mena

carrie’s hair constantly being stuck on her partner’s clothes or on their hair

i hope you’re having a wonderful day. if not, you can sit here with me for a while. tell me everything.

maybe i do take up too much space. maybe i am overbearing and clingy. maybe being alone for the rest of my life is what i deserve. all i ask is what i did to deserve this?

sometimes i wonder if people just choose to be my friend to make themselves feel better. in comparison they’re smaller, skinner, prettier, funnier, etc. i thought i was pretty and witty in my own way but now i’m not so sure. what if i do act like i know everything? what if something is wrong with me?

unfortunately i do think my life would be easier if i was just skinnier

why would you ignore a beautiful kind loving kind graceful lady such as myself? i am wasting away without you

“where the hoes at” you’re asking me? i, who has yearned for the same man for months? this lady in question who has purposefully crafted instagram stories for said man? no i do not know where the hoes are at.

i never understand how my feelings are always unrequited. what is a soulmate if not a friend you come to know and forge into someone you want to spend the rest of your life loving? why is everyone hung up on finding their perfect match? no one out there is exactly your missing piece. your missing piece is someone who needs you to build themselves into a soulmate.

i wanna show him all the things that make me, well, me. all the films that make me cry, laugh, smile, and think deeply. all the music i like to dance to, sing to, slow dance to. all the photos i take; random ones, portraits, stupid candids. just so he can get a glimpse into who i am.

i just, i really like how his smile reaches his eyes and how his nose scrunches up the slightest bit. he’s so pretty i’m gonna throw up