jesse
the thing (slight nsfw)
the walking dead
daryl dixon
survive
glenn rhee
brutal (series-ON HOLD)
tara chambler
welcome party
the white lotus
timothy ratliff
darlin'

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Due to its surprising popularity on the many places it's been posted and reposted to, I decided to finally complete this little wlw sketch that I had kind of given up on. I'm hoping to have it riso printed soon !
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Hidden bruises
Pairing: Dr. Jack Abbot x Resident!Reader
Warnings: heavy angst, MDNI!!! Domestic violence, physical abuse, graphic descriptions of injuries, internal bleeding, blood. Please read with care. It explores the reality of being blind to violence out of fear and survival.
Summary: Working the night shift at The Pitt is hard enough without carrying the weight of a violent secret. Jack Abbot has been watching his best resident slowly fade for months until a desperate attempt to leave her abuser turns into a fight for her life.
A/N already working on part two!! Also, correct me if I wrote something wrong on the medical part đŤĄ
Jack was leaning against the central nursing station when he saw you. You were at the far end of the corridor, tucked into the shadow of a supply cart, thinking you were out of sight.
You weren't.
Jack watched as you pressed the phone to your ear, your knuckles white as bone. Even from twenty feet away, he could see the slight tremor in your shoulders. Your voice didn't carry but the frantic pacing did. It was the movement of someone trying to find a solution that wasn't there.
"Again?"
Jack didn't turn his head. He knew Lenaâs voice without looking. The head nurse stood beside him, her eyes fixed on the same spot.
"Third time this shift," Jack muttered, his thumb tracing the rim of his jaw. "Sheâs been on that call for ten minutes. If the paramedics roll in with a code right now, sheâs not going to be in the headspace to lead it."
"Itâs not just the phone calls, Jack," Lena said softly, her voice heavy with sadness. "Look at her wrists."
Jack straightened up. Heâd noticed the long sleeves you wore, the way you winced when you reached a high shelf and the heavy layer of make up that didn't quite hide the yellowish purple smudge blooming along your jawline.
He waited until you hung up, until you leaned your forehead against the cold metal of the supply cart and took a shallow breath. When you finally stepped back, rubbing your eyes until they were bloodshot and glassy, he intercepted you.
"Abbot," you croaked, your voice thin and brittle. You didn't look at him. You looked at his chest, at his ID badge, anywhere but his eyes. "Sorry. I was just checking on... a personal matter."
"A personal matter that has you screaming and unfocused at 3 a.m," Jackâs tone wasn't kind. "Youâre late on your rounds. You missed the handoff on the MVA in Bed 4."
"Iâm sorry. It won't happen again."
"Itâs already happened again," Jack countered. He stepped closer, dropping his voice. "Youâre a resident at one of the busiest trauma centers in the city. You can't afford to be compromised. Youâre shaking and trailing three steps behind the rhythm of this floor."
You finally looked up and the raw exhaustion in your gaze made him flinch internally. "I'm just tired, Dr. Abbot. The night shifts are catching up to me."
"Don't lie to me," he said, the words landing like lead. "I see the bruises. I see the way you jump every time your phone vibrates on the counter. This isn't tired."
You stepped back, your posture suddenly defensive, arms crossing over your chest to hide the very signs heâd pointed out. "You don't know what you're talking about. Youâre my attending, Jack. Not my therapist. If my work is subpar, write me up. Otherwise, leave it alone."
Jack watched you walk away. He saw Shen emerge from a patient room, catching your eye for a split second. Shen didn't say anything, but the look of pity he shot toward you was enough to confirm that everyone knew.
Everyone saw the cracks.
Jack stayed at the station. He wanted to reach out, to pull you into an office and demand the truth, to offer a way out. But as he watched you disappear into the shadows of the hallway, he realized the most agonizing part of the ER: you couldn't treat a patient who refused to admit they were bleeding.
He picked up the phone to page the next intake, his heart hardening while realizing he was watching his best resident slowly vanish, one night shift at a time.
_
Jack was just arriving at ER when he heard the slammed car door.
It wasnât the sound of someone arriving; it was the sound of an exclamation point. Jack saw you. You were backing away, your hands up in a defensive posture, your scrubs already darkening with rain. Following you was a man whose voice cut through the sound of the rain, low with a terrifying rage.
"I told you to leave it alone!" you cried out, your voice cracking. "Iâm late, I have to goâ"
"You don't go anywhere until I'm finished," the man snarled.
Jack stopped ten feet away, his hand tightening around his bag. He saw the moment the man lunged. It wasn't a punch; it was a swift grab. He seized your upper arm, his fingers digging into the soft tissue with enough force to jerk your entire body toward him. You let out a choked gasp of pain, your heels skidding on the wet asphalt.
"Let go," you whispered, your eyes darting toward the ER entrance in a panic. "Please, someone will see."
"Let them look, you're being a bitch," he hissed, pulling you closer until your faces were inches apart.
"That's enough."
Jackâs voice wasn't loud but it was precise. He stepped out of the shadows, he didn't look at you, he kept his eyes locked on the manâs hand, still clamped around your arm.
The boyfriend looked up, eyes narrowing. "Back off, pal. This is private."
"It stopped being private the second you touched her on hospital property," Jack said, stepping into the man's personal space. "Let her go. Now."
"Jack, please," you stammered, your face pale and glistening with rain. "Itâs fine, weâre justâ"
"It isn't fine," Jack snapped, his eyes finally flickering to yours for a fraction of a second. "Iâm Dr. Jack Abbot. I run this ER. And if you don't take your hand off my resident in the next three seconds, Iâm calling hospital security. Theyâre already standing thirty feet behind those glass doors. Want to find out how fast they move?"
The manâs jaw worked, his eyes darting to the security desk visible through the lobby windows. He loosened his grip, giving your arm a final sharp shove before stepping back.
"She's all yours, Doc," the man spat. He pointed a finger at you, a silent promise of a conversation to be finished later, before climbing back into the car and peeling away.
The silence that followed was heavy. You stood there, your head bowed, your breath coming in ragged hitches. You reached up to rub your arm, your fingers hovering over where his grip had been.
Jack didn't offer a hand. He didn't offer a hug. He knew youâd break if he did.
"Get inside," he said, his voice low and tight. "Go to the breakroom. Take all the time you need before starting your shift."
"Jack, Iâ"
"Not here," he cut you off, his heart hammering against his ribs in a mix of fury and fear. He looked at the red marks already blooming on your skin, matching the older, fading bruises he'd spotted weeks ago. "We have a shift to run. But don't think for one second that weâre going back to pretending I don't see this."
He walked past you toward the sliding doors, leaving you standing in the rain, the cold reality of the night finally stripped of all its excuses.
_
The sun was beginning to bleed over the Pittsburgh skyline as the night shift finally drew to a close. The high adrenaline had faded, replaced by a heavy ache of exhaustion.
Jack stood by the lockers, his jacket already on, watching you. You were moving with a frantic energy, you were vibrating with the need to disappear before he could corner you.
"Day shift is here," Jack said, his voice echoing in the nearly empty hallway. "Go home."
You flinched but didn't turn around. "I just need to finish the notes on the cardiac arrest in Bed 2. I don't want to leave Robby with a mess."
"He already took the handoff. He told you to go home ten minutes ago." Jack walked over, stopping just far enough away that you wouldn't feel crowded. "And we need to talk about what happened."
You finally turned, and for a second, Jack was struck by the mask you had donned. It was a perfect, practiced smile, the kind used for difficult patients. "Oh, Abbot, honestly. It was just a silly argument. Tensions were high because I was running late. You know how it is."
"I know what a violent grip looks like," Jack said. "I saw his face. I saw yours. That wasn't a silly argument, and those marks on your arm aren't from a misunderstanding."
"He's just... heâs under a lot of pressure lately," you said quickly, the words tumbling out as if you had rehearsed them in your head a thousand times. "His job is stressful, and Iâve been pulling so many doubles here... he just misses me. He gets frustrated. Itâs actually kind of sweet, if you think about it. He just wants me home."
Jack felt a cold chill run down his spine. Hearing you rationalize the bruises made his stomach churn. "Sweet? He shoved you in the rain, in front of your place of work. Thatâs not love. Thatâs some abusive bullshit."
"Youâre overreacting," you laughed. You tucked a loose strand of hair behind your ear, a gesture that inadvertently revealed the darkening thumbprint on your jaw. "You see the worst of humanity every day in here, Jack. Youâve lost your perspective. Weâre fine. Weâre going to talk it out today, have a nice breakfast, and itâll be like it never happened."
"But it did happen. And itâs going to happen again." Jack stepped closer, his eyes searching yours, pleading for a flicker of the logical resident he knew was in there. "Look at me. Youâre a doctor. If a woman came into this ER with those same marks and told you that story, what would you tell her?"
You went rigid.
"Iâd tell her to mind her own business," you snapped, your voice trembling. "Iâm not a patient, Jack. Iâm your resident."
You grabbed your bag and shouldered past him, your stride quick and desperate.
"I can't help you if you won't let me," Jack called after you.
You didn't stop. You didn't look back. You just pushed through the doors, heading straight toward the exit.
Jack watched you walk away, a silent witness to a tragedy he couldn't stop, feeling the crushing weight of the thing medical school prepared him for: the patients you canât save because they donât want to be found.
_
The silence of the ER was shattered by the frantic sound of shoes against the floor.
âJack was just clipping his pager to his belt when he heard the collective gasp from the triage desk. He turned and his world stopped.
âYou were stumbling through the sliding doors, one hand pressed uselessly against your ribs. Your blue scrubs were no blue; it was dark red. One eye was swollen shut, a deep gash splitting the eyebrow, and your lip was torn so badly you couldn't even call out for help.
â"Helpâ" The word died in a wet wheeze as blood came out your mouth.
â"Need a doctor here!" Dr. Langdonâs voice cutted through the shock of the room.
âJack dropped his coffee. He didn't remember running, but suddenly he was there, catching you just as your knees buckled. The weight of you was terrifying: limp, cold and smelling of iron.
â"Iâve got you, Iâve got you," Jack muttered, his hands shaking as he tried to find a pulse in your neck. His brain was screaming Trauma. Grade 3 hemorrhage. Probable flail chest. But his heart was just screaming your name.
â"J-Jack, he.. he" you whispered through a mouthful of blood. Your one open eye, glassy and unfocused, searched his. "I... I tried-"
â"Don't talk." Jack commanded, his voice breaking. He looked up, his expression was primal fury. "Let's get her to Trauma 1! Now! Dana, I need two units of O-neg!"
As the team lifted you onto the trauma bed, a suffocating silence fell over the staff.
They weren't just treating a patient; they were treating one of their own.
"Get those scrubs off her! Carefully!" Jack roared, his voice cracking like a whip.
Danaâs shears moved with practiced speed, the blades gliding through the fabric youâd worn just yesterday. As the blue material fell away, the room seemed to go cold. There wasn't an inch of skin that wasn't mottled in shades of plum and yellow. Defensive wounds lined your forearm, fingernail gouges and deep bruises where heâd pinned you down.
"Pressure! I need pressure on the abdominal bleed!" Jack commanded, his gloved hands pressing firmly against your midsection. He felt the sickening pulse of arterial spray against his palms. "Sheâs tachycardic. Heart rate 140 and climbing. BP is 70 over 40. Weâre losing the window."
"Jack, I can't get a line," a nurse called out, her voice rising in panic. "Her veins are collapsed."
"Go intraosseous!" Jack didn't look up. He couldn't. If he looked at your face, at the blood bubbling at the corner of your mouth, he would lose his mind. He had to stay in the anatomy. He had to see you as a series of leaks to be plugged, not the woman who liked her bagels burnt or the resident who always forgot her stethoscope on the charging station. "Drill the tibia! Now!"
The whine of the IO drill filled the room, a mechanical scream that felt like it was drilling directly into Jack's skull.
"Iâm in!"
"Start the MTP," Jack ordered. "Give her the first cooler. Stay ahead of the coagulopathy."
Suddenly, your body buckled. A wet cough forced a spray of bright red blood onto Jackâs face shield. The monitor let out a long, continuous, high-pitched wail.
"She's flatlining! V-fib!"
"Start compressions!" Jack screamed.
Langdon stepped up and began the rhythmic task of pumping your heart for you. Every time his hands came down on your chest, the sound of your fractured ribs grating together echoed in the small room.
"Charge to 200," Jack commanded, grabbing the paddles. His hands were slick with your blood, making the handles hard to grip. "Clear!"
Your body jolted under the current.
"Nothing. Still in V-fib. Again! Clear!"
Jack watched your head loll to the side with the force of the shock. He saw the earring you were wearingâa small, silver stud he'd gift you last christmas.
*Donât you dare,* he thought, his jaw aching from how hard he was clenching it. *Don't you dare leave me here.*
"Come on, sweetheart," he whispered, the word lost under the noise of the suction and the barking orders. "Come back to us."
On the third shock, a jagged rhythm appeared on the monitor. It was weak but it was a rhythm.
"We have ROSC," Frank breathed, wiping sweat from his brow with a bloodied sleeve. "Sheâs not stable. Abbot, look at the ultrasound."
Jack looked at the screen. Your abdomen was filling with fluid, internal bleeding that no amount of pressure could stop.
"She needs an OR. Make the call," Jack said. He leaned over you, his face inches from yours, his voice a low, fierce growl that bypassed the professional and went straight to the personal. "You listen to me. We are taking you up. You stay away from the light. Do you hear me? Do not dare to leave us."
Jack didn't let go of the bedrail. He ran alongside you.
The elevator doors slid shut as the last thing the staff in the ER saw was Dr. Abbotâs back, standing over your broken form, terrified that if he blinked, the darkness youâd been living in would finally claim you.
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Trinity Santos x camgirl! reader
Imagine that the same girl Trinity is obsessed with on OF appears at the ER one day with a sprained ankle! Oh no!
She obviously recognizes you, but she tries to disguise it. She stays on edge all day because she feels like everyone knows how she knows you. At the same time, no one knows why Dr. Santos is acting so weird about the patient in South 17.
One hour, she would leave a comment slip out, like 'you will not perform for some days, I guess'. Then, for the first time in the ER, Trinity would be red. You laughed shyly, saying that you knew that she recognized you since the beginning.
Maybe Trinity's luck is about to change, because she left work with your personal phone number and a little bit in love already.
Daeron setting his sights on a young rich widow!reader and oh he wants that milf. reader has a daughter (like five years old) and Daeron trying to get to you by being nice to your kid. but readerâs daughter is used to suitors bothering her mom and sheâs not impressed and would tell him she doesnât care heâs a prince, and a dragon, he can jump in the blackwater and drown since dragons donât swim. just like her mama taught her.
sex is some naked bullshit and food is some crap they found on the ground but online poker is forever
The first season of A Knight of the Seven Kingdoms was even more perfect than I could have dreamedâď¸

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oath keeper
description: tourneys draw attention from far and wideâlords and ladies, kings and queens, the knights of oldâoh, and hedge knights and whores, too. or, where ser duncan finds himself with not one, but two new companions with secret identities.Â
warnings: UNEDITED (plsssss do not judge me guys i just finished a 20K fic i was not down to edit it rn), wrote this while ovulating so the reader wants dunk so bad like shes so horny its not funny sorry but enjoy, slight description of reader (mentioned to have valyrian features (silver hair) but race is ambiguousâimplied bipoc!reader), alcohol consumption, unwanted touching (to reader, not by dunk), descriptions of gore and death, angst, semi fluffy ending
words: 20.2K (iâve been working on this for so long donât get me started)
date posted: 20/03/26
The Reach was warmer than Kingâs Landing, and the wine much sweeter. Those were the two things she looked forward to upon arriving in Ashford. The idea of spending a sennight there in the encampment for the duration of the tourney was less than ideal for the young silver haired woman.Â
The realm alights with excitement when the heir to the Iron Throne announces his and his brotherâs attendance at a tourney, drawing the masses from across the Realm. Merchants and blacksmiths and whores alike all flock to the grounds, eager to celebrate and earn some silver from the noblemen. It was nothing unusual for a brothel master to bring many of his women to these events, of course, but it was a first for the young woman with silver hair.Â
Though, she cannot say that her journey from Kingâs Landing was under the same pretences as most of the common women who were travelling to Ashford. Many of the women she met along the road were on their way to earn some coin, whether it be by singing, serving, or selling her services. She did not stand out amongst themâsilver haired women in tattered dresses were not hard to come by in the South. She was, however, the only amongst them to be travelling for leisure, simply eager to set foot outside of Kingâs Landing for the very first time in her life, a small bag of essentials at her hip and a pouch of gold tucked into her cloak, stolen straight from the pocket of Prince Daeron as he slept against the tabletop in the corner of a tavern. The road before her was long, but at least she had found some company and a cart to catch a ride on that made the days of travel seem more tolerable.
