SinfullyRuined

This is where I let my quieter truths come to rest. The thoughts that hum beneath my skin. The aches I never meant to name. The pieces of me that feel softer in the dark.

If you’re here, come gently. You don’t have to understand everything — just breathe with me for a moment. These words are the way I steady myself when life feels too loud.

Read like you’re settling into a quiet room. Stay if you’re looking for a place where your own heaviness is allowed to rest too.

I’m not offering perfection. Only honesty, and a little peace in the places it’s hard to find.

Tell me a secret

only I will know.

I won’t tell anybody

I’ll just hold it.

Let me know you’re here,

present with me.

Too bad we can’t just be.

I don’t know you

and you don’t know me,

yet my eyes lock onto yours

as yours do mine.

Just don’t forget me

Maybe one day

I’ll say hello.

Maybe you’ll look my way.

Maybe we’ll stop pretending

we’re just strangers

every day.

~SinfullyRuined

I met you today,

lost you yesterday,

I promised I’d never leave you.

I meant it — I always do.

I told you I take pinky promises seriously.

But staying meant being crushed.

So I broke the promise

to stop the rockfall from taking me with it.

~SinfullyRuined

i want you to be obsessed with me

the way i’m obsessed with you.

not possession.

not control.

i mean devotion

the kind that makes you want

to step inside my skin,

to know me so deeply

there’s no guessing left.

i want to learn you.

and i want you to learn me

with the same hunger.

they say obsession is unhealthy.

but what if it’s equal?

what if it’s chosen?

somewhere along the way,

love like that stopped being made.

the tension.

the endless gazing.

the ache of wanting

without asking for it to end.

to touch.

to hold.

to exist close enough

that devotion becomes instinct.

that kind of obsession

when it’s mutual

isn’t dangerous.

it’s love

without dilution.

this isn’t about you

it’s about the kind of love

i want to live inside.

and i yearn for it,

unapologetically

~Sinfullyruined

all my love sits

in a small box

at the back of my mind

deep in the quietest part of my heart

i keep it there

where no one can reach it,

because pain taught me

to protect what remains.

so i sit in numbness

not because it’s empty,

but because it’s quieter

than searching for emotions

i was never taught how to name.

~Sinfullyruined

i don’t want to live in my head

trying to figure out

where i went wrong,

where we went wrong.

because i can’t trace the moment

our love turned into suffocation

when it became me

holding my breath

waiting for a love

that never came.

you found comfort

in everyone else.

and i was left alone,

still holding my breath,

still waiting.

so i learned to stop waiting.

to stop showing up

just to be alone.

and now

i don’t always know my emotions,

and my head gets too loud

but at least

i’m breathing again.

~SinfullyRuined

unreturned love

i used to think

if i erased the past

the pain would leave with it.

but it didn’t.

it learned my name.

it stayed.

i don’t hate you.

and that’s the part

i didn’t expect.

because love doesn’t stop existing

just because it was never

met halfway.

i meant every i love you.

i carried my flaws

in the open.

you never met yours.

and somewhere between

being unseen

and learning to let go,

i learned how to love myself

in the space

you never reached.

that kind of love

I’m doesn’t save you.

it changes you.

~Sinfullyruined

for the love I gave but never received

愛してる.

사랑해.

Te quiero.

我爱你.

Ti amo.

i can say i love you

in five different languages

and in unlimited amounts of ways

but you couldn’t even say it

in the one we speak together.

so excuse me

when i say i don’t know what love is,

or what it feels like,

when the person i gave my heart to

couldn’t even remember

my favorite color.

but i remembered yours.

red.

and your favorite season is winter.

and you still

couldn’t tell me mine.

~Sinfullyruined

i’ll never beg for again.

~ SinfullyRuined

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"I looked at you as if you hung the stars in the night sky, and you looked at me as if I were the reason you couldn't find joy in them." ~ SinfullyRuined