Sir

i feel like i'm drowning...

I fell stupid for trying to love any being now, it seems so illogical, it doesn't make any fucking sense after the shit show that I got through

An island full of broken trees, dead leaves, no hope, only tears, the fear of still being alive after I drawn my final breath before I eyes close their leads, With no wants, no caring, nothing to lose or leave

I don't even know if I have to fell something anymore

Why tha fuck I'm alive yeat..?

I'm feeling stupdly numb

How is love still something that I still want, and even that… No one really wants that anymore? Or is that something that doesn't exist anymore?

It's funny being drunk all night, smoking till I die… And yeat…. I'm not even close to be satisfied… Felling a void that is inside… With things that will not last… I wish they help me forget… Who tha fuck I'm.

I wonder some times if they still remember me or think about me yeat... Cuz some times they come to mind again...