She had not expected the air to be soâŚpleasant. Kingâs Landing was a place of overflowing filth, and the air smelled like rotting corpses and human waste. Even from the halls of the Red Keep, the stench of the city below was choking, but here, even with the horses and the food and the blood, the air in Ashford was miraculously clear as she arrived at the tourney grounds. A man led her to an available tent to rent, somewhat hesitant to loan out to a single woman but quickly agreeing at the sight of two glittering gold dragons in his palm.
The town was alight with celebration on that very first night. Everyone loved a tourney, even those who may or may not live to see the end of it. Only during these events did lords and ladies step down from the pedestals to drink and dance among the common folksâthe veil of status temporarily falling away for just a few hours at a time.Â
She had brought along three dresses to wear for the duration of the tourney; two of the dresses were quite plain, one made of brown wool and the other of blue linen for daytime wear, and one that was made of worn red silk, which she had eagerly packed with visions of dancing among a crowd. It wasnât fancy enough that it raised questions or drew too much attention, but just fine enough that with her silver curls loose around her waist and a satin belt of jingling bells tied around her hips, she felt it was enough to draw some potentially wanted attention.
Between the soft silk of her dress and the faint floral perfume left on her sun-bronzed flesh, she finally felt more presentable than when sheâd arrived at the encampmentâa thick layer of dirt and sweat from days of travelling washed away with a lengthy soak in the wooden tub left in her tent. She spent the night drinking ale and dancing and watching performances from travelling entertainers. She wondered how easy it might be for her to join one of these bands and disappear into a life of amusement and comradery, to never set foot in Kingâs Landing again and spend the rest of her days in the Free Cities, where no one cared where she came from or what colour her hair was.Â
The gold she carried was enough to keep her belly full of warm food and sweet desserts and an endless flow of fruity Dornish wine. The sun was low on the horizon when she entered a canvas tent styled as a tavern, her hips swaying at the beat of the salterello played by the band in the corner. Mind buzzing from the wine and sheer adrenaline, she quickly fell into step with the others in a simple but jovial dance.Â
She should have known better than to accept the inviting hand of another young woman to dance atop the table of a long dining tent, rocking her hips in sync with the music to create her own jingling rhythm. She could feel dozens of eyes on herâsheâs sure almost every woman was being watched just as intentlyâbut the man who caught her own gaze seemed to be the only one who didnât seem so sure he wanted it. He was watching her with the same enchanted gaze, but when her narrowed eyes met him, not breaking her movements for even a beat, his face burned a deep scarlet colour and he ducked back into the crowd.Â
The man was more than a head taller than the next tallest man at the tourney, towering over the others in his failed attempt to blend in. Her eyes never left his broad figure as she twirled and kicked and laughed aloud. Then, in the blink of an eye, her grin disappeared and the tall manâs eyes narrowed as her face twisted in confusion, then anger as a grimy hand tugged at her skirts and attempted to reach beneath them.Â
âUnhand me!â She hollered, tugging desperately to tear her skirts from the drunkardâs fists, âLet go!â
Suddenly, the man released his hold, sending her tumbling backwards and over the edge of the table, her slippered feet slipping out from beneath her as she landed against a firm figure, strong hands gripping her waist tightly to keep her from falling as she grunted from the impact. The hands carefully lowered her feet to the ground before removing themselves, but staying close in a protective stance.Â
âThe lady said to unhand her. What sort of knight are you to ignore a ladyâs plea?â A deep voice erupted from the chest of her saviour. She tilted her head back to glance up at the man behind her, pleased to find that it had been that giant of a man who had come to her rescue.Â
The drunken knight rolled his eyes defiantly, seemingly unwilling to try his luck against the big man opposite him, âHave her yourself then, oaf. Sheâs no more special than any other whore.â
She resisted the urge to lunge at the man as he disappeared into the crowd, but instead turned to face her saviour. She craned her neck to look up at him; sheâd never been considered to be a remarkably short girl, but the man made feel like the smallest woman who had ever lived.Â
âThank you, ser,â she heaved, eyes scanning his roughened features appreciatively.
âAre you alright, my lady?â He asked urgently, hovering his hands around me, gesturing to anywhere that may have been hurt from her tumble without actually touching her, âthat man had no right to touch you like that, he is no true knight.â
Her soft giggle caught him by surprise.Â
âI am no lady, ser,â she shook her head, âand youâd be a fool if you think youâd find a true knight still alive, let alone here at a tourney.â
He furrowed his brow in confusion, âthey may be hard to come by, but chivalrous knights do still exist, my ladâmiss.â
âAnd which of those knights are standing before me?â
His cheeks flushed a dark berry colour as her violet eyes flickered across his features. She looked at him expectantly, tilting her head to the side curiously.
âOh,â He grunted as he finally clued in to her question, âIâm Dunk. Ser Dunk.â
She raised a brow, âWellâŚDunk. Perhaps I could buy you a drink to show my gratitude.â
He jumped in surprise as she rested her hand on his arm gently, clearing his throat as he answered, âForgive me, I donât have any coin on me.â
She let out a small laugh, âI just told you I would buy it.â
âNot for the drink,â he blurted, âI only meanâŚI wouldnât want you to waste your time with me when you can find someone moreâŚgenerous.â
âI beg your pardon?â She hissed, eye widening, âyou forget yourself, ser. I am not a woman any man can buy.â
His body shrunk with shame as his face grimaced at his mistake, âForgive me, I only thoughtâŚthe way you were dancing, and the bells, and the way you were looking at me?â
âAnd how exactly was I looking at you, Ser Dunk?â She purred, any offense she may have felt melting away as she preened herself for working the large man to such a state of embarrassmentâthe red flush of his skin spreading to the tips of his ears and disappearing beneath the torn linen of his shirt as he stuttered in search of a response.
âMy ladyâI didnât meanââ He gulped nervously, âI didnâ mean any offense, miss. I only meanâŚâ
She let out a small laugh, squeezing his bicep in a dual attempt to comfort the man while also taking the moment to appreciate the bulging muscle beneath the tattered cloth, âI fear I have teased you too far, my knight. You would be mistaken to think you are the only man who was watching me dance. Tell me, do you think I am the only woman watching you?â
His brow raised in surprise, âI-I donât know, miss.â
âSo women watch you often, then?â
âNoâno! I only meantââ
âI cannot blame them,â she continued, âhave you had many women, ser?â
âHad?â He gasped, appearing both aghast and confused by her assessment of his character, âthis isââ
âI cannot imagine otherwise, a man of your stature. Where are you from, ser? The ladies of your house must swoon at your feet.â
The knight looked like he was ready to throw up, his pink lips pursed and brow lowered over his deep blue eyes in confusion. She couldnât quite tell whether he was totally aware of her flirting, or if he even liked it based on his bashful nature, but she couldnât find the strength to let up. Sheâd been attracted to him upon first glance, of course, but now that she had come to learn how easily flustered he was, she was determined to have him.Â
His blush deepened, only this time it seemed to be less from her teasing and more from embarrassment, âyouâre mistaken, miss. I serve no house, and most ladies do not even notice my presence. I protect the innocent, as any proper knight does.âÂ
âI think you underestimate yourself,â she whispered, âif they take no notice of you, perhaps they are blind.â
He scoffed, âIâm better at hiding than you may think.â
âYou cannot hide from me, ser,â his blue eyes met her violet ones, locked in her stare like she had bewitched him, âand I do not speak of your height. I have met many bad men in my life, so I am very certain when I am looking in the eyes of a good one.â
His eyes finally fell away from her gaze, drawing down the slope of her nose, the darkened flesh of her cheeksâfrom wine and dancing and his sheer proximityâthe column of her throat, and the mounds of her breasts that peeked out over the tight bodice of her dress. Her skin was coated in a thin layer of sweat, and the blazing torches around the tent caused a luminous glow across her copper skin. Her silver curls were a mess, but Dunk could not think of any word for her other than beautiful.
âYou donât know me,â He stammered, âI could be a murderer, a thief, a raperââ
âAre you?â She asked.
He paused for a moment, âwellâŚno.â
She smiled at him, plush lips stained from the deep purple coloured wine, âI know.â
A line of women bumped into him from behind, forcing him to step closer to her, hands falling to her waist to balance himself while her own palms settled against his chest. He stuttered out an apology, moving to step back as her fingers curled into the fabric of his shirt, not letting him go far. He stared down at her, his large figure tensing under her touch as if he was scared she might let go if he moved.Â
âI would like to repay my debt to you before this tournament is over,â she whispered to him, âyou may find me when you wish to collect.â
She released her hold on him, and as if sheâd been holding his lungs in her very hands, Dunk let out a deep breath. He nodded curtly, straightening himself as she stepped back, glancing at him once over her shoulder before disappearing into the crowd, but she knew it wouldnât be the last she saw of the hedge knight that evening; sheâd set her trap, it was only a matter of time before he unwittingly fell into it.Â
***
The hedge knight was different from any man she had ever met. She had not expected him to follow her through the crowd that very moment, but men typically remained close by after such interactions with her, waiting for her signal to approach. Instead, she was stumped to find that he had disappeared, leaving the tent entirely while she was distracted finding another cup of wine.Â
The silver haired woman was no stranger to the art of seduction, though she had grown accustomed to being the prey in this game of cat and mouse, toying with her partners until they finally pounced and took what they wanted. She was taken aback when Ser Dunk showed little interest in her games, but was determined to hunt him down.
In truth, she had never met a man like Dunk before. The men of the Kingsguard and the City Watch were the knights she entertained the most, finding them either so pompous and arrogant she couldnât even stomach the idea of a conversation with them afterwards, or she had to comfort them through the guilt of breaking their oath of chastity. Either way, she had always been able to pick out the ones who reciprocate her attraction and the ones who would willingly lay with her from those who were devout to their oaths and would deny her.Â
Dunk, however, was an oddball. He was attracted to her, that much she could tell, but he seemed hesitant to reciprocate her advances. She felt slighted, but if anything, it only spurred her on even further. Her belly burned with desire at the sight of the tall man, his broad figure sending her mind spiralling with thoughts of everything she wanted to do to him. Sheâd never been known to chase a man, but she could not deny that his sheer ignorance of her attempts at flirting only spurred her on further.Â
She stalked him from a distance throughout the camp, catching a glimpse of him following a much smaller man through the crowd and towards a tent that housed a rowdy crowd. She hesitated for a moment, catching a glimpse of the banners and statues around the tent of a deep onyx stag, decorated with thread of gold and a field of honey yellow. Sheâd met a Baratheon man before, knowing the bunch to be drunken lords who all seemed to think with the wrong head. She shook her head, deciding that the risk was well worth the reward if she were able to reign in the tall hedge knight.Â
She took a cup of wine from a servantâs tray, sipping it casually as she slid onto one of the benches of a long table. The silver haired woman pursed her lips as she took in the atmosphere of the tent; it was just as rowdy as the last, but had a more intimate feeling to it; they hadnât all gathered there just to drink, they gathered to eat, to celebrate. She hummed in satisfactionâthis was the exact feeling she had sought out in her travelling to Ashford to begin with.Â
Lyonel Baratheon was aâŚunique man. She had only witnessed a few others act so flamboyant, like a male bird flashing his colourful feathers to attract a mate. He never seemed to tire of attention, appearing before everyone that night at his high table wearing a crown of golden antlers, his voice cutting through the laughter and the music as he began rattling on about the history of tourneys and their significance to Westerosi culture, only to pause mid-thought.
âWhat the fuck was I going to say?â Lyonel muttered under his breath, glancing at the man sitting next to him. He continued to ramble on for another moment, then seemed to have bored himself enough to give up, tossing a cupful of coins into the crowd and gesturing for the musicians to return to their song.Â
She waited in silence from her corner of the tent, watching as Dunk ate and drank and finally was called up to speak with Lord Lyonel. Dunk seemed tense the entire time, Lyonelâs face shifting from stony to humorous every few moments before he stood, shedding his outer layers until he was left in his undershirt and forcing Dunk into the middle of the crowd. She watched in delight as they danced together, violent as it may have been, but a dance all the same.Â
Finally, she made herself known, appearing a few heads away from him in the crowd as Lyonel traded out partners. Dunk seemed blissful in the moment, arms raised over the othersâ heads as he bobbed back and forth on his feet, freezing as he turned and found his gaze locked on hers once more. She grinned knowingly at him as his face returned to that deep berry colour from earlier as she slithered through the crowd to stand before him.
âYou must be following me, Dunk,â she teased.
âFollowinâwhat? You must be mistaken, missââ
âI am only teasing,â she giggled, shifting closer as she continued to dance, âwe simply keep running into one another. It must be the will of the gods.â
He flushed again, clearly drunker than he had been earlier, âyou think so?â
âI see no other explanation,â she shrugged, âI think this means you must dance with me.â
She wasnât sure if it was the ale or his conversation with Lord Lyonel that had induced his sudden burst of confidence, but she did not complain as he fell easily into step with her, his large hands on her waist as he guided her through the motions. He stood straighter than before, like he was no longer afraid of his height, despite the fact that the woman before him couldnât be any less than two heads shorter than he.Â
A large grin was shared between them, glossy eyes meeting glossy eyes and never retreating as the dance continued, their bodies moving together in a fashion that was probably much slower than the other couples on the floor might have been. Her hands gripped his shoulders tightly and a squeal escaped from her lips as he hoisted her into a twirl, just as the couples around them had, only much higher. She patiently waited there for him to place her feet back on the ground, but he hesitated.
Dunk held her there for a moment, pressed tight against his chest with his hands flat to her back. For the very first time, they were face to face, breaths mingling in a beat of uncertainty, his eyes flickering to her lips for a moment before returning to her captivating stare. Her hands slid from his shoulders to around his neck, securing herself in place, smirking to herself as his expression shifted at her movement. He seemed to have fallen into a state of acceptance now, suddenly seeing through the fog of ignorance to recognize what danger was beneath her hooded gaze.Â
Her nose bumped against his suddenly, both sticky from sweat, âdo you think Iâm beautiful, ser?â
He gulped nervously, âyesâof course, miss.â
She mustâve looked a fool; dangling from the manâs arms helplessly, legs swaying from side to side limply beneath her while she grinned like a shadow cat before devouring its prey, but she paid it no mind. This was the game, and she was finally regaining control, and Dunk would be under her spell before he even knew what had happened.Â
A hand clapped Dunk on the shoulder, Lyonel Baratheon appearing at his side. Lyonel swayed on his feet, drunkenly giggling as he leaned his body against Dunkâs side.
âI leave you alone for one moment and you find yourself a beautiful woman,â Lyonel bellowed, âSer Duncan the Tall, slayer of maidens.â
She held her breath as Dunk lowered her to her feet, Lyonelâs eyes finally shifting to her with a flash of recognition as he took in her appearance. He grinned wickedly at her, glancing between her dishevelled appearance and the tall hedge knight at his side.Â
âMy, my,â Lyonel chuckled, âyou certainly have a refined taste, hedge knight. Now what could you have done to capture the attention of the elusive Lady Waters?â
She cringed at the name, rolling her eyes at him, âLord Lyonel. Forgive me, I did not think myself so memorable.â
âIt would be a dark day for me if I began forgetting the most beautiful women in the realm,â Lyonel winked at her.
Dunk glanced between the pair uncomfortably. He cleared his throat, âyou twoâŚknow each other?â
âYou could put it that way,â Lyonel shrugged with a laugh, âbeware, big man, once she sinks her claws into you, it is impossible to shake yourself free.â
âYou certainly think highly of me,â she sneered, narrowing her eyes at him.Â
âHow could I not,â he grinned, âI, myself, have been victim to your enchantments.â
She pursed her lips, âthat is no oneâs fault but your own. Now if youâll excuse us, Ser Duncan promised me another dance.â
Lyonel laughed, patting Dunk on the back in congratulations, âshe is all yours, hedge knight. Treat her well.â
Dunk shifted nervously as Lyonel disappeared, standing up straighter as she stepped impossibly closer, one hand reaching back to cup the back of his neck. She could feel the mixture of emotions rippling through the large manâconfusion, intrigue, frustration. All she could do now was pray that her charms would be enough to reel him back in. Ser Duncan had been a difficult fish to catch, slipping between her fingers at every wrong turn, but she was determined to tighten her hold.Â
âNow where were we?â She purred, leaning up on her tip toes.
