TwentyTwoFourteen

Probably more than the past 2 years combined

There’s something really unifying about that time of day

Especially in the southwest

I seem to find myself craving this particular moment-- dimension rather

where silhouettes take over the city and the sky transitions into a canvas in a Bob Ross video on Netflix

I like it particularly because this beauty is so intense yet ephemeral

that every soul in plain sight can’t help but to bask in its glory

But I think the biggest reason I gravitate towards this moment (almost) daily

Is because I know that in a few short hours this same Sun will be watching over you- or rather, a piece of me

it encloses the distance between us

These days my heart’s been heavy

and my mind exhausted.

For some time, 

I wasn’t sure how to communicate that to anyone

It felt like being backed into a corner 

by the monster that is anixety.

Somehow tonight, 

the right words came out

like the scene in Mean Girls where Cady word vomits

I think it made room for the right feelings to seep in

I feel okay now

I feel a sense of purpose again. 

the thought of you anyway.

You are the poem I write at 2:00 am 

with a smile pushing itself out of the corner of my lips.

You mean more to me than I have the capacity to imagine.