#promises

“It’s the promises, we break them every time. And every consequence, we kiss between the lines. And do it all again, I guess I just feel better around you.”

After braving the chaos of the night shift, there wasn’t much that fazed you. The worst of the worst had been thrown at you, and you’d managed to stand tall through it all. So how is it that your attending old enough to be your father has suddenly brought you to your knees? To make matters worse, he was beginning to feel the same way about you.

1. Fade Into You

“You live your life, you go in shadows. You come apart and you’ll go blind. Some kind of night into your darkness colors your eyes with what’s not there. Fade into you. Strange, you never knew.”

2. Keep The Rain

“I don’t know what steps to take, I do the easy ones until it helps. Little acts of conversations, I don’t think I really like myself. Am I comfortable in silence, or is it eating me alive? Nothing’s ever really quiet when you need distraction to survive.”

3. Crush

“Can you read my mind? I’ve been watching you.”

4. Guilty As Sin?

“Am I bad, or mad, or wise? What if he’s written ‘mine’ on my upper thigh only in my mind? One slip and fall back into the hedge maze, oh what a way to die.”

5. Wall Of Sound

“Every time I try talking myself backwards away from my desires, something inside stops me. Tell me that you love me. Tell me that you need me.”

6. Scared Of My Guitar

“Perfect, easy, so good to me. So why’s there a pit in my gut in the shape of you? Distract myself, say it’s something else. Maybe I’m just overwhelmed, maybe I’m confused.”

7. Bad Omens

“I kiss you on your neck, you were staring at the ceiling. I should’ve known right then and there you were a runaway. Oh, just make it go away. Can you help me rearrange it? I’m still making sense of having nothing left to save.”

8. Waiting Room

“When broken bodies are washed ashore, who am I to ask for more? But you’re breathing in my open mouth, you’re the gun to my lips that will blow my brains out. She’ll be the best you ever had if you let her. I know it’s for the better.”

9. The Hill I Die On

“You cannot be the hill that I die on. I don’t know much and I know that by now. I cannot keep leaving the light on, thinking I’m gonna figure this out.”

10. Pushing It Down And Praying

“I want you to need me, I need to want something more. He gives what he can, but I don’t know what he’s giving for. Softer, harder, in between. You know just how to get to me. He is stable, you are deep. I know just how to get what I need. I wanna feel guilty. I wanna know that it’s wrong. I wanna know peace again, wanna be singing a different song.”

11. The Way That I Am

“Someone will love me the way that I am, the curves of my body and both calloused hands. Speak to me softly and stand where I stand. Someone will hold me with all that they can. I’m not falling behind by waiting for them.”

12. I’m Still Your Boy

“I’m sat in your driveway, but I can’t go in. I wish I was younger so I knew the end. I’d move to Orlando, and I’d be your friend. I tore you apart to put me back again. It was alright before I got angry. I’m still your boy.”

13. End Of August

“Everything you see out here will die, it’s a matter of time till it’s fields of ice and reflector lights, till it’s our town. And anything you need, I will provide.”

14. I’ll Find You

“Puppet shadow posters on the ceiling, pulling the blanket over our heads. Tattoos of some foreign constellation, stealing kisses off the back of your neck. You don’t ever have to worry. In no hurry, don’t look back. In a dark crowded room through a million places, I’ll find you.”

15. Promises