âHow do you know Lord Lyonel?â He blurted.
She sighed in annoyance, rolling her eyes at the discomfort in his tone, âI met him at a tavern in Flea Bottom.â
âFlea Bottom,â he repeated, unconvinced. He placed his hands on her shoulders, carefully pushing her away from him, âthen why is it he called you lady when you told me not to.â
âIt is what they call me,â she said bitterly, scoffing as he pushed her back, âa nickname.â
She had not expected this. Ser Duncan seemed to have been taken by surpriseÂ
âIn Flea Bottom?â He asked, âforgive me, but I think youâve mistaken yourself, miss. Youâre beautiful, but I have no money to offer you.â
She jolted back, insulted, âI already told you I am not a whore. You think I would lie to trick you into sleeping with me?â
Dunk seemed to freeze at the sudden anger in her voice, the velvety tone turning frigid as she took a step back from him, âI mean no insult, miss, I only meantââ
âIf you do not wish to have me, then you could have just said so.â
âI do!â He cried out before he could stop himself, âI only thoughtâŚyou said you werenât, but then you followed me here, and you knew Ser Lyonel from Flea Bottom, and youâve been with himââ
âI have never slept with Lyonel Baratheon,â she hissed, âso thatâs what it is? You could not handle having someoneâs seconds?â
He gasped, âno, no, of course not! He just said that youâd âsunk your claws into him,â.â
âBecause he wanted to fuck me and I would not let him,â she sneered, âdo you believe everything rich men tell you?â
He gaped at her, unsure of how to answer.
âBlind faith will cost you your head, Ser Duncan,â she scowled at him, shifting away, âI thought you a kinder man, ser, different from these other men who are knights in name more than nature. I suppose I was wrong.â
She turned on her heel then, stalking through the crowd, feeling his gaze hot on her back as she disappeared amongst the growing mob of jovial attendees. Her scowl began to shift, curling into a smirk. Now all she had to do was wait.
***
Later that evening, Ser Duncan sat at Lyonel Baratheonâs head table, the crown of golden antlers seated atop his strawberry blonde locks as he slouched in his seat. Lyonel rattled on to him about anything and everything that came to mind; Duncan was not even fully understanding all of it, but he nodded along anyway.
His mind was elsewhere, on the young woman with the long silver curls and a gaze that cut right through him. Heâd never met a woman like her before, especially not one who was undeterred by the fact that he had no money to offer her. Heâd offended her with his brutish words, as he so often did when he was faced with a beautiful maiden, and he regretted the way he went about the altercation, but the mere idea of her inviting another man to her bed caused a simmering rage in his belly that he could not seem to put out. How was it that a woman heâd only just met had bewitched him so? It had to be the wine, he was sure of it, but even now as he was beginning to see through the fog of his intoxication, he could not stop thinking of it.
âHow do you know her?â Duncan interrupted Lyonelâs drunken ramblings, âthat woman, I mean. Lady Waters, you called her.â
 âMy Lady Waters, oh where do I begin?â Lyonel tipped his head back with a thunderous laugh, âI met her in Kingâs Landing, of course. The moment I laid eyes on her, I knew she was the most beautiful woman alive. Iâll never forget that night.â
Duncan scowled, âso youâŚand her?â
Lyonel smirked at him, âDonât give me that look, hedge knight, you, too, would lay down your life for a night with a woman like that. But alas, our night came to an early end when she threw wine in my face and called me a fool.â
âSo you havenâtâŚbeen with her?â Duncan asked carefully.
âOnly in my dreams,â the lord sighed wistfully, âbesides, it seems she is more interested in elevating herself beneath her station. Consider yourself a lucky man, Ser Duncan.â
Duncan felt a surge of pride through him, quickly followed by a flood of shame. Who was he to ask such questions about a lady, especially one he had only just met? Her life before that night was no oneâs business but her own. She was the first woman to show interest in himâgenuine interestâin a very long time, and heâd been too caught up in his own thick skull to seize the moment.Â
âLucky, perhaps,â Duncan shrugged, âbut far too stupid to know what to do with such a thing. Everything I touch turns to dirt.â
âWell, you certainly touched Lady Waters, and she is still just as much woman as she always has been.â
âWhy do you call her that?â the hedge knight asked, brows furrowing, âLady Waters, I mean. She didnât seem veryâŚreceptive to it.â
Lyonel snickered, reaching out to snatch his golden antlers from the taller manâs head, âThatâs enough for tonight, I think. Straighten up, hedge knight, you may make your amends with your lady love in the morn, and perhaps she may still let you have her before the tourney is over.â
Before Duncan could utter another word, the lord was leaping over the head table unceremoniously, disappearing into the crowd and leaving Ser Duncan to his thoughts.Â
***
The next morning, she did not rise from her bed until the sun was almost at its highest point in the sky. Her body was wracked with aches from dancing and drinking, and there were faint purple splotches along her sides where the tall hedgeknight had hoisted her into the air, his large hands digging into her side to keep her to his chest.Â
His touch was seared into her fleshâjust as the confusion in his eyes was seared into her foggy memory.Â
She had reevaluated her plan since last nightâsheâd surely succeeded in catching the hedge knightâs attention, but she decided that her approach may need to change; he seemed rather taken by her, but her forwardness was not as effective as she had hoped, causing him to take a step back from her. There was a moment where it seemed that he had completely submitted himself to her charm before the Laughing Storm disturbed their moment, but the hedge knight was deep in his cups by that point. She may have wanted him, but she would only have him knowing that he was not spurred on by alcohol-induced lust.Â
She set out to the market, belly rumbling as the mouth watering scent of fresh baked bread and smoked meat reached her. Bakers and butchers and farmers alike all gathered at the tourney grounds to sell their goods, offering only the finest of their product in hopes of catching the attention of wealthy knights and nobles. She suddenly found herself in the possession of minced pie, excitement licking at her heels at the smell wafting from the warm pastry. It cost more than she was necessarily hoping to pay for it, of course, but since the money had not come from her own pocket, she found herself feeling rather extravagant.Â
She felt a shock of excitement through her as her eyes caught on a familiar figure staggering from the gate leading into Ashford Castle, face drained of colour. She followed after him, finally creeping up behind him as he leaned against the outer castle wall.Â
âYou look like youâve seen a ghost, Ser Duncan,â she called out, stifling her smirk as she watched him flinch in surprise at her sudden cutting tone.Â
He turned to face her, lips parting as surprise crossed his features, âmy lady, Iââ
âI thought I told you not to call me that.â
He gulped, âRight, sorry, miss.â
She paused for a moment before letting out a breath, âI wanted to apologize, Ser Duncan. My behaviour last night was unbecoming, and I would have never behaved so loosely had I not overindulged in too much Dornish wine.â
He appeared surprised at her admission, almost like he wasnât sure that it wasnât a trap.Â
âNone of that, miss,â he said, his voice coming out lower and more gravelly than sheâd remembered, âIâI shouldnât haveââ
âCalled me a whore?â She interrupted with a soft smirk on her lips, âTwice.â
He looked offended, âI never called you aâŚâ
âNo, but you thought I was one,â she continued, âeven after I told you I wasnât. Either way, that is not as insulting to me as I may have let on. Another consequence of the wine, I suppose. Perhaps we could start over. Forget about last night,â she paused as her eyes scanned up and down his large figure, âIt would honour me to consider you a friend, Ser Duncan.â
He stared at her in utter disbelief. It was an expression she had grown accustomed to on the hedge knightâs features, but she found herself almost purring in delight at the idea of drawing him into such a stunned state that he couldnât even come up with a word to utter in response to her teasing. The colour began to return to his face then, a redness spawning in his cheeks and flooding across the bridge of his nose, over his jaw, and down the column of his throat.Â
âYesâof course,â he stepped forward then, letting out a heavy sigh, âI could use more friends around here, between you and I.â
âAnd what makes you say that?â I prompted, âBusy making enemies with Lyonel Baratheon, have you?â
He let out a snort, louder than heâd probably intended considering the deepening of the scarlet in his cheeks, âSer Lyonel is not someone I would consider an enemy, no. I thought we were leaving last night in the past?â
âYouâre right,â she smirked, âthen I no longer owe you a drink? You did save my life, after all.â
He grimaced, âyou owe me nothing. Iâm certain you couldâve handled it yourself, I justâŚâ
âYou justâŚâ
âItâs not right to grab at a woman that way. Even if you wereâŚyou know.â
She felt a tug at her heart. She had not taken Ser Duncan to be an aggressor by any means, nor did he seem to be the type of man to wreak havoc for the sake of wreaking havoc, but also hadnât set aside the idea that he was still a man, above all else. However, now as his words settled over her, she began to realize that Ser Duncan was unlike any man she had ever metâhe was content with his life as a hedge knight, entered a tourney simply as a means to survive rather than in search of glory, and his knighthood appeared to be the utmost important thing in his life, never flinching at the chance to make things right, even if it cost him his reputation.Â
âYouâre an interesting man, Ser Duncan,â she mused, âI would still like toââ
Her words stopped suddenly, catching in her throat as two men walked past. Her eyes narrowed at the sight of their shiny armour, and took a step back as she caught sight of the soft white cloaks blowing in the wind behind them as they patrolled the tourney grounds.Â
âWhat is it?â Duncan looked behind him, alarmed at the sudden concern on her features.
âNothingââ she composed herself, stepping aside to be nearer to the tall man, âI just, I am surprised to see the kingsguard here.â
Duncan furrowed his brow, but shrugged nonchalantly, âwhere princes go, their knights follow, I suppose.â
She grimaced, âI suppose youâre right about that. How many of them are there? And which princes did you see?â
âWell, I donât know all their names,â Duncan seemed embarrassed, âforgive me, miss. Itâs been a long time since Iâve been in Kingâs Landing, I havenât been able to keep up with whoââ
âDid you catch their names, Ser Duncan?â She demanded, hand gripping his forearm to capture his focus.Â
He looked at her curiously, âPrince Baelor and Prince Maekar. And another one, I didnât catch his name. He thought I was a stable boy.â
She let out a small curse, but covered it with a soft smile as she slid her hand up his forearm. She watched the confusion melt away from his features under her gentle touch as her fingers came to curl into his elbow. She smiled at his easy submission under her touch, tightening her grip around his firm arm as she tucked herself in next to him.
âCome, Ser Duncan,â she purred, leading him away from the castle walls, âlet me buy you that drink, then you may tell me more.â
***
Ser Duncan the Tall was a knight fuelled almost solely by his desire to do what heâd always known was rightâto protect the innocent and see that no wrongdoings are done under his watch. For years, he had considered himself to have grown somewhat of an immunity to the base desires of man. Heâd grown up in the streets of Flea Bottom, spending most of his youth stealing and trading for just enough coin to survive, and even life with Ser Arlan did not provide any sort of luxury. The only comforts heâs known in his life was the company of the older knight, whoâd taught him not to lust after things he could not earn with his own two hands and whatever wits he could gather.Â
Dealing with women was not something that Ser Duncan was very used to. Innkeepers and their wives and daughters, women calling out to him from their windows as he passed by on the street below, beggar women weeping at his feet when heâd tell them he had no coin to offerâthat was the extent of it, and even then, he made a conscious effort to keep his gaze to the ground and avoid further interaction with them than what would be considered polite. He was a man, after all, and his ideals of knighthood often brought on fantasies of a beautiful princess falling for a lowly knight, but he was smart enough to know that such things were just fantasies, and to never make attempts to woo his betters.Â
Even common women tended to make him nervous. It was rare for one to look at him with anything akin to lust or intrigue, and it was even more rare that he might exchange more than a handful of words with a woman, so he was often unsure of what sort of approach to take. Heâd experienced the cruelty of men himself, and often opted out of interacting with others when he could, but he understood that the way he fell victim to men was very different to the way that women often did, and did not want to impose that fear onto anyone.Â
It should not come as such a shock when he suddenly found himself bewitched by the first woman to spare him more than a single glance, but he had thought himself to have a stronger resolve than this. Most women saw him and turned the other way, fleeing before he could come near and spreading word about the half-giant who had tried to abduct them.Â
He hadnât expected to earn so much attention when he arrived in Ashford. Eyes tended to follow him due to his size, but heâd grown accustomed to shrinking away from attention, slouching to make himself appear less threatening, if not shorter all together. He had only hoped to take part in some of the festivities while he waited for Lord Dondarrion to make an appearance so that he might ask him to vouch for his knighthood and allow him participate in the tourney. He had only intended to make a stop in that tent for a moment, perhaps to have a pint of ale while he waited when his eyes had landed on the woman on the table.
Heâd been completely unable to look away, following her movements with his eyes as her long silver hair swayed loosely around her shoulders, the jingling of the bells around her hips drawing his gaze down. In that moment, even the simplest action of breathing seemed more difficult than he had ever remembered as he took in her curves through the tight bodice of her red gown, and his lungs stopped working altogether the moment that his gaze moved back up only to find himself meeting her own stare. Feeling caught, heâd tucked himself away into the crowd, but could not resist the temptation to step in as that man grabbed her so inappropriately. The mere thought of bringing harm to such beauty sent a surge of rage through him, and his feet were moving quicker than his brain could process and suddenly the beautiful woman was no longer on the table but instead in his arms.
She was more beautiful up close. Her eyes were a dark violet colour that he may have mistaken for blue if he hadnât been so close, and her silver curls smelled of fresh wildflowers. He wondered how sheâd made herself smell so nice and pretty when everyone else all smelled the sameâlike ale and shit.Â
It was the way she had looked at him that was the final nail in his coffin. He was completely taken by her when she stared up at him in surprise, then relief, then gratitude. For the first time, someone had looked at him like he was, well, a true knight, one who was capable of protecting those who needed it and strong enough to defend them. He was only glad the drunkard had not put up a fight, giving him a chance to speak to the lady without making a fool of himself so quickly.Â
And then she opened her mouth, silver tongue curling around his name as she repeated it back to him, tone slipping from playful and coy to teasing and sly. Just speaking to her for a moment gave him whiplash, and fear crept into his bones at the thought of what she might do to himâwhat he would let her do to him with little to no convincing on her part.Â
She looked different the next day. No less beautiful with her silver curls in simple braids away from her face, and the sultry red silk of her gown had been traded for a simple one of blue linen, modest and comfortable in the Southern heat. Her face did not glow as it had under candlelight, but instead beamed under the comfort of the warm sun. The way she composed herself, less bold, but still playful, perhaps even a touch shy, was inexplicably different from the night before, almost like it was an entirely different womanâthough her stare, it was unmistakable. It held the very same hunger as it had the night before, only now cloaked in something softer, easier for Dunk to stomach from a woman of such beauty. Either way, his stomach was in knots as he flushed under her gaze.
âHe vouched for you?â She scoffed, drinking from her own cup of ale, grimacing at the taste, âhow did you manage to convince him to do that?â
âI didnât,â Dunk shook his head. He was sitting sideways along the bench of the table theyâd taken in a bar tent, straddling the seat next to her as she faced ahead, âI just asked, and he remembered him. Imagine that, the only highborn knight to remember Ser Arlan is the future king.â
âDonât tell me youâre awestruck by him, Ser Duncan,â she rolled her eyes.
âItâs not every day I come to meet a Targaryen, let alone the heir to the throne.â
âI suppose not,â she pursed her lips, âthen I suppose Iâm sitting with a soon-to-be-champion. Tell me, Ser Duncan, who will you crown as Queen of Love and Beauty?â
He gulped nervously, âIâuhâŚI hadnât thought of it.â
âSo what other damsels have you defended in Ashford, ser?â She teased with a grin, âI had not realized you were such a busy man.â
There it was, that stinging heat through his veins, a reminder that the sultry woman heâd met the night before was still alive and well beneath her polite exterior. To anyone else, she was the picture of propriety, modestly dressed but still strikingly beautiful. Duncan was the isolated soul enduring it alone, struggling to fend off his innocence from a feral seductress.
âNo. No,â Duncan shook his head furiously, âI didnât meanâI havenâtâthereâs no other maidens, I swear it..â
She watched him carefully for a moment, violet gaze taking in his cautious demeanour. She wondered if it was his size that caused his ginger movements, if anyone had ever shamed him for taking up too much space when it was the space that the gods had willed him to take. The enjoyment she found in his flustered nature suddenly felt like ash on her tongue.
