"God isn't a magical genie" I say, except I know that genies are trickster creatures that go out of their way to take your wishes and twist them into the most harmful thing they can because they hate you, and thus I mean that if you don't word a prayer absolutely perfectly or get nasty intrusive thoughts while youre praying, God isn't going to take that and be like "Nope, sorry, you prayed it into being!". He knows what youre trying to say and he knows those nasty thoughts are intrusive and he isn't going to take your imperfect prayer and use it to hurt you or do something outside of your favour.

Be yourself so ppl looking for u can find u

i know it's silly to grieve people and experiences that are never coming back but like. how is it even possible that none of it is ever coming back