☆S.H.R.E.K-SAN☆

Gender euphoria is a concept that was made to be the opposite of gender dysphoria and describe the strong feeling of happiness that trans people experience when they’re being treated as their true gender. For some people, this feeling can be an indicator of being trans.

Throughout my life, I never had any noticeable dysphoria. I didn’t feel I was stuck in the wrong body and I wasn’t terribly self conscious about my chest. It wasn’t until I was in a group webcam chat that I even began to consider I might be trans. 

Someone “mistook” me for a boy…and they were fairly confident about it too. Others in the chat corrected them, but it wasn’t until I told them myself, ‘Oh, yeah, I’m a girl.’ that they accepted it. But the thing that clicked in that moment was this alien feeling of absolute JOY being recognized as a boy. It honestly took me off guard. The further I went along in life, the more I yearned for and sought out retail workers that would call me sir and comments from my brother saying I look like a guy in photos. One time I was sick and someone said my voice was deep enough to be a guy’s, and suddenly, I could not stop talking. Those little things just made me so happy. 

But for the longest time I doubted myself, and one of the reasons was because of the term ‘gender dysphoria’. From everything I was reading online, it seemed to me that gender dysphoria was the ONLY way you could be trans. And that screwed me over for a long time. I doubted myself a lot and even started to hate myself a little bit because I could’t let the idea of myself being trans go. (it also didn’t help that I was genderfluid, with an occasional lean towards being female, but that’s a whole ‘nother confusing addition to the pile of self doubt.) I eventually said screw it, I’ve had these feelings for long enough and strong enough, but it wasn’t a fun process getting to this point.

second guy: capricorn, virgo, leo, gemini, aquarius

I am risking nothing

I AM SORRY FOLLOWERS, I LOVE MY MOMMY

Will not risk.