âI believe you,â she giggled, âtell me, how many tourneys have you attended before?â
Embarrassment flashed across his features for a moment, âThis is my first, miss.â
She froze. Some of the opponents he would face were among the most skilled swordsmen in the realm, and here Ser Duncan was trying his hand and risking everything but the clothes off his back and so far out of his league that even the gods couldnât help him.Â
âYou are as brave as you are tall, my hedge knight,â I sighed heavily, âdo you have a proper sword? And what of your armour?â
âSer Arlanâs longsword is a formidable weapon, and for armourâŚâ he defended as he sat up a bit straighter, suddenly feeling scrutinized under her intense stare, âI sold my palfrey for some thicker steel. Iâll make do with what Iâve got.â
âYour horse?â She scoffed, âyou mean to joust on foot? Is that the sort of fighting they teach you in the hedges?â
Ser Duncan looked at her like sheâd suddenly sprouted another head. Perhaps it is the air in the reach that has taken away the general ability for others to think before they speak. The woman before him, Lyonel Baratheon, Raymun Fossoway, that pesky little squire heâd somehow taken onâŚ
âI have other horses,â he expressed a huff of air at her bluntness, âwhy would IâŚâ
âYouâre a curious man, Ser Duncan,â she laughed at him, âwhy would you come to Ashford without the means to protect yourself? You seem to have a pattern of making surprising decisions.â
Dunk gaped at her. Heâd never seen someone be so innocently blunt in his life, peering up at him with inquisitive eyes, as if she hadnât been so blatantly interrogating him. She smiled at him expectantly, calmly waiting for him to explain himself.â
âAre you always soâŚâ
âHonest?â She suggested, âmy father tells me it is both my greatest strength and still my most deplorable weakness. Honourable, but dangerous. But he puts up with it because I got it from my mother.â
âShe sounds like a formidable woman then, your mother.â
The smile on her face faltered for a moment, then softened, âYes, she was. Or, at least Iâm told she was. She died when I was very young.â
âOh,â an embarrassed blush bloomed across his cheeks, âIâm sorryâI didnât knowâŚâ
âIt is alright, ser,â I said, âthe wound is not fresh, and I like to keep her alive through stories.â
He watched her for a moment, his soft blue eyes taking her features in the warm sunlight as she unfolded before him. Slowly but surely, she was beginning to seem less and less like the confident woman from the night before, only then for her to make a reappearance.Â
âYou could tell me about her,â Dunk said carefully, âerâif youâd like, that is.â
âI donât remember her, really,â she sighed, âI wish I could, but all I have are flickering memoriesâjust a glimpse of her before itâs all darkness again. My father tells me she was smarter than any woman heâd ever met; thatâs what caught his attention. He said she made him laugh, and that she was deeply beautiful.â
âOne can only imagine,â Dunk let out, the admission slipping past his lips before he could even think to stop himself, âI only mean, if she looked anything like you, that is.â
She let out a giggle, âyou think I am beautiful, ser?â
He gaped at her for a moment, visibly swallowing nervously, âI mean no offence, miss.â
âNone taken,â she assured him, placing her hand over his on the table, âI was hoping you might.â
A small smile appeared on his lips, a mixture of desire and disbelief flickered across his strong features at her words, like heâd only just picked up on the attempts sheâd been making to flirt with him. They stared at each other for a moment, then they both began to laugh at the silent understanding they had seemed to come to.Â
âI suppose I should not keep a knight occupied all day,â she sighed, moving to stand from the bench they shared. The sun was much lower in the sky now, a deep orange colour licking at the horizonâthe tourneyâs opening joust would begin soon, and she had no desire to make herself present for it. Duncan scrambled to his feet after her, towering over her figure with a newfound confidence, âperhaps we might dance again soon, Ser Duncan.â
âWill I see you at the joust?â He asked, a hopeful look on his features.Â
âWill you be riding today, Ser Duncan?â She asked with a knowing smirk.
âEr, no. Not today.â
âThen you will not see me there. I have no desire to see such brutality until I have some investment in it.â
âYou have investment, then?â He asked, shifting his weight nervously, âin me?â
She stepped closer, just narrowly avoiding crossing the line of impropriety as she lowered her voice, âThere is no one else deserving of my favour, my knight.â
***
The first joust of the following afternoon had ended in a needless display of brutality and cruelty, she had heard from a bakerâs wife when the crowd came rushing back from the arena. Prince Aerion had entered the lists, and shamelessly slaughtered his opponentâs horse with his lance in a grand show of poor sportsmanship and embarrassment to the names of his house and ancestors.Â
This came as no surprise to herâPrince Aerion was known for his sadistic barbarism, thinking himself above any others and eager to restore the house of the dragon to its former glory. The people of Kingâs Landing mock the prince in taverns and brothels so long as he was nowhere to be seen, but most found themselves rather tight-lipped when he decided to step down from the palace to find his pleasures with any woman he could find. The atmosphere seemed tenser in th, a simmering rage burning amongst the common folk at the blatant disregard of rules, honour, and humanity. The night air caused goosebumps to ripple across her flesh as she stepped out of her tent, once again adorned in the same red gown from the night before.Â
The crowd was ablaze that evening, glaringly different to the energy of the night before. She felt a sense of unease nipping at her stomach as she cut through flocks of angry and drunk commonfolk. A sense of relief washed through her as her eyes easily caught sight of Ser Duncanâs imposing figure in the crowd. His eyes fell on her over the crowd as she called out to him, his eyes lighting up as she maneuvered through the crowd to him. His young squire brushed past me as I approached, rushing off towards a busy tent behind me as Ser Duncan remained with another man.Â
âI was wondering if you were avoiding me, Ser Duncan,â she said as she joined him.
He flushed, âI couldnâtâI wouldnât, miss.â
âI believe you, my hedge knightâ she brushed her fingertips over his forearm lightly, her eyes turning to the shorter man next to Dunk. She introduced herself, offering him her spare hand in polite greeting, clearing her throat as he stared at her in disbelief.Â
âRaymun Fossoway,â Dunk nudged the smaller man firmly, prodding him out of his daze, âhe is Ser Steffon Fossowayâs squire.â
âPleasure,â she smiled tightly at Raymun as she slowly withdrew her hand from his, âSer Duncan has promised to take me dancing tonight, Raymun, if you might care to join us.â
Duncan stared down at her, his blue eyes stared down at her in both surprise and awe as her hand slipped into the crease of his elbow.Â
âApologies, mâlady,â Raymun stammered, âI didnât know Ser Duncan was occupied for the evening.â
âAll is well, Raymun,â she giggled, âI do not mean to steal him away altogether, perhaps you might join us for a drink?â
The two men shared a look, uncertainty and urgency in their gazes as she patiently awaited a response. She silently basked in the attention they both seemed to offer her, finding far too much enjoyment in their shared nervousness in her presence.Â
Raymun cleared his throat as she raised a brow at him, âvery well. I was just offering Ser Duncan a pint of my familyâs cider. We Fossoways, you see, harvest the finest orchards in the Seven Kingdoms, miss.â
She nodded thoughtfully, âYes, Iâve heard stories of how sweet the cider from the cellars of Cider Hall was, though Iâve never been fortunate enough to taste it.â
Raymun flushed, âWell, I hope not to disappoint the lady. This way.â
She gave Dunkâs arm a gentle squeeze as she tugged him along through the crowd, following behind Raymun to an empty tent decorated in reds and yellows and expensive wood, apples decorating almost every inch of the place as she settled onto the stool that Raymun gingerly pulled up for her.Â
âSer Duncan did not tell me he had a companion,â Raymun sent a wide smirk to the taller man, certainly less subtle than he was likely hoping, âespecially not one as elegant as you, my lady.â
She sputtered out a laugh as he handed her a large cup of cider, âFor one, I am no elegant lady, so better call me my name instead of filling my head with false titles. Secondly,â her gaze flickered to Ser Duncan next to her for a moment, âI do not believe Ser Duncan has a woman. Not yet anyway.â
Dunk choked on his own cider, pounding at his chest hurriedly to force his throat to clear. She smiled up at him innocently, reaching up to touch his back comfortingly as he came to stand next to her stool.Â
âHow long have you squired for your cousin, Raymun?â She asked, turning her attention away from the hedge knight entirely as he finally overcame his coughing fit.Â
Raymun glanced between them, clearly entertained by how easily flustered Ser Duncan was proving himself to be, âalmost two years, miss. Hopefully not much longer, if I have it my way.â
âOh, so you see big plans ahead of you then?â
âWell, one can only hope,â Raymun sighed, âbut I cannot stand to keep the position much longer. It serves for now, but Steffon is a miserable man with little honour. I pity anyone who he challenges, he fights like a dog and doesnât abide well by the rules. Have you chosen an opponent yet, ser?â
Duncanâs brow raised as their attention was now back on him, âUh, Iâm not sure. Who does your cousin mean to challenge?â
Raymun let out a small laugh, âIf anyoneâs wounded on the morrow, Iâm sure Steffon will be quick to knock on his shield.â
âYour cousin seems to beâŚâ she hesitated as she struggled to come up with kinder words to offer.
âHeâs about as chivalrous as a starved weasel,â Raymun finished for her.Â
Duncan took the seat next to her, shifting nervously as he placed his own stool a respectable distance from hers. She looked at him questioningly before she scooted just a tiny bit closer, a subtle advance in comparison to her past attempts to woo him. He only hoped that his morning dip in the river was sufficient enough to prevent any terrible odor that he may have gathered throughout the day, especially as her soft, herby and floral perfume reached his nose like she, herself, was made of petals and sunshine. She smiled at him gently, her silver hair glimmering in the warm candlelight of the tent. His blue eyes traced her pretty features, the arch of her nose, the soft pout of her lips, the column of her throat leading down to the bulge of her breasts as they led into her tight bodice⌠If only Raymun wasnât there and Dunk had a bit more ale in him, heâs not sure that he could stop himself fromâ
âHave you any prospects in mind, at least?â Raymun interrupted his thoughts as if he knew of their impropriety and wanted to cut them off before they could go any further.
Dunk cleared his throat and shifted in his seat, âI suppose Ser Androw and I are quite evenly matched.â
âA local favourite,â Raymun commented, âyou mean to play the villain?â
âI cannot even imagine you as a villain,â the young woman laughed, âyouâre far too kind hearted for it. Besides, Ser Androw is a big man, sure, but you are larger by a long shot. And he is sloppy in hand-to-hand, so as long as you can manage to remain seated for a few lances until you can get in on foot, I believe you would be the victor, Ser Duncan.â
They both stared at her in surprise. Most women present had little interest in the joust itself, let alone had enough knowledge of the knights in the lists to know his strengths and weaknesses.Â
âI saw him at Prince Valaarâs name day tourney in Kingâs Landing last year,â she explained. âHe was a strong competitor against Prince Aerion. It was the Princeâs first joust, of course, but a princeâs training would prove more effective than a common knight.â
Raymun scoffed at the mention of the prince, âI heard Aerion was in a spittinâ rage at Lord Ashford for givinâ away his horse.â
Duncan raised his brow, âLittle comfort that will be to Ser Humphrey. It looked like he was going to carry the day.â
âNow his legâs shattered like a baking dish.â
âWas it truly that bad?â The silver haired girl asked, âIâve heard around about it, but the masses take any chance to spit on a noble name, donât they?â
âWorse than youâve heard, I reckon,â Raymun asked, âslaughtered the poor beast, speared it right through the throat.â
She grimaced at the thought, taking a slow sip of her cider in an attempt to reign in the venomous thoughts that danced on her tongue. This came as little surprise to herâPrince Aerion spread his cruelty wherever he could, taking full advantage of his title as he escaped almost all consequences of his actions. Kingâs Landing was only safe from him when his father dragged him off to Summerhall.
âMy squire thinks Aerion meant to kill the horse,â Ser Duncan chuckled, watching as the other two shared an uncomfortable, knowing glance, âitâs just hard to accept that a knight might be so dishonourable, let alone a prince.â
âWhyâs that hard?â She asked, âsome of the worst men Iâve known have beenâŚâ she paused for a moment, âtheyâve been meant to be the most honourable of all men. Men who have no fear of consequences have no reason to have honour.â
âI know, but Iââ
âTheyâre incestuous aliens, Duncan!â Raymun hissed, âblood magickers and tyrants whoâve burned our lands, enslaved our peopleâŚdragged us into their wars without a mote of respect for our history or our customs. Every pale haired brat they saddled on us has been madder than the last, gods know how.â
She sat back uncomfortably as he continued his venomous rant, âthe only honourable thing a Targaryen can do for this realm is finish on his wifeâs tits. So aye, I think he meant to kill the fucking horse.â
Duncan leaned forward, noticing the young womanâs discomfort, his expression hardening at Raymun in a silent demand for him to stop. The dark haired man finally paused, his eyes shifting from the hulkish hedge knight to the woman next to him, his eyes shifting between her silver curls and pale violet eyes.
âI only meantâŚâ he flushed in embarrassment, âI meant no disrespect, miss. I did notââ
âItâs alright, Raymun,â she offered him a comforting smile, âfear not, I am no Targaryen, nor do I feel overly enthused about my heritage.â
âStillâŚâ he shook his head, âI should not haveâa lady should never be exposed to that sort of language. It was unseemly of me.â
âThat is hardly the worst thing Iâve heard in my lifetime, Raymun. It is already forgotten.â
âEither way. IâŚI got a bit carried away there. I heard that part about the tits from Steffon.â
Both men watched her carefully for a moment, waiting to see whether or not she was about to snap at him for insulting her ancestryâwhether she considered herself to be part Targaryen or not. Instead, she let out a small giggle, which then grew into loud laughter at his confession. The other two followed in suit, chuckling along with her in relief as the moment passed.
It was quiet for a moment before a deep belch released from Raymunâs gut. He cleared his throat, leaning back against the table for a beat before pushing himself up. He swayed on his feet, clearly having indulged in some cider before he had invited Ser Duncan and the young woman and the young woman to join him. He excused himself for a moment, disappearing through the tent flap drunkenly and leaving the pair alone in the tent.
Ser Duncan sat nervously in his seat as she turned her attention wholly to him, running his clammy palms over his fabric-covered thighs anxiously, âYou look nice. Your dress, I meanâand you, of course. Theyâre both niceâŚyouâreâŚâ
She chuckled, scooting closer to him, âYou neednât be so nervous around me, Ser Duncan, but thank you. The dress was my motherâs. My father says it was her prized possession when they metâheâd probably lock me away for a month if he caught me wearing it here. Heâs lucky Iâm wearing anything at all.â
Duncan flushed at that, his mind whirling with the unstoppable images of her figure under the same flickering candlelight, only she was completely undressed before him. He shifted back, his hands coming to rest in his lap in a subtle attempt to conceal any physical reaction to the thought.Â
âHard man, then, your father?â He asked weakly, eager to change the subject.
She hummed, âGods no. Stern, more like, honour and righteousness run deep in his bones. He does what is right, always, even when it may not feel right. He is good like that, but he oftentimes wants to control everyone and everything in his path, and I think he loathes me sometimes because I am not so easily controlled.â
âA good man then,â he nodded, âperhaps not always a good father. Most men are at fault for that, I suppose.â
âHe is a good father,â she corrected, âbut sometimes he does not understand that what comes so easily to him does not come as easily for me. He and my brothers like to think they understand when they make certain demands and decisions for me, but I cannot expect them to know how my experiences differ from theirs so much.â
âAye,â he nodded, âI believe it. Of courseâI cannot know either, I suppose, but I only meantââ
âI imagine youâve met your fair share of men who think they know better than you too, ser,â she reached out, taking his hand in her own as she spoke, âI cannot explain it to you, but I cannot help but feel safe with you, like you accept me better than most, even when you do not fully understand what you are accepting of.â
His eyes lingered on their joined hands, his fingers lacing through hers carefully, leaving her the chance to pull away before he finally tightened his grip on her.
âYou sell yourself short,â he said, âperhaps you simply havenât been shown the respect you deserve. Men can be cruel, I know it, but I would rather burn alive than be known as that.â
She let out a soft giggle, leaning closer, âI think you may be the kindest, most honourable man I have ever met, Ser Duncan the Tall.â
He flushed as her face came closer to his, freezing as her soft breath ghosted across his lips teasingly.Â
âYou think too highly of me,â he breathed, âIâm but a hedge knight. There are men of higher standing and purpose than I who would do all of the same.â
âI have met many men of higher standing than you, and none even hold a spark to your flame,â she said, squeezing his large hand in her own, lifting it to press a soft kiss against the hardened skin of his knuckles, âand I think you have a greater purpose than them all, too. Greater than you know.â
His blue eyes, holding her deep stare unwaveringly, finally glanced down to her lips for a moment. She grinned at him, tilting her head back slightly, almost as if she were daring him to make the first move. He licked his lips, gulping nervously as he began to lean in, their lips just barely grazing one another when the tent flap swung open.
