*logs the smell of a bagel into MFP*

THIS BLOG CONTAINS TRIGGERING ED CONTENT

Dont report, just block. This blog is my safe space and reporting won't solve this issue. I don't encourage ED's, this blog is for ME to cope.

129.8lb to be exact but damn it’s nice to finally see that 2 on the scale 😭 I’ve been stuck in the 130-140’s for 2 years now.

It’s been such a toxic journey tbh but the only time it ever truly works is when I am in a good place with my mental health. I only have 2.8lb to lose before I’m at my goal weight.

I’ve been working 2 jobs with like 5 minutes between appointments leaving me no time to eat so it’s been a lot easier to fast and do OMAD when I get home.

Weighed myself a few days ago and I was back down to 130.8lb… funny how that’s the exact weight I can’t seem to budge past. Haven’t had a scale since being at my boyfriends house this week but I’ve GOTTA be at 129 by now.. I just want to see those 120’s on the scale so bad 😩

I ate 600cals today and felt like I was going to DIE omg idk how to get my body on track with fasting but I was close to blacking out by 2pm and that feels kinda pathetic. My brain just melts after like 18hrs. But I feel good that I finally kept my cals low after like a month.

Heavy restriction is really hard for me. I’m trying to increase my time frame to lose these next 10lb over 2 months so I’m not starving and binging constantly.

1000cal a day for 2 months should put me right at 120lb. Not that I want to wait 2 whole months, but I just want to be skinny for EDC in Orlando this November so that’s an acceptable time frame for me. And if I’m eating 1k calories a day I don’t get the urges to binge because I’m eating enough.