My life goes a little something like this...

who am i? well nobody much, just a kid with a dream who’s stuck in a rut.

who am i? well you wouldn’t care, im just like everyone else who’s dreams disappeared.

who am i? well im just a child, taking a path to see what’s to be found.

who am i? well im kind of lost, up seems to be down is everything i see false?

who am i? well obviously confused, and i’ve been through some hell & i’ve still yet to lose.

i need a credit card to build credit - no one wants to give me a credit card because i don't have credit.

am i missing something or are these companies not understanding what i'm saying... give me a credit card - i'll pay what i owe - & guess what, i'll begin to accumulate credit!

to be accepted would be to neglect who i am

to bury myself as if i could no longer stand

to be what you want me to be

but never the person that was created by Thee.

to be accepted would be to compromise

i dont know about you but that's crossing a line

to shun my true being as if i have no worth

to hide who i am because the judgment can hurt?

i don't know about you but that's not sounding too pleasing

i like who i am although times i can be misleading

i've flawed, clawed, and brawled but its a part of this package

if you order the truth, well than this is what's happening

i have no reason to conform because i'm too bright for norm

i was created unique with an ability to succeed

to hid all my diversity would just make me weak

i'm here to stay slightly insecure and all

i'm still finding myself without covering my flaws

if to be accepted is to neglect my individuality

than you can keep your popularity trophy

We live. We die. The end.

life is truly unpredictable. for about the past month i've been planning on going back home (to California) to visit family & what not, and it seems like ever since i tried to turn that plan into reality everything that could stop me from purchasing a plane ticket has happened! i had to wait to get the days off i put in for at work approved by my employer, all of my money is unexpectedly going into my car. btw; that was nearly $1,000 -__- in a couple of weeks (not including gas - ugh), and i'm trying to do it "on my own" so i dont want to ask my dad to financially help me out... but i guess this is all apart of growing up, and living in the "real world". it makes you think about all the times adults would tell you to enjoy your childhood because you have your whole life to be grown. i was actually one of the youth who embraced that, because i'm a tad bit dependent on others, but man... it seems like you can have all the money in the world and never have enough because there's always something. life is always throwing you a curve ball and all you can do is deal with it. i've learned that there's no point in dwelling on things that i cannot change, all i can do is make the most out of the things coming my way...

...BUT regardless of anything, i will be taking this (what seems to be impossible) trip next month! i haven't been home in nearly 6months, and i'm not going to let a minor set back, make me step back.

"Express Yourself!"

Boredom + Computer = ART

im really getting an urge to jump back into photography.

...as if i'm not still young! (?)

it seems as if everyone wants to say “Don’t Judge Me” as if they’ve never judged someone before. truth is we all judge, i just really don’t have a problem admitting it…

is judging others right? absolutely not, but do we do it? certainly.

so why do so many people feel the need to say “don’t judge me” as if those three words are going to protect you? i don’t get it. if you tell me not to judge you i’ll respond saying “sorry, but i already did.” and i’ll feel no shame by it.

they say don’t judge a book by cover… but in order for me to read a book it better have some type of attraction to its cover.

Moral of the Story: You Judge Me, I Judge You. Take A Deep Breathe, And Go Ahead And Be You.