âSer Duncan!â A small boy stumbled into the tent unceremoniously, Raymun tumbling in behind him.Â
The boy was slim, dressed in ragged clothing and hair shaved down to the scalp. Her eyes narrowed at the boy, trying to catch a better glimpse of his face as he shouted for the hedge knight wildly.Â
âYou have to come! Aerionâs hurting her!â He continued, hardly waiting another moment before turning and disappearing again.
âEgg!â Dunk called after the boy, âWait! Hurting whoâdamned boy!â
âEgg?â She said aloud, racing after Ser Duncan as he chased his squire down through the crowds and towards a tent near the centre of the camp, a loud ruckus coming from within.Â
Her mind raced as she followed close behind, struggling to the front of the crowd, where Prince Aerion stood on stage with several dismantled puppets scattered beneath his feet. The two white cloaks that had accompanied him were busy fighting back the puppeteers while Aerion forced a young woman to her knees centre stage, gripping her wrist tightly as he bent her fingers back so harshly that they snapped.
Her screams pierced the air like a dragon taking its first breath, and Aerion seemed to revel in the sound. She fisted Ser Duncanâs tunic in her fist tightly as she finally caught up to him, recognizing the flickering rage in his eyes at the sight of yet another dishonourable display from the prince.
âNo, no!â She shouted as he slipped out of her grasp, rushing forward as he grabbed Aerion with one large hand, his other fist driving into the princeâs face with the strength of ten men before throwing him to the floor.Â
She watched in horror as Aerion pulled a blade from his belt, only for Duncan to send him to the floor again with a hard kick to his chest as Aerionâs guards restrained his arms. He struggled in their arms, two men hardly able to hold him back as Aerion stood up, blood dripping from his lip. The prince narrowed his eyes at the hedge knight, observing his large figure and threadbare clothing with disinterest.Â
âWhy did you throw your life away for this whore?â Aerion asked, âsheâd scarcely worth it. Sheâs a traitor. The dragon ought never lose.â His face was now dangerously close to Duncanâs as he seethed with rage, ânothing more to say?â He stepped back with a smug expression on his face, sharp features smudged with dirt and blood from Ser Duncanâs attack. âYouâve loosened one of my teeth, so weâll start by breaking out all of yours.â
âNo!â The silver haired woman shrieked, hurling herself towards Aerion from her place among the crowd as her hands shoved at his chest aggressively.Â
Aerion caught her with ease, one hand coming to clutch at her throat while the other gripped the hair at the back of her neck. His eyes widened as he took in her expression, his hand tightening around her throat as a choked rasp escaped her. He smirked as a deep roar escaped Ser Duncan as the woman let out small whines of pain as he continued to squeeze and pull her hair.Â
âNow thisâŚthis may be a whore worth something.â He mused, turning back to the hedge knight, whoâd been forced down to his knees by the guards, âyou must not be a very good one if youâre stuck with the likes of him.â
With the little strength she could muster, she spat a wad of saliva against his face the moment he turned back to her. His face twisted in anger, his hand releasing her hair but still tightening even further around her throat as he forced her forward, nodding to the guards to get the hedge knight in position.
âLetâs see how much you like him when he has no teeth, eh?â His lips brushed against her earlobe as he held her back pressed flush to his chest, lowering his voice amidst the chaos as he continued, âyouâre not supposed to be here.â
She reared against him, her hands clawing at his where they clutched her neck desperately as he tightened his grasp. His hands were certain to leave a bruise, at the very least, though she wasnât even certain that heâd relent his grip in time for her to live. Her vision was growing fuzzy, her strength slipping away as she watched the guards force Duncan down, his teeth biting against the edge of the stage. Her knees were weak, only held up by Aerionâs hold on her neck, losing hope of saving herself, let alone Ser Duncan.
Suddenly, Aerion released her, letting her body fall to the floor before him as he whipped around. She coughed loudly, her hands cradling the swollen flesh of her neck as her attention swiftly turned to Ser Duncan, crawling towards him weakly as the guards stepped back from him.Â
âDuâŚDunk,â she rasped, letting out a sigh of relief as he turned to her, gathering her into her arms and cupping her face in one of his large hands, eyes scanning her features desperately as she settled against him weakly.Â
Then, his eyes moved to the figure standing atop a table amidst the crowd.
âNo, you stupid boy!â He shouted at his squire, âtheyâll hurt you!â
âNo they wonât,â the boy assured him, âif they do, theyâll answer to my father.â
Aerion scowled at the boy in disbelief, âyou impudent little rat. Whatâs happened to your hair?â
Her eyes narrowed as she struggled to focus, then it all dawned on her. Egg, Dunkâs squire, the small bald boy heâd taken in and always seemed to disappear when she was nearâŚhow had she not noticed it? The boy on the table, the one who had been sleeping beneath an elm tree on a river bank with a hedge knight who was risking everything he owned just to participate in the tourneyâŚhe was no orphan boy, after all, he was Prince Aegon Targaryen, son of Prince Maekar and brother to Aerion.
âI cut it off, brother. I didnât want to look like you.â
***
Prince Baelor was not the type of man you wanted to disappoint. He was a stern man, demanding respect from anyone, and powerful enough to bring swift consequences to those who refused. His wordless stare cuts straight to the bone, dissecting your every thought, action, and emotion before you can even utter a word to him. It was never a good idea to go against his wishes or to challenge his authority. He was a good man, just and compassionate, but was a stickler for rules and demanded propriety, so when she was dragged before him by Aerion, the young princeâs fingertips leaving bruises on her bicep from his grip.
âWhat is the meaning of this?â Baelor questioned, stalking towards the pair as they entered the council chambers of Ashford castle.
âLook who I found among the lowborn,â Aerion practically sang as he shoved the girl toward his uncle, âthey are so depraved they turned her into a wild beast, she attacked me.â
Baelor stopped just an arm's length from the girl, one finger coming to tip her chin up so he could inspect her for injuries, his eyes narrowing in on the red swelling of her neck.Â
âHow did this happen? How did you come here?â Baelor demanded.Â
âAsk Aerion,â she said, her voice raspy from the irritation.Â
Baelor turned to Aerion with a raised brow. The younger prince shouted in protest.
âShe attacked me!â He argued, âShe had a blade!â
âYou liar!â She sneered at him, âI was unarmed!â
âQuiet, both of you!â Baelor commanded, his tone short and authoritative as he snapped his gaze between the pair, âyou both sound like poorly behaved children. Aerion, off to bed. Iâll deal with you later.â
The young prince sent her a sadistic grin as he shoved past her and down the corridor, leaving her alone with the Crown Prince in the council chamber. His dual-coloured stare was hard, never wavering from her bashful expression as she stood before him.
âYouâre meant to be in Kingâs Landing.â
âI know,â she mumbled in response.
âSo why is it youâre standing here before me, in Ashford?â
âI justâŚI wanted to attend the tourney,â she offered weakly.
âYou hate tourneys. Youâve always hated tourneys.â
She shrugged, straightening her spine as she finally met his gaze, âI donât understand why it matters, or why Iâm the one being questioned. If it werenât for Aerionâs tantrum, you probably would have never known I left the capitol until you returned.â
Baelor raised his brow at her, âIt matters because I will not have my daughter mingling among commoners without any protection. What would happen if someone recognized you?â
She rolled her eyes defiantly, âYou forget that I am a commoner, father. Besides, I am hardly the only silver haired girl in the crowd.â
âYouâre different from them.â
âIâm not,â she insisted, âIâm different from you, no matter how hard you try to mold me into something else.â
His expression softened, âI do not wish to mold you into anything aside from a successful young lady. I want you to live a comfortable life, a good one, and yet you seem to think I am cruel for it.â
âYou demand that people accept me, but you cannot make them, father,â she sighed, turning away from him to stand before the fireplace, eyes staring into the blazing hearth, âI may be your daughter, but I will forever be your bastard daughter. I do not serve any political office, I do not stand with the royal family, I do not receive attention or protection from others. I live under the restrictions of a princess, yet I do not reap the same benefits.â
Baelor stared at her for a moment, his face twisted in deep thought, âYouâŚyou may still find an advantageous marriage, hold titles and lands.â
âThe offer of my hand is an insult,â she murmured, âonly the most desperate baron would accept. Punish me if you wish, but I will not apologise for seeking community in a place where no one cares who I am or where I come from.â
Baelor hesitated for a moment, mulling over her words as he rested his hands flat against the tabletop, âand what of this hedge knight? He understands who you are and where you come from?â
She scoffed, âhe did nothing wrong. He was protecting an innocent, thatâs all.â
âThat is not what I asked,â Baelor said, âwhy were you with him?â
âIt is not what you think,â she muttered, âthere was no impropriety, we were simply sharing a drink when Aegon found us.â
âAnd what were your intentions with this man?âÂ
âFatherââ
âDo not play me a fool, daughter,â he drawled, âyou wear your motherâs dress. Iâve only caught you wearing it once before and it wasâ
âI simply wanted to wear it!â She protested, âIâŚthis is unproductive! Aerion is a madman and Ser Duncan was the only one with enough courage toââ
âYou care for him,â Baelor interrupted her, âthisâŚSer Duncan, he laid hands on the blood of the dragon. That in itself is a form of treason. Tell me you are not being guided by senseless whims.â
She hesitated, glancing over her shoulder at her father as her lip began to tremble, a fresh wave of emotions washing over her. She let out a small, choked whine as tears welled along her waterline. Baelor clicked his tongue at the sound, pushing himself away from the table to stalk over to her. Her cheeks were warm under his touch as he cupped her face in his palms, turning her face up to meet his gaze.
âTell me, girl,â he insisted, âtell me heâs an honourable man who deserves a chance, and not simply a vision of chivalry that youâve conjured up.â
âHe is the finest man I have ever met,â she whispered, âthe first time we met, he was protecting me from a man who would have forced himself on me, and he has never made himself to be any sort of aggressor. Heâs been kind to me, and to Egg, and to everyone else heâs ever come across. He comes from nothing, he has nothingâŚand he does not desire more.â
âAnd he loves you?â Baelor asked.
She pursed her lips, face heating at the question, âIâŚI cannot say loveâŚbut something akin to it, I think.â
Baelor sighed, stepping away from his daughter. He rested his hands on his hips as he took in her appearance; red dress torn at the shoulder, silver curls dishevelled and falling around her shoulders, cheeks bright with tear tracks.Â
âYou look so much like your mother.â
She let out a scoff of a laugh, turning away from him again, âyou say that like it is a curse.â
âIt is,â Baelor said, âit is my curse. For not protecting her enough, I think.â
She shook her head, âshe died of childbed fever. If one of us is at fault, it is not you.â
âI do not only mean in the end. She underwent her own arrangement of issues as my mistress, and for that I cannot express my sorrow enough. I should have stopped it, carried the burden for her. Just as I should have for you.â
She shook her head, sniffling into her sleeve, ânone of that. Will you help him?â
âIâll speak with him at dawn,â the Crown Prince said, âthere will be a trial, and Maekar will demand justice not only for Aerionâs pride, but his own and that of our house. I will advise him, but Iâm afraid it may be out of my hands.â
She nodded slowly, hands clutching at her own face in distraught. Her head throbbed under the weight of the situation, sending a tingling sensation down her spine and through her limbs until she felt completely numb. She knew that she would not survive it if Ser Duncan was put to death for this, or even harmed in punishment. She, herself, would be put on trial for carving Aerionâs wicked heart from his chest with his own blade, and the idea delighted her.
âI should not tell you this, but I fear you will find it out regardless of my intervention,â Baelor continued, âMaekar has returned from his search for Daeron and Aegon. He found Daeron in an inn, drunk and insistent that a man the size of a bear made off with Aegon while he was inebriated. Ser Duncan has been identified as this man.â
âDaeron is a liar!â She wailed, âthis is preposterous! Ser Duncan left that inn days ago. I was with him on his first evening in Ashford Meadow, and I'll attest to it in trial if I must.â
âNone of that matters now,â he shook his head, âthe words of two princes will not be put to rest so easily by those of a hedge knight and aââ
Her breath caught in her throat as he caught himself before the word slipped from his lips. His eyes closed in defeat, losing a life-long battle between the pair with the slip of a tongue.
âA bastard,â she finished for him, âit is not lost on me that you always said my motherâs heritage meant nothing so long as you accepted me until it served you otherwise.â
Baelor lowered his head in shame, shaking his head slowly, âyou know I do not see it that way, and I will protect you from such treatment I can.â
âYou cannot protect me from this treatment,â she whispered, âthey will never let me forget my place.â
Baelor was silent, observing with a thoughtful stare. He was the Crown Prince, next in line for the Iron Throne, the second most powerful man in the realmâŚand yet he could not even protect his daughter from public scrutiny.Â
âI will do what I can to help your hedge knight,â he said cautiously, âthough, Iâm certain Maekar will not let this slide without punishment. I will advise him, but Iâm afraid that is all I can do.â
She sniffled, nodding her head slowly as she stepped back.
âAm I confined here?â She asked.
Baelorâs shoulders lowered in defeat, âYou are not trapped, but you must understand that I cannot allow you toââ
âCan I see him, at least?â She scowled, crossing her arms over her chest, âif I must be locked away in this castle, at least grant me this kindness.â
Baelor sighed. His daughter was hardheaded and wise beyond her years, just as he was, but her courage? That had to have come from her mother. Sometimes it pained him to even look at herâa young woman trapped in this life because of his birthright, the one thing in the world that he could not change for all of his might. He was a stern man, even with his own kin, but there were certain privileges that he found himself unable to deny her of when he was able to.
âVery well.â
***
She should have expected that her father would only allow her to enter the dark dungeons beneath Ashford Castle if she changed out of her sultry red gown and was flanked by guards. Her new dress felt stiff, and stretched uncomfortably around her middle. It had belonged to Lord Ashfordâs lady wife, one that she did not seem to care very much for considering that it was forfeited to Prince Baelorâs bastard.Â
The guards offered her no words of comfort as they forced the door open, stepping aside to let her in.
âTen minutes,â one of them grunted, âand no tryinâ to get him out, weâll hear it if you do.â
She nodded stiffly, eyes shifting into the dimly lit cell as she finally stepped inside.Â
Ser Duncan was pacing the length of the far wall when the heavy door opened, his large figure taking a step back until he was pressed against the grimy wall of his cell. His brow dropped in disbelief when she stepped inside, but a wave of relief washed over him at the sight of a familiar face. His lips parted as a sound of confusion was ready on the tip of his tongue, but there was little time to let it slip before his arms were rushing to catch her around the waist as she lunged for him.
Her face found the crook of his neck, burying as deep into his flesh as she could as a few tears began to leak from beneath her eyelashes. His flesh grew hotter beneath her own at the sensation of her tears pooling against his collar as meek apologies were muffled into the fabric of his tunic.Â
He forced her back by the shoulders, his eyes narrowing in on her face, then over her entire figure to check over her for signs of harm. In the dim torchlight, his eyes took note of the new dress, the grime of the night washed from her skin, and her loose curls now tucked away in a neat, intricate braid. His eyes narrowed in on the faint bruise forming on her throat, anger tearing through him knowing that those marks were left by Aerion.
âWhat are youâhow are you here?â He stammered.
She ignored him, hiccuping through her sobs, âare you alright? What have they done to you?â
âIâm alright, butââ
âAerion is a wicked boy, a weak, pathetic excuse for a man. He calls himself a knight, but he does not have an ounce of honour in his bloodâlet alone the dragon blood he thinks himself to have,â she hissed, turning away from him to pace the length of the cell, âhe has done things like this for far too long, always relying on his father to come to his aid. It seems a curse that the only Targaryen prince to ever care for his children is the one who seems to spawn petulant beastsââ
Dunk called out her name, his voice hoarse and laced with desperation. His eyes were hooded, watching her tiredly as she turned back to face him. Realization dawned across her features; she had limited time to speak with him, and she was wasting it with her ramblingânot to mention that she was so fuelled by her own emotional outburst that she had completely overlooked how he must be feeling in this situation. She was a bystander, and no matter how angry or saddened she was, it was Duncan whose life was ultimately on the line for protecting an innocent girl from a terrible, evil man.
