Inovium

To anon who said: Consider this: Caduceus = Crowley and Azi

LWJ doesn’t even really mean to? He’s just...bad with words, but he’s got a lot of money, and he knows what WWX likes! Gifts will make his intentions clear, right? Wrong, buddy, so wrong. 

WWX probably also doesn’t make the connection that LWJ is essentially his sugar daddy when the gifts are just...really nice clothes, silk ribbons for his hair, dining at the fanciest of places, and oh maybe a $20k watch that caught his eye when they walked by a store that one time. LWJ is the acting director of one of the biggest law firms in the nation, and WWX figures that okay, of course LWJ would want to make sure WWX is presentable when they go out, so he accepts all the gifts.

WWX makes an offhanded that his morning commute to the university is terrible, and that he wishes he didn’t have to stew through forty minutes of traffic just to make it to one tutorial. LWJ offers to buy him an apartment closer to the university, and WWX stares at him like O.O and turns the offer down, ofc he does. But it sticks with him, and he’s starting to...wonder about their relationship? Does LWJ consider that they are dating?? Or does LWJ just want this to be a casual...sugar daddy sort of relationship? 

LWJ buys an apartment a five minute stroll away from the university anyway. He takes WWX there, and tells WWX that it’s an empty apartment he owns, which is not exactly a lie?? But the place is also furnished exactly the way WWX likes it, the fridge is stocked with all of WWX’s favourite foods, and WWX is not that stupid honestly. But he lets LWJ talk him into moving into the apartment anyway - LWJ is very hard to say no to, especially when he’s kissing WWX like that when he asks.

“Lan Zhan, am I a sugar baby?” WWX will ask one day, and LWJ will frown and ask WWX to explain what a sugar baby is. And he’s nodding as WWX speaks because yes, he does pamper WWX with nice and expensive gifts, and yes, they do enjoy a very...robust sexual relationship, but WWX is starting to look a little crestfallen, and LWJ finally figures out what WWX is trying to ask, but he also doesn’t have the words to explain it to WWX, and ends up blurting “Wei Ying, marry me” thinking it’s going to clear everything up.

This is glorious and even thought it doesn’t fit in the range of all the paranormal, I MUST share

It works like this: You tell Kitestring that you’re in a dangerous place or situation, and give it a time frame of when to check in on you. If you don’t reply back when it checks your status, it’ll alert your emergency contacts with a custom message you set up.

It doesn’t require you to touch anything (like bSafe) or shake your phone (like Nirbhaya) to send the distress signal. Kitestring is smarter, because it doesn’t need an action to alert people, it needs inaction.

This will never happen to me.  You can’t tell. Otherwise, if you don’t want to do for yourself, maybe among your follwers someone need this information.

I’m a man, i don’t care. You should care the more. What if it was your sister? Again, spread the word. There may be someone needingths.

Insolation 2 - #17 - Smart

that’s my partner

i’m a horrible partner

that’s my partner

i’m a horrible partner

- u cant stop. its a legitimate addiction. there is no ‘seeing what its like’. its soso hard to stop it and believe me, because that was me. i thought i would sate my curiosity but all i did was make my life miserable - everything can become a trigger. someone carved things in a table?? trigger. u get a scratch by accident?? trigger. see something sharp?? yup.  - the scars dont go away and if people see them (and no matter how hard you try, people will see them) they get this awful fucking look on their face like a mixture of disgust and horror and pity  - u have to sit through people making shitty fucking jokes and calling people like you (real, struggling people like you) edgy emos looking for attention and it makes you feel sick but you have to sit there silently - in fact, any conversation about self harm becomes thoroughly uncomfortable because they’ll talk about it like no one in the room has ever gone through it (or, if they know, they’ll glance at you out the corner of their eye when they think you cant see) - any emotion can give you the urges- not just negative. ur body associates the happy feeling with the pain so ur brain is like ‘????? u cant have one without the other??’  - it can have been years. years. you can have stopped and got better and you’ll still feel the urge to hurt yourself and it makes you feel like you haven’t improved at all and you’re still fourteen and hating yourself - (maybe this is just me) but some part of you misses it?? you stopped and you know its horrific but its so difficult to get rid of your blades or whatever you use because you feel so weirdly attached to these things that are so awful and you dont even know why 

It’s been roughly four years since I quit and I still get the urge to bite my hands and slam myself into door frames whenever I feel the slightest bit self conscious, sad, or anxious. Which is a lot of the time. I have to be careful scratching an itch or choosing reasons to stay up late or making decisions about eating. The slight calm numb feeling you get isn’t nearly worth it and yet you end up craving it anyways. It feels like an easy way out even though ultimately it’s causing way more harm than good.

Guys, for everything that you hold dear, no matter what shit you’re going through, don’t start. It may seem it helps, but it’s only superficial. It seems like helping, like if the physical representation got rid off of the emotional pain, but it doesn’t work like that. It makes you feel shitty. Once you do it, you regret instantly and feel like shit for doing it. And when you get through some tough shit, you go back to the square one…