âIâm sorry,â she said, stepping nearer to him again and taking his large hand in her own, âhow are you feeling?â
He closed his eyes at the contact, his fingers curling around hers appreciatively as a deep sigh rumbled through his chest. He guided her to sit, offering her the single low stool that had decorated the cell while he lowered himself onto the dirty floor; even with the difference in height, Duncan was so tall that they were still at eye level.Â
âI donât know what to think,â he confessed, âtheyâre going to kill me. Theyâll have my head.â
âThey wonât,â she insisted, âthey canât. You did nothing wrong.â
âI know,â he sighed, âbut what I didâŚif it had been any other manâŚanyone.â
She let out a soft sigh, an admittance. She knew this just as much as he had; it could have been a highborn noble or a common butcher and he may have escaped with a slap on the wrist, but a prince of the realm? Especially Aerion? It was treason, and worst of all, it was visible proof in front of the common folk that the dragon house was weak, its already vulnerable foundation furthered as the hedge knight drew blood from the prince.Â
Her forehead tipped forward, pressing gently against his, pausing for a moment before her voice escaped her weakly, âmy father has promised to help you, ser.â
âYour father?â He questioned.
âAs much as he can,â she continued, âAerion will not let this go, nor will Maekar, but he may be able to lessen the blow.â
Duncan pulled away from her, his furrowed stare meeting her own, âwhat do you mean? Your father? Is he a knight?â
She hesitated, knowing what sort of reaction was about to come from the hedge knight as she revealed her fatherâs name. She watched as a series of emotions flashed across his handsome features; shock, followed by confusion, then realization, and finally anger.
âYou told me you werenât a lady,â he hissed, pushing himself away from her entirely as he stood and crossed the cell, âyou lied to me!â
âI am not a lady!â She hissed.
âNo, youâre only a princess,â he argued, âyou and Egg bothâhow have I allowed myself to be fooled so easily by not one, but two dragons?â
âI am not a princess,â she huffed, âmy father is Prince Baelor, yes, but my mother was a whore. Iâm told that he loved my mother very much, and it is only for her memory that I am granted any sort of lenience. I am a stain on my fatherâs legacy, as my cousins so often remind me, and if it werenât for my father I probably would be dead in the streets or working in a brothel myself. They call me a lady when my father can hear and an urchin when he cannot.â
Duncan stared at her, his breathing heavy as he seemed to struggle with deciding whether it was enough of a reason to lessen his resolve. His hands settled on his hips, shaking his head as he mulled over the information; it wasnât her fault that he was in this situation, but it was still her family that would be putting him to trial.Â
âYou lied to me,â he said again.
âI know,â she said, âI am sorry. Deeply.â
He watched her silently. She stood before him, eyes swollen and cheeks dampened by tears, hands clenched into fists at her sides while her figure trembled before him. He was angry, yes, but every bone in his body longed to take her into her arms, to soothe her tears and tell her all would be well. He had an undying urge to protect her, to keep her safe and warm and happy and never let the terrible world touch her goodness, but just looking at her, taking in the silver-white hair and violet eyes, he couldnât help but feel a sense of dread creeping into his belly. He had fallen for her, there was no questioning it, but if he lived to see this trial through, he wasnât sure he could handle seeing such true Valyrian features ever again.
The door creaked open, a guard stepping inside and storming over to her. The guard grasped her wrist in his gauntleted hand tightly, dragging her away from the hedge knight roughly.
âTimeâs up,â he grumbled, hauling her towards the door forcefully, ignoring her pleas for another moment and using brute strength to pull her, despite her efforts to escape him.
âSer Duncan,â she called out to him, not seeking help from the hedge knight, but rather forgiveness, âI am sorry, ser, I am so, so sorry!â
The door slammed shut behind them, leaving Duncan alone, once again, in the cold, dank dungeon.Â
***
Ser Duncan had done his best to not look too shaken as he stood before the Crown Prince and his brother.Â
Baelor had offered him advice, just as she had promised, but there truly was little that he could do to stop his brother and nephew from getting the trial that they wanted. A trial by combat was Duncanâs best chanceâAerion may have been skilled in combat, but hand-to-hand against an opponent such as Ser Duncan was bound to end in a humiliating defeat. The Trial of Seven was set to happen, and for all Duncan knew, it would be a greater mercy for them to just take his head then and there.
âCan I go now?â Ser Duncan asked as Maekar dragged Aerion out of the room by the collar of his doublet like a scolded child.
âSer Duncan, a word?â Baelor said, bringing him to a halt as the other lords fled the room.Â
Duncan watched him carefully, âof course, Your Grace.â
Baelor waited until the footsteps of Lord Ashford and his advisors had gotten far enough away that he knew they were not being overheard, âthere is one more matter I wish to discuss with you.â
Duncan raised his brow in confusion, but waited for him to continue.
âMy daughter,â he said, âshe seems quite taken with you.â
Duncan flushed, and he felt a deep pit grow in his belly. It was one thing to be standing before the heir to the Iron Throne as a convict for beating his nephew, and a very different thing to be standing before the heir to the Iron Throne as a former companion of his daughter.Â
âMy Prince, I swear to you I did not know she wasââ
âCalm yourself, ser,â Baelor raised a hand dismissively, âmy daughterâs misleadings are not your fault.â
âIt is not her fault either, Your Grace,â Duncan wanted to curse himself for wanting to protect her even now, even to her own father, âshe misled me, yes, but she is no liar.â
Baelor huffed a laugh, âyes, yes. My daughter is an honest girl. She gets it fromââ
âFrom her mother,â Duncan finished, âshe told me so.â
Baelor stared at him, an expression of reserved shock crossing his features as the weight of Ser Duncanâs words settled into his brain.
âShe told you about her mother,â it was not a question that fell from the princeâs lips, but rather a statement of disbelief, âyou must have formed a very intimate bond with her. She rarely speaks of her mother, not even to me.â
âI did not touch her,â Duncan blurted, blushing furiously as Baelor raised in brow in question, âI only meantâ
âI know what you meant, ser,â Baelor pursed his lips, âyou are a good man, Ser Duncan. I know you would not dishonour my daughter in such a way.â
Duncan gulped, âI will not speak to her again if you wish it. I will not even look at her.â
âIs that what you want?â
Duncan paused for a beat, then admitted, âno, Your Grace.â
Baelor nodded, his fingers coming up to stroke his chin thoughtfully, âthis world is not kind to women like my daughter, Ser Duncan. It is my greatest punishment that she is forced to live in my shame. I loved my late wife, I loved her in a way that any man would love a woman who has given him sons and raised a good life with him. Jena was a good woman, and I am grateful for her, but it was a love born from duty. There was another that I could not love in the way I wished to, and it was her that gave me my daughter.â
Duncan stood in stunned silence as the prince continued to vent to him, confessions leaving his lips that no one save for the gods had ever heard before.
âThis world would beat my daughter down if I did not stop it from doing so, and if I were not who I am, I would not have that power. There will come times where I cannot be there to protect her, and there will come a time where I will leave this world forever, and my daughter will still need protecting. Tell me, ser, do you love my daughter?â
Dunk felt the breath sucked from his lungs at the question. Did he love her? She was beautiful, kind, selfless, and she was among the first people to ever look at him with genuine fondness. She did not want his strength, or his height, or his swordâŚshe simply wanted him.
âIâŚâ
âI believe you do,â Baelor bit back a small smirk, âeven if you are not ready to say it. I was like you once, I can recognize a man who is not ready to admit his feelings. My point is, Ser Duncan, is that you are the very first person that my daughter has shown this sort of care towards, and her openness about her mother, well that is very telling. If you manage to survive this trial, which I have high hopes that you do, I would offer you the position of my daughterâs personal guard.â
Duncan froze, âMy-my princeâŚI do not think I am fit for the role. Should it not be a member of the kingsguard?â
âShe would have a sworn protector already if her station would allow for it. The kingsguard offers her standard protection, as they do to anyone in the Red Keep, but they would not protect her against her own kin should there come a time when they must. You have shown already that you can and will stand against a member of House Targaryen to protect her.â
âYour Graceââ
âYou need not make a decision now, Ser Duncan. Go find your men, and prepare yourself for the trial at dawn.â
***
The air was heavy and damp the next morning, fog settling low in the sky as dawn broke over Ashford Meadow. The lists were already filling with spectators when she slipped through the outer corridors of Ashford Castle and down toward the encampment. Word of the trial had spread like wildfire through the tourney grounds; knights, squires, and smallfolk alike had crowded toward the field to witness the spectacle.
It was her first day setting foot in the arena. Sheâd travelled to Ashford for the experience, not to witness unnecessary and ruthless violence, but she had also promised Ser Duncan that she would come watch when he finally entered. Regrettably, that was today. She stood just beneath the seats reserved for Lord Ashford and his royal guests, shoulders brushing past lesser lords and ladies as she rushed to the front of the crowd, fingers curled around the bannister as her eyes moved to Ser Duncan standing amongst his own menâher eyes widening when she only counted five, not including Raymun Fossoway and Egg, neither of whom had been knighted.Â
She felt shame bubbling deep in her belly at the idea of none of the thousands of knights making any attempt to put forward their lances, none noble or honourable enough to take a stand against a prince of the realm for the sake of a man they had never heard of. Her eyes scanned over Duncanâs looming figure, his body wrapped in chainmail and a heavy surcoat, enough to offer some protection but not nearly enough to stop a longsword from penetrating his flesh. Dread consumed her mind; even with the Warrior himself at Ser Duncanâs side, the trial could not commence without seven knights on either side, and Dunk would be found guilty for his crimes.
Her eyes flickered over to where Lord Ashford had been sitting, watching in boredom as the knights prepared themselves below, then to where her own father had been sitting only moments earlier, only to find his seat empty. She felt her heart in her throat, rushing up the staircase to grab at her brotherâs sleeve urgently.
âValaar,â she hissed, tugging at the velvet on his arm, âwhere is father?â
Valaar turned to his sister with wide eyes. He had always known her to be rather calm, never wanting to give others any sort of ammunition against her position at court. They had always been as close to one another as they could have with their staggeringly different statuses, so Valaar was quite taken aback to see his sister gripping his arm so frantically.
âSister,â he said, âwhatâs wrong? Somethingâs wrong, I can see it in your eyes.â
âNothingâIâm not sure yet,â she stammered, âfather was just here, did he say where he was going?â
Valaar looked at her, unconvinced, but nodded in the direction of the large pavilions flying the Targaryen flag, their peaks visible over the high walls of the arena, âhe said he would only be a moment. Justâwhere are you going?â
âItâs nothing, justâstay here!â She barked over her shoulder, rushing out towards the pavilion.
He was alone when she found him, save for a single young squire, who held the reins of Valaarâs black stallion, donning intricately designed armour that appeared to be a size too small. The rest of the crowds were inside the arena already, all too interested in what was happening inside to think of what was taking place outside. His hand was on the saddle of the horse, preparing to hoist himself up when she finally caught sight of him, realization struck her like a blow to the chest. Her feet carried her forward before she fully knew what she was doing.
âFather.â
His eyes fell on her, and for a brief moment the stern mask slipped from his face, replaced with something softer, something almost weary.
âYou should be inside,â he said to her, âthe trial will begin any moment.â
âSo should you,â she said softly as she stopped before him. Her eyes swept over the armor, the sword at his hip, the weight of duty sitting heavy on his shoulders, âyou mean to fight.â
It wasnât a question. The armour was answer enough, though the three headed dragon on his chest brought a sense of dread over her. Aerion already had his seven at this point, while Dunk only had five, and here Baelor was preparing himself to fight in defense of his house.Â
âPlease,â her voice was small, almost a sob as the words fell from her lips, âI beg of you, you cannot do this. You know Aerion was wrong,âÂ
âIt seems I can,â he sighed, turning to face her, âbut I will not fight for Aerion. I will take your hedge knightâs side.â
âWhatââ she choked, âyouâŚâ
âI promised you that I would help him as much as I could.â
âHelp? This is not helping, this isââ
âIt is protecting him,â Baelor corrected gently.
âAnd risking your life.â
Baelorâs expression softened in a way that made her chest ache.
âAll fathers risk their lives for their children,â he said. âSome simply do so more publicly than others.â
Her eyes burned.
âThis isnât about me,â she whispered, ânone of this is about me. There must be something else you can doâbeseech Maekar to stop this, command someone else to take your placeâŚâ
âThis is about you,â he interrupted her, âfor too long I have allowed slights against you. It is Ser Duncan that is on trial here, but my joining is just as much about you as it is about doing what is right.â
She was silent, violet eyes watering as she stared up at her father. She felt like a girl again, staring up at her father and seeing a man who appears tall and strong and immovable. But that was not the case here, for Baelor was being moved, and it was his daughter that was doing it.
âYou care for him,â he continued, telling her rather than asking, âif there was ever a time for me to be a father to youââ
âYou are my father,â she pleaded, âyou neednât do this. This is your life at stake.â
Baelor scoffed, âlook at my opponents. The kingsguard are sworn to protect me, Aerion will be too involved with Ser Duncan to even take the chance, Daeron is of no threat, and Ser Steffon has only just been made a lord; he wonât be willing to give that away by striking a prince.â
âYou forget one,â she reminded him, âI understand you and Maekar are close, but what ifââ
âMy brother would never intend to bring me harm.â
Baelor studied her carefully, and for a moment he looked less like the heir to the Iron Throne and more like the man who had raised herâtired, thoughtful, and terribly human.
âI have watched you all your life,â he continued. âYou guard your heart as fiercely as any knight guards his blade. Yet somehow, in the span of a few days, youâve opened yourself to a hedge knight of all people. More so than you ever have with me.â
Her lips trembled as she struggled to form words, âfather, that isââ
âYou neednât deny it, daughter,â he smiled softly at her, tucking a single loose curl behind her ear, âhe told me you spoke of your mother. We havenât spoken of her since you were very young.â
She swallowed harshly, âI did not mean for this to happen.â
âI suspect that only makes it worse.â
A weak laugh escaped her as she sniffled harshly, wiping her nose aggressively against the sleeve of her borrowed gownâLady Ashford wasnât likely to wear it against anyways, considering who she had been forced to loan it to.Â
âA hedge knight is beneath your standing, I admitââ
âI am a bastard,â she reminded him, âI have no standing.â
Baelor ignored her as he continued, âbut he is a good man. Better than any Iâve met in a very long time, for that matter. Perhaps, should we all survive this, he may return to Kingâs Landing with us.â
The idea was meant to bring her peace, but it only further fuelled the anxiety inside of her as she thought of Ser Duncanâs goodness being chipped away at by being there in that cesspool, the gossip and betrayals and plots would eat him alive and destroy the light in his soul, and there would be no one to blame for it but herself. He wouldnât blame her for it, she knew that much, but that only made it worse.
âHeâll die,â she whispered.
âNot if I can help it.â
Her breath hitched.
âYou always do what is right,â she whispered, âsometimes I think it is your most damning quality.â
Baelor shook his head slowly.
âThis is not about right and wrong,â he admitted, ânot entirely, anyway. Iâm doing this for you.â
Tears blurred her vision. Sheâd waited years to hear those words, to feel her fatherâs protection where it really mattered. He loved her, yes, but her illegitimacy made it almost impossible for him to include her as a member of his family. Of course, he recognized her as his own, made sure she was fed and clothed and educated, and allowed her to form relationships with her brothers and cousins, but even as the heir to the throne he was unable to completely destroy that invisible barrier. This was the first time he had ever publicly taken a stand for her, even if others did not know it was for her.Â
âYou always told me that I would find a brave knight,â she whispered.
âAnd so you have.â
She threw her arms around him before she could stop herself, her body shaking with her sobs as she curled into his chest, âthank you.â
For a moment he stiffened in surprise, then his arms came around her in return, strong and certain. He did not answer, only raising one of his hands to hold the back of her head, cradling her against himself gently.Â
âBe careful,â she whispered against his shoulder.
Baelor pressed a kiss to the crown of her head before finally releasing her from his hold, his hand cupping her chin as he met her gaze once more, âalways. Now go, you should not stay to witness what happens next.â
Baelor turned to his horse then, hoisting himself into his saddle and sliding his head into the sleek helm, not sparing her a glance as his horse took off towards the arena.Â
He already knew she would not listen.Â
***
The shouting didnât stop, even after it was over.
She didnât know who had won.
She didnât know who was still alive.
The field had dissolved into movementâmen shouting, bodies being turned, armor clattering as knights were dragged from the dirt. The crowd pressed forward, breaking whatever lines had held them back. She forced her way through it blindly.
She had remained on ground level after parting from her father, now among the common folk and jammed so tightly into the crowd that she could hardly even hear the clanging of steel and yells of pain over their excited chittering and shouting.Â
She forced her way through it blindly.
âLet me throughâpleaseââ
No one listened.
Someone shoved past her, a maester rushing ahead towards the wounded princes in the mud. When she could finally see through the crowd, her stomach lurching at the sight of blood and gore in the mud; the air smelled of mud and blood and sweat and something metallic that made her stomach turn. She stumbled from the force, head turning as she caught herself andâ
She caught sight of him between the pushing and shoving of the crowd as they cheered for the hedge knight. Not clearly, not all at once, but he was too big to miss even as he collapsed into the side of a smith, Raymun Fossoway coming to support his other side and drag him out of the arena.Â
The woman elbowed her way through the crowd âhard enough that someone cursed at her, but she didnât stop.
âMoveâ!â
No one moved.
They were cheering now.
Cheering.
âFor the hedge knight!â
âHeâs done itâ!â
She shoved between them anyway, slipping in the churned mud as she broke past the last line of bodies and onto the torn field itself.
Men were still shouting. Some were kneeling over the fallen, others dragging the wounded away by their arms. A princeâs banner lay trampled in the dirt. Somewhere nearby, a horse screamed.
And thereâ
Dunk.
Half-carried, half-dragged between a smith and Raymun Fossoway, his weight sagging heavily between them.
âWait!â she cried.
They didnât hear her, dragging him through the arched entryway of the arena.Â
She chased after them, forcing her way through the smallest gaps in the crowd and shoving past unruly spectators with no regard for the force she was using. Her skirts caught in the mud, the fabric soaking through and growing heavier by the second as she clambered over the barricade, rushing through the gore and mud after them. She hoisted them up, her stocking probably more exposed than what would be considered decent, but it allowed her to quicken her steps as she closed in on him.Â
A wash of relief fell over her at the sight of his chest rising and falling with steady breaths, but his name fell from her lips in a breathy whisper as she took in the blood and bruises that had covered his flesh.
âDunk!â She gasped as she dropped to a squat before him, forcing herself into the way of the smith, who was rambling off what supplies they would need to heal the hedge knight.
His one good eye flickered open, his lips parting in disbelief, as if he thought she was a figment of his imagination.Â
ââŚEgg?â he murmured, voice rough and distant.
Her breath hitched.
âNo,â she said quickly, brushing mud from his cheek with shaking fingers. âItâs me.â
He blinked, trying to focus.
âMy lady,â he breathed, reaching his hand out weakly. She took it, having no regard for the mud or the blood that he passed onto her skin, âyouâŚyou shouldnâtâŚâ
âYou shouldnât be here, my lady,â Raymun interrupted, âthisâthis is no sight for a ladyâs eyes.â
Egg appeared beside her, his already large eyes widening even further as he reached for his cousinâs hand instinctively. She glanced up at him for a moment before her own violet stare turned backÂ
âIâm not leaving,â she barked at him, then turned her attention to the smith above her, âwhat do we do? How do we help him?â
âWeâll get âim drunk, then weâll pour boiling oil on it,â he said, âthatâs how the maesters do it.â
âWine, not oil,â another voice called out from behind, Prince Baelor joined them with an eerily calm expression on his features, âoil will kill him. Iâll send Maester Yormwell to have a look at him when heâs done tending to my brother.â
âFather,â she gasped, looking torn between wanting to rush to her fatherâs side and not wanting to let go of Ser Duncanâs hand, âare youââ
âIâm alright, child,â he offered her a weak smile.
âYour Grace,â Dunk grunted out, forcing himself to his feet for a moment, staggering toward the prince and dropping to his knees before him, âI am your man. Your man. It would be my honour to-to do what youâve asked of me.â
Baelorâs eyes flickered down to the tower of a man, then to his daughter as she tried to force him to rest. He nodded slowly, almost unnoticeable as a knowing smile briefly flickered across his face, because, whether he had intended to or not, Ser Duncan had just indirectly confirmed Baelorâs suspicions about his feelings for the young woman.Â
âI need good men, Ser Duncan,â Baelor said slowly, a glazed look appearing in his eye as he took a stumbling step backward, âthe realmâŚâ
âFather,â she hissed, letting the smith take hold of Dunk and force him back onto the bench as she moved towards her father. Her hands came to clutch at his arm to steady him.
âFather, you need to see the maesters,â she continued, âyou stumbledâis it your leg?â
Baelor waved her off, ânonsense, I am merely winded. A long bath and a hot meal should suffice. Ser Raymun, my helm, if you would be so kind.â
âAt once your grace.â
âThe visorâŚthe visorâs cracked.â
Her brows furrowed at his comment; the visor in his helm wasnât cracked, it was completely gone. Somehow amidst the fighting, it must have been broken off.
âFather, what do youâŚâ
Raymun came to Baelorâs other side. Her grip on his arm tightened as Raymun reached for her fatherâs helm, his face tightening as he struggled with it. His eyes flickered to the woman's with concern painted across his features, their shared gaze tainted with confusion and fear.â
âMy fingersâŚfeel like wood.â
Raymun looked back at the prince, his eyes scanning the damaged helm.
âGoodman Pate, a hand,â he called out.
The smith left Ser Duncanâs side, moving to stand behind the prince and inspecting the damage his armour had taken.Â
âThe helm,â Steely Pate said, âitâs crushed down the back, Your Grace. Itâs smashed into the gorget.â
âMy brotherâs mace, most like,â Baelor smiled softly as pride swelled in his chest, tilting his head toward Raymun, âheâs strong.â
âFather, please let me call a maester. Something is wrong.â
Baelorâs hazy stare turned to look at her with a fond expression, âyou look so much like your mother. It was my greatest regret that I could not marry herââ
Steely Pate finally managed to pull the helm free, lifting it from Baelorâs head. A sickening squelch filled the air as Baelorâs eyes suddenly became lifeless, his knees buckling forward and bringing his body down into the mud at her feet. Blood splattered over her dress as Steely Pate dropped the helm to the ground in shock, a horrified scream tearing through her throat as she stared into the gaping hole in the back of her fatherâs skull, blood and gore splattered in the mud.Â
âNoâŚno!â Duncan fell to his knees once more, catching the prince before his head could reach the ground, âno, Your Grace. Get up, ser. Get up, ser!â
Her body was still, staring down at her fatherâs limp corpse with a blank stare. Tears filled her eyes, burning at her waterline desperately, but they could not break free. Her breath trembled as it fell from her lips in short clouds of fog against the cold morning air.Â
Prince Baelor was dead.
Her father was dead.Â
And now, she is more vulnerable than ever.
***
The earth was warm beneath her, heat resonating from beneath the few remaining embers of her fatherâs funeral pyre.Â
The funeral had ended almost a while ago. She stood in her place the entire time, behind the small crowd that had gatheredâexactly where she belonged. It was only after the flames died down and the others returned to the castle that she stepped forward, waving off Valaarâs concern, telling him she wished to stay a while.Â
She did not know exactly how long sheâd sat there before Ser Duncan appeared behind her, his movements slow and unsteady. Carefully, with the help of his makeshift crutch, he lowered himself down into the dirt next to her.
They sat in silence for a while, his blue eyes never wavering from her profile as she watched her fatherâs ashes being collected by the silent sisters before them.Â
âIâm sorry.â
His voice was quiet, like he hadnât even truly meant to speak. He had not seen her since the trialâsince her father fell dead at her feet from fighting for Ser Duncanâs life. He did not know if she even wanted to see him, for any affection she held for him may have been erased due to his hand in her fatherâs death.Â
She did not answer, though her eyelids fluttered closed as she inhaled sharply.
Duncan reached out hesitantly, his movements pausing for a beat before his fingers finally pressed against her shoulder gently. His stomach twisted as she pulled away.
Her movement was small, but it still cut through him like a blade. He flinched gently in response.
âI didnât meanâŚâ he cleared his throat as his voice cracked sharply, âI did not mean for this to happen.â
She laughed humourlessly.Â
âI know,â she sniffled, âbut Iâm thankful you survived. Itâs what he wanted.â
Silence stretched between them for a beat. Ser Duncan was unsure what to say, while she was unsure how to feel. It was sadness at first, then anger, and finally fear; the kind that ate away at her entire being until she could do nothing but run and hide from everything that the gods had planned for her, good and bad.Â
âI cannot go back,â she said.
Dunk frowned, his brow furrowing.
âTo Kingâs Landing,â she explained, her voice faltering, ânot without himâŚtheyâll throw me to the streets.â
Duncanâs jaw tightened, his heart rate spiking as he recognized the crippling fear apparent on her features.Â
âThey wouldnâtâŚwhat of your brothers?â
She scoffed, âwhatâmy brothers and I care for one another, that is true, but I think you overestimate the political power that they hold. If they cannot send me away, theyâll kill me, and my brothers know that well enough.â
âYou could come with me.â
She turned slowly, raising a brow as she watched him struggle to stand with the help of his crutch, waiting until he was steady on his feet to offer a response.
âWith you?â She asked, âwhat use am I out there?â
His cheeks held a pink glow beneath the bruises and cuts, shuffling awkwardly.Â
âYouâre someone who needs someone to protect them,â he grumbled, pausing for a moment before he continued, his voice softening, âI promised that I would.â
She did not ask who he had made this promise to.
She did not need to.Â
Her violet stare scanned over his face, taking in the sight of his swollen eye and darkened, swollen flesh.Â
âAnd thatâs enough?â
âIt should be,â he said.
A long silence followed before she took a slow step forward, wrapping her arms around his waist. He let out a soft grunt as she pressed herself against him, her cheek smushed tightly against his chest.Â
âYouâre hurt,â she said, her voice muffled by the worn fabric of his tunic.
âSo are you,â he retorted, his arms curling around her shoulders, gently holding her against him as one hand cupped the back of her head comfortingly.Â
She laughed weakly through her tears.
âI suppose weâll have to care for each other then,â she mumbled, craning her neck to look up at him.Â
He let out a soft, breathy laugh.Â
âDoes that mean youâll come with me?â
A gentle smile curled onto her lips as she stared up at him, her eyes still wet but now much brighter.
âIâm afraid for your safety otherwise, Ser Duncan.â
For the first time since the trial, she felt less afraid. She buried her face deeper into his chest, melting as he pressed a kiss to the crown of her head as his arms tightened around her.Â
She did not look back.
Whatever remained at Ashford Meadow belonged to another lifeâone buried in the mud with shattered armor and a prince whose goodness was the cause of his own downfall. Grief lingered, sharp and unyielding like a blade beneath her ribs, but this time, she did not hide from it.Â
The road stretched on before them, uncertain and unkind.
She did not fear it. She could not, when Ser Duncan offered her more protection and kindness than anyone ever had.Â
Still, as Duncanâs steady footsteps fell into rhythm beside her, something quieter took root beneath the acheânot peace, not yet, but something that might one day become it.
And for now, that was enough to keep walking.
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summary: you were raised to always get what you wanted. then you married baelor targaryen, who says no to you with the patience of a saint and the immovability of a wall. it was funny, once. it isn't funny now. (5k)
pairing: baelor targaryen x fem!reader
content: canon divergent, reader is from house rowan, grief, fear of loss, stubborn baelor and reader (yikes), protective!baelor, angst with a resolved ending, hurt/comfort, arguing, fluff, and unedited work cause i wasnât bothered with editing.
Your father had never said no to you. Not in any way that actually stuck.
There had been nos, technically, over the yearsâthe soft kind, the ones that came with a but and a maybe and a let me think on it, the one that always, without fail, ended with you getting exactly what you had asked for. The horse youâd spotted at the marked when you were nine and pointed at until your mother told you to stop pointing. The third puppy from the hunting dogâs litter when your mother had already said two was plenty. The yellow dress with the embroidered hem that your father jad bought you the day before your wedding, because youâd said quite reasonably that you couldnât possibly get married without something new to wear.
Lord Aldric Rowan of Goldengrove had three sons before you came along, and he loved them well enough. But you were his daughter, and that had always been a different thing entirely, and everyone in the household had understood it without it ever needing to be said out loud. You weren't spoiled in a mean way. You'd never been cruel about it. You simply had a very poor relationship with the word no and a father who had never seen much reason to improve it.
You hadn't known any of this was unusual until you married Baelor.
Baelor Targaryen says no to you like it's the simplest thing in the world. Not coldly, he's never cold about it. He just says it the same way he says most things, quietly and without any indication that he expects it to go differently, and then he waits for you to finish responding to it with the patience of a man who has genuinely nowhere else to be.
In the beginning you didn't believe he meant it. You'd assumed, reasonably enough, that his nos were like anyone else's nos, a starting position rather than a final answer. You'd tried waiting him out. You'd tried rephrasing. You'd tried the look, the one that had worked on your father without fail since you were old enough to know you had it, where you look up through your lashes and say nothing and let the silence do the work.
Baelor had looked back at you with those mismatched eyes of his and said, "No, my love," and that had been that.
It took you most of the first year to truly believe he meant it every time. A few months after that to stop trying anyway, mostly because the habit was so deeply set you did it without thinking. You still try sometimes. It's less about winning now and more about the shape of the thing, the back and forth of it, and somewhere along the way you'd stopped minding as much as you thought you wouldâbecause Baelor's nos always come with something else. He listens. He takes you seriously. And then he finds another way, always, and he delivers on it, and there is something in that you hadn't been expecting and have never quite gotten over.
This particular morning youâd found him in his solar after breakfast, sitting at his writing table with the focused stillness of a man who had a great deal to do and intended to do all of it. He looked up when you came in, giving you a small smile.Â
âI want a thing,â you say, because the preamble with Baelor is pointless. He sees through it before youâve finished building it.Â
âOf course you do,â he says, and sets his quill down.
You come and sit on the edge of his writing table, which he allows from you and nobody else, and he looks up at you with a patient expression, knowing something is coming.
âThereâs a market in the lower city today,âÂ
âIs there?â
âA travelling one. From the Reach.â You fold your hands in your lap. âOne of the kitchen girls said theyâve brought silks.â
"Mm," he says, which is not a yes but is not yet a no either, and you take it as encouragement.
"I want to go."
He sets his quill down. "Alone."
"With a guard."
"One guard is not a proper escort."
"Two guards, then."
"No."
"Baelor, it's a silk marketâ"
"Two guards is still no." He says it the same way he always does, no particular weight on it, just the word sitting there. "You're not going into the lower city today."
"Other women go into the lower city all the time."
"Other women aren't you."
"That isn't a reason."
"It's my reason," he says, with the perfect untroubled calm that you find both deeply reassuring and deeply maddening depending entirely on the day. "When the market comes through the city again I'll take you myself."
You kiss your teeth, rolling your eyes. "You say that every time."
"I took you to a market three months ago."
"That was three months ago." You look at him. He looks back at you. This is the part where your father would start to soften â you could always see it happening, the way his shoulders would drop a little, the way he'd look away first and when he looked back his face would have changed. Baelor doesn't soften. He just sits there. "The silks will be gone by the time you find a free afternoon," you say.
"Then I'll send someone down to buy them for you."
"It isn't the same."
"No," he agrees, pleasantly. "It isn't."
You make a sound that's somewhere between a sigh and a groan and slide off the table. He watches you with what you're fairly certain is amusement, though he keeps it mostly off his face. "Fine," you say.
"Thank you," he says, and picks his quill back up.
You stop at the door. "You'll actually send someone today. Not next week."
"Today," he says. "Tell me what you're looking for."
So you tell him. In considerable detail. The colour, a specific dark green, not just any dark green, the weight of the fabric, roughly how much you'll need. He listens to all of it without looking like he finds it tedious, writes something down, and nods. You go back to your morning.
The silk arrives before supper. It's exactly right. You don't tell him it's exactly rightâhe'd only be unbearably calm about it, but it is.
The puppet show had been the talk of the keep for nearly a week.
It had started with the kitchen girls, then spread to the stable boys, then somehow made its way up through the household until even some of the younger knights had mentioned it in passing, the way people mentioned things they assumed you already knew about and could simply go and see if you wanted. A travelling group from Lys, apparently, setting up in the square just beyond the main gate every evening after dark. Elaborate puppets, someone said. A full retelling of the Tragedy of Florian and Jonquil, with music.
You had mentioned it to Baelor on the second day, at supper.
"There's a puppet company in the square," you'd said.
"Mm," he'd said, reading something.
"From Lys. They're doing Florian and Jonquil every evening after dark." You'd reached for your wine. "I'd like to go."
He'd looked up then. "Outside the gate."
"Just to the square."
"At night."
"It's just beyond the gate, Baelor, it isn'tâ"
"No," he'd said, and looked back down at whatever he was reading, and that had been the end of it. You'd sat across the table from him and finished your supper in silence and felt the frustration of it sit in your chest like a stone.
That had been four days ago.
That had been four days ago. The group was leaving at the end of the week.
You'd thought about it every day since.
The thing was, you weren't asking for anything unreasonable. It was a puppet show. It was just beyond the gate. Half the keep had already been, freely, without anyone telling them they couldn't, and you had sat inside the walls every single evening watching the candles burn down and listening to people talk about it the next morning and thought about how unbearably unfair it was to be the only person in all of King's Landing who wasn't allowed to simply go and see a thing.
Baelor was in council meetings all day. He was always in council meetings all day. You'd had breakfast alone, which you did most mornings, and then sat with your embroidery for two hours, which you did most mornings, and then walked the same stretch of garden you always walked, and then sat in your chambers and stared at the ceiling for a while, and then it was supper and Baelor came back tired and preoccupied and you had an hour together before he fell asleep.
That was most days. That was nearly every day. Yes he always did make time for you, but you always thought it was merely never enough time.
You'd put on a plain dark cloak, the one with the deep hood that you used in winter, and told yourself you'd be back before the last bell.
The square was everything everyone had said it was.
The puppets were extraordinary, large and intricate, moved by six puppeteers in dark clothing who seemed to disappear into the shadows behind them so that the figures appeared to move on their own. The music was live, a lutist and a woman with a small drum, and the crowd was thick and warm and pressed in close around the low stage, and you'd stood at the edge of it with your hood up and felt, for the first time in what felt like a very long time, like a person who was simply somewhere, watching something, with nobody expecting anything from her.
Florian was wonderful. Jonquil made you cry a little, which you would deny if anyone asked.
You were back at the keep gate before the last bell, which felt like a technicality worth holding onto. Your cheeks were cold and your slippers were damp from the cobblestones and you were in a better mood than you'd been in all week, and you were very nearly back to your chambers with your plan of a hot bath and immediate sleep fully intact when one of the younger serving girls appeared in the corridor looking deeply uncomfortable.
"My lady," she said, not quite meeting your eyes. "His Grace has asked for you in his study."
You stopped walking.
"Has he," you said.
"Yes, my lady." She was very pointedly not looking at the cloak or the damp slippers or your windswept hair. "He saidâhe said as soon as you returned."
As soon as you returned.
You stood in the corridor for a moment and thought about the very small possibility that this was about something else entirely and knew, with the deep certainty of someone who had been married long enough to know things, that it was not about something else entirely.
"Thank you," you said, and turned around.
His study was lit when you got there, many candles flickering in the room, and Baelor was standing with his back to the door looking out the window when you came in. He didn't turn around immediately. You came to a stop just inside the doorway and waited, which was not something you were naturally good at, and the silence sat there between you and stretched.
"Close the door," he said.
You closed it.
He turned then. His expression was not the one you were used to, the patient one, the one that waited you out with perfect equanimity. This was something else. His jaw was set. His eyes were very steady and very still in a way that made something small and cold settle in the pit of your stomach, because in all the time you'd been married you had never quite seen this particular version of his face before.
"Where have you been," he said.
"I went for a walk," you said, which was technically true in the way that most things you said were technically true.
Baelor looked at you.
"Outside the keep," you amended.
"To the square," he said.
You said nothing.
"Three separate people have told me they saw a woman in a dark cloak in the crowd tonight who looked very much like my wife," he said. "Would you like to tell me they were mistaken."
You looked at him. He looked back at you with that still face and those serious eyes and you thought very briefly about saying yes, they were mistaken, and decided against it because Baelor always knew and lying would only make it worse.
"No," you said. "They weren't mistaken."
He was quiet for a moment. "You walked out of the keep alone," he said, slowly, like he was making sure you understood each word. "At night. Into a crowd of strangers. Without telling anyone where you were going."
"I had my cloak."
"You had your cloak," he repeated, as if it were the stupidest thing he has ever heard.
"Nobody knew it was me."
"Three people knew it was you."
"Three people thought it might be me," you said, "which is differentâ"
"It is not different." His voice was still low but there was something in it now that you had not heard before, something tight underneath the surface of it. "Do you understand what could have happened? Do you understandâ" He stopped. Pressed his lips together. Looked away for a moment and then back at you. "You are the Princess of Dragonstone. You walked into a crowd of strangers at night, alone, and you didn't tell a single soul where you were going."
"I was back before the last bell," you said, which came out smaller than you intended.
"That is not the point."
"I know," you said, even smaller.
He looked at you for a long moment. You looked back at him and felt your eyes go wet, which you hadn't been expecting, the sting of it catching you off guard, and you blinked hard because you weren't going to cry about this, it was a puppet show, you were not going to stand here and cry about a puppet show.
"It was Florian and Jonquil," you said. Your voice came out very quiet. "Everyone in the keep has seen it except me and I just â I only wanted to see it. That's all. It was just a puppet show."
Baelor was still looking at you. The tight thing in his jaw hadn't entirely gone.
"I know that I'm not supposed to go outside without an escort," you say. "I know that. I've always known that. But Baelorâ" You stop, and the words that come out next are not the ones you'd planned on saying, are not really about the puppet show at all. "You're in council from morning until supper every single day. I have breakfast alone and I sit with my embroidery alone and I walk the garden alone and then supper comes and I have an hour with you before you're asleep, and that'sâthat's every day. That is every day." Your voice is doing the thing again, tightening somewhere in the middle. "I'm not asking you to change everything. I know you have duties. I know the kingdom doesn't stop because your wife is bored. But I've asked you for things, small things, just to have somewhere to go or something to see, and the answer is always no, and I understand why, I do, but sometimes I justâ" You stop. Press the back of your hand against your mouth for a second. "I just needed to go somewhere."
The study is very quiet.
Baelor looks at you for a long moment. Something has shifted in his expression, the tight thing in his jaw less rigid than it was a moment ago, and he crosses the room and stops in front of you and looks at your face in that way of his, reading all of it.
He's quiet for a moment, the anger in his face settling into something heavier. Then he reaches out and takes your face in his hands, tilts it up toward him. Your eyes are very wet and you're fairly certain at least one tear has escaped, which is embarrassing for reasons you can't entirely articulate. His thumb moves across your cheek.
"I didn't know," he says. "That it was like that for you."
"I didn't say," you admit.
"No," he says. "You didn't." He's quiet for a moment, his eyes on yours. "I'm not going to pretend I'm not angry about tonight. I am. What you did was dangerous and foolish and you know that."
"I know," you say.
"But I hear you," he says. "The rest of it. I hear it."
You look at him and feel the thing in your chest that had been tight since the corridor loosen, just slightly, not all the way, but enough. "Are you very angry," you say.
"Yes," he says, plainly.
"How angry."
He looks at you for a moment. His thumb is still against your cheek but his eyes are serious, no warmth in them yet, not the usual kind. "You had no reason to do what you did tonight," he says. "I understand that you're lonely. I hear that. But when I say no it is not a suggestion and it is not a starting point and you do not get to decide that it doesn't apply to you because you want something badly enough." His voice is low and even. "That is not how this works."
You look at him and say nothing.
"Go and have your bath," he says. He drops his hands from your face and steps back and the warmth of them goes with him. "We'll speak in the morning."
You nod and go.
In the morning he is up before you, which he always is, but he doesn't talk to you the way he usually does. He answers when you speak to him. He isn't cruel about it. But the easy back and forth of it, the morning stories, the complaints about Daeron, the small warm ordinary thing that is your favourite part of the dayânone of that comes, and you sit across from him at breakfast and feel the absence of it like a bruise.
You don't push. For once in your life you don't push.
You take your embroidery to the garden instead and sit with it and say nothing and wait for it to pass.
You're in the garden some days later with some embroidery you're not making much progress on when one of the serving girls finds you, a letter in hand.
You see your father's seal before you take it. The rose of Rowan, pressed with the same signet ring he's worn your entire life. You break it and read it.
It's short. Much shorter than his letters usually are. His handwriting is shakier than you remember, the lines uneven in a way they never usually are, and you read it once and then read it again because the first time doesn't seem possible.
He's ill. He's been ill for some time, he saysâ in that careful way that means longer than some time but he's chosen not to say so. The maester is doing what he can. He wants to see you, if it can be arranged.
If it can be arranged.
Your father, who had rearranged the entire world on a regular basis to make sure you had whatever you wanted, is asking if it can be arranged.
You sit in the garden for a long time without moving. The sun moves. The letter stays in your hands. The embroidery sits forgotten beside you.
When you finally go inside you go straight to Baelor's solar. He's at the window with a cup of wine, a small frown creasing his brow, and he turns when the door opens. Whatever he sees in your face makes him set the cup down immediately.
"What's happened?"
You hold the letter out. He crosses the room and takes it from your hand and reads it, and you watch his face the whole time. The way his eyes move down the page slowly. The way his jaw tightens. The way a stillness settles over him, the particular controlled kind that means he's keeping something off his face on purpose.
He looks up and meets your eyes and you already know what he's going to say.
"I need to go to Goldengrove," you say.
"I know."
"Then I can go."
"No."
It lands differently than it ever has before. Every other no had been the silk, the market, the puppet showâsmall things, things you'd pushed back on out of habit more than anything. This is not that. This is your father's shaky handwriting on a short letter asking if it can be arranged, and Baelor is standing there saying no and looking at you like he's braced for what comes next.
"Baelor." Your voice is low and tight.
"No, my love."
"He is ill." You take a step toward him. "He is asking for me. Do you understand that? He has never in his life asked me to come home, not once, and he is asking now, and you are standing thereâ"
"I understand."
"Then act like it." Your voice cracks on the last word and you push past it. "He could be dying. He could be dying and you're telling me no like it's the same as everything else, like this is the silk market, like this isâ"
"It isn't the same."
"Then why is the answer still no?" You're in front of him now, close, your eyes burning. "Give me a reason. A real one. Not the roads, not the timing, not whatever careful thing you're about to sayâgive me something real or get out of my way."
Something flickers across his face. His jaw is tight and his eyes are steady and he says, quietly, "The roads are notâ"
"I don't care." The words come out before you've decided on them and you mean every one. "I don't care about the roads. Send fifty men with me, send a hundred, come yourself if you have to, I don't give a damn how it's arrangedâbut you do not get to tell me no on this." Your voice is rising and your hands have curled into fists at your sides and you're aware distantly that this is not how a woman of court is meant to speak to her husband and you cannot bring yourself to care about that either. "This isn't a silk market. This isn't a puppet show outside the gate. This is my father."
Baelor looks at you for a long moment. He doesn't flinch at the volume of it, doesn't step back, just stands there and takes it with that infuriating stillness of his, and the muscle in his jaw works once.
"I know," he says. His voice is very quiet. "I know what it is."
"Then tell me why." Your eyes are filling now and you hate it, hate standing here crying when you're trying to be furious, but you can't stop it and you're not going to look away. "Because I have trusted you every time. Every single time you've said no I have found a way to accept it because I trust you and I love you and I know you don't do things without reason. But you have to give me something, Baelor. You have to give me something to hold onto right now or I swear to you I will walk out of this keep tonight and you will not stop me."
A beat of silence.
Baelor's eyes move over your face. He's reading you the way he always reads you, carefully and completely, and whatever he finds there makes something shift in his expression. The tight set of it loosens, just slightly. He exhales through his nose.
"Sit down," he says.
"I don't want to sit down."
"Please." The word comes out differently than his usual pleases, less patient, more like it costs him something. "Sit down and let me tell you."
You look at him. Your chest is heaving and your eyes are wet and you're still furious but there's something in his face now that wasn't there before, something heavy and careful, and it makes you go still.
You sit.
He pulls a chair across and sits facing you, close, his elbows on his knees, and is quiet for a moment like he's deciding where to begin.
"Your father has debts," he says. "Significant ones. He has been carrying them for years, managing them carefully, and then about eighteen months ago he stopped being able to manage them."
You look at him. "What does that mean?"
"It means he borrowed from men who are not patient about repayment." He holds your gaze. "When the payments slowed, they started taking an interest in Goldengrove itself."
Something cold moves through you. "What kind of interest?"
"The kind that comes with threats." His voice is even, giving you the facts without wrapping them in anything softer. "Specific ones. Against the estate, against your brothers." A pause. "I became aware of it some months ago. I have had men watching the roads to Goldengrove since. That is why I cannot send you there aloneânot because of the roads themselves, but because of who is on them."
The room is very quiet.
"Months ago," you say slowly.
"Yes."
"You've known for months."
"Yes."
You stare at him. "And you didn't tell me."
"Your father asked me not to." He says it plainly, without apology, but his eyes don't leave yours. "He came to me himself. He asked me to handle it quietly and to keep it from you. He didn't want you to know he was in difficulty." A beat. "He was very clear about that."
You open your mouth and close it again.
"I should have told you regardless," Baelor says. "That is on me. But I want you to understand that he asked me not to, and I thought I was honouring that." His jaw tightens slightly. "I was wrong to keep it from you this long."
You sit there and let it all settle into shape. The cheerful letters. The shaky handwriting on this one. Your father at the door when you left, holding on a beat too long.
"He's been carrying all of this," you say quietly. "This whole time."
"Yes."
"Alone."
"He had me," Baelor says. "For what that's worth."
You look at him and feel something complicated move through your chest that isn't quite anger anymore and isn't quite grief and sits somewhere between the two.
"The debts," you say. "Are theyâcan they beâ"
"They're already being settled." He says it without any weight on it, like it's already done, which it nearly is. "Within the fortnight Goldengrove will be safe. The men watching the roads will be gone." His eyes are steady on yours. "And then I will take you there myself."
You look at your hands in your lap.
The room is very quiet when he finishes.
You look at your hands in your lap. You think about your father's letters, the cheerful ones, the ones about the estate and your brothers and whatever small ordinary thing had happened at Goldengrove that week. You think about the shaky handwriting on the letter in your hands. You think about how long he must have been carrying all of it alone, smiling in ink across the distance, not wanting you to worry.
"He didn't want me to know," you say. Your voice comes out very small.
"No." Baelor's mouth presses together briefly. "He didn't want you to worry."
You look up at him. "Is he dying?"
"I don't know." He holds your gaze and doesn't look away from it. "I think he's more ill than the letter says. I think he wanted to see you and didn't know how to ask for it plainly." A pause. "The debts are already being settled. Within the fortnight Goldengrove will be safe. When it is, I will take you there myself and we will stay as long as you need to stay."
"The fortnight," you say.
"The fortnight." He holds your gaze. "I give you my word."
You look at him for a long time. This man with the grey in his beard and the careful eyes and the particular way he says I give you my word, like it is the most serious thing a person can say.
"I'm angry at you," you say quietly. "For not telling me sooner."
"I know."
"And at him."
"That's fair."
"I'm angrier at you."
"Also fair," he says, without moving.
You look away, at the wall, at your hands. Your eyes are still wet and the anger has gone somewhere quieter now, turned into something heavier that sits low in your chest and doesn't have a clean name.
"I said I would walk out tonight," you say. "I meant it."
"I know you did."
"I still might."
"I know that too." He reaches out and covers your hands with one of his, warm and unhurried. "But you won't."
You look down at his hand over yours. "You're very sure of yourself."
"I'm sure of you," he says simply.
You sit there with his hand over yours in the quiet of the solar and feel the last of the fight go out of you, not cleanly, not all at once, but slowly, like something that had been held at full stretch finally being allowed to rest.
"The fortnight," you say again, more quietly.
"The fortnight," he says. "I promise."
You lean forward and press your face into his shoulder and his arms come around you and he holds you there, and you cry properly, the slow exhausted kind, and he says nothing and lets you.
You believe him. You always believe him eventually, even when you'd rather not, even when it would feel better not to. He has never once said something he didn't mean.
Your father had given you everything you ever asked for and you had loved him for every bit of it. But sitting there with Baelor's arms around you, you think there's something to be said for a man who knew